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innerpeace - Tuesday Feb 10, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 308.2

Weighed in a WW, was pleasantly surprised. We did have a busy weekend. Up at dawn to go to the 7:30 WW meeting. Those folks there sure inspire me to go back, to see how their week went, especially one guy who has lost 87 pounds. Boy oh boy, that is incredible.

DH and little girl went to Home Depot to a build a heart box class for kids, DH told me she really seemed to like building the box, which is good.

Afterwards we all went to the local park and rented snow shoes, a first for all of us. It was very fun, we had a blast. The weather was about 40 degrees so it wasn't too cold. Little girl kept having a hard time keeping one of her snow shoes on, so DH ended up carrying her's back. We stayed out about 1 1/2 hours. We then headed out for our tour of the YMCA, still haven't decided if we want to join. We don't have a fitness center close that has a pool and the Y is over 10 miles away, would we go often or not or would the distance be another excuse.

We then went to Applebee's to celebrate DH's birthday. I opted for the cedar plank grill chicken and something. The something had a funny taste but was supposedly healthy, so I ate it. DH got his free strawberry shortcake shooter and we went back home. Both DH and little girl were passed out before 8:00 pm, love to be active enough to wipe those two out!

Sunday was the normal, yall go shopping and me and Steve will stay and do laundry. Little girl opted to not go to the birthday party so she stayed until 6:00. DH made scrambled eggs and sausage for breakfast and then brought me a slice of pizza from Sam's club for lunch. It was really the size of two slices so I was not hungry for dinner. DH made the little girl a chicken fried steak sandwich with cheese and she ate before she went home.

I had to watch the Walking Dead, I just love that show.

Monday - was crazy at work with the movers and stuf it was hard to take a break to write.

B: frozen fruit, 1/2 banana, vanilla yogurt, chia seed smoothie

L: turkey breast, salad lettuce wrap

D: grilled chicken (General Tso's sauce) and some fried rice (rice-a-roni) brand. It was pretty good, but the rice tasted very salty. We were out of regular rice to use so we improvised with the rice-a-roni.

S: pretzels & hummus

DH was up and down all night with a stomach bug, he did not go to work today. I hope he isn't contagious.

Tuesday is crazy at work, the movers are finished building the cubicles and we be ready to move everyone tomorrow. The painter is also coming tomorrow to paint my new windowless office and I will be moved out of my great office by Friday. Also today was the last candidate for the job position. I am so glad this process is over. Then the boss asks when we will have our decision...uh, hopefully by Friday. I hate making a recommendation of who will get a job offer and who will not. All were very good in different ways.

B: toasted English muffin and iced coffee

L: 1/2 sandwich; yogurt covered raisens

D: supposed to be spaghetti, depends on how DH feels.

Progress as of today: 4.7 lbs lost so far, only 13.2 lbs to go!

puddles on 02/10/2015:
Congrats on weight loss. Interesting weekend and full of activities. Have a great evening.

thinkpositive on 02/10/2015:
Snow shoeing looks like fun!

thinnside40 on 02/10/2015:
WhoopWhoop! Good job........

museumgirl on 02/11/2015:
Congrats on the loss! the snow shoeing looks like fun, I've never tried it. We used to cross country ski, but haven't even done that in years....

Umpqua on 02/11/2015:
Yay for a loss!! I snow shoed with my Dad a few years back and it was so much fun. Good exercise too and that's great that you and your husband plan such fun weekend activities for the little one!

innerpeace - Friday Feb 06, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 309.8

So the last two days have been very busy. Still trying to move offices. The workers are still building the cubicles for the people upstairs to move into. The desk was put in my new office and it is huge, too big, but I will make it work. Yesterday I spent most of the day listening to the electrictian curse every ten minutes. After he loudly said...ouch that hurt. I asked if he electrocuted himself. He says NO! If you get electrocuted you die, you can only get electrocuted once!! I asked, did you get zapped then, he said no, I dropped the screwdriver on my head. Oh ok!! I didn't ask about the other tweleve times he said ouch! Must not be very good at what he's doing, I'm just glad I'm not going to sit in the cubicles.

Tuesday night DH opted for Jimmy John's sandwiches.

