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biscottibody59 - Monday Mar 02, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 164.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.2 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

For my activity: A little yard work; Walk 10 min

So Day 1 of my 4-day (Sat-Tues) Challenge (1800 cals, <50 g fat, 20% activities) is over--out of the three I met and exceeded the activities goal.

This week is starting out on an absolutely hellatious note. It would be easy to throw the challenge out, but I've got to stay with it--good or bad. (I'll have to come back and update the challenge results. I do know this--these little challenges are good for me!)

Not particularly scintillating, but there it is!

Plan for today: Walk, Airdyne

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

2368 cal * 68g Fat * 44g Fiber * 28 oz Water
210 cal Deficit * 25% Activities *
RMR = 1353

legcramps on 03/03/2009:
When I read the first sentence in your entry (not crossed out), I thought it read "this week is starting out on an absolutely hilarious note". I thought we were going to get a really funny story from you today! Ah well, we all need to have weeks like this, no? Did you walk? Did you airdyne? Have a good day today!

iWant2BSkinny on 03/03/2009:
I'm sorry you have not been happy with it but GOOD JOB trying to stick with it!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/03/2009:
biscotti....rock that body!

thinnside40 on 03/04/2009:
It's called a challenge for a reason I guess.... If it weren't for challenges in many way, everyone would just be blah blah blah in their way of living..... I don't like "blah"....... I need growth in knowledge & life experiences, but shrinkage on the waistline.......

Good Day....

mcwoo40 on 03/04/2009:
Keep it up,Julie

thinnside40 on 03/13/2009:
Hey Hey my dear....You on vacation?.....Hope everything is going as your planning and if not, then do the best you can with what you've got...I'm pluggin along and making strides this week again.... Have a great weekend!

biscottibody59 - Sunday Mar 01, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 164.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.2 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

I'm not sure why we are here, but I'm pretty sure it is not in order to enjoy ourselves. --Ludwig Wittgenstein

For my activity:
Fri: Nothing but a short walk
Sat: Sawing limbs about 2 hrs

So Day 1 of my 4-day (Sat-Tues) Challenge (1800 cals, <50 g fat, 20% activities) is over--out of the three I met and exceeded the activities goal. I really didn't think I'd eaten that much. If I can get through this challenge, I see this as analogous to step one in the process of turning around a huge ship.

I've been ignoring the overall picture, which I can't afford to do much longer--and still be somewhat happy with my lot in life. So even though I think I'm mindful of what/how much I'm eating, yesterday is rather sobering. In other words I can't blame my appetite on Timmy the Tapeworm this time--haha! I just have to figure out how to dial it back!

Just so you know: I'm not quitting dairy or diary--haha! I have to have real milk products in my coffee (even if it's only my one cup a day), and there probably are some who wish I'd quit "diary."

BTW, if you look on the box of regular old Hershey's Cocoa--plain old cocoa for cooking--there's a recipe for single serving hot chocolate--it's excellent! The prepackaged stuff is totally nasty, which I quit buying because of all the crap that's in it. It uses sugar, but if you'd rather use artificial or aspartame or splenda, I imagine it would work!

Just wanted to let WI3 know that I'm glad she chimed in on the underage diarist's diary--we are all entitled to our opinion. I believe it came from the heart--though many people don't believe we should voice opinions on others diaries--that every plan to lose weight is a good one and is going to work.

In the case of a superobese 13 y/o, I have no clue what would work except someone standing over her every minute of every day and making her exercise every free minute. Unless there's something haywire physically. Because at the rate she's going, it's a matter of time before diabetes, heart disease and all the other scourges of obesity show their ugly faces. It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure it out. But having said that, I don't have a clue what would work for her--I barely have a clue what I think will work (or better said what I'm willing to do) for myself! (I have a pretty damn good idea what works, but my follow-through generally sucks!)

