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happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 29, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Skipped. Mistake. Talked myself out of starting the habit of ordering my favorite coffee drinks on the Starbucks mobile app which would be a black hole for my paycheck. But did not get coffee. Also a mistake.

S1 - 2 string cheeses, breakfast sandwich in cooler that was somehow unchanged by leaving it in there a couple of weeks unfrozen. I really, really need to stop buying those.

L - Plain seltzer, chicken deli sandwich from remnants of stash in work fridge. Happy day, I had stuck a homemade camping MRE in there with... a caffeine shot! Grape, and dollar store generic not a 5 hour energy, but pretty good. 

S2 - Handful of choc graham crackers

D - Chicken from rotisserie chicken. 5 peanut butter cups. A couple of bites of hummus. Water

S3 - Kombucha


Augh. Only got 3 hours of sleep last night. Trying to get to bed early but wide awake and useless. So tired.

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In addition, today was the kind of day that makes me want to take up drinking. Ugh. Today was T's run to doctor in Orange County that I cover dinner for once a month. This month I planned to pick up chicken and deli stuff at Costco since I have so much homework. Got a text message at 4... can I be at the hospital at 5 and bring her sister. I of course think someone is dying and run out of work with my hair on fire.

I had completely spaced that the hospital her sister works at is next to Costco that I had already said I was going to at 5... and had said if they need anything to let me know before 5. Her sister was chilling at the Costco food court instead of the hospital just to make it that much easier on me. Aparently they had car trouble and were passing the hospital and swapped cars with her.

And this my children is the moral of the story... If you just really really want a cup of coffee in the morning so badly your eyeballs are peeling... just get the coffee and don't stress about the $4.

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/29/2016:
Yes I agree always get one coffee in before doing anything. Life is much better after coffee time.


OhioRaven on 06/29/2016:
Make mine a Large McDonald's with stevia.

happy-1 on 06/29/2016:
Really? McDonald's... so you love the taste of turpentine?


innerpeace on 06/29/2016:
Times like these I'm glad I don't drink coffee. Hope your day gets better.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/30/2016:
I agree with you about the coffee. I also have enough $$$ flow to be able to pretty much buy whatever food / drinks I want to and not regret it.

Food / drinks are NOT negotiable to me & i do not really "budget" food lol. If i did, I'd probably be able to save 50% of the cash I spend weekly on groceries LOL. I even buy premade jello, which, when not on sale, is DOUBLE the price of jello sold in the powdered form (not premade). And sometimes, premade jello is actually even 3-4x the price of powdered jello! I PAY for the convenience and cannot even regret it, at all, right now. However, i do see myself starting to make my own jello down the road, even adding cooked cranberries to it :-)

yes, don't fall for the starbucks app...btw, not sure if you have regular delis by your work - but by me, the neighborhood delis still charge only like $1 or $1.50 for a coffee, not $2 like Dunkin Donuts or $2.50-$3 for a cup like Starbucks. Maybe you can go to the delis for your coffee instead of starbucks???

do you get a huge high after the 5hr energy? is it all at once energy and then a crash? i forget what those are like - I used to take them a LONG time ago...when i was around 28-30yrs old (now i'm turning 34) at work when i TRULY never ever got enough sleep.



happy-1 - Monday Jun 27, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - $tarbucks breakfast sandwich, coffee, half and half 

S1 - 

L - 

S2 - 

D - 

S3 - 


 

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!


happy-1 - Monday Jun 27, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Egg scramble, cottage cheese

L - Chicken burrito, chips, salsa, diet coke

S - Chicken, Tabouli, Tzatiki

D -  Chicken salad, apricots, cherries, tea

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/28/2016:
very different mix of foods today! i like your flavors always...like which food you choose to eat together...my style for tastebuds and satisfaction!



happy-1 - Saturday Jun 25, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Skipped. No food at parents house and couldn't think of anything low carb to eat. Mistake.  

