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legcramps - Friday Jul 17, 2009

Weight: 0.0

I finally got my period yesterday.  I've only been waiting (aka dreading) to get it for three or four days now.  Anyways, it shut me down for the day, except for a brief walk last night, about half an hour long.  That much I had to do, just to get out of the house.

I also went to the doctor yesterday and asked him to give me depo provera again.  I am not a fan of this stuff, and it almost made me cry when I vocalized what I was there for, but I know I need to do something.  My referral to a specialist will not go through until at least this fall.  I had to do something now.  So, everyone, be prepared for some seriously wacked entries.  Don't be alarmed if they teeter on the brink of sanity.  Best to pass over my entries unless you want to be pulled down into the darkness with me.  Geez, I need to stop watching scary movies.  They really go to my head.  I watched "Knowing" and "Unborn" last night.  Hee-hee!  See, it's starting already.

Well, I am debating suggesting to bf that I find another place to live.  I really don't want to do it while i'm so sick, and while he's actually trying to change (it happens for about a week or so, then back to the same old).  There are also so many factors to consider that I keep spinning it around in my head and can come up with no real great fix.  I know I am just scared to take the plunge, but if he won't man up, then I have to.

OK eating yesterday, had some mac 'n cheese which wasn't the brightest idea, but kept it under control after that with salad and chicken, and one slice of garlic toast.  Then I had popcorn during the movie.

Rollin' on down the road!

 

halley on 07/17/2009:
I know it's hard to do, but stress is not good for you. If this realtionship is over, you need to move on. If it's not, you need to get your mind back in it.

Quit watching movies that you know will have a bad effect on you. It's just like eating junk food - feels good at the time, but you pay for it later. Why fill you head or body with junk that will just bring you down???

HAve a great weekend.


hollybelle on 07/17/2009:
I see you are in Canada and that healthcare is an issue for you. I am in the health insurance industry right now. The US is certainly going through some interesting times right now over our healthcare reform bill. What I am afraid of is waits of many months for treatment like you are talking about here. My daughter uses something called Nuva-ring a birthcontrol sponge that helps her periods. Also I had a procedure called uterine albation a couple of months ago that have helped me trememndously. You can't have that if you still want children, though. Hope you feel better - counteract the bad stuff by doing good things for your body!



legcramps - Wednesday Jul 15, 2009

Weight: 0.0

The weather was not well enough to go for a walk yesterday.  It was rainy and windy and all around miserable.  JULY, Mother Nature!  JULY!!!  Today we are supposed to be playing slo-pitch, but I don't know.  It's cold, people.  Cold.  11 degrees celsius.  JULY!!!

Instead, I went out and bought myself some storage containers then went to a friends for a bit to avoid being at home.  Once home, I packed some more clothes into a garbage bag to take to the thrift store on Thursday.  I'm going to use the storage containers for seasonal items, which are scattered throughout the house and are in need of analyzing for worthiness. 

A friend of mine suggested maybe bf's waiting for me to break it off and is refusing to man up and do it himself.  I think I just need to take the plunge and get this crapiness over with.  It's time for change!!

I ate well last night - salmon, rice, corn and lettuce (sans dressing again - it's garden lettuce and is very tasty all on its own), then frozen yogurt with strawberries.  Two cups of coffee that I didn't need, but hey, that's better than some days!

Chugging away!

MoodyMe on 07/15/2009:
Sounds like you had a busy and productive day!!

Good luck with the b/f thing...been there done that..

Wishing you a great night!


halley on 07/16/2009:
Sounds like you are really done with him. Get it over with - you'll be more motived to stay on track.


thinnside40 on 07/16/2009:
Best wishes to you in deciding your future...It has been something you've talked about for a while in wanting to move on without b/f..... Take Care of YOU!!!!!



legcramps - Tuesday Jul 14, 2009

Weight: 0.0

Gosh, i'm tired today.  I'm lumbering around at work like i've just been scraped off the pavement after a really bad accident.  I still have not gotten my period and it's really buggering me up 'cause I sort of was trying to prepare for it and waiting for something like that is not really all that much fun.