Obesity in a child is at least as urgent an affliction to get under control as would be cancer or strep throat or anything else. It doesn't approach normalcy in a child even if every other child in her school is obese. That's precisely what may be wrong in our society at large (no pun intended:-), parents and others are possibly inured to seeing obese children so that it appears to be okay. I don't know. I have very limited exposure to children these days. I could be very very very (extremely) out of touch with reality:-)

Plan for today: Walk, Airdyne

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

2368 cal * 68g Fat * 44g Fiber * 28 oz Water
210 cal Deficit * 25% Activities * RMR = 1353

WI3 on 03/01/2009:
Hey there, Biscotti. Just wanted to stop by and tell you goodbye personally. I am glad you understand that what I did was from the heart as it pertains to the health of a 13 year old. As far as my other opinion about it not being a 13 year old child, that is another story-I could be wrong and if I am, hell will yawn before me and swallow me whole. Like it has the past few weeks. I think there is always a place for a couple of ladies like ourselves who dare to speak out when something isn't quite right. Thankfully, there are more of the ladies who are always sweet and kind to balance us out LOL. I don't know what to do for a 13 year old child to get him/her to lose weight. Frankly, it isn't any of my business which is why I also agree that underage persons shouldn't be on this website because none of us is qualified to tell them exactly what to do, and I'm not going to cheer on someone who is that morbidly obese and not under doctors care. How can I cheer on a child who may not be doing what they need to do in order to remain healthy, just because they are losing five pounds a week? That is scary! I don't know....I guess I am just crabby in my old age, or health...I dunno. Well, it has been a lot of fun with you and I am very very happy that I realized what a fantastic person you are. I might not have known, but I would have gone through live never knowing what an honor it was to associate with you. Good luck with all your health goals. And I wish you nothing but the very best of everything, and I truly mean it. Take care BB :)

grumpy on 03/01/2009:
I like the fact you have these short term goals. I should establish some to myself, and also longer term ones. Glad you're not giving up dairy or diary. :)

thinnside40 on 03/01/2009:
Love You....Keep yer chin up & stay strong... Your going to make it.....{{{Hugs for a lifetime

I'm not as strong a person as I thought I was emotionally...Never giving up in my journey... I will make it too

legcramps on 03/02/2009:
Have a good week biscotti.

Donkey on 03/02/2009:
I'm almost afraid to ask... Are you leaving DD as well?

biscottibody59 - Friday Feb 27, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 164.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.2 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

The only normal people are the ones you don't know very well. --Joe Ancis

For my activity:
Tues: Walk 50 min
Wed & Thurs: Nothing

Two days have been duds! Writing down food in my little notebook still, and I almost can't contain myself for the excitement;-) Today is bound to be better!

I'm doing a 4-day (Sat-Tues) Challenge: 1800 cals, <50 g fat, 20% activities

I have to get on the ball--speaking of, I think I'll break down and get an exercise ball--there are so many websites with routines for everything. I'm sure I can find something appropriate!

I wonder how all those people who started P90X are doing on it? Seems like there were a couple of posters plus the husband of another.

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Yard Work

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

2465 cal * 93g Fat * 54g Fiber * 56 oz Water
-172 cal Deficit * 18% Activities *
RMR = 1353

thinnside40 on 02/27/2009:
Oh yes!...Get a ball!.... Mine has been in hibernation, but soon to be brought back out...I like to do sitting jumping jacks & of course that stand on head, pulling up my legs manuever... Very stretching and stomach wrenching...

Well, off to bake some oatmeal molasses cookies for Ben's fundraiser this weekend...... Have a good day!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/28/2009:
so, i understand where you're coming from about the underage thing on here.

have a good day. it seems you are into a routine.

Beth201P on 03/01/2009:
You are doing great. Keep it up. Thanks so much for the wonderful comment. It means a lot to me.

haha_love2laugh on 03/01/2009:
I have taken what you have said into consideration, but some others are being completely and horribly judgemental to the state of my well being, yes my weight is ery high and it isnt healthy, but i have no heart disease, diabetes, high blood pressure or anything of that type, One doctor even told me that she didn't know how to help me. I am continuing the use of DD as a PRIVATE journal for my own personal use, because it helps me keep track of hat I eat, and also it is a journal that will now be used for personal reasons as well for the fact that no one can enter into my account without my password, unlike a diary that can just be stolen.

biscottibody59 - Tuesday Feb 24, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 164.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.2 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

For my activity:
Wed-Mon: Inertia

I'm down a half-pound on my weigh-in today. Mostly I have no excuse not to exercise!

I had a few opinion paragraphs, but I thought better. I may dust them off if I get a whim. Essentially I left a query for the webmaster on his diary and his reply was that yes, it's okay for a 13 y/o to be here posting. Her word is good enough for him that she has permission. So I left a comment in response to that. I decided it's none of my business since I don't own the website. I still have an opinion, but it really doesn't mean squat. I'll spare anyone who still reads me. There's no sense in beating a dead horse.

