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happy-1 - Thursday Dec 07, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 234.4

Another workout in the bag. I was a bit on the  Pete sent me lots of feedback on his homepage redesign. Need to incorporate it.

Challenge 2: Find the Good

Every day write down 3 things you’re appreciative of that happened within the last 24 hours. That is, you’re not ‘thankful for your family’, as my mom would always say when asked a question along those lines. You’re appreciative of something specific. Maybe it’s an opportunity, a thought that came to you, or something you did that you think deserves a pat on the back. This, too, is toughness. Finding the good where everyone else focuses on the bad is a skill that the tough possess. 

https://daremightythings.leadpages.co/10-days-task-2

My 3 things today are:

  1. That my mom gave my dog a thourough rub down after the park workout today
  2. That I can do a project for my portfolio with Pete and actually try to help someone and maybe get myself on the right path.
  3. That I get today to get **** together because Molly flaked on me so I didn't have to flake on her.
  4. Bonus: The bathroom scale is now working again in lbs. Mysteriously fixed itself.

Need to do a practice hike before Sunday. Dreading it. The hike Sunday will be 12 miles. I am going to head up Saturday AM and then do the ractice. I need a can of predator spray and a different backpack.

Ok. time to get my **** together and get out of the house. Hungry but if I stay here nothing will get done.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2017:
Why do you have to practice the hike before the hike?

You have lots of good to be thankful for --- thank you for demonstrating how easy it is to make the decision to be thankful!

happy-1 on 12/08/2017:
Because I am fat, have asthma, and really out of shape... and it is 12miles with a 2900 ft gain and I don't know if I can do that and if I go and can't do it, according to sierra club policy someone has to stay with me I can't just bail and do my own thing and that will be humiliating.



happy-1 - Wednesday Dec 06, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 234.4

Grrrr another fitness workout in the bag.

Chasing after my old boss to redo his website.  He's got an interesting model but it isn't reflected on his site and it is impossible to understand as a normal human. I want to simplify it and do it as a case study. Basically there is tons of good content, but no easy entry point I can send a friend to when she wants to know why I don't eat. Signed up for a Udemy class on digital marketing to follow along with while I work on the wireframes. 

In the meantime, found a cool-looking series called "10 Days to Toughness" on some alpha male dude blog... But hey it's free. https://daremightythings.leadpages.co/10-days-task-1/

Task 1 challenge is to "Do without" to not rely on the pleasure of taste. "For the next 3 days your diet will not be complete, it will not be healthy. It will be restricted to only the simplest ingredients: oatmeal and eggs. Again. This isn’t the healthiest diet in the world. But it is one of the blandest, most boring diets we can possibly have. And that’s the toughness aspect. So, for the next 3 days, only oatmeal, eggs, and water. Every meal. No sauce. No salt. No pepper. Nothing to spice things up. Become a man dependent on none of the things we think we need for pleasure and happiness."

Ummmm... Have to try this one next week maybe. Already bought groceries.

Watching the wildfires burn through where I lived as a kid and went through every day for school. Astonishing.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/06/2017:
I understand the boring food concept...it does work for me, I was once on a baked chicken boiled egg with very limited exceptions...and I only lasted 2 or 3 days and I didn't want baked chicken again for months....because you had to eat it every 2 hours all day....it didn't take long to dread the next serving. The fire situation is sad........

happy-1 on 12/13/2017:
I find I just tune out and eat rotely but after 4 days I just can't eat the 5th and I chuck it in my freezer


horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2017:
i must say, the "10 days of toughness" and also the challenge for 3 days of eggs and oatmeal sounds intriguing to me. I wouldn't want to do it, but at the same time, the challenge is interesting that it's just 3 days and very doable. Very interesting challenge.



happy-1 - Sunday Dec 03, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 234.4

Found that a good cure for a bad mood is making "Eggroll in a bowl". While it does not cure all ills, it does move a bad mood on so you can be productive.

I did find myself craving orange chicken after.

http://www.madeitloveitpaleo.com/2016/07/14/paleo-egg-roll-bowl/

And a bunch of pot. And my ex. And a hot tub.

F-me.

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In a crankypants mood today. I'm too fat and weak to do a 12 mile  2900 ft gain hike and it is between me and doing the wilderness travel course. I literally just crumpled and went home and sat on the couch and watched Netflix and sucked.

In my frustration I ate 3 frozen wafles which was the opposite of helpful. 

AAAAAAARGH.

