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hollybelle - Thursday Jul 05, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Well, happy 4th of July! Hope it was good for all you who celebrate.

We had fun. I am feeling much better than I was the first of the week. I have managed not to eat too much through the festivities. I feel pretty good about it all right now.

It is about the end of daughter's 3 week program at the University. We pick her up on Saturday, move her out of dorm and see the Final Performance Program they will put on for us (dance) and then attend the Graduation Ceremony. I am so anxious to see her.

Someone said on another's diary to "get act together and make sure you are slim by Christmas". That triggered a thought for me that it is a good idea not only to hae the short-term goals, but also the long-term ones, as well. The holiday's always inspire me to improve myself, so I thought I'd make a promise to myself right now on July 5th that I will be thinner (at least 5 lbs) by December 5th. I know that seems so far - fetched, but really it is something to shoot for. I don't like to wait 'til the last minute and try to play catch up so maybe this is a good strategy for me.

Bless us all. Have a wonderful evening!

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

Justine6Robert3 on 07/05/2007:
Good job getting through the holiday temptation of tasty food! What type of program was your daughter doing at the University?! You must be so excited to see her performance!! What type of dance will she be performing?

I think setting a goal of loosing 5 lbs by Christmas is a very obtainable and reasonable goal! The weight that comes off slowly is usually going to stay off as long as your keeping up your healthy eating and exercising! Who doesn't want to look and feel great for Christmas, lots of family and friends getting together and always pictures being taken :0) I LOVE Christmas time!

I'm glad you enjoyed your 4th of July, great job keeping your eating under control, you should feel good about that!

crategrl on 07/06/2007:
Thank you for all the supportive comments that you have left me over the past months. You are one of the reasons why I still come here and why I am not afraid to admit the challenges that I face!!!

hollybelle - Tuesday Jul 03, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Good morning! I have not abandoned you all! I am back. It has been one thing after another. First - vacation - it was good. Husband and I had a great time. Didn't get to hike as much as we wanted - guess why? TOM!!! AUGHHHH! Oh well. We still did about 6 hours in 4 days and saw 9 waterfalls. It was beautiful. The North Carolina mountains were lovely. It was very cool there and the cabin was very nice. It was a little "over decorated", but the lady who owns it (we got to meet her) was very very sweet and kind. The best part was the screened in porch with the Hot Tub. It was great - very private and very CLEAN! If anyone is interested in a very laid-back, very nice place to stay you can check it out on this website: vrbo.com - search for #37418. This is a great website - stands for "vacation rentals by owner" and we have found good places to stay all over the place!

Any way - I will post my total time exercising for June as 877 minutes or 14 hours and 37 minutes. Not too bad. I have been lazy this month. I will amend my ways and soon.

Then - I was ill the last 2 days! I had some kind of stomach virus! It was not pretty! Whew! Glad that's over. Only good part - I couldn't eat anything and it has made me feel slimmer for the first time in a long time. I do not recommend this as a diet strategy, though! I will eat good food to make sure I get strength back and then take advantage of the situation by not gaining back what I have lost.

On the eating front. I didn't do too badly on vacation. I ate good food and endulged mostly in some wonderful peanutbutter cookies and strawberry shortcake. The rest of the food I ate was mostly meats and vegetables, etc. I am definitely maintaining - if not losing (sigh). This is good.

It has been almost a year since I started this journey. I began the lifestyle change in September of last year. So it has been about 10 months. I am SO glad I took the chance. I am SO glad I am not the 20 + pounds heavier that I was this time last year! I am SO glad I don't have those feelings of guilt, shame, embarassment - you name it - that I did when I wasn't taking care of myself. There may be lots of things going wrong in my life at any given time - but not taking care of myself doesn't have to be one of them! I can control what I eat (and without going to an extreme about the control, too). I don't know if anyone can really relate with that statement - but it is very freeing to me!

