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graindart - Thursday Jan 11, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 183.0

Day 11 winding down and I'm below calorie allotment.  Feeling totally fine with being back on plan again.  The first few days after my big Christmas screwup week were a little "iffy" in how committed I was feeling, but now I'm 100% committed again.

Today I saw 183.0 again.  I've officially lost 100 lbs since I started this diet last April (2017).  It's kind of bittersweet stating that because I was actually down to 183 on December 13th.  So basically this past 30 days has been a waste (weight-wise) due to my choice of going off diet for a week.  I'm not feeling depressed about it, I just need to remember it for the next time I get tempted.  Next time I need to ask myself if I'm willing to work hard for 1 month in exchange for 1 week of excess?  My answer may be the same the next time, but at least I'll know what it will cost me.  When I decided to go off diet for the week, I was secretly hoping that I'd only gain 2 or 3 lbs total and have it off again within 3 or 4 days.  As if all of my weight issues had magically disappeared because I had lost 100 lbs this past year....... 

Anyways, on to new lows in 2018.  The lowest the scale registered prior to Christmas vacation was 182.4.  I'll hopefully see a new low on the scale sometime over the next week or two, which will be an encouragement.

To recap a temptation from a few days ago about the muffins:  I got curious and asked my wife what they were, secretly hoping apple nut so I wouldn't be as tempted.  They did turn out to be rhubarb, which I was somewhat craving.  Knowing that, I kind of expected that I was going to eat at least one and I did have the calorie budget to handle one.  I got busy and forgot about it that night.  Woke up the next morning as the wife & kids were heading out the door.  Went to the kitchen with muffins on the brain.........and they were all gone.  Instead of being disappointed, I was actually relieved.  Worst case scenario would have been to see 2 muffins sitting there.  I would've eaten one and the other would've been calling my name for the rest of the day.

On to Day 12, hoping to see 182.9 or lower on the scale in the morning.

Progress as of today: 100 lbs lost so far, only 18 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/12/2018:
The struggle is real....it's sad how the wt comes back on so easily and goes off so slowly...but you have the right frame of mind right now and that's the most difficult part. Congrats of getting things under control again.

happy-1 on 01/12/2018:
I feel you.

graindart - Wednesday Jan 10, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 183.9

Day 10 completed successfully. Not much new to report today. Remembered to do my push-ups and Pull-Ups.

On to day 11.

Progress as of today: 99.1 lbs lost so far, only 18.9 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/11/2018:
Well done! How many sets of push and pull ups do you do? I was doing 3 sets of 15 push-ups until I hurt my back a few months ago... I haven't gone back to putting them into my daily routine yet. :-/

graindart on 01/11/2018:
Pushups are starting off slow. I'm doing them the same number of times as the numerical day of the month. Today was Jan 11th, so I did 11. Tomorrow is the 12th, so I'll do 12. I'm doing it like that as more of a getting into the habit type thing. Assisted pullups I'm doing 5 sets nightly. When I'm able to do 10 reps for each set, I'll drop the amount of assistance by a band which will require more work and consequently drop the number of reps I can do. Then when I get up to 10 reps per set again, I'll drop the resistance bands again.

graindart - Tuesday Jan 09, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 184.7

Day 9 successfully under calorie budget.

Got the pullup helper bands in the mail today.  They're just what I was needing to be able to start using my pullup tower in my office.  They worked very similar to the assisted pullup machine in gyms, but since they're elastic, they actually help more at the bottom and less at the top which is good for me.  My main problem area with pullups is the initial dead-hang / getting started off the bottom.

Here's what I ordered:


And here's a Youtube video showing how they're used:


It allowed me to do a few sets of assisted pullups tonight.  I'm writing down the color bands and number of sets / reps that I do each time and will hopefully be able to progress over the next while until I can actually do an UNassisted pullup someday.

On to day 10.....

