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horn_of_Plenty - Friday Jan 19, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Home: 100 cal honey, candy, tea

Breakfast: banana 120, cookie buttery big 230 brought in from coworker fancy Choc chip cookie that's more like a scone

Wrap 100, pb 200

Burger 250 potato 250 veg 50, orange 100

1400 after lunch 1500 before dinner

Dinner lentil soup 150? Cabbage 100, breaded chicken 400

2150.....

2100 weekly average = decent

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

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horn_of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 18, 2018
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Weight: 112.0

550 before lunch...

lunch bigger but extremely healthy: lemon potatoes, salad, egg, small piece of chicken 650-700 with some blueberries for a snack

And more chocolate so 1300 Goal is to do legs at gym tonight - legs only - after going home for a snack dinner!

Dinner: popcorn 200, turkey burger around 200-250, orange 50, some roasted squash 50 at least. total here: 550, decent.

1850 after tasty dinner...gonna go out for exercise..do what i can out there, see how i feel...can't keep slacking till the end of time, seems what is best is that i eat dinner before the gym now, since i have to stop at home first anyways....and still can have a snack afterwards...working on how i'll keep the gym going!

gonna try for most of my workout - legs and abs...should be at gym by 6:30pm, will leave by 7:30pm

 

2050 total excellent.

2090 6day avg good!

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...lots of chocolate for breakfast and a fancy cookie / scone for midmorning snack that coworker brought in so i had instead of my wrap with pb...no worries. thankfully i only ate half the huge cookie and called ricky to walk over to my trailer to take the second half since he's just a few trailers down, lol. 

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Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/19/2018:
Hope you have a good day and glad that you are feeling better.

horn_of_plenty on 01/19/2018:
It's definitely great not to be as sick as I was and looking forward to feeling even better :)

Thank you ! Wishing you a good day too.


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horn_of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 17, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

2098 5 day

 Home: Half banana 50,

Work: full banana 120, chocolate covered almonds 100, herbal tea 270.

2nd breakfast: wrap 100, pb 200, sf jelly: 300.

 Lunch lemon potatoes 300? Chicken 200 veg 100...600, blueberries 100

.....

 Grand total today 2250

 

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Cannot wait to get back to gym, but not if it's gonna get me very sick again...then i just have to wait...i'm pretty much prob not exercising this week...not back to 100% yet.

Also, i am nervous to even be able to balance gym and work this winter bc i have the class too.

Gym needs to be dialed back a bit in terms of how much i do there and how long i stay there. I hope to actually cut out like 30-60 minutes so i'm only there one hour and not longer anymore. Planning to cut out any duplicate types of weights exercises where i use one machine to work a muscle group and later use another machine for the same muscles. Will try to cut back. Maybe i'll even retain all strength - we'll see...

either way, gotta dial down to stay healthy.

I still in the back of my mind think Court Officer is more a "basic" job that may be better for me than this estimating one, despite a huge salary cut for the first like 5 years. 5 years isn't that much...i need peace of mind. but for now, i gotta forget court officer job, because there's no current test for it and not an option right now of for next few.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/17/2018:
It's true....you can only deal with one day at a time...and that is this day. Tomorrow never comes...it's always today. The way I have always made plans for the future was to write down what I want for the future...and then write down what I can do this day to help me get there....then I would write down what I need to do in future days to make that happen...in this area I would research what needs to be done to achieve it and go from there....plan the steps and also keep an eye open for opportunities that may pop up. If it is meant to be it will happen... In the meantime....while dealing with today...I would throw myself into knowing all there is to be known about my current job so that it will be easier to deal with...and happy bosses give good recommendations in the future. Being 100% involved in the current job makes the day go by so much faster. You can do it.

horn_of_plenty on 01/17/2018:
Yes thank you for the good advice - the stuff is just very confusing and takes me awhile to grasp

horn_of_plenty on 01/18/2018:
The topic of interest just confuses me a little bit which stresses me out a lot at work and after work


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horn_of_Plenty - Tuesday Jan 16, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

1220 before dinner....