Have a great and blessed day! I can't wait to catch up on your diaries! Happy 4th of July! Holly

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

greengirl on 07/03/2007:
It sounds like you had a wonderful vacation. Good for you, you deserve it :o)

maria777 on 07/03/2007:
So glad to hear you and your Hubby had a wonderful vacation and that you are feeling better now! Welcome back!

weightlossyoyo on 07/03/2007:
You have done GREAT!!!!

mcwoo40 on 07/05/2007:
Hi,glad you had a great time.Another big weight gain for me,but I'm back for some support and report the weightlosses.I've put some pics on my entry of my ugly mug!!and some other pics from sister's wedding.Bye 4 now,Julie

hollybelle - Saturday Jun 23, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Total June Challenge Minutes = 517

Haven't been on site since the first of the week and am leaving tomorrow a.m. for North Carolina Mountains! This week has been OK, but weird. So quiet without daughter around. After dropping her off on campus on Sunday we have only heard from her once - on Tuesday morning. She said she was having "life-changing" experiences.....elaborated some and then talked to her Dad. From what I hear from other parents we know whose kids are there - they are staying very busy and they haven't heard much from their kids, either.

Food wise it could have been better, but I'm holding my own. Exercise - I thought would be great this week, but I have felt so tired. In NC we hope to hike ALOT and maybe rent bikes. We'll see. I probably won't have web access so will try to catch up with everyone's diaries today. If don't get to - much love and blessings to EVERYONE until we "meet" again!

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

greengirl on 06/23/2007:
You have been so busy recently that it's hardly surprising that you are feeling tired now. This is the first time you have relaxed in weeks, and you deserve to be able to put your feet up. Enjoy your break and try not to worry about what your daughter is doing. I bet she is having a great time :o)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/24/2007:
maybe you are just tired from daughter withdrawal and everything that you've been thinking about! i am sure you'll have a fantastic time on vacation! let us know!

harleygirl79 on 06/26/2007:
Hope your trip to North Carolina was fun. I love Charlotte and we have friends there. Hope you get your wanted exercise there.

mcwoo40 on 06/29/2007:
Hi just popping by,hope you had a great time away,take care Julie

hollybelle - Monday Jun 18, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

382 Total Minutes for June Challenge

Here I am again. Weekend went OK. Moved daughter into dormitory. That went OK except for an incident with the mini frig I won't go into right now. Thought it would be hard to leave her, but it really wasn't. I was ready for her to go. I just hope she will be OK and use her "noggin" and have fun. I'm sure the actually missing her will kick in later in the week.

Eating was OK. Didn't count, calories, but didn't overeat. Exercise 30 minutes on Sat and 30 minutes on Sun. Will get down to it this week, though. I hope to do something for at least 40 minutes each day.

Also want to catch up with everyone else's diary this week. Wishing you a blessed, wonderful day.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

harleygirl79 on 06/18/2007:
Your right, the missing part will kick in later. Great job with the exercise and calories. Have a great week!!!

mcwoo40 on 06/18/2007:
Hi, i am sure your daughter will be ok.I think we are 'naturally born worryers' it is called being a mother!!My daughter can't wait to go,it will do her good to try different activities, very timid like me when i was her age.My eating is ok too,could be better.Just hope there are healthy choices at this diner that we are going to tomorrow,and not too much temptation for me.Keep the exercise going,your doing brill,julie

greengirl on 06/18/2007:
Hey Hollybelle, I'm sure your daughter will miss you too, but she will also have a wonderful time. It's all part of growing up and you have to let them do it. Have a great week :o)

sweetpea1977 on 06/20/2007:
Wow, you are doing great with your minutes challenge. Keep it up!

I hope you are doing ok and aren't missing your daughter too much. :o) Im sure she is doing just fine and thinks of you often!

hollybelle - Friday Jun 15, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Total June Challenge Exercise minutes = 322

Walked about 40 minutes last night. It has been so hectic. Recital is over. I got some rest last night. Feel better. Now have to finish getting daughter ready for 3 week summer program at college. We have "most" everything. We just need to get a few more things she will need, organize and pack it all. Plus she has two pair of pointe shoes that need elastic and ribbons. Should be able to do it all tonight. Also we are planning a 16th birthday party for her 8/4 (a bit after her birthday due to the hectic summer schedule) and she has yet to get the invitation information for me to do while she is away. I need address, phone numbers, email addresses - something on everyone! I told her this a.m., that is all she has to do. I will do the rest. If she doesn't get it to me - no party. That's that.