Except for this: Awhile ago I remarked at how DDs had changed for me--though that was mostly because of long-gone posters that I've missed over the years. I guess the webmaster allowing 13 y/olds to post kinda puts the last nail in the coffin of that long-dying DDs that I knew so well for so many years:-) And it's still a free website, so he needs anyone he can to access it, click on ads--however it makes revenue and even if a 13 y/o is doing that, it's still revenue!

Oh well.

So I must get down to brass tacks. I would describe today's weather as hot (and gorgeous)--I took a mid-length walk. I drank three cups of coffee the other day--no tea that day--way out of my plan, and it fu*ked up my sleep in a big way. One cup of tea and one cup of coffee per day is ideal. Back to counting calories tomorrow is the plan.

I'm going to do a daily early walk and also try to incorporate an early indoor workout of less than an hour--I can do that! If not, I'm  sunk--yet again. I'm tired of pulling myself out of the same old hole. I guess the fact that I haven't continually been sinking myself in deeper each subsequent time is a feather in my cap, but my haphazardness is wearing thin!

Plan for today: Walk 

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

2465 cal * 93g Fat * 54g Fiber * 56 oz Water
-172 cal Deficit * 18% Activities *
RMR = 1353

thinnside40 on 02/25/2009:
I'll trade ya... You come to my house and get them in shape around here & I'll do yer walking, etc...... I wouldn't wish my troubles on anyone truthfully...

Anyway, I have been hoping that maybe absence will make one a bit out of the routine of DD while they are on vacation, as of Sunday..... Shall see..... I am a believer of not allowing ANY under 18 on any website such as DD..Due tot he facts as I stated before that a "kid" is going to tell you what you want to hear, especially if it is website realted.... No verification isn't a good practice... I guess we can't watch out for everybody we see headed the wrong direction... I used to be one that wanted to save the world, but realized I'm just beating myself up.. Can't anymore.... Voice concerns and let it go....

Have a good evening!

legcramps on 02/26/2009:
The coffee I drank last night really messed up my sleep, too. I was all for it at the time, and will most probably do the same thing again in the future - to me, it's all about the immediate pleasure, so i'll suffer the consequences of too late nights and too early mornings just so that I can have a cup of coffee every now and then. Whatd'ya do?!

legcramps on 02/26/2009:
Have you read your bio page lately? I just skimmed through it, and its very motivating. Maybe you should re-read it too. Have a great day today!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/26/2009:
but honestly, don't we try to give helpful advice to all who post on here?? i agree actually, with the webmaster, and i do believe it's ok for 13 year olds to post here. but we should try to give them good advice. and good advice may not even be what i'm eating or i'm posting. lol. but anyone should be able to post here. on the contrary, the majority of posters are adults and that's a good thing. bc we really do help each other and give good advice.

biscottibody59 - Wednesday Feb 18, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 165.0

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.3 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

For my activity: NordicTrack 43 min/4.4 mi

No walk, no Airdyne yesterday.

Today will be my latest attempt to recommit. Exercise really isn't my problem except for the odd day I balk or just don't have time to do everything I've planned. So it's down to restricting my calories, which I hate to do, but the writing is on the wall--my belly says so! And of course I'm not talking about restricting abnormally here--it's simple math--intake and output--a few hundred fewer calories per day. Really not that much to ask, though follow-through is the key!

We talk about lifestyle change alot--I need one--bad! I guess mine would be to not give myself permission to eat all the things I want all the time, but to allow myself some of the things only some of the time, not to mention portion control.

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Circuit Workout

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

2465 cal * 93g Fat * 54g Fiber * 56 oz Water
-172 cal Deficit * 18% Activities * RMR = 1353

mcwoo40 on 02/18/2009:
Hello,they say all things in moderation which is'nt easy is it who can stop at eating 2 choco biscuits, not me if i'm in a bad frame of mind.I'm all or nothing,as if i get the taste for something there's no stopping me.Stay strong,Julie

thinnside40 on 02/18/2009:
Ha ~ Portion control... I control my portions just fine (sticking to serving size)...I just eat too much of too many things to make it lucrative.... Changing that!

