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hollybelle - Thursday Jan 03, 2008
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 163.0

Good Morning Diet Diary!!!

Check out the calorie count on yesterday's entry.......What a day I had! I may be making a little much of this, but it's been SO LONG since I had a great day. I almost didn't eat the cornbread or the nighttime snack, but I didn't want to cut back too far because that, for me, spells disaster. I wanted to stay right at about 1500 calories and I was at about 1400 for the day.

It feels so good to wake up and not be bloated or have indigestion from the night before. I feel so much clearer in my head, too. I forgot to mention that I am trying this vegetable and herb cleanse thing that I got from the food co-op. Its just herbal supplements that you take in the a.m. and p.m. and I probably forgot because, so far (5 days), I don't notice a difference at all. It's called First Cleanse and I can't really tell it's doing anything, but we'll see.

I did not exercise, yesterday. Sat on the couch - literally - and did nothing all night. Just a Lazy Day. I will do SOMETHING today. I think I am having a little bit of general anxiety and a bit of depression is trying to creep in. But I know if I address it now it won't take over. I need to keep doing positive things for myself and others and not get in that vicious cycle.

MONKEY BREAD - several folks asked about this. I don't want to post it here, really (LOL) but you asked for it so here goes.

2 BIG Cans Refrigerator Biscuits Cinnamon and Sugar Mixture Butter or Margarine

Butter tube or bunt pan & set oven at temp called for by biscuit can. break canned biscuits in pieces - 2 or 3 pieces per biscuit ought to do it - and dip each in cinn and sugar mix. Lightly drizzle some melted butter between layers of the sugared biscuits and bake (not sure how long - just 'til done (LOL)

Cool 5 minutes and invert on plate - while still slightly warm top with icing or glaze (I use cream cheese icing). YUM.........save this for a time when you have EARNED it and enjoy every bite!

OK now that I have been a bad influence on you all. See you later! P.S. I have been reading everyone's diary and even if I haven't posted a note - there are LOTS of people out here doing SO WELL right now. I want all the best for all of us - so keep up the good work. If you are one who is still struggling - take it from me - you are just a day away from getting a good start and catching the momentum - get going - will 'ya???

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

timeforachange on 01/03/2008:
Congrats on the awesome day you had yesterday! I totally agree that it's a great feeling to wake up in the morning and just feel refreshed and not sluggish because of eating something bad the day before. Keep up the good work! That recipe sounds delicious! My husband would probably enjoy that and I'd have to have a piece too =). Hope today goes just as well for you! Have a good one!

jmarie60 on 01/03/2008:
Congrats on the great calorie intake!!!!! Have a great day!!!! I'm sure you will have another excellent count today!!!!

maria777 on 01/03/2008:
Since I finished off a big rice pudding yesterday made of rice, milk, sugar, eggs, nutmeg, and margerine, I'm going to try to ignore your delicious-sounding recipe today!

Glad to hear you are feeling better today! Big Smile to you!

workingit2 on 01/03/2008:
YAY a great day yesterday for you and for me! Things are starting to turn around for the better! Congrats!

dearerdiarist on 01/03/2008:
Your yesterday was just incredible. Congratulations on that!!! That last paragraph in your entry (about one day away) is so precious, Hollybelle. Thank you for that. I'm sure it will inspire most of us.

shadetree on 01/03/2008:
I can remember my stepmother making this (I think to bribe my brothers and I to behave) when I was in elementary school...It's probably been 30 years now! Soooo yummy!

hollybelle - Wednesday Jan 02, 2008
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 163.0

* * * * * * * * *Edited for menu Updates * * * * * * * * *

OK - here I go - it's a new year. I am ready to go!

I'm writing down what I eat. I am going to post breakfast and then update later.....


B: Coffee, 1/2 grapefruit with 1t sugar 135

S: Banana and Cereal 190

L: Soup 340

D: Turkey Sausages (healthy, too) and Sauerkraut Corn Bread 550

S: Apple Cider granola Cereal 175

Total: 1390 UNBELIEVABLE!!

Don't worry I'm going to have a morning snack and I will have an afternoon snack, too. That's how I was success last year. I can do this.

