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innerpeace - Thursday Mar 14, 2002

Weight: 243.0

I have started out pretty slow today. I had two slices of bacon and one piece of French toast for breakfast. I can't seem to get motivated. They ordered pizza for lunch, they are sitting in front of the TV waiting for the basketball tournaments to start. What a great party weekend, drinking and eating and eating and drinking. To bad I don't partake of drinking, but I can get my eat ON. That's what I could do, but I'll just do the usual. Clean house and do laundry, and watch the basketball.

Next week is spring break, I will take 2 1/2 days of vacation to get a good start on my ten page paper for school, who knows I may go ahead and check out my gym during the day, when not so many people are there. I will continue to walk.

Thanks Charlotte for your kind words, I was once a member of weight watchers. I have all the point books and little black purse thing, but I couldn't motivate myself enough to continue with the meetings. Maybe I'll look into starting back. They say it is open house month and I could attend for free, but I can't find a convenient time to attend. Our security is still high at the bank (Federal Reserve) and we can't organize a meeting here. I'm thinking, it all depends in how bad you want something.

RareDiamond on 03/15/2002:
Just stop in to say hello.

innerpeace - Wednesday Mar 13, 2002

Weight: 243.0

I made it through the dreadful weekend. Actually it wasn't so bad, it never is, but it was cold. So very, very cold. And it always seems to fall on a weekend I want to do something. But now that is is over I can get on with other things.

Monday I didn't go to work, because I had to prepare for my oral presentation for class. Egads, what an ordeal. I will never be able to speak in public, I was so nervous and I could hear my voice shake all over the place. I even practiced in front of my son. He kept interupting me and asking questions, he got a big kick out of torturing me.

Last night we stopped at Mom's house and picked up the NCAA basketball tournament brackets to turn in before the games start. I think the grand prize is a t-shirt, nothing big, but it will still be a hoot to win. She asked me if I wanted a meatloaf sandwhich (I love me mom's meatloaf) but I turned her down, telling her I was starting to watch what I eat, to lose weight before summer camp. My son even said he would help me.

We stayed up until midnight last night trying to figure out his Algebra homework, we didn't do so well. After work, I am going to the park and do my 2 mile walk, it is great weather and it is never to early to get started and then I'm headed to the library to do some research for class and our group presentation.

For breakfast I had a banana and a diet coke. Lunch was a small bowl of chicken tortilla soup and a small chicken breast and a glass of ice cold water. I'm slowly trying to get away from drinking caffeine, since that does figure into dehydration and I don't need that getting ready for summer camp, so I'll just drink water.

hope you all have a great day. Jo Ann

Crittermama on 03/13/2002:
Caffine is also a body stressor that can cause fat storage, especially from cola so giving it up is a good thing. Slowly is good too. I'm sure that will reduce the withdrawals. Good luck and God bless.

CharlieAngel on 03/13/2002:
Hey girlfriend! Glad you made it through the weekend. Just thought that I would share with you that a bunch of the active duty military girls have joined my Weight Watcher's lunch time meeting. I am really having success with this. Not that I am trying to get you to join but I find this program gives me remarkable freedom. I know that I can eat WHATEVER I WANT! Just have to count the points. And as the weeks pass I have found more and more foods that are low points. I found that the Blue Bunny ice cream bars are totally satisfying. They are 1 point. The fudgesicle is creamy and delicious. Just really wanted to stop by and lend some support. I really admire you for all that you do, going to school, doing the reserves, being a single mom! You rock! Hope you have a totally blessed day. Love ya, Charlotte

innerpeace - Thursday Mar 07, 2002

Weight: 243.0

Finally I make my way back to the diaries. I have been recovering from two fractured ribs. Very painful, it hurt to sit, lie, stand, you name it, I was in constant pain and I didn't want to move. I went to the doctor three times and he never bothered to take a chest x-ray. Quack. I finally went for a second opinion and demanded an x-ray and sure enough I had to fractured ribs. Not that they could do anything but prescribe pain medication, but at least I knew why I couldn't get around.

I have been very busy with school and have a hard time managing work, school and eating. I have been skipping meals and eating on the go, which I know is a bad no, no. I haven't gained any, but I haven't really done anything to lose either. This weekend I have a three day training with the National Guard, so when I return on Monday, I will get started again. I can't tell you how many times I said that, but hopefully I won't be slowed down by injuries received from just coughing.