I went for a walk last night, it was almost exactly one hour but I still want to check to see how far I went.  It felt good, but my calves were hurting a little bit through it all.  I am going to try it again today (so long as the weather cooperates).  That, plus I think I figured out how to transfer podcasts onto my mp3 player, so i'm actually in a pretty good mood thinking about what I can listen to later!

My eating yesterday was good, albeit a little on the high side of the calorie range, but still good.  I stuck to the fish and rice, added corn and lettuce (sans italian dressing) then my boyfriend's sister came over and we watched an episode of her favorite tv show.  After that we ate some frozen yogurt with strawberries.

Last night I ended up going over to a friend's place for a late night jam session.  That's why i'm so tired and cranky today.  I had three beer and a serving of chicken tandoori chips (wow. spicy.)  If not for this outing, my eating would have been stellar!!!  I left earlier than everyone else and when I woke up this morning my boyfriend had not gotten home yet.  That burns my butt.  Act responsibly!  I'm just so on the outs with him already I don't even know what to do.  I'm trying to get rid of a lot of my stuff *just in case* I decide i've had enough.  It's the only thing I can do right now while trying to keep a sane mind about everything.  He just doesn't get it.  I think I am the wrong person for him and vice versa.  That's the only conclusion I can come to.  I continue to try and put the effort into this relationship, but at some point I have to stop myself and ask myself WHY.  What am I getting out of it besides stress and heartache???

Anyhoo.

Breakfast - Fibre 1 cereal with 2% milk; mocha.

Lunch - salmon and rice.

Motor on, friends!

halley on 07/14/2009:
Wow - sounds like a stressful environment. I wish you well.



legcramps - Monday Jul 13, 2009

Weight: 0.0

I need to get on this running stuff.  I've been doing nothing for the past few weeks because of this and that and everything else and I need to stop the pity-party and get moving again!  I've worked out a bit of a schedule and so long as I am able to follow it through, I should have no problems doing the 5k in around 33 minutes, which I think will be pretty good.

Today's task:  walk 1 hour.

Gotta stop feeding the stomach so much, too.  Attended a bridal shower/stagette this weekend and all we did was eat!!!  It literally made me sick the next day.  I am going to load up on rice, salmon, chicken and veggies this week.

This psychotic bouncing back and forth between trying and not trying has GOT to stop.  I need to change everything.

I cleaned out some items in the house that were taking up space... a few more loads and I will be free of the clutter in my life and can begin to free the clutter in my head.  My period is coming up any day now, but I will struggle through as well as I can, and then will make the life-decisions that I need to make in order to move on from this ailment for good (or at least for now).  I can't allow this to run my life any longer.

Breakfast was Fibre 1 cereal with 2% milk.

Lunch will be rice with salmon and salad with italian dressing.

Happy motoring to all!

Halley on 07/13/2009:
Walking for an hour is a great plan. I know it can be overwelming because we want results now! But hang in there, small steps are the right way to go!


evaopala on 07/13/2009:
Good on you, keep it up. You'll thank yourself later. =]



legcramps - Wednesday Jul 08, 2009

Weight: 0.0

I thought I was doing well, but I weighed myself this morning and.... well... i've gained another 6 pounds in the last month.  I feel pretty crappy about it.  Really crappy, in fact.

Actually, I feel pretty crappy just in general.  All the busy-ness of the past two weeks have caught up to me and i'm not only tired but i've picked up some type of stomach virus as well.  And then I went and topped it all off by weighing myself.  Hellooooo, what did you think you'd see on the scale?!

My period is coming in just a few days, so i'm sure i'll be feeling crappy for a good week.  That sucks.  There are too many things I want to do, and too many things that i'm missing out on.  I'm so tired.  What will give me some energy?

CritterMom on 07/09/2009:
Take a hard look at what you are putting in your mouth. "You are what you eat"...choose a different way. I know you can do it. Just make yourself a priority again.


nenak on 07/12/2009:
hope you feel better soon!



legcramps - Wednesday Jun 10, 2009

Weight: 0.0

I've been a little lazy recently, but far better than normal.

On Saturday I got up early and went running with a friend.  I felt good, even though I still have a silly cough and sinus congestion.  I could've gone longer, but i'm glad we kept it under control - if I would have had my way I wouldn't have been able to walk properly for three days afterwards.

