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girliegirl6486 - Saturday May 05, 2007
(Eat healthy, exercise more!)
Weight: 138.0

Hi again, everyone! Sorry I disappeared for awhile, with finishing up school and final projects and everything.

I want to recommend this book the dietitian I saw let me borrow, it's called "Making Peace with Food." It's really good and got me to do what she recommended - eat what you want but obviously in reasonable portions based on healthy it is, and eat until you're full. Don't count calories. It doesn't help. Now, the last week and a half or so haven't been great because of finals stress. I've eaten like crap. But still, I've lost another pound and a half since the dietitian. I know I'd have lost more if I hadn't been so busy with school but I'm just one final exam away from summer now, so things should be good.

The best thing is, I'm just HAPPY. I'm no longer walking around adding in my head, "50 calorie this plus 150 calorie that plus 15 grams of fat..." I don't care anymore. As the dietitian said, "You know what's healthy."

It also seems obvious to me that when I was restricting calories, my body was underfed and its metabolism only slowed more. I still am having some issues where I beat myself up over eating something...and that's still driving my poor boyfriend crazy...but he's also very supportive. It's getting better. Exercise will be better once school is over too.

In non-diet life...I GOT A TV INTERNSHIP!!! I will be interning as a reporter at a CBS-affiliate station about an hour from where I live. It's only three days a week, thank God, considering how much gas I'm going to use. However, I know I need an internship to get a job later so I'm really excited. I just have to find a job up at school since I won't be going back home this summer. It's a little weird knowing this will by first summer not living at home.

Progress as of today: 6 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Donkey on 05/06/2007:
Wow, that's really good news about the internship! WTG!! (Did you tell your annoying roommate say anything about it?)

I see you're back in the 130s. That's wonderful too! I'm still hovering around the 140 mark. I keep trying.

girliegirl6486 - Wednesday Apr 11, 2007
(Eat healthy, exercise more!)
Weight: 139.6

I finally had my appointment with the dietitian on campus yesterday. I was surprised at what I found out - the most surprising being that I need to have around 1,800 calories. I had a ditzy moment I guess when I was told in class two weeks ago from a device that my BMR (basal metabolic rate) is 1,460 calories. I thought going about my day, that's all I burn. The dietitian told me, "If you were to just lie in bed for the entire day, you would still burn those 1400 calories." NOW I GET IT! lol. So walking to and from classes and all that good stuff burns extra. She looked through my food diary and said the 1,300-1,500 calories I'm eating is far too little after assessing how active I am and all that. I'm supposed to have around 1,800 calories.

Her suggestion to me was to stop recording calories. After looking through my food diary that I've kept for a few months, she said "It seems to me you know what's healthy and what's not. Try to just eat until you feel satiated. She showed me my portion sizes on a plate. I have to say for it being only 24 hours, I do feel a lot better - yesterday I made myself pasta and I ate until full. It totally stopped me from snacking at night! And then today for lunch, I did the same thing, rather than counting out what I THOUGHT I was supposed to have - and I had no urge to snack all day. So I hope this will help me. I'm still making healthy choices - like right now I'm eating grilled chicken, mashed potatoes (no butter!!!) and green beans. With milk! YAY!

I've also done well with exercise the last two days. I worked out with weights and cardio on Monday and did the elliptical last night for 35 minutes. Monday was like an hour and a half workout. I'm going to take a break tonight since I got off work early and just want to enjoy an evening with my boy and his roommates watching "LOST" and "South Park." I have missed the last few episodes of LOST, so I'll be ...lost! while watching it.

Oh I also wanted to mention the dietitian said that when I was eating low calorie all week and then had a tendency to eat out with my boyfriend or friends on the weekend, I was making things worse for myself. I was sending my body into starvation mode so when I did overindulge a bit, my body stores the fat more than it normally would because the intake is 1300, 1400, 1300...whoa 2000!!! So all in all, the visit went well.

Well, I'm going to go out and buy some more veggies! Oh and complaint of the day - SNOW IN APRIL?!?! Come on, Illinois.

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 14.6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/11/2007:
I know, what the heck with Illinois! I'm so disgusted, I'm ready to pack my bags and move to Arizona. This is just crazy talk. I refuse to talk about snow any more. Until tomorrow when it snows again.