Went to work was much better feeling - other people were out sick last week and one remained out sick today - seems we all have something similar. I'll be skipping gym until I am very close to 100% without a cough.

1850 total

May not be able to always log in at work like I used to and getting more distracted during commutes and at home ....still here

2060 per day 4 days

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/16/2018:
Nice that you made it to work...sounds like you were all passing it around.

horn_of_plenty on 01/16/2018:
For sure we were and still are :/


Donkey on 01/16/2018:
Ugh, sounds like work is a meeting place for germs -- I agree 100% that the gym (another place for germs to meet) should wait until you are absolutely 100% as well.

horn_of_plenty on 01/16/2018:
Yes lots of germs going around !!!


Maria7 on 01/16/2018:
Sounds like a good plan to lighten up until your feeling on par again.


happy-1 on 01/16/2018:
Hugs! Glad you feel better.


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horn_of_Plenty - Monday Jan 15, 2018
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Weight: 112.0

Had a really late breakfast of oatmeal that I didn't finish 50 with dried fruit and nuts 250? And a thigh Icelandic yogurt 150 - still with parents gonna go home soon after lunch Back to my apt.. 450 I guess it's good I didn't stuff the rest of the oatmeal down my throat ....

Had a piece of dark chocolate 50

500

Lunch around 500

Snacks before dinner: fruit 200 at most

Dinner: veg salad with small with olive oil 100, also chickpeas 150, wanton soup sorta big size and very large wantons all noodle and small amount fried noodles 700?

Total today is fine, 1900.

3day average: 2130 per day excellent

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Washing the bedding and stuff I used while sleeping at parents ...

Still had a little bit of night sweats last night

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 01/15/2018:
Hope you feel better today.

horn_of_plenty on 01/15/2018:
On the mend thankfully !! Thank you Maria!


BearCountryGG on 01/15/2018:
Hope you are feeling better.....thinking of you.

horn_of_plenty on 01/15/2018:
I have gotten a lot better yes :) couple more days would help but must go back to work tomorrow.


Maria7 on 01/16/2018:
Glad you are feeling better. As for your question, actually I am not always feeling really hungry when eating at nite...something to think about. Thank you and hope you have a good day.

horn_of_plenty on 01/16/2018:
Your welcome ! If not hungry have a taste of chocolate. - maybe small individually wrapped 1-2 Pieces that are only like 60 cal each and have with tea herbal or selzter ?? Or some berries or a fruit ....and something to drink - as a preference I sometimes prefer the chocolate to satisfy me lately


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horn_of_Plenty - Sunday Jan 14, 2018
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Weight: 112.0

Breakfast indulged oatmeal 150, dried fruit and nuts 200, yogurt 160. 510 extremely filling and was full before I finished but dad wanted it done ... I hope I can get back to my more self sufficient self soon ! And dark chocolate later small piece 50.

560 before lunch, excellent

Lunch was huge bowl of soup 100 with too many noodles 300? Chicken 300? And piece bread 50?

1310

Dinner gotnreallt hungry before it so had cinnamon raisin bread and an orange 150

1450

Dinner was very tasty veggies my mom made 250 and 1/4lb hamburger no bread 250 tops oh and pineapple 50

2000

2 day is 2250 per day

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Def no loss of appetite !!! Eating is fair game this time around !

Last night was 3rd night of night sweats

Still relaxing in bed all day laying real low. Don't feel energized to do more.

Still little headache and dizziness.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 01/14/2018:
I really wouldn't be surprised if you now have pneumonia.....lots of fluids...and vitamins.


happy-1 on 01/14/2018:
Yeah... see if you can go back today, get them to do a fluid test on what you cough up and a culture. Pneumonia can spread to other organs. Not just a fluid/vitamin thing.


Donkey on 01/14/2018:
Night sweats tell me that your body is still fighting something very hard --probably burning up a lot of calories too.

Do you have the holiday off tomorrow? That would be nice, to have an extra day to heal. Don't go to work until you are better!


graindart on 01/14/2018:
Love the dark chocolate. Unfortunately 50-100 calories is such a small piece, that I just tend to avoid it for the most part.