Progress as of today: 98.3 lbs lost so far, only 19.7 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/10/2018:
I watched the YouTube video - cool! I can see how they would help you with the pull-ups. Keeping a log of your progress is an excellent idea! Have fun!

graindart - Monday Jan 08, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 185.8

Day 8 done and successfully stayed below calorie allotment.  Feeling like I'm back in the groove again. 

Not eating the best stuff all of the time, but more veggies & less carbs than in the past.  Veggies are usually broccoli, cauliflower, brussel sprouts, asparagus, and lettuce mixes (salad).  Getting a little tired of some of them, so might see about some eggplant and spaghetti squash.

Amazon lied.....I didn't get my pullup helper bands today.  Now they're scheduled to arrive tomorrow.

One week off my diet and out of control resulted in a 16 lb gain on the scale.  One week back on my diet and not going over calorie allotment removed 13 of those lbs on the scale.  I'm sure there's all kinds of things that play into it like water, sodium, etc.  But just using the 3 lb differential, I guess I could surmise that being out of control for one week basically caused an effective gain of 3 lbs of fat.  That makes a lot more sense than just seeing the difference of 16 lbs from start of the week to end of the week of chaos.  Hoping I'll be back on track and seeing new lows again in another week or two. 


Progress as of today: 97.2 lbs lost so far, only 20.8 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/09/2018:
You're on the way!

horn_of_plenty on 01/09/2018:
Great job and good plan to switch up your veggies. I get sick of the same ones all the time also - also you can try different cooking methods like less steaming and adding more flavor by sautéing or roasting with a little olive oil salt and pepper - I cannot really eat plain steamed veggies anymore and when I do there's a little sauce added just a little and usually it a cream or Hesse based sauce bc those are high cal....

Sorry your equip is coming anday late this sometimes happens with MGM stuff too tho usually not

graindart on 01/09/2018:
I hate steamed vegetables. My are usually fried, roasted, seared, or lightly charred. Usually I like them in some type of oil/fat (olive, sesame, bacon fat), but have been cooking them without lately. Lowry's seasoning salt or a cajun blackened spice mixture have been my go-to sprinkles lately. All add some cheese to change things up at times also.

horn_of_plenty on 01/09/2018:
Yes agree that a week of eating whatever you want is a lot of extra cals ....I try to stay on track or only slightly off track now also even on vacation bc for me it's rough to know I have to once again remove More Than a few lbs

Donkey on 01/09/2018:
Hope the bands arrived today!

Your experience with weight fluctuation is exactly what I was experiencing during/after Thanksgiving, causing myself to ask, "What IS weight, exactly?" Especially when it seems that some pounds drop off so quickly and then other pounds stick like glue. What the heck?

graindart - Sunday Jan 07, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 186.7

Day 7 completed under calorie budget. 

Main meal (dinner) was a very large salad with low calorie dressing / malt vinegar on top of lettuce mix, cod, ham, bacos, tomato.  A few other snacks during the day including a couple of the 100 calorie microwave popcorn bags.

Wife and kids made some delicious looking muffins tonight (smell awesome too).  Not sure what they were because I figure if I don't know I might not be as tempted.  I technically have enough calories left over for today to eat one, but will probably pass for now.  They have a crumble on top of them, so I'm guessing apple nut or maybe rhubarb type muffins.  Apple nut I'd probably pass on, but if I knew they were rhubarb I'd probably eat one since they rarely get made.  I shouldn't have typed this paragraph, because now I'm really curious of they're rhubarb.

Seven pushups were pretty straight forward today, but was noticing a slowdown near the 7th.  I'm thinking I can probably max out at 10 currently........guess I'll find out in 3 days.

Progress as of today: 96.3 lbs lost so far, only 21.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/08/2018:
Costco has Birchbender Paleo Pancake mix and I'm using that as a base for muffins. Mix in flax and chia meal and you can get a treat with fiber to stop snacking.

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2018:
Omg wait I thought YOU were the wife !? I guess you aren't the female I was thinking of - I thought you were katalin??