Good for you for seeing the dietician. I agree with her advice. I think women in general tend to eat far too few calories.

WorkingIt2 on 04/11/2007:
I zig zag calories so some days I'll eat more, some days less...I think it takes a while before a body will slip into starvation mode, but it does happen when we don't eat enough, that's for sure! Congrats on getting the helpful information from the dietician and keep up the great work!

sweetpea1977 on 04/12/2007:
Wow, what a wonderful visit with your dietician. Thanks for sharing her information with us!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/14/2007:
looks like the dietician said some helpful things! keep us updated on your diet!

girliegirl6486 - Monday Apr 09, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 139.6

So, it's been a rough couple days. Not only did I lose Editor in Chief but our current moron Managing Editor attempted to fire me...??? Our adviser has stepped in and is about to fire the guy because he's out of control and doing a lot of wrong things. This will be my last semester on the campus newspaper. I'm sad, because I thought I would stay here all four years of college and I also thought I would be Editor in Chief my senior year and now here I'm going to leave. Oh well...had to leave some time I guess.

Anyway, I don't feel like totaling food today but here's what I ate:

-Cereal & fat free milk -Easter candy, about 350 calories worth. Whoops. -Ham and cheese sandwich on whole wheat bread -Sun chips (I had the serving size worth) -Pickles -Salad -Grilled chicken breast

That's it. So I don't think I did too bad. Off work early tonight so I'm going to get to the gym. Later!

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 14.6 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/09/2007:
not bad food in general...and you recovered by having a healthy dinner! i'm still sorry about the newspaper...but maybe he won't stay editor in chief! especially from how it sounds...maybe you should reconsider staying in it next year...and maybe you will get that position?...especially if he still keeps doing wrong things!

girliegirl6486 - Saturday Apr 07, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 139.6

Thanks again for all your comforting comments. I'm feeling a little better.

I weighed myself this morning and I was 139.6!!! I'm very excited about that. That's all I really wanted to update about today, just wanted to change my weight : )

Have a great weekend, everyone.

Progress as of today: 4.4 lbs lost so far, only 14.6 lbs to go!

greengirl on 04/07/2007:
Well done on the weight. Sorry you didnt get the position you wanted but keep yout chin up !!!

hollybelle on 04/07/2007:
Sorry to hear about our job not coming through. Glad you feel better. It's a disappointment, but you know The Phoenix - rising up from the ashes! That could be you. Everything happens for a reason and there may be something BETTER out there for you! all the best - Happy Easter.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/07/2007:
congrats on the loss and on feeling better!

girliegirl6486 - Friday Apr 06, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 142.0

It's 4:30 in the morning and I cannot sleep. I did not get Editor in Chief. The reasons they gave me were bullsh*t: "We decided to go with John because we felt people knew him a little better and knew what to expect from him; not a lot of people know you." BULL. I have been there for THREE YEARS and I ran for Editor in Chief last semester which involves you having to talk in front of the entire newsroom. My b*tch roommate just hates my guts and refuses to let me have any success at work, since she is the current EIC, she got to vote and I knew she would convince the other members of the board not to vote for me. She ran against me last time because she didn't want me to have this and now that she's in the position, she had perfect control for me not to get this.

After this semester, I'm quitting. I don't know what other job I'm going to get but I have now and all of summer to find one before next semester. That newspaper has sucked the life out of me for three years, and yes I gained some great things to put on my resume but they won't let me climb the freaking ladder.

I am so hurt because when I started working there right away as a freshman, I made it my goal to be EIC, and now it's not going to happen. No matter what you do there it's NEVER enough. 90% of everything there is whose ass you kiss. I am just SO angry. What's disgusting is I lost to a pothead. I lost to a pothead who has only worked in ONE department there. And I told our adviser the guy is on drugs but I guess nothing could be proved because here the @$$hole won. After I leave I can laugh at how he runs that place into the ground.

At least this time, I lost my appetite entirely. I don't want to eat anything. I feel sick. I've felt sick all freaking week building up to this.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/06/2007:
that's terrible!!! according to what you've written here, you should have DEFINITELY gotten the position! i really hope that they've made a mistake in not hiring you for it! you have time to find somewhere else to work on campus and i'm sure they will be happy to have you!

