- Saturday Apr 19, 2003
Okay, I'm a bit frustrated now...I like my in-laws, but they love to eat too much. They snack and snack and snack...and they are skinny people! It's totally not fair. I know what would happen if I ate like they do...I've been there! And I gained 30 pounds. I exercise religiously and still have to watch what I eat. It wouldn't be so bad if I could just eat on my own once in awhile...they're all still at the breakfast table, and they've been there for an hour!!!!!!!! I'm waiting until they leave so I can eat my own cereal in peace...and not be tempted by all the other goodies they've brought out.
- Friday Apr 18, 2003
Well, I'm at my in-laws place, and things are going fine so far! Since I'm not at home, I don't feel quite as comfortable raiding the cupboards...so that's a good thing! IT means I can't snack as much! Therefore, I'm able to enjoy things like a scoop of ice cream, because I usually overindulge when I'm at home and feeling bored. Thanks for the Oreo tip, Biscottibody! I like FF whipped cream, too, so that should be a good snack!
- Thursday Apr 17, 2003
Well, the Easter weekend begins tonight as my hubby and I fly to his parents' place! I'm excited to go...hope I can focus on the important aspects of Easter...like Christ's resurrection, and not on the food! I hate it how I focus so much on the food. For example, I had to spend about 1/2 hour last night just packing lunches, dinner (so we don't have to worry about eating junk in an airport), my own high-fiber cereal, healthy snacks, etc. And we're only going for 3 1/2 days! But I flip out if I go somewhere and feel like I can't eat anything!!! SO I always take along my own snacks and cereal...just in case! I know that is smart planning, but I feel like I spend so much time planning, planning, planning. Some people never think about food...I can't seem to stop thinking about food, and what meal is next, and what I've prepared, etc. Yikes. Still no weight loss, but I'm not going overboard on my nightly snacks like I used to. I made an ice cream sundae for my husband last night and only ate a bite of it. Had some cereal instead.
- Wednesday Apr 16, 2003
Well, after a depressing two days with my weight, I've decided to have a better attitude about it. I still don't know how I could have put on almost two pounds in two days, but my body does weird things. I just have to accept that! :) I am a bit nervous about this weekend. There's going to be food everywhere, birthday parties, Easter dinner, etc. I just need to continue to pray for self-control. I've rarely shown restraint at family get-togethers, but I've never really had to...until I turned 25, that is! Now I eat an extra 500 calories, and my weight goes up! It's crazy. Ah, well...I'm still eating, of course, but I just have to be a bit more careful. Good news---I haven't had a "peanut butter attack" in a couple of weeks! In fact, I haven't even been craving it!!!!!!!
- Tuesday Apr 15, 2003
You'd think after a discouraging morning that I'd be able to resist the sweets that come my way. Well, thanks to reverse psychology,I just had an extra 300 calories of processed snacks that my students brought in for their speeches. I don't even LIKE those fake Little Debbie brownies! But I ate half of one anyway...hello, 6 grams of fat and 135 calories!!!!!!!!! Okay, now that I got that out of my system, I'm ready to keep teaching! :)
- Tuesday Apr 15, 2003
This is a somewhat discouraging entry---just to caution you. I have this theory...maybe I'm totally off, but I think I am prone to "stress fat," or "stress weight." Why? Because I was on spring break all last week and was an average of 1 and 1/2 pounds lighter than I am this week. I mean, I had ice cream, prime rib, and other fattening foods, and still weighed in at 116.5. Now that I am back to work, I feel anxious again about food, weight, and life in general. I really love my job...I was born to teach, I think! But I find that the weight creeps back on because I think I eat more when I'm stressed. I made a really low-fat (but calorie-full) Oreo pie last night and had a few too many Oreos myself. Although I made the pie to give away, I had to set aside a portion for myself...and I think I had over 2000 calories total yesterday. But I also worked out for a good 1 1/2 hours, and even did a toning video for 40 minutes! I just can't figure my body out. I wish I weren't so anxious about the creeping numbers on the scale...but I was hoping to go into this weekend (which will be filled with food) with a "calorie deficit," as my nutritionist calls it. Hmmmmmmm....I guess I'm just a bit discouraged since I did so well last week, and now I'm back to what I was before my break.
- Monday Apr 14, 2003
Quick (but good) confession---my mom and I made all those chocolate chip cookies on Saturday to freeze so I could put them in my freezer until the bridal shower. Well, I didn't think that I'd be able to keep them in my freezer for two weeks without eating them...they are WAY too tempting! SO, I conveniently "forgot" to take them back with me when I left home. My sister can bring them. I don't want to deal with the fact that I have fattening cookies in my house, because it's things like that that trip me up. So, anyway, it's a confession, but one that I don't mind making!
- Monday Apr 14, 2003
WEll, even though I managed to keep my calories low last night, I had a BIG Sunday dinner at home...and my weight is up a bit. But it's always up on Mondays for some reason. This warmer weather helps me take my focus off of food, though. I always feel like eating more during the winter-time, so I'm glad spring has sprung!
- Saturday Apr 12, 2003
I'm home now...and decided to bake some cookies with my mom to freeze for a bridal shower I'm planning in 2 weeks...had 2 cookies when I could sneak them...felt guilty that I was back to my old tricks. She served a killer dessert tonight, too. It's so much harder to be so disciplined when I'm home. Home is usually associated with good food...and all the psychological stuff that goes along with it! I love being home, but it's so hard to say no...and everyone just assumes that I need to eat more anyway! I DO eat...I'm just trying not to binge-eat! Had to get my thoughts out.
- Saturday Apr 12, 2003
Well, I'm still at 116.5 pounds...thankfully, the prime rib didn't kill me! I had a great day yesterday...kept the calories to around 1800, I think. Plus, I made a shrimp dinner with Indian-tandoori marinade. Yum! Headed to my parents' tonight and tomorrow...my mom will try to feed me well, that's for sure! Thankfully, she's a pretty healthy eater, although the amount of food I'm eating is what I need to be aware of.