Wednesday morning I did try a smoothie for breakfast: greek yogurt, frozen blue berries, banana and some kale. It was very tasty. Next time I will use some milk because it was a bit thick, but it did taste very good.

L: Peanut butter sandwich, nectarine

D: DH made this chicken, parmesan, brocolli, alfredo thing

S: hummus and pretzels. I realy like the roasted pine nut hummus it is very good.

Thursday was another busy day at work with the moving.

B: english muffin, iced coffee

L: peanute butter sandwich, nectarine

D: left over chicken wrap with salad

No snack in the PM, I was getting hungry but drank a Diet Dr. Pepper instead. It helped a lot.


DH stayed home from work because tomorrow is his 50th birthday. I think he is emotional about turning 50. He keeps making comments that he feels old. He is getting her truck tags, renewing his Driver Licence and getting a haircut.

This is a little girl weekend, he is going to pick her up and then take Steve in to get his last two shots. We are suppsoed to go to a Slavak Club fish fry tonight for DH's birthday, this is what he wanted...for some reason.

Tomorrow I am going to the WW meeting and DH is taking the little girl to Home Depot for a class to build a heart box for Valentine's Day. I'm sure in the afternoon they will go shopping, unless I find us an activity to do. They did have snow shoeing at the metropark...might be an experience.

So DH gets a text from his exwife asking if the little girl can come back home early on Sunday for her cousins 6th birthday party. Really? We dropped her off early the last Sunday to sit at the funeral home with you for five hours and now this? She wants to take take take and never give.

DH replied that, it's his birthday weekend and we were busy with plans...which isn't true. He just said that because the ex wouldn't let the little girl come to the Jurrasic Quest with us last weekend. I told him, this should involve the little girl, if she wants to go to the party, she should go, it's not about him and the time he has with her. Anyway, we will see how this one plays out.

Busy day today with the 2nd candidate coming, the 3rd one comes next Tuesday, can't wait until this hiring process is over!! I hope you all have a great weekend.

One last thing: I did take my measurements and might be brave enough to post them here soon, they are awful, I am huge!



Progress as of today: 3.1 lbs lost so far, only 14.8 lbs to go!

museumgirl on 02/06/2015:
Oh boy, you've been busy and dealing with a lot. Sorry you have all that drama with the ex, but its nice you are there for the little girl. You're doing great, don't worry about the measurements...as they go down, you'll be so happy you took them along the way. Have a great day.

museumgirl on 02/06/2015:
Oh, and that electrician story made me laugh. Sometimes you wonder WHAT they are doing...

liza36 on 02/06/2015:
Taking measurements is a great indication of success especially when the scale isn't moving. I should do that too, since the scale is stuck right now. Enjoy your husband's b-day weekend.

Umpqua on 02/06/2015:
I always add a bunch of ice and almond milk (or any kind of milk) to my smoothies to thin them out. I hope you have a fun birthday weekend with your hubby and his little one!

biscottibody59 on 02/06/2015:
I have to say I admire you for the effort you make for this girl--knowing me I'd drop it all in my husband's lap and go on my merry way with my own agenda. Just so you know--we all wouldn't just step up like you have:-)

Just don't let your goals for improving yourself take a backseat for too long or for too much time!

Happy BD to hubby--50 can be a great wake-up call for many positive changes--pass it on!

thinnside40 on 02/06/2015:
I've contemplated measuring myself.. Still undecided... Best wishes for a good weekend!

thinnside40 on 02/09/2015:
Just checking in to say "hello" and make sure your o.k.... Hope so!

innerpeace - Tuesday Feb 03, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 309.8

Because I didn't eat lunch I got home starving. I opted for pretzels and hummus. Dinner was the left over chicken, cheese, dorito casserole thing, DH made. It was ok, very greesy and I didn't like the raw onions. For a snack or dessert I finished off the chex mix. This wasn't regular chex mix, it was the delicious muddy buddy chex mix. The same I had earlier in the day.