Donkey on 04/06/2007:
I'm so sorry. Well, it's a tough business, and what won't kill you only makes you stronger. This probably won't be the first time that this happens. Learn and grow from it.

Having said that, I totally believe you when you say that your roommate had something to do with you not getting the EIC position. I do, and I'm sorry if it's true.

Do you think it would be better to just take on a smaller (much smaller) role in the newspaper rather than to just flat-out quit? Consider the consequences is all I'm saying. I would definitely not put into the paper as much as I had been, now that they've shown you just what they think of your leadership qualities.

biscottibody59 on 04/06/2007:
If it's any consequence, everything is political today. Your mom can probably tell you that her job in certain aspects shouldn't be tinged with politics, but there it is. I'm sorry that you didn't get the job you so wanted. It doesn't reflect on your abilities as a reporter I'm sure. So keep doing and growing in that aspect. Take as many management courses as you can if that's what you eventually want to be in the "real" world (outside world, I guess I should say). Of course this is your real world now, not to disparage that:-)

Hang in there and don't let these snakey snakes get to you!

girliegirl6486 - Wednesday Apr 04, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 142.0

So Sunday-Tuesday weren't the best eating days I've had. I didn't do anything too crazy - like go over 2,000 calories or something - but I just ate weird. I am so nervous about tomorrow that my appetite has been all over the place. I'm going to the gym tonight and I almost forgot that I worked out for an hour on Sunday. So as long as I make it once more this week, I'll be set.

TOMORROW is the day I have been waiting for for months: the Editor in Chief forum. I've been an editor on NIU's campus newspaper the Northern Star for five of my six semesters at this school. I ran for EIC last semester but didn't get it. The odds look even more in my favor this time, and I am 80% sure I get it. I have more experience than the other candidate, but unfortunately cliques and office politics play factors in this.

SO everyone cross your fingers that I get the majority vote and that I know what the heck I'm doing in the forum tomorrow! If I lose again...journey to Steak 'n Shake with my friends. That's what we did last time I lost. :)

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

sugarmama on 04/04/2007:
Way to go on not eating too crazy when you have suspense upon you waiting to find out your status on the Editor in Chief position. I will keep my fingers crossed as well as keep you in my thoughts and prayers. But, be proud of yourself for having control in a stressful situation. That's one of my worst downfalls, and I envy those who have that ability.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/05/2007:
nice job on your eating by not going over 2,000! good luck to you, my fingers are crossed!

girliegirl6486 - Tuesday Apr 03, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 142.0

Notice to all:

Slim Fast shakes are, by themselves, tolerable. Perhaps even "tasty."

When Slim Fast shakes are combined with food, however, the texture of real food combined with the texture of the shake is nauseating.

That is all for now.

***NOTE: I don't drink SF shakes normally - there was one left in my fridge from like October so I had it. I wanted just a little bit of food so I had a piece of whole grain toast with a little bit of peanut butter. The bread mixed with shake equals GROSS.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

Donkey on 04/03/2007:
Did I know that already? I think I did. Why would you be eating along with a Slim Fast shake, though? The shakes are supposed to be a meal replacement, no? Ugh, I do not like Slim Fast to begin with. Enough of the Slim Fast talk!!

PS SF shakes taste better with crushed ice.

jon'smom on 04/03/2007:
I totally agree with you about the slimfast shakes.there should be a warning on the can about mixing them with food.LOL

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/03/2007:
i bet!!! i'd rather have a shake by itself...or with some kind of dessert. not with food!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/03/2007:
sorry to hear that!

hollybelle on 04/03/2007:
Yuck - unless NO other choice will forego "Shakes" of any kind. I have a friend who drinks a Boost for lunch almost every day. She is very thin, but what a sacrifice. Other than relieving food choice anxiety, I think shakes are not a good idea. It just gives me the willies to think of a diet that is based on them. But to each their own. In a pinch, I guess they are not a bad choice.

hollybelle on 04/04/2007:
I hope I wasn't offensive in any way with shake comments! Just strong opinion regarding those "shake diets". I am a BIG believer in everyone finding their own way........check back with you soon!

girliegirl6486 - Monday Apr 02, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 142.0

OK. So I'm slipping up a little.

