- Tuesday Jun 29, 2004
Woah. I had a serious "sweet tooth attack" last night, and I wasn't prepared for it! I fell prey to a new trigger food. I thought I knew all my "trigger foods." For example, homemade brownies are a real trigger point for me. I can't just eat one. I also have to stay away from foods like fudge or moist cakes...strange, I know. I can sit and look at a Hershey's candy bar for hours, but as soon as someone puts a bowl of carmel apple dip in front of me, I'm a goner!
Anyway, I found some Nutella here, and I bought it for my hubby, who spent some time in Europe and got hooked on the stuff! Well, I didn't think it would be a big deal to have it in the fridge, because I usually don't like hazlenut flavoring much anyway!
But Nutella tastes more like smooth, creamy chocolate, and it is really, really good. Before I knew it, I was eating it out of the jar with a spoon! Yikes! To make matters worse, I had already had some low-fat ice cream with mangoes and some small cookies for my nightly snack! After I delved into the Nutella, I mentally calculated my caloric intake and estimated at least 800 calories.
In less than 15 minutes, I consumed 800 calories!
It takes me 90 minutes to burn off something like that with intense exercise! I love to exercise, but that's just NOT worth it! I don't have an extra hour and a half just to burn off all the junk food I consumed!
Anyway, now that I know I can't keep Nutella in the house, I won't buy it anymore. It's great stuff, but I'm a weak woman. I can be incredibly disciplined at times, but I don't like to keep foods around that are too tempting. When I weighed almost 150 pounds, I had no qualms about giving into temptation. And that is why I weighed 150 pounds. I much prefer where I am right now!
- Tuesday Jun 29, 2004
Weight is holding steady. I've been super-busy at work lately, so I haven't spent as much time worrying about food. And I've managed to keep up the exercise, so I've felt good. I had a moment of weakness today, but I could afford it, since I didn't have much lunch. I had a good 3 tablespoons of Duncan Hines cream cheese frosting (the kind in a jar) with some animal crackers. Sounds like a crazy snack, but in a foreign country, sometimes things like that are just refreshing. Frosting from a jar. Animal crackers. I was really craving it!
- Sunday Jun 27, 2004
I think my weight is back to normal. Had a great vacation, and didn't overeat. In fact, sometimes it's easier to go on vacation because I'm not home to snack on the tempting goodies in my cupboards! I'm afraid that I'm going to gain a few extra pounds, though, because I've been put on some pills that often cause some weight gain. When I went off birth control, I lost the five pounds that had caused me so much stress for so many months! And now I'm headed back in that direction if I'm not careful. I'm so determined not to let the extra weight creep back on, but sometimes there's nothing I can do about it. It's just frustrating! My husband knows how much I hated being on birth control, and even though we're not ready for kids yet, I'd rather take the chance than go back on that stuff!
- Thursday Jun 24, 2004
Those sweet binges caught up with me. Bummer! Plus, it's my anniversary weekend, so I am a bit discouraged going into it being up two pounds than what I was at the beginning of the week. My husband has a surprise get-away planned...so I know I'll have at least two meals out, and I really want to enjoy them. When I do enjoy a meal, though (and that only means eating what any normal person would eat), I always pay for it later.
I get so tired of packing my protein bars and hard boiled eggs when we go away. Sometimes I just want to eat, eat, eat. I still consume about 1800 calories every day, but I like to use vacations as an excuse to pig out. But if I do, I always pay for it later.
Well, food aside, I'm looking forward to a good weekend! I have a hunch we're going to a beach resort...which will be a great get-away! The big city starts wearing on me after awhile.
- Wednesday Jun 23, 2004
I stayed away from the sugar and desserts yesterday. Small accomplishment, but it's something! And I felt much better, even though I ate a big bowl of cereal before bedtime and consumed probably 400 calories in one sitting. Ah, well. I love cereal. At least it's better for me than pure sugar! (I hope!)
- Tuesday Jun 22, 2004
Last night was a bad night. I was invited to a "desserts only" birthday party, and even though I managed to stay away from the majority of the desserts, I had far too much of the cake that I made! Go figure. Sure, it was low-fat and soooo delicious. But the frosting was basically pure powdered sugar, and I had way too many empty calories! It's been a long time since I've had so much sugar, and I felt really ill afterwards. I probably had up to 4 pieces of cake, since I cleaned out the pan afterward. (That's one of my worst habits...eating all the "extras" that are left over).
Anyway, I will pay for the binge...I always do in some way, shape or form. Maybe the scale doesn't reflect the extra calories right away, but it will at some point if I continue such ridiculous behavior.
I feel much better this morning and am off on the right track, but I want to stay far away from the sugar. It's too powerful.
- Sunday Jun 20, 2004
Overall, it was a good weekend. I baked like a madwoman yesterday for the bake sale, but I was with a friend, so I wasn't able to just sample the treats at my own whims! Of course, I was far from perfect yesterday...my pastor's wife had made my favorite chocolate chip cake for lunch, so I had a good sized piece of that! And I enjoyed very small bites of the treats that we made. But I hardly had any lunch or dinner, so basically, I used up my calories on sweets. Not good, I know. But today is a new day and we're selling all those treats so they'll be out-of-my-sight!
- Thursday Jun 17, 2004
Thanks for the comments, friends! Geevee, I just love it that you know what it's like to live in an Asian country! I could so relate to your comment! Sometimes I just crave things like turkey lunchmeat, fat free yogurt, and a big salad! Oh, man!
Well, I am definitely bloated today...weight is actually up two pounds, but I'm figuring at least one pound of it is sodium retention! :) As if I didn't eat enough salt at lunch, I managed to knock off a big bowl of low-fat popcorn, which I sprinkled with plenty of salt before bedtime. So I'm feeling a bit bigger than normal today!
I'm hoping for a disciplined weekend. We're having a bake sale on Monday, and I am in charge of making a number of the desserts.
Ugh. I'm so bloated!
- Thursday Jun 17, 2004
Just when I thought I could get back on track, some of my students insisted on taking me out for Cantonese food. Here in Asia, Chinese try to impress their guests by ordering tons of food...and they even plunk food down on your plate before you can refuse. (If you refuse, they do it anyway!) So instead of my nice, low-fat lunch, I had a delicious, fattening lunch. I didn't overeat, but I know I still consumed a ton of calories because almost everything is pan-fried or drenched in some oily sauce.
Ugh. I love the fellowship, and I'm so overwhelmed with their kindness towards me, but it's almost impossible to eat healthy in some of the restaurants here. Ah, well. Such is life! I'm just ready for a break from big meals.
- Wednesday Jun 16, 2004
Whew! I made it through the 3 parties in less than 24 hours! And I did well! I was soooo busy making all the food that I hardly had time to eat anything! And before I knew it, all the fattening food was almost gone! Wahoo! :) You can't eat what isn't there, right? I did have some tasteless Chinese cake today that was a real waste of calories, but I just felt like eating something around 3pm at the 3rd party because I was tired of behaving so well! :)
I plan to relax tonight. No more cooking or baking. I think I'll sit in a hot tub and read a book or something.