Someone brought "monkey bread" to work (for those of you who know what that is- I love it) and I am not even tempted! I know that monkey bread won't get me where I am comfortable in my clothes and keep me in the good health I enjoy. So there!

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

jmarie60 on 01/02/2008:
My new corny motto is GREAT in '08!

It's going to be a great year in you're off to a great start!!!!!

maria777 on 01/02/2008:
Hollybelle, I love you for what you wrote to me! I really, really needed that! Thank you so much!

I've gained some weight over the holidays...maybe I need to start writing down what I eat, too...does make one extra accountable, doesn't it?

Have a GREAT day! Thanks again! O, Happy Day!

dearerdiarist on 01/02/2008:
Your energy and resolve is just SMOKIN" off this page! I am so there for you! Monkey bread? I am not even supposed to read that word. :)

mcwoo40 on 01/02/2008:
Hiya Holly,firstly happy new year to you,hope it's a good one.You sound very positive,i have been for 3 days and i've fallen, end of!!Read my diary then you will know how i feel.You keep it up girl,till next time,Julie

workingit2 on 01/02/2008:
Happy New Year!! I was thinking about you when I was doing some gentle stepping on my platform yesterday. I think there are quite a few of us who are getting back to basics and what worked for us in the first place..which is really cool! Have a great day!

greengirl on 01/02/2008:
Hollybelle, I have never heard of monkeybread. Please tell me what it is, please, please !!! I have started writing everything down again, even the naughty stuff that slips in !! Keep up the good work :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/02/2008:
what on earth is monkey bread! I can't believe i've never heard of it! maybe its something they created!? looks like you know the road to success! :)

hollybelle - Sunday Dec 30, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 163.0

OK guys I got the progress bar changed - thanks HOP. Now everyone won't be "misled" that I only have a few pounds to go 'til goal! (SIGH) Although I had written as much in entries, my weight wasn't accurately reflected - I never figured out how to change it.

I have to admit, I actually typed a very dark entry here a few minutes ago and just deleted it on purpose because I was really rambling and thought if anyone read it they would come to KY and have me committed! LOL!

Seriously, it had to do with my whole relationship with food - all my life - and how I have heard the term "stuff our feelings" as being something that causes us to emotional over-eat and I have to admit that is a term I'm not sure I fully understand, but I've been thinking about it and I think I am closer and I was wondering if anyone here can give an example of when they know they are doing it - I hope that's not too personal a thing to ask - but if anyone is comfortable sharing examples, maybe I can come up with a few, too and maybe (even) if we start taking about how we do that, then, perhaps, we'll can come up with alternatives and stop doing it.

The reason I ask about all this is - I think I am getting closer to understanding why I have been off "the healthy lifestyle program" I set out with 1.5 years ago. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying I haven't learned some valuable lessons along the way SO FAR, and I am CERTAINLY not giving up, but I want to learn why I do "these things I do" so that I can sustain the healthy lifestyle.

Anyway - this is probably a more positive post that my original one - and reflects better how I really feel, too.

Thank you everyone for your posts on my last diary. WI2, greengirl and McWoo - I totally agree it's "our" time NOW. I will have more comments on your diaries.

In the meantime - God Bless - Holly

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

Weighlon on 12/30/2007:
Hi, I'm just starting so I'm probably not one to give good examples. But it seems to me the first step is recognizing it. Hey, you're on your way, go girl! Glad to see your determination.

workingit2 on 12/30/2007:
When I start feeling the need to feed my emotional state, I feel very tired and get angry that I have to COOK all the time and tell myself "I deserve to be treated to a night away from cooking and just buy something" and I always think of that darned BURGER KING and then chocolate. This only happens when I am having a bad day and it is almost a tangible need. I feel like I HAVE to 'take the night off' from cooking and just forget that I have a weight problem on top of all these other problems that suddenly press down on me from my stressful day. I do not ever feel that way when I have a good day. When I have a good day, I feel in control of my life and feel strong enough to manage my health.

The one thing that helps me stay on track and avoid BK and junk, is by telling myself that everything will be better the next day and that turning to food in a crisis is like turning to alcohol for an alcoholic. My crutch, for so long, has been food. As food is a mental addiction and alcohol is an actual cellular structure change addiction, I chide myself and tell myself that I better get hold of those emotions unless I want to trade one set of problems for another. Do I want to wake up all puffy and gaining weight or do I want to handle the difficult problem and then keep control of my eating and wake up victorious?

