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innerpeace - Sunday Dec 31, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I'm glad Christmas is over.

Been eating like a pig to get back on the wagon tomorrow. Lots of changes coming up for the new year, I can only hope it will last longer than a week.

Happy New Year to you all.

IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/31/2017:
Happy to see you and to be back here again, I've been celebrating since Christmas eve myself....tomorrow is a new beginning.


Donkey on 12/31/2017:
So happy to be back online -- all of us :-) This week has definitely been a challenge. I did not do so well either eating-wise, but that's what New Year's goals are for, I suppose ;-)


happy-1 on 01/01/2018:
You're on a great trend and you will rock it more this year for sure!


horn_of_plenty on 01/02/2018:
Happy New Year, InnerP....so nice that you are on and we are all back where we left off over here on DD!

The cold mixed with being home more on holiday season leads to eating...let's all get back on track - including me!



innerpeace - Thursday Dec 21, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I appreciate each of your responses to my last rant. I think I took something away from each of them. I am so consumed with myself and how I functions, I don't neccesarily think about others and how they operate.

Pre Note to my post today. Last week DH was going upstairs and he smelled an odor. He looked and looked and finally decided to take out all the bathroom trash and wash the garbage pails. He still smelled it. Now, I'm not one to go up and offer to smell a stink, so I stayed down stairs. LOL Finally on his way back downstairs he stops in the guest bathroom (this is the bathroom the girl uses) and the toilet was not flushed. So that was an easy fix. Nasty but an easy fix. We have told her several times, this is unacceptable.

Anyway, when I get home DH had cooked hotdogs for dinner, not my favorite, but I eat it. So I tell the girl to go and get a shower and we would go and shop for DH for Christmas. So she does. When she is finished, about an hour later, DH and I are sitting downstairs and she comes into the room and DH starts with the, hey will you go and push the level in the bathroom (the powerder room 1/2 bath downstairs). So the girl goes into the bathroom and flushes the toilet. DH says, OH OK I just wanted to make sure you know how to do that. This is nice and for some reason it irritates me. SO I'm like, yeah, you didn't flush the toilet last week and it was nasty. You are nasty and you need to go upstairs and flush the toilet now, to ensure there is no nasty left in it. AND THEN by the way, you tub is nasty. I showed you and cleaned it with you the last time. She has enough nerve to tell me she didn't know what to use to clean the tub. This sets me off, SERIOUSLY!!! I told her I bet she didn't leave the tub like that at her mom's house with five other people using the bathroom. She is the only one that uses the bathroom, so she is the nasty one! She really wasn't appreciative of my critism, but sense my son and his wife may or may not come up, I will now have to scrub the bathroom to at least be presentable to someone other than the nasty girl. She is just lazy! and NASTY! And then I go off on DH too because he, being a man, for some reason can't freaking p!ss in a basketball size hole and drips on the floor and he too is NASTY. I'm not cleaning up other peoples' crap when they can do it themselves. OMG

Anyway, the girl and I go shopping and I am finally finished Christmas shopping. So, so glad for that!

D: hotdog (ball park frank), bun, ketchup, mustard

Dessert:: 1 cup of ice cream

B: toast, iced vanilla latte

L: yogurt, blackberries, granola, apple

S: balanced breaks

Kinda missing my mom today.

No word from son yet...I'm just assuming this is going to be a NO.

 

Have a great night IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/21/2017:
We had a foster/adopted daughter who did the samething....had her own bathroom upstairs...and stairway was in the dining room....smell drifting downstairs...and I went up to find a literal swamp...( and no toilet paper!!!!!!!)....took that problem to her therapist...it's not a good sign. Same kid..wanted to use Dennys shower..he said ok...but DO NOT put water in the shampoo....and of course she DID! Same kid came home and burned something in her bathroom, I smelled the smoke....smoke coming from sink drain, burned paper in toilet...and plastic waste basket melting as we stood there..and she denied the whole thing...said it was already on fire when she took it out of her back pack ( dang backpack)....


bearcountrygg on 12/21/2017:
I just read your response to me...I get it...he drops by work daily...that's cute. I thought he only did it when he was upset with you....So it is a good thing!!!