Re: Food choices ~ I was just flashing back to a few comments back in the day of "staple foods" of yogurt/honey, turkey patty, boca, etc as being something being senn EVERY DAY & if I ate something different, it was commented that someone was used to seeing those staples...... I'm one for "stability" and as long as it still tastes good I have to stick with it to make it work for me... I quit doing that and I have to stop letting stuff like that effect my plan... Stop worrying about other people and go back to what works FOR ME... My feelings weren't hurt, just let it effect me for some reason.. NO MORE! After all, this is MY plan and as long as I'm healthy (not taking pills, etc ;O) to "lose" weight) in my eating/exercising...I'll be just fine...

We are on the right road... How fast do we want to reach our destination?... To be told in our actions!

thinnside40 on 02/18/2009:
LOL ~ Hand over those C.C. SCONES....NOW!

hollybelle on 02/18/2009:
There is always hope - thanks for your comments. I am with you - I never want anyone to leave this site, I find alot of encouragement here and it helps keep me focused in a healthy way. I share the pain of my fellow DD'ers when they are struggling and I know vice versa. The problem is when it is the ED speaking it sounds so much like our own voice. One must learn to recognize it for what it is remember it's agenda is steal, kill and destroy. It is not our friend. We are not our EDs - we are so much more and we can only realize our potential when we are free of the ED. Live free! Let's pray for our fellow DD'ers and keep ourselves accountable.

haha_love2laugh on 02/18/2009:
i agree completely!!!, and i know the exact feeling of counting calories, geesh, but i am sticking with it (barely) and think that if you want to bad enough you can too!

Maria* on 02/18/2009:
You're right...it is ALL ABOUT DISCIPLINE!!!!! (Which, btw, is NOT FUN!) We want to be able to eat 'pretty much' what we want and still get to goal....but...usually doesn't work that way, hehehe!!! Not even easy to 'maintain' that way! You know what???? It is ALSO....ALL ABOUT COMMITMENT... seems every time I get 'committed' here lately, I get STRESSED and GIVE IN!!!!!

Hope you're having a wonderful evening!!! (Smile!)

thinnside40 on 02/18/2009:
I AM NOT trying to be funny here, BUT....Do you make biscotti too?..Everytime I see any at the espresso shop or adcertised @ Costco, I think of you... I never have had it, but know it probably sure is tasty dipped in cocoa or coffee.....

haha_love2laugh on 02/18/2009:
Thanks for the input, but my registered physician was the one who told me i should eat 1600-2000 calories a day and i try to eat that amount, and sometimes i'm low, and sometimes i'm high.

And i understand that you do not feel comfortable supporting me, but would like to know how you think that it is any different for me to need to set goals/ get support from somewhere OTHER than my family, i am doing it healthfully, and have decided against anorexia or bulimia, and i'm trying hard to make myself HEALTHY, i dont care how skinny i am, i want to be able to run a mile, on land, in under 15 minutes like i run it now, i want to change my life, and i want you to know that i will keep doing what i am doing with or without your support.

legcramps on 02/19/2009:
Cheers to getting back on track, cheers to getting through the stifling fog of not being motivated enough to get off the couch, cheers to admitting what the problem is and working on solving it. Cheers to you!! Have a great day today.

omahagrl on 02/19/2009:
I agree 100% on portion control as that is my greatest challenge. See Jimmy Johns incident :-) I also think if food tasty bad it would be easier but I love the taste of a lot of food. Have a great day!!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/21/2009:
yeah...there's no way i'm happier at this weight. i'd give anything to be 112 right now. i weighed around that # for a long time before throwing the towel in. :(

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/22/2009:
cellniques are a bit too expensive anyways...but they came to my house even though i thought i would have to call if i wanted to order them again...apparently they might come every month! ha. i think i may have to call them...but you'll probably be seeing them again on my menu. but NOT everyday. and only ONE per day i do decide to drink one. maybe once a week...that would be a better plan. good thing they don't need refrigeration until opening.

Maria* on 02/23/2009:
I hope you're having a good Monday! I THANK YOU for the info. Never think that what you tell me is not appreciated, cause it very much is appreciated. Thank you for your support in your comments to me. Big smile to you!!!

biscottibody59 - Tuesday Feb 17, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 165.0

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.3 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

For my activity: Walk 10 min; NordicTrack 42 min/4.3 mi; Airdyne 21 min/4.5 mi

I'm down a half-pound on my weigh-in today!

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Circuit Workout, Airdyne

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

2269 cal * 75g Fat * 27g Fiber * 84 oz Water
32 cal Deficit * 18% Activities * RMR = 1353

sweetpea1977 on 02/17/2009:
Thanks for the WI3 info. I just didnt expect to see her missing!

