- Monday Jul 26, 2004
The scale is just crazy! I ate very well yesterday, got plenty of exercise and water, and was a full 2 pounds heavier this morning than I was a couple of days ago. THere's no reason for the weight gain that I can see. And I'm bloated, too! So I must be retaining water. I'm wondering if it's due to the 16 pills I'm taking every day for my tonsilitis.
The doctor here said that is what I have...but who knows. He looked at my throat for a whole 3 seconds and then gave me a load of pills to take. I have no idea what kinds of pills they are, and it's too much work to try to figure it out since everything is written in Chinese. But I got a little peeved this morning when I saw the weight gain, because I don't feel like I deserve it. Man, I know when I goof up, and I haven't goofed up badly in awhile.
On another note...
a few people I work with want me to help them lose weight. When they heard that I lost 40 pounds, they were so impressed...because they have only known me as a "thin" person. So, actually, my boss wants me to help some of the Chinese workers lose weight in a healthy manner. Since the Chinese are usually clueless about proper weight loss, this will be a challenge! I mean, I'm basically going to have to tell these men and women that the majority of the foods they eat are NOT going to aid them in weight loss. ("Sorry, man, no more fried rice for you!") :)
Well, I'm up to the challenge! I like helping people get healthy and lose weight! But with the cultural differences, slight language barriers, and the lack of low-fat foods here, it's going to be a challenge!! Just cooking for myself is a challenge...and now I'm supposed to give advice to men and women who don't have the first clue as to what "low fat" is? Really...I have my work cut out for me!
- Sunday Jul 25, 2004
I was sick this weekend, so I didn't feel like eating much...until last night, when I decided to make homemade oatmeal cream pies. I found a recipe on the Internet, and I happened to have all the ingredients...they turned out great, but I ate several of them before the night was over! Ah, well. Today is a new day! I'm still feeling a bit "under the weather," but I'm on a bunch of antibiotics, so I should be better soon. I still managed to run yesterday morning when I had a fever. I felt pretty weak, but I ran for 30 minutes and biked for 20. After awhile, the endorphins kicked in, and I just ignored the fact that my legs felt weak and my skin was all prickly.
- Friday Jul 23, 2004
Well, today I'll try not to rant and rave as much...even though I just had lunch out with some friends at a Chinese restaurant and everything was GREASY! I tried to go easy, though...but I'm sure I reek of garlic!
I wanted to avoid going out, but I really didn't have a choice today. Thankfully, it's almost the weekend, and for once, we have nothing big planned. So I hope to relax, eat my own food, and go swimming.
I'm trying to decide if I want to do another half-marathon in October. If I do it, I'll need to start training more in a few weeks. I'm just not sure my body is up to it. I did 3 half-marathons in the span of 6 months last year, and I think it took a toll on my body. I can still run easily, but I have to stretch more now and I'm just sore more often than I've ever been before.
Old age. Ugh! I think I hit my "peak" in running when I was about 25. Now that I'm closer to 30 than 20, I can feel my body saying, "Stop!" more often! But I have incredible willpower. I can still run for 50 minutes even if my whole body is aching and crying out. Now, if only I could use that same willpower to keep me away from eating certain foods...
- Thursday Jul 22, 2004
Doing okay...although I found myself doing a bit of "mindless eating" last night before bedtime.
I feel like ranting and raving a bit about the lack of low-fat products here. It's not like I live in the middle of nowhere. I live in a huge, cosmopolitan city. But we're about 10 years behind the health food craze in the States. So low-fat products are just starting to make an entrance...and they're very expensive!
One thing that bugs me is how the Chinese think that their diet is so healthy. Even their high school textbooks proclaim the Chinese diet as the "healthiest in the world." I disagree! They need a serious wake-up call! It's only a matter of time until their country is suffering from high obesity rates...they're definitely on their way! In fact, China is starting to deal with an alarming rate of child obesity...of course, they blame it all on McDonald's and a higher standard of living.
Just because they don't eat a lot of sugar doesn't mean they're healthy! In the night markets and most restaurants, 90% of the food is fried and fatty. They do eat fruits and veggies, but I think they way overdo it on starches and fatty meats. How can eating pork fat and deep fried chicken thighs be superhealthy? It's not.
So sometimes my American patriotism rears its head when I get into a discussion about diet with the Chinese people. Yes, America does have a serious problem with obesity. But many people are trying to fight it...and I know plenty of Americans who eat healthy!
Yes, we Americans could learn some things from the Chinese. We SHOULD eat more veggies and fruits. We SHOULD eat less. But THEY could learn a few things from US, too!