Yesterday I was at only 1,225 calories and 23 grams of fat. To make that even better, I burned off 400 calories at the gym. I weightlifted too, which gives me a little extra calories burned in addition to the 400.

I ate a lowfat healthy dinner. So when I met my boyfriend and his friends at Baker's Square, I didn't think I'd eat anything, especially since my boyfriend had already eaten. WRONG. I had an onion ring and a chicken tender. I also shared (thank God I shared it) a slice of Oreo pie with my boyfriend.

So how much damage was done? I don't know. Considering that post-workout, I was only at 825 calories for the day, maybe it's not that bad. Maybe at WORST I consumed a total of 1,600 calories. But fat? Who knows how much.

And then today...ugh. Let me first say I have not eaten McDonald's since July. I have not eaten fast food in general for about four weeks. Well in my script writing class today, we were going over writing commercials. My teacher went on about how much he loves McDonald's cheeseburgers for five straight minutes. I was salivating. I don't know why, but man I love those burgers. So...after class I got two. Mouthgasms for both, indeed. LOL. But, I feel bad now that I ate them and I'm also not satisfied because fast food is not filling.

Am I being too hard on myself? McDonald's for the first time in nine months, is that SO bad?

I plan to have a Lean Cuisine for dinner and I'm going to snack on an apple now. Here are my calories so far today though:

950 calories and 25.5 grams of fat.

I can't tell you how happy I am that I didn't get any French fries. That would've been trouble.


Thanks for the comments, everyone! I'm more worried about the pie yesterday than the McDonald's I had today. I know I'll be on track the rest of the week though. Well...not Thursday. The Editor in Chief vote is Thursday. I'll either be celebrating with food or drowning my sorrows in it. I'll try to keep it to a minimum though.

I ate a Lean Cuisine for dinner and as a snack I had a TON of grapes. I had a container of them next to my computer at work and ate them all. Though my friends helped eat a lot by stealing a bunch of them. Here are my calories for the day, given I don't snack later:

1,315 calories and 32 grams of fat

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 04/02/2007:
I say NO - it isn't that bad! You are doing great. You shouldn't try to be perfect ALL the time. Endulgences once in awhile actually help us stay on track, I think. They kind of motivate us 'til the next time. I don't eat fast food much at all, but I am lucky in that I don't really like much of that kind of stuff. Let bygonoes be bygones and stay on track this week. Good job!

jon'smom on 04/02/2007:
I think you are doing great! Not having McDonald's in nine months? you should be rewarded with a medal. It's okay that you had those two cheeseburgers. Don't worry about it. Have a great day!

Soon2BThin on 04/02/2007:
I don't think you did that bad. I love those little hamburgers too. And to go 9 months without any I just can't imagine! So don't worry, you're doing great!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/02/2007:
you're not slipping! your calories are fine...keep up the good work!

WorkingIt2 on 04/03/2007:
Why worry about what is already done? Don't live in the past...work on the present and look forward to the future. Don't make food the enemy, once you do that..it has control, not you! Have a great day and keep up the great work!

girliegirl6486 - Saturday Mar 31, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 142.0

Mid-weekend update:

So, Italian food yesterday was DELICIOUS. I probably ate half the loaf of bread - I couldn't help myself - but oh well. Prior to eating at the restaurant, I had only consumed 500 calories and 9 grams of fat. So essentially I had 1,000 calories at my allowance for dinner. I don't know if I ate that much, with restaurant food that's always possible.

I've decided I'm not going to drink at my friend's party tonight. For one thing I'll probably have to be the DD, and for another I noticed my stomach feels flatter than it has in a looooooong time - I don't want to bloat it up with drinking.

I'm about to head to the rec and I want to try to put an hour's worth of cardio in. I've been on the elliptical the last two times so I'll mix it up today with 15 minutes on the StairMaster, 30 minutes on the elliptical and then I'm going to go run outside after that. I might only make 20 minutes on the run, we'll see.

Thanks for all the support you all have left me so far!!!

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

sharklover on 03/31/2007:
mmm, Italian food! I gave up pasta for Lent. I cannot wait for Easter!! haha. Good decision on not drinking tonight. Its funny how it become less tempting as we start to make progress with our diet goals.

