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happy-1 - Tuesday Sep 20, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 250.2

Woke up late this morning... like I was drugged, lol. Feeling a ton better. missed 8am call, stumbled to shower. Not going to miss the trailer... I gave notice this month and I am cleaning it out. All that is left is cleaning supplies, food, bedding, and toiletries. Food and toiletries go down this week and then bedding and cleaning supplies will be the last thing I take as I give the place a scrub.

A little nervous to be giving it up, but I need a place that is dog-friendly and allows guests. Had to do two hotel stays last month to get homework done and the challenges of just doing daily things are too much... I can't cook there, 

Yesterday, I did errands after work and fell asleep right after dinner so today I need to work late and finish it off. Will do errands on my lunch hour... 

B - 2 bon bons, diet coke, frozen burrito, guac

S1 - Iced coffee with half and half. 1/2 a brownie.

L - Dropped of prescriptions and grabbed lunch at Wendy's. Grilled chicken sandwich. Small side of chilli with cheese and seasoning. Vitamin water.

S2 - 

D -  kale salad, chicken masala frozen dinner. Not awful, but not getting it again.

Worked late and discovered design flaws in the new feature. No wonder company is going under. Ugh. Was texting J, a guy I met off Tinder. He said something rude and I deleted his number and texts. Z, also off Tinder, is nice... Even if he is still pulling his life together at 34 with no real skills. I'm 38 and doing the same.

Progress as of today: 57.8 lbs lost so far, only 70.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/20/2016:
Hi Happy! So happy to see you back!

I actually do wake up a lil drugged sometimes...from leftover remnants of a sleeping pill haha.

are you going to live back with your family? what is your decision on where you will live after you return your trailer?

have a good rest of your day!

tasty eats...those burritos are nice with fiber if they have beans!

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
They do have beans. Pretty decent nutrition... I couldn't take the jimmy dean muffins anymore, but those had more protein.

I am just so frustrated... Nothing is making it any easier to reach my goals... I've tried just about everything. The trailer is actually crazy expensive because there's no way to cook without attracting pests and everything goes bad so fast. Between utilities and my takeout bill, I can pay the same amount for a vacation rental on Airbnb, Overnight, or even Hotwire, so my plan is to just look for a place next week and move over there for a week.

I figure my company will go under in the next month or two so I don't want to get involved with a lease or roommates. But I need out of that trailer/junk pile/fire hazard and there will never be a perfect exit strategy if I wait.

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
I just have so much residual stress every day trying to pull myself together in two hoarder households... It affects my reliability for my current work... even if they are going under. The trailer is the thing in my life that I can change right now, so I am changing it even if it isn't the perfect change.


grannyannie on 09/20/2016:
Welcome back

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
Thank you!


hollybelle on 09/21/2016:
I hope you get your living situation worked out soon. You have lots of guts to be working, going to school and trying to improve your living situation. Hang in there.

happy-1 on 09/21/2016:
Aw thanks. One foot in front of the other.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/21/2016:
Your company is going under!? Mine is struggling but will probably survive strong in the end...

You sound to be making good decisions regarding the trailer. You will save lots of $ not paying the rent anymore.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/21/2016:
Your company is going under!? Mine is struggling but will probably survive strong in the end...

You sound to be making good decisions regarding the trailer. You will save lots of $ not paying the rent anymore.

happy-1 on 09/21/2016:
I'm glad you are a fighter! Companies are the people that work there and keep pushing.

I think the company will go under largely because there are a bunch of jerks who take paychecks and don't do any work because they think the company is going under. Self fulfilling prophecy.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/21/2016:
Yes Happy I get you...this company is HUGE...i feel there are good people here. Not everyone can just get up & leave and get new jobs...not easy to EVERYONE to do. And many are old so they retired. ...

but we have a lot of brainpower here. i see it going ok at least for the time i plan to stay here (until next summer). Then I am entering the NYPD!



happy-1 - Monday Sep 19, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 250.2

 Haven't been posting as I am doing online therapy and it takes all my time I am not in class... but I keep piling pounds back on... so trying again :-) Weighed in a 250.2 this morning... 3lbs up from lowest weight... Time to make a change.

