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happy-1 - Sunday Nov 20, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

One day at a time...

Went and hung out with friends in oc today... Best thing I could have done for myself... Dad was in rare form tonight... I think my shrink is right and I need to avoid cooking nice dinners and trying to sit down to eat together as a family. It just creates more problems than it is worth. He was pretty cruel at dinner, then about midnight got me up out of bed looking for some blueberry fiber one bars I had in my earthquake supplies. I went to look and didn't see them. He accused me of deliberately screwing with him... Super nice... And food hoarding... Which is super weird because I just have normal pantry stuff and then 4 plastic bins of canned goods and stuff that is easy to make on a camp stove if we have an earthquake. It's about 4 days of food and water for 4 people and a dog... Nowhere near FEMA's 14 days... That would be like 2 paychecks. My parents had zero supplies so I stocked Up. I do have a lot of beans and spices in my normal pantry stuff, but I make a lot of indian food. They only sell that stuff in bulk. Like a bag of the right kind of cumin in the smallest size is 1 lb. Plus then I use more spices which have health benefits. I even make my own muscle rub and face masks now. My parents only buy prepared foods and I only buy bulk foods, so we end up with 2 pantries and a lot of conflict. I wish I could do staples like protein powder, dry milk, flour and salt in bulk like at a co-op because it is better quality and super cheap, but my parents would flip out.

B - jack in the box sandwich, iced tea L - trader joes pizza S - mac n cheese cup D - kombucha, tri tip, southwest pilaf, salad w blue cheese dressing. I gave my dog the leftover tri tip Because at least she loves me, lol S - quesedilla S - chai tea, chocolate biscotti

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On a happier note I made small steps towards a kitchen garden today

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!


happy-1 - Monday Nov 14, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

258??? Not sure how I gained 12lbs in one weekend camping AND ate normal stuff AND had to use a smaller hole on my belt this morning. Must be water? Anyway... Back at work and had a lovely email that paychecks may not get cut tomorrow due to waiting for funds. Fingers crossed that we get paid.


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B - 2 protein shakes, 2 cheese sticks, baggie of apples, coffee/chai mix
L - lightened up mac n cheese, spinach salad with 2 eggs and 1 piece of bacon


Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/15/2016:
Hi Happy! Nice to see you back here posting again…hope you don’t mind my comments. I like to comment on what works for me and/or relate to what you guys are eating if it’s about food. I also like to hear about relationships, etc.

Yes, maybe the food is really salty when camping? That can lead to water retention? Also time of month might do it also…or it could be cumulative weight gain over more than just this weekend but you weren’t weighing regularly is my guess? Weight can totally sneak up on us!

Lightened up mac and cheese sounds awesome. How do you lighten it? I would probably add cauliflower? or egg whites in it! I hope you do get paid tomorrow, what a royal pain if I had to experience that & pay rent! Omg… Stay well Happy.

happy-1 on 11/15/2016:
The volumetrics cheese sauce recipe is actually pretty good and even holds up well in the fridge. It is basically a normal cheese sauce with butternut squash and cauliflower pureed and added to it.

We did not get paid today. We were given the day off. I get to do homework all day! My new UX book just came so good timing.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/15/2016:
that cheese sauce sounds fabulous!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 11/20/2016:
it really is. Add fresh chopped jalapenos and microwave for nachos.


Donkey on 11/15/2016:
Hmmm... Scale broken?



happy-1 - Tuesday Nov 08, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Another easy morning with my pre-made breakfast, packed lunch and set of clothes. Even managed to walk my dog in the morning BEFORE driving in to work for the SECOND TIME IN A ROW... and then I was at work ON TIME for the SECOND TIME IN A ROW. 

And because all my food is packed, I can tell you what I am eating today in one entry.

Whammo!

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B - MP - Protein pancake, chicken suasage, peach compote, coffee, half and half

S1 - MP - Fruit /cheese / buscuit tray, tea with too much sugar and creamer.

