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happy-1 - Tuesday Dec 06, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Enjoying this new blog I found... http://www.organizeyourselfskinny.com/2014/12/30/the-1-thing-that-is-preventing-you-from-losing-weight/

Still have the day off due to no payroll at work. Tempted to go to Ikea and buy some glass lunch containers for meal prep. Healthier than plastic. But a) payroll is late. And b) I have homework. And c) i need to stop doing retail therapy for self soothing, even at the dollar tree.

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 12/06/2016:
Have a good day!

happy-1 on 12/06/2016:
thank you!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2016:
I advise a big fat NO on the glass because - glass is HEAVY and annoying to carry to and from work. I have glass that i use at home and still bring plastic to work - usually i eat the food cold.

OR, only buy one glass container and bring the food in plastic. and at work, transfer to glass to heat up.

i got so sick of carrying around heavy glass.

happy-1 on 12/07/2016:
Good to keep in mind! That's what I have been doing. Maybe I will just keep on keeping on.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2016:
I advise a big fat NO on the glass because - glass is HEAVY and annoying to carry to and from work. I have glass that i use at home and still bring plastic to work - usually i eat the food cold.

OR, only buy one glass container and bring the food in plastic. and at work, transfer to glass to heat up.

i got so sick of carrying around heavy glass.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/07/2016:
:-D I thought you were gonna fight me :-)

Hiiiii Happyyyy xoxoxox

happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 30, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

If you wake up late, is it better to shower and blow dry your hair anyway knowing you will feel better all day and be more "with it" or do you skip the shower and blow dry to make up time, but feel lousy all day?

Working from home today. Planned to go toa user group meeting at 6 in the OC... but it is all the way out in Placentia and I don't know that I can pull that off. 57 min if I leave at lunch now. An hour or more if I leave this evening. The other location the group meets at is closer to the train and easier to get to. Augh. It would have been ok if I had gotten up at 5 and left at 5:30 I think.

If I go, I will feel more happy and connected the rest of the week.If I don't go I can keep working here and do homework after work. Decisions, decisions.


Ha totally missed that they gave us the day off to deal with stuff since they don't have funds for payroll. Guess I get to go to my user group meeting after all.


B - MP - coffee, half n half, oatmeal with raisins

L - out - salisbury steak, mashed potatoes, cornbread, butter
s1 - out - pumpkin pie, whipped cream, iced tea

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 11/30/2016:
definitely be late and blow dry. For some reason I feel better when I do the normal hygiene routine.

happy-1 on 12/06/2016:
Mmm... yes. The joy of shining, flowing locks.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/30/2016:
If I’m going to be late, I will generally rush to get ready. But, driving here this morning to work in the rain, I said to myself (MANY TIMES) how it’s much more safe to take my time and be late than have to pay for the consequences of a car accident….But no, if I’m going to be late, I don’t take the time, as much, to get ready. At my job, it’s VERY day in, day out & most of the women do NOT look absolutely perfectly-groomed EVERY day at all….Many of us do NOT wear makeup. We wear jeans. It’s in an office and most of us do not get any visitors. Nowadays, I don’t even feel lousy when I do not do my hair – I don’t expect to look like I’m going to a party or out to dinner bc it’s not something I wish to spend more time doing…that’s just me. When I do have extra time or after a few extra days off, that’s when I’ll get up a little early or spend extra time on my self-care and presentation because you are RIGHT, dressing nicer and doing yourself up does FEEL GREAT compared to not.

What kind of user group meeting is it? for drugs or alcohol ? I do agree that being involved and doing productive things to give you a boost for a more productive week, oh yes. In fact, I may go to a free concert this weekend on Sunday at the library. It will feel great to listen to live, professional music (think baby-boomer pop and rock and stuff!) for free too! Turns out the Queens, NY library concerts, performances, exhibits & author presentations are really, really good! Like – just as good many times as a performance at Carnegie Hall! For free!

Enjoy your user group meeting….although still not sure what that is?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/01/2016:
i actually blew dry my hair partially today....and thought of you...because i was 10 min late and actually was late and look better than usual.

Donkey on 12/03/2016:
If I'm running late, I will rinse off in the shower (soap up, of course) but not wash my hair. I'm usually good with that. Gotta have that shower.

