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happy-1 - Thursday Sep 07, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Back from Catalina. Oi... real life. Was up late last night doing laundry and putting the house back together.

Woke up: 9:45 B: 4 packs of trail mix, matcha L: greek frozen yogurt bar at 3pm. Super hungry but fridge isn't organized enough to find food. Spent morning cleaning... chicken/egg problem. Must clean fridge to find food. Must find food to have will to clean fridge. Only the strong will survive S: Cleaning out fridge and snacking my way through. 2 pieces of cheese, 2 hardboiled eggs, snap peas, matcha

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 09/07/2017:
Always nice to get back home from a trip....after the clean up that is.

happy-1 on 09/10/2017:
OMG 3 days of being a kid again. Can I go back????


horn_of_plenty on 09/08/2017:
Hello Happy!!!

I see you are STILL an addict of those trail mix packets….this is probably the particular reason I do not keep any at home….but if you want to try to have only one packet, the tip is to have your matcha ready so that by the time you are finished eating the 1st packet, the match is in your hand ready to deliver to your mouth! This is literally how I do things!!!!!!!!! To stop eating, I have the drink READY so that it’s not like I stopped with the food, still putting something in my mouth, just not any more calories….

I know what you mean by wanting to eat and then do the work….i am same! If I am hungry, that’s all I think about and really don’t like to do work until I’ve satisfied my hunger either lol…

Seems you have a good mix of snacking foods in your fridge….but yeah sounds like you are ready to go shopping soon for more ! LOL….happy FRIDAY!

happy-1 on 09/10/2017:
Hugs! Yes... I love trail mix but my bodyfat does not.


Donkey on 09/09/2017:
Welcome back!!!

happy-1 on 09/10/2017:
Hugs! Missed you guys!



happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 30, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Ugh, didn't even realize there was no evacuation order for Houston till I read this... http://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2017/08/28/546721363/why-didn-t-officials-order-the-evacuation-of-houston

Interview today. I am a little worried because I don't really understand the company... it is a cashback rewards program that watches your credit card transactions, but if it is able to see all items purchased, that's a lot of data to give up about yourself. Scary.

Up:8:45 B: matcha, overnight oats

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/30/2017:
Wow..that is scary....be very careful about giving up your privacy rights...Did you google the company to see if it's legit?


innerpeace on 08/31/2017:
Yes this entire situation is devastating. I cannot believe they didn't learn more from Hurricane Katrina, as I was activated to help with this situation and after, sealed the deal for me to retire. It was the worst feeling ever and from there I lost all hope and faith in the human spirit and learned....

Evacuation order or not, couldn't one as a thinking for oneself human being take care of themselves and leave the area without being told by a city official?

I just read this morning a tropical storm could turn into a hurricane by the end of the week, headed for Florida. If I was in Florida, I would be making arrangements to leave now...and then again one could always choose not to live on a coast line.

I hope you did well on your interview...if you went. I hope they were able to explain the job and/or company to you.


horn_of_plenty on 09/01/2017:
Good luck on interview...but everywhere and anywhere we always give up data about ourselves - a famous person once said that he couldn't even write a formal business letter without revealing something about himself!



happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 29, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Turning in the training funding application today.. I am so nervous about it and had such a hard time putting it together. Part of me assumes I am going to get turned down and another part of me slaps that part and says don't be stupid. Being afraid you will get turned down doesn't mean not doing it at all so you aren't disappointed is the right thing either. Suck it up cupcake and just show up and see what happens.

So I am at the workforce center waiting for my appointment.

29 days into 60 day challenge. With this next half I want to build on my regular 7-8 hours of sleep and elimination of simple carbs.

Missed my workout today though. I really need to move to a closer gym.

Breakfast: matcha, overnight oats

Lunch: black beans, cheese, enchilada sauce, kale, sweet potato chips.