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2018:
Those apple nut and also rubharb muffins sound so good !!!!! That sounds so awesome A rubharb muffin!

innerpeace on 01/08/2018:
OMG, I did too, think you were a female. I guess that's what I get for thinking. Let me apologize now for writing anything bad about men, when referring to my dear husband (DH). Also, I guess if I read your profile, I would have known.

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2018:
as far as popcorn:

my fave is orville redenbachers..however you spell it...it's around 200 cal per minibag but tastes AMAZING!

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2018:
If you are a member of a gym, you can do pull ups with the assisted pull-up machine, i love that one...the better you get, the less weight you use to assist you. it's like one of the only machines at the gym where the less weight you add, the HARDER it gets...

you have good goals!

sounds like you have a ton of knowledge about what to do....try not to do too much at once....so to make sure everything you do is attainable.

graindart on 01/08/2018:
Haven't joined a gym in a long while. Did try the assisted pullup machine a few years back, but it was when I was a lot heavier. As such, it required a large amount of counter weight. Either the large amount of counter weight or the machine itself was in less than optimal condition, because it wasn't overly smooth and didn't provide a good help for completing the pullups. The helper bands are supposed to be here today, so I should be able to try them out tonight.

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2018:
Let us know how it works out - i haven't heard of helper bands !

graindart - Saturday Jan 06, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 186.8

Day 6 went okay and I remained under my calorie allowance.  Random rambling thoughts follow.

Had family over for dinner and nerf gun wars.  My sister is also on a diet & exercise plan, as we're all going on a cruise in June of this year.  My goal is to be down around 10%-15% bodyfat and able to do 10 pullups.  I think the bodyfat percentage is doable, but haven't started working towards the pullup goal at all.  The diet / weightloss has been going since April 2017 and my scale has gone from showing 45% bodyfat to currently hovering just below 20% (technically 19.8% this morning).  Another 5%-10% bodyfat loss should be easily attainable over the next 4 or 5 months as long as I don't get side-tracked. 

As for pullups........I don't ever remember a time in my life that I've ever been able to do one, let alone the 10 I'd like to be able to do.  I do have a pullup bar tower in my office that makes a nice coat rack.  My sister's goal by June is to be able to do 3 pullups and she's never been able to do 1 before either.  After supper she wanted to attempt one to see if she's made any progress with her exercise.  She wasn't able to get started.  I decided to give it a go and from a complete dead hang couldn't get started much at all.  However I started with just a little bend in my elbows and was able to do 1 chinup (chinup palms facing you, pullup palms facing away from you).  That's probably the closest I've been to completing one pullup or chinup before.  It's not from any exercising, but just from the fact that I now weigh less than I have for the majority of my adult life.  It kind of surprised me and gave me hope.  I ordered some pullup bands to help with getting started using the pullup tower and am looking forward to having them in a few days. 

I did also start an accountability type small workout goal with a friend a couple days ago.  It's not enough work to probably see any noticeable results, but is more of a daily choice / habit building decision.  I decided that January would be pushup month and we both agreed to check-in daily to verify that each of us had completed the number of pushups corresponding to the numerical day of the month.  January 5th, do 5 pushups.  January 6th, do 6 pushups.  And so on through the end of the month.  I'm not in good shape, but still had no issue with doing 6 decent form pushups this morning.  I'm guessing the middle of the month will get a bit harder and by the end of the month I'll be having to briefly rest between sets of 10-15 pushups at a time.  I don't expect to see results from the pushups, but just the thought of doing them daily has got me thinking more about weight lifting or other similar exercise.

While I'd like to be stronger and have more defined muscles, I'm not really all that interested in cardio.  I have never desired to run a few miles, but would love to be able to do some strength-based anaerobic activities.  I just have no desire to sit on a stationary bike or walk on a treadmill for 30+ minutes each day.  However, I'd love to be able to do some upper-body strength based things like walking on my hands or doing handstand pushups or something like that.

On to day 7 tomorrow......