Sad to say, again we just sat in the house. We do this for four to five hours a night. We leave Steve in the kennel for the whole day we are at work, so I hate to leave the house so he won't have to go in the kennel. That is the real reason I don't go shopping on the weekend. I don't want my dog in the kennel. Why have a dog, if he has to stay in the kennel all the time? He was my Christmas present last year and I didn't know I would get so attached to him. But I don't like him in the kennel. We used to leave him in the house, but everything from the carpet to furniture got chewed on, so after tons of research and reading, I agreed to put him in the kennel. He hates it! He goes in, but I know he hates it. I have told my DH this many times. He just says...he's a dog!! Yes, but he's my dog!!

I started to complete an on-line membership application to the Y, but didn't finish it. I was waiting to get a referral card completed to get a discount off the rate. Would you believe someone from the Y called and said...hey noticed you started to fill out an application on line, why did you stop? Do you have questions? WOW...really? I guess nothing is actually prviate anymore.

B: toasted English muffin, iced coffee

L: turkey wrape with kale salad with poppyseed dressing, banana & necterine

D: DH said something about going out, don't know where or what he wants.

Work sucks today! Sometimes, I really hate people. But my girlfriend from Oklahoma sent me this picture...Thanks, thanks a lot really needed this today. 

I'm sure this says KEEP GOING!! Have a great day!

Progress as of today: 3.1 lbs lost so far, only 14.8 lbs to go!

museumgirl on 02/03/2015:
Love the picture, thanks for sharing. Hope things get better. I know what you mean about the animals...mine run my life!!

thinnside40 on 02/03/2015:
Nice picture.... :)

innerpeace - Monday Feb 02, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 309.8

Got up Saturday morning and weighed in at WW. Not as bad as I thought, but it's not good. Took Steve to the vet, he hated it. They had to put a muzzle on my ten pound dog!! He was snapping at everyone, poor baby. He moped around the rest of the day.

DH and I started out about 6:00 for our date night. Somewhere along the way, I became very crabby and made us both miserable. I have no reason. I don't know why I do half the things I do. We arrive at the diner we usually eat and I'm like, why are all these people here? We had to wait on a table, not going to happen, so I walked out. I just get overwhelmed. I feel like there are so many people cramped up in this tiny little area. Why do I have to wait through three lights to turn to get home. Where are all these people going. OMG! DH has lived in this town all his life. I ask where is the theater to watch the play. He says I don't know, ask Siri. Really? You've lived here your whole entire life and you don't know where this place is? This annoys me! I say, 'just for aguments sake, when we get there, do not tell me, Oh, I didn't know this is where this place was', because he does that all the time!!

We find the theater and he says, wow, I didn't know this was a theater (it was an old renovated church) then he says, hey keep going and right down here is hwy 58 and we can eat at this other restaurant. Steam was coming out of my ears!! Everytime!!  I opted for pasta. The play was nicely done, very comical! I enjoyed it.

Sunday, it snowed all day. DH snow blowed the drive way twice and then had to get up and do it again this morning so I could get out of the driveway. He drove the 4X4 to work at 6:30, me my start time was delayed 4 hours, but the roads downtown were awful! I did get up this morning and do Walk Away the Pounds, I shovled snow off the patio so Steve could get out, the snow is up to his chest, he hops around in it like a rabbit.


B: bagel thin with 2 Tbsps of cream cheese

L: chili dog

S: hummus and pretzels

D: chicken, corn, cheese dorito thing, casserole

Desk was put in my new office, it is so little. DH suggested I purchase a poster of a window and hang it in there. My boss did say I could get it painted, I will pick some cheery, happy color. I might have just enough room to move around whenever the file cabinets are moved in too.

B: skipped breakfast - had chex mix

L: Diet Dr. Pepper

D: will be left over chicken casserole and salad.

No plans for tonight, except shovel the new fallen snow, with 3 more inches predicted tonight. My front and back yards today.

Progress as of today: 3.1 lbs lost so far, only 14.8 lbs to go!

Jezebel on 02/02/2015:
Wow, beautiful pics. But I can't imagine getting out into that for work on a regular basis. Please be safe.

Sorry, I chuckled over the "man tale". Couldn't help it. I've done similar things... no idea why either. Years later, I still shudder in embarrassment and disbelief over 4 such "date nights" when I turned into a freak I still don't recognize.

