- Wednesday Jan 16, 2008
I should have known the reason for my emotional behaviour lately. It was pms! I hit my peak yesterday when my boyfriend called after work and in my great fury about having to work in such stressful conditions, I took it all out on him. Really, in retrospect, the condition isn't half as stressful as what i'm making it out to be, i'm sure it really isn't. I just like to exaggerate situations. Anyways, the conversation ended badly and I was sobbing my eyes out and feeling sorry for myself afterwards. The good part is that I did not turn to food to comfort myself. My boyfriend called back after about an hour and wanted to clear the air. He said that he 'didn't want to leave things this way' since he was so far away from home and stuff. I couldn't believe a) he had called back to talk things over, and b) he really was upset that I was upset. It made me feel a whole lot better and we had a nice chat after that.
I went to both Thai Chi and kickboxing classes last night, so I can add another two hours to my total exercise hours - Yay! I so wanted to take the dogs for a walk as well, but we had a bit of a snowstorm last night and we ended up staying inside. I know my dogs didn't like that one bit, but there isn't anything to do about it now. I don't know how i'll be feeling later today - I might not do any exercising at all today because I just know i'll be feeling a lot worse tonight because of my period coming!
Total exercise for January - 15 hours
- Tuesday Jan 15, 2008
I made an attempt to go straight to the gym after work yesterday. At lunchtime I ran home, ate a quick ham sandwich, then prepared my gym bag for after work. I had a pretty (okay, very) rushed day at work yesterday and by the time I got out to the parking lot at day's end, my hands were shaking so terribly with stress and I was on the verge of tears. For no apparent reason other than that it was just one of those days and it affected me more yesterday than it has in a long time. And somehow, I did it to myself. I know that. Anyways, I got into my car and phoned the friend I was supposed to go to the gym with. I asked her if she was ready to meet me at the gym and she said she was. So I left the parking lot, driving towards the gym and checking my bag all at the same time. Then I stopped abruptly and realized while looking through my bag that I hadn't put in any workout clothes!! Or hair elastics, for that matter. So, I had to call my friend back and stop at home for clothes. What a mess!
I worked out hard yesterday because I was so worked UP. I did 25 minutes on the treadmill, including 8 minutes of jogging. Not as much as before, but my calves started to hurt so I had to stop. I didn't stretch out right before I started, at least I think that's why it hurt so much. After the treadmill I went on the bike for another 20 minutes and pushed that hard. I did intervals, but towards the end of my biking even the easy rounds were incredibly hard for me to do! Some quick stretches when I got home and I can add another hour to the count...
I had about an hour or so when I got home and so I made myself another quick ham sandwich and checked e-mails and such, then went for coffee with some friends until 9pm. When I got home I called my boyfriend and chatted with him for half an hour, then practically fell into bed without prepping anything for today! I was so tired, and I didn't even get to take the dogs for a walk!
Today I have two hours of classes (Thai Chi and Kickboxing) and i'd like to take the dogs for a walk after classes. It's a large goal for the day, but I hope I can manage it.
Total exercise for January - 13 hours
- Monday Jan 14, 2008
I got up Sunday morning at 10am, with a headache and more aching muscles. I didn't have breakfast because I was in one of those moods. Yes, one of those low moods. What can I say? It was bound to happen sooner or later. Then, after i'd taken a shower and was feeling a tad bit better about myself, a friend called and wanted to stop over with another friend. Thinking that they would be at my house within an hour, I quickly got ready and cleaned the house like a madwoman. I can't believe how much I got done in that short amount of time! Anyhow, they didn't actually show up until a little later, so I missed lunch too. Don't worry, i'd been snacking all morning up until this point, and had layed out a nice array of dainties for my friends - picking at one or two of them myself while I was still alone.
My friends stayed all afternoon, so I didn't get anything else done on Sunday besides the odd load of laundry. We ended up going out for dinner, where I got a Swiss Club burger (grilled chicken, ham and swiss cheese - very good, but not great on the waistline) and an Orange Float. I was so full from dinner that I popped in a movie, layed on the bed, and fell asleep! It was a horrible day foodwise, horrible day exercise-wise (because I didn't do any!), but at least I got some housework done. I guess. Well, i'm not beating myself up over it because if you never fail then you'll never have really worthy accomplishments, right?!!
I'm tired today and i'm not looking forward to this week (or the next, for that matter). My new supervisor is starting on Wednesday and a co-worker will be on holidays for two weeks starting Wednesday and I will need to cover for her. It just doesn't look good when you add to that all the meetings scheduled in the next two weeks and all the work I already have piled up on my desk. I am not in a good mood!!! I want out!! I'm trying to not show my stress, but I think i'm failing. I can't wait to go on holidays.