Progress as of today: 96.2 lbs lost so far, only 21.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/07/2018:
Exercise will help you immensely. Not only in its own benefits, but may also help you keep your food in check. Might also help with drinking more water, which is essential to the weight loss process.

Go with what interests you -- doesn't have to be cardio! :-)

graindart - Friday Jan 05, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 189.5

 Happy to see the 180's again this morning.  My weight can easily fluctuate a few lbs on any given morning, so I realize that I might see 190+ again tomorrow, but it was still a pleasant surprise. 

189.5 just sounds so much lighter than 190 to me. 

Just 7 more lbs to go to get down to my pre-Christmas Day weight again (182-ish).  I hate having to re-lose the same weight I've already lost before.  It was a conscious decision to go off-diet for a week.  At the time it sounded like a good idea and I did enjoy eating all of the different types of cookies.  Of course now I regret it, which is something I'll hopefully remember the next time I consider stuffing my face for a week straight.

My mini-goals:
181 - back on track before the Christmas choice
179 - first time I've seen the 170's in probably 25 years
169 - first time I've seen the 160's in probably 30 years
165 - final goal, based on current muscle mass

My final goal of 165 is based on body fat percentages, math calculations, and current muscle mass.  I'm contemplating starting to lift weights.  If I do start some type of muscle building regimen, my final goal weight might not be as low as 165.  I'll know better over the couple of months.  

It's funny how different environments can affect my willpower so much.  At home I'm in a normal pattern of eating and don't have a lot of temptations.  I know if I really wanted to, I could find some candy in the kids stuff, but don't really feel tempted.  This is in contrast to watching my oldest daughter playing basketball tonight (high school).  Over the couple hours I was in the stands, I saw so many people chowing down on loaded nachos.  I'm not usually a nachos type of guy, but I seriously considered jumping off the wagon again.  I didn't, but it was a brief thought I had 2 or 3 times during the games.

Sitting here still under calories for the day.  Have a couple hundred more that are allowed and will probably pop a bag of the 100 calorie popcorn and maybe eat a slice of cheese.  Day 5 a success......onto day 6.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 24.5 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/05/2018:
Those are hormonal messages from your body fat to your brain "Candy"... "Nachos"... Think of it as a scifi alien that has invaded your body and suddenly you want to eat phone wires....


Horn_of_plenty on 01/06/2018:
YOU CAN DO THIS! ....prove this to yourself that you can do it....and we want you to succeed...it's going to motivate all of us to keep on! So, keep on, GRAIN!

Donkey on 01/06/2018:
Congratulations on the new numbers! Isn't that wonderful? I completely get you on the fluctuations though. I would encourage you to be patient with your body, and you'll get there.

Regarding situational eating, it's really hard to be around people who are eating -- my husband falls into this trap quite often. I've learned to bring sugarless gum, water or flavored water (no calories), and sugarless hard candy (Life Savers) to help curb the temptation. IT'S REALLY DIFFICULT.

At your indirect suggestion (from your diary), I bought the 100-calorie packs of popcorn and promptly burnt a whole bag at work. The whole place stunk like fire. As I'm having difficulties at work with co-workers, this was sort of a sweet revenge, but I won't do that again. I'll pop the corn bag at home first. I put the bag in for an additional 15 seconds because the bag felt only half popped. Then it burned so I couldn't eat any of it. Oops.

graindart on 01/06/2018:
I've tried different brands with different results. Pop Secret tends to burn in my microwave. Healthy Pop 100's pop as close to perfect as possible in my microwave. 90 seconds in my microwave and usually only 3 or 4 unpopped kernels with no burning. It's also the cheapest 10 pack box at my local grocery store and comes with a free Redbox rental, so that's a bonus.

horn_of_plenty on 01/08/2018:
my fave is orville redenbachers..however you spell it...it's around 200 cal per minibag but tastes AMAZING!

graindart - Thursday Jan 04, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 190.3

Day 4 and still on track.  Ending today just a few calories below my daily allowance. 