I tell myself that it HAS to be a clear decision to overeat or eat crappy food because then I can own it and not say "Oh it was my emotions." Anyway I hope that makes sense lol

greengirl on 12/30/2007:
Hey Hollybelle, when you mentioned spirit in your comment to me I think you were onto something. I certainly think you need something to believe in. As regards the emotional eating aspect, I can honestly say that I have been using food as a crutch recently, because I have been unhappy (and also guilty because my reasons for being unhappy are quite selfish). However, after a lot of introspection, I think I am coming to terms with a lot of personal stuff, hence my current optimism. I am hoping to be able to count my blessings and get back down to it. I know that I'm only making things harder for myself in the long run, by ruining my health !! I'm not really good at self-analysis - hence this bit of a ramble. What I do know is that we are all in this together :O)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/30/2007:
Hi Holly! I can give a great example of stuffing feelings from tonight! I went on a date today...and for me it went well but can still definitely stir up emotions, feeling, and a need to think about it after and come to conclusions about myself, the other person, and anything and everything else! so, first thing i started to think about after getting off the train is that i would stop off at the supermarket and get some FILLING, bulky foods so that I could really stuff myself, especially since I had eaten light all day. but, i tend to do this in general - stuffing myself after a social engagement where after i just want to veg and relax. I then had a reasonable dinner, little large. at 9:30 i wasn't hungry, but my head and body was. I went on to have a mostly healthy snack and followed it up a little later with a hamburger bun. i didn't need the bun especially, but ate it to feel that satisfied feeling. but, it was satisfied more in my head, since my body didn't need to eat/finish that roll...or the other snack. I then thought about having another roll, i think this was while i finished reading your entry in this diary. I then realized my eating might turn into a binge if I made the mistake of getting up to get another roll...bc then i'd be UNSTOPABLE, especially because there are potato chips in my house! and i'd go for those next! This is a wonderful example of emotional eating. at the same time after coming home, i wanted to be alone and comforted. the food did both for me. oh, and what i really am right now is tired...i should have went to sleep and not eaten these snacks... goodnight! i hope this helps.

applemarket on 12/31/2007:
For the Christmas break my family and I went on vacation and stayed at a really nice 5-star hotel. Because there were babies in tow and we didn't know the area very well, we ended up eating most our meals in the hotel, meaning BUFFETS!! and ohmygod, Hollybelle, those were the craziest binges I ever experienced. Once I get started eating, there's just no stopping... First it begins with 'Why not? Just this once...' or 'One bite won't hurt' which manifests into 'One piece/slab/chunk/whatever won't hurt'. And i'm off, eating way past my heart's desire!

Mid-way through I just figure I've already eaten a lot, so I might as well continue eating as the damage is done. I can't stop half-way through, which would be the logical, sensible thing to do. I eat when I'm stressed, happy, sad, feeling guilty, bored, awake. It's hard to stop when I start. I have to really concentrate and force myself not to eat. So I am sure you are not as bad as me!! Therefore, don't feel so bad :)You're nearly halfway to your goal weight!!

applemarket on 12/31/2007:
For the Christmas break my family and I went on vacation and stayed at a really nice 5-star hotel. Because there were babies in tow and we didn't know the area very well, we ended up eating most our meals in the hotel, meaning BUFFETS!! and ohmygod, Hollybelle, those were the craziest binges I ever experienced. Once I get started eating, there's just no stopping... First it begins with 'Why not? Just this once...' or 'One bite won't hurt' which manifests into 'One piece/slab/chunk/whatever won't hurt'. And i'm off, eating way past my heart's desire!