Horn_of_plenty on 12/21/2017:
yeah, you just seem a bit more structured than the other folks you live with - cheers to you on that one! :)

Enjoy your Christmas shopping with girlie...and enjoy since this time of year only comes by once each year LOL.


Horn_of_plenty on 12/21/2017:
Keep giving the girl your love bc she does look like a sweetheart to me!!!! <3



innerpeace - Wednesday Dec 20, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Another Rant!

Man vs. Woman

I don't know if it's from my military training or just my way of thinking or just because I'm a woman and think faster than a man or what, but I am labeled a control freak and I'm trying to analyze just how I got that label or if I was called that because...OMG I am totally right.

For instance there are items in area A that need to get to area B. There is also an item in area B that need to be in area A. So big doofus DH grabs two items from A carries them to B, walks back to A and gets the other two items and carries them to B. Then he picks up the item from B and carries it to A. And I ask why didn't you just bring back that item from B when you came back from dropping off the first two items? Oh, I know because maybe that takes too much brain power to even think about? Snarky comment, didn't go over to well.

Instance number two, DH is leaving for work and is going to his truck. My initial thought is that he can take some postcards to the mailbox, get his his truck and leave. However, DH sighs heavily takes the postcards and walks to the mailbox and comes back into the house, grabs his coffee and his lunch and then goes to his truck. Again, why:?  Is this just a man thing? It is so inefficient and wastes so much time and effort and energy. Or is it because he couldn't carry the coffee, postcards and lunch bag in two hands...seriously?

Instance number three. Unloading the dishwasher. DH will make ten trips back and forth from the dishwasher to areas in the kitchen. I am thankful and grateful he is even unloading the dishwasher, but not when it takes twenty minutes and he is in my way for seventeen minutes of them. I ask why can't he just take the silverware tray out of the dishwasher and carry it with him and make one trip? And then he does it....he yells at me. YOU ARE SUCH A CONTROL FREAK!! What difference does it make as long as it gets done? Why am I always doing things wrong? You do things your way and I'll do things the way I do them...and just because it's not your way, doesn't make it the wrong way!" Oh but he was screaming at me.

WOW...am I just dillusional? It's OK, be honest, these are the things I need to know, because I'm thinking I'm just being practical and the old concept of "work smarter, not harder" comes to mind. But what it really comes down to is, while you are walking five miles in my kitchen unloading the dishwasher, you overcooked my eggs!  What a waste! - I didn't say that, but that is why it bothered me. He was cooking eggs for dinner at the time.

Men suck!

At work I had one volunteer to assist with the recent inventory I did. Oh wow, thanks! That would be so helpful. I really do not want to walk to the other building and look for inventory stickers. He says, I'll go and I'll take pictures of the numbers. Wow...thanks!

Two days later, I ask, hey did you get those pictures? Oh yeah, hey I'll read them off to you. He flips through pictures on his phone, grumbles, flips through some more pictures, cusses, bad mouths iPhone and how crappy it is, stupid phone, worthless piece of crap. Well nevermind, these pictures are so blurry I can't even read the letters. My iphone works great, maybe it is just the operator! Anyway, I walk out and do the inventory myself, because I'm such a control freak and my iphone pictures are just fine by the way!...or maybe because men are worthless pieces of crap.

Anyway, after all of this I have to think long and hard and my reply was...I realize awful stuff about myself around you. I'm always trying to improve me and who I am! Not just do everything the same and just leave it as that because I'm just ok and it works. YOU, YOU be OK. I'm going to improve everyday and become the best person I can be. You, YOU just continue to do you and waste your time, energy, effort and do things the hard way. @sshat! J@ckhole!