Take it easy.

thinnside40 on 02/02/2015:
Wow...That's some snow. We've not had near enough for our upcoming irrigation season. Very odd year. Have a good evening! Keep safe.

innerpeace - Friday Jan 30, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

So much drama at my house. I left work to get home. DH was putting dinner together. We had baked fish and salad, which was pretty good. DH then says he would like no bake cookies, so I threw a batch together. Why? We have no will power, no intestinal fortitude, no restraint whatsoever! We just freakin' love food, we love the taste of food, it is our drug of choice! And It goes without saying...they were delicious...6 points a piece delicious.

DH told me DSD told him her mother and step-dad was talking about us again saying the only reason DH was with me was for my money. What the hell? I wonder where I get all the money they believe I have. I get up and go to work like everyone else. DSD also said that her mother and step-dad said we just try to buy her. Again, we just do stuff, we plan things every weekend, we aren't just sitting in the house watching TV doing nothing. Really, how much does it cost to go to the library to play bingo...Nothing. How much does it cost to go to the library to do yoga....nothing!!  This all comes from my DH asking if we could have the DSD one afternoon this weekend to go to the Jurassic Quest. The thing is only scheduled for one weekend, just happens to be the weekend we don't have the DSD. I just thought it would be a fun and educational experience. It's not about buying anyone. This in turn, pisses my DH off and thus starts the texting war. I despise this. I hate it! Just let it go already.

I just don't understand how the mother could be so hateful and not care about her D's wellbeing. I mean I made her a dental appointment, her first. The girl is 10 years old, she should have been to the dentist way before this. Why does this make me a bad person? I just want the best for her, like keeping lice out of her hair, giving her a chance to experience fun educational stuff and taking her to the dentist. I don't necessarily think this means I'm trying to buy anything! Oh for pete's sake!! The more I think about it the more it pisses me off.

We are researching gym membership. We have nothing very close to our home. The closest one is 6 miles which is Planet Fitness, not what I was looking for. The next is heath centers and YMCA, price ranging from $38-95 per month. OUCH! I am going to ask tomorrow at the WW meeting if there are any Y members there to see if I can get a referral for 20% off, anything will help.

B: bagel thin; iced coffee

S: yogurt raisons

L; fish wrap with salad; 2 no bake cookies

D: I have no idea

After the WW meeting, Steve has a vet appointment tomorrow, the last appointment he had made him mad for two days. I hope he doesn't get mad this time. We also have tickets to see a play Love, Sex and the IRS. Sounds pretty funny.

Tomorrow is the fresh start at WW, so I will be sure to post my weight gain.

Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/01/2015:
you are a good step mom to do all these wonderful things for your step daughter!

i hope you have a wonderful day...don't let the fam get to you too much...people talk always, that's even what families do...too much...even mine.

innerpeace - Thursday Jan 29, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

I am going to post this here!! I WILL NEVER EAT BURKER KING AGAIN!! Coupon or NO Coupon! Because we had the volunteer time at the Friends of the Lorain County Metroparks garage sale DH recommends we eat BK again because he has a coupon. OMG I belched that burger all night long. I was miserable. I refuse to eat there anymore. While there I did take Steve for a walk on the trail, I thought they would have plowed the snow off, but no, we trekked through the snow. My little dog was so cold after the end of our walk. I did manage to get over 5K steps today.

There was so much crap donated for the garage sale: mostly holiday decorations, books, toys (board games - I guess no one plays anymore), household goods, sporting goods, knick knacks of all kinds. There was just so much stuff I was overwhelmed just looking at it all. I feel sorry for whoever volunteered to sort it out and set it up. I do hope they make lots of money though.

D: BK - yuck

B: bagel thin; iced coffee

S: protein bar - cookie dough flavor...NASTY!

L; turkey, SW salad wrap, clementimes

D: baked tilapia, brocalli

My goal for February is to drink more water. I do not drink it at all. I also found a reimbursement form from my stupid insurance, that they will reimburse Weight Watcher costs, up to $150 per year. Great, another incentive to actually go to the meetings. Depending on what DSD has on today, we may check out the zumba class (oh geeze and depending on the weather) it is snowing now, with freezing rain potential.

Moveres showed up at work to move all the empty book stacks for the reno project, soon I will be working out of a closet. Good bye windows!!

