- Wednesday Mar 20, 2002
Happy Spring, everybody!! It's finally here. The sun is shining today with the temps going to 76, goody, goody! I hope things are nice where ever you are. So far this morning, I've done my exercise on the treadmill, added some inclines today for a tougher workout. The last 2 days, I just walked outside with the hubby, which was nice. But I don't feel I get as good a workout when walking with him, we walk a little slower. At least the weight is going down again. I plan on keeping that up.
Yesterday we had dinner out at Macayo's, the Mexican restaurant, and I didn't do too badly, could have been better, but I really enjoyed it. I'm not going to avoid these kinds of things, just try not to do too badly. I would still like to lose as much weight as I can before the Hawaii trip but I'm not going to stress over it. I bought Bob Greene's new book "Get With the Program", that I saw on Oprah's show last week but haven't even opened it yet. I thought maybe I needed a little help. We'll see how it goes. Just have to find time to do some reading. I'm still not caught up with all the entries here. As soon as I get done here, I'm going out for a little shopping so I will have a busy day today.
Okay, gotta get going now. You all take care and have a great day! PS--forgot to mention, the Heart Walk Saturday was a lot of fun, about 3 miles. They had lots of free things and Subway sandwiches afterward. I'd like to get in some other walks this year.
- Tuesday Mar 19, 2002
Hey, everybody! I'm still struggling along. Just haven't taken the time to get on here. So busy. Didn't weigh today but it's probably just what it says here. I'm exercising but the food part isn't so good. Not really bad either but could be better. We're going out with Mom to meet one of her old buddies from work for dinner at a Mexican food restaurant, that can't be too good, hahaha. But I'll try not to make a pig of myself.
Gonna go read some of your entries now, I haven't been able to lately. So far behind. I hope you're all doing great.
- Wednesday Mar 13, 2002
What a day so far! It seems one minute I'm feeling up, the next, way down! And it's not even 10:00 here yet. Here's my day so far---I woke up before 6am, my clock was set for 6:30. I tried to catch a few more minutes but was awake when my radio came on. Then I lay there, petting the cat, debating whether to get up or just go back to sleep and forget walking today. I got up. Then I got on the scale. Up half a pound. Thinking of going back to bed again, what's the use? Pull the covers over my head for the day. Inside I'm screaming "why am I doing this?" Got dressed, did the 3 miles. By the time I was finished showering, my stomach was growling and it was only 8:30! I usually eat breakfast at 9 with Regis and Kelly. I couldn't wait, fixed breakfast, knowing I'd be hungry again before noon. Last night I'd decided to not go to the gym anymore, it didn't seem to be doing me any good, at least in my mind. But now I'm planning on going today. I don't think I'll do the walk around the track though, did enough walking this morning. It's so far to drive, 12 miles. So I'll go to the mall first, right next to the gym, and get that top I didn't buy the other day. White with big red flowers, would be good to wear in Hawaii. Okay, now I feel better, hahaha. Then I need to stop at Wal-Mart for a few groceries. I'm telling you, I have to really force myself to get out of the house today. I just want to cover up and take a nap. At least while I'm sleeping, I'm not eating. Plan on having a WW Smart Ones for lunch when I get home. Salad with FF Italian, I guess. Maybe I'll take a nap this afternoon. I always say that in the morning but usually don't. But I've been going to bed at night just after 9. Ho hum. Well, that's my day so far. The whole time I'm on the treadmill, I'm debating whether to go on or give up. I hate being at this weight, I'm so fat! And I'm having a hard time lately with "growing old gracefully" but that's a whole other story. Going to get ready for the gym now. I'll keep doing what I can, I guess. I'm trying very hard not to think too much about that "scale number". But I do feel fat too so I can't avoid the truth. Thank you all so much for all the great comments. Some of you have more faith in me than I do, hahaha. Bye for now.
- Tuesday Mar 12, 2002
I was just overwhelmed with all the sweet comments yesterday, you guys are the greatest!! You made me feel so much better! Also, if you watched Oprah yesterday, as I did, you saw someone who gave you so much inspiration! She really made me feel very bad for giving in to those lazy feelings that I have lately. I can't imagine going through what she has and being so strong! If you didn't see it, the show was about a courageous woman who was burned over 82% of her body at the WTC on 9/11. It really made me see my so-called problems in perspective. So I did 3 miles on the treadmill this morning for the first time in over a week. Yeah, me! I just felt bad for feeling so down yesterday when my life is so good.
I didn't have a good day yesterday. I gave in to the feelings and had a piggy lunch, even after going to my Weight Watchers meeting. So I will do better today. After all, the DD members are watching, right? So I was up a half pound this morning. You play, you pay!
Okay, going to go read some entries now. Hope you're all doing great today. Take care and thanks for listening.