Anyway - food has been OK. Not terrific, but OK. I overate a bit yesterday but the day before was fine. Clothes (size 10s) still fitting fine. I am on hold for now. Like I said before - on hold (maintenance) is fine. I will get on the ball again and begin to lose again, soon. Just a matter of timing.

Will try to check all your diaries later today - other than that - I probably won't be on site until Monday - too much going on. Until then - Wishing you all Blessings and Love. Happy Father's Day to the men in your lives (and any fathers out there on this site)!

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

harleygirl79 on 06/15/2007:
I know what you mean about maintenance. I am discouraged that I am still not losing the last 4 lbs but I am not gaining either, so that is a plus. I do think I am losing inches though. Get some rest and hope your man has a Happy Father's Day too!!!

maria777 on 06/15/2007:
Hey, fitting in 10's...FANTASTIC! Keep up the good work!

weightlossyoyo on 06/16/2007:

WorkingIt2 on 06/16/2007:
Glad to read that you are getting some much-needed rest! So exciting about your daughters birthday party! I will be able to have one of those for my little girl in two years. I just had one for my second oldest son. *sigh* they do grow up too fast :(

Congrats on holding the line! I can't wait to get into size 10's more comfortably LOL

maria777 on 06/17/2007:
Hope you're having a good day!

hollybelle - Wednesday Jun 13, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Been a couple of days since I posted. No more exercise, except in the theatre and I don't really know how to count that. Have been eating "OK". Very tired due eto latae nights.

I have noticed a couple of things that seem to make the difference between success and "not so much".......

First of all when I am making my choices (food and exercise choices) if I visualize myself making the right choice and the results vs visualizing the poor choice and the results - it seems to help.

Second - I have noticed, like some one else on this site said, that when I am making the good choices and taking care of myself that my self-esteem improves. What I don't understand is: if that is the case, then why don't I make the better choices more of the time? I'm not talking about the times when I consciencly decide to have a "treat" or to rest from exercise, but the times when I just totally blow good choices off.....

More later. Must get through last night of recital and begin plans for daughter's 3 weeks away from home!! Oh, dear????? I have so many emotions about this, I'm still sorting through them deciding which are valid and which need to go!

Wishing you all Blessings and Love, Holly

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

greengirl on 06/13/2007:
Isnt it awful when you have to let go?? I still have problems with letting go of my eldest (he's been married nearly 5 years). I never know whether to contact him or not, when I dont see him for a while, and wonder if he and his wife will think I am making a fuss!!! Eventually you just have to cut the apron strings and let em do it for themselves. My daughter is going to an Anime Conference for two days in September with a friend. they will be staying on a university campus about 100 miles away. I am dreading it, but I have to keep reassuring my husband about it, and appear unconcerned, or he would never let her do anything. I know just what you are going through!!

starfish on 06/13/2007:
just stopping in to say hi :)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/13/2007:
Hi Holly, you really helped me yesterday with your comment, thank you for brightening my day and shedding some light. the two points you mentioned about diet are ones that I do as well...so I will try to "visualize" in the next few days.

weightlossyoyo on 06/13/2007:
I get into those moods too!

Phoenixrising on 06/14/2007:
Hey Holly,

Now that I can post I just wanted to thank you for your comment on my blog. :)

You're not alone in contradictory behavior. Sometimes it's legit in that our bodies want certain things and they translate into cravings. Sometimes its a craving for food and we go with habit rather than accomodate the craving in a healthy or moderate way. Just cuz that's what we're used to. A craving for rest is the same way. When our bodies are overworked and need rest we go to a complete sedentary way of being rather than doing lighter workouts. Again not because we don't want to succeed but because it's what we know.

Habits are hard to break and there's no shame in that. The fact that you are consciously aware of it gives you power in the situation however. Every time you get ready to blow of the good choices you have the ability to question it in the moment. Even if you still go with the unhealthy choices at first, eventually you'll get to the point where you can stop, evaluate and go with your "new normal" rather than your old one. :)

Take care

sweetpea1977 on 06/14/2007:
I think we all go through that cycle from time to time. Like Phoenix said though, at least you are aware of the fact that you are doing this. Believe it or not, that is considered progress.