  • Breakfast - Carls Jr drive thru - 2 biscuits, egg, cheese, diet coke
  • Lunch - 2 egg rolls, bowl of soup.
  • Snack - tea, 3 sugars 4 creamers, 4 packets of cookies.
  • Dinner - Butternut squash salad, leftover pot roast, chips and hummus, 1/2 a pita bread, 2 bon bons.

Slept right after dinner for 16 hours straight. 

 

Progress as of today: 57.8 lbs lost so far, only 70.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 09/19/2016:
Welcome back good luck.

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
Thank you! We can only try every day we are above ground!


hollybelle on 09/20/2016:
Welcome back. I am also newly returned here! Never give up!

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
Hugs! We will conquer.


OhioRaven on 09/20/2016:
"Never Give Up, Never Surrender ! " The Commander on the movie Galaxy Quest.

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
Love it!


innerpeace on 09/20/2016:
Missed your posts! Glad you are back.

happy-1 on 09/20/2016:
Hugs! Missed you too! Find yours inspiring.



happy-1 - Tuesday Jul 12, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

Need to log more regularly. Wasn't feeling so hot yesterday.

 ---

1. frozen burrito and cherries, vitamin water.

2.  Turkey sandwich from my cooler

3. Chocolate graham crackers dipped in a single serving cup of peanut butter.

4. Big farmer boys burger.

 

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 07/12/2016:
Have a great afternoon/evening.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2016:
i hope you feel better Happy :-D


Horn_of_plenty on 07/13/2016:
foods sound tasty!



happy-1 - Sunday Jul 10, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Leftover panda express

S1 - Cake pop, iced coffee with half and half.

L - Another cake pop 

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 07/10/2016:
What are cake pop is it a reasonable treat? I am always looking for something that I can do that will not side track me back to my unhealthy eating. Have a great day.

happy-1 on 07/10/2016:
They have them at Starbucks... The chocolate ones are pretty much my favorite treat. They aren't enough calories to throw me off track, are satisfying enough to stop me from looking for more food, and cheap.

That they stop me for looking for more is really the key for me.

http://www.starbucks.com/menu/food/petites/chocolate-cake-pop

Nutrition Facts Per Serving (38 g) Calories 140 Calories from Fat 60 % Daily Value* Total Fat 7g 11% Saturated Fat 3.5g 18% Trans Fat 0g Cholesterol 10mg 3% Sodium 75mg 3% Total Carbohydrate 21g 7% Dietary Fiber 1g 4% Sugars 15g Protein 2g


Donkey on 07/10/2016:
Anything with cake is OK in my book!

happy-1 on 07/10/2016:
I love cake like a fat kid loves cake.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/12/2016:
lol leftover chinese in the morning = yum. used to do it more in college days. yum yum yum...wish i could still do it now! :-)

happy-1 on 07/12/2016:
Hmm Leftover thai for me please! Chinese is too sweet.



happy-1 - Saturday Jul 09, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

 Saturday I basically ate on target. A little off because I only got a little sleep. I had a chicken quesedilla for breakfast with a diet coke and some potato chips as a mid afternoon snack, but was ok other than that.

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!


happy-1 - Friday Jul 08, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Skipped

S1 - Leftover wheat pasat, veggies, sauce and cheese

L - At starbucks to have a place to work... Venti iced coffee, 2 cake pops for morale

--- A little weird after this because I stayed at starbucks till close working then worked at home till 2. And expensive

S2 - egg muffin, second coffee

D - another cake pop, some kind thai wrap

S3 - 3 bags of chips, contemplating my life the universe and everything, half a turkey sandwich

 

My dog faked dying to get a pound of deli turkey out of me.

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 07/08/2016:
yes, i am def on quite an adventure right now!!!!! OMG.


puddles on 07/08/2016:
Welcome back.


thinkpositive on 07/09/2016:
Glad to see that some things are getting better. Logging is a good thing.



happy-1 - Thursday Jul 07, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

 Have been slipping on the entries since I started talking to the therapist on BetterHelp.  Some things are getting better, but the couple of pounds I lost are back with friends... so back to logging, at least my food.

 

B - Protein shake

S1 - Skipped

L - Chicke parm

S2 - Skipped

D - 5pm - Burrito bowl at Freebirds while organizing personal papers

S3 - turkey sandwich and a brownie

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 07/08/2016:
Good to see you back, Hap.

happy-1 on 07/08/2016:
Thanks! It is good to be back in our happy little home.