D: two eggs, freakin' way too much bacon, toast

S: cream cheese

I wrapped some more presents last night, maybe will get finished tonight, after the girl comes over and I harrass her about getting her book read, because it's apparent her mother won't!. AND this nasty girl will be scrubbing her bathtub incase other people beside her need to use it. And again, she said this nastiness in the tub, doesn't bother her!! OMG!

Not looking forward to Christmas, I would rather not see the YA again nor his skanky GF, but I will put on the happy face and be a gracious hostess. No work yet from my son whether or not he is coming up.

B: iced vanilla latte

S: yogurt, blackberries, granola

L: left over cheese ball, crackers

D: I have no clue - probably whatever the girl wants and what's not too difficult for my tired, over worked, under paid, exhausted, I work harder than everyone else DH to throw together!

I will get through this day too! IP

 PS. so DH just dropped by my work and now I feel bad because I hurt his feelings. I guess I will go see my friendly therapist to get ideas on how to relate to someone who is just not on my level - meaning I feel I go out of my way to do the best and I have to be OK with someone who does enough to just get by. Kind of like do it right the first time, no matter how hard it is, instead of doing it over and over again because it's easy and works for five minutes. This will surely be a long, long day! And then again what if it is his best and there is no hope for improvement. So very sad for me. And I'm eating cake to cope, so, so perfect!

 

 

 

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/20/2017:
An old Dr Phil quote comes to mind right now........"we can't change anyone else, we can only change ourselves"........When I get frustrated with someone...I force myself to find something right about what they are doing, that is bothering me so much...in this case I would look at all of the extra exercise he is getting making several trips...he also may be doing it just to get your attention...you know...how kids would rather be yelled at than be ignored? Men are truly just big kids.....Denny sometimes says words wrong just because he knows how much it irritates me....I know he is doing it on purpose because if I correct him...he will instantly say it wrong again.....so now I ignore it....some day he will say something stupid in public...and embarrass himself and I will feel vindicated. There is nothing like a grown man talking baby talk...UGH! I totally get what you are saying....it's frustrating, they look stupid, we look like shrews.......I've learned to ignore it because if it gets them attention then we are encouraging it...if they want to act or be stupid it's on them...LOL ( we are just with stupid.>>>>>>>.) I've learned to encourage the behaviour I like....( it's like raising a giant kid)


happy-1 on 12/20/2017:
LOL. I make 10 trips to do something and burn the eggs. I know from all the ADHD classes that it's a cognitive thing around "transitions"... That when transitioning from one task to another my brain literally has to reorganize itself so for about 20 minutes I do things inefficiently because the path that information travels on shrinks from a garden hose to a coffee stirrer. It's not only ADHD that does this... there can be a lot of different brain things that create that effect. It's not being "stupid", it's just a difference in hardware processing. You're an object-oriented system (multi-threaded, reused objects) and he's an embedded system (single thread, functional), so to speak. Different engineering, different purposes.

And I KNOW I'm not dumb even if it looks that way on the outside to a lot of people and I don't pull off all the things I know I am capable of. I test high enough to get into MENSA.

I do know that when someone in my life makes me feel dumb, I don't drop them or stop talking to them, but I do start looking for a new friend so that I feel better about myself and try to heal so I can face back up to them... Feeling dumb and "less than" is worse than an other feeling I can feel in any relationship, friendship, family tie. I need to go somewhere else / to someone else to work that out. For me, that's this forum, and my online counselor. For him that is...??????

The other thing is that every time someone has a bad interaction with you it takes 15 positive interactions to erase that bad feeling. So think about it this way... Every time you try to "improve him" you will have to do 15 things to make him feel better. So you just create more work for yourself to get things back on track.