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horn_of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 13, 2018
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Weight: 112.0

Was getting extremely dizzy in shower so called parents and dad came to pick me up this morning and now I'll be at my parents house for the weekend - just wanting to sleep and lay in bed right now.

Had the night sweats soaking my clothes twice last night so maybe I was dehydrated from it all?

Drinking fluids yes.

Had a banana 120

Gatorade 50, challah bread 200

Lunch followed by snacks later 800

1170...lots of temptations at parent's house even if I can't taste half of what I am eating !

Honey 30, candies 100

1300....

Salad with oil and vinegar 150

1450....c

Healthy but big dinner today's calories as high as 2500

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Donkey on 01/13/2018:
I'm glad you won't be alone this weekend. I'm guessing dehydration -- and that your body is working hard to fight the bronchitis.

I hope that someone will take care of Hammy while you're gone. Probably just as well, as you don't want to get him sick as well.

Take care of yourself -- do what you have to do to get better. Everything else can wait.


BearCountryGG on 01/13/2018:
From what I know night sweats are actually a fever and fever is usually from infection....I'm also glad you aren't alone.....you may be running a fever and just because pneumonia didn't show up on the xrays does not mean you don't have it...it may have been in the very early stages......keep hydrating.


happy-1 on 01/14/2018:
Yeah i have had bronchitis a bunch and night sweats and puking sounds lije the time I had pneumonia... feel better


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horn_of_Plenty - Friday Jan 12, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Breakfast big orange and skyr yogurt 300, tea

Lunch: chicken soup and few chips 400

Snack blackberries glad they didn't go bad 100

2 clementines 100

Drumstick with skin 150, sushi only filled with sweet potato that my dad had bought at the huge supermarket he went to 200, pretzels 150

Granola bar and clementine 220

Dark chocolate 130

Middle of night orange big navel 150

1900 - fine - def feeling extremely lethargic and very tired all day long

Cereal and yogurt 350

2250 total.

Cough is still bad def good to be home resting - lots of lower body aches

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Thank you for all the very kind comments - will reply individually to all of you later on :)

Dad picked up like a thousand ready made food products along with some things I can cook and prepare myself - so I'm set to stay home for a few days

Just resting and sleeping lots right now - very low energy.

I know I'll be fine :) just I guess I was pushing myself too much - the gym i guess next time when I have a cough I'll stay out of the gym till I'm all better completely - but I am surstill this had to do with the change of commute and walking in the freezing cold air breathing it in first thing in the morning for at least 10 min everyday- looking forward to getting fully better ....and I guess taking it easy this winter unless I want to be getting bronchitis a second time ... ah well.

It's good I have nobody to look after here at home bc all I am doing is eating and sleeping ....

Gym routine is gonna have to be adjusted this winter bc for some reason it's become too much with my new commute.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 01/12/2018:
Have you heard about co-living? It's a thing here in CA due to high property taxes and commute times. Basically it is rooms rented like apartments and then shared catered dinners for less than an apartment, or about the same but a little more community. https://www.common.com

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2018:
My apt is cheapest I can get - would be better if I was married but it's nice having the whole place to myself for sure ...


BearCountryGG on 01/12/2018:
Glad to hear that you can just take it easy for a few days......how sweet of your dad. And I was really happy to see that you are having chicken soup...it's the best for bronchitis. Have a nice restful day!

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2018:
Yeah both Mom and dad did way more than I could have ever asked of them - and now I am so so so glad to be home resting - haven't had any energy to do More than just eat and rest - I hope I will feel much better next month


Donkey on 01/13/2018:
Your parents are so sweet to help you through this :-)

horn_of_plenty on 01/13/2018:
Yeah what a disaster when one day I don't have them !!!!


