- Thursday Dec 22, 2005
Happy weigh day! Not much of a change but at least, it's a change for the better again. I'm just happy to maintain right now. I did go for a nice walk yesterday around the block 3 times--45 minutes. I was p.o'd again and just took off. At least, I stayed away from the food. The weather here is great so I'm taking advantage of it. It's 7:30am here and 48 degrees, going up to 77. My plan for today is, ta da, bowling this morning, then probably to the gym for a workout. We'll see. I'm taking my stuff with me. I know, it's so hard right now with all the holiday goodies and they are so hard to pass up so I'm just going to try to get in as much exercise as possible. The DH is down with a cold or something so I may end up with that sooner or later so I'd better do what I can while I'm feeling okay. 5 1/2 weeks until Maui if you're counting, heh.
Okay, that's it for me. Hope you're all doing well. Hang in there and just do the best you can right now. Jan. 1 is just around the corner. Then we'll all be doing better, right?! Have a great day! And thanks for the comment, borntocry.
- Wednesday Dec 21, 2005
Almost 3pm here. Bout time I got here. Thanks for the comments, borntocry and str458. What a difference a day makes! I'm feeling much better today. Sheesh! What an a@#$% I am! Sorry. Just go through this every once in awhile. So today, no exercise. Been waiting to hear from my Sis to see when I should take her home from the hospital. She said she may just take a cab. Doc hasn't checked her out yet. She's feeling better, anyway. I know, that's no excuse and I could do some kind of exercise but I'm giving myself permission to just be a slug today. I don't feel real great anyway. Eating is not good but at least, I don't feel like stuffing myself since my parts don't feel so good. Heh. Still could be doing a lot better though. Okay, just wanted to check in and let ya know how things are with me. Going to check on you all now. See ya later. P.S. forgot to mention: weather forecast for here on Christmas--sunny and 77 degrees!
- Tuesday Dec 20, 2005
Hey, it's 10:12am here but I'm making an entry anyway. I know, it's late in the day. Weight is up a pound from what it says here and I feel like I'm drowning. Here I go, not fulfilling my dream of weighing a lot less by the time we go to Maui. I always set these goals (makeable, doable) but I never reach them and I feel like doo-doo! I'm such a failure. Then I go into thinking, what have I done with my life---a big fat nothing, zilch, zero, what a waste! Don't mind me, I'm just really down today. Wonder what I'm doing, still living, while people better and more productive than I, are leaving us every day. Not fair. I've actually thought of ending things (I know, too much information) but cannot do that to my family, poor, unsuspecting innocents that they are. I know they would be better off. Okay, nuff of that maudlin stuff. You don't want to hear that. Anyways.....
I've been doing the "at-least-I'm-doing-something" kind of workouts lately, only a mile of walking and less weightlifting than I should when I go to the gym and on the days I don't go, I'm doing nothing at all, except for the bowling on Thursday and Sunday. Like I said, the weight is going nowhere but up and down. I got really upset yesterday with my Mom and Sis so I dove into the kitchen head first and didn't come up for air until I was stuffed, just junk that I didn't really want. What I really wanted was candy (dumped it all in the trash 2 days ago) cookies, cake, burgers, fries, things like that. So the things I did eat--cereal, applesauce, pb&j sandwich, baked chips--just didn't satisfy me nor did it make me feel better. Oh, well, I just go on.
Sis is having gall bladder surgery today so Mom and I will go to the hospital later. I really need to go clean my bedroom and bathroom now too. Don't feel like it but I know if I do it, I will feel better. Hope I haven't brought things down here. Just needed to vent. Didn't help much. No one will be reading this anyway. Have a nice day. See ya later.
- Thursday Dec 15, 2005
Oops, up a pound. Not surprising there but surprising it wasn't more, a lot more. All the exercise must have helped. But I must work on that food part. It's 7am here, BTW. In case you were interested. Been up since 6 and had a shower.
Yesterday---went to the gym but my heart just wasn't in it. I just wanted to get it over with and get home. So I only did one mile of walking on the track. And only 2 sets of 12 reps on the exercises. Didn't really push myself but at least I did do something. And, as I said, the eating was atrocious.
So on to another day. Bowling this morning with our group and we have our holiday luncheon after. And we have to go drop off the toys. And I guess that's about it. I may do a walk outside around our block later too. The weather is great here (60's) so I should take advantage of it. Oh, the afghan for #2 son is finished except for finishing some ends and washing it. Then I need to get a box to fit and probably mail it tomorrow. I hope that gives it enough time to get there for Christmas.