For example: 1. Cooking spray can be used instead of vegetable oil when frying.
2. Grilled hicken breast is a healthy alternative to deep fried chicken legs or thighs. (They don't think chicken breast tastes as good as the legs or thighs...so they don't eat it!)
3. Boiling veggies is better for you than frying them.
4. Desserts should be made with less LARD. In fact, cut out the lard completely! (That's basically all they use...pure trans fat)
5. Bread products shouldn't reek of butter...c'mon, where's the healthy whole wheat? (It's not available, period)
6. Has anyone ever heard of frozen yogurt? Man, what I would do for some really good Edy's frozen yogurt!
7. It would be nice to have more than one Diet pop to choose from...Diet Coke gets a little boring!
okay, I'll stop here. :) I really love living in Asia, but sometimes the food thing really gets to me! I know Geevee has been there...and Borntocry deals with similar issues in France.
Even though America has high obesity rates, at least they have plenty of variety in their food!
- Wednesday Jul 21, 2004
Had a great dim sum meal last night, but I'm glad that is an occasional treat.
I went out for lunch today but stuck to a low-cal salad and a few bites of yogurt. (I even brought my own fat-free dressing that my mom sends me from the States). Then I ran home quickly and had a protein shake and an apple. I should have called it quits, since I was full by that time, but I had packed some Dr. Soy protein bars that I absolutely LOVE as a snack for later...and ended up eating one of them for lunch. So now I don't want to eat another snack this afternoon, but I don't know if I'll need one before dinnertime. I am in the bad habit of eating midafternoon snacks...I guess it's not a bad habit, if I keep them under 200 calories. I went though a time last year when I would consume up to 500 calories in snacks. I've done better this year, but it's still hard not to snack if the food is THERE. SO it is usually best if I just pack what I need for the day and don't let myself keep snacks in my desk. Otherwise, I just want to eat them! If food is around, I have a hard time not eating it.
I like Borntocry's goals for eating...I do think it's important to eat when you're hungry and not to just eat because it's "time to eat." I've tried to do that as well, and it's helped me get out of the rut of always eating just because everyone else is or because it's "mealtime." One book I read last year is all about eating only when you're hungry and stopping even when you're not totally full. There is definitely some truth in that! Our bodies can easily signal to us when we're hungry...but my brain often wants to tell me that I'm hungry even when I'm not!
My problem is that I often overeat, not knowing that I'm actually full. Then, about 30 minutes later, I feel FULL. I wish I got "fuller" faster. But it helps to slow down when I eat. I'm learning...I've come a long way.
- Monday Jul 19, 2004
Well, overall, I had a great birthday! My creative husband organized a little dessert bar for me at work...and my coworkers loved it! There's a popular dessert here called "bings," and it's basiclly shaved ice with all sorts of toppings on it. The Chinese prefer things like red beans on top of their bings, but we Americans like all the sweet stuff---fruit, candies, jellies, syrups. So my husband had about 8 different toppings, and everyone got to make their own bings! It was very yummy...and although it was low-fat (no calories in ice, right?), I had plenty of empty sugar calories!
But since I didn't go out to eat or have a birthday cake made for me, I thoroughly enjoyed my bing!
I thought that would be my big treat for the day and I was planning to have a low-cal supper after I lifted weights, but my husband threw me for a loop when I got home.
Usually, he doesn't bother to buy me food, since he knows I can be picky and tense around food that I don't choose. But he thought I needed some birthday cake, and he spent about $4 on two pieces of "death by chocolate" cake that he bought at an "American bakery". He also picked up some low-fat vanilla ice cream. Normally, I would have been okay with that, but I went berzerk for some reason!
I think it was because I had just consumed at least 600-800 calories in one bing (those syrupy toppings are very highly caloric), and didn't want the temptation of a heavy chocolate cake calling my name! So I went nuts. I literally went crazy for a few minutes...I was crying and accusing him of not really understanding me...if he really understood me, he wouldn't have bought the bings AND the cake...he should have known that I can't handle that many sweets in one day. So I was mad at him, but I was also mad at myself...because I felt like an idiot getting so upset over two dumb pieces of cake. (I was also mad that he spent so much money on empty calories!)
After I calmed down, I apologized to my husband, who just felt terrible. He never forces me to eat and is always so understanding...and he felt badly that he bought the cakes, since he knows that I avoid store-bought cake as much as possible. He just wanted me to have some birthday cake on my birthday.