Also, thanks for the well wishes!

By the way, what is Airdyne? I havent heard of it before. Do you like it?

thinnside40 on 02/17/2009:
Yowza!!!! 0.5# more.... That's gotta feel good!!!!!!!!!!

Re: Coffee = H/A ~ Ya, I had thought the same too and did take a few swigs of a overwarmed (3 times0 cup in hopes of relief, but this is sheer sinus...Just like it has been the last week or so... It has let up a bit this evening...Getting "dryer" and not so "sniffy" all the time.... I want it over soon..It is the pits..I haven't hurt this bad in a very long time with any cold/sinus troubles.... Oh well... I feel fortunate compared to others who have the "flu"..... Ugh

Good Evening!...I'm enjoying the quiet I have for the moment....

selina on 02/18/2009:
Hey, Biscotti! Thanks for the heads up on the notebook diary thingy. I've been using it and really like it! I write everything down, including things that I wouldn't dare writing here in DD, so I think it's a good thing for me... TMI stuff for myself .... Stay well, have a great day!

WI3 on 02/18/2009:
CONGRATS on the weight drop! And thanks for starting those interesting discussion in forums. You and I see things much the same way at the same time! It is good to know that while we are fighting this fight and supporting each other, that when a fly enters the ointment we can stand together and defend ourselves. Lord knows it is difficult enough to lose weight without reading how it is perfectly ok to pick on 'fat' people. I think the menopause has made me a little more vocal. lol

Take care BB...I read your entries and am over here cheering you on! I'll come out of private soon after I get this thyroid thing nailed down a bit better where I can be more social. Thank you for keeping up with me :)

biscottibody59 - Monday Feb 16, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 165.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.4 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

A minute's success pays for the failure of years. --Robert Browning

For my activity: Walk 10 min

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Airdyne

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

3113 cal * 113g Fat * 33g Fiber * 28 oz Water
-968 cal Deficit * 2% Activities

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/16/2009:
re your comment before....thank you for telling me or i wouldn't have known that info. it's good to be able to have an idea of who we're writing to on here!

legcramps on 02/17/2009:
Hey, good job! Keep up that walking! And thanks for the birthday greetings!

biscottibody59 - Sunday Feb 15, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 165.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.4 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

Real life isn't always going to be perfect or go our way, but the recurring acknowledgement of what is working in our lives can help us not only to survive but surmount our difficulties. --Sarah Ban Breathnach

For my activity:
Thur: Walk 20 min
Fri: Walk 15 min
Sat: Walk 15 min

::green tea, walk first thing, breakfast early and maybe one coffee::

God, but I've been here a long time. I'm not losing weight the way I was when I started. I'm a little too content with where I am. I do believe I can step up for my health and my life and reach a reasonable and non-overweight BMI weight. I hesitate to make this declaration, but I do know myself pretty well. I know that if I behave properly (exercise moderately and step up to eat a little more "in the moment") that I can get there.

On another subject. Yeah I was 13 years old once. In fact, I was in the 7th grade when I turned 13. I probably weighed 120# if I weighed a pound. The one girl in class who was what any of us, her classmates, would consider "fat" probably weighed 140 or 150, though I'd be guessing. That was it for fat classmates. Of course I was 13 for crying out loud, and my memory could just be a little shady at this point.

I must focus myself now: I wish myself well for the next few pounds of weight loss. Spring is around the corner, and though I generally don't have an excuse to exercise because of weather, I plan to step it up here. I'm fighting Father Time & Mother Nature as well as the "battle of the bulge," for that matter;-)

I mean I'm not exactly saying "Screw you!" to you all, but first and foremost this is about me and my journey! I wish you all well as usual, but I simply must focus myself on me or I'm sunk! Time's a wastin'--haha!

Eternal vigilance. That old college try. Say it with me--let's get it on--one more time!

Plan for today: Walk, NTrack, Circuit Workout

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

3113 cal * 113g Fat * 33g Fiber * 28 oz Water
-968 cal Deficit * 2% Activities

thinnside40 on 02/15/2009:
ONWARD!!!!!!!!!!! Hup Hup Hup...... Best of wishes for you!