Are burned eggs really that bad? At least someone was there and wanted to make you eggs, even if they burned them.


horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2017:
well, regarding the above, it's always better to do things yourself if you want them done to your total liking or way of thinking...otherwise, expect them not to measure up completely.


horn_of_plenty on 12/20/2017:
for the photos, i don't think he took them....otherwise, take your husband's mannerisms lightly...not to heart!

keep doing the great things, Jo!


bearcountrygg on 12/20/2017:
I have a tendency to think that we do what we think we can get away with...if it's really important...then wild horses couldn't tear us away from it...but if it's not important, we may do the minimum and let it go. And I think we also use crutches and excuses and reasons why...but bottom line is...we aren't motivated for 1 reason or another. More than anything else you mentioned...I was most alarmed that he keeps going to your work when he is upset, that is a new thing to me...I would never have dropped in at Dennys work or he mine. I really think he is looking for attention.

innerpeace on 12/21/2017:
Well he comes by every morning, if he doesn't stop by, I would see him for a whole 3 hours a day. He says seeing me in the morning is a treat. I am just getting to work and he is leaving work and my work place is on his way home. He used to bring me Diet Dr. Pepper and donuts and other stuff I shouldn't have. That tapered off, now he says, he just comes for a kiss.


bearcountrygg on 12/21/2017:
OHHHHH...Okay.....that's different and nice!!!!! ' I thought he came by to bug you!



innerpeace - Tuesday Dec 19, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Big to do at work yesterday. Christmas Party all the retirees come in and eat. So many people in such a little space makes for a warm area. Hot even. Very uncomfortable. And then a retiree who started before I was born trapped me and I couldn't get away, I had to listen and small talk. So out of my comfort zone. DH made an appearance but left quickly after eating. He is so uncomfortable around my work people.

I get home and was still full from the party food, so I ate a bit of left over cheese ball and a few meatballs for dinner. DH and I wrapped some Christmas presents, maybe will finish tonight. Sent four postcards out.

We did finish the inventory at work, so now all of my attention will go to the safety audit which is due next.

B: toast, peanut butter, iced vanilla latte

L: cheese pizza; ham

S: yogurt, blackberries

D: TBD not sure. I'm afraid to text DH and ask, he may still be sleeping.

Have a great night. IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/19/2017:
Company parties are usually uncomfortable for me too...those years are over for us...That's behind you now thankfully.


happy-1 on 12/19/2017:
I feel you. I hate parties too. And people. And hot rooms. I'd have been crawling the walls. Love Habitat for Humanity, hate church for the same reasons.


happy-1 on 12/19/2017:
I also wonder why there is never a craft table for grownups at these things? Keep your hands busy so your brain isn't racing around like a trapped cat?

innerpeace on 12/20/2017:
OMG that is the best idea ever!! I will have to look in to this.


happy-1 on 12/20/2017:
Saw on another post you have too much frozen chicken. If you have a ton of frozen chicken and any of it is boneless / skinless... try making hot wing dip! Yummy and easy in the slow cooker. Goes well with celery and hot paleo biscuits.



innerpeace - Monday Dec 18, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I have been keeping busy.

DH and I finally got our Christmas Tree up, so now we just have to wrap all the presents, I will get that started tonight.

I still haven't heard if my son is driving up or not, if he does I will have more to do. I always put that saran wrap ball together with snacks and money, its a great game and everyone loves it... but if he doesn't, I will have mail his and his wife's gifts to them.

So I called and talked to my telehealth worker today and along with the daily calls, I will get to go into the clinic on Monday and have a class from 11:00-noon, this starts January 8. Also I signed DH and I up for a biggest loser challege that is being organized in the next town over. It runs until March 31st. That cost us $35 a piece...a Christmas present. So I'm very excited to get this all started and hopefully one of the things will kick in and I can benefit with the motivation.

With all that being said, I haven't ate very good for anything.

I will start tracking again tomorrow...Now I have just got to go talk to my boss and ask him if I can leave every Monday for a few hours.

Hope you are all getting ready or are ready for the holidays.

IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/18/2017:
Saw your tree pics on facebook....very pretty!



innerpeace - Thursday Dec 14, 2017

Weight: 303.7

OH people....I would say what else can happen in my life, but I'm afraid to even wonder. So a few things that hinder my weight loss journey...I was stupid enough to order clothes from the internet. I was being liberal and ordered a 3X because I'm running around a 2X or 1X, yeah, that didn't work. Everything I ordered is too small. This must be 3X for Asian sized people because I couldn't wear any of it...so, so depressing!

And then, I left work early because I had minor stomach issues and didn't want to sit at work and run back and forth to the toilet so I went home. Once home I slept. When I woke up I realized I didn't have my phone and looked and looked. Finally I decided to call my office and see if I left it on my desk - not that I would go back and get it, I just wanted to be sure I didn't lose it. So I pick up DH's phone and it is open to messenger. I just happen to notice 'good morning princess" WTH...this irritates me, so I read on and the girl he is talking to is telling him all about her horrible marriage, her suicidal tendacies and woe is me. So I am almost furious, but I just call my office, and yes my phone is there, so I thank them and hang up.

As I am sitting there looking out the window, I just feel so crushed, sad. I guess it shows on my face because DH asks what is wrong. I tell him nothing, because I'm just not ready to deal with this. We eat dinner and he says, you look sad. Well gee thanks!!

And so it goes, we eat, sit there for about an hour and half, he is messing around with his phone and I am watching TV and doing a crossword puzzle, then the time comes and he goes to bed.

We have food that is going bad so I decide to bake some things. We had a container of croissants that was starting to mold, so I crumbled them up and made a bacon and egg quiche for lunch and then I made a lemon, blueberry cheesecake bread pudding thing. Of course it all turned out delicious and I didn't throw the croissants out.

While I was waiting on the oven to finish, I picked up DH's phone again and this particular conversation with this person was gone. It was just not on his phone anymore, so he knew. and/or was trying to cover something up.

Anyway, he goes to work and because I took a nap I stayed up and watched the movie Shooter and didn't go to bed until 2:00 a.m. I was contemplating life.

So this morning, I sent DH an email:

‚ÄčI thought long and hard before sending this email...

Why do you suppose I looked sad, what do you think would have made me sad all of a sudden? I could have said something then, but I just wasn't in a position to deal with all the bullsh1t, I would have heard.

First thing is, I don't want you to feel I was checking up on you or spying. I just went to use your phone to call my office, my work, and your messenger was open.

Second thing is, I don't care who you talk to using messenger. What bothers me is you feel you need to call someone princess.

Thirdly, it IS NOT your job to make anyone else feel better, so why you choose to use this terminology just blows my mind, especially with all the sexual inappropriateness going on in the world, oh yeah, and for the small fact that you are married!

Fourthly, if you feel you need to be with your princess, then hit the road. If your princess provides you the emotional support that you need, than I encourage you to go and be with her.

Lastly, I'm not going to play games, if you want to go...go, don't hang around just because you feel I need you, because buddy, I have and can take care of myself, I have done it before and will have no problem doing it again, and

I will not put up with it, I am too old to be going through this sh*t again, and this time, I will f*ck someone up!

End it with your princess or get the f*ck out of my life! And if this term of endearment ever escapes your mouth when you talk to me ever and I mean ever... I will f*cking punch in the face.

That is all!
 
DH shows up at my work and swears he has done nothing wrong. Oh OK, so you go around and call everyone Princess? WTFE!!
 
I hate men they all suck!
 
This...this is my life, maybe I over react, but I refuse to go through the sneaking around and lying crap again, that is what my first marriage was all about and I'm just too old for this BS.
And you lucky people get to read all about it, because journaling is good for the soul!
And I'm sick of Christmas music all ready and it as been on for 30 minutes.
 
Have a great night and I will talk more about dieting tomorrow or whenever I can function properly again.
 

