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biscottibody59 - Friday Sep 26, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


For my activity: Walk 66 min; NordicTrack 21 min/2.2 mi; Bike Ride 18 min/3.0 mi

I walked, used NTrack, rode bike as planned (3 of 3).

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Bike Ride

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

greengirl on 09/27/2008:
You have inspired me ! I'm going to get one of my machines out and do a bit on it while watching the TV tonight. Well done with your plan for today :)



biscottibody59 - Thursday Sep 25, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


For my activity: Walk 56 min; Circ Aer Wkt using NordicTrack (23 min/2.2 mi)

I walked, lifted weights, used NTrack as planned (3 of 4).

As for the friend mentioned yesterday, I wouldn't call it toxic, but it's not an optimal friendship either. I was venting, but I'll certainly keep in mind that we shouldn't put up with abuse in life, friendships included. I don't see this friend as abusive, she's not a liar, she's not out to get me, she doesn't use me except as a sounding board. She is, however, teetering on the brink of what I think is a full-blown emotional breakdown. I don't think she knows how fragile she is, or maybe she does. And again it's one of those things that she would probably deny--it's her life!

The bottom line is that I only talk to her when I want to--when I feel up to it. (I know all too well what I'm going to get--as I mentioned.) Obviously I get some enjoyment out of it. I'd certainly like to help her, but she either sees how bad things are and doesn't want any interference because of pride, or she doesn't see how bad things are. We don't really want help--we want someone to listen. I firmly believe that as adults we have to come to realizations mostly on our own. No amount of hearing about someone else's experience and even applying it to our own life really brings change in us.

I have thought that I'm even hindering her--thus my plan to keep her at arm's length for a couple of weeks.

I walked away from a truly toxic "friend" a number of years ago. That friend tried every way she could to drag me back. For years. I never had a confrontation over it with her either. The other person gets it or not. From my standpoint she has no choice because I have no intention of having anything to do with her. She tried to drag me back yet again just recently. She called my cell phone and if I'd had her name programmed in, I wouldn't have answered it--but I had no reason to have it programmed. I looked at the number and thought it was someone I actually wanted to talk to. Well that conversation was nothing but the same ol' same ol'--what a surprise;-)

To this day there are things I miss about our friendship, but those remembrances are from sooo many years ago--we were friends for nearly 30 years. So much history/fond memories there, but it's not worth what the friendship became in later years.

It just dawned on me--to her credit she hasn't called me again!

A history and projection of my personal BMI (Calculate Your Body Mass Index (BMI)):
189 = 32.4 (obese BMI)
174.5 = 29.9 (start overweight BMI)
155.5 = 26.7 (overweight BMI)
149.5 = 25.7 (still overweight BMI)
144 = 24.7 (normal BMI)

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Bike Ride

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

thinnside40 on 09/25/2008:
3 out of 4 ain't bad...Ain't bad at all......

Agreed that we must want to change before we really can...Nobody else can make us want to, no matter how hard one may try.....

Have a wonderful evening!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/25/2008:
speaking of someone to listen, that is actually one of the aspects of DD, wouldn't you agree? i like your saying, don't be too hard on yourself. damn that's hard. :(

you are sometimes pretty hard on yourself too, but it seems to work for you. we are all so different. one thing we must all try to do is be positive. yes, challenge yourself, but that is definitely different from being negative. wow. need to work on that! thanks for your comment. i will look into the book...hopefully i can borrow it from the library. maybe order it from amazon.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/26/2008:
good questions on my entry from you. basically, most of my binging habits are done at home when it does happen. almost always with a few occasional slipups somewhere else. the food is not mine and my mom gets VERY angry when she sees I've had something that she considers hers. she is good at eating only a little of something but i cannot. when things are sitting around for awhile, i'll eventually give in. we had a lot more junk food lately in the house because of a funeral and people brought over tons of treats which have lasted since the middle of the first week of september! i have identified that most of my binging is due to my own insecurities as well as lonliness. as well as probably a few other issues.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/26/2008:
i can relate to your feelings on having a toxic friend around. i steer clear too. had a friend back in high school and the friendship ended before we even graduated. she wanted to hang out again but i never will unless it is with MANY others or planned way in advance. i'll never think of her as my friend, but rather an acquaintance. friendship should be reciprocal, not one sided! :)


greengirl on 09/26/2008:
Cheers for the welcome back, biscotti. I've got a lot of catching up to do. All I can say for certain is 'here I go again' :) Have a good weekend !



biscottibody59 - Wednesday Sep 24, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


I like rice. Rice is great if you're hungry and want 2000 of something. --Mitch Hedberg

For my activity: Walk 21 min; Bike Ride 22 min/3.1 mi

I walked and biked as planned (2 out of 3). Yesterday was 100 days since my mom's death. Coincidentally it was also the anniversary of my father's passing (more than 30 years ago). I used to think people who counted like that were just silly. Why keep reminding yourself. Stuff happens in life. People die. Things stir the cauldron of our emotions and bring crap to the surface that should have stayed down in the bottom of that fu**ing cauldron.