S1 - Finally found an old frozen burrito while I was filling the swamp cooler with ice. Food!

L - Venti Iced coffee, Ham and cheese sandwich.

S2 - 

D - 

S3 - 


I'm 38 and in my first relationship... I always thought that when I finally had somone there would be a "best friend" aspect where we were constantly talking and spending all our time together... Instead I have hardly heard from him the last 3 weeks and there was all the weirdness last weekend. I emailed him last night and he said to come over. I don't know that it would have made me feel closer to him.

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Weight is back on downward trend. Only 1/2 pound up from current lowest point.

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Swamp cooler is a disappointment. I think I need rubber gaskets and a stronger fan. And more ice. Maybe a PVC pipe instead of an RV hose. Left it at home for my dad but will take it on future camping trips. He can cool himself down while I work on clearing space for a real cooling unit. They need 3 feet of space on all sides and my parents don't have that right now.

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At Starbucks doing homework before going down to the campsite. They will be mad, but I will live.

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Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/26/2016:
yep, life is weird i tell ya. When i was in college, i thought i had my whole life figured out. that it would be smooth sailing especially in terms of work for the rest of my life (i thought i'd be a teacher from the day i graduated college...lol....nope!)...things are so up in the air.

nothing is certain. I feel ya, Happy.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/26/2016:
yep, life is weird i tell ya. When i was in college, i thought i had my whole life figured out. that it would be smooth sailing especially in terms of work for the rest of my life (i thought i'd be a teacher from the day i graduated college...lol....nope!)...things are so up in the air.

nothing is certain. I feel ya, Happy.



happy-1 - Friday Jun 24, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - 9:30AM Peanut butter cups and coffee. Hormonal.

S1 - snap peas, kombucha sips

L - Skipped (bad bad)

S2 - 2:20 pm - protein burrio, sauce, 2 cheese slices, 2 eggs

D - Cajun chicken alfredo pasta from trader joes with a bag of peppers chopped up and thrown in with in and micrwaved. Not awful. Coconut water.

S3 - Skipped, which was a mistake. too hungry to do homework and at parents house and can't eat.


Successfully gave up midnight snacks last night, but it took it's toll. I didn't get to bed till 3AM. But it will pay off eventually. Just gotta retrain my body. That's what I am adding to this next 6 week push. Tiny behavorial habit changes that stick are what I am after.  We are all the sum of our habits.

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Supposed to go primitive camping this weekend, but I have cramps and can't drive till all that goes away. It is distracted driving... about on the level of texting while driving.

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Miss my guy. I feel like it was good that I left last Saturday... me sticking it out when he is being a butt is what led to all the drama and bad behavior... Basically because he was deploying/deployed I would just suck it up and keep the evening going which rewarded bad behavior, but I miss the time I didn't get to spend with him.

Also the showing of the movie we wanted to see is cancelled and the nearest one is sold out.  http://www.range15.com/

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Drove home and got a shocker... My parents actually kept the house clean this week... I for once did not come home to 5 hours of chores. They even did their own laundry and took out the trash. 

Mom has lost 18 lbs, Dad has lost 38lbs.

WOW!!!!!

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Their good behavior lasted till 1:30 Am with a squabble over Mom's vision board... Sigh

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2016:
sounds like all is good in your world and your parents are behaving too! a clean house is always nice!

Yes, it's about retraining yourself. I was in a really bad habit during last early fall of eating in the middle of the night. worst habit ever, yes! i have also since stopped it.



happy-1 - Thursday Jun 23, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - leftover protein burrito, cheese, sause, 2 eggs. Yum! Iced coffee with half and half

S1 - Skipped

L - Snap peas, kombucha. 

S2 - Hot dogs, mustard, beans, kraut

D - Chicken salad at farmer brothers.

S3 - 


Have not logged for a few days.  Got stressed and overwhelmed, mostly due to my mom chewing me out. New therapist on Betterhelp wants me to distance myself from my parents a bit. She might be right.

