- Tuesday Nov 18, 2003
Yesterday was a good day. I stayed away from candy. Whew! Let's see if I can do it again today.
So check back tomorrow...
- Monday Nov 17, 2003
A pound up today. All my discipline just flew out the window yesterday. I ended up eating too much candy, peanut butter, and junk. Junk, junk, junk. Why do I feed my body junk? I eat so many veggies and lean protein, but I somehow find excuses to eat candy and other sweet stuff. Those of you reading my entries probably get tired of seeing the same things over and over again. I admire those of you who have made so much progress. I feel like I have made progress in many ways, but I still am so weak.
It's time to get serious. I just don't think I have wanted to be serious about it yet. Even though I may SOUND serious, I often lose my discipline around 3:00pm. And then my brain rationalizes that I can afford to eat the candy...
but the scale tells me differently!
Anyway, my goal is to have a good day today. One day at a time. No candy. Only fruit for sweets. I CAN do this. I will survive if I don't eat sugar! And I'll feel better, too!
- Sunday Nov 16, 2003
The race is over! It was definitely the hardest race I've ever run...about 7K was straight uphill...ugh! It took a lot out of me, but I ended up placing 5th for women overall, and that made me feel really good! I'm just thankful I finished!
Anyway, I need to take a break from running for awhile...at least I need to just run for 30 minutes and not an hour. It's wearing me out. But if I do that, I'll have to cut back a couple hundred calories a day. That's okay. I want to be better disciplined with my eating anyway. I'm tired of using the excuse, "well, I burned a lot of calories today," as a way to eat whatever I want.
I need to cut back on sweets. Period.
- Thursday Nov 13, 2003
According to the scale, I lost a pound! Wow! I did pretty well yesterday. I had a calorie-laden milk tea in the afternoon, but other than that, I made smart choices. (I didn't know the tea was calorie-laden until after I drank it. It was given to me, so I felt like I shouldn't refuse it. Now that I know it's just a bunch of empty calories, I'll be smarter next time).
Thanks to those who left comments! I'll try to get Dr. Phil's book, although it will be hard to find here. Maybe I can purchase it online...
My race is Sunday! I hope I'm ready. I was feeling a bit of pain in my shin yesterday...bad timing! Usually my body is pain-free. I just want to do well. There will be several hundred world-class runners there and over 20,000 runners total. I'm sure I'll be inspired! :)
- Wednesday Nov 12, 2003
Well, I stayed away from candy yesterday. Yea! But I overdid it on peanut butter and some frosting. (still sugar) It was low-fat frosting, but that's beside the point. For some reason, I take pleasure in overeating at least one food a day. It may be peanut butter, candy, or ice cream, but it's never a vegetable or fruit. It's almost always a carb. And an unhealthy carb. I've realized that I take in an extra 500-700 calories every day when I "over-do it." And I may be running 6 miles a day, but it isn't keeping me from gaining weight, slowly but surely. If I could just cut out those "snack times" when I feel like I lose control, I wouldn't feel so pressured to run every day to counteract my sweet tooth.
I want to be more disciplined during my snack times. I eat three very healthy meals a day...my word,I love veggies! My dinner is ALWAYS a bunch of veggies with lean protein and a healthy carb. But I either lose it in the late afternoon or before bed. I do stupid things like eat peanut butter out of the jar with a spoon.
So I got rid of the peanut butter last night. That's my first step. I avoided candy. That's another step. But I need to stop getting pleasure from "secretly indulging" in my so-called "comfort foods."
Why do I do this? I have no idea. I can't think of any psychological reason why I would find comfort in food. My hubby doesn't do this. He just eats when the food is there and stops when he is full. He doesn't dream about food, think about food, and eat frosting straight out of the jar!
This is a blunt entry, but at least I'm being honest.
- Monday Nov 10, 2003
My race is this weekend...so I'm praying my body holds up and I don't do something silly like sprain my ankle before Sunday. I've run a 25K before, but never in such hot weather and hilly terrain. So I know this will be a workout!
I'm doing okay eating-wise in some areas...but I ate too much candy yesterday. A lady from the States brought my husband and me some Milky Way Dark bars...yum! I haven't had those in a long time. Sometimes I just crave a good candy bar. But after I ate half the candy bar, I wanted a small Butterfinger bar...and then some candy corns.
And it's a never-ending cycle. Some of you have encouraged me to give up sugar altogether because you know how hard it is to stop once you start eating it.
Thanks for your encouragement. I'm tired of being so addicted to sugar. I don't know if I can stop completely, but I think I'm willing to try.
- Sunday Nov 09, 2003
WEll, I made it through the three-day work trip, and I think I ate pretty well! In fact, I think I lost a pound! I'll find out tomorrow. One good thing was that I hardly snacked at all. Instead, I just ate regular meals...so that probably cut out a few hundred calories!
I bypassed the ice cream and other tasty goodies at a luncheon today...one small step, but it felt good to actually say "no" for once!
- Tuesday Nov 04, 2003
I only had one brownie for lunch today. But I have about 4 left, and I should just get rid of them. Why is it so hard to get rid of food? It's just FOOD, for crying out loud!
My husband and I are traveling for the next five days...that means a lot of eating out (with co-workers and stuff). Usually I do okay...and my big race is next weekend, so I can always use the excuse that I need to watch my diet during these last few training days.
- Monday Nov 03, 2003
I had three fudge brownies for lunch today.
They were left over from the costume party I had on Saturday.
Man, were they good. But one would have been sufficient, you know?
My sugar cravings are so out-of-control sometimes!!
- Wednesday Oct 29, 2003
Yesterday I made a big list of my food frustrations, my motivations for losing a couple of pounds, my strategies, my goals, and my favorite tips from dieters. I even shared the list with my husband, who is so supportive. Anyway, even with all that, I lost some self-control at lunch and ate some candy corns and half a Snickers bar. Did I need that? No.
Do I know what candy tastes like?
You'd better believe it! Am I a better person because I consumed all that extra sugar and calories?
Did it help me in any way?
Will I learn how to refuse the temptation to eat junk?
I liked CurlsnCuffs comments on my entry yesterday. What a woman! What discipline! I did manage to say "no" to several things yesterday...so I am making progress. However, I say "Yes" way too often. And it's only because I'm running 6 miles a day that I can keep my weight fairly stable. If I stopped exercising at the pace I am right now, I'd be in big trouble. SO...I need to form good habits now. Because I may not always be training for a big race. My body may need a break. And I don't like losing control, anyway. It makes me feel weak.