At least my dog loves me.

 I really want to flake on going camping this week. My shoulder is killing me. If I go I am goig to have to do a ton of dishes and crap.

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/04/2017:
I commented on your previous entry :)


Horn_of_plenty on 12/04/2017:
I listened to a Beatles song on the weekend and one part of it says something like this "smoke pot, smoke pot, everybody smoke pot.."

happy-1 on 12/06/2017:
Hahaha. Right? Been a couple of years for me. Just don't have time for the hangover. Plus no hot consistent boyfriend to make it worth the hangover.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/06/2017:
so the scale is broken and doesn't need just a new battery...i've had that happen...so sad when a scale breaks. i do understand how you want it to say lbs right away, i'd want that too!

happy-1 on 12/06/2017:
Right! Tell me how fat I am NOW dammit! If I am slightly less fat, TELL ME THAT TOO. Wait... now I know why the Aria reports bodyfat.



happy-1 - Saturday Dec 02, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 234.4

So stressed today. All in my head though. Scale broke and I need to buy a new one. I feel like this is a good chance to buy a Fitbit Aria scale.

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Today's Me You Health challenge question - 

Name the item in your kitchen that saves you the most time.

 

4 things have made a big difference in cooking at home more 

 

1 - Having a bunch of tupperware in different sizes specifically for packing lunches in a big plastic bin stored separately from other tupperware for leftovers and other stuff. On meal prep day I just pull out the bin and fill them, and as I use them on the go I wash them with my separate little sponge I keep in a travel soap dish just for myself (so I know it is sanitary), then I put them in a cotton drawstring bag that came with a sheet set at target (lets them dry on my desk without getting other stuff wet and keeps them sanitary) and chuck them back in the bin for the next meal prep day.

 

2 - Cleaning stuff I saw a bunch of floor cleaning pads at Big Lots that go on a mop head with velcro and I bought 14 of them. I also bought a bunch of microfiber cloths at the 99 cent store with veggies and food on them and then two plastic tubs with lift up lids. I can just pour vinegar on kitchen counters and floors every night and then wipe them down and chuck them in their respective bins. Once a month I do a separate mini wash load for each. Feeling like my kitchen is clean makes me want to eat at home. Knowing that it won't be a lot of work to clean up makes me willing to do it.

 

3 - Silicone muffin tins and brownie trays. I bought them at Aldi. I can just pop food out and then wipe them clean. Less cleanup means more cooking.

 

4 - Instant pot. Rehydrate beans for any recipe in 30 min. Quick cook sweet potatoes for brownies, pancakes, dinner.  Saute or brown in the pot and then do anything slow cooker in 30 min. Steam something fast if you don't like microwaving food. Better than a microwave. 

 

How about you guys? What really makes a difference for you?

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!

Donkey on 12/02/2017:
I have to say without a doubt the biggest game changer in my family -- not only timewise, but also how we eat (no takeout hardly EVER) and what we eat (more nutritious) is the crockpot (slower cooker, to some). Invaluable! I make dinner in the morning before work and a wonderful dish is waiting for me by the time I finally get home!

happy-1 on 12/02/2017:
Yum! I added an outdoor timer to mine. It turns it on and off on the timer so I can put in froze, defrost then start cooking.


Donkey on 12/03/2017:
Oh my word, I do not know how I did not think of a separate timer all on my own. I have one of those, that I'm not using right now, too. WOW!!!

happy-1 on 12/05/2017:
Yeah it is great and saves electricity because it turns off the circuit.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/04/2017:
Happy, how did your scale break!? I had to buy a new battery for mine - it was a circular type of battery and i bought it on Amazon. Now it works perfectly again :)

My kitchen item that saves me the most time, besides the microwave, is probably...ok this is dumb...the ability to preheat my stove whenever i want...sometimes i preheat it before i plan to cook just so it's fully ready when i want to cook...so the stove preheat ability saves me time lol - bc many times i do not have to wait for stove to preheat bc i already have done it!

it's not a gadget, but i couldn't think of anything else right now...

I also love the dollar / 99 cents stores and also get a bit of my cleaning products there. I may even start buying detergent there - but man did it smell horrible the last time i opened a bottle to give it a whiff to see if i could deal with the smell...i put it back on the shelf!

happy-1 on 12/06/2017:
I honestly don't know. A) It is probably a cheap scale B) might have gotten wet C) It only works with KG now, not LBs. You can convert it but it doesn't satisfy that emotional need to weigh in in the morning and get that number.



happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 22, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 234.4

Felt like my underwear was trying to escape the last couple of days so I stepped on the scale and discovered that I lost 3 more lbs. That's 5 for this challenge so far!!!