You're doing great!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/01/2007:
well, at least you enjoyed dinner...as long as you're with your friends and feel comfortable, you don't need to drink! i'm sure you'll enjoy yourself anyway, you can laugh at them when they get drunk...

girliegirl6486 - Thursday Mar 29, 2007
(1,500 calories a day, exercise 3-4 times a week)
Weight: 142.0

I had an odd variety of food that may not be the best, but hey, low calories and fat wasn't too bad either. Here it is:

Peanut Butter Crunch cereal: 120 calories, 2 grams fat.

Milk: 120 calories, 5 grams fat.

Jimmy John's Slim #4 with cheese (shoulda skipped the cheese): 433 calories, 10 grams fat.

Chips: 130 calories, 1.5 grams fat.

Baked Ziti: 300 calories, 6 grams fat.

S'mores cereal (can't stay away from cereal): 120 calories, 2 grams fat

Milk: 90 calories, 0 grams fat.

Apple: 60 calories, 0 grams fat.

TOTAL: 1,373 calories and 26.5 grams fat.

I was on the elliptical for almost 45 minutes at the rec and burned 450 calories. That seems like a lot to me...I dunno. My nutrition professor says the calorie readings on most machines are pretty accurate. I also did some weight training.

I'm a little concerned about the weekend. I'm going back home tomorrow and going out to an Italian restaurant...I LOVE ITALIAN FOOD SOOOOO MUCH! There are nooooooooooo Italian places around NIU. It sucks! I'm going to try to not have too much bread and I always pick a tomato-sauce dish so maybe it won't be too bad. No worries about fettucine alfredo, which is fatty - I HATE it. Blech. And then Saturday a friend is throwing a party and I don't want to drink alcohol at all really, but when you're out with everyone it's hard...it's terrible I admit to this when I'm not officially 21 :/ Just for the record...I resisted trying alcohol my ENTIRE freshman year of college! That was tough, but I did it! I'm not a crazy partier, I swear.

I need to eat more vegetables...but they take so damn long to prepare...I hate washing things. Pain in the butt. LOL.

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 17 lbs to go!

Justine6Robert3 on 03/29/2007:
Great job loosing 2 lbs!! I'm so with you on the Italian food, I LOVE pasta!! I have managed to stay completely away from "white" pasta and I've only been eating whole wheat. I'm getting used to the whole wheat but ofcourse I still prefer the taste of white pasta!! I also can't stand any type of creamy spaghetti sauce, I love tomato-sauces also, I like alot of flavour and spice, yum!! Tomato sauces are definetly the better choice as far as fat and calories go!!

It is hard to avoid the alcohol when your at a party or a get together where everybody is drinking. I'm sure it won't hurt you to have a couple on occasion, but only if you want to!! I have gone out and stuck to water while others are drinking, its not so bad if that's what you choose to do.

I went to dinner with a few girlfriends tonight and I only had 2 lite beers so I don't feel to guilty. I don't drink to often so I don't think having a couple here and there is to sinful:)

I'm also not a big fan of veggies, its not the preperation, I just don't like the taste! I'm working on trying to experiment and find some that I can manage to eat!

Have a great week-end! Enjoy your party, with or without the alcohol!!!

hotmomma on 03/30/2007:
good job on the excercise! Sounds like your staying on track. I wanted to let you know that i posted some of those whole grain foods i was telling you about in your last entry. Enjoy:)

hollybelle on 03/30/2007:
Cereal is one of my downfalls (used to be cookies and onuts so I guess I am improving). I found that not eating enough protein and eating too many carbs was holding me back so I'm off cereal for awhile. Keep up the good work - 45 minutes on Eliptical! Wow! Regarding more vegetables, try putting them in a zip lock bag with a little seasoning and just a Tablespoon on water and steam them in the bag. It's a pretty good short-cut. You still have to wash them a little, but no pot to wash and it's quick. I do broccoli, carrots, califlower, zuchinni, anything. You just have to make sure that, if you mix them, whichever ones you put in there have the same cooking time so that some aren't mushy while others still too firm, etc. Good luck with the Italian.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/31/2007:
good calories, a good goal would be to incorporate more vegetables and fruits in!

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