- Monday Mar 11, 2002
Good morning, everyone! I'm still struggling here. Did okay over the weekend, at least I weigh the same this morning as yesterday morning. I did well on Saturday, don't know why the weight went up but I guess it's just the way the scale treats me, ya know? Although, I didn't exercise all weekend, maybe that's the reason. We had the fish fry yesterday, I did okay. I had lots of salad, a few small pieces of fried fish, one Grand biscuit and a very small piece of German chocolate cake (why the heck didn't I make a diet dessert?!!) Anyways, I sent the rest of the cake home with my sister & BIL. In case you're not familiar with things here, my husband is an avid fisherman, in fact, that's where he is now, so we have to have a family fish fry once in awhile to eat all the fish we have.
So today I've just done the 2 miles on the treadmill. I'm really struggling just to do that much. I've got my Weight Watchers meeting this afternoon but I don't think I'll go to the gym. I had planned on it but I just feel so down today, might be all the news today, the 6 month anniversary of 9/11 and all. I not using that for an excuse, I'm just going to go easy on myself today. It's such a hassle to go to the meeting and then to the gym and fit some lunch in there too. I'm just not up to it today. I'll tell you, it was all I could do this morning just to get up early and get on that treadmill. As you know, when my hubby is gone fishing all day, I just want to cheat, cheat, cheat (on the diet, that is, not him, hehe). Judge me, if you will, I must be honest here. I know this behavior is very childish but I have a hard time fighting it. So far, so good.
I need to thank you all for all your sweet comments. Although, I do feel bad since you all think I'm doing so well and I don't think I really am. After all, I was down quite a lot more than this in weight months ago. I just don't feel that I should take credit for losing weight that I gained back again. And I am really struggling to do it. I just don't feel like I am doing that well. But thanks anyway. I'll try to do better, I think of you all so often, especially when I'm trying to decide whether to take the day off and cheat or to stick with it and try harder.
Well, I'm going to go read some entries now. I didn't get on here all weekend so I have to get caught up. I hope you all have a great day. Buh-bye!
- Saturday Mar 09, 2002
WooHoo!! Like I said, the weight is just melting off, hehehe! I know this won't keep up though. But I'm glad to be back down some. I was very good again yesterday, it wasn't that hard either. I think I have my determination back! I ate even less points than my minimum amount, that doesn't happen often, haha. I had my 2 miles on the treadmill, went to the gym for about an hour, walking another mile on the track and lifting weights, and had plenty of water. Hope I can keep this up. Why is it, we don't have much faith in ourselves? Just one day at a time, I guess.
Well, gotta go get some work done, laundry, vaccuuming, watching the shows I taped this week. I forgot to tell you, I'm walking in the Heart Walk next Saturday. I think it's only about 3 miles, should be fun. Hubby and sister are walking too. We're having a fish fry tomorrow, I must be good. Mom's making a big salad, I'll scarf on that mostly. Okay, you all have a good one. Thanks for the comments and thanks, JellyBelly, for the links, I've already been to Getting2Goal many times. She's done great. Buh-bye!
- Friday Mar 08, 2002
Hey, the weight is just melting off, hehehe! Really, I know, it's just water weight, right? Oh, well. 150 seems so far away though.
It's nice and sunny here today, only going to 65 though. Then back in the 70's tomorrow. I'm going out to the gym later and I need to do a little shopping. I still have that "I want to just go back to bed" feeling though. I did get up and walk 2 miles on the treadmill. It seems so hard lately just to do the 2 miles, don't know why. I don't even want to start but I tell myself it's only 2 miles and that helps. One day I may get back to that 3 miles or more, who knows? And I don't really want to go to the gym (who does?) but I know I just have to force myself and I remember how good I always feel after.
Yesterday I did very well. I didn't go out for a junk food lunch and took a 2 mile walk on the treadmill instead. When I was here, typing my entry yesterday, I had fully planned on going to McD's for a crispy chicken sandwich with fries but I resisted, thank goodness. I ate well, had my exercise and drank the required water, okay? And my reward was the 2 pound drop.
I've been spending a lot of time lately reading other people's journals on the net. I think that's really helping me. And, of course, all of you here are just terrific. I should be doing a lot of work around here though instead but I'm just in a bad funk and don't feel like doing anything worthwhile.
Okay, time to get on with it, huh? Hope you all have a great day and weekend. I'm missing Pasta and Mugg, hope they'll be back soon. I'll be back here later to read how you're all doing today. Buh-bye!
- Thursday Mar 07, 2002
Good morning, everyone! I'm still struggling here. I went out early this morning to go have blood drawn for the cholesterol check, so I had to fast, and on the drive home I had to fight with myself to not stop anywhere for a nice, fat breakfast. But I made it home okay, just had my usual breakfast with 2 extra pieces of toast. So much for cutting down on the carbs. But it was a lot less points than McD's, huh? And now I have thoughts of going out for some junky lunch. I keep thinking one more day won't hurt. WRONG!!
No walk so far since I had to leave early. The plan is to do some kind of exercise later, ho hum. We'll see. I feel like just going back to bed. You will kick me out of DD, I'm sure!!