Getting tired of sugar-free Jello and popcorn.  Have been eating much healthier lately, including vegetables.  Have the sugar-free Jello and popcorn 100 calorie packs in the house so if I get a craving it doesn't cause me to consume a few hundred calories in a sudden binge-fest.  I think a small bag of potato chips at the gas station is supposedly "3 servings" and around 500 calories.  A 5 calorie Jello cup or 100 calorie bag of popcorn causes much less damage.

Progress as of today: 92.7 lbs lost so far, only 25.3 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2018:
Hello Grainy!

Another successful day for you in the books. What do you allow yourself for a daily allowance in calories? I want to see if it’s too low for you…If I were you, allow yourself up to 1800-2000 cals. You will lose weight at that amount…

If you want a change from the sugar free jello and popcorn, maybe try some fruit and veggies. Like cut up celery and eat it with blueberries? You can add a little salt to the celery if you want. Or seltzer (carbonated “bubble” water)….or warm teas (herbal not caffeine) instead of jello…there’s other options…oh, now I read you are eating veggies….GOOD!

Also, YES, eat small servings and you can still “eat the bad stuff” but in smaller servings like you are doing. This is also what I do. Instead of buying big bags, eat only a portion. Or eat chips, follow them up with jello or eat veggies first, then chips second. Try to make the portions of the unhealthy stuff small, but still enjoy it. You are doing GREAT, very on TRACK.

It’s not about denying yourself the unhealthy stuff, just eat it moderately inbetween eating the other healthy things too. YOU GOT THIS….i love what you wrote!

graindart on 01/05/2018:
Daily calorie limit is around 1500-1600 per day, which is enough for my height/weight/exercise level at present. I'm never hungry and never feel low on energy. According to calorie calculators online, my daily calorie intake to maintain (not lose) once I get to 165 lb goal weight is 1974 calories.

Moderation and portion sizes have always been my issue. I tend to be all-or-nothing, especially when dealing with foods I love. I have no desire to eat 1 slice of pizza, I want to eat the whole pizza. Knowing that, I just tend to mostly avoid pizza and other foods that I know I have no desire to eat in moderation. Veggies on the other hand, I have no problem measuring out a cup or two and only eating a certain amount.

happy-1 on 01/05/2018:
I like the apple slices from costco and the single serving peanut butter packets... I stay within a single serving that way.

graindart on 01/05/2018:
I like single serving stuff also. Much less likely for me to overindulge that way. I also prefer when the single serving size equates to 100 calories. When I have a set number of calories for the day, 100 calorie increments seem like more. If my daily limit were 1500 calories and each thing is 500 calories, that's only 3 things for the entire day. If each thing is 100 calories, that's 15 things I get to eat during the day. In the end it's the same calorie count, but 15 different things sounds so much more exciting than 3 things.

graindart - Wednesday Jan 03, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 192.4

Day 3 coming to a close and I'm staying within my calorie budget.

Been eating a lot of popcorn lately. My salt intake is probably a lot higher than optimal, but right now it's allowing me to cope and get back on track.

Progress as of today: 90.6 lbs lost so far, only 27.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/05/2018:
to cope with higher salt, drink more water / have more veggies (raw) things that are watery! :)

graindart - Tuesday Jan 02, 2018
(moderate food, decent water intake)
Weight: 197.2

 Made it through the 1st without going over calorie budget.  Sitting here at the end of January 2nd still under my budget for the day.  Just have to make it to bed without any major detours along the way (kitchen).


Progress as of today: 85.8 lbs lost so far, only 32.2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2018:
You can do it ! Be proud you kept your promise to yourself !!!!! Also, if you do get really hungry, don't let it get out o control and Have something small and simple like granola bar and it'll raise your blood sugar, keep you in good mood and help you sleep.

Donkey on 01/03/2018:
Way to go! I'm sorry if my comment on your last entry was too harsh. I've been in your place so many times before...

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