Snack: cheese stick, 2 hardboiled eggs, carrot sticks, hummus

Snack: paleo brownie, 4 tbsp frozen yogurt

Dinner: porkchop in mushroom gravy, mashed potatoes, kale

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
Yup...think positive you never know.


horn_of_plenty on 08/30/2017:
Yes, i agree that you should think positively about the application! Just like the lotto - "you gotta be in it to win it!"....

Wow so already you are halfway into the challenge! amazing!

Yes, i like to have a gym as close as humanly possible....that's def most convenient especially if it's bad weather, my gym i can only go via local roads which is good during storms not to have to be on a highway....

with gyms, they are best when they are able to add convenience into our lives rather than too many obstacles and/or frustrating challenges!



happy-1 - Monday Aug 28, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Still PMS. Still a little crazy/cranky. Worried I'll have it while I'm supposed to be snorkeling Catalina and a shark will eat me if I go in the water. Aaaaargh!

Ate two slices of pizza today, but tomorrow is another day and the giant living room pile is No More! It is conquered. Sorted! Boxed! Dejunked!

Next step is to figure out what to do with it all and clean the carpets. I should probably buy a carpet cleaner so I can do it in small patches, but balk at spending $200 when I am unemployed and it isn't something I should buy used.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
yeah...for conquering the pile of stuff!

happy-1 on 08/29/2017:
Yeah... still need to figure out what to do with it all. Not a normal looking living room dining area by any means, but one step at a time, one box at a time.


horn_of_plenty on 08/29/2017:
Lately no PMS but bad pimples. I think was was stressing when a friend came to NYC and i was planning with her and the pimples showed up directly when she went back home to France!

Lately instead of PMS, i'm just EXTREMELY TIRED and been craving sleep. So just taking it as easy as possible at work.


bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
Hysterectomy at 48...I had forgotten about PMS

happy-1 on 08/29/2017:
Hugs! Hope you feel better now.


bearcountrygg on 08/29/2017:
Oh yeah...I had fibroids and really bad endomettiosis and ovarian cysts..the hysterectomy solved all of that...instant menopause...LOL



happy-1 - Thursday Aug 24, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Didn't get everything done today but I didn't yesterday either so I might as well just call it a night and go to bed on time. I ate a lot of junk tonight in a hormonal meltdown... an ice cream sandwich, personal pepperoni pizza, and a chocolate chip cookie. Going to bed early is my best first step to getting back on track.

Heard from Scott today. He has new apple earphones and wanted to rub it in. I should have responded with the finger.

Sent me into a Tinder fidget widget storm. Realized it was unproductive and deleted my profile again.

Ugh. Where is the decent dude I can connect with?

Hugs kiddos. If you need to hug yourself, that's cool too.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/26/2017:
Hormones are truly a cross to bear. They make life difficult, but without them, life is difficult.

happy-1 on 08/28/2017:
Hugs, no kidding.


bearcountrygg on 08/26/2017:
UGH...He doesn't sound like he is good for you.

happy-1 on 08/28/2017:
Lol. I told him not to call me for a week today... that I am too PMS and he may lose a testicle.


horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2017:
I don't see a lot of decent dudes anywhere!

HUGS back to you!



happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 23, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Feeling a bit better this morning. Delayed my camping trip by a day. Decided to stick around at home and try to work here today so I don't have to reset and recover at the coworking space. Also put my membership on pause there. There is going to be a remodel and I don't want to be there while that's going on. I have bad asthma.

Breakfast: Mixed nuts, matcha

12: Sat down to work. Started with cleaning out inbox while the Design on a Dime episodes play in background for pleasant happy sounds.

1:20 - Hungry and parents finally left. Faced the enormity of trying to deal with the mess I created there. Washed down counters, swept floor, matched up tupperware for packing cooler, dug sweet potatoes that are cooked out of fridge, ordered replacement parts for slow cooker I destroyed, then ate some food... an hour later.