Donkey on 02/15/2009:
I weighed 120 in the 7th grade too!

selina on 02/16/2009:
You are doing well by focusing on yourself, go grl!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/16/2009:
yeah....we were all young and thin. i know i was too. seems like a memory right now but if you were lighter then, you can be lighter now. no giving up ever.

Maria* on 02/16/2009:
Thank you for your advice. You are such a sweet person! I hope you have a wonderful day today!

thinnside40 on 02/16/2009:
Being 23.5#'s from you highest & 15.5#'s from your lowest..... Your track record is so much better than mine my friend... I have been looking at my numbers throught the years and know this time I am doing so much better as far as "catching" myself before having to start ALL over again and most of the time even @ a higher weight...

Just wanted to stop by today & say "THANK YOU" for being here and being that constant encouragement & inspiration in the NEVER GIVE UP! I need that reminder!

biscottibody59 - Thursday Feb 12, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 165.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.4 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

For my activity lately:
Wed-Wed: Nothing

I'm down 3# on my Tuesday weigh-in. On my measurements I'm down a bit more than 1 inch overall. Glad I took them, last measurements were back in November. Also, counting calories, no; writing my food down in my notebook, yes. I'll get back to counting soon. Oh, and I didn't get my "first thing" walk in--started again today!

Observations on my short-lived "no coffee" experiment.
For me there is something about even 2 cups of coffee a day (very strong plus quite a bit of milk, no sugar) and its effect on my feeling rested the next morning. I sleep fine, but what I noticed is that I had a little more spring in my step (while drinking just the 1-2 cups of green tea) upon waking up initially. So maybe I'm not sleeping quite as well while drinking coffee, though I'm sleeping long enough--and I don't drink coffee past about 2 p.m. I didn't miss my coffee, until I had a couple of cups one day, which turned into about a week of "must have" coffee.

I'm one who could drink coffee all day long, but I know it wrecks my sleep, so I generally don't do it!

My new plan, which I hope becomes a routine, is to have green tea with lemon first, then breakfast, then If I would like to enjoy a cup of coffee, I can. That's the key for me, enjoy! Also with coffee first thing, I don't have an appetite for breakfast. I want to WANT breakfast, not force myself to eat it. I didn't know this until I changed my routine in early January. 

Plan for today: Walk

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

3113 cal * 113g Fat * 33g Fiber * 28 oz Water
-968 cal Deficit * 2% Activities

Progress as of today: 23.5 lbs lost so far, only 22.5 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 02/12/2009:
AH.... I NEVER liked to eat breakfast..... A banana was about it and 2-3 cups of coffee... My troubles are late @ night eating.... Now, when I wake, I usually eat a nanner first thing with a cup of coffee, then have breakfast about a n hour later..... I look forward to eating it now....

THanks for the compliment on the "hearts"... I LOVE doilies, but never have made any... I find them for a lil' of nothin' @ the thrift store though... All kinds & colors...... Crochet is something, once I get started, I don't want to stop.. I could make an afghan in a day.... Sewing is something else that tucks everything else to the side... I have to make sure I am caught up before getting started......

Being down by 3#'s is wonderful.... I know how good that feels and will get back there again soon... I just know I will....

Sleep Well!

selina on 02/13/2009:
Good job on the 3#, WTG! I love coffee and can not do an experiment like you did... i love green tea, too.

panda22 on 02/13/2009:
Awesome job with the loss! I agree that coffee is a major filler and tends to turn people away from eating breakfast. I used to drink it too and after stopping my stomach got into the breakfast routine and now it wakes me up every morning growling for it! lol

Thanks for your comment! I guess I could say I've conquered it, but for me being an all or nothing type person I'm waiting for 2 complete years of "sobriety" to make that announcement. By sobriety I mean 2 years of absolutely no distorted thinking, active symptoms, etc, and unfortunately the thinking is the worst part to kick. I realized after re-reading even my post the other day that I still think about the scale too much, and to me I associate that as distorted thinking in reference to myself. I place my goal at 2 years because I was trapped in the ED for 6 years so I know recovery will take a long time as well.

Anyway, it's good to see even though you don't understand the subject, you are keeping an open mind and attempting to learn and understand. I can relate to people "not getting it". You'd probably be surprised to know that most people dont get it unless they've experienced it, and my own family didn't understand at first. My father and I actually had a falling out when I was first diagnosed because of the fact that he didn't think it was a disease at all and that I could just STOP anytime I wanted to. Funny thing was he was an active smoker ((he's quit in 2004 with aide of medication)), and it took me relating what I was feeling to his own addiction to really open his eyes. That and talking to a family therapist and having them confirm that I wasn't just playing a game, I really needed help stopping. Our relationship is better than ever now, and he's 3 years free of nicotine and I'm working on my 2 yrs!