Picking up again! At least my eating for the last several days was OK. 

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/23/2016:
Might just be good advise she should know. Have a great day.

happy-1 on 06/23/2016:
Yeah. I mostly asked her to focus on making me productive for getting So far she's had me put off buying emergency supplies and spend on making a work station for the trailer.

The little $40 desk got an upgrade with a monitor, stand and a laptop stand, trackpad, keyboard and mouse the last couple of days.

happy-1 on 06/23/2016:
super expensive $40 desk!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/24/2016:
yeah i agree, maybe some distance it good. I'm glad you are feeling better...

is it a protein burrito because the wrap it low carb? whats in it! sounds good!

happy-1 on 06/24/2016:
The protein burrito is packaged from target:

http://www.target.com/p/sweet-earth-protein-lovers-breakfast-burrito-3pk-15oz/-/A-23974695

They are really good, but all packaged foods are really terrible for you.

Especially with some trader joe's enchilada sauce!


OhioRaven on 06/25/2016:
Sometimes it takes money to make money.

happy-1 on 06/25/2016:
Yeah... I did a bunch of shopping before that too though to alleviate neck pain... But it worked. Slept at my parents two weekends now without waking up with the worst migraines. Doing homework ar starbucks now!



happy-1 - Monday Jun 20, 2016
(Planned meal plan with only 3 meals out a week)
Weight: 247.2

B - Skipped

S1 - Skipped

L - Early, 10:30 am. Kombucha and cobb salad. Protein drink

12:15 - Still hungry, S2 - Trader joes beans and grains frozen meal, chocolate milk with protein

D - 

S3 -


Zero sleep. 

 

 

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/20/2016:
Have a great day.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/20/2016:
ugh...i hope you get some sleep tonight.

when i don't get sleep, i'm not my best self...that's for sure!

lately, i feel I could sleep for days, probably means that i should limit my use of sleeping pills. as they seem to have a horrible cummulative effect on me where if i take them a few days in a row, i become a zombee!

and the fact i had less caffeine today. and i'll stick to it like that today. as i could use some normal sleep tonight!...can't wait.

have a great rest of the day!

happy-1 on 06/20/2016:
Yeah I did Lunesta and Ambien in the past and overall it wasn't worth it.



happy-1 - Sunday Jun 19, 2016
(Planned meal plan with only 3 meals out a week)
Weight: 247.2

Backlogging an entry for Sunday. Not sure what I ate but it was all healthy stuff and on plan.... except for spaghetti with butter and parmesan at 4am because

Did not hear from my guy. Augh.

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/20/2016:
Yes we do eat our emotions those are the worst times to eat.



happy-1 - Saturday Jun 18, 2016
(Planned meal plan with only 3 meals out a week)
Weight: 247.2

B - Leftover enchilladas. Diet gigngerale

S1 - Skipped.

L - Vegan burrito with enchillada sauce and a slice of cheese. Kombucha. All out now. Have to get more at Costco. The one Hornofplenty likes!

S2 - wendys, diet coke, 2 grilled chicken wraps

D - yard house, steak and eggs (crazy good) skipped the sauce, iced tea with stevia

S3 -


It's date night with my guy!  He said he'd take me to the Yard House. I hope we can make it to the burlesque. It is super fun and would lead to sexy rumpus!

I have finally stopped coughing. I woke up early and debeasted from tip to toes... Hair masque, exfolliation, manipedi, pixel perfect makeup... the whole thing. I put my hair in two braids so it will wave (hopefully). Not so happy with my outfit options. I have lost weight so my sexy outfits are a little disaster prone... might fall down if I am not careful! Work outfits are too worky.

I might need to get there early and run into forever21 first. Can't go home and deal with parents to grab a dress and I will be cutting it close with homework.

