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happy-1 - Friday Jul 13, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 222.1

Correction...222.1! The scale was partially on the rug and uneven! Yay me!!!! Real loss!!!!

Progress as of today: 94.9 lbs lost so far, only 16.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/13/2018:
YEAHHHH YOU!!!



happy-1 - Thursday Jul 12, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.1

My day started off track but I am more or less hanging in there, probably because I walked my dog for an hour this morning, which according to the OT is a sensory input that helps with focus and task adhesion. I was up puttering about tidying and packing meal prep bags of oatmeal. My mom came out couldn't find the exact right measuring cup (there were several all for the same 1/4 cup measure but they weren't the right one). I had the presence of mind to not yell back, grab my bags and head to my doc appt. after I had my bissell spot bot in my car already so I was able to get it inspected at the repair center... Turns out it is a $180 disposable electronic because it has plastic gears that can't be replaced. This just makes me mad. I refuse to buy another one. Just on principle. Too stressed, hot, and itchy so I am seeing a movie, then I will go next door to the kinkos and get things done.

Seriously debating cancelling going camping this weekend so I can avoid the drama of coming home to discover a huge mess of dishes and trash, and also hit the hazmat collection center this saturday. I've got a backseat full of broken electronics and it turns out the local center won't take anything they can't get cash for

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rise app is crashing soblogging here today

6am - oatmeal, raisins, walnuts, protein powder, coconut cream. Water

11am - costco chicken salad 1/2 dressing and croutons

1pm - trader joes turkey swiss wrap and a canned coffee

Progress as of today: 93.9 lbs lost so far, only 17.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
I had one of the original spot bots when they first came out...it didn't last long either.....tossed it...and used a carpet cleaner daily...until the dog passed....

happy-1 on 07/12/2018:
Aaaaaaaaw hugs


horn_of_plenty on 07/13/2018:
seems you got a lot going on...as far as the canned coffees, aren't they just majorly overpriced!? they're the only thing i haven't gone for yet in specialty food stores, preferring still iced coffees from DD as they are less calories than the sweetened ones usually, aside from the black canned coffees that is! there are sooo many coffee options, ready made now, even at the supermarket!

happy-1 on 07/13/2018:
Yeah, I never buy them but I didn't get cofffee at home because I had to flee that morning over the damn measuring cup, lol! I need caffeine for asthma



happy-1 - Wednesday Jul 11, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.1

Weight loss!!! Only .4 lb BUT it is movement in the right direction!!! I think it was all the chores I did during the blackout while sweating like a pig... combined with the two meals out, ice cream, and cashews. Basically a free day and my body gave up weight. Also, another pride point... the mexican place I stopped at gives you free chips and salsa, but I declined them and ordered carne asada tacos... semi-healthy.

Had to cancel on yoga last night to help parents with blackout. Got charged a fee.

Occupational therapist today. Blech.

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Slightly amazed at how much I got done at home during the blackout with fewer distractions... I got all the plasticware lids and dishes matched up and put away, gunk off the stove, saw bottom on the dishes in the kitchen sink, changed my sheets, got all my laundry sorted and put away, cleaned out my junk from the front entryway... went through some junk in a rusty bag and sorted it out for trash / recycling, loaded up all the electronics recycling in my car to drop on the way home from the OT, got two meals knocked out so I can at least get first breakfast and second breakfast on track today, washed my car... Three major clutter areas busted!

Saw great big calendar desk blotter sized pads at the store that I could put up on the fridge as a central command station to help with organizing centrally... but not sure I want to take on the project of manually maintaining a calendar separate from the one on my phone. It would help me know when my dad needs a ride if he put it up there but unless I have it on my phone too I won't remember. Only $8 though... hmmm

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Occupational therapist was interesting. I'm pretty sure she thinks I am out of my mind... But not yet... I have a few more inches of sanity rope I can hang onto and pull myself back. She may also just not be sure how to help me because it's not like I am having problems showing up for appointments, doing assignments, etc. It's that I feel like I am stuck in sand and my wheels are spinning. As she says, it is about meeting your own expectations.