Horn_of_plenty on 07/08/2016:
Welcome back...best thing to do is what GrannyAnnie said...just to get back on that weightloss train!

happy-1 on 07/08/2016:
Hugs! Glad to be welcomed back! I look forward to catching up on your adventures.


grannyannie on 07/08/2016:
Good luck! I'll get back on track with you!

happy-1 on 07/08/2016:
Yay! We can re-track together, buddy!



happy-1 - Wednesday Jun 29, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Skipped. Mistake. Talked myself out of starting the habit of ordering my favorite coffee drinks on the Starbucks mobile app which would be a black hole for my paycheck. But did not get coffee. Also a mistake.

S1 - 2 string cheeses, breakfast sandwich in cooler that was somehow unchanged by leaving it in there a couple of weeks unfrozen. I really, really need to stop buying those.

L - Plain seltzer, chicken deli sandwich from remnants of stash in work fridge. Happy day, I had stuck a homemade camping MRE in there with... a caffeine shot! Grape, and dollar store generic not a 5 hour energy, but pretty good. 

S2 - Handful of choc graham crackers

D - Chicken from rotisserie chicken. 5 peanut butter cups. A couple of bites of hummus. Water

S3 - Kombucha


Augh. Only got 3 hours of sleep last night. Trying to get to bed early but wide awake and useless. So tired.

---

In addition, today was the kind of day that makes me want to take up drinking. Ugh. Today was T's run to doctor in Orange County that I cover dinner for once a month. This month I planned to pick up chicken and deli stuff at Costco since I have so much homework. Got a text message at 4... can I be at the hospital at 5 and bring her sister. I of course think someone is dying and run out of work with my hair on fire.

I had completely spaced that the hospital her sister works at is next to Costco that I had already said I was going to at 5... and had said if they need anything to let me know before 5. Her sister was chilling at the Costco food court instead of the hospital just to make it that much easier on me. Aparently they had car trouble and were passing the hospital and swapped cars with her.

And this my children is the moral of the story... If you just really really want a cup of coffee in the morning so badly your eyeballs are peeling... just get the coffee and don't stress about the $4.

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 06/29/2016:
Yes I agree always get one coffee in before doing anything. Life is much better after coffee time.


OhioRaven on 06/29/2016:
Make mine a Large McDonald's with stevia.

happy-1 on 06/29/2016:
Really? McDonald's... so you love the taste of turpentine?


innerpeace on 06/29/2016:
Times like these I'm glad I don't drink coffee. Hope your day gets better.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/30/2016:
I agree with you about the coffee. I also have enough $$$ flow to be able to pretty much buy whatever food / drinks I want to and not regret it.

Food / drinks are NOT negotiable to me & i do not really "budget" food lol. If i did, I'd probably be able to save 50% of the cash I spend weekly on groceries LOL. I even buy premade jello, which, when not on sale, is DOUBLE the price of jello sold in the powdered form (not premade). And sometimes, premade jello is actually even 3-4x the price of powdered jello! I PAY for the convenience and cannot even regret it, at all, right now. However, i do see myself starting to make my own jello down the road, even adding cooked cranberries to it :-)

yes, don't fall for the starbucks app...btw, not sure if you have regular delis by your work - but by me, the neighborhood delis still charge only like $1 or $1.50 for a coffee, not $2 like Dunkin Donuts or $2.50-$3 for a cup like Starbucks. Maybe you can go to the delis for your coffee instead of starbucks???

do you get a huge high after the 5hr energy? is it all at once energy and then a crash? i forget what those are like - I used to take them a LONG time ago...when i was around 28-30yrs old (now i'm turning 34) at work when i TRULY never ever got enough sleep.



happy-1 - Monday Jun 27, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - $tarbucks breakfast sandwich, coffee, half and half 

S1 - 

L - 

S2 - 

D - 

S3 - 


 

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!


happy-1 - Monday Jun 27, 2016
(Stick to meal plan and no more midnight snacks)
Weight: 247.2

B - Egg scramble, cottage cheese

L - Chicken burrito, chips, salsa, diet coke

S - Chicken, Tabouli, Tzatiki

D -  Chicken salad, apricots, cherries, tea

Progress as of today: 60.8 lbs lost so far, only 67.2 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/28/2016:
very different mix of foods today! i like your flavors always...like which food you choose to eat together...my style for tastebuds and satisfaction!



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