Progress as of today: 73.6 lbs lost so far, only 54.4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/22/2017:
Good for you happy!!!! 5 pounds is noticeable and does make things fit differently......!!!! Happy Thanksgiving!

happy-1 on 11/22/2017:
Thank you!!! Bought a padded push up bra tonight so that my shirts still fit right, lol. I will miss my boobs but ultimately some will come off other places too right?

What are plans in paradise for Thanksgiving?


legcramps on 11/22/2017:
well done!

happy-1 on 11/22/2017:
Thank u!!! Hugs!


Maria7 on 11/22/2017:
Congratulations!

happy-1 on 11/22/2017:
Thank u!


Horn_of_plenty on 11/24/2017:
Look how awesome your weight loss chart looks on the upper right! It's 9 pounds lost since April! Kudos! GREAT JOB!



happy-1 - Friday Nov 17, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 237.1

Working too many hours for a contract that isn't going to go anywhere. Feeling really stressed and like personal stuff is just piling up, which it is.

Whooosh! I give this up to God and just have faith in the bigger plan. 

Meanwhile, out of meal preps and no time to go to the grocery store. Trying to order healthy... but pricey.

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Doing QA for a change... Finding lots of big issues at a very late stage in the project that will take a lot of time. Frustrating that no matter how good a job I do it won't lead to more work because I am weird.

Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/17/2017:
Take your time and take a breath.

Maybe take it hour by hour and expect that everything will just not be planned.

I am sorry you feel this way, i know the feeling all too well.

happy-1 on 11/22/2017:
Hugs. All will be as it should be.


bearcountrygg on 11/17/2017:
Breathe......life goes on regardless, sounds like this job is frustrating to say the least. Maybe they will offer something more when this one is done?

happy-1 on 11/22/2017:
Hugs. I hope so!!!



happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 15, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 237.1

Hanging at my coworking space to work today. Always a challenge to really be focused and not work on my great meal planning app idea.  I have a spreadsheet of all the meal planning apps out there and I am working my way thorugh the landscape analysis step by step. I also have a sketch file so I can jot down my ideas as they come. The trick is NOT to do this when I am supposed to be working.

Only have meals prepped through today and need to hit Trader Joes tonight, but I think I will be working late again.

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BTW hands down my most successful meal prep this week are these DIY ramen cups:

http://www.thekitchn.com/how-to-make-diy-instant-noodle-cups-222560

Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2017:
your advice is good on the medication, i'll speak to the doctor to get his advice before i do anything or make any changes. :-)

Have fun meal planning when you get up to it :)

happy-1 on 11/15/2017:
Yeah, the betterhelp psychologist is actually more helpful than my shrink. Very grounding and perspective supplying. I do a better job staying consistent and following her recommendations because a) she lives a life similar to the one I want, b) I'm not stressing myself trying to make one more appointment, c) it is mostly written which helps me because I need to see things on paper or in type to process them.


bearcountrygg on 11/15/2017:
Maybe a spreadsheet with hour by hour things to do? When I get frustrated and realize that I am doing things that really don't matter and are basically busy work...and I'm not doing the really important things....I make myself a daily waking hour list....and everything that needs to get done does get done...and then the next day I do the same until I'm caught up...then i allow myself to do the fun things. I can always find busy work...so that i can tell myself I don't have time to do the important things ( which are things I don't want to do). I basically have to mind game with myself sometimes.

happy-1 on 11/15/2017:
Yeah, I mind game myself daily



happy-1 - Tuesday Nov 14, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 237.1

Having problems with focus. I under the gun at work and need to write a bunch of test cases and all I can think about is camping and the really fabulous meal planning app I want to build. 

Literally costing me money. 

Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/14/2017:
oh oh.....!


horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2017:
Take a breather when this happens...you can do it.

It's ok to think about camping, maybe take 5 minutes every hour at work just to think about it...even 10 minutes per hour. and do your work for the rest of the hour.

happy-1 on 11/15/2017:
Yeah, I installed RescueTime on my machine yesterday. It tracks your time on your computer so you can tell where your time went.

Hugs sweetie. How are you feeling today?


horn_of_plenty on 11/15/2017:
feeling better, realizing i have a job for the time being. want to get off my anxiety meds that i've been taking for 2 years, since 2015.

