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innerpeace - Monday Jul 10, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Busy, busy! Friday night we went to the local diner. I had a French Dip sandwich ended the day with 1682 calories.

Saturday we went to the flea market and walked around. I am in search of clocks. I want a wall full of clocks. I found three, but really didn't care for any of them. We left with the girl another fidget spinner, zucchini and tomatoes.

We then drove about 30 miles to Huron, OH and attended the Huron River Fest. It was very pleasant out and we had a great time. Lots of boats and carnival festival stuff. Here is a picture, my hair is pulled back, but I can see I have lost some weight. Eventhough after walking around the flea market  and then the festival, my hands were starting to swell. I hate that feeling!

 

 

We had to leave and get DH home to sleep, he had to be at work at 12:00. The girl and I went to Big Lots and bought a few things and then spent the night at home.

Sunday I was up at 6:00 and ran for 20 minutes. I got 1.44 miles. I still feel that I should be getting further than I am, but I am very slow. Slow and steady wins the race. Tomorrow (if it's not raining) I will do the 20 minute run again and then it will jump up to 25, 28, 30 and 35 being the last. I'm just not seeing myself adding another 1.60 miles in 15 minutes but I guess I'll know when I get there.

Sunday I cooked zucchini stuffed with chicken, mashed potatoes and salad. Ending with 1422 calories.

Monday it was hard to get up and go to work. I was sleeping so good. It was damp and just hard to leave the house. I got a text last night from the YA and he thought about admitting himself to the hospital because he says one minute I'm happy and the next I just want to break down and cry. I felt so back for him. I asked him if he wanted to hurt himself, he told me NO. I gave him a crises number to call to talk to someone. He asked me to make him an appointment, I did, It is for 4:00 pm today, hopefully he can find out what is bothering him. I just feel so sad for him. Being an adult Sucks and can be so very hard sometimes.

DH said he was making salmon for dinner, so there's that. I hope it is good.

Have a great night! Right this minute I'm looking forward to my 20 minute run tomorrow.! IP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/10/2017:
You look great!

innerpeace on 07/11/2017:
thanks!


Horn_of_plenty on 07/11/2017:
Your weightloss is very apparent to me!!! Great job!! Your face looks less round than before and overall you look so good. You should be so, so, so thrilled which i know you are. AND, GIRLIE LOOKS GOOD!!!! Her hair looks so nice long! She looks healthier than even before. I hope she keeps running with you. I can tell she loves you by the smiles in this photo!

You know how you say you want to be better running than you are....sounds like you are being hard on yourself but also bc you are that type of DETERMINED person. But you are right - slow and steady wins the race - and that's the same motto that I follow in my training. Better to train at YOUR pace than get an injury and have to stop.

You must love running. It's amazing to be albe to get into it after not for so long - that's how I feel also about myself!

That's so cool you stuffed the zucchini with ground chicken right? Ground up? I had a boss that would infuse mini eggplants with garlic and parsley i think! He's pickle them and everything. it's so cool to put the meat in the veggie! so tasty.

Young adult sounds like he could use some therapy and/or medication....not that medicine solves everything, but, it helps sometimes. hey, i take some myself (for anxiety i've take it for one year).

Have a wonderful day, IP!

Enjoy your run tomorrow! It's so freeing!



innerpeace - Friday Jul 07, 2017

Weight: 306.0

So I ran for 15 minutest this morning! I was so glad I could finish. Had a 3 minute walk and then a 5 minute run. I thought it was a bit warm this morning and it took me forever to cool off. I was even sweating after my cool shower. I prefer about 54 degrees.

The girl and I went to see "The Miracle Worker" It was really good. I've seen the movie several times (the original and the remake) and I believe they did a fantastic job. The girl seemed to like it as well.

We got home about 9:45 and I expected DH to at least make his lunch, but he didn't. So the girl and I made his lunch and then made ours. She went to bed about 10:15 - she was tired, she fell asleep in the car driving to the play, but managed to stay awake for it's entirety.

We are supposed to go out to eat tonight, I don't even know where. Maybe to our diner, we haven't been there in awhile and it is reasonable on cost.

Tomorrow flea market and maybe a festival in Huron, Ohio.

Everyone have a great weekend!

My next run is a 20 minute run...no walks - I guess the hard stuff begins.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/07/2017:
Fairy Garden sounds awesome! It would be nice if they were CACTUS plants that stay small bc then it would last a very long time with very little water. I agree that it’s a very cute and creative idea. Cool. I think I’d even enjoy making one – as long as I knew it would last…otherwise I wouldn’t enjoy the process as much lol…I need to see the value in it the things I do! Will girlie’s last? (since yours fell out in the car!).

