- Thursday Apr 10, 2003
The quest for the perfect bra is eternal. I have yet to find a bra that I can work out with. I have bras that are too loose and I flop around, which is very uncomfortable, I have bras that are too tight and the minute I move half my boob pops out of the cup and the magic of it all, they are the same size. Of these bras I have some that cut through underneath and slide off the shoulder, and then vice versa. I think I have tried every marketable bra there is, I have added and removed pieces and still can't find something I am comfortable with. I want something specific...something that will prevent myself from getting a black eye but something that will let me breathe at the same time.
I am tired of getting heat rashes in unmentionable places. I normally use cornstarch and then when I sweat I get a nice little paste that is really gross. The good thing is my chest is the first place I loose weight. But now since my treadmill is in the house I can flop around at will.
I hope you all have a great successful day. Jo Ann
- Wednesday Apr 09, 2003
Weight Watchers meeting today...down two pounds. I haven't missed exercising yet. I love the WATP tapes, which I have been doing, late at night after school. I like going to the meeting but the ladies there are the rudest bunch I've ever been around. The leader is talking to us and two or three groups of people will be having their own conversation, drowning out the leader. She doesn't say anything to them...it is aggravating to the point I want to SSHHHH them, but I don't. I figure they are just excited about loosing weight or something.
Last night I went to the Big Lots store looking for straws for a craft project. I walked all through that store and found all the Easter candy and candy that didn't have to do with Easter but I didn't find any straws. Finally I asked the young teenage boy with multiple piercings and wild hair told me they were in the party supplies. Off I go in search of the straws. On my way to the check out I ventured over to the Cadbury cream eggs, they were literally calling my name, 'Jo Ann remember that creamy center you love to lick out and the yummy, smooth chocolately shell?' Yes, I do and I was headed over to get one or two or three but that young boy says, 'I'm open ma'am you don't have to wait.' So I say thank you for keeping me from buying the candy...he just looks at me like I'm weird or something. So I say to myself walking out to the car 'God bless the peircings and wild hair child' who at that time was my personal savior from those wicked, evil Cadbury cream eggs.
I've had this treadmill out in my garage for almost two years. Occasionally I would go out in the mornings, before work, and use it. My excuse was that I would miss the news and I just couldn't do that, so this afternoon I dragged the thing in and parked it right in front of my television, turned it on, turned up the television and walked. So no more excuses. I have a small goal...which is to fit into my uniform again.
My group at school has a new saying...stupid should be painful. So I'm not going to be stupid anymore. I know the ropes, I just have to stick to them. I hope you all have a great day and many more successes. JO Ann
- Sunday Apr 06, 2003
I called my First Sergeant and explained to him my problem. He let me out of drill, however, I have to make it up the 24th & 25th, that's OK, I now have 3 weeks to get into my tight fitting uniform. Thanks Chrysalis for your motivation, I wish they would act like that, but they don't. It's more like avoiding the pink elephant in a room full of alcoholics.
My girlfriend and I walked through the park today. Almost 2 1/2 miles. My legs were on fire and my back ached and ached, but I made it, didn't set any record though. I'll keep walking.
We'll see what this weekend brings. A guy at work gave me an awesome pie recipe that is only 3 points per slice.
1 reduced fat graham cracker crust 1 small box of strawberry/lime sugar free jello (whatever your taste) 2 6 oz. cups of lowfat/fat free strawberry yogart (again whatever jellow you chose) 1 small tub of fat free coolwhip
dissolve jello with 1/4 cup of boiling water (may have to reheat to get it all dissolved. Add two containers of yogart and mix well. Add coolwhip and stir. Pour mixture into pie crust and let set for 1 or 2 hours. Eat.
It tastes really good and is filling if you have a sweet craving and like I said it is only 3 weight watcher points. Enjoy. JO Ann
- Thursday Apr 03, 2003
I went to my weigh in - I lost .8 pound. I really didn't try and I didn't exercise at all - I'm working on that - remember I just realized portion control.