2:30 - Starting work again. Looking for jobs on angel list to apply to. Realized my linked in profile and resume still say I work at my last job presently... 3 months later. *facepalm*

Digging through the gigs... Super complicated stuff that makes me want to run to a dev bootcamp so I can have a job where I get to hide a lot. *sigh*

While I tried to find 12 jobs I am qualified to apply for... I did things like:

  • make dinner (chicken sausage and peppers in red sauce over shiritaki noodles) for my parents
  • dump out and sort the last remaing junk in the living room pile from hell...  into 1 bucket of toiletries, 2  buckets of hardware... for further sorting. So close to nailing it down and killing it forever I can taste it. 
  • get into a huge squabble with my mom. I destroyed her crockpot by melting the lid to my cooler dry boxes on it and killing it forever (aaack) so I called the manufacturer and ordered replacement parts. She got it on special for $15, the replacement parts with shipping were $25, a new one was $35 plus tax... I thought it was cheaper than ordering pizza and healthier so I did it. My mom flipped her lid when I said I paid $25 for the parts... Full on "What's wrong with your head? I'm worried about you! You're broke!" (I am not broke just being mindful of my budget and it looks like I am broke to her because I am not spending unlimited amounts on groceries or every little thing they want done). I eventually yelled back that she wasn't helping, and that if she really was worried about me she should stop interrupting me and let me go back to applying for jobs and stop wasting my time over a $15 crockpot. I cannot be without a working crockpot and mine is a piece of junk that I can't use a timer with
  • eat dinner
  • bring in stuff from the car and all the water bottles they bought, dropped all over the porch and left there
  • make a run to the store for water and ice for the camping trip
  • talk to UDG about tomorrow and discovered that he is behind on filing his taxes... and just pays whatever they are whenever he renews his license. I was horrified... felt blackness just coming in around the edges of my vision
  • somehow though that removed whatever my block was and I then filled out all my applications

1AM - Done with applying for 12 jobs and submitting my UI claim form like a responsible adult.

Did nighttime routine of washing dishes before bed and putting on a load of laundry. I must have used every dish in the house today making spaghetti sauce. Augh. Took 3rd shower.

2:43 am in bed w/ benadryl

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/23/2017:
Yeah, better off going to Starbucks for that time instead of coworking space for now...until the place is renovated! Good luck with your work and safe upcoming travels!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Corner Bakery has actual food and better ambiance.


bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
I have asthma too..it's miserable.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Hugs. I feel you. Have you tried Breatheasy tea from Sprouts? It helps me in the winter when there's lots of mold and pollen.


bearcountrygg on 08/24/2017:
Never heard of it...thanks for the heads up////I'll try it!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/24/2017:
No, never tried those chips in coconut oil...i think they might be a tad to "delicious" for me (meaning: not low cal at all!) but they sound natural and healthy! yes...

nice on the shirataki noodles! i didn't know you ate them! I used to, but, due to the fact that they are indigestible, i do not buy them anymore because they'd bloat me causing terrible gas and would take like 2 days for me to poop them out!

i love those shirataki noodles, but because i'm always working and at gym they caused to much problems. I may eat them a couple times in the late fall, maybe, if i get a day to myself!

i really MUST learn to use a crockpot. I'd have endless healthy dinners that are homemade. I'll learn to use one in late fall!!!!!!!! i'll be home more often on weekends and in December too.

Before NYPD academy i need to learn the crockpot so i can eat better AND MAKE food for the week each week while i study on the weekends at home! YES...i should use a crockpot on weekends in the winter so i can cook while i study!

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
I use it in the summer too for baking sweet potatoes, rotisserie chicken, ribs, pulled pork, corn on the cob. If you are going to do an investment, buy one with a stainless steel insert so you can brown on the stove and then slow cook.


innerpeace on 08/24/2017:
As always, I feel myself needing to almost hyperventilate after reading your entries.

I do not know how you handle everything, but kudos for doing it.