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 12/14/2017:
Hugs. That would crush me too. Good on you for being willing to go it alone instead of trying to "win him back"... which def isn't winning. You do so much for him and his kids. You've always been very strong. Big hugs.


bearcountrygg on 12/14/2017:
Men are such IDIOTS!!!!! I just so want to give you a hug right now!!!! He needs to stay out of her horrible marriage, her suicidal tendencies and her life in general...She is trying to get her hooks into him to rescue her and he wants to save the Princess....UGHHHHH...I want to strangle him myself! This so reminds me of a friends husband who after 23 years, and 3 kids...got involved with a coworker because they had something in common ( both of their mothers died of cancer)....well whop de do!! His answer was that he wanted both of them, they divorced. He married the other woman who kept trying to send him back to his first wife... Well...I'm on your side....sounds like you scared him...hope he's home shaking in his boots right now. Hope you can still have a good day. Write all you want here...you need to unload.


biscottibody59 on 12/15/2017:
A hug from me to you:-)

Ugh--"princess" is a bit too far I think. I don't know if you can believe anything that may come out of his mouth. If he and you decide to stay together, please get some counseling.

You've invested and given so much of yourself (the girl for one) and it would be nice to have a REAL commitment from him to proceed. Otherwise you're right-on that you can go it alone!

Take good care of yourself! Hope you get some time to soothe yourself!

ps The good thing is you have your job/income to walk away with. Do you get VA disability by chance? I meant to ask you when you had that episode at the store, but I've been so bad about commenting (much less posting).

I have a relative and a friend--both female--who have some form of their VA disability because of the effects of exposure to oil fires, incinerating contaminated waste/clothing, etc with no protective gear during the first Gulf War.

innerpeace on 12/18/2017:
Thanks. No, don't get disability. You need a freakin' PHD to apply and get approved anymore. I just had a physical when I left active duty and they deemed my injuries and claims as 0%, so I get VA care, but no disability, they said I could work.

I DH and I had a deep conversation and I did believe him when he said, he was just being nice. He is too nice for his own good. I had to tell him how lonely, mistreated women pray on nice guys like him.

I told him it's not his duty to make any other woman feel ok with her situation, that if he was calling anyone besides his wife, daughter or sister princess this was a big problem for me. He understood where I was coming from. So I'm going to give him the benefit of the doubt. And trust me when I say, I know for a fact he isn't cheating on me. I was just worried about the emotional stuff, but honestly I think he gets it.


Donkey on 12/16/2017:
I'm so sorry :-( I hope you and your husband can work through this. To repeat what Biscotti said, Be sure to take care of yourself in this time of pain. (((hugs)))

innerpeace on 12/18/2017:
Thank you. I appreciate your comment.



innerpeace - Tuesday Dec 12, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Struggling here! I even lied putting my weight into the telehealth call. I asked for my case manager to call me, I will see about going in once a week to a meeting. I just suck!

Saturday we were at Sam's and there was a rather large woman there who was having trouble walking. I asked my DH if I waddled, he told me NO. Then I said, I cannot let myself go like that, I will fail and start over 100 or more times, but I will never give up on myself...I said as I was eating pizza.

We got home and I finished making the Char Sui pork that turned out fabulously, rice and cauliflower. It was pretty good. I did not log calories.

We had the girl's birthday and she was happy. One of her gifts was tickets to see Disney on Ice. We drove to Youngstown on Sunday, I hope she enjoyed it, but I someone came away with the impression, she may be too old for this now. We stopped at a Magic Tree restaurant and I had chicken fingers cooked in waffle batter and mashed sweet potatoes. This was pretty good, we also shared a big pretzel and DH even bought one to take home and cook later. Maybe he will forget about it.

When we got home it was almost 5:00, so we ate the roast that was in the crock pot and got the girl ready to go home, she left right at 6:00. DH went to bed and I sat...well and kinda did the laundry.

I waste so much time doing nothing.