Mid-way through I just figure I've already eaten a lot, so I might as well continue eating as the damage is done. I can't stop half-way through, which would be the logical, sensible thing to do. I eat when I'm stressed, happy, sad, feeling guilty, bored, awake. It's hard to stop when I start. I have to really concentrate and force myself not to eat. So I am sure you are not as bad as me!! Therefore, don't feel so bad :)You're nearly halfway to your goal weight!!

maria777 on 01/01/2008:
Happy New Year to you!

hollybelle - Friday Dec 28, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

How do I change my progress bar below? I am going to update it to my current weight, but I can't find the place to do that. It only lets me track my progress and shows me my weight for the last several months, etc. * * * * * * * * * * * *Edited for the above question* * * * * * * * * * *

I guess it takes a wake up call for us all sometime - I had mine. Surprising, too.

We gave my parents and my in laws one of those digital photo frames for Christmas and there were pictures loaded on them of the last 3 years - mostly of my daughter, but some of all of us. I had a chance to sit down and really look at them all during the holidays - blown up to 8.5 inches on the photo frame screen. I was amazed at how good I did look when I was not even at my lowest weight - last July at daughter's birthday party. I want to look like that again. My clothes looked so different on me. I actually looked younger, too.

Well, all that said - I have done nothing toward achieving my goal this week. Every day I get up and say - this is the day....and it lasts until maybe dinner time in the evening - maybe just until lunch.

I need to get on with it. It's like I am a different person than I was this time last year. I know it is mind over matter - but how do I get there? Part of me says "just do it" and then another part of me keeps making poor choices. It all just me - I am not separate people. I know I will get on the right track. I don't like how I feel - physically more than mentally. That is a revealing statement. Because mentally I think I'm OK - I just don't feel well physically at this weight. I need to lose 5-6 lbs and soon.

Bye for now - see you in the New Year if I don't get back on before. Your Diary Pal, Holly

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

dearerdiarist on 12/28/2007:
Five or six pounds to go? I commend you for those pounds that you have lost, Holly. We get stuck, it's true. Just want to remind you to be kind to yourself. Don't fail to remind yourself, when you are going through a rough patch, of how much you have succeeded in the past, with your weight intentions and other areas also.

workingit2 on 12/28/2007:
You and me..we gotta find our groove together again! You know what I want to do, seriously? I want to get the green light from the doctor and start step aerobics again! I cannot wait to feel STRONG again and the only way I can feel strong is through exercise. I am looking forward to having another year of fitness with you and the rest of the diary pals here! You encouraged me and gave me some really great ideas and introduced me to step aerobics and I thank you!

greengirl on 12/28/2007:
Hollybelle, this coming year is going to be our year. You are so close to your target (I wish I could say the same !). For weeks now I have been very lackadaisical (nice word for not trying at all !!) but I have a sudden optimism (and a wardrobe full of clothes that are too small) and I know that I am going to do it. You will do it too.

ps I wish someone had bought me a digital photoframe for Christmas. They are so cool !!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/29/2007:
If you want to change the progress bar, all of the weights and numbers to enter appear in your diary entry on top before you start writing. Just edit the numbers, you can do this as often as you like, for each diary entry. Even day to day, you can change your goals and weights....and, the site keeps track of the changes.

mcwoo40 on 12/29/2007:
Hiya Holly,nows the time to get a rocket up our backsides and get some of this weight shifted.You've not much to loose though,if you put your mind to it you could loose that in no time,me is another story!!Bye for now Julie

hollybelle - Friday Dec 21, 2007

Weight: 0.0

harleygirl79 on 12/21/2007:
Thanks for the nice comments. I hope your Christmas is wonderful too. God Bless!

bluesunshine on 12/21/2007:
Hello There!

The Master Cleanse is a pretty hardcore thing to do and is more about cleansing your system than losing weight. (However the weight loss is a nice little side-affect.)

Pretty much here is what you would do every day if you were on it.

Morning: Salt water flush--- Drink 1 gallon of water mixed with 2 TSp of Non-Iodized sea salt. (Be sure to set aside an hour before you have to do anything as there is a reason this is called a flush. lol.

During the day you drink a lemon drink and can also drink water. Here is the recipe. (From memory) You will need: Purified water, Lemons, Cayenne Pepper, Grade B Organic Maple Syryp. Mix 8-10 oz of water with 2 TBSP of Syrup, 2 TBSP of fresh squeezed lemon juice and a pinch of Cayenne Pepper. (You drink this mix during the day when you are hungry)

At night drink herbal laxative tea.