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horn_of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 11, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

I had to stay at the hospital EMER room which takes a long time for doctors / nurses to see patients. So, it took like 6 hours.  I was literally laying on a cot for like 4.5 hours and when i did have to leave i got dizzy for a brief second again...but i sat down and it passed...

i was diagnosed in the end with Bronchitis, which is like a virus, i am not taking any antibiotics but a mix of something with robitussen. I'm def staying home from work tomorrow as i have little energy...and i will lay low all weekend until i feel better...i have dr appts on Monday....for dermatologist for a thing for my sweating a lot on underarms, i have a dentist appt, and one more. hopefully i'll feel a bit better by Monday.

Def low energy over here and need to stay home and sleep / relax.

I got very run down which is why i eventually got bronchitis.

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Fainted at dr so there's a manatory trip to hospital taken by ambulance dad came by and mom is with Me which was so nice of her.....

Been at hospital taking all tests including urine, X-ray and blood work. Been here so far just under SIX  Hours... ---------

Middle of night: banana to calm stomach - need to purchase bananas today 120 Am: kombucha while cleaning hamster cage bc I had put that off since Monday no worries it's fine and works to do it every 1.5 weeks instead of every week so I'll keep this schedule of cleaning. 70 THE KOMBUCHA MAY HAVE AFFECTED HOW HYDRATED I WAS, MAKING ME LESS HYDRATED..

10am light breakfast peanut butter 130 or so on top of a soft fiber one chocolate chip cookie (AGAIN A LOT OF FIBER MESSING WITH MY HYDRATION) 120 250 total 450,

Apple juice at dr later bites of Italian bread 200 650 Bread 200 850

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good just relaxing today - possible trip to supermarket and then drug store if I need an rX after dr Appt .... I def feel under the weather and dizzy just a hair with body pain and cough that got a little bit worse Home sick will go to dr Last night I went to bed with chills around 8:30 and then at 10:39 I work up nauseous and a bit dizzy with bad gas .threw up mostly bile and had a rough night overall. Didn't have the energy this morning to get up and get ready for work or walk the half mile to the bus so I called in sick - dr Appt soon at 10:30am in a half hour.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 01/11/2018:
Hope you feel better and it is nothing serious.

OK OK I just can't stop myself here. Long ago, when I did make it to the gym, a few days after I would get a sore throat. I would chalk that up to other people's funk at the gym. So I would wait a few days to go back. Again, same thing, until eventually, I guess my body got used to being around other people's funk.

Now, I forever use hand sanitizer and lysol. I'm a germaphobe. I do this even at work and at home especially after DH prepares chicken. Just gross.

Get well soon!

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2018:
You are smart to keep things as sanitary as possible innerp!

Thanks for kind words - I was pushing myself before the cold went away and this is what I get !

I may have to change gym routine bc my new commute and lots of walking etc is draining and gym seems way too much on top of that.


BearCountryGG on 01/11/2018:
Public transportation is full of germs too...is it impossible for you to drive to work yourself? Possibly a parking problem eh? Hope you get some answers today.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/11/2018:
it's possible to drive - i would have to ask for special permission - yes spots are very limited....going to try to make public transportation work...it takes a LOT of getting used to after not commuting this way, EVER.


BearCountryGG on 01/11/2018:
Oh my.....I hope they figure out why you have been so sick,glad to hear that your Mom is there with you, and that you saw your Dad too......Please keep us posted, I will be thinking about you and hoping for a good report.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/11/2018:
i was diagnosed with broncitis...need rest and liquids. will be home again tomorrow for sure.

def need to get better before anything else enters the picture.

meant to save my days for March - gonna be a difficult Winter because of unexpected sickness...hopefully after riding public transport for awhile, my body will get used to a more challenging commute than sitting in my car (steps, standing, walking half mile each way lately in freezing cold), and all the germs...hopefully i will get thru this - which i should :)

gym routine will need to change. it's too long and physically demanding overall.

going to need first off to get better...because in under two weeks i start that class i was speaking about each week 5-7pm...just draining after working 7:30-4...but i'll make it work. just can't think about it any more now.


Donkey on 01/11/2018:
I hope you are feeling better and not admitted into the hospital overnight. Maybe though -- this flu is really bad :-( I hope everything is OK...