Then I did nothing.  Until this morning.  This morning I went running again.  And I felt even better this time.  I don't know what the secret is, but I pray that it continues.  Maybe it's all the peas i'm eating... :)

For the last few days i've been tormented with the bitter result of procrastination.  But it's not really about that, it has more to do with time constraints and priorities.  I can prioritize at work A-OK, but at home i'm a constant basket-case, trying to do everything and getting absolutely nothing done.  Moral of the story?  Out come the TO-DO lists again. :P

Check home, dog park and slo pitch e-mail accounts for new correspondence (DONE 2/3)

Fill out Association papers for dog park (although i'm sure they gave me the wrong forms)

Find out about city council meetings (DONE)

Fill out running registrations for me, Dad, BF, his sister and his cousin (DONE 3/5)

Make bank appointment re dog park (DONE)

Make doctor's appointment

Complete information required for class seminar on the 17th!!!  (so important and yet NOT AT ALL done yet)

June exercise to date:  3.5 hours

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/12/2009:
mmmm, peas are definitely healthy. and add in running and all is good! :)

looks like you've been getting stuff done....keep up the great work.


CritterMom on 06/15/2009:
What's up with the dog park? Seems like lots of "to-do's" with that. I must have missed something (been away a while).

TO-DO lists save me, too. Otherwise, my day goes something like it did yesterday....

I needed to find the battery charger for my camera, which we took with us when we went to FL last week. Started to look in the suitcases, and got sidetracked into emptying the suitcases and hanging up the clothes in the closet. Realized the closets were a mess and started organizing them. Hubby called me to come down to help him bleed the brakes on a car he was working on, so I did that...then meandered out into the yard for fresh air and started weeding the gardens. Hubby asked if I ever found the camera.......and I realized I never found the battery charger to charge the battery so that he could use the camera. Argh. I think old age is catching up with me.



legcramps - Friday Jun 05, 2009

Weight: 0.0

Went running this morning by myself, as my friend slept in and didn't get my text message.  It was a cold one today, we had freezing temperatures overnight and so pretty well the whole workout was spent with my hood over my toque and my hands holding my sweater over my neck to stay warm.  I have a slight cold - sore throat and ringing in the ears - so it was a bit of a struggle towards the end of the workout to stay focused and not give up.  I think I did well overall though.

Tonight BF has another fastball game so I will be driving out to support him.  Tomorrow a massage appointment (YAY!) and Sunday another 5k walk in the city with my Dad.  Also need to prepare for a meeting on Monday night, and work on some classes that I seriously need to finish.

June exercise - 2.5 hours

40andfabulous on 06/05/2009:
Thank you for your sweet comment. Thought I would share a race story with you. We live near Jacksonville Florida and one of the 'big' races that happens here is the Gate River Run in March. Well, a good friend of mine asked me to go volunteer with her to hand out race packets the Thursday before the race. Sounded like fun and boy was it! The energy was so intense! Me being me I got so swept up into it! I sent my hubby a text and said I was entering us in the 5k that goes along with the BIG race. My poor hubby mean while, was home early from work because he had strained his muscles working out the day before! So Thursday I pay and sign us up and pick up our race packets and Saturday morning at 6am we're leaving our house before dawn to get down to Jax and do this race! My hubby thought I was nuts (and told me several times, in a loving joking way mind you- he is so supportive of anything I do!)but by the end of it, we were both thinking and saying- you know- we can be ready to do the actual Gate River run (a 15k) by next year! The main race ends the last 2-3 miles going over one of the BIG bridges in Jax- my calves hurt just looking at it! Still we watched people finishing it for a long time- the energy is just so unreal and it's so exciting. As for our 5k- we hadn't run in months but we still did it and enjoyed it, though I learned the only port-o-pottys were at the start finish line and it bites having to pee for the better part of 3.2 miles! LOL!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/07/2009:
wow, all kinds of exciting things you have planned! wow, what a great entry. you sound good here.



legcramps - Thursday Jun 04, 2009

Weight: 0.0

I missed this morning's exercise as well (my fault, I cancelled on my friend) as I wasn't sure how I'd be feeling this morning.  As it was, I didn't wake up until 7:15 which gave me a whole 45 minutes to eat breakfast and get ready for work.  I think i'm wearing the same outfit I wore on Monday... and the same hairstyle as yesterday's.