You are supposed to do this for 10-40 days depending on what you can do. I pretty much made it 5 before I gave up. I will start again soon. The lemon drink really wasn't all that bad.

You can get the book at Borders for about 7 dollars.

Some people like it -some don't but I've watched a lot of people on YouTube who are documenting their experiences and there seems to be more positive than negative reactions.

maria777 on 12/21/2007:
Where is your entry? Hope you are having a good day!

workingit2 on 12/25/2007:
Merry Christmas!

hollybelle - Wednesday Dec 19, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Well, Monday was a pretty good day. I didn't over eat at all, but no exercise. I don't seem to have the time OR the energy. I know exercise actually promotes energy so I need to get in a better mental state than this.

Yesterday, however, was a little dicey. I did fine all during the day - had lunch with friend at my favorite vegetable plate place. Didn't intend to eat much for dinner, but daughter wanted to go to friends house to study for history final and friend lives across town - thought I'd shop until time to pick her up on that side of town, but didn't last with the crowds so wound up workiing crossword puzzle (NYT - you crossword fans will know what that means) and getting a small pizza at my favorite pizza place for dinner. I have to say it was very relaxing. Calories, however, were probably quite a bit over - although not outrageous.

Have appointment with client this a.m. Hope today will be better. I am planning on going shopping between dinner and midnight as stores are open 'til midnight tonight and tomorrow night to finish up shopping. Yikes!

Hope you all are doing well. Will check everyone's diary later.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

workingit2 on 12/19/2007:
I tried to get into crossword puzzles but they are so hard for me, I usually get 3/4 of the puzzle done and then get all bummed out because there are always 5 or so words that I just never get lol. I am waiting until I get the kids to my house before I go out shopping, that way I'll have some bumper-pads to protect me LOL. Have a great day!

harleygirl79 on 12/20/2007:
Don't sweat the small stuff *pizza calories* We all have those days. Hope your weekend is great and Merry Christmas to you and your family.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/20/2007:
what i've been doing, which does work for me, is to exercise straight first thing in the AM. I tend to have a really low-calorie healthy drink with me while i exercise...i drink a little even before i start. halfway through, it's still a hurdle for me to finish, but once i do, i feel great! I started with 20 minutes in the AM and now i'm just getting up to an hour!!! you feel like you accomplished a lot in the time you've been up!

fritters on 12/20/2007:
You sound like you are ok with the pizzea - and you should be. I love puzzles, but can't do the hard ones. I like the Dell cross word books and do the easy and med.! Then I give the book away!!! Happy shopping!

crategrl on 12/21/2007:
Have a happy holiday!!

hollybelle - Monday Dec 17, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Good morning fellow DDs. This weekend wasn't too bad on eating. Although I didn't eat as I should have (i.e. entirely healthy and balanced). I wasn't really what you'd call out of control, either. I made some holiday cookies on Saturday and I ate many of them, but I substituted them for breakfast and snacks. Not really a great thing - but.....Also made potato soup which was wonderful. I love it. I use fat free half and half, but do put butter in it-kind of a compromise. I ate healthy things for the meals I didn't substitute cookies for.

Today I feel very in control. I hope it can last. My "Secret Santa" put Hershey Kisses on my desk this a.m. and I don't feel compelled to eat them. I am ready to have some soup for lunch and I have packed fruit (banana and grapefruit) and pretzels for snacks and I am going to use those as snacks in case people brings loads of goodies. I said I have to plan, plan, plan and I mean it.

I remember that when I was being very happily successful in my eating efforts I always carried good food choices with me to face any temptations or surprise attacks of the hunger. Most of the time I just want to eat something I like - I don't particularly crave bad stuff - just food in general - and have found that generally when faced with something I like that is healthy vs something I like that is not I will make the better choice. At least that is my theory and I'm sticking to it.

Additionally, I have a couple of parties coming up and I want to be able to go to those feeling like I can splurge a little. If I want what I am doing until them, I will be able to.

Onward and upward, dear Diary Pals! We can do this - the holidays are no match for us smarties! Have a wonderful successful day.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

jmarie60 on 12/17/2007:
Thanks for the comment! It's always nice to have encouragement!