L - MP - LU mac n cheese, salad, ranch dressing

S2 - MP - Tea / baclava

D - MP - Turkey stuffed pepper, salad, thousand island

 

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2016:
Doesn't it feel GREAT to be on time to work! i was exactly 30 min EARLY and MAN DID IT FEEL SO GOOD! only early bc i went to vote and got done with everything majorly early :) wahoo!

I had a protein pancake (chocolate flavor!) for dinner! tasty. nice with my cooked cranberries :)

Chicken sausage is cool...so much lower in calories in know bc i have looked!!! tastes great too! nice on your Turkey stuffed pepper. way to go ... excellent prep. you can try to have a lot of sf jello or other low cal stuff instead of baklava to save you TONS of calories...and the peach compote maybe have a peach instead? less sugar i think? unless it's mostly natural in the compote...which is awesome too :)

all in all, nicely done. maybe the mac and cheese instead of mac, use cauliflower!

happy-1 on 11/08/2016:
Again, watch the sugar free stuff... here is a good link on why they are so dangerous.

http://www.rodalesorganiclife.com/food/trying-lose-weight-stay-away-artificial-sweeteners

happy-1 on 11/08/2016:
Here is a safer jello recipe... http://www.mamanatural.com/how-to-make-healthy-jello/

happy-1 on 11/08/2016:
The peach compote has no added sugar. It is sweet enough. I got it out of the Volumetrics cookbook my parents get from their diet program. You take a bag of frozen fruit and defrost it until there is liquid in the bottom, a teaspoon of cornstarch (or arrowroot, but either way mix thoroughly so it doesn't clump) and whatever spices you want to add and stick it in the microwave. It turns into pie filling. You can just roll it up in the protein pancake with the sausage and it is practically a breakfast burrito.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2016:
Thank you for looking out for me...actually i have once made my own no sugar (stevia) jells! they were pretty good but i made a mess making them....your tips are good, thank you :)

...I think Volumetrics is awesome!!! That's a lot of my own approach - low cal but filling volume for food!

i like your ideas and the peach compote recipe, nice.

I like cooked cranberries (i make in microwave and only add some stevia!) over a protein pancake too, but not too much, as the sweetness will become overbearing!


puddles on 11/09/2016:
Have a great day.



happy-1 - Monday Nov 07, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Best joke of the day ever: http://www.maplematch.com/

"Election worries? We got your back. Maple Match revolutionizes how Americans and Candians date with our new free mobile app for iOS. Set your dealbreakers, view your matches, and chat with your favourites. All for free."

BTW... Canadians, I'm single.

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Still reeling from last week but at work like a grownup. Forgot to weigh myself this morning. Had the hardest time getting to sleep last night and just ended up eating tortilla chips to settle my stomach which was turning and churning. Now that I think about it, rice or bread would have been better. 

Back is better. 3 days of "ow". Never pick up a 60lb shepherd mix to carry it outside to pee.

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B - MP - Protein pancake, chicken sausage, peach compote, coffee, half and half. Leftover butterfinger bites from last night's binge.

S1 - Out, Starbucks (bad bad) - Coffee, half and half, bacon sandwich. Feeling anxious. Needed a second breakfast... After eating a bunch extra last night because I didn't eat enough during the day because I don't get hungry when I cook.

L - MP - Lightened up mac n cheese, vitamin water. (not enough calories :-()

S2 - MP - Fruit and cheese tray

D - MP - Turkey chilli and 1/2 a sweet potato

S3 - Turkey sandwich, coleslaw

Ds - Lentil soup

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/07/2016:
lol...i say stay away from Canada and date local...unless canada is local! haha....i have once had a relationship / friendship that was distance, never again.

i took a sleeping pill...and slept so well that i slept with my light on and didn't bother to get fully up to shut it off!

happy-1 on 11/07/2016:
LOL. Nice! Don't you feel hungover tho?


horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2016:
Yes, I do feel extremely tired in the morning the next day.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2016:
but i like the pills bc i get a chance to sleep longer periods, wake up later, i tend to eat better.