Have a great day! IP


Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

liza36 on 01/29/2015:
I have to throw those coupons in the trash right away so as not to be tempted. Great going on the 5K steps!

thinnside40 on 01/29/2015:
Hope you get to Zumba. May help work some frustrations out. :)

innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 28, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

So DSD enjoyed her evening at the library and brought home a book to read. I wished she liked to read more. I had made turkey and cheese quesidillas and tomato soup for dinner. So after eating we left for our Taste of Yoga class. This is the third or fourth class I have taken in the last six months. Today I feel like it is OK. I still feel uncomfortable because I am so big I can't grab the body part I am supposed to grab. I probably look hideous doing it, but I tried my hardest. DSD and DH seemed to like it. Today my neck hurts. Either I slept wrong last night or pulled something stretching.

Coworker gave me her password to her gaiam account and said I should try the AM/PM yoga and see if I like it any better. Maybe I will check it out if I can get the computer/tv hookup to jive.

Tonight we volunteer at the Friends of the Lorain County Metroparks taking in garage sale items for this weekend. Though I didn't want to work the actual garage sale I did want to help in some way, so this is it. Maybe we will have some donations, if not it is just two hours in a warm building, how bad could it be? I'm taking Steve, so I can get him a walk in at the trail. He is getting cabin fever with snow on the ground, his time outdoors is limited, poor baby!

Tomorrow I have thoughts about trying a Zumba class at a local church, maybe...

They have a Jurassic Quest in Akron this weekend, I asked DH to ask the DSD mother if we could have her for one afternoon to take her, I thought she would have a great time...alas no, they have plans. I made a comment, what are they going to do this weekend go sit at the morgue for six hours. I guess DH didn't think it was funny, but oh well.

B: bagel thin, iced coffee (this is maxwell house french vanilla, I use 1% milk) it is 5 points.

S: protein bar - I am out of protein bars

L. turkey cheese thin sandwhich, salad, pretzel balls

S: clementime

D: TBD I think since we are going to the reservation to accept donations for the garage sale we will pick something up on the way home.

Funny store at work, someone gave me a box to mail UPS. I haven't had to mail anything UPS so I didn't know the procedure and as I was going back to my desk I saw the mailroom guy walking through the library rotunda...so the following ensues:

I said, sir? He didn't hear me and kept walking. I yelled sir, again as he was going through the double doors. I yelled sir, again as he was crossing the catwalk into the law building. I yelled sir again as he started down the stairs. Only when I went down the stairs and waved my hands in the air did he finally look up. He didn't hear me calling because he had ear buds in!!! Great so thanks for making me look like a psycho...I asked him about the UPS, he said all I had to do was give the box to him and he would UPS it for me. So he took it...YAY!

And then when I turned around to come back into the law library I ran smack into the UPS man!! What? Who does this happen to? Good thing all UPS men are handsome, and I'm soft so it's all good.

Have a great day!! IP



Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

nenak on 01/28/2015:
Enjoy your day x

thinnside40 on 01/28/2015:
Sounds like my kids... Those earbuds knock out too much of the outside world! grrrrrr

museumgirl on 01/29/2015:
UPS story cracked me up. have a good day

liza36 on 01/29/2015:
Love your UPS story!

innerpeace - Tuesday Jan 27, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

Why does this process have to be so hard? If someone ever wanted to know how to gain weight I could surely tell them. Friday night we went to the family diner by our house to eat dinner. I had a chicken ranch wrap and only a few fries. My DH ate most of my fries. I was supposed to get up Saturday morning and go to the Weight Watchers meeting but I just could not get up and go. There are three maybe four meetings Saturday morning, I just could not face that I had once again gained weight. I just get so disappointed with myself. I made a crustless quiche for breakfast. We also had a banana and grapes, it just goes down hill from there. DH got home around noon and brought us Burger King (because he had a coupon) and then he and the little girl went to do all the shopping. Funny how he can spend over $120 and come back with hardly any food. He did have laundry soap and fabric softener though.