You're doing so well and not letting Secret Santa Kisses get in your way.

Keep making your plans and sticking to them. One little plan/goal at a time and you'll be AMAZED at what you can do!!!!!

Donkey on 12/17/2007:
One thing you can do with those Hershey Kisses: melt them down and dip either fresh strawberries or mix in some Fiber One cereal. Then put the covered berries or a spoonful (1 TBSP) of the cereal mixture onto wax paper on a cookie sheet. Put the cookie sheet in the freezer and chill for at least an hour. Then you can partake of 1-2 of these little goodies, still enjoy the taste of chocolate, not waste the gift, and yet get some real nutritional value out of the indulgence. Good luck!

monet0239 on 12/17/2007:
Just a quick helloooo... :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/17/2007:
i understand you completely, too. I have the opposite problem you do...

i see how you want to be able to splurge at the parties. I always am eating so bad that by the time i have to go to a party, i'm always in a state of denial or restriction than giving in. so, i fear parties and gatherings where there's food because I know there'll be temptations or i'll probably binge before ,after, or both!

I think its ok to substitute cookies or pie for a meal once in awhile. especially homemade. my only problem is that once i start, i can't stop!

harleygirl79 on 12/17/2007:
The hillbilly teeth were a hit. My son told me some of the boys wore them to school today. Thanks for asking!

workingit2 on 12/17/2007:
The potato soup sounds so good right now. Mmmm!

I agree that carrying good food choices is the best way to handle things..I cannot wait to be 100% ready to commit back to my former, healthier lifestyle. YAY!

fritters on 12/18/2007:
You sound so positive - good for you! That is what it takes to make this and anything else work.

hollybelle - Friday Dec 14, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Well, I've been posting on others diaries, but not on mine! I think it is because I don't have much time - but also I am realizing that I don't like to post unless I have good news on my own efforts. I'm not sure why that is, but I am going to try posting no matter what. Even if it is only a line or two just to keep myself in the habit and remind myself that no matter what I am not abandoning my committment to a healthy life.

I have not been doing all that wonderfully lately. I have gained probably 5-6 lbs gradually creeping up. I am not exercising as much as I want to or need to. I have let other things allow me to put it off. In the last 4 days I have single-handedly eaten 1.5 lbs of peanut brittle. This is amazing to me. It is all gone now. I bought it intending to have it to take to family gathering, but made the mistake of opening it. I cannot resist peanut brittle as I love it. The brand was See's - a new brand for our area. It is a West Coast candy maker and my friend was familar with it. We stopped by the kiosk at the Mall during our shopping Monday and viola I purchased this hugh box.

But enough about the candy - dear diet diary friends, all we can do is the best we can do each day. I believe this is just a temporary phase for me and I will "snap out of it". The 5-6 lb gain is not terrible, but it is indicative of my mental/emotional state. I resolve to not let my emotions rule my eating habits. It doesn't work - I know it doesn't and I must be more cognitive of what I am doing - I remember that when I am deliberate I am more successful. Plan plan plan and follow through is what I need to do.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

jmarie60 on 12/14/2007:
We can only live one day at a time. If you focus on the negative of yesterday you can't be positive for tomorrow.

Just keep posting and you'll get on track soon enough!

borntocry on 12/14/2007:
Hi Holly! Thanks a lot for your comment and also for writing this candid entry. I have also gained 5 lb since the summer and am struggling to get back on track. I also believe it is more important to focus on our commitment to a healthy lifestyle and am trying to remind myself of that. But I also have my weaknesses, like you, and there are certain things it seems I just can't resist or even just limit to a moderate amount! I think this time of the year is hard for everyone, though. It's not just the festive season but the onset of wintry weather which brings with it a tendency to stock up on energy and fat for the coming months!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/14/2007:
my recent weight gain is also do to my feelings and emotional state, as well! :) I think that regurlarly posting will help you because we can give you some feedback on how to feel better! :O