happy-1 - Sunday Nov 06, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Hovering back at 246.8 again. Hope I worked some of it off today. I found really compact lunch bags at the dollar store and had the bright idea of packing all my food for the week in them. I literally spent the whole day cooking everything up in the fridge. Experimenting with solving the fridge/food struggle with my parents by making up meals ahead, using up ingredients, and then everything in the fridge that isn't in a lunch bag is fair game. The bags hold my breakfasts also, so literally the other stuff is all for them. I will keep it simpler next time since I cooked 10 hours straight... From the recipe book in their weight loss program, I made:


Turkey meatloaf and mashed potatoes
Turkey stuffed peppers
Turkey chilli and cornbread
Garden salads
Lentil soup
Lightened up mac n cheese
Protein pancakes
Babaghanoush and carrot sticks
Extra cups of cheese sauce to make nachos with



(And, I went through my clothes and packed everything into outfits for the week in those white mesh laundry bags for delicates. Turns out I never have socks and underwear because I only have a couple of pairs... Are there elves in my house?????? I bought whole packs at costco last year!)

And miracle of miracles the kitchen is clean. My laundry is currently chugging away. After several days of nightmare events, I am on the other side. Be careful what you wish for, you might get it.


However one thing I wished for that I was happy to get is my big fluffy fur baby is feeling better. When you pull back her eyes, they aren't dancing in their sockets anymore and she was able to do her happy dog shimmy without barrel rolling into the street. We went a little slow, but had a nice, normal length walk, and did some extra sniffing this evening. $840 for the vet, dog got better on her own. FML.

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/07/2016:
Glad to hear your dog is better.

happy-1 on 11/07/2016:
Thank you!!!!!!! She is up and around and drinking water and looking for treats.


hollybelle on 11/07/2016:
So happy your doggie is OK. Kitchen is clean and doing laundry - YAY! Socks sometimes disappear at our house, too - often inside of shirts we discover much later! But haven't experienced disappearing underwear!

happy-1 on 11/07/2016:
Maybe you have normal elves and I have pervert elves.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/07/2016:
All the food you made sounds delicious but yeah i can understand you not wanting to ALWAYS be spending 10hrs a week cooking! You must be proud of your efforts though. Food really does sound excellent! nice job. maybe don't always make food for the entire week, but a few days? or only breakfast or lunch or dinner...but now you are really prepared for this week! wow.

Glad your doggie is feeling better :)



happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 02, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Stayed up doing homework last night till 12:30, then got home at 1.30. I was way too tired to do the drive this morning and I need an early bedtime to reset so I am working from home today. Having some computer problems so I am getting a slow start. At least I got to make myself a fresh protein pancake this morning. Probably spending the day at starbucks.

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Should have gone to starbucks. Just watched my mother perched backwards in the recliner take a header over the back and fall on my very senior dog. Mom is fine, praying for my dog. She took the full weight of a recliner and my mom.

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B - 2 protein pancakes, sugar free maple syrup

S - apple slices and 2 cheese sticks

L - PBJ and a lean cuisine

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/02/2016:
wowza....your uneventful day turned sorta eventful!?


hollybelle on 11/03/2016:
Good menu so far. How did the rest of the day go?



happy-1 - Tuesday Nov 01, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Stayed at work doing homework till 11, then stayed up late washing dishes and doing the meal prep I didn't get to on sunday from the Great Creamer Freakout of 2016. Was too restless to sleep so I tossed and turned till 3. Was late to work today.

Ex finally got back to me. He seens happy to talk to me and has this idea that we are going to be hooking up if we see each other to talk. Shouldn't he have texted me a happy birthday if he thinks that will happen? I said I'm happy to talk but no hooking up till at least March when the holidays are over. I didn't say "because I know you will ignore me and I will spend the day crying my eyes out". He said "silly you know we don't plan things" and I said let's put it this way... It's about as appeling as traveling in the midwest during hurricane season. I just had a bunch of fun on my birthday with no calls or cards from anyone other than my parents, not looking forward to the rest of the holidays." He's all "well I will have a big hug for you." Could have used that on my birthday! I didn't say that though.  That would have been too mean. I don't want to get back together again but I miss having him to talk to. It was definitely noticed when he didn't call or text on my birthday... not that he did when we were together.