I was having a conversation with another good friend of mine I usually call Dingy (whose brother I was supposed to pick up at the airport last night - but his father-n-law did instead). Anyway we were talking about how our days went and she was saying, what if there are angels (like in City of Angels) that hover around us during the day and that bad day you think you had, well just imagine how much worse it could be if that angel wasn't around. That made since to me and I thought about it and had all these great revelations, but then can't remember them. Sort of like not remembering dreams.
I'm having trouble dealing with the fact that I have to go to drill this weekend. I hate the way I look in my uniform and have issues with it because I know I don't meet the standards. But then again, they know it too and sometimes, I just wish they would say, 'hey, YOU don't meet the standards and you need to make some kind of progress or we'll boot you out' but they don't. So if they let it slide I shouldn't feel so awful, but in my subconscious mind that just gives me permission to keep on keeping on and not doing anything about it. So we are both guilty.
I broke down and emailed my ex-husband's wife. I wrote: I'm just writing to ask how you are doing? I was concerned when I heard about the soldiers missing from Fort Bliss, but I didn't know what unit Bobby is in or what location. I hope all is well and the chances of you deploying are slim. I hope Nicklaus is acting OK for you, and remember if you need anything for him or for yourself, please let me know. (for those of you who don't know - Bobby is my ex-husband who is still active duty military as is his current wife Shirley. Nicklaus, my son, is living with Shirley in El Paso while my ex is deployed)
Anyway she wrote back informing me that she was currently in the 507th Maintenance Company (the company whose convoy was ambused and had soldiers taken as POWs. She told me she new all of those people and they were her friends. She said it was weird for her and unbelievable in ways she would never imagine. She just hopes she doesn't have to go over there anytime soon. My ex though, deployed in July last year on another mission that is different from what is going on in Iraq, so he is safe. My son is doing fine.
Anyway, I hope you all are having a great day - I will be exercising in a way this evening by mowing my lawn. Jo Ann
- Wednesday Apr 02, 2003
This week I made amends with a very dear friend. I feel so much better because it was my fault we didn't speak for 2 years, not that I did anything wrong, I thought I was doing something right. After a conversation we had, she said something I didn't agree with, but kept it to myself. When I got home and thought about what she said, it made me angry, so much so that I never returned her calls or talked to her again for 2 years. I was really missing her, so I called and talked to her and told her I was sorry for being dumb, I really missed her. I love her even more for just picking up where we left off, like nothing ever happened. How often do you find friends who understand and accept you for who you are?
BUT I also had controversy. I work in an office with 9 other individuals and yes, I'm the administrative assistant, the low man on the totem pole, the phone answerer, the copy machine fixer and the fax know hower but damn it I am a person too and when some one just totally disregards that fact, it can really be irritating.
I was the only one in the office when someone comes in, walks directly past me without saying a word and walks all through the office and comes back by and says, 'there is no one here'. I said good morning, but she just walked out the office. If she would have spoken when she first came in, I would have told her I was the only one in the office and saved her the trip of trying to find someone, 'who could help her'. The second time, she came through with someone interviewing for a job. She introduced her to the two people who have desks before mine, walked around me, and introduced her to the rest of the people behind my desk. Never acknowledged me or said anything at all to me. How rude!! So as the longer I sat there the madder I became and when she left I told one of the managers, 'If I'm so insignificant than I just won't come to work tomorrow'. He agrees that what she did was very rude but. I said there is not but, it was inexcusable so don't try to make excuses for her behavior. We talked about it and I still said I was going to take the next day off, just because. Anyway, yesterday she came to my desk and apologized, she said she didn't mean to be rude. I thanked her and told her I appreciated her apology. She was all teary eyed and said, when she was told the situation it probably bothered her more than it made me mad. I doubt it, but anyway, she apologized again and left.