I want to be off them for future job apps and also for my own sanity. will discuss with dr how to get off slowly or if i can even get off...i'll get his input! :) what do you think? it's anti-anxiety medication only. low dose stuff i believe.

I am feeling better and like i need to learn to live my life without crazy goals...and try to just enjoy life as it is, not make a whole huge goal for myself at this time.

happy-1 on 11/15/2017:
I dunno on getting off medication... but I am on adhd meds which are basically amphetamines. There's a rebound effect some days when they wear off and I start to panic and spiral a little... everything just suddenly seems impossible, like trying to climb a smooth concrete wall... but I'm learning to manage that better with the online therapist. I really was screwing up my life completely trying to be off them. I thought I was doing ok but in retrospect I was anything but. I kind of think about going off medication like it's like going back into the dark.



happy-1 - Monday Nov 13, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 237.1

Was a troll all weekend, hiding under my bridge. Saturday I was still sore and exhausted from Thursday's workout.  Sunday I was just still anxious and stressed about the future, paychecks, and being a spinster old maid.

Spent the whole weekend at home cleaning, cooking and organizing. Kind of a waste of a weekend considering this is the third one in a row but my car is washed, laundry is done, there's no dishes in the sink, my meals are prepped, my bed is clean, and I've had sleep.

Meal preps for the week were:

  • Breakfast - Superfood brownies
  • 2nd breakfast - Omlette cups with sausage, kale and roasted sweet potatoes (2 cups veggies)
  • Snack - DIY miso veggie ramen cups with shiritaki noodles (2 cups veggies)
  • Lunch - Protein pasta with chicken meatballs, veggies, and kale walnut pesto (a cup of kale to a serving of pesto and frozen normandie vegetables makes 2 cups of veg)
  • Dinner - Beef stew with whipped red potatoes
  • Snack - Apples and 2 cheese wheels (1/3 cup of fruit)

Will hit Trader Joes tonight to pick up some brocolli chicken kale salads and space those out so they can be in the freezer for the week after Thanksgiving. Going to try to find a camping trip for that weekend so I am not at home.

Back up to 240.2. Low day last week was Wednesday at 237.1. I feel like I'm throwing dice at the craps table every time I weigh myself. C'mon baby, momma needs a new pair of shoes!

 

Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 11/13/2017:
Boy do I miss Trader Joes up here....there aren't any for 4 hours from here...they are all downstate. I have a jar of pesto...but neve know what to do with it....I need to check out some uses for that...I keep pushing it around the pantry....LOL

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
Makes a great hot pasta or cold pasta salad, frozen veggie dress-up sauce, omlette topping, etc.


bearcountrygg on 11/13/2017:
Ok...Thanks for the ideas....sounds easy.


horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
honestly, it does NOT sound like a waste of a weekend. It sounds relaxing and productive. You just didn't go camping, but you did get a lot done, at home! I think that's great.

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
Yay! A justification for not going out and having fun and trying to meet some dude.


Donkey on 11/13/2017:
Personally, I think you accomplished a lot. :-)

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
Really? I feel like I got nothing done... But then today my boss said to me that I can bill all the hours I want this week... So yay! I'm 1 Trader Joe's run away from ready! I can knock that out tonight.



happy-1 - Friday Nov 10, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 237.1

Met a guy on Tinder today that claims to have modeled for playgirl in 2011. Wants my number so he can send me pics. Ha ha ha ha ha.

Went to  bootcamp last night. There were two birthdays... 39 and 52... so we got to do alternating sets of 39 and 52 pushups. Oh god. Everything hurts and I'm dying.

Progress as of today: 70.9 lbs lost so far, only 57.1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 11/11/2017:
You need to sign up for kiddie bootcamp, so that you're celebrating birthdays like 8 and 11, LOL! Hope you're not too sore over the weekend. You're doing great!

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
OMG. That's brilliant. I'll just tell them I was held back 32 years. I hibernated like a troll.


bearcountrygg on 11/11/2017:
I didn't even know playgirl was still around.....I remember when it started...I bought the first one...LOL.......bootcamp sounds tough used some rarely used muscles eh?

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
Oooooooh did you now? Was it everything you hoped it would be?


Horn_of_plenty on 11/13/2017:
lots of pushups...i am actually good at them.

happy-1 on 11/13/2017:
I bet! You are probably doing all the fancy plank ones.



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