Ugh. Life goal... Get better at sending cards and doing phone calls so other people remember me on mine.

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  • B - Jack in the box chicken pita and iced tea. Ran out of time to eat at home.
  • L - meal prep win! 2 green tea lattes from mix, chicken nuggets, bbq sauce. Spinach salad.
  • S - meal prep win! Fruit, chees, fig bar
  • D - meal prep win! 1/2 a sweet potato and a chicken breast
  • S - meal prep win! Apples, grapes, cheese

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 11/01/2016:
Aw, sorry things are tough. As far as ex goes - I think it sounds like he will be easier than you think to replace with someone better. Rather than put any more energy in that old relationship why not invest some time in new ones - with female friends and male friends. Keep at it and it will happen. Never look back - look ahead. <3


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/02/2016:
your ex sounds like he's only in it for himself. I can relate and have had certain types of relationships with men where it was totally centered on them and they didn't give to me ever to make me feel good - like i had to force them to make the effort.

You deserve way better and he's abusing you in an emotional way. I know that it's hard to get over as i still hold a little grudge about the 3-YEAR semi relationship i had (ALL TEXTING and meeting up ONLY 1 TIME!) with a man that had no plans to put any time into a relationship with me- and made it known to me! - but i still thought i could just forgive him of all the things he couldn't give me - i deserved better than to use my heart emotions on him...to try to think he would change or give me what i needed when he couldn't give me nearly enough to satisfy me let alone even getting together with me.

there is a better man out there for you. and sometimes it's an opportunity for you to think about truly what your options are - as my option was staring me straight in the face the whole time and it was up to me to decide to OPEN MY EYES AND ALLOW MYSELF HAPPINESS with someone who can potentially be right for me & me right for them. Going on a date with him this Saturday. and this is a big change for me...as i'm used to "overgiving" and getting nothing in return - especially no emotional return. Just s*x in the past was enough for me - hookups and all...but the truth is, everybody deserves happiness and fullfillment - physically, emotionally, and intellectually. and the person you end up with needs to satisfy them all. and if they can't, it's not the right person!



happy-1 - Monday Oct 31, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

247.8, but that's ok because I spent yesterday afternoon in Z's jacuzzi and we split a pizza. F anyone who took a photo of a fat middle aged woman in a bikini eating half a jumbo 3 topping pizza with a guy the size of a volkswagon.

I got 0 done I needed to get done, but at least I had some fun and my brain is mostly clear to focus today.

Meal prep yesterday was a bit of a flop due to dad freaking out about creamer in his coffee ruining his breakfast.

School assigned me a new mentor and i can finish out a couple of weeks with someone else and not deal with the guy I was talking to.

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B - Meal prep win! protein pancake, chicken sausage, sugar free syrup (bad for me but it was what was in fridge)

L - Meal prep win! Spinach salad with mozzarella, 1 slice of bacon, dressing. Bunch of frzen chicken nuggets

S - Tea with coconut creamer.

D - Quinoa tortilla soup with a chicken breast, 4 corn tortillas and some shredded jack cheese.

 

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/01/2016:
Well, glad you had a great day! Who is Z? I assume a guy friend?

lol creamer freakout! man...sorry...

congrats on getting a mentor that will hopefully be better than the last one as it seems you weren't too thrilled.

protein pancakes are the bomb! you can make so much and so low calorie if you use egg whites for it...i mix egg whites with protein powder and sometimes also a little bit of oatmeal (like 1/8 cup for a fluffy effect and once i also used cream cheese in the pancake batter!)

...and i have samples too of a great brand of sugar free syrup at home....it's a popular brand and only 10 calories per like 2 tablespoons...picked it up from the Marriott Hotel that i stayed at while on vaca! who knows...in the wintertime i may decide to buy some! for those slow winter mornings when it's cold and i want to cook and lay around eating my own protein pancakes!

that salad sounds GREAT for lunch! really good! nice fats and protein, lower carb & satisfying. good job.

and the tea sounds splendid!

as for dinner, sounds like it hit the spot but sounds a lot on the tortilla end...but not judging you ... just comparing to how i'd feel. it does sound pretty balanced. keep up the great work !

happy-1 on 11/01/2016:
Mmm... cream cheese...