We went over my time tracking exercise and she had me color in how my time met my expectations.It was lucky that I had also done a time plan for how I currently structure my time... It made the exercise easier. I don't know why they don't make that part of the assignment. Anyway... She had me modify my time plan to always walk my dog for an hour at 6 AM and do stretching/yoga/pushups for 30 min after lunch at 12:30 PM. This is supposed to help improve my focus and ability to stay on task.

So we will see!

Progress as of today: 93.9 lbs lost so far, only 17.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/11/2018:
Congrats on the loss!!!! You did get a lot done...good for you!

happy-1 on 07/11/2018:
TY!!! It feels good to see a clean entryway. Like it's someone else's house. It also feels good to see a reward for my efforts. I swear I only lose weight if I do something right... like sucking up missing yoga and getting a fee to make sure my parents handled the blackout ok. It was probably only .4 and not 1 because I kind of didn't want to go to yoga anyway, lol. God may be speaking through my Costco deal scale.


graindart on 07/11/2018:
Always good to see the scale moving in the right direction.

happy-1 on 07/11/2018:
Yippee! Momentum is hardest when you start... but it builds.


Donkey on 07/11/2018:
I have a wall calendar that I got from the church at Christmas time for free. I have the kids' write in their schedules, plus any appointments that myself or the husband might have. Helps me manage my life in relation to theirs -- so that I'm not asking a million times, When's your next day off? LOL! So that might help you. I'm not sure a blotter size calendar is what you need though. Wouldn't that be too huge, too heavy?

Any loss is a good loss - way to go!

happy-1 on 07/11/2018:
Yay weight loss!

I was thinking with a large blotter size one the little pot its can fit on it and be moved around easily... so like a trip to a store for my dad... or me planning a mail run can get picked up and moved to the next day... there's also space to write large for my dad who can't see much.

My dad won't write in his stuff. He won't even make a shopping list, even when he was younger... my mom would say "make a list" and he would just keep repeating himself louder. Augh. My mom won't do it unless it is her idea because she's oppositional by nature. So even me buying it would ruin it before it started, lol.


bearcountrygg on 07/12/2018:
Happy....You have a LOT of insight into what makes your whole family tick!!!!! You know....so many people live entire lifetimes never figuring those things out!!!!


horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2018:
at first the occupational therapist was the type a kid goes to - for help with actual body tasks and body movements.


innerpeace on 07/12/2018:
Wow you got tons done! That is amazing and you should be so proud. I have an issue with time management as well, I hope you find something that works for you. Dog time is a MUST!! I love the time I take walking my dog.



happy-1 - Tuesday Jul 10, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Today is a challenge. A blackout with no estimated time for service to be restored... AND a heatwave. I made a major mistake on dates and missed a recruiter meeting. Just spacey from 2.5 days of cleanup and 3 instances of heat stroke... I get it really easy. Always have.

I really need a nap. So bad. The fat girl inside of me says "pizza". The skinny girl I am trying to be says "get **** done and go to bed early".

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And the kid inside me heard the ice cream truck that has gone by everyday for the last however many years and said... go get an ice cream cone with your dog... and I did.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/10/2018:
drink more water, maybe some electrolytes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

be careful in the heat. it is easy to feel bad in this weather!

i hope tomorrow will be better for you....so sorry about the power outage. that is very inconvenient.

happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
Hugs! Ty!


Horn_of_plenty on 07/10/2018:
maybe have something else italian instead of pizza? when i'm tired, i also crave food / carbs.

happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
Mmmm eggplant parm!!! I'll make some pasta with the shiritaki noodles in my fridge tomorrow. Good idea!

happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
Mmmm eggplant parm!!! I'll make some pasta with the shiritaki noodles in my fridge tomorrow. Good idea!


bearcountrygg on 07/11/2018:
Hope your power is back on now....that sounds miserable.

happy-1 on 07/11/2018:
Till 11:00 last night :(



happy-1 - Monday Jul 09, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

223.6. Scale keeps laughing at me but I guess no damage was done on my vacation if I am only up ".1". So frustrating. Spent 6h last night vacumimg and cleaning with little or nothing to show for it except fewer ants. I am so glad I bought and put out ant traps before I left. Could have been worse.