Glad to hear the movie was good. It stinks when we pay a lot and the movie isn’t good bc theater prices by me are CRAZY! I saw a movie in 3D and it cost me - for a SINGLE seat (they are all recliner seats) over TWENTY dollars! For a movie! Is it that expensive by you??? The Metro NYC area is seriously NUTZ! The seats are all similar to like a recliner sofa and you can adjust your seat to your preference.

Awww so sweet to make hubby’s lunch. I do hope to have a man one day – at least a man, if not a hubby. I like your hubby! You sound so good for each other! A really nice couple! Girlie is lucky with you guys!!!!

Wow….2 events in one day tomorrow! HOW NICE! I hope you make it to at least ONE of them! Let us know how they go!

Ohhhh....super congrats on your running...i do not think i could do more than 10 minutes - not sure - in a row. I'll check it out later on! :)



innerpeace - Thursday Jul 06, 2017

Weight: 306.0

DH heated up the left over ribs and made some cauliflower for dinner. It was ok.

Then we made slime. And for some reason the recipe wasn't forming slime, so the girl wanted to pour more and more stuff into it. Baking soda and corn starch. DH googled why isn't my slime forming? Seriously....it said first ensure your baking soda isn't expired. So I looked it expired in April. We weren't cooking, we were making slime for pete's sake. Anyway, the girl said something to the affect of = don't you have baking soda that isn't expired? This for some reason hit a nerve and I just replied. I'm sorry the baking soda is expired, perhaps you should go to your mother's house and make it where everything is perfect! Needless to say, both the girl and DH clamped their mouths shut! I politely removed myself from the situation and busied myself doing other things...they continued with the slime making and ended up with playdoh instead.

As usual DH excuses himself to go to sleep and I again am there with the never ending gabbing girl! She knows, she knows because after about 2 hours she asks if I want her to shut up now!! Seriously???  Ended the day with 1528 calories.

I overslept this morning and did not get up until 6:10. I had to rush and shower and then wake the girl up and get her motivated for camp. I will have to do my run in the morning.

Tonight we have The Miracle Worker play at the Oberlin College, DH is staying home sleeping.

Not sure about dinner.

Have a great evening!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/06/2017:
How did he cook the cauliflower? All veggies are always more tasty when a little olive oil is added….did he use any oil for the cauli?

Hahaha…at least they got to making something right?! Play-doh sounds more fun than slime anyways..

Teach girlie how to occupy herself….like when you read, if you read, she can read. Or she can watch a movie. Maybe help her do something with her spare time? I was always good at that – good at being quiet and just fiddling around. I think anyways…

GOOD CALORIES way to go! You have been doing really well, IP!....Enjoy the show! I LOVE community shows whether they be drama, music, dance….all of the arts are good!

innerpeace on 07/07/2017:
Actually they were cauliflower tots, he cooked in the air fryer. They were good.

Our fairy garden was a tiny garden in a bowl. The instructor bought pebbles, jewels, little dinosaurs and cut outs to make our little fairy/dinosaur garden and then gave us seeds to plant. It was cute. Mine dumped out in the car on the way home, but we still had a great time.



innerpeace - Wednesday Jul 05, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Monday the girl, DH and I went to Sandusky to grow grocery shopping...for the iced coffee!! We ate lunch at Ryan's buffet and then went to Sam's. The girl and I went to a fairy garden class at the library and then went home.

Tuesday - was up at 5:50 and did the c25K (10 minute run - 3 min walk - 10 minute run) this is much easier to do in cooler less humid weather. DH cooked ribs that turned out really tender. The YA and his girlfirend was over for dinner and this is the 2nd week for the girl so she will be with us the entire week. My dog is the exception to the rule of being scared of fire works. He runs around the back yard trying to catch them and barks and barks and barks. I'm sure he gets agitated, but after awhile he just goes to sleep. Poor baby.

Today was back to work - I did not miss this for four days. I still cannot believe how much complaining the people I work with do. Tonight we are making slime!

Tomorrow is week 6 day 3 and will be a 15 minute run with a 3 minute walk and then a 5 minute run. Right now the 15 minutes sounds very daunting. Body is feeling ok - no soreness or back issues of late.

Still need to cut back on the sweets!

Have a great evening!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/05/2017:
So tell us about this Fairy Garden Class! Was it good? Was it Creative?