Just wanted to let you know you are not alone in the crowd when it comes to not understanding! Have a great day! You are almost to your goal and that's a huge accomplishment!

mcwoo40 on 02/13/2009:
Well done on the weightloss,hope your pleased with yourself.I went a little off track,wed and thursday.I always do that,when the going get's good i always do damage then i feel a failure AGAIN crazy is'nt it.Take care of yourself,Julie

haha_love2laugh on 02/13/2009:
I am under doctor supervision, and since you arent me or my family members you wouldn't know that: My doctor told me to do whatever it took to lose weight, except for developing an eatiing disorder so maybe next time you should exclude people from any support system they can find, this is only a place for me to gather support, and track my eating so... i'm not using it for anything else

thinnside40 on 02/13/2009:
I was just coming to tell you about haha_love.. I saw your comment to her... I had asked her int he beginning her age and had great concern from the get go myself.... Her picture gave her away in age... What a cutie pie.... I wish that (if) the Dr. told her to do whatever it took that someone wiser would step in and show her, instead of coming to DD.... You know what it is like.... Me too..... She said her mom knew about her using DD....???????????

Have a good day.... I'm off to stock up on ginger-ale & such.. Hubby is real sick and I fear that I will be too by thime all said and done... I won't live without certain things if I'm sick like that.... I wanna be prepared! Ben can't drive yet (well, he can, but not legally), so best be going....

thinnside40 on 02/13/2009:
Well, to be frank with you... If MY 13 year old or even 15-16-17 year old was to come to someplace like DD and consult people who are NOT professionals, especially with something as delicate as a teenager's health.... Her reference to me was that her mom read where an online group had a 50% higher success rate at "losing weight" than those who went it alone.... Biscotti!..... When I was 8 years old, I went to TOPS meetings with a 400# g'ma.... I happen to even have the picture of when I was "weight loss queen" of the week..... But, then @ home, I was made to eat EVERYTHING on my plate in fashion of grease fried foods, etc..... 3 heavy meals a day..... Very mixed signal...

This is why I am so careful with Meg I guess... I do let her have unhelathy choices @ times, but tend to be on the leaner side if she doesn't want to eat EVERYTHING....SHe does have to try new things, but most of the time, just portiona control and I don't call it that.. We stick with "serving size"....

I'll get on with it here..... I probably would of told people what they wanted to hear and not the sole truth when asked about "parental permission", etc.... Knowing rules & regulations.... I was a great "liar" lots of times in my teenage years and if my parent's knew 1/2 of what I did/said they would be under 6' of dirt from the schock.... Being very conservative, I knew what they wanted to hear & gave it to them all the while knowing I was lying...... I never comitted crime, but I did totally go against many things I taught were wrong.... They were wrapped around my finger... Sadly to admit it, but tis the case......Communication was scarce as both of my parent's worked several hours a day... This is one of the reasons I am a SHM... I want the communication & involvement in our kids lives, cause I will never get that time back.... So, as far as "A DOCTOR" saying (with or without a parent in the room????) such to a 13 year old just does not seem right...If it is truth, I think I would be sharing a cell with you if we lived close to each other for sure.... I don't tolerate such things like that very well myself.....

I pray for the safety (health & mental both)... I really do!.. BTW, my kids AREN'T on the internet without us present and it is in the livingroom for ALL to see..... I haven't even commented anymore, I just can't in support...

K. now I wrote you a book.... HAPPY early VALENTINE'S DAY!

biscottibody59 - Wednesday Feb 04, 2009
(Challenges::Water::Logging Food::Fitday)
Weight: 168.5

Start: 189 (June 2001)
Low: 150 (Nov 2006)
Current BMI=28.7 My Realistic BMI Goal=22.8 (133)

For my activity lately:
Sat: Walk 10 min; Circ Aer Wkt using NordicTrack (15 min/1.2 mi)
Sun-Tues: Walk 10 min

I'm up 1.5# on my weigh-in this week. I didn't hit the 300-mile mark on my bicycle's odometer--I only rode once this month--that was a goal I made earlier last month.