Once my sister moves out, as she is my only sibling, it will in fact be myself and my parents. I bet my mom will get a little lonlier, since she is usually just interesting in speaking to my sister, if she speaks with anyone, that is! However, the household will probably get much quieter and calmer. I know this will happen for a fact! If you take one person out of a family of 4, it's bound to create some differences. earlier this week, my sister actually tried to talk with me and be kind...then telling me she'd be moving out! haha.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/14/2007:
it's amazing how people try to settle differences and misunderstandings before taking a big step in another direction...that being the real world for my sister. now, i am the older one, so i wish i could have moved out already, but my job stability isn't good at all. so, at least the household will probably be a lot less stressful, just because there will be 25% less action...not even because it's my sister...take anyone out and that will happen in a household.

harleygirl79 on 12/14/2007:
That's so cool about your daughter being in Cats. My son just got cast in "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat". He has just a minor part as he is trying to concentrate on his grades right now. They will perform it in April. I am cleaning my house and getting the hot tub ready for the party. Have a great weekend, and A Merry Christmas also!!

greengirl on 12/14/2007:
Holly, you could have written this diary about me !!! I think you must be a mind reader. As you see , I am commenting but not posting. I will take my cue from you and post tonight. Thanks for the incentive and ***hugs*** to you :)

mylifechanges on 12/14/2007:
what a beautiful entry. thank you for being so honest about your struggle. it's true- the only thing we can do is give it our best each day. if that's what you're doing- you're right on track! :)

mcwoo40 on 12/15/2007:
Hiya Holly,Thanks for stopping by,great to hear from you.I think there is a few of us struggling,it's the wrong time of year to be eating too healthy with all these goodies around.God i love peanut brittle,bad on the teeth though.I wish christmas was gone so i can start focusing 'new year new start'i remember saying that last year though and look where it, got me nowhere really.There is nothing exciting to look forward to next year to keep me on track only maybe a holiday here in England that's all.How's your dancing coming on,hope you are enjoying it.Don't leave it too long before you come back to your diary ok.Bye for now,Julie

hollybelle - Monday Dec 03, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

OK the holiday season is already off to a bad caloric start! Today a co-worker brought in three big tins of home-made candy. I just keep repeating that I need to save my calories for later - nearer Christmas - so that I can not gain weight during the holiday. Last year I did really well during December and only endulged right around the holiday itself, so I know I can do this. It's hard to say no to sweets that are only around once a year, but I will FEEL better if I don't eat many AT ALL.

I must keep up the walking, too. I have a dance lesson tonight with my daughter! Should be interesting......I hope it is a lot of exercise. The lesson isn't until 9:00 p.m. so I hope I have some energy left by that time!

Doggies are getting along well again. We turned the new one out again with the other one after having him put up for 8 days while his wound healed. They are big buddies again. Will plan to walk one or the other of them some mornings this week with my neighbor. It was raining and cold this a.m. Wind was up considerable, too and kept me awake.

I need to look back at some of my menus from when I was on a roll with the calories and see what I ate and plan around that. We'll see if that helps.

On another note - did anyone see Good Mornimg American today? There was a lday on there who lost over 500 lbs. No kidding 500! She weighed over 700 lbs and she did it without surgery. She never went out of her house and she didn't do anything at all, but then her family got her a computer and she started chatting with people all over the world on it and began to realize that they liked her for herself - not her appearance because they had, after all, never seen her. She began to value herself more because of this experience and therefore began eating less and before she even knew it (as she put it) she had lost weight. She realized it only when her dog jumped up in her lap and she realized that she had a lap! She was an amazing person. She said her only regret was that she had worried her young son who confided (after she had lost weight) that he worried that he would come home one day and find her dead because of her health. I think it is on the website for GMA if anyone wants to check it out.

Now, with that as inspiration - let's do this!

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

shadetree on 12/03/2007:
She was on another show recently - I can't remember if it was Today show or one of the news networks (CNN, FoxNews, MSNBC...) I really don't know, but I did see it with my son. It was pretty amazing to know that with something as simple as a little support from people we've never met face to face may be all it takes for us to see that WE CAN DO IT!

workingit2 on 12/04/2007:
I saw that woman on Oprah the other day...really amazing! She did it counting calories and those stories with that much weight loss are so rare! I never watch Oprah but happened to be at home and saw she had weight loss stories on..so I wanted to check it out. Amazing is all I can say.