Anyways, i'm feeling a little better today (so far) so hopefully i'll be back into running tomorrow morning.  My friend went without me yesterday morning and said that she ran the sets a little longer than we usually do, so i'm going to make her prove it to me tomorrow!  I can run longer than what we're doing right now, so if she can too than we may as well start running longer - it seems pointless to continue doing the same thing when we could be progressing further.

Slo-pitch went alright last night - I only had to use the port-a-potty once (yuck.  i mean YUCK).  We won (I think we're at 3 wins and 1 loss now) and went out to celebrate for a bit.  Everything went well.  I would be surprised, but i'll just be happy instead.

I can't recall if anything's on the agenda for tonight, so I might try to tackle some of the e-mails at home i've been ignoring for the past week.  That, and maybe we'll take the dogs for a walk.

June exercise - 2 hours

40andfabulous on 06/05/2009:
LOVE your nickname- legcramps too darn cute! You had me laughing at the same outfit as Monday commit too. =*) Good luck with your running this morning! I'm getting back into it. At one time (oh yeah, that was when I was nice and thin and wore smalls wasn't it?) I used to run nightly, now I'm working on getting back into that habit. Feels so good when we do it, but after stopping it's kind of a bugger of a habit to break back into until you re-establish that solid base! Have a wonderful weekend and looking forward to reading of your progress. BTW do you ever race?



legcramps - Wednesday Jun 03, 2009

Weight: 0.0

Hey everyone,

I don't really have a whole lot to say today but I thought i'd check in anyways because I know sometimes I don't come on here for awhile so i'd better get an entry in when I can!

I watched fastball last night, BF pitched but he felt he didn't do that well.  His team won, but a lot of that had to do with errors and some crappy batting from the other team.  He wasn't impressed with himself but I told him that the fans don't know he had a bad day and he looked good out there even though he didn't feel good.  I'm being a very positive GF!

Still suffering today, but i'm going to go out to slo-pitch tonight and try to forget the pain for a couple of hours.  I woke up in the middle of the night last night in pain and had to get out of bed and take a bathroom break.  You don't know this, but i'm a terribly grouchy person when i'm half-asleep... boy, I sure wasn't happy that I had to get out of bed!  Anyways so when a co-worker asked me why my eyes looked tired this morning I panicked and told her that I got lots of sleep and didn't know what she saw 'cause I couldn't see it... :) Still on a quest to keep my personal life to myself!

June exercise - .5 hours

thinnside40 on 06/03/2009:
I sure do hope you get to feeling better & soon.....


nenak on 06/04/2009:
think positive and you will achieve!



legcramps - Tuesday Jun 02, 2009

Weight: 0.0

April - 13.5 hours

May - 8.5 hours

Hmmn...

I'm gaining some ground on my health issues, being referred to a specialist and just trying to struggle through until that happens.  I've been feeling so rough lately though that it's a wonder I even manage to get up for work in the mornings.

The only reason I even have 8.5 hours of exercise for May is because I did two fundraising walks on the weekend; one on Saturday and one on Sunday - both at or over 5 kilometres.  The walks were good and i'm hoping to do more of them.  I am registered for one this weekend as well - it's for Diabetes research, and it's a 5 kilometre walk as well.

Went running this morning with friend.  Because of all the exercise on the weekend it was really rough for me this morning.  I had shin splints up the yin-yang and was in pain almost the entire time.  I will be taking tomorrow morning off of running, but will start up again on Thursday.  Tomorrow I play slo-pitch anyways, so i'll still get some exercise in.  Anyways, at one point this morning I just decided jogging was easier and kept jogging until close to the end of our workout.  I just couldn't handle walking anymore!  That felt good, too.  I mean, I was going SLOWLY, but I was still jogging...

Tonight BF has a fastball game.  Oh, summer is starting and before we know it, it will be over.  NO!  I would love to be able to enjoy the weather this year instead of worrying about how many things need to be done.  It's a learning curve I guess.  Perhaps this summer I will be more conscious of my priorities.

May exercise - .5 hours

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/02/2009:
lol...to the having pain of the yin-yang....i know what that feels like. there's NO WAY i could have done exercise today...unless my goal was to break down my body completely....



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