Again, tomorrow is another day and I will be back....

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/12/2017:
Hang in there....when the time is right it will all click....When we are ready to do it we will....I get the fear of waddling and falling...and YOU DO NOT SUCK!!!! My legs are swollen ( lymphedema, my Mother had it too)...and sometimes I watch the program called my 600 pound life just to remind me what will happen if I don't get it under control...and they all have lymphedema.....and open wounds etc....I watch it to scare myself...I once reported something less than my Weight watcher diary...but realized that I was only cheating myself and stopped that. You will do better.


horn_of_plenty on 12/12/2017:
maybe the telehealth thing is not worth it to you....maybe there's a better option??

you don't suck, that's right, you def don't!

crock pot food is so tasty!


happy-1 on 12/13/2017:
Ha! I lied putting my weight in the last challenge. I feel like this blog is great for a nother Bad Moms movie



innerpeace - Friday Dec 08, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Issues at work...seriously though some people just suck! I can't even call an invite retirees to the Christmas luncheon correctly...because some people nit pick so freakin' much.

How can property be so misplaced in a year? oMG searching for some things that can't be found. Thank you for putting up my shelf, but I still need the things I asked you to find!!! Just because you put that shelf up, doesn't mean I quit looking for the missing property. Dummy! Nice try though!

DH and I wrapped the girl's birthday presents last night, he picked up her cookies this morning and got the baloons filled, so now, I will decorate tonight after she goes to bed. We will do her birthday in the morning and go grocery shopping. I will do laundry on tomorrow instead of Sunday because we are going to Youngstown for the Disney on Ice. I hope it doesn't snow too much...oh wait, that didn't happen.

I was able to get the Taylor Swift tickets also. Probably paid too much, but it's for Christmas, and I will have them paid off before the actual concert, so I am ok with this.

Wednesday: Hotdogs and chili

Thursday: salmon and green beans

Friday: I don't know what we will eat tonight - maybe DH will figure something out after he gets the girl.

Enjoy the weekend! IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2017:
We may also get some snow. Not much, like 1-3 inches they are predicting!

My friend Ricky and I are also heading out to do something nice tomorrow with another girlfriend of mine, her name is Beth.

We are seeing the Nutcracker in Brooklyn (NYC). It should be great as i've never seen the entire Ballet. It's being performed by the Moscow Ballet. I am super excited bc it's in a theater called the Kings Theatre which has been redesigned recently (or rather the word is refurbished) and it looks beautiful, like a KING's Theater, like royalty. I will take photos!

I wish the girlie a VERY happy birthday!!! and I hope you really enjoy Disney on Ice! I always don't think to go - i feel too many kids will be in the audience and it's too kiddie? But prob good for you all?

I'm just thinking how i love shows...never i dont think have i watched an ice show...i bet it is wonderful, i do love the olympics, that is!


bearcountrygg on 12/10/2017:
Hope you are enjoying your weekend!


Donkey on 12/10/2017:
When work sucks, weekends become extra special.



innerpeace - Wednesday Dec 06, 2017

Weight: 303.7

I left work early Friday and went home and took a nap. DH and I spent a lot of time shopping and looking over the weekend. We may be almost finished with shopping. But it never fails. I think I'm finished but I'll go to another store and find something different that I think someone else needs. We spend way too much at Christmastime.

I ordered stuff from Amazon and thinking it was on its way for the girl's birthday this weekend, but come to find out my order was canceled because my selection was out of stock...ok well why did it let me order it, and why cancel it? why not just ship it when you have it back in stock. Anyway, spent most of the evening last night looking for something similar that was canceled from Amazon. Yeah...not too impressed with Amazon this year. And then I get an email from Amazon telling me another order is being delayed and it arrives the very next day???

Weight is holding steady, haven't lost, but haven't gained...yet, because I have been eating way too many sweet things.