Just try to get into that habit of visualization that you mentioned. It sounds like a very useful tool in making decisions. Perhaps add an emotional test to it as well. Imagine how you will feel emotionally after you make a certain choice. If you like the way you feel (happy, motivated, etc) after doing a good thing for yourself, then the choice should be easy! :o)

mcwoo40 on 06/14/2007:
Hi Holly, just passing through.Thanks for your words of wisdom in my last entry,you do give good advice.Hope you are well,Bye 4 now Julie

hollybelle - Monday Jun 11, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

June Exercise Challenge Minutes: 282 thru Sunday 6/10/07

Didn't get to post yesterday. I walked with daughter and husband and dog instead. Exercise was like this:

Saturday - 30 minutes ET

Sunday - 60 minutes Walking

Calories - Saturday not too bad - 1750 - more than I wanted but was a hard anbd LONG day. Sunday - not sure - will have to post later when I have time to look them up-I think too high, but not too bad.

In just one week ( a week from yesterday, actually ) we will be dropping daughter off at the Governor's School program for three (3) weeks! I am pretty excited about that. I keep trying to be anxious about it, too, but I just keep telling myself that I won't let myself be anxious about it. I worry that she will be homesick, or that she will not eat well, or that something dreadful will happen, but I stop myself when I have those thoughts and say - it will be what it will be and we will deal with it as it comes. Chances are, after all, that it will be fine. Thanks for letting me get that off my chest!

The Recital was wonderful. Daughter danced beautifully. She did her solo on Sunday. It is really pretty easy for me this year. Daughter takes care of herself backstage now. It is really better if I am not back there at all. She doesn't do things the way I would do them and it bugs me and I bug her so I stay away. She gets it all done, after all, so what does it matter, really. There are three more nights of the show and then we are done for another year. I must say the choreographer has outdone herself once again. Daughter's boyfriend and his parents are coming to show tonight. I will go again, too. Then, all the grandparents are coming tomorrow night!

I didn't exercise this morning - to tired - late night. I will get on the ET tonight. Take care all. I wish you each a blessed day!

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

greengirl on 06/11/2007:
We all seem to be having a bit of a struggle at the moment. I'm so glad your daughters recital went well. Hope she does as well during the rest of the week. Dont overdo it Hollybelle. Take care of yourself :o)

starfish on 06/11/2007:
you have been doing great. Keep up the good work! Thanks for your comments

sweetpea1977 on 06/13/2007:
Congratulations on your daughter recital. I bet you are quite proud of her!

Hope you are having a good week!

hollybelle - Saturday Jun 09, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

June Challenge Exercise Time: Same as yesterday

Yesterday was first day I didn't walk to work. I had to have my car for errands at noon so I drove. I didn't really have any time to exercise after that, but I did walk 2 blocks each way twice to the pizza place to get the pizzas for the commissary at the theatre and up and down those steps during the night. But I'm really not sure how to count that so we will just call it good.

I did much better on the calories. 1430 for the day! No snacking at all at the theatre and we didn't stop at any pancake houses or breakfast joints on the way home last night. Daughter wanted Subway during rehearsals so she wasn't as hungry afterward. We came home and ate bowls of cereal. Usually she can't eat during rehearsals and is then "starved" afterwards, but I think she ate the subway a bite here and there so she didn't get too uncomfortable to dance, etc.

I have to work at the theatre today and tonight, this is the last night of rehearsals. We have a Pre-show with competition numbers and solos tomorrow - free to the public and families then the actual recital begins Monday night - for three nights. That isn't so bad. Recital used to run 5 nights with two shows on Sat and Sun!

I am going to jump on the ET for awhile then try to clean house a little.

Have a Blessed day everyone.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

starfish on 06/09/2007:
WTG on calories yesterday! Have a great day :)

greengirl on 06/09/2007:
You are so busy. You will have to put your feet up when all the recitals are over!! Take care :o)

weightlossyoyo on 06/09/2007:
Great # on the calories!!