We had a Frozen Festival to attend which was nice for the DSD but it took every ounce of me to get through it with a smile on my face. I really don't like kids and to have 300 running around acting crazy over cartoon charactors was hard on every last nerve. Afterwards neither DH or I felt like cooking it was well after 8:00 pm, so we settled on pizza. Not the healthiest choice in the world. Matter of fact sometime in the night I took off my wedding set because my hands had swelled so badly.


Sunday was the laundry and domestic duty day, most of the house got cleaned and the laundry done but I didn't make it upstairs to clean the extra bathroom. After we dropped the DSD off at the funeral home we stopped by the goodwill and I looked around. Either I went on a good day, where stuff wasn't picked through or someone my size recently lost weight or died. Yes I think about these things. I found lots of tops and pants that were just my size, most of the tops had the tags still on them. I know I picked up at least four tops and two pair of pants that were Croft & Barrow, well over $100 worth of clothes. I found a pair of boots and dress shoes (just my size) that looked brand new. I also found a new bathing suit for me and one for the DSD for our trip to the indoor swim park in early March, and a pair of pajama bottoms for DH all for the low, low price of $28.00. I felt lucky, other times I go in there and can't find anything.

DH baked a turkey, we had dressing and green beans for late lunch dinner.

Monday I had all intentions of journaling but got caught up in work stuff and before I knew it was time to go home. I could have journaled at home, but somewhere between work and home i got to thinking of things again and ended up in a bad place. I always hear how people love their jobs and never feel like they have to work. I wish that was me. I go to work to pay my bills. I do not like my job. I do the best I can and do my work properly but I am not truly happy doing it.

So how do people have these life changing moments to find out what they want to do with their lives? Where does passion for something come from? I seemed to have skipped this phase in my life or something. I ask myself all the time what exactly do I want to do to be happy and I still cannot answer this question. I'm just not exactly sure what it is. I remember at my last boss's retirement party the emcee was reading his bio and stated that he found his passion for electronics at a young age. I wondered what happend at that young age to make him feel passionate about electronics? Of course I never did ask, all I know is I have just never had that aha moment. Maybe one day it will come around.

B: bagel thin, iced coffee

S: protein bar

L:  turkey/swiss sandwich., grapes

S: garlic parmasean pretzel rounds

D: turkey, dressing casserole

Tuesday at work I had to sit in a day long interview session for a candidate that I will never have to work with, I hope I get the vibe from my coworkers that actually do, so I can select the correct one. One down, two to go.

B : bagel thin, iced coffee

S: Protein bar

L: left over turkey dressing casserole, clementimes

S: grapes

Dinner will probably be a quick sandwich and soup.

DH is picking DSD up and taking her to the library for a Tween Central period. They play bingo and read or something. Once they get home we turn around and go to our Taste of Yoga class tonight. I hope it turns out better than the last yoga class.

Anyway, I'm on my trek to find my AHA moment. I hope you all know your passion. Have a great night. IP

Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/27/2015:
I was talking to a friend about stress and she says that sometimes when she is so stressed, she can hardly pull her jeans off her body at night! yeah, she said it's just from the stress. so, maybe with your hands / wedding rings, it can be the same. Considering it was a stressful day.

thinnside40 on 01/27/2015:
Sorry to hear of your struggles. I know when realizing I was worth every bit of putting effort into making myself healthier made me happier. I lost that for too long after so much family/friend loss and the life of grief took over. Have some of that self-worth feeling back.... YOU ARE WORTH taking care of yourself. We all are!

museumgirl on 01/27/2015:
it is hard, that`s why we are all here. good score on the clothes. as for finding your passion, it is tough... I work a job I absolutely love now, but took me years to find it, and I still dream of other things I`d like to do. not sure what the answer is. hang in there!

innerpeace - Friday Jan 23, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

Dinner was pork roast with honey mustard seasoning, it was really good. I also made a califlower casserole with turkey bacon and no fat mayo and sour cream. The cheese was whole cheese but I didn't use as much as the recipe called for, that also turned out very good.  DH took Steve for a walk.

I watched the biggest loser, shed some tears with the contestants and wish them all well. Then I watched Project Runway, I love that show, I wish I could learn to sew like that.

