- Thursday Sep 07, 2000
- Tuesday Sep 05, 2000
Just a quickie today. Didn't get the walk this morning. I have a rash on my arms & back so I wanted to stay home & call the doctor's office first thing so I could get in today. He thinks it's an allergic reaction to something & gave me medication. So I think I will take tomorrow off too til I see if this gets better. I'm a wuss. I guess I will drag myself to WW meeting this week with another gain. But that's what they are there for, right? I NEED HELP! I didn't do too bad on eating today, but not too good either. Talk to you later. Thanks for listening.
- Monday Sep 04, 2000
Hey, everyone. A much better day today. I braved the gym this morning, & what do you know, no one laughed at my hair, hehe. (At least, I didn't hear anyone) I thought, what the heck, I'm not going to let this stop me, & I REALLY needed it. Got 3 days to make up for the last 4 :( I'm going to try to only eat when I'm really hungry today. And fill up on water. So far it has been good. And I did workout for an hour & a half this morning. Boy, I sure did soak up those endorphins & feel really good today so far. The weather is getting better & I will probably take a good walk outside tomorrow morning. Low in the low 50's tonight. I like walking outside better than the gym & since I did the weights today, I won't do them again til Wednesday. So just a nice long walk tomorrow. Well, happy Labor Day, gang. Thanks for listening.
- Sunday Sep 03, 2000
I feel like such a failure right now. I have done very badly the last couple of days, but I felt I had to come here & confess--again! I hope I don't bring anyone down with me, you are all so up-beat & doing so well. Thank you all for your comments. It makes me feel like I do belong somewhere. Well, if you don't want to read about doom & gloom, better stop here, you are fore-warned. The doctor called me the other day & my blood tests were all good, that's a GOOD thing, but he just left me in the lurch about these headaches, so I asked him,"Should I make another appointment with the ear, nose & throat doctor?" (Maybe they are sinus headaches) & he said go ahead. Before, he didn't seem to think they were sinus. What a great help he has been! Run one test & give up, it seems. I did have 2 sinus infections this year (at least that's what the doctor said) & he just treats them with anti-biotics. The headaches get better for a couple of weeks & then come back. So, anyway, I guess I'll try him again & go from there. I'm kinda worried about feeling bad on the cruise at the end of this month. My next catastrophe was the "haircut from Hell" I got Friday. I'm very picky about my hair (I feel that's one part of my body I have some control over) I told her to cut off about 1/2 inch----I'm SCALPED, practically. My ears are sticking out & I have a poof on top of my head, I tell ya, I don't even want to go out of the house, it IS that bad! No one can even look at me, they are afraid they will hurt my feelings by laughing. I'm just avoiding the mirror & sleeping a lot, hoping it will grow by the time I wake up. Do I sound very vain? I just want to look normal, that's all. I thought of getting a wig but that would be so hot to wear right now, especially where I'm going on the cruise. When I write this it sounds so petty & vain & unimportant. Maybe I should just try to forget about it. I haven't been exercising since Friday, that's another story you don't want to hear, problems with my feet. I think they are getting better so I will plan on doing something tomorrow although I am afraid to go to the gym with this hair, I mean I really look terrible. I know I have put on a couple of pounds this weekend, that doesn't help, too many trips to McD's again. AAAhhhh, that comfort food!! I also rented some good movies so that helps keep my mind off my problems. So, I am just vegging out this weekend. Hope you all have a good one. Thanks for listening.
- Thursday Aug 31, 2000
Okay, the weigh-in wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. So I have a reprieve, maybe I can do better this week. Today wasn't too bad, although I didn't write anything down & probably went over points, I don't know. No exercise. I plan on going to the gym tomorrow to get started over, even though, right now I feel kinda crappy. These headaches are just doing me in. I have no energy. If I can drag myself there tomorrow, maybe it will help how I feel. I only have 4 weeks before my cruise, although I'm trying not to set a certain goal of weight-loss before then. Usually when I do that, I fail, then feel bad & end up gaining. Well, thanks to you all for sticking with me & giving me encouraging comments. Makes me feel like I'm not such a hopeless case, if you can believe I can do it. Y'all have a good night. Thanks for listening.