I'm one more member of the walking wounded. I'm not depressed, but I'm vulnerable like I've never been in my personal living memory. It's like living in a foreign country and not knowing the language. And there is one friend with whom I am cutting communication for a couple of weeks (to start with). It's not that I don't want to listen to her personal tribulations. Her issues are beyond me and the little common-sense that I know how to practice. And I've started giving unsolicited advice (thinking it might anger her and get her moving), which really is selfish on my part. (I only give unsolicited advice to people when I get really angry about something they're telling me.)

Yeah, she has major health issues that have made it so that she's probably going to be on many pharmaceuticals 'til the end of her life. She's obese (bordering on morbidly obese). Though she should have been, she has received no counseling on keeping active (mowing the lawn once a week just isn't going to cut it I'm afraid) or changing eating or alcohol consumption habits. I guess what drove me over the edge, among other things is that now she believes she can't lose weight because of the medications.

I sort of became her personal counselor in a way. And she's one of those people who can't seem to get it all out. Just when you think she's gotten it all out--don't look now--here comes some more. She thrives on her "control freakedness" in her job, when she ACTUALLY needs to be a control freak with her life and most especially her health. She can sit on the phone with me for 2 hours but can't be bothered to walk her dogs to the end of the street and back daily, much less weekly. And she's been to a therapist. I'm not a therapist. She pulled punches when she was in therapy, so it was useless. I'm just tired of it!

Getting back to me: it's getting better--the grief (believe it or not)--despite memories and random things that strike me and bring me to my knees emotionally--sort of like someone bending your little finger back until you can't take it anymore. I'm ready to say enough! On the other hand I have been more productive (than I thought I would by now) in handling the aftermath/settling the estate, etc.

What helps me is actually physically writing in a journal. Or even typing (spewing forth) into MS Word and then printing it out and re-reading it. Either way, writing or typing, it calms my brain. It takes time, but it's worth it! My terribly afflicted friend would laugh if I suggested that to her--sorta sad 'cause she's a really good writer:-)

A history and projection of my personal BMI (Calculate Your Body Mass Index (BMI)):
189 = 32.4 (obese BMI)
174.5 = 29.9 (start overweight BMI)
155.5 = 26.7 (overweight BMI)
149.5 = 25.7 (still overweight BMI)
144 = 24.7 (normal BMI)

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Bike Ride, Circuit Workout

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

thinnside40 on 09/24/2008:
Hey you!..... Your best to go ahead and get other people's toxicity out of your life A.S.A.P.... Being a friend is one thing, but taking one's burden is another..Hard to seperate the 2..I know oh too well!!!!.....

It took me well over 5 years and still do have difficulties when a song, memory, date come to mind of my mother-in-law or g'pa (died 1.5 years apart) to not shed a tear or just sit and sob.... There is no time limit on one's grief or pain and to just let go is a healthy thing to do.... Those tears don't have to be sad ones, happy ones do happen and make us be thankful for what we DO have in the moment.....

Best of days to you...Thank you so much for just being "you".....


kzirkle on 09/24/2008:
Thanks for the awesome link about mercury retrograde. And I definitely feel your pain about coming to the realization that your friendship is toxic. Bottom line though: do what's best for you... take care of you first.

p.s. I love Mitch Hedberg!!!


Maria7 on 09/24/2008:
We love you and are glad we can be here for you, Biscottibody. As to your friend, I had a friend that I loved and still do but had to distance myself from her cause for years, she would come over very often and rehash the same thing over and over and over and when I offered advice, it was ignored and I was just used as a 'sounding-board'...I still love my friend but do not see her often anymore though we are still friends when we do see each other.

I will be praying for you...take care of yourself, dear Friend. ~Love, Maria



biscottibody59 - Tuesday Sep 23, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


Look not mournfully into the past. It comes not back again. Wisely improve the present. It is thine. Go forth to meet the shadowy future, without fear. ---Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

For my activity: Walk 52 min

No change for my weigh-in. As for measurements, I'm down one-eighth inch overall from a month ago. I walked as planned (1 out of 3).

A history and projection of my personal BMI (Calculate Your Body Mass Index (BMI)):
189 = 32.4 (obese BMI)
174.5 = 29.9 (start overweight BMI)
155.5 = 26.7 (overweight BMI)
149.5 = 25.7 (still overweight BMI)
144 = 24.7 (normal BMI)

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Bike Ride

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

Progress as of today: 27.5 lbs lost so far, only 18.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 09/23/2008:
Good on the walking! Smile!