Okay, that's it for today. I probably won't do too badly at the luncheon, it's Italian and I'm not crazy for it, go figure, food I don't like, hah! And I will do well the rest of the day too. I've got to get moving with this, time is running out. Have a great day today, everyone. See ya tomorrow.
- Wednesday Dec 14, 2005
Well, I slept in until 6:30 this morning. It's 7 now. The Christmas cards are all mailed and I didn't really have anything I needed to get done this morning. Although, I could clean my closet, heh. Oh, well, here I am.
Yesterday---still not a good day. What the heck am I thinking?! I don't have enough time to mess around here. Right now, I'm at the weight that I was when we went to Maui last year, or there abouts. I CAN'T DO THIS!! I'm doing great with the exercise but I'm eating everything that's dead or slightly wounded. I heard Dr. Phil say something like that the other day but that's not quite right, something like that. I should have written it down. He says the darnedest things! Anyways, I went bowling, bowled 4 games by myself, it took an hour because I had a hot flash in the middle and had to sit down to cool off. Then I had a burger from Wendy's (I know, I could have made a better choice) and went to WalMart. Shopped there for an hour and a half. Got all the little kids' toys for Toys for Tots. Now I have to find out where to take them. I didn't get home until 4:00. And I ate and ate and ate. I've got to stop doing that! And I will, right now! It has to stop.
Okay, have a great Hump Day, peeps! Take care and stay safe. I'm going to the gym and have a good workout. I don't know what I'll do with the rest of the day. Oh, BTW, the afghan for #2 son is almost finished so he should get it by Christmas. Nothing like coming down to the wire. I wish it was bigger but it will have to do. Looks pretty nice. Just have to do the border. Okay, see ya's tomorrow! Soonie, OUT!
- Tuesday Dec 13, 2005
Good morning, everyone!! It's 7:20am here and I've already colored my hair this morning. This is a whole new me, getting up early and getting things done. This way I have more hours in the day to get things done. Heh. Funny it took me so long to figure this one out. Who needs to sleep their life away?! I'm still getting almost 8 hours on good nights so I feel fine.
Yesterday---great on the exercise, not so good on the food. I still haven't had a really good day altogether. I went to the gym and did about 90 minutes of work, including 2 miles of walking on the track. It wasn't easy since I had a bad headache and felt kinda queasy the whole time. But I did it. Just kept thinking how much better I would look in my bathing suit when we go to Maui. I bought a new one at the end of summer of '04 and have never worn it. It's a small 14 and is still kinda tight. So pretty and I want it to fit well when we go the end of Jan. Maybe I'll even take a pic to put up here when I'm wearing it. Anyways, I must do better on the food part. You should see my kitchen counters---cookies, candy, cashews, all sitting there out in the open, so easy to grab. All gifts from friends. I would put it away but then the DH and #3 son wouldn't see them and not eat them for me. You know how men are--if it's not right out where they can see it, they forget all about it. So I must just try to resist it all.
BTW, DH helped me with the Christmas cards yesterday morning and we have almost all of them finished. So I will finish them up this morning. What a relief! And I did quite a bit of decorating too. Today I'm going out to shop for toys to donate. We don't do the present thing in my family any more and we always adopted a family to buy for, but Sis decided not to do that this year since she and BIL usually did most of the work getting the things to the family, so we're just going to buy toys and give them to Toys for Tots. Fun! And I may get to the bowling alley for a few games too. Some exercise anyway.
Okay, heading off to the shower now. I hope to do better on the food thing today. Wish me luck. I know, I have the power if I just use it. I hope you all have a great day and I'll see ya tomorrow. Buh-bye.
- Monday Dec 12, 2005
This is me, getting up earlier. It's 7am here. I decided that if I want to get everything done that I need to do, I just need to get up earlier so I will have more time. Heh. I had planned on getting up at 6 but just couldn't get to sleep last night for some reason so I moved it up to 6:30 this morning. But from now on it will be 6, okay? Okay. Well, one reason I couldn't get to sleep last night was that I was thinking about why, how and what I need to do to lose this weight. Here I've wasted another week, with only 7 left to go until the "vacation". I realized I do this every time there is something coming up that I want to look good for. I set a goal and I never make it! I need to do this for me, I need to be a better person. Am I getting my body image mixed up with my self image, as Dr. Phil says? Maybe I should read that book, lying on my shelf, you know the one, Dr. Phil's diet book. I've had it and read some of it but that's as far as I've gotten. This past week I did well with the exercise but the eating was in the toilet, heh. Well, not literally. I can just imagine what the DH thinks about me but then I realized it's not about him. I need to do this for me! I want to be better, I want to reach my goal. Okay, nuff said.