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Spent too much time on tracking time today... literally. Tried to use IFTT to put fitbit and cronometer information onto a single dashboard with my other apps and couldn't do it... not the first user to have this problem. Fitbit does not make calories consumed part of their IFTT channel. Argh.

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Having a hard time managing hunger today. I eat and I am still starving. I am behind on the veggies today because everything is still a mess.

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Had to lock my older than dirt dog in her crate next to me on the bed to keep her on her cooling mat in front a of a fan. She has stopped panting at least. I just keep misting her with a spray bottle. Why a dog can't figure out that they should stay someplace cool instead of following me around the house in 90+ weather... I do not know. 

Upside, I can get up to get a snack without tripping over her and there's no banging the screen door.

Downside, I feel guilty for locking her in her crate all day. I need a hug.

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Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/09/2018:
Hope you are spraying yourself too! Stay cool!

happy-1 on 07/09/2018:
Yeah I just keep hopping in the shower to wash off ants anyway. Dropped to 84.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/09/2018:
i haven't been managing hunger well either the past couple days at work...but i know why - too much stress doing something new that requires slightly more physical work...so body is craving carbs and energy. especially Monday after the weekend...i'm glad i felt better AFTER lunch! Leading up to lunch was BAAAAAD. felt like DEATH!

happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
Just don't have a hamster snack ;)

happy-1 on 07/10/2018:
Sometimes I mock chew on my dog... she never seems remotely worried. I dunno a hamster would feel the same way :)



happy-1 - Sunday Jul 08, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Home again. I think this was my most successful dog sitting in terms of not being up till all hours cleaning, wearing myself out, and eating ok... except for portion size. But I can continue to improve and work on that.

Finished watching Big Ward... sad. I felt like I found a bunch of people saying "me too"... and now they are gone. No season 2 available. Although I don't think I would pick weightloss surgery. People have to lose 8+ kilos to do it... and I don't really get why they pick extreme surgery instead of just continuing to grit it out. But then again I'm strugling to break my new plateau each time I lose a half a pound every couple of months or so. The idea of losing 2lbs a week... so tempting. But it also seems like it would be hard to do a thruhike of the Adirondacks on a stomach the size of a ballpoint pen. The New Zealanders aren't squeamish about showing the gory details either... with 59.3lbs to my goal weight left I don't think it would speed things up enough to balance out the effort and constant maintenance these folks go through. UDG is in a pre-op program though... and this show made it easier for me to start to understand why he is pursuing that. My ex in San Diego had it done about a decade ago. It helps me start to understand better how he got onto that path.

Sending parents out to eat. There's too much cleanup to do here (parents made a huge mess while I was gone) and my neck is killing me from driving my car. I am glad I waited to plant new stuff till after this weekend. All my herbs in my window died from the heat wave.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!


happy-1 - Saturday Jul 07, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Extra post for today... but I have had a couple of days to myself and have mostly spent it laying down in a cool pleasant quiet room with peaceful happy pups for company. It's about as close to heaven as that gets. I look forward to being healthier and having more exciting weekends away... but for right now I'm just happy about that... and also the inches list frim my ribs, waist and hips because they represent actual movement towards health... they are on the measurements for insulin resistant belly fat... and that is scary stuff. So I am very happy to be headed home tomorrow with these couple of days as a reward for that victory and a day of on-track eating in the bag, and to conquer looking for a job.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/08/2018:
Carrying over from your earlier entry... I truly do dislike these beastly hot days. I was commenting to a co-worker on Friday that if the summer weather could be like this, temperate, 70s to low 80s, I'd be quite happy. She said that it's like this year round in San Diego. Well.... I'm afraid that it's probably not like this any more in San Diego from what I can tell on the national weather maps in the morning, but I do agree that it used to be like that for many areas in California.

(IDK maybe I'm wrong about that. WTH do I know about California?)