Moody2 on 09/24/2008:
Love your opening quote!! And your ending one as well!! Both are so true and we need reminded of that from time to time~

Great job on your walking!!



biscottibody59 - Monday Sep 22, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


You don't get to choose how you're going to die, or when. You can only decide how you're going to live now. --Joan Baez

For my activity lately:
Thur: Walk 10 min
Fri: Walk 13 min
Sat: Nothing
Sun: Walk 13 min

Plan for today: Walk, Circuit Workout, Bike Ride

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

thinnside40 on 09/22/2008:
Whew!...Powerful statement..... Shall ponder that one for a while....

Good Day to you!


uncgrad2001 on 09/22/2008:
Hey...How are you getting your BMI measured?? Are you going to the doctor or doing it yourself??


mcwoo40 on 09/22/2008:
Glad to see you back again.I like that moto "don't be hard on yourself" too true,bye for now Julie


thinnside40 on 09/23/2008:
Hmmmmmmmm.... That statement you have that I said I shall ponder for a while, sure IS coming into play now isn't it?....

Thanks for your comment..... I am going to be doing plenty of research and have in the past on that Crestor to refuse to take it.....Plus will research the other things she tossed out at me yesterday before ingesting anything "chemical compound"...... I will definitely come to you & let ya help me out in research if I get stumped or to see if you may have any other info than I come up with.....

Good Day to you!



biscottibody59 - Thursday Sep 18, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


It is only possible to live happily ever after on a day-to-day basis. --Margaret Bonnano

For my activity lately:
Mon: Walk 61 min
Tues: Walk 56 min
Wed: Walk 24 min

No change this week for my Tuesday weigh-in. I didn't take measurements. Still writing down my food. No counting--perhaps I'll push myself a little more on that today!

Plan for today: Walk, Circuit Workout, Bike Ride

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

thinnside40 on 09/18/2008:
So glad you are back to posting.... Have a great rest of the week!


WI3 on 09/18/2008:
I really like that quote!


liza36 on 09/19/2008:
Great activity so far this week. Keep it up!


Maria7 on 09/22/2008:
It is so good to 'see' you back here again!!! Hoping you are having a blessed day today.



biscottibody59 - Monday Sep 15, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


For my activity: Nothing

I did write down my foods, I'll do the counting later.

Plan for today: Walk

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

Jen40 on 09/16/2008:
Don't be too hard on yourself... great advice! :O)


WI3 on 09/16/2008:
Go on out and get yourself a good walk! =)



biscottibody59 - Sunday Sep 14, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


For my activity: Nothing

Back to counting on Monday. Step up the activity too! Ooooh--such fun!

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

WI3 on 09/15/2008:
LOL I could use some new wheels myself! Have a wonderful day!


thinnside40 on 09/15/2008:
Count on bicotti!...Funny me.... I have a counting frenzy with everything from slicing cucumbers to you name it , but don't count calories..

Have a super Day!



biscottibody59 - Saturday Sep 13, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


For my activity: Walk 35 min; Mowing/Cleanup abt 3 hours

Well--no circuit yesterday or today. I had to wo(man)handle the mower, which was a separate workout in itself. I realized just how bad it had gotten. The wheels turn, but the mower has to be coaxed up a slight incline. I guess it needs new wheels with some deeper treads for better traction. Hey I need some of those myself--haha!

Hi Greengirl! Looking forward to an update from you one of these days:-)

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/14/2008:
great exercise today! :) welcome back!


greengirl on 09/14/2008:
Hey Biscotti, I'm just working myself up to facing the music Lol I have been hanging around here recently . A bad penny always turns up eventually :)



biscottibody59 - Friday Sep 12, 2008
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 161.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=27.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)


For my activity: Walk 70 min; Bike Ride 18 min/2.9 mi

We're going to get some residual effect from Hurricane Ike tomorrow and Sunday--probably no big deal. We need the rain. Though it's not supposed to make landfall at more than a Category 3 or 4--5 is the highest, the warning for people on the Texas coast is if you don't leave, you risk "certain death."

I'll pick up some new glasses (spectacles) today--have been messing around with some multifocal contact lenses--have one more pair to try.

Plan for today: Walk, Circuit Workout, Mowing (perhaps)

Don't be too hard on yourself!


1653 cal * 76g Fat * 10g Fiber * 28 oz Water
549 cal Deficit * 0% Activities

Donkey on 09/12/2008:
I am so glad you are posting again. You truly are a voice of reason and objectivity here.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/12/2008:
hopefully you'll have some nice frames to choose from! :)


WI3 on 09/13/2008:
Welcome back!!!


greengirl on 09/13/2008:
Hey Biscotti, it's great to see you here :)



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