Not surprised on the weigh-in--I'm coasting as of late, but the inevitable hill to climb is just above the horizon:-) I'm just not into making good choices or restricting the amount of food I eat. (And I did get into a little too much chocolate over the last few days.) I'm apathetic and unfocused on the food front. At any rate, I find myself here again--close to the 169 that I dread. I've been on this sort of "food vacation" and it's been enjoyable, but it's time now to pay the piper, clean up my act, get on the ball!

I have nowhere to go but up--but scalewise--down, down, down! Yiiiii-ha! Woop Woop and all that jazz!

Plan for today: NTrack, Walk, Circuit Workout

Eat! Exercise! Focus! Enjoy!

3393 cal * 139g Fat * 27g Fiber * 0 oz Water
-74 cal Deficit * 16% Activities

3047 cal * 153g Fat * 46g Fiber * 56 oz Water
-932 cal Deficit * 2% Activities

2445 cal * 125g Fat * 43g Fiber * 28 oz Water
-308 cal Deficit * 2% Activities

2829 cal * 126g Fat * 38g Fiber * 56 oz Water
-545 cal Deficit * 2% Activities

Maria* on 02/05/2009:
It has stayed on my mind what you wrote to me...about resisting the urge to not take care of myself. Thanks. You have a very positive entry. I hope you have a wonderful, blessed day.

thinnside40 on 02/05/2009:
Biscotti!~ I am so glad to hear that you crochet!... I love to do it myself, but don't get much time to pick up the needle & yarn..... Anyway, the hearts you made? Was that recently from the pattern link of the phto I posted or some you have made in the past?... I want to make some to use as "coasters".....

Getting off the "path of eating too much" isn't as easy as saying it, I know...Best of luck to you!

thinnside40 on 02/05/2009:
BTW ~ You should show a picture of those hearts you made...Ya/No?... I would enjoy seeing them!

YepItsMe~ on 02/05/2009:
Seems like quite a few of us have been on the path of eating too much~The good thing is realizing it tho...you'll get back on the right track before you know it!

Just curious~what does it mean when you put the line thru your exercises? Does that mean you've done it for the day and that's like crossing it off your list?? Just curious!

Have a great day!

mcwoo40 on 02/08/2009:
Thanks for your comment,I seem to be getting into the swing of things now.Have a great sunday,Julie

thinnside40 on 02/10/2009:
Ya know my friend... All the while I was typing my "rant" this morning.. All I could think about was "siscotti" and a comment that she may give to offer a bit of a "wake up call" to thinnie....... I know where I am failing miserably, as far as standing up for "me" & realizing that this journey is something I have to realize (have, but have forge=otten a bit) is going to be the remainder of my life.... ups/downs are going to come/go, it is WHAT I do with them at their point that matters.....

You are more of an inspiration to me that you will ever know & I'm so thatnkful that you remain @ DD for many reasons...

P.S. I've been looking @ that "heart" pattern... I ummmmmmmmmmm have trouble reading directions..I'm a visual learner.... Ugh......

Good Day!

thinnside40 on 02/10/2009:

thinnside40 on 02/10/2009:
Thanks for the link..... I will tell you (and probably will sound like a typical "depressed person") that I have wuit taking the Budeprion XL about 1.5 weeks ago... I had a new Rx to fill and last week when I went to pick it up, it was $145 (total bill with my Synthroind & Vit D 50,000IU)...$25 without it.... Jen was mentioning the $4 WalMart program... Anyway, I had decided to not take it anymore, even though my deductible would of been almost met had I purchased it.... I was doing so well in this journey before I began taking it, but felt evened-out in the "desire to do" and caring about other things that had went by the wayside....I have an uncle in a mental insitution (30+ years), due to nervous break-downs, a g'ma who is a nervous tick & now my mom's diagnosis.... I have always known I was "mental" and am not making light of a mental disorder... I just get tired of "chemicals" to make me feel 100% normal.... Getting back on track with eating andn ow my house is in order (99%), I feel better mentally... I will discuss this with the Dr. come April... She told me what I was going through was most likely "hormonal" fluctuation and thus with the list of other things to talke to her about this will be another to add..... Iodine, Thyroid, Cholesterol, Hormones, etc.... The Wellbutrin did nothing for my horrible mood swings (which that was my main goal)... I am a "witch" come 3-4 days of the month.. I hate that!...

Look forward to reading your next entry to see how successful you have been (hint hint..wink wink)

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