I was thinking that a user group has something to do with computers... not sure why I thought that, LOL.

happy-1 on 12/06/2016:
Yeah, it is a tech entrepreneurs meetup. Just the thought of my own startup is exhausting but I have a killer idea.

happy-1 - Monday Nov 28, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Back on track after a fun but also rough weekend. Thanksgiving was awesome, went to two parties. Love my friends. Didn't take adderall on time which always screws with me.  If adderall calms down the billion butterflies I have in my brain and makes them all fly in the same direction (albeit not always in the direction I need them to go), sleeping in post-party and taking it a few hours late makes them all kind of go in the same direction but it is a jittery back and forth progression to the destination.  I sat down, shut up and did not check messages for several days, so did not see the bike chef this weekend.

Also started carpooling this morning. Hopefully I didn't scare her off.


B - MP -Eggs, cheese 1 piece toast, coffee, half n half 

S1 - MP - Oatmeal

S2 - Off Plan - Pumpkin pie brought in by coworker

L - MP - Spaghetti with fake meat sauce, 2 pieces of string cheese, apple packet, diet coke

S3 - MP - 2 hard boiled eggs

D - MP - Roll, roast beef, spinach, cherry tomatoes, mayo... something else I forget


Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/28/2016:
Hi Happy Lady!

Bike chef? I do not know what you mean???

I hope the carpooling works out lady! Also, I know what you mean by things not working exactly as well as they can in your brain or body...I've had a similar situation but i've learned to kind of shut my thinking off when things go astray.

Breakfast and snacks sound nice. Don't even tempt me with the pumpkin pie...i had a wonderfully rich and not too sweet piece at my parent's house for thanksgiving and that will be it for the season. I do not care for lots of sweets anymore because i have found good alternaties, i do eat smaller treats frequently like small granola bars and other snack bars so it's not like i do not eat sweet things, but the bigger pies and stuff i stay away from because i find it's still hard for me to control myself off just one piece. So in general, i stay away.

How was the meat sauce? made with tempeh or tofu? snack is great - i keep forgetting to hard boil my own eggs here at home - will probably do it later in this week or on the weekend. Depends when i run out of food here. I have soooo many leftovers!

and your dinner sounds nice too!

Keep up the good work.

happy-1 on 11/28/2016:
It was meatless crumbles.

I cheat and buy the boiled ones sometimes. Beats picking something up at Starbucks, price wise.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/29/2016:
better off to buy the healthy convenience food than to buy it quadruple price at starbucks. i agree with you - that it's ok to sometimes pay more if you are paying for healthy convenience. I do this a TON.

happy-1 - Sunday Nov 20, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Woke up more or less on time and made sunday breakfast. I also did a mini meal prep and setup some eggs for breakfast for the week. I tried to make protein pancakes but made a mess instead. Hot strawberry compote turned out weird so I will try adding some apples for compote later.

And aaargh! I tried to make chicken pot pie soup, but I am out of onions. Have to run out to the store to exchange a bike rack anyway, but wanted to be done cooking for the day by lunch... not still cooking at dinner.

 Cute chef I met for ramen off Tinder wed night texted. I liked him. He was way shorter than me but super company and likes to go for bike rides.

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/21/2016:
So you get along with the biking dude! that's great. Have you gone out with a lot of men from Tinder? any funny or strange stories about it?

I hope you were able to get your onions. Good job on the eggs...i need to prep some too. They are sitting in the fridge - not sure WHAT i'm waiting for! I actually may grill some chicken sausage this morning...nah, waiting until tonight...

happy-1 on 11/21/2016:
I made a dozen eggs, scrambled and slightly under cooked so I can nuke them, but they still turned out dry. I might try to make some turkey chilli to pour over them next week. My protein pancakes kept sticking so I gave up and picked up some Kashi whole grain blueberry waffles and fully cooked turkey sausage patties (no browning required). Decent breakfasts for the week.