Sent a box of stuff to my mother for Christmas, and she tell me our family friend died. He was about five years older than I was, went to California to visit his family and died. I am concerned for my mother because he lived with her and helped her out around the house. He will be missed.

Monday night DH and I made a brussel sprout, mushroom fetticcini which was pretty good.

Tuesday night we had turkey burgers and orange cauliflower - it was tempura battered cauliflower and was delicious.

Tonight if DH gets it together we should have a turkey chili. The girl isn't a fan of turkey so we can't mention what kind of meat it is.

Tomorrow we are having a breakfast at work to kick off the CFC campaign that was postponed due to the hurricanes.

Still working on the safety audit and inventory, it is all done in slow little batches..

We got the girl Disney on Ice tickets for her birthday and will be driving to Youngstown on Sunday and then I think I may have a chance to get the Taylor Switf tickets for Christmas, if the presale I entered goes through.

Have a great evening and despite being crazy and frazzled, today is a good day. IP

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 12/06/2017:
Condolences to your family on the loss of your friend....especially sad for your Mom. I've seen the orange cauliflower , does it taste different than the white one? We used to go through the Christmas shopping frenzy but over the years since we are all spread out now...we send checks....not as festive but it sure is a lot easier....hope you can find the things you still need.


horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2017:
Try to wean off the sweets slowly. It takes a few days to do that because the body gets used to the intake.

However, lately and recently and even thru the last year, i allow myself some sweets, especially like after a meal or snacking small with a snack. Moderation seems easier than putting a complete stop to eating them.

Disney on ice sounds awesome, Taylor Swift even more awesome. For myself, i'm looking to do more volunteer / free things this year. Whether it be street fairs or lower priced things - this year for me is about saving / taking classes in both things i like and things i actually don't (taking an estimating course my father recommended, but also taking some work days off around the time of some of the classes to lighten my load on those days!)



innerpeace - Thursday Nov 30, 2017

Weight: 303.7

Got home and DH had rotisserie chicken smelling up the house, it was so good and we had green beans. Afterwards DH and I go to get a few more items I needed for the work Christmas tree, me and my big ideas.But with moaning and groaning from a few helpers we finally did get it up.

It's funny how I can ask people for help and suggestions and I get NONE. But when my tree is up I get all kinds of suggestions and would've, could've, should'ves to make it look better. Whatever...people suck! I think it's beautiful.

When we were leaving the store, DH started shaking and we had to buy him some candy to get home. Low sugar...we had just ate dinner, but I guess there wasn't enough of what he needed. This is always scary to me.

I had some candy too, pepermint bark,, I told DH this is the last time, we are getting back on the wagon tomorrow. I didn't realize how much work menu planning was until I didn't do it this last week. But I already have it to go for tomorrow.

I am leaving early tomorrow and taking Monday off, just because I have some time to use and maybe I will finish all my Christmas shopping.

Tonight we have decided to eat at Chipoltle before hopping back on the wagon. I am looking forward to this, as it has been forever, since we've eaten there.

Hoping you all have a great night! IP

 

Progress as of today: 17.9 lbs lost so far, only 93.7 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/04/2017:
Hi there, InnerP!

Great job with the tree, it has a nice red color throughout. Nice hue. It would have been good if you got help...if they make suggestions, you can tell them feel free to change anything ;) lol.... i am sure they will NOT.

I hope you get a lot of your Christmas shopping done with weekend! Mine was productive, too! Lately, i'm starting to throw away old clothes out of closets, making more room and making it easier to actually see what i have ! I plan to throw out a lot of old clothes between now and the New Year, actually! It's clothes that haven't been worn, that just clog up my closets. And also when i do this, I find out what I actually have - like I want to wear more sweaters & now i am finding them!

Back to you....Chipotle sounds good! Have a happy Monday, IP!


happy-1 on 12/06/2017:
Sounds like he's getting too many simple sugars and carbs... no slow burn release like sweet potatoes and steel cut oats.



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