Well, we did end up having the cakes later that night, but he ate most of it, and I had a few small bites. They weren't even very good, unfortunately. Although they were supposed to taste "American," they tasted "Chinese," which means they weren't very sweet. It's better that way, though...otherwise, I probably would have wanted to eat both pieces myself!
The rest of the night went fine, and my hubby gave me a subscription to Cooking Light, my favorite magazine. We have to pay extra to get it shipped over here, but that's okay. I enjoy reading recipes, even if I don't have most of the "light" products to use here.
So...that's my crazy story for the day. Thankfully, my weight didn't change. But I'm going out for dim sum tonight, so I'm not holding my breath that I'll stay 114 for long!
- Sunday Jul 18, 2004
It's my birthday and the scale is down a pound! That's a fun gift, especially since I'll likely enjoy some extra calories today! I'm 27 now. I've managed to keep my weight under 125 pounds now for 6 years. Wow. Weight loss can be maintained...but it sure takes a lot of discipline! I've barely touched certain foods now for 6 years---pizza, potato chips, french fries, hamburgers. The only time I enjoy these things is when I make them...so I know exactly what is in them! I've learned how to cook low-fat...I've learned how to bake without using oil. I've learned the caloric contents of almost every food I've come into contact with. (But it's a lot harder to know here in Asia!)
In some ways, I feel guitly about all the time I've spent planning my meals, exercising, and thinking about food. But on the other hand, I've never felt better about myself or healthier. When I weighed 150 pounds, I wasn't as attractive, energetic, or healthy.
So, 6 years later, I'm glad I can still fit into the clothes I was wearing at 21! I don't know how long I can maintain this weight, espeically if I get pregnant, but I'm really happy to be where I am right now!
- Saturday Jul 17, 2004
I'm back to normal! Whew! I bypassed Pizza Hut pizza yesterday, so I felt good about that. I've really lost my taste for too much unhealthy food...sometimes I crave it, but it usually doesn't taste as good as I think it will. I really like what I cook for myself much better! This is my "birthday weekend," but I'm trying to not have food be the focus. I know I'll still have a meal or two out, but I'm trying to keep everything under control. I want celebrations to consist of things besides food...so maybe my hubby and I will go out for a movie instead of going out for dinner. I'll keep you posted...
- Thursday Jul 15, 2004
Weight is still up, so maybe it's not the salty foods. Anyway...I've been making good choices this week, so I'll continue to fight those little battles and someday, it will be reflected on the scale! Yesterday, I made lunch for some students, and I served them typical American food---brats, macaroni salad, meatballs, cheesecake, chips, etc. And I didn't touch any of it, except for a couple of bites of cheesecake. They all pigged out, but I was still feeling quite bloated from the night before, so I stuck to the veggies, sugar-free jello, and made a protein shake when they all left.
They ate with total abandon.
Sometimes I just get jealous! If I have several big meals a week, I gain weight.
I walked by a toothpick thin girl this morning on my way to work, and she had stopped at the breakfast lady's stand that always smells so good. This tiny girl was ordering the typical Chinese breakfast---some sort of big fried egg tortilla. (Everything is fried here). I actually like some of the fried Chinese breakfast foods, but I never eat them. Instead, I bring my little bowl of (very expensive) high-fiber All-Bran cereal mixed with some Wheat flakes a little Special K. And I pour skim milk over it.
And then I go upstairs to the cafeteria and watch the skinny toothpick girls eat their fried foods...and sometimes I just want to eat fried foods, too!
Yes, I'm thin, too. But I eat like a thin person. They're thin, but they don't eat like thin people.
Life's not fair, I know. And many of you have had the same feelings. I just wish I didn't have to be so stinkin' careful all the time! I did indulge in a brownie yesterday, but I should be able to enjoy a brownie! For crying out loud, I run a 10K every morning, and either do tae-bo or swim or lift weights every afternoon! I deserve a brownie once in awhile!
- Thursday Jul 15, 2004
My weight is up, but I knew it would be. I'm still a bit bloated from the Mongolian BBQ dinner last night. I retain salt very easily, so I can "put on" weight quickly. Actually, I ate really well yesterday...I had a minimal amount of calories before heading into supper, and I enjoyed my meal out without pigging out. So even though I know that I'm mainly retaining water, it still is a bummer to see my weight a full 2 1/2 pounds more than what I weighed on Sunday. Ah, well. I hope I can just get back to what I was soon! I've been so disciplined lately...but as soon as I enjoy one meal out, my weight seems to go right up!