Volumetrics-style chicken pot pie soup actually turned out well. Basically, I steamed and pureed two heads of cauliflower, and set that aside. Then I used some healthy margarine to saute a gigantic pile of onions, celery and carrots, and poured in some chicken broth to soften and threw in some parsley, thyme, and pepper, boiled for 20 minutes. I added leftover parboiled red potatoes and chopped chicken breasts (from meal prep setup), and then poured in the cauliflower and threw in a 1/4 cup of mashed potato flakes. I didn't miss the heavy cream at all.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/21/2016:
PS - I found something cheaper than kombucha - i pour at least 2 tablespoons of apple cider vinegar into a glass and then fill it with seltzer (flavored) and then i add sweetener. Extremely low calories like 10-20 most and has the same effect as kombucha! Will save me as much as $3-$4 per day.

happy-1 on 11/21/2016:
Oooh, I'll start doing that too. I like the flavored vinegars in water anyway.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/21/2016:
It works...you will NOT be disappointed...i tend to require more like between 1/8 cup to 1/4 cup ACV in my seltzer i think. i don't measure.

hollybelle on 11/25/2016:
Super company and likes to bike - sounds great!

happy-1 on 11/28/2016:
Yeah... Sweet guy. I had a rough weekend and didn't see him but might circle up this week. There's a few things I can't quite piece together in his story... There's a period of time in his life that is unaccounted for. Thinking maybe a struggle with booze.

Donkey on 11/26/2016:
I agree with hollybelle! :-)

happy-1 - Sunday Nov 20, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

One day at a time...

Went and hung out with friends in oc today... Best thing I could have done for myself... Dad was in rare form tonight... I think my shrink is right and I need to avoid cooking nice dinners and trying to sit down to eat together as a family. It just creates more problems than it is worth. He was pretty cruel at dinner, then about midnight got me up out of bed looking for some blueberry fiber one bars I had in my earthquake supplies. I went to look and didn't see them. He accused me of deliberately screwing with him... Super nice... And food hoarding... Which is super weird because I just have normal pantry stuff and then 4 plastic bins of canned goods and stuff that is easy to make on a camp stove if we have an earthquake. It's about 4 days of food and water for 4 people and a dog... Nowhere near FEMA's 14 days... That would be like 2 paychecks. My parents had zero supplies so I stocked Up. I do have a lot of beans and spices in my normal pantry stuff, but I make a lot of indian food. They only sell that stuff in bulk. Like a bag of the right kind of cumin in the smallest size is 1 lb. Plus then I use more spices which have health benefits. I even make my own muscle rub and face masks now. My parents only buy prepared foods and I only buy bulk foods, so we end up with 2 pantries and a lot of conflict. I wish I could do staples like protein powder, dry milk, flour and salt in bulk like at a co-op because it is better quality and super cheap, but my parents would flip out.

B - jack in the box sandwich, iced tea L - trader joes pizza S - mac n cheese cup D - kombucha, tri tip, southwest pilaf, salad w blue cheese dressing. I gave my dog the leftover tri tip Because at least she loves me, lol S - quesedilla S - chai tea, chocolate biscotti


On a happier note I made small steps towards a kitchen garden today

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

happy-1 - Monday Nov 14, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

258??? Not sure how I gained 12lbs in one weekend camping AND ate normal stuff AND had to use a smaller hole on my belt this morning. Must be water? Anyway... Back at work and had a lovely email that paychecks may not get cut tomorrow due to waiting for funds. Fingers crossed that we get paid.

B - 2 protein shakes, 2 cheese sticks, baggie of apples, coffee/chai mix
L - lightened up mac n cheese, spinach salad with 2 eggs and 1 piece of bacon

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/15/2016:
Hi Happy! Nice to see you back here posting again…hope you don’t mind my comments. I like to comment on what works for me and/or relate to what you guys are eating if it’s about food. I also like to hear about relationships, etc.

Yes, maybe the food is really salty when camping? That can lead to water retention? Also time of month might do it also…or it could be cumulative weight gain over more than just this weekend but you weren’t weighing regularly is my guess? Weight can totally sneak up on us!

Lightened up mac and cheese sounds awesome. How do you lighten it? I would probably add cauliflower? or egg whites in it! I hope you do get paid tomorrow, what a royal pain if I had to experience that & pay rent! Omg… Stay well Happy.

happy-1 on 11/15/2016:
The volumetrics cheese sauce recipe is actually pretty good and even holds up well in the fridge. It is basically a normal cheese sauce with butternut squash and cauliflower pureed and added to it.