I'm glad that you posted again yesterday. What a testament to gratitude of the immediate moment. You are doing well for yourself. I hope to remain/become one of your biggest cheerleaders!

happy-1 on 07/08/2018:
Thank you! I need the cheerleading! It helps me find the right path.


bearcountrygg on 07/08/2018:
You are doing great...….quiet peacefulness promotes internal thinking....it's easier to understand ourselves when we have time to contemplate our lives......we know what we need...we can give that to ourselves...it's a great gift....selfcare...….


Maria7 on 07/08/2018:
Congrats on your progress.



happy-1 - Saturday Jul 07, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Insane heat wave continues. I'm keeping things chill here with the dogs. My dog and I are chilling in the bathroom so the bulldog gets rest and doesn't get over-exerted. He wants something and keeps barking at me but I do not know what he wants. I went out early to get stuff to meal prep breakfast for the week but somehow it just seems too hot to do anything right now. Plus the bulldog gets too worked up over food. I guess that's the benefit of cooking for your dog over kibble/canned. Your dog doesn't really care what you are eating... it is the same thing they have. Meals in peace.

This is the most on track I have been food-wise while dog sitting. I have eaten larger portions than I should have but not to the point of being overboard. I'm watching "the big ward" and "from fat to finish line" on netflix and I recognize a lot of the same food issues I am having with my parents.

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Mystery solved. Huge rainstorm hit and broke the heatwave. He'd been barking and pawing at his ears so I gave him an ear cleaning and a bath... but it was the barometric pressure. Once the storm hit he raced around the house batking his head off. My dog is crazy like me so we enjoyed the rain on the patio.

Dogs.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/07/2018:
Good job staying on track!!!!!

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Ty!


Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
maybe i can find those videos from netflix on YouTube?

Proud of you for managing your eating while away and dog sitting much better this time around!

those were good ratings from the nutritionist - very good job Happy!

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Maybe! Everything is on youtube, lol.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
It's weird... they have a lady on episode six who is 132 kilos and that's 291 lbs... but she just doesn't look that heavy to me. I guess my perspective is distorted.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
yes, frozen meals are so small.



happy-1 - Friday Jul 06, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Up at dog sitting. It's over 100 up here and I don't do heat well so I am lying on the floor with my dog on my yoga mat watching netflix. The puppy never settles for more than a minute so my dog decided to head for the bathroom. She suddenly looks really old and her eye is tearing again. The bulldog can't go for walks because he has huge interdigital cysts that his mom says are a breed thing but I swear it looks like a fungal infection and the one time my dog started something similar it was daily vinegar soaks and washing the patio with simple green twice a week that got rid of it. I'm no vet though.

Super glad to have some quiet and down time. Just some alone time to introvert and destress, get eating back on track and decompress. There's been so much constant fighting at home over food changes... they don't have their drugs basically. My mom is trying to avoid insulin so my dad isn't getting as many opportunities for fast food so he's miserable even though I cook two meals a day.

Breathe, release, rejuvinate.

One foot in front of the other.

Ratings from nutritionist are educational and surprising. Like the breakfast I had because I cooked for my dad but burned his so I ate that one and then made anorher... eggs with cheese, white toast and margerine got a green because the fat proteins and carbs balanced. Skipping a meal got a green because it is ok to listen to my body. Protein cookies got yellows because eventhough they were healthy I was subbing them in for too many meals.

Alright. Keep on keeping on. Didn't pack food for this weekend because my fog got caught in a glue trap while hiding from fireworks and I'd already gone to bed with a sleeping pill. Disaster and trauma. Spent a shocking $76 at Trader Joes. I hope I just overbought and end up tsking stuff home. It is astounding to think of one person eating that much in one weekend. I got a couple of salads, frozen pizza, diet gingerale, a couple of frozen asian meals, apples, and oatmeal ingredients. My budget is more like that for 3 people and a dog for a week.

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/06/2018:
Dogs and fireworks...I'm sad for them when they get so scared......hope she's over it now.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Yeah she perked up last night and is ready to be a pain in the butt because she's restless and it's too hot to go for walks. Looks a little funny though... she got a funny fur cut wherever there was a glue trap because I was running out of oil.