Wow so proud of you being up at 5:50am on Independence Day! I wasn’t out of my bed until after 10am yesterday!! It’s good you don’t have a crying doggie on your hands…my hamster seemed a little bit afraid – I’m glad it’s practically blind because I don’t have all my shades put up and if my hamster could see far – he’d be seeing all those fireworks lights bursting..but I do not think a hamster can see more than a few inches in front of themselves – which is great.

Today everyone at work kept their mouths shut. I think they were tired? Somehow I was on time despite leaving SO LATE! no traffic at all! A couple of other people that work around me were late…not sure if they really had something to do or if they were partying? Lol. one was a pregnant lady, coming in 1.5 hours late. another was an older secretary who came in at 10 saying she was at the dr before – who knows.

Keep going with your running program ! You are doing great. Only reason to stop or slow is if there’s pain or too much soreness. Keep up the great work, IP!



innerpeace - Sunday Jul 02, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Saturday totally bum day. Was up and never changed out of my pajamas. Fell asleep in the recliner and watched baseball most of the day. DH got home, showered and opted to sleep in his recliner. He grill pork chops. Ended the day with 1438 calories.

Sunday, was up early and did the c25k - 10 minute run 5 minute walk 10 minute run. Kicked my butt! I was humidity's **** today! OMG I thought I was going to die. I will not wait four days to do this again. I will be up Tuesday to do this again.

No plans today - laundry. Supposed to get the girl at 7:00 pm. I am off tomorrow and Tuesday but really have no plans.

Chillin'

Have a great fourth!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/02/2017:
I applaud you for running in high humidity. That is NOT easy.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/03/2017:
I had a bit of bumming also on the weekend. sometimes it's a time to rest and recharge the MIND...allowing you to think about other things and future plans! :)


jayhawkjen on 07/04/2017:
Oh, I feel ya. I HATE humidity. I always do better in the winter. Good for You!



innerpeace - Friday Jun 30, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Took a vacation day at work and took the girl to the Indians game. My new favorite thing. OMG I loved every minute of it, despite the heat. We had a great time. We had to walk over a mile to where we parked, but I did not want to pay $20 to park closer. We had the best time ever and are planning to go back with DH in early August.

The girl and I went to Boston Market after and had some rotisserie chicken. I am having real issues with meat. I didn't think my chicken was cooked enough and just picked at it. DH made some ribs a few weeks ago and one of them at a fat pocket on it that looked like an infected blister. It was so nasty. Just meat in general is grossing me out lately.

Today I thought about registering for the race to celebrate my 50th BD, but I thought I should at last finish the training program. I have nine more runs to do and will be finished in plenty of time for the date of the race...but just in case I will wait until I finish the program.

We will have the girl again Sunday night for the week...so I will get two nights off.

Have a great 4th of July! Will try to check in as time permits.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/03/2017:
Good idea not to pay to park and rather get a lil exercise and do the walk yourself. This is OBVIOUSLY the MOST healthy and BEST choice! Plus, it shows the girlie being lazy is simply NOT the best choice!

I had a major change with meat also - i do not enjoy HUGE portions of it anymore - for like one full year now i'm completely having small portions almost always. (size of my palm at most usually!)

Protein is "overrated" by the general public - we don't need to overload on it..but some isn't bad....



innerpeace - Wednesday Jun 28, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Picked up the girl and she was steaming mad. Her mother is moving into a different house and apparently making the girl and her step-sister do all the packing. I get from the conversation that this isn't going too well. I kinda laughed to myself, but kept telling the girl to be nice. Once I get home I'm expecting dinner, but DH just climbed out of bed apparently. He was in his muumuu gown and the living room drapes were still shut. What a let down. So the young adult was over in the morning and kept DH up later than normal...I asked DH if talking about cars again was more important than sleep. Apparently so...because that is all the young adult talks about EVER!

I was a little cranky because I had to throw something together for dinner. I sauteed/grilled some chicken breasts and dumped them in a pot of alfreado noodles with green beans. . It turned out pretty good. I'll add that to my thirty minute meal catalog.

DH went back to bed and I spent the rest of the evening with the girl. HOP we have her for 4 weeks in the summer. They are not concecutive weeks, but they are full weeks. We have her the 4th of July week, the last week in July and the 2nd week in August....these are the longest of weeks.

My dentist called to reschedule the girls appointment, he said something was going around in the office. He asked me how my tooth was doing since the filling...well remember when you asked me not one, twice but three times if my tooth was bothering me, hurting in anyway, sensitive to hot or cold and three times I told you NO...why? and you said because I had a cavity and it needed to be filled. Well now it hurts and it is very sensitive why is that? He tells me my tooth was traumatized during the drilling/filling and it would need a few days to heal. OK a few days, it's been a week. He tells me, yes and I also told you there was more decay than I thought so I had to drill a little deeper. OK...whatever! He told me if it wasn't better by next week (when his office is closed) I should call again. Luckily this morning it wasn't as sensitive, so hopefully it is healing.