We did not get paid today. We were given the day off. I get to do homework all day! My new UX book just came so good timing.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/15/2016:
that cheese sauce sounds fabulous!!!!!!!!!!!

happy-1 on 11/20/2016:
it really is. Add fresh chopped jalapenos and microwave for nachos.

Donkey on 11/15/2016:
Hmmm... Scale broken?

happy-1 - Tuesday Nov 08, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Another easy morning with my pre-made breakfast, packed lunch and set of clothes. Even managed to walk my dog in the morning BEFORE driving in to work for the SECOND TIME IN A ROW... and then I was at work ON TIME for the SECOND TIME IN A ROW. 

And because all my food is packed, I can tell you what I am eating today in one entry.



B - MP - Protein pancake, chicken suasage, peach compote, coffee, half and half

S1 - MP - Fruit /cheese / buscuit tray, tea with too much sugar and creamer.

L - MP - LU mac n cheese, salad, ranch dressing

S2 - MP - Tea / baclava

D - MP - Turkey stuffed pepper, salad, thousand island


Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2016:
Doesn't it feel GREAT to be on time to work! i was exactly 30 min EARLY and MAN DID IT FEEL SO GOOD! only early bc i went to vote and got done with everything majorly early :) wahoo!

I had a protein pancake (chocolate flavor!) for dinner! tasty. nice with my cooked cranberries :)

Chicken sausage is cool...so much lower in calories in know bc i have looked!!! tastes great too! nice on your Turkey stuffed pepper. way to go ... excellent prep. you can try to have a lot of sf jello or other low cal stuff instead of baklava to save you TONS of calories...and the peach compote maybe have a peach instead? less sugar i think? unless it's mostly natural in the compote...which is awesome too :)

all in all, nicely done. maybe the mac and cheese instead of mac, use cauliflower!

happy-1 on 11/08/2016:
Again, watch the sugar free stuff... here is a good link on why they are so dangerous.


happy-1 on 11/08/2016:
Here is a safer jello recipe... http://www.mamanatural.com/how-to-make-healthy-jello/

happy-1 on 11/08/2016:
The peach compote has no added sugar. It is sweet enough. I got it out of the Volumetrics cookbook my parents get from their diet program. You take a bag of frozen fruit and defrost it until there is liquid in the bottom, a teaspoon of cornstarch (or arrowroot, but either way mix thoroughly so it doesn't clump) and whatever spices you want to add and stick it in the microwave. It turns into pie filling. You can just roll it up in the protein pancake with the sausage and it is practically a breakfast burrito.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2016:
Thank you for looking out for me...actually i have once made my own no sugar (stevia) jells! they were pretty good but i made a mess making them....your tips are good, thank you :)

...I think Volumetrics is awesome!!! That's a lot of my own approach - low cal but filling volume for food!

i like your ideas and the peach compote recipe, nice.

I like cooked cranberries (i make in microwave and only add some stevia!) over a protein pancake too, but not too much, as the sweetness will become overbearing!

puddles on 11/09/2016:
Have a great day.

happy-1 - Monday Nov 07, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Best joke of the day ever: http://www.maplematch.com/

"Election worries? We got your back. Maple Match revolutionizes how Americans and Candians date with our new free mobile app for iOS. Set your dealbreakers, view your matches, and chat with your favourites. All for free."

BTW... Canadians, I'm single.


Still reeling from last week but at work like a grownup. Forgot to weigh myself this morning. Had the hardest time getting to sleep last night and just ended up eating tortilla chips to settle my stomach which was turning and churning. Now that I think about it, rice or bread would have been better. 

Back is better. 3 days of "ow". Never pick up a 60lb shepherd mix to carry it outside to pee.


B - MP - Protein pancake, chicken sausage, peach compote, coffee, half and half. Leftover butterfinger bites from last night's binge.

S1 - Out, Starbucks (bad bad) - Coffee, half and half, bacon sandwich. Feeling anxious. Needed a second breakfast... After eating a bunch extra last night because I didn't eat enough during the day because I don't get hungry when I cook.