Have fun camping and stay safe.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Ooops. Sorry. Didn't mean to impact you that way. I struggle with time management which impacts my diet, exercise, and sleep. I try to track my time and stress and figure out my triggers for skipping basic stuff and not losing weight. I read your entries and feel like you have the harder time and always want to send hugs.



happy-1 - Wednesday Aug 23, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

Went through the application work today and discovered that it is a lot more work than I thought. Very upsetting. It is also getting hard to find roles I qualify for. When did everything I do suddenly require an engineering degree or an MBA? I wish I had done something less technical as a career. Very dismal. Ate a slice of pizza and then a personal frozen pizza and some Taro chips.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/23/2017:
YOU WILL BE OK!!!!!!!!!!!

Love those taro chips!

LOL, what a weird mix of fresh pizza and then a frozen pizza....! i am SURE the fresh was better!?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
I finally finished the giant bag from Costco. Never eating them again. Have you tried Justin's sweet potato chips fried in coconut oil? I bought two bags for my camping trip and will tell you how they were.


bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
Maybe find an entry level position and work your way up?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
I wouldn't mind that if it was a digital agency and gave me that on my resume. The issue is that the senior people are all dudes in their 20s who don't want to train a 40yo fat chick with issues, lol.


bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
From my past experience, proving yourself to a company is of the most importance. Arriving on time, getting work done in a timely fashion, showing dedication to the company and it's smooth operation. Proving yourself to be valuable to them is what gets and keeps jobs. A degree may get a person in the door but a good work ethic keeps them there. Personally I have never been fired...but I have left jobs myself to move on to something else. I have had calls to please come back and work for companies I have worked for before even if on a limited basis. That means a lot to me and I have returned to help them out temporarily. Degrees are nice ( I only have an associates)...but my belief is that a good work ethic is even more important.

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Yeah on the daily production side. On the project side it is different because all that lovely work effort puts you out of a job.

Apparently my work ethic is why I survived so many layoff rounds at my last job.

Hugs. You sound like a good soul.


bearcountrygg on 08/24/2017:
What type of work are you looking for?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Digital product management for Roku, web, and mobile apps. If I have to go back to school though I'm retraining for something where I get to stand and walk or talk to people.



happy-1 - Tuesday Aug 22, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

11 am -  I woke up late which screws with the adhd meds and had to sit around for an hour and a half waiting for them to kick in.

12 - Showered

1 - Despite having everything in place to simply slide out the door in the morning and be super productive, I did not leave house till 1. Grabbed cooler.

2 - Sat at coworking space trying to get my head around tasks for the day and intermittently eating out of the coler.

Have to get the unemployment form filled out, application for certification done, and fix my bills today, desperately, and all I can think about is the perfect camping menu. There is definitely an app in this. I don't see anything that really helps. Booo.

The problem is that when you prep fod for camping, you do it in stages:

A month ahead:

  • Menu planning
  • Print maps

A week ahead, shopping for:

  • Dry mix ingredients
  • Dry goods foods
  • Anything you are going to freeze to add cold to the cooler (meats, drinks)
  • Fuel for anything you are going to cook
  • Any produce or meat you will dehydrate
  • Anything you are canning/preserving yourself
  • Any preservation items you are taking for the trail to presere on the go.

A week ahead, prep steps:

  • Dry mixes (if you aren't using boxed stuff which is pricey and bad for you)
  • Dry goods packup
  • Fuel packup

2 days ahead, food shopping:

  • Produce 
  • Meat
  • Dairy
  • Firewood

2 days ahead prep: 

  • Freeze drinks for cooler
  • Pack dry box
  • Pack cookig equipment
  • Pack picnic supplies (I try for zero waste, but parchment paper really helps)
  • Charge devices

1 day ahead prep:

  • Pre-wash and chop veggies
  • Repack meats for the cooler
  • Repack condiments for the cooler
  • Meal prep "packed lunches"
  • Gas / Spare gas

Day of:

  • Pack coolers
  • Load car
  • Buy drinking ice

There's Plan to Eat, Moonlight, Trail Chef... but none of them let you add phases and assign a day or break up a shopping list by trip... or print separate prep steps by phase.