- Wednesday Aug 30, 2000
Uh oh! Weigh-in tomorrow. I'm not ready. I know my weight will be up this week big time. I've been a pig again today, just eating whatever I could find around the kitchen. While I was at the hospital waiting for my husband to get his colonoscopy, I hit the snack machines. I enjoyed it though, but it was short-lived. By the way, he has to go back to get it done again because he didn't get cleaned out enough, all the laxatives he took didn't do the job right. Poor guy. The first thing he asked me when he woke up was "Did you go get something to eat?" He was worried about me because I'm diabetic. That was so sweet. (Do I ever miss a meal? LOL) Here he was, only half concious, & he was worried about me! Boy, if I ever thought he didn't care, that has been erased. Made me feel good. So, anyway, he's fine & I'm doing terrible. No exercise, too much food. But I will go to the meeting tomorrow & face the music. It always helps me. I'll let you know how it goes, but I can tell you right now, it will be bad. Haven't heard yet from my doctor about my cholesterol or all the rest, so I have that hanging over my head, but I know that is no excuse & I will try harder from now on (haven't I heard that somewhere before?) Talk to you tomorrow. Thanks for listening.
- Tuesday Aug 29, 2000
I wasn't even going to write today, but here I am. I guess I just can't stay away. And I guess I have to confess. I don't even need to tell you what I did this morning, AGAIN! That's all, no more. NEVER AGAIN!! RRiiight. Well, I can try, can't I? I didn't even go to the gym again this morning, headache again. It was nice to sleep in too. Just so I don't get in the habit of it. Can't go tomorrow, my hubby's colonoscopy, so I will be with him at the hospital to drive him home. Too bad I'm not having one too, he's been on a liquid diet all day today & maybe I could use that to drop what I've gained this week. Well, maybe tomorrow will be better. I'm so glad we have so many people here at DD now. I look forward everyday to hearing how everyone is doing. Ya'll keep up the good work, hear? Thanks for listening.
- Monday Aug 28, 2000
Soooo, not a good day all around! First I woke up with a king size headache & went directly to bed for another couple of hours. When I went to the doctor's (after waiting for over an hour GGGRRRR) I told him about my headaches & he seemed really concerned which concerned me, which I don't like. So along with the cholesterol test he's having other tests done on my blood. My blood pressure was 180/80 (he said it was his fault for making me wait so long) & I'm already on meds for that. By the time I got home after a couple of stops, I was so tired I took more ibuprofen & layed down for awhile. Oh, I forgot to mention--ahem--I got on the scale this morning--big mistake, I usually only weigh at WW--was up 2 pounds, said to hell with this & went to McD's for breakfast!!! How stupid??!! Could have something to do with the blood pressure since I had a medium Coke with the breakfast (didn't tell the doc that!) No wonder I weighed 155 on his scale. I just feel like too much stress today & everything going wrong. Just an all around BAD DAY!! I'm surprised I'm even here writing this but I feel I should be honest with all of you. After all, you are here to hear the good, so here is the bad. Thanks for letting me vent & thanks for listening.
- Sunday Aug 27, 2000
Okay, I think I have my groove back (or is that "back in the groove"). Absolutely, no temptations today. I got up at 7 & headed for the gym & they were actually open already when I got there at 8. Usually on the weekends, you have to wait til 10 or 15 after before they open the doors. And it wasn't crowded at all like it used to be when I went the last time on a weekend. Whoopee! I had a great workout, about an hour of cardio & some ab crunches. Not a long workout but, hey, I patted myself on the back since it WAS Sunday. Food intake has been good today too. I'm done for the day at only 23 points. AND had 6 fruits & veggies & more than enough water. I sometimes have a hard time getting in all the fruits & veggies, water is never a problem. So I plan to go to the gym again tomorrow & I'll do a little less cardio & more weights. Then I have a doctors' appointment at 11 where he will take blood to check my cholesterol again. It's been 4 months since I quit the Zocor & he thinks it will be up again, I'm hoping he's wrong & I am right. I've been eating right (mostly) & exercising & losing weight, so it would follow that it should be down still, right? Let's hope. Thanks for listening.
- Saturday Aug 26, 2000
Well, a better day today. It wasn't easy, since, when I goof up, I tend to have a hard time getting back with it. And I had a close call at dinner time, I almost went to McD's again, that Big Mac was a-callin' me. But I had a good talk to myself--it kinda went like this--you know you need to make up for yesterday already & after you eat that stuff, it's over & you're left with nothing but a bloated stomach & guilt feelings---that convinced me to not go & overeat. So I had one of those veggie burger things & some fat free baked beans with a diet caffeine-free Mountain Dew & I feel so much better knowing I was strong. My husband went to a football game & I didn't want to go & it seems that's when I'm ready to party--junk food for me is a big party--psycho! So anyway, I'm glad I didn't give in. I think this is a good sign. I did have a nice 45 minute walk this morning around the neighborhood, really fast walking too. The weather was cool & sunny. And today is laundry day so I've been busy most of the day. Hope you're all having a good weekend. Rest up, DVDMon. Thanks for listening.