L - MP - Lightened up mac n cheese, vitamin water. (not enough calories :-()

S2 - MP - Fruit and cheese tray

D - MP - Turkey chilli and 1/2 a sweet potato

S3 - Turkey sandwich, coleslaw

Ds - Lentil soup

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/07/2016:
lol...i say stay away from Canada and date local...unless canada is local! haha....i have once had a relationship / friendship that was distance, never again.

i took a sleeping pill...and slept so well that i slept with my light on and didn't bother to get fully up to shut it off!

happy-1 on 11/07/2016:
LOL. Nice! Don't you feel hungover tho?

horn_of_plenty on 11/07/2016:
Yes, I do feel extremely tired in the morning the next day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2016:
but i like the pills bc i get a chance to sleep longer periods, wake up later, i tend to eat better.

happy-1 - Sunday Nov 06, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Hovering back at 246.8 again. Hope I worked some of it off today. I found really compact lunch bags at the dollar store and had the bright idea of packing all my food for the week in them. I literally spent the whole day cooking everything up in the fridge. Experimenting with solving the fridge/food struggle with my parents by making up meals ahead, using up ingredients, and then everything in the fridge that isn't in a lunch bag is fair game. The bags hold my breakfasts also, so literally the other stuff is all for them. I will keep it simpler next time since I cooked 10 hours straight... From the recipe book in their weight loss program, I made:

Turkey meatloaf and mashed potatoes
Turkey stuffed peppers
Turkey chilli and cornbread
Garden salads
Lentil soup
Lightened up mac n cheese
Protein pancakes
Babaghanoush and carrot sticks
Extra cups of cheese sauce to make nachos with

(And, I went through my clothes and packed everything into outfits for the week in those white mesh laundry bags for delicates. Turns out I never have socks and underwear because I only have a couple of pairs... Are there elves in my house?????? I bought whole packs at costco last year!)

And miracle of miracles the kitchen is clean. My laundry is currently chugging away. After several days of nightmare events, I am on the other side. Be careful what you wish for, you might get it.

However one thing I wished for that I was happy to get is my big fluffy fur baby is feeling better. When you pull back her eyes, they aren't dancing in their sockets anymore and she was able to do her happy dog shimmy without barrel rolling into the street. We went a little slow, but had a nice, normal length walk, and did some extra sniffing this evening. $840 for the vet, dog got better on her own. FML.

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 11/07/2016:
Glad to hear your dog is better.

happy-1 on 11/07/2016:
Thank you!!!!!!! She is up and around and drinking water and looking for treats.

hollybelle on 11/07/2016:
So happy your doggie is OK. Kitchen is clean and doing laundry - YAY! Socks sometimes disappear at our house, too - often inside of shirts we discover much later! But haven't experienced disappearing underwear!

happy-1 on 11/07/2016:
Maybe you have normal elves and I have pervert elves.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/07/2016:
All the food you made sounds delicious but yeah i can understand you not wanting to ALWAYS be spending 10hrs a week cooking! You must be proud of your efforts though. Food really does sound excellent! nice job. maybe don't always make food for the entire week, but a few days? or only breakfast or lunch or dinner...but now you are really prepared for this week! wow.

Glad your doggie is feeling better :)

happy-1 - Wednesday Nov 02, 2016
(Do a menu plan with parents. More protein.)
Weight: 246.8

Stayed up doing homework last night till 12:30, then got home at 1.30. I was way too tired to do the drive this morning and I need an early bedtime to reset so I am working from home today. Having some computer problems so I am getting a slow start. At least I got to make myself a fresh protein pancake this morning. Probably spending the day at starbucks.


Should have gone to starbucks. Just watched my mother perched backwards in the recliner take a header over the back and fall on my very senior dog. Mom is fine, praying for my dog. She took the full weight of a recliner and my mom.


B - 2 protein pancakes, sugar free maple syrup

S - apple slices and 2 cheese sticks

L - PBJ and a lean cuisine

Progress as of today: 61.2 lbs lost so far, only 66.8 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/02/2016:
wowza....your uneventful day turned sorta eventful!?

hollybelle on 11/03/2016:
Good menu so far. How did the rest of the day go?

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