There's an app in this, I tell you.

6pm: Actually starting UI form. Applying to roles in Austin, TX a place I have always wanted to check out. A contract there would be fun. Was actually recruited for one a couple of weeks ago and botched it like an idiot because I wasn't emotionally ready. UDG has really helped me put my head back together and feel good. Scott not wanting a relationship with me really hurt. ****tard.

 

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/23/2017:
Do you camp in a tent? Do you hike to the campsite?

happy-1 on 08/24/2017:
Both. This time it is car camping. Still haven't left yet.



happy-1 - Monday Aug 21, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

High anxiety day. Massive PMS.

Application is due tomorrow for the class.

If I had a way, I would design a "Life Lessons" app. That way when someone asks me to dog sit and they don't have internet, and load their kitchen with pizza and junk food, it would pop up a reminder how much it sucks to be there.

It was a test of willpower but I did not eat anything.

I wish there were decent quality wide calf boots for women in size 12. These stop at size 11 :-(

http://www.thefryecompany.com/melissa-stud-back-zip-wide/d/7543601C29992?CategoryId=106

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/21/2017:
Good job with the willpower......I'm going to go look at those boots!

happy-1 on 08/21/2017:
Yeah... the problem with all plus size stuff is the quality is really bad. The shoes aren't made to last. It's like "well you're fat because you don't move so you won't wear anything out"


Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/22/2017:
Good job not eating the junk food…did you bring your own food? That’s how I’d do it to get thru – I’d bring my own things to eat so that I wouldn’t be hungry..or I’d at least bring seltzer with stevia. !!!

Also, good luck with your application – you’ll pull thru. Lastly, when PMS is over, your anxiety will also lessen. I also get anxiety with PMS / period. Bye!



happy-1 - Saturday Aug 19, 2017
(Paleo + beans + bootcamp + fitbit)
Weight: 240.2

243... yikes. Still trucking on the challenge. I got behind logging my calories and I think that's how I gained. That, and all the fries and other cheats I ate.

Cancelled on a bunch of fun stuff this weekend because I am dog sitting again tomorrow. I forgot about how much work it is to go up there and how long a drive it is. I am working on my livingroom pile and making good progress. I have to go to the store tonight and get another duffle bag and repack my car... but after today I think it will be tamed. This is an awesome achievement because every day I have been waking up, looking at it and feeling defeated.

UDG hadn't done any of the tasks in the challenge so I was giving up on hik, which made him man up and start doing tasks. Yay! I do wonder what happens when I am not new and exciting anymore.

I think I deserve Yogurtland tonight.

Progress as of today: 67.8 lbs lost so far, only 60.2 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 08/20/2017:
Yogurt is always good! One thing about guys....its better not to chase them...if they chase you..then they are already motivated. You deserve someone who loves you just for you...don't forget...you are worth it.

happy-1 on 08/21/2017:
Not chasing him. He's chasing me... but his health habits are terrible and he says he wants to lose weight... but not with his habits. He does have a gym membership but time management man... kills you every time. That's what the challenge is about so I invited him to the challenge. He joined but didn't do the tasks so I was going to give up on him but he started doing the tasks.


Horn_of_plenty on 08/21/2017:
I agree with BCGG.

There's a man i love so much, he doesn't chase me, so oh man it can't work! darn it!

Yep, fries will cause weight gain if eaten in abundance! haha.

I've never heard of Yogurtland, it must be frozen yogurt with all the toppings. yummy. Don't go too heavy on the toppings...! I usually just get a hair of coconut or chocolate shavings. but mostly eat the yogurt. and sometimes a little bit of fruit on it.



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