I'm glad Rader finally checked back in and Charlotte is staying strong. I admire her so. Take care and I'll be back soon. Jo Ann

Crittermama on 03/07/2002:
I'm sorry to hear about your ribs. Ouch!! My husband will be with the National Guard this weekend, too, but only 2 days. I'll get to see him next weekend. I admire Charlotte, too. I think she is great and a very strong woman to do what she has to do. God bless.

iruka_insei on 03/08/2002:
Hey,hope you feel better and good luck with training!

innerpeace - Thursday Feb 14, 2002

Weight: 0.0

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 13, 2002

Weight: 243.0

My how time does fly. I can't believe it is the middle of February all ready and I have done nothing to show for it. Just think if I would have started my diet and stuck to it I would be down at least 20 pounds by now. I must tell you last night I went through a full circle of emotions.

I cried watching the olympics when a piece was shown on Picabo Street about all the obstacles that she over came and how she has this big huge scar on her leg and she went through all this therapy just so she could ski again. I'm thinking to myself I wish I cared that much about losing weight and then I wouldn't have any trouble at all. In the end she didn't win what she wanted, but she did compete.

I laughed when I was surfing the internet to find out ways to learn how to start a running program. One thing I found said just this:

1. bend down and tie your shoes 2. get off the couch 3. open the door 4. walk down the sidewalk 5. decide which direction to go 6. start running

Yeah, I wish it was that easy. I had one physical fitness trainer tell me that muscles have memory, well mine must have amnesia because they sure have no recollection of when I ran 7.3 miles a day.

So to go along with the Olympics motto - Light the fire inside. That is what I'm going to do. I'm still recovering over my last sick episode, still have a nagging cough and I just know that will impede my breathing, but it's now or never and I don't want to be fat on my 35th birthday, coming in July.

I hope you have a great day and remember--light that fire inside!!

CharlieAngel on 02/13/2002:
You are on the right track. Lighting the fire within is the way to go. I think that most of us want to reach some state of perfect timing and so we put it off...make excuses and don't get with the program. I, myself, have taken the NIKE MOM approach to this whole thing. Every day I tell myself JUST DO IT!!! Put one foot in front of the other and go. I am here rooting for you. HAVE A GREAT DAY AND BE KIND TO YOURSELF! Charlotte

BountifulBren on 02/13/2002:
You crack me up! Muscles with amnesia! Well, give 'em a good thump, isn't that how they always recover in the movies...someone bonks their head? And I get the whole 35 thing, I'm currently 35 and for some reason it feels like if I don't at least get started on a healthy lifestyle at this age...I never will. So, here's to us and our lit fires!

RareDiamond on 02/13/2002:
Here's to lighting the Fire Inner Peace! I know that you can do it.

innerpeace - Wednesday Feb 06, 2002

Weight: 243.0

Went to the doctor again, I'm convinced he's a quack. He gave me a breathing treatment and some narcotic cough syrup. I took some last night and I did get a good night's sleep, but my body didn't understand it was only for night, because I nodded off the entire day at work. I would be reading the monitor or something on it and I would just wake up about 3-5 minutes later. Could become an embarrassing situation, if someone happened upon me. Thank Goodness it didn't.

I am loosing weight though, the nurse weighs me each time I go in, let me tell you not the best weigh (a little pun) to do it. I know now why drugs never appealed to me. I would rather be sick than feel the way I felt today. My cough was better today, so maybe it is helping.

I didn't want breakfast this morning. I ate a half of club sandwhich for lunch and some water. I can't even think about dinner. Things can only get better.

Hope every one is having a great week.

SOU812? on 02/06/2002:
Hey, ship me some of that! :0) I just about nod off every day at my job and I don't take anything! It's called boredom!! I sit and the only exercise I get is moving the mouse which is giving me carpal tunnel syndrome! I hope you feel better! Take care, Kelly

innerpeace - Monday Feb 04, 2002

Weight: 243.0

I am still sick. I have been to the doctor twice and he has given me a ton of meds, but nothing has seemed to help. I have a cough I just cannot get rid of. I cough so much my entire body hurts and I swear there is something lodged in my throat. This has taken a toll on my eating, which would be good at any other time, but I'm lucky if I eat anything at all. Saturday my son had company over and I did not feel like cooking, so I go them McDonalds take out. I had a sausage biscuit, or I should say half, because I didn't eat it all. For dinner I had a few Pepperidge farm goldfish. Sunday, I tried to eat a bowl of maple and brown sugar oatmeal, and for dinner I had a half turkey and swiss sandwich. I haven't been drinking my water which I'm trying to do today.