My biggest downfall is when this one lady at work makes her Christmas cookies...OMG they are to die for. Fortunately,I won't be around the office this year *hehe* so I hope I can skate by that problem LOL.

Have a great day, Holly!

mcwoo40 on 12/04/2007:
Hi,I hate this time of year too.The customers bring you goodies for christmas.I end up giving them away(although i do want them)as i am always on a diet.We have a chap here called charlie who lost that amount of weight.he had to have an op to have all his loose skin taken away.Now he is working on his confidence to get himself a better job,get himself a lady.He was on the other day saying he had done 3 marathons since his weightloss amazin'.Hope your dance class went well.That is my bed time 9pm not going out dancing!!bye,Julie

workingit2 on 12/06/2007:
Just checking in with you and letting you know I am thinking about ya! I went to the Biggest Loser website after reading about it in a diary here...and checked out their motivation/success stories..holy smokes! I think I am going to work really hard and put my picture on that place one day!

I hope you are having a good day =)

workingit2 on 12/06/2007:
My brother did check on me and Brian called me to make sure he did. LOL he said he was going to call my brother and chew him out if he hadn't. I think he likes me a lot eh? LOL

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/08/2007:
I wish I saw Good Morning America. I love anything about food, weight, and health. It's all an obsession of mine. Have fun at your dance lesson! :)

hollybelle - Friday Nov 30, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Today is first day I have actually felt like I might have lost a pound or maybe two. It is probably just "water weight", and my TOM (yes, I didn't mention it on diary, but I actually had one this month - about every 3rd month is what it appears to boil down to and the last two haven't been very painful - advil or motrin takes care of it. Praise the Lord!

I don't know why I should feel slimmer, I sure haven't eaten perfectly. As I said earlier in the week - I have been having a lot of "except" days -I ate well "except for.....whatever".....last night it was fine EXCEPT I went to a church function at the pastor's house and I won a cup full of Christmas Chocolates! I didn't pass them up. I have eaten all but the solid milk chocolate Santa, which I packed in daughter's lunch bag this a.m. It wasn't so much - several hersey's kisses and a few of those tiny reese's cups, but too much for someone who wants to lose 5 lbs! Today is another day and there are bagels in the kitchen. I had breakfast so I won't eat them - I WON'T! I have brought chicken noodle soup for lunch and some nabs. That will be sufficient and I will try to go for a walk at lunch.

I walked with neighbor last night, too, so I got in 1 hour and 20 minutes of walking yesterday - maybe that is why I feel lighter. I couldn't get up this morning to walk at 5:30. Tomorrow should be a good exercise day as it is the WEEKEND!

I am going to succeed in having a good weekend food - wise. I need that right now.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

workingit2 on 11/30/2007:
hehehe you are making an entry right now and I just left you an entry on yesterday's!

mcwoo40 on 11/30/2007:
Have a great weekend Holly,plenty of walking from both of us,take care Julie

cowcollector6 on 11/30/2007:
I wish I lived in an area that i could walk outside with neighbors.I'll have to settle for the treadmill.Have a great weekend.

starfish on 11/30/2007:
great job on the exercise :)

mylifechanges on 12/01/2007:
church functions are always the hardest for me too... there are ALWAYS sweets and goodies around, and ALWAYS someone who's looking to feed you! Haha. :) Good look not diving into all of it- even a small resistance is something! Keep at it- you're incredibly close to seeing 150- I mean, you can do this!


mylifechanges on 12/01/2007:
that's supposed to say "good job"

haha. :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/02/2007:
we all wait for the day that we don't have to worry about TOM...but, then again, other things begin to take its place. lol.

we had some good breads/bagels in my house as well today. i caved and had an onion egg roll! It was good and i don't regret it! actually, i think it will fit in really nicely to my overall calories!

lately, i've been having more real carbs...meaning not only veggies and fruit with little grains. suprisingly, i think i've been feeling better with the addition of those carbs. Also, when balanced with a ton of fiber in my food or additional fiber supplement that i add in, i feel the body is LESS inclined to binge! how interesting! :)

harleygirl79 on 12/03/2007:
Hope your lbs was lost, or two. I spent the rainy/snowy weekend in Cleveland, working in the yard and working in the house. Hope yours was nice.

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