Was up at 4:50 this morning and did the Week 5 Day three (8 minute run 5 min walk, 8 minute run). Surprisly this went well and I could have gone longer the rist 8 minutes and I am happy about this. The weather was cooler than usual and it turned out to be a nice pleasant run/walk. I met a man walking his dog, he said good morning and scared me. He had a reflective vest on, may think about this!

Since DH isn't around in the mornings, I've been having pop tarts. Not the healthiest but they are easy. I also haven't been eating a real lunch, just a few snacks. Today I ate yogurt, banana, cheezits, apple - feeling pretty good. I have a pot of chili on at home.

Tomorrow is the Indians games!! Very excited.

Have a great night!

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/29/2017:
...i was thinking ice hockey in the summer didn't make much sense ;) texas rangers....lol that name....love the real deal texas rangers like cops i mean!...write more soon!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/29/2017:
HOLA IP IP!

Now I’m reading your entry from today …. :-P ….

Yeah, sleep is important but once in awhile I guess it’s ok for him to give YA some attention. ???? Dinner that you made sounds good….to add extra volume to your meal, just add more green beans and less noodles and then it’s less calories! You can even do more what’s like chicken and green beans with small amount noodles just to satisfy.

Ohhhh so I see…it’s different from a few nights per week when it’s all week. I can see how it can be a challenge….try to provide some entertainment / mind opening experiences for her to the best of your capacity as I know you are a working woman. …thank GOSH they are not consecutive, that would be a bit of a change too much so!

Yep, fingers crossed all goes well for your tooth. Teeth can be so expensive (I know mostly from friends with some dental issues). I only had to pay for a couple wisdom teeth being removed and I was actually paid back….but it’s amazing – the cost of braces and things. It’s crazy that many working people cannot afford braces for their children…life is not fair….dental should be available at better rates to all…it’s so crazy the costs to maintain a mouth. Luckily, I have my costs mostly covered….good luck to your healing tooth…

Lately I keep sleeping and sleeping in the AM. Obciously the man wants to be seen when he’s jogging – so how scary could he really be!? LOL…reflective vests are cheap…you can buy them a little / or big construction stores / shops. I find them all over here around queens being sold for just a few dollars.

Don’t you get really hungry from pop tarts? They never satisfy me at all…but it’s ok to take a break once in awhile….i know they are SO TASTY. My mom bought them, very briefly, for us as kids…not sure why she did….and I remember it not going on too long bc she didn’t believe in much junk food in the house. She was probably enjoying them too, for a little while! Lol. she likes a cookie or small bar in mornings, I bet she was eating them too!

Go Indians!



innerpeace - Tuesday Jun 27, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I took a break! I was just blah...the entire week with the girl was very taxing on me. And guess what I get to do it again next week.

I did Week 5 Day 2 of the C25K - I was pleasntly surprised that I finished. Tomorrow i will do Week 5 Day 3 two 8 minute runs with a 5 minute walk. When it says run I'm not actually running, I am doing a slow jog you understand. I don't want anyone to think this is a full-out sprinting run, because it's not...I'm fat. The weather is cooler than it should be and I am thankful for this.

I won tickets to watch the Indians play the Rangers on Thursday afternoon. Hella excited about this! DH will or should be sleeping so I have asked the girl to come along. Well I asked her mom if she could come along and she agreed.

I also took off the day before the 4th of July. This will be a nice four day weekend - well I will have the girl, but I have already told her not to expect much. Not sure when DH will be off that nght before of the night of...still think third shift blows!

After 174 days of logging food I missed the last 4 and don't even want to try to remember what I ate. I will start over on July 1st. I didn't eat anything awful so not too worried about that. I have noticed I am craving sweet stuff and try to stay away from them.

Trying to find a passion....

Have a great day! IP

 

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/27/2017:
Why is the girl with you more often now?? Her mom is on vaca or something? It should be fair…at least you give her attention and good parenting…that is great….i am always proud of you – as you should be deep down proud of you too! :-D

Yes, weather has been PERFECT here also for outdoor activities. Just like you, when I’m “running,” it’s a pretty slow jog also. But we’re doing it…the more we practice, the better we get! This is how it works – put in the practice, reap the rewards! That’s how I got so good at weights – YEARS of practice.