So I'm going to start on the Christmas cards now. Then after brekky, it's off to the gym for a good workout. Then more Christmas cards and some decorating. Yep, I still haven't done much in that area. So that's the plan for today. It's still not too late to lose a considerable amount of weight before the vacation. So I WILL. I need to stop acting like a child and take responsibility for my actions. No more junk! No more sugar! Heck, I'm diabetic, what am I trying to do, kill myself?! Okay, you all go have a great day, stay strong, you'll thank yourself later. Ta ta!
- Sunday Dec 11, 2005
If ya didn't catch my last night's entry, you can go read it now if ya want. Nothing much to say today. It's only 7am here and I've been up since 5:15. I finally cleaned out my closet some this morning. I just lay there in bed, thinking about it, so I got up and did it. BTW, I didn't wake up the DH since he has his own room at the other end of the house, heh. So here I am, all dressed and almost ready to go bowling this morning with DH. Do ya think I bowl enough? hehe! Just trying to get good at something. I use a 16 pound ball so I call it "exercise". Anyways, you all get out there and have a great Sunday.
- Saturday Dec 10, 2005
Hi, gang! It's now 6pm here on Saturday. I just finished reading all the entries here for today, not many here today. I didn't do any commenting though. I really should be sitting at the kitchen table working on the Christmas cards. I always say I'm going to start early and here I am. Maybe tomorrow. At least I updated my list this afternoon.
So things are going okay here with the "diet" thing. Well, okay can mean anything, I guess. Thursday: 3 games of bowling for exercise but I really pigged out for lunch with Macayo's take-out, among other really bad things. I mean, I was almost sick by the time I went to bed and had to try to sleep half-sitting up. Disgusting, isn't it? But I guess we've all been there. So Friday I was still feeling some of the effects but did that stop me from eating? DH suggested we go out for breakfast and then on to the casino. We went to Cracker Barrel. I had 2 eggs with biscuits. Don't recommend those biscuits, they need to be baked a little more and they fall apart. I used to really like them. And we didn't do well at the casino either but only spent an hour there so the damage was minimal. Oh, and I fit in a mile walk late in the afternoon, twice around the block. I was feeling grouchy and kinda depressed so I felt a little better after that. Great weather, sunny and a cool 63 degrees. Today I went to the gym and did 90 minutes of work, including 2 miles of walkiing on the track. I increased the weights again, up to where I left off over a month ago. So Monday I will increase the exercises to 3 sets of 12 reps for each. I do 11 different exercises for all body parts. Total, that is. Does that make sense? They have a great ab machine that I love doing and can feel the muscles there already after only 3 days of going to the gym.
So that's it for me. How was your day? Got your Christmas card today, Beth. Thanks. Yours will be there soon. Been meaning to ask you all---what happened to the personal weight tracker thingy here? I can only view the averages for each month. It used to include the daily weight. I wanted to see what I weighed last year at this time. Anyone know anything? I know there have been changes here but I thought it was there not long ago. And I miss having the time of day that everyone makes their entry, even though you had to allow for the time zones. So I'm going to try to remember to add the time here when I make my entries. Don't expect anyone to comment today since I'm on here late in the day and not too many here. But I love ya all. Take care and have a blessed Sunday.
- Thursday Dec 08, 2005
Well, back to that number again! My scale seems to say that one quite often. Humph! Still almost 3 pounds down this week, I'm very happy. Must keep it going now. I have less than 8 weeks before we go to Maui, that's 7 weeks from this weigh day to the one before we leave so I'm going to set a goal, squiggly. Let's make it 7 pounds from now to then. Jan. 26. It won't be easy with the holidays in there but that's why I'm only making it 7 pounds, some weeks will be good and some not so good, heh. What d'ya think? Can she do it? And, hey, if I lose more than that, it's all goooood!
Okay, report from yesterday, day 3---exercise: great; food: not so great. We received a gift basket from our financial advisor yesterday in the mail---lots of chocolates and cookies! But the few I ate was enough, I think, and I probably won't have more. Famous last words, heh. The rest of the day went pretty well though. I increased the weights on my exercises at the gym and that felt great. Tomorrow I will increase them a little more and, by Monday, I should be about back to doing what I was a month ago. And I did the 2 mile walk on the track too. Today will be bowling, our regular Thursday group. DH is going fishing with my brother though so I'll be going by myself. Afterward, I plan on doing a little shopping, then the tanning bed, then treating myself to a nice lunch. And I really need to get started on the Christmas cards and some more decorating. So that's the plan for today. I'm feeling great and I'm going to use it!
Okay, chickies, I hope you all have a great, fun, and productive day. Smile, you'll feel better. See ya later.