I have drill this weekend, which will not help matters any, especially if I have to spend it all outside again.

I hope you all had a great weekend.

shellybelly on 02/04/2002:
Just wanted to say hey and hope you feel better!!

callysto on 02/04/2002:
hope you get better! that oatmeal sounds sounds good right now :) Kim

Soon2BThin on 02/04/2002:
Sorry you're feeling so bad. There's a lot of bad stuff going around this year, it seems. Hope you feel better soon.

innerpeace - Monday Jan 28, 2002

Weight: 246.0

I was away for awhile due to an illness I have yet to figure ot what it is. I just know that the first two days, my bones were so sore I couldn't sleep, because my hips would just ache and ache, I couldn't sit because then my neck, back and shoulders would ache so I moped around the first two days. The third day I would alternated between sweating and freezing and had to survive through the first day of class. The fourth day was pretty much the same as the first, but I did have to go to work and that made it intolerable. Wednesday the fifth day I picked up an awful cough that still is with me. The doctor said it was brochitis, which I thought was reserved for smokers. Now over a week later I still have the awful cough that keeps me up at night, and my hips are still hurting.

Needless to say, I was naught for exercise, but I didn't manage to eat anything outragious either. I hope all are doing well, keep up the great work.

pastagal on 01/28/2002:
Sounds like a flu bug that turned into broncitis:{{ hope you get better soon,,but do get plenty of rest cause broncitis is really hard to get over,,,take care:}

garlic on 01/28/2002:
Your symptoms sound so uncomfortable. Hopefully you get better soon. Sometimes when you feel that bad, it makes you feel like you will never feel normal again. But you always do. Sounds like you've got a flu!!!

innerpeace - Thursday Jan 17, 2002

Weight: 0.0

I woke up and was late for work. I had no time for breakfast. That through my whole schedule off because then I was hungry before lunch. I have many, many errands to accomplish before I can go home after work, that means it will be dark and I will have to talk myself into some type of exercise.

Hope you all had a productive day.

pastagal on 01/17/2002:
Gosh i can relate ,i woke up the other day late and it messed my whole day up,,,oh well,,,there is tomorrow and i hope it is a better and brighter day for you:}}

innerpeace - Wednesday Jan 16, 2002

Weight: 0.0

That's OK, I wouldn't expect everyone to understand about my "little chickies" at work. Please understand I have absolutely no problem whatsoever with "thin" or "skinny" people. It's there attitude I have problems with. It's their blatent disregard for other people and other people's feelings. Just general kindness is all.

Today was a short day. I took my little Kushka to the vet to get spayed, she was none to happy. I then waited for the cable man to come and install the road runner. My son isn't impressed, he still says the computer is slow. I swear some people just can't be satisfied.

Koko on 01/16/2002:
Hi, Jo Ann. Just a quick note. I'm kind of rushed these days and I hate it because I'm not able to leave comments to all you guys. You know I do read everybody every day, but the commenting I'm not able to do right now.

I can relate to your entry yesterday from both perspectives. I use to feel the exact same way. I'd seethe when a thin person said somethign about oh I can't eat this or oh I have to work out that. In October I was transfered to a new court with 3 women all about a size 2, all health/fitness nuts. "A" the chief made a comment one day while they were all in my office about fat people and then she apologized profusely and said I hope that didn't offend you. We had a real good heart to heart..."fat" me and "skinny" her about our perceptions of each other, etc. For example, I explained that not all fat people just sat on their butts all day without doing anything. I aslo wanted to know about a thin person's eating habits. That conversation in which all of them participated really opened up our lines of communication about that issue. From that day forward they weren't uncomfortable around me discussing being thin or someone being overweight and I am not uncomfortable around them if I'm eating candy or a burger or bemoaning working out.

Why int he heck did I just tell you all that? umm, yeah just to say that I can relate to your story and to suggest that it might help to talk to a thin person to hear about their struggles, etc. Honestly until I spoke with my colleagues I'd never discussed weight, eating habits, etc with someone who wasn't overweight. Go figure!!!! Hang in there and I hope you have a BRILLIANT Thursday!



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