Horn_of_plenty on 01/11/2018:
after fainting, it was protocol to go to hospital from the dr office. ...

they did many tests including urine, blood work, xray...ekg...but those were ok. in the end, it was a diagnosis of bronchitis, wich is definitely not to be taken lightly and i'm glad it was diagnosed before getting even worse like pneumonia.


BearCountryGG on 01/11/2018:
Our oldest son had chronic bronchitis as a child...several times a year....you will have to keep an eye on colds in the future...because they can turn into bronchitis easily.......you have had a rough winter season this year...lots of changes and decisions.....your system is most likely run down...lots of sleep and liquids will help a lot...It's great that all of your tests came back good...that's always nice to know. Now you will have 3 days to recoup....rest up and take it easy.

horn_of_plenty on 01/11/2018:
Yes thank gosh some time to rest and once again you are also spot on about what happened with the cough turning to bronchitis - as a kid I got it badly also but only a couple times and it seems totally due to a run down system - time to rest and must not push right now


biscottibody59 on 01/11/2018:
Don't be surprised if it doesn't take you about a week to really be back "up" again. Rest, rest and repeat. Make sure you have Gatorade or my "sickie fluid" of choice--grapefruit juice (I always diluted it) or get some other juice that you know you will drink. If you're not peeing, you're starting to get dehydrated, so drink up!

I hope you get to feeling better soon--don't push yourself on Monday if you're not quite up to it. Take care H_o_P girlie!

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2018:
Ty ty biscotti body ---- are u our great webmaster <3. So good to hear from you we were all thinking of you lately actually !!! Donkey and I were wondering if you were ok! Are you feeling a bit better lady????

All I'm doing is sleeping and eating bc feeling extremely tired especially after I eat I go back to bed it seems today.

I'm craving oranges and luckily I had bought clemtines and my dad gave me a large amount of navel oranges also so I am set.

Drinking herbal teas.

Was supposed to go to dentist Monday but will cancel that and also had two more appointments Bc we have that day off in observance of Martin Luther King day - will try to go to the appointments that are early in day and maybe skip dentist since it may not be great to lay back with mouth open for 30 min straight to have my teeth worked on - may try to stay off work some of next week if I need to - too bad I'm using the days I meant to save to use in March for gym - gym is taking a horrible nosedive ah well.

Thank you for the tips I have a really old Gatorade like years maybe not the best to drink that ! It's been in my fridge for years!

Can't wait for aches and pains to pass and energy to come back - ty again for writing to me !


BearCountryGG on 01/12/2018:
Chicken soup is always on point for that sort of thing too.....

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2018:
Yes so glad to have it also from the huge supermarket :-)


happy-1 on 01/12/2018:
Feel better! I've never had bronchitis so bad I threw up but a ventolin inhaler will make it easier on your lunds. So will breathe easy tea.

horn_of_plenty on 01/12/2018:
Luckily the coughing isn't non stop thank gosh and the cough medicine helps!

Not sure why I threw up the night before maybe my body was just totally beat in general!

THANK you for all the great advice :-)


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horn_of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 10, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 112.0

Home: tea and sips of kombucha 10 Coffee and chocolate 170 200...

Wrap pb and cooked cranberries 350

Almonds 50  and candies  50

forgot to have breakfast

Lunch: baked chicken 150 with ketchup and soy sauce and lots of veggies some roasted 250, pretzels 150: 550.

i guess i can work on a low cal day today...nice

snacking: will be dates, high in potassium 100 cal, and a chocolate 60

1010...

1800 tops

1970 5 day excellent aside from the fact that I'm not feeling good

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I just don't have a desire to go back and teach, don't have a desire to do much more except try to do the work i'm given,i don't have many desires right now. i realize i may not be able to travel much more or do much of anything in life due to all of the poor choices i have made...so if i want to be a court officer, i should just keep on training with the exercise and train to the exact requirements of the physical test or i may not even get that position...so, starting this weekend, i'm starting to train exactly to the test to figure out the beep test and how to train and set up for it - so i can practice in my gym. vacations prob not again...i'm so freaked out on life you have no idea.