Oh nice….Rangers are from NY! Great experience for the girl! Cool you both are going to the game. If you eat…you can always get water (or a diet coke!) to fill your stomach if you need to. This is what I do when I’m out. Or seltzer. Diet coke isn’t the best, I know. I add liquid stevia even to plain seltzer and it becomes nice, SWEET, and refreshing. Rangers (are you talking ICE HOCKEY?) are a great NY team!

This happens to me, too, with logging. Sometimes we need a break. I also accidentally totally forgot this past Sunday when I was really busy. And then I was too tired to write it all out!

It’s ok to take breaks. Everything needs a break or a MIND BREAK sometimes.

But you know, this logging stuff, it’s great because it’s how we stay on track!:-) But a little break is good for the soul!

innerpeace on 06/28/2017:
It is the Cleveland Indians and Texas Rangers - Major League Baseball. No hockey for this girl!!



innerpeace - Thursday Jun 22, 2017

Weight: 306.0

I just read that post about the future of DD - this makes me sad...

DH heard back from his job...he wasn't selected so he was broody last night. And then there was a fire at his job and they called and told him not to come in until they replace the quenching take (oil that got water in it from the firemen), he missed two nights of work. He wasn't sleeping when I thought he should, so this caused a little row, so my final thought was...I don't care if he ever sleeps again, but he better not take an attitude with me about little stuff that he feels bothers him...like his very own kids!!

I told him, when I had my one and only child 30 some years ago, I knew then that I was too selfish to have any more kids. There was a reason!! I don't like them. I don't want to worry about them and tend to them. I would often say, I didn't start liking my son until he was about 16 when he could do things and go places for himself. Now, I find myself being forced into caring for someone else's kid. The dad sleeps all the time and the mother don't care!! HELLO!!! what is wrong with this picture...I spend more time with her than either of the parents. This makes me sad, furious, frustrated all at the same time.

DH made burgers last night. They were ok. ended the night with 1582 calories.

Tomorrow is week 5 day 2, A long 8 minute run.

Maybe a parade tonight.

Tomorrow I will have a better day. Been working in the storage/supply room the last three days, should finish tomorrow morning.

Have a good night.

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/22/2017:
Hi IP!

DH sounds a lil stressed and took it out on you for no reason….he just sounds stressed out due to no sleep / fire / work / no work.

This girlie will get older too. Don’t worry…you’re doing your part & that is all that matters / should matter to you. Since you obviously don’t want full custody just do your part and that should be good.

Do you ever make turkey burgers? They can be dry if you use a very lean white ground meat, but when I use even the fattier meat – they’ll be soft and taste good. If you make a dry one, very low cal, you can top it with a nice and creamy bit of avocado. I am looking to do this. I might make some nice turkey burgers tonight after I visit my grandma who is now living in a nursing home only 10 min away from me…

Great cals….

Please tell me how you’ve been doing with your running program…8 minutes is a long time, but you have been training for it! I am running around ½ mile at a time and generally walking for a lil bit each ½ that a stop and then back to running. I am probably running up to around 7-8 min at a time currently…prob not much more than that, no, not yet for me.


Donkey on 06/24/2017:
I hope you're doing better. Very astute observation about who spends the most time with the girl. It IS sad, and yet, I can see why you feel frustrated, too! It's good that you know your limits, but it seems you are being tested. (((hugs)))

I'd like to hear about the running too :-)



innerpeace - Tuesday Jun 20, 2017

Weight: 306.0

Keep trudging along. My entire life is running amok. This week the girl is with us the entire week. DH is still working nights so I am kinda the go to person...alarm clock, chauffer, chef - not jobs I particularly care for. I prefer to be around people who look forward to the day and seek new things to learn and do, not someone who would rather just not do anything...ever! I don't think I've ever been around someone who doesn't have a spark of creativity or an idea to do something better or different. It's just one big blah machine around my house.

I will start week 5 of the couch to 5 K. I have officially completed half of it - now I guess the hard work begins. I will see how I feel tomorrow.

No word yet on DH's job interview, he is going to call and ask tomorrow. I sure hope it's good news.

I have been eating ok, I have noticed that some sweets are starting to creep back into my menus...not a good thing for me. I will continue to work on this - hopefully this week will go by quickly.

Have a great night! iP

Progress as of today: 15.6 lbs lost so far, only 96 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/21/2017:
Good job on the couch to 5k. I'd like to do that. Hugs.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/21/2017:
wow....i cannot believe you are already halfway thru the couch to 5K awesome!

if you ever feel pain, slow down the whole training.

You should be SO PROUD of your progress!

Your life is no amuk....just this week - but not because of you!



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