So my dog is crazy and barks at dogs and cats that are on the TV, he runs through the downstairs looking for them and then jumps on the back of the sofa and looks out the window for them. He barks at every Swiffer commericial thinking someone is at the door when the doorbell rings, he runs through the house like a maniac, sometimes he just doesn't stop, so I open the patio door for him and he runs out and barks at what he needs to bark at. I usually leave the patio door open in the milder months, however since it is winter it only stays open a few minutes.  This is usually nightly unless it gets frigid cold. My dog has been sprayed by a skunk twice and he should know better, but he's a dog.

After Project Runway I head upstairs and get ready for bed, my DH is in the garage and he comes in and comes upstairs, we go to bed. I was hot all night, I think DH turned on the fan about 2:30 am. So when I get up to let the dog out at 5:30...the patio door is still open from last night!! What the What? So I guess the heater ran all night long trying to heat up the downstairs all this time I am burning up upstairs, crazy stuff I tell you.

DH already received a text from the evil ex asking if he could bring DSD to the funeral home early Sunday afternoon. I knew this would happen, but as long DSD can enjoy Saturday without drama, this will be good for her.

B: bagel thin

S: protein bar

L: turkey/swiss wrap

S: yogurt raisons

I think we are going out to eat, not very sure what's for dinner.

Very concerned I will have a gain this week. I will keep trying. I hate stressing over the whole weigh in thing, how to get rid of this stress? I hate I let that stupid piece of electronic crap intimidate me so!! What a bully!!

Have a good one! IP

Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 01/23/2015:
Don't let the scale rule your thoughts. Don't get on until you feel your ready. Hard I know, but....... Hope your weekend turns out o.k.

innerpeace - Thursday Jan 22, 2015
(Weight Watchers)
Weight: 306.0

It's amazing what a few hours relaxing with the drapes drawn will do for a migraine, oh yeah after taking Maxalt, my headache finally ended, just in time for me to go to the dentist...yeah, NOT! However, I must say of all the dentists I have been to, this one is most nice and the hygenist had me laughing, which is difficult to do when there are sharp tools in your mouth. It was better than expected, no cavities!!

DSD was not with me, DH received a text message at work from her mother and told my husband that her brother unexpectedly passed away and could DSD stay with her. Well of course she can. But I know she only has one brother so this pass only works once. No, I'm not being mean. This is the most brassy, uncouth woman I have ever had the acquaintence to know. She is awful and only thinks of herself, especially when she lets her daughter continue to have lice, won't teach her to wipe and hasn't taught her basic hygeine skills. This entire situation makes me so mad. We have tickets Saturday to go to a Frozen Festival 5:30-8:00. I told my DH not to be upset if DSD's mother calls and asked if she can stay home to attend the funeral and be with the family. Hey sure...I guess. I just think she is getting what she deserves in the end. How she started an affair on the internet with a man, left her husband and all the hardship and pain she has caused. I know her new husband has been in and out of the hospital dealing with diabetes issues and then she has gall bladder/kidney issues and has been in and out of the hopital too. I'm just saying, KARMA and all her sisters are probably coming to bite her in the ass.

On the way home I stopped and picked up dinner. I had a grilled chicken and walnut salad, it was tasty.

DH brought home a bag of lindor chocolates and I did eat a few (4) for dessert, not that I needed dessert after I just had my teeth cleaned, but they are there. I did take Steve (our fox terrior dog) for a walk . Trying to get at least 5,000 steps per day, been short this week, not that I have been doing anything extra. This will change!! I will get motivated. I'm sure weigh in Saturday will be a gain, BUT i'll worry about that then.

B: bagel thin with butter

S: protein bar

L: turkey/swiss on sandwhich rounds, grapes, banana and a handful of off brand funyons.

S: half peanut butter on sandwhich round

Dinner is some kind of pork roast and DH took a turkey out of the freezer to cook this weekend...what on earth?

Just looking at what I listed for eating, I am eating way to much bread!

A note about my picture, I would already classify that as old, I just got all my hair cut off and new glasses, but it is the current weight.

Have a great evening. IP

Progress as of today: 6.9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 01/22/2015:
What a great family photo below! I'm glad your dentist experience went well overall.

thinnside40 on 01/22/2015:
Glad your headache is gone.

museumgirl on 01/22/2015:
don't let the creeps get you down. I love the name Steve for the terrier, so cute!

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