We'll suffice it to say it was like being in another country where the gym was located that I went to yesterday. Not really the best place for me to be....manager was gone so trying To Get my money back today bc I signed up stupidly for a year contract and should have just paid the $20 to workout for one day - yesterday -

Lately I am feeling a bit confused and scared of the present and what's to come in my future as my current job is a bit confusing now and the materiAl for my current assignment makes no Sense at all I'll have to ask someone bow to donit. I am just hating the unknown right now - I like the gym and even that seems a challenge To go to right now bc of schedule change - And soon to be taking a class For The next 10 weeks tonstart on 1/23. Just a lot of change. That class is 1x a week from 5-7 so Another day of getting home late. Life is just a bit confusing.

so i want to be a a court officer but my physical ability is low and it's hard to even work on that...seems like is not as easy as i thought it could be and that money doesn't grow on trees at all.  Seems everything is just SO CONFUSING...typos are bc i type here while on the bus...

i am going to learn to live very modestly bc it seems that's the only thing my brain can work it's way around for now....my apt is expensive it seems in my mind to pay for just by myself...i am sorta scared out of my bones right now...i'm feeling really REALLY desperate to just know how to keep on....i guess i just need to figure out my work for now...here, at this job. freaking scaring the sh*t outta myself right now.


like i should almost live with my parents is how desperate i feel in my heart. things just don't look good. i just realize that being married could have been better at least paying rent-wise...i'm a mess in my thoughts right now. just need to slow down and think of today and not tomorrow. i guess that's all i can do at this very moment.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 01/10/2018:
Life is scary, all you can do is live one day at a time. Don't get discouraged. You have a goal with plans, so just keep working towards that goal and look at work changes as obstacles and keep moving forward. One thing is work is a must to maintain monies for essentials, so I get that. But as I've told my BFF in Oklahoma and my DH, you are trainable! You can learn new things and sometimes you will have to be out of your comfort zone, but you got this!

Try and have a good day. IP

horn_of_plenty on 01/10/2018:
i just know that i'll never be rich and just scared i'll never have enough money to live normally in life ... but maybe i should go on like most people do - those who aren't rich - the ones in the direct middle - and just live life as it comes as i have been doing. everything scared me but i guess i can just try to keep on...it seems i'm one of the only white women / men even that takes the subway and bus now in the morning...i wonder - how is it that nobody else is riding but me who is white!? have i done so wrong? made so many wrong choices?

all in all, i just feel a bit out of my element as of late based on day to day strange experiences.

horn_of_plenty on 01/10/2018:
ty for kind words, i'll make the most of what you said.


happy-1 on 01/10/2018:
Omg, i could have written this post. I feel for you.

horn_of_plenty on 01/11/2018:
Hugs, thank you xx


Donkey on 01/10/2018:
I completely understand where you're coming from. Remember when I was freaking out a few months ago, knowing that my husband was going to stop working, and that we'd have to sell the house, etc.? Sadly, I too know that we/I will never be wealthy. I don't really wish for things like that because I'm afraid that I'll come into riches in a way I don't want to! (i.e. being the beneficiary of someone's life insurance policy!)

Please don't judge your financial status according to your fellow commuters. While your observation/conclusion made me smile, I don't think you can make that deduction about others' money situations.

I would encourage you to try not to let your anxiety run amok and keep things in a healthy perspective. Yes, save money if you at all can. Yes, live modestly, as much as you can. But you can't think too far ahead or you'll miss the moments in front of you!

It's definitely not worth it to marry someone you don't love, or to work a brutal job.

I DO AGREE that if you want to be a court officer, you should train SPECIFICALLY for the test. Your goals and parameters are set; now work on meeting the challenge. I'm surprised to read that you feel that your physical ability is so low. Don't let the discouragement from your previous physical test dampen your ambition.

I bet that a lot of this ambivalence about yourself and your future is stemming from not feeling very comfortable at your current assignment...

horn_of_plenty on 01/11/2018:
Yes you are reading me through - just once again having a difficult time adjusting to the change poorly



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