Their diet cookbook had me take a bag of frozen berries, a little cornstarch and one sugar packet and microwave it in a bowl. It turned into a really low sugar pie filling!

Careful with the sugar fee stuff. I 100% believe it will turn out diet coke causes diabetes.


hollybelle on 11/01/2016:
Sounds like you are plugging along. That's a good thing.

happy-1 on 11/01/2016:
One step at a time. One step at a time. Just trying to do meal prep right now, not worrying about calories other than to have a lot of protein. No matter what I pack it is going to be healthier and cheaper than eating out.



happy-1 - Friday Oct 28, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

DOWN 0.2 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Definitely a reward from God for sticking my head into a gym yesterday 

Also, went to the dentist and finally got a clean bill of health on my wisdom teeth. Unless I have problems again, I don't have to go back.

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B - Giant chicken avocado burrito from Dell Taco, Diet Coke

L - Skipped

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

trishpiglet3 on 10/29/2016:
*Trumpet fanfare* (nothing to do with the presidential candidate) YAY you re the weight loss and the dentist Look at YOU nearly halfway to your goal, you awesome human!

happy-1 on 10/31/2016:
Hugs!!!! Thank you!!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2016:
Lots of good notes in your entry. Congrats on your loss...on the gym (i know that it does take effort to continue with it even when we DO NOT want to go. - as i know from my own experience!), and i'm glad your teeth are ok too :)

how i love my diet coke too...always loved the taste of Taco Bell...now i don't live by one - LUCKILY!

happy-1 on 10/31/2016:
I know. The joy we feel after drinking it is the euphoria of brain cells dying. Packed stevia cream soda for work today


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2016:
ANYTHING WITH CAFFEINE IS EUPHORIA TO MY BRAIN CELLS LOL ;)

happy-1 on 10/31/2016:
Ha. Try this for an hour or two. Not as good as diet coke, but will keep you moving.

https://soundcloud.com/thump/eric-sharp-live-at-daybreaker-la-launch



happy-1 - Thursday Oct 27, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 249.3

Fun with 24hourfitness... went to the one by work today. At first it sounded fun... they have beginner fitness classes... you can pay for more challenging classes, and they have yoga. That plus maybe taking my pack onto the stairmaster should be fine to start... Then we went through the membership rates and I was comparing it to the Costco rates... so the manager tried to sell me hard on personal training to lose ALL THAT FAT... Because those beginner classes I will be stuck at my progress level after 3 months... I said well I just want to get moving again... the beginner classes sound fine for that... don't you have the paid upgrade classes for stuff that is more challenging? And they said yeah, but you really need personal training to make progress. I was literally facing off two guys with my back against the wall and got increasingly stressed. I said I have done it before... It is an intense relationship, if anything it makes me not want to go to the gym ... I do not want someone to be monitoring me, measuring me, disappointed if I am not making progress. This sounds like the opposite of fun. I got a bit upset at that point and wanted to leave, but the manager wanted me to take the three day pass with me so I did. Ugh.

At least I found out that I only need the $399 membership from Costco, not the $799

Progress as of today: 58.7 lbs lost so far, only 69.3 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/28/2016:
PERSONAL TRAINING = MAD $$$$! that's for sure...except this one place i went to a long time ago, called, PTI...Personal Training Institute. It was a small gym where you could only do personal training.

PTI was 30 min, 3x a week, $25 per session so $75 per week. It used to be very affordable when i was around 22-24 and had my first jobs and living at home and i don't even think paying rent. I learned how to lift weights at PTI!

Def don't need personal training for progress. It's all the mindset. and eating less = weight loss.

happy-1 on 10/28/2016:
LOL. Right? And every time I do it when I am on a good trend, it completely derails me.



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