WorkingIt2 on 06/10/2007:
My goodness you've been busy! And you've been doing very well in spite of a couple here and there days!

harleygirl79 on 06/10/2007:
Keep it up Holly, but also reward yourself with a break every now and then. Hope the show goes well.

hollybelle - Friday Jun 08, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

June challenge Total Exercise: 192 Minutes (thru 6/7/07)

Yesterday I did NOT do better as far as eating goes than the day before. It was worse, actually. I did fine for the 5+ hours at the Theatre - no starbursts, no pizza, no nothing except Diet Coke. Then at 10:00 last night on way home daughter wanted to go to Denny's for breakfast. I had a moment of madness and ordered French Toast. Looked up the total calories today and it is 1180! That is practically a WHOLE days calories by itself. So total for the day was about 2,330. I am not doing what I know I need to do which is plan my meals, take my own foods, etc. It just hit me today - after 2 days of madness - I thought I was in control, but I'm not. I am eating emotionally and I think I know why. It was during Recital 3 years ago that I began to suspect that daughter was getting sick - which turned out to be true, and then we began the whole downhill slide and all the rest of it.....SIGH. But, that was then - this is now. I am talking about myself now - not daughter. I will take back control of feeding myself. I promise (myself)I will.

That being said - yesterday was OK on exercise as I walked to work and back again. Also did all the running up and down Theatre backstage steps (only counted the walking, though). As for these feelings - this too shall pass. Onward and Upward !!

Have a Blessed Day! Holly

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

MyJuneWedding on 06/08/2007:
WOW!!! sometimes it's nice to indulge and then have that OMG calories wake up call though... seriously!!! I remember one time I heard the cals in Bennigan's Monte Cristo Sandwaich (omg that is soooo good, haven't had one in years) was = to 2+ days worth of cals. Now I don't know if that's true, but batter and deep fried sandwhich with powdered sugar on it... hummmm could be!!! French toast, yummy!!!Now I'm thinking IHOP... =0)

greengirl on 06/08/2007:
Ive strayed off the straight and narrow today too, so we can both sit in the naughty corner!! We will get back to it tomorrow!!!

weightlossyoyo on 06/08/2007:
You know what the problem is and sooooo you will fix it!! Way to go on the exercise!

hollybelle - Thursday Jun 07, 2007
(Healthy Eating and Exercise)
Weight: 155.6

Total June Challenge Exercise Minutes: 158

Yesterday wasn't too bad. Walked to work and back. Also went up and down Theatre Steps several floors, several times (LOL)at the rehearsal. Only counted the time walking to and from work, though. I didn't do badly with the food down at the Theatre - especially considering that I was in charge of the Commissary where we sell pizza and snacks to the kids most of the night and will be again for the next three nights! I ate really light breakfast and lunch - wasn't really that hungry. I was appalled to learn, however, that Starburst Candies have 240 calories in them! I ate them before I checked. Hadn't had any in so long. Then daughter didn't get done until almost 11:00 and she hadn't eaten at all and wanted to go to IHOP. Well, it was CLOSED for the night. So we decided to try Waffle House. I had a Waffle (I know - I could have had eggs and toast or something else, but.....) Anyway I wound up with about 1550 calories for the day - all things considered - not too bad. I am going to try to find some healthy snacks of my own to take tonight because I don't want to be caught like that again. Also - it shouldn't be such a late night - probably will be home between 9:00 and 10:00.

Walked to work again this morning. I relly like doing that. Will probably have Subway for lunch. We'll see...Wishing a Blessed Day to you all.

Progress as of today: 16.4 lbs lost so far, only 5.6 lbs to go!

crategrl on 06/07/2007:
Have a great day!!!!

Donkey on 06/07/2007:
Starburst Candies only have 240 calories in them if you eat the whole pack! Next time, make a couple of friends by passing around the pack (a trick I learned from my very lean exercise buddy -- she's always pushing stuff on me). Better luck tonight!! You can do it!! Stay strong!

starfish on 06/07/2007:
1550 for a busy day like that plus the starbursts is great!

jon'smom on 06/07/2007:
Great job on the walking. Keep it up!

mcwoo40 on 06/07/2007:
Hi,just to say 'Hello'.Good idea to take food stuffs with you less temptation.With Starburst there is'nt alot of fat i them if any mostly sugar,just think if you had chocolate it has both fat and sugar more cals so you did'nt do too bad.Julie

sweetpea1977 on 06/07/2007:
Not too bad of a day all things considered, but I do like your idea to be better prepared tonight. Good luck!

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