Then I felt bad because she was upset. When I talked to my confidant here at work, she said, that this person is so shallow, she may have been upset because someone actually brought her behavior to her attention, not because she actually regretted it. I do think her apology was heartfelt and will take it as such. I know, I know I'm rambling but I just want you to know...I'm really not angry all the time, just when something conflicts with my emotional self.
Today is my first week weigh-in at weight watchers. I can't stay for the meeting because I have to pick my friend's brother up from the airport - the storage unit he had all his belongings in burned down. He lost all of his household furniture he and his wife have been collecting for seven years. The work on the road and when they find pieces they liked, they would buy it and ship it back here to put inside a house they are building. I guess now they will have to start from scratch...man that bites.
I have other issues, but will talk about those at a later time. My eating is doing better. I finally understand portion control...go figure, that only took 10 years. I hope you all have a successful day. Jo Ann
- Monday Mar 31, 2003
I am certainly going in the wrong direction. I did go an start weight watchers AGAIN. Third time's a charm and just maybe I will stick to it.
I have a problem getting off the couch, if I didn't know better I would say it's magnetized to my butt.
I have worries of being deployed...how scarey...maybe that's why I keep gaining weight. If I get so big, I'd be a health risk and wouldn't have to go, not to mention the fact that I can't wear my uniform. My dad told me to eat pizza and drink beer. Thanks Dad, love your support!
I have to rant...I was at weight watchers and saw a girl I graduated highschool with. I told her I had only been in the area the last 5 years because I had joined the military after school. She asked why I got out...just because I'm FAT. She says, oh you are not. Ok I've just gained 100 pounds and I'm sitting at a weight watchers meeting so DUH.
What does 'results not typical' mean? I see that on every kind of advertisements for diet pills, exercise equipment or new fad for weight reduction. So I'm guessing it really means...comeon sucker...give us your money.
Y'all have a good day.
- Monday Jan 06, 2003
Had a pretty good weekend, stayed indoors by myself and have become very intimate with my CrossBow. I actually went to the store and bought healthy food instead of going through a quick and convenient drive through.
I need to work on drinking water, I'm just so addicted to diet coke. This week will be miserable, and of course with a miserable week comes an even worse weekend...DRILL, what a dreadful thought. Last month I bailed and will have to do two extra days this month. I hate wishing my life away, but I do so want it to be August 2005.
Hope you all have a successful day. Jo Ann
- Thursday Jan 02, 2003
I didn't eat too much yesterday, which is good. BUT I ate two helpings of pasta. I think I eat to much carbs, I have to find a way to cut them back. I had to quit buying bread, that is a #1 killer for me. I did drink over 64 oz of water though, which is good for me, I'm usually sucking down diet coke all day.
Did the Leslie Sansonne 2 miles last night, will do it again tonight and add my crossbow exercises.
I hope you all had a great a memorable New Year's Day. Jo Ann
- Tuesday Dec 31, 2002
A New ME in 2003! That's my motto. Tonight I volunteered to sell Opening Night buttons for work. I will probably go play cards after that. I'm not one to drink and party, the hangover just isn't worth it. I told my mother I was starting another life style change, she said, she was tired of hearing about it. GEE thanks Mom, I need your support. She just says, do something about it, sure that sounds so easy. I worked out on my new Crossbow again last night, I think I like it.
My team plays in the Rose Bowl tomorrow and I will definately be watching that. Go SOONERS! That reminds me, school starts back on the 20th.
I hope you all have a great new year. Jo Ann
- Monday Dec 30, 2002
I guess it's time for another New Year's resolution. This year I have decided to concentrate on my mental and physical health and maybe the weight loss will fall right on in line. I dream of the day I can wake up and not worry about how much I way or what I look like, gee I can't remember NOT doing that at least since high school.
I'll use my Christmas present which is a Crossbow weight machine, it's really nifty and is sitting right in front of my TV, so I can look at it and not feel guilty about not using it.
I have been living in a constant fear of being activated. I really don't want to go back to a foreign country, I wish everyone would just be nice for once.
Hope you all had a great holiday and will have a joyful and safe New Year!