Donkey on 07/07/2018:
I hate fireworks. I mean, they're very pretty, but if I'm not watching them - which I don't because I don't like crowds - then the noise is very annoying, bothersome, distracting - YUCK. My cats go crazy, too, and I really don't like that.

That is very interesting from the nutritionist. I hope you are finding the evaluations to be helpful.

I'm sorry that home life is kind of chaotic right now. And very glad to hear that you have a place to retreat and regroup with dog-sitting. If it helps, my family is crazy about food too. Not in the same way, but it is insane.

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Oh good heavens... so glad I don't have cats right now. I put out all the traps I had left hoping to catch anything spooked by fireworks that might still be hanging around. I can't even imagine trying to get them off cats.

I can see why people start lying about what they are eating... it was tempting to not list the frozen pizza I had last night... or the frozen pork dumplings. Or the extra yogurts and crackers. I just get so hungry dog sitting. The bulldog freaks out when I clean and I can't take them for walks so there's no way to move about and not feel hungry.

I like this bulldog... he's a sweetie pie... but I could never have a dog this delicate/heat intolerant. My dog is super weird and a loner but so durable and easy to take anywhere/do anything with.... like me? Lol. My furry soulmate.


graindart on 07/07/2018:
Our temps just jumped up to the high 90's. Sat in the mid 70's for a long time and just now decided it's summer..... Hit 99 yesterday and I spent most of the day inside with the AC. Wish it would just sit 75-80 degrees each day and cool off to around 60 nightly.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/07/2018:
trader joes / frozen meals can be expensive if not on sale!

happy-1 on 07/07/2018:
Yeah and not much in them, and not satisfying at all. Total disappointment. Not doing that again. I have been cooking so much to keep costs down I remembered them being better.



happy-1 - Wednesday Jul 04, 2018
(I can do all things through C, 80% or better daily)
Weight: 223.5

Started off track today, but as the saying goes "If you get ne flat tire, you don't have to pop the other 3". Sometimes Pinterest is a font of wisdom. Stayed up too late last night watching GLOW on Netflix and dealing with fireworks and my dog... Overslept by 5h and got up and made coffee... at the same time as my dad was doing his thing and he knocked it over and it went EVERYWHERE. This upset him and his reaction is to get angry and berate me. I cleaned it up and went to help my friend finish her floor. On the way home I did my planned store run and still bought him his "extras" like diet coke and white bread.

The aggravation is kind of throwing me off though... All my meals are off today... I've had coffee creamer with transfats and sugar, no veggies, and a hotdog in a bun.... instead of broccoli, oatmeal and coconut oil. SIGH. 

In the last 90 days or so I have lost 7.3 lbs and 1% bodyfat... A bunch of inches... and not from my boobs!  

Tonight I will get back on track and eat a bunch of broccoli. I'll take sleep meds super early and be up on time. 

One foot in front of the other.

Happy July 4!

Progress as of today: 93.5 lbs lost so far, only 17.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 07/05/2018:
Old people are hard to deal with...I live with one...LOL...and so does D. We are cranky, sore and stiff.….and unlike young and middle aged people...we can count our future lives by days...instead of decades.....old age is sobering..……...I took care of my 83 to 89 year old parents...….it was only after they had passed away...that I really came to understand how hard it is to be old....while I was caring for them...they were the older generation...now I am...and my kids are saying and doing things...that tell us they are now feeling like they need to take care of us......and while we are grateful that they show an interest in caring for us...it is also sad and disturbing. I have been in your shoes...and now I'm seeing from the other direction.....bottom line is old age stinks....and caring for us is very difficult.....But please...take care of yourself at the same time...no matter how hard it is......


Donkey on 07/05/2018:
^^^ What Bear says. That must be so difficult. Spilled coffee - awful on many levels. (No sarcasm!)

I hope you have a pleasant day today.


horn_of_plenty on 07/05/2018:
hey it's July 4th..i wouldn't worry in the scheme of things about being slightly off track!



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