Yesterday, when I referred to someone not giving me the support I need, I was talking about DH. The other night, when we had sister & BIL over to play cards and we bbq'd hamburgers & stuff (I also made a peach pie, what was I thinking?!), anyways, he mentioned to them how I made all kinds of plans but sure didn't stick with them! I was so embarrassed and angry, I still haven't forgiven that. I found a quote last night while reading one of the "3fatchicks" diaries, that describes the situation exactly---"If you want to support someone then do it in a serious and caring way. Teasing her about her shortcomings and inability to focus on a plan is like *exposing all of her fat secrets*. All it will make her do is hide her problem. She'll still cheat but she'll do it in her car or after everyone has gone to bed." That sums it up so well for me. That's just how I felt, like he was exposing all of my fat secrets. All that just led me to do a lot of serious thinking over the weekend (and crying) but I found some real comfort, surprisingly, in my Sunday church service and my Weight Watchers meeting Monday. They were just what I needed at that time. And, of course, all of you here, with your comments, have really made me feel a lot better. So now I just have to be strong and carry on the best I can.
The "3fatchick" girl also had something I thought was really cute and wanted to share with you, I hope she doesn't mind---scale: (skal), noun. 1.a modern torture device developed to cause mental anguish in overweight people, often with the use of an inconsistent digital display. So true, right?
Well, gotta go. Maybe I'll just go take a walk on the good ole treadmill. Heaven knows, I sure need it. How I lost that half pound from yesterday, I'll never know. But now the Fritos and Hershey's Nuggets are all gone, hahaha. I did get to the gym yesterday for a good workout so maybe that helped some. You all have a great day.
- Wednesday Mar 06, 2002
I'm baaack! Don't think I was missed though, oh, well. As you can see by the new weight, I haven't been doing well. I thought I'd finally "got it" and I worked really hard last week. But on Saturday morning when I weighed, I'd only lost half a pound! I was so disappointed I just gave up for a few days. And the one person I count on has been pretty down on me lately and I felt the pressure. But that's no excuse! I guess I should just count on myself and not worry about what anyone else thinks. So I've been thinking things over the past few days and I think I can go on now. I've found new strength in my faith and the support of my Weight Watchers meetings. I don't need anything else now.
I've cut back on my walking in the mornings, I don't know if this is a good thing or not. I think I just felt burned out from doing so much. So now I'm just walking 2 miles in the morning, if I feel like doing more some times, I will. I'm still going to the gym 3 times a week though. The big change I plan on making is really cutting back on the eating and eating more things that are better for me. I'll try to cut back on the carbs and no more eating when I'm not really hungry. More veggies too. I really, really don't want to gain all the weight back again and I'm well on my way back up there. I never thought I'd weigh this much again, ever! It's really scaring me. I'm trying not to think too much about the numbers. And it's hard not to be depressed. But that won't do me any good, right?
Well, I hope I haven't brought you all down with this, another failure to read about. I've still been coming here to read and comment. I couldn't do without you all. I'm hooked, hahaha! Have a great day!
- Friday Mar 01, 2002
Good morning, everyone! How are you all doing today? The sun is shining and going up to 72 today. And I have a busy day ahead. First this morning I did 3 miles of walking on the treadmill. Boy, this morning when the alarm went off at 6:30, I seriously thought about how nice it would be to just go back to sleep and take the day off. But I know when I do that I feel really bad for the rest of the day and that could lead to a lot of cheating. Don't want that! The weight is coming off very slowly this time. Usually, I will lose a couple of pounds in one day when I first start over but now it's a lot harder to get off. I guess that could be because I've lost these same pounds so many times before, hahaha. But I plan on having a really good weekend so I will be down some for the WW meeting on Monday. BTW, I think I forgot to tell you that I weighed 157.6 at WW last Monday! More than on my scale because it was in the afternoon with jeans and my shoes on. At home I weigh first thing in the morning, nekkid. So that's the difference. Anyways, on here I will go by my scale at home since that's what I've been doing all along. But I will tell you my WW results also.
Yesterday---27 points, 120 oz. of water, and 5 miles of walking. I did the 3 miles on the treadmill in the morning then DH and I went out for a walk in the afternoon. It was about 75 degrees with the sun shining but windy so we really enjoyed it. I had kind of thought I would have dropped more than half a pound this morning but I'll take what I can get. I know my points were a little high but I figured with all the exercise it would be okay. Sometimes I lose even when I eat more.
I feel great today, glad I got up and exercised. So I'm going to the gym in a little while and do a good workout. Then I have to go to K-Mart for a prescription and a few things. I may go into Michael's and check out the silk plants, we could use some on the patio. I don't have a green thumb so I prefer silk, heh heh. Well, you all get out there and have a great day. For those of you feeling under the weather I hope it doesn't last long. And thanks for all the comments, they really help me keep motivated. Remember....the early bird gets the worm but the second mouse gets the cheese and I like cheese better than worms--Jeff Foxworthy. Hehehe! Take care and thanks for listening.