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Long story, too much to type at midnight, but I found a great dress (I bought on the way home from a date with him a year and a half ago in case there were more dates and hadn't even taken the tags off of because I was saving it... And it fit even better now that I lost weight) at my parents, went down to see my guy looking great, thrilled to finally get a nice photo of us where my bangs aren't sticking straight up from my head.... predictably hadn't planned ahead so no burlesque show, had dinner (which I had to chip in for), had a parting of the ways in the line waiting for dinner, so dinner was awkward... The parting of the ways was a big ice bucket on my libido (not his apparently) and it was late so I went home to my parents (i confess, really my dog).

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/19/2016:
Plans changed I guess. Have a great Sunday.

happy-1 on 06/19/2016:
Or the relationship is at an end. Already.


Horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2016:
Thanks for your great comments about waxing, later i'll go to all the links your provided. I don't think i can wax myself at all. I don't have the guts! I tried it a long time ago & was super squeamish and couldn't do it. Doubt i'm any different now! But i'm still looking thru your links THANK YOU! i did totally forget about how Nair can be so useful too. I have it at home...Actually I have Veet.

Also, the 2 best brands (i like it strong!) of kombucha in my opinion are Kevita and Synergy / GT's! I didn't know Costco sells! I should pick it up when with my folks. Best deals i ever get is when I buy Kevita, sometimes only $2.50 each. Otherwise, everything's super $$$ at least $3.50.-$4.

So I'm happy to hear you looked great and really spent time on yourself as i'm sure it felt really goood to do so...but i'm really sorry about how it went down?

What are you going to do about your situation with him? I'm sorry about how he said it before dinner. before the night was over at all..

happy-1 on 06/20/2016:
Not really sure. The parting of the ways is that he has a sectioned off area of his life called "personal business" and I am in that tiny box. So... No brunches with friends. No meeting his kid. No phone calls if something happens to him.

I honestly don't know what I will do about it. I'll probably go passive till he walks. It is always better to get dumped because then they don't show up at your house or do other random crap.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/20/2016:
btw, i'm noticing you are eating well - changed lately!...including more low cal drinks..

happy-1 on 06/20/2016:
You're a good influence, lol.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/20/2016:
I'm glad you don't mind my being sometimes extremely compulsive on here...it's one of my ways of de-stressing! happy to be a good influence. i drink a lot of diet stuff, not saying it's good, but a lof of the choices i make are generally made to keep calories down. :) i know the secrets! :)



happy-1 - Friday Jun 17, 2016
(Planned meal plan with only 3 meals out a week)
Weight: 247.2

B - 10AM - Egg muffin, corn chips, diet coke. 

 Skipped Lunch and 2 snacks

4pm - Leftover mexican food. Yum.

 7:30pn - Chopped salad. Chicken enchiladas. I did good grocery shopping this week

I feel like I ate something after this... But I am not sure... Could have just been a diet gingerale. 

 


Working from home today in case strep is coming back. Feeling run down. So many people in the office have new babies I want to stay away while I have plague.

Going a little stir crazy. I need to get out and have some fun. Was supposed to go camping this weekend but after just 3 hours at E3 yesterday I was weak as a kitten so I cancelled last night. I have homework anyway.

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More camper van porn on craigslist. Learned interesting things about Diesel from this post... 25MPG in a van for Diesel???? Wow! Somehow the dirty hippie aspect of the van makes it less appealing. 

http://losangeles.craigslist.org/lac/cto/5637346891.html

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There's an even better van... really well laid out for the space. I would probably do exactly this but maybe skip all the windows and add a cage divider for security and privacy over the swivel chair mount. I'd also make it a 4x4 :-)

http://santabarbara.craigslist.org/cto/5623322580.html

Next year, Next year

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Looking forward to seeing Matt on Saturday. He said he'd take me to the Yard House at 8. Kind of late to eat. I wanted to see a burlesque show... only $7.50 a head on Goldstar, but he never wants to think ahead. They'll be twice as much tomorrow and then neither of us will want to go... because we could have gotten them cheaper the day before. Oh well.

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!


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