Total exercise for January - 12 hours
- Sunday Jan 13, 2008
I tried to leave a diary entry here (it's Monday when i'm typing this) but my computer was giving me problems - again.
- Saturday Jan 12, 2008
I am wickedly sore today!
Everything hurts, but I managed somehow to crawl out of bed and tackle breakfast, sitting curled up on the couch with the cereal bowl cradled between my legs and my chest, spooning the cereal into my mouth like one would for a baby. I didn't want to do anything this morning but sit and feel sorry for my aching body. I pulled some motivation from deep within (I mean, DEEP within - I really didn't think there was any left in me to be honest), got dressed up and took the dogs for an hour walk. Now that i'm back at home I feel even more sore and achey. So i'm going to run a hot bath and try to release some of the tension from my muscles. I have to, because a friend wants to go to the gym later today and I won't be able to go if I still feel like this! I won't even be able to walk on the treadmill for pete's sake!
Tanning again today at 4pm. Then supper at a friend's. Visiting with boyfriend's sister in-between, and I also need to clean up and do some laundry. It should be a full day today.
Total exercise for January - 12 hours.
- Friday Jan 11, 2008
Wallyball tonight - 2 hours
Got to sleep in today until 10am, which felt really nice - I think I slept for 10 hours! When I woke up I immediately got ready for the day and headed out to do my grocery shopping. I picked up an environmentally friendly 'green' bag to use as my food bag for work (again, got the idea from a fellow dd'r) and I love it - it's just what I envisioned my food bag would look like!! Anyhow, started off the day with a pickled egg for breakfast and a slice of walnut bread. Not the best choice, and the pickled egg??? Well, let's just say one of my dogs liked the pickled egg WAY more than I did!!! I had a black forest ham sandwich for lunch and just polished off eight strawberries for my afternoon snack. I got my hair cut, made a trip to the bank, and soon will be off to tan at the salon my friend works at. We're going on an all-inclusive vacation in February, so I need to start getting ready for it. In more ways than one, i'm sure you can imagine.
If you haven't already guessed, I threw out the 'no bread in the house' theory that I had. It just wasn't working. I was finding other ways to eat it - and that meant that I was eating white bread too, not the whole wheat that I usually buy. So I bought whole wheat bread today and 'plan' to use it for lunch sandwiches. We'll see how much I can control myself around it!
After tanning I need to take off to the city for that game of Wallyball i've been so excited to play. Two hours of that and the drive back home will probably leave me exhausted, but i'd sure like to take the dogs for one more walk this weekend because I have a feeling I might not be feeling well Saturday and Sunday. It feels like my period is coming, and it's always so much fun that I end up lying in a ball on the floor, crying my eyes out!! And, it will suck even more now that my boyfriend isn't here to comfort me!
So that's the plan for today. I don't feel sore yet from all the stuff I did yesterday, but I probably will tomorrow.
Total exercise for January - 11 hours
- Thursday Jan 10, 2008
I had a great exercise day...and the food part wasn't so terrible either. I ate chicken and rice (leftovers from yesterday) for dinner when I got home from work, then ran some errands downtown and took the dogs for a walk. When I got home from the walk I had just enough time to warm up the car and get my bags ready for kickboxing class. The class was awesome tonight - I wish they were all like this! We did circuit training, and boy did we train. Again and again...and again!! We finished with some light sparring, which was a highlight of the class because it was so much fun! 15 minutes after class I was on my way to the gym to workout with a friend. I walked on the treadmill for 20 minutes and jogged for 10 minutes, then biked for 15 minutes and then did some leg weights.
I probably won't be able to get out of bed tomorrow!! Good thing I have the day off! __________________________________________________________________________
I found a package of Pad Thai to go with my chicken breast at lunchtime - I ate 1/2 the package. My tummy is bulging and bloated and I can tell that i've eaten white noodles. Bad idea. Blugh.
Ooooo, I forgot to tell you - I am playing Wallyball on Friday night! Yay! First game in a very long time! Two hours of heavy workout! Watch out HoP, here come those exercise hours!!!! __________________________________________________________________________
The walk last night was exactly what my friend needed. She told me afterwards that she felt ten times better than before and she was more focused about her priorities now. I'm glad I could help her - she's done so much for me in the past that it felt good to be able to give back a little bit.
I didn't quite make it to my goal of 3 litres of water yesterday, but I got close - 2.5 litres. Technically, i'm 1 out of 3 in reaching my goals, but figuratively speaking, i'd say i'm more like 2 out of 3 since the only thing I didn't consciously work on was getting to the gym!
I started out my day earlier again this morning - so again I stopped to grab a coffee before work. Then, a friend came by to go for a morning coffee break with me and I decided to have another coffee. That's two for today and probably two too many!! Workingit - I will try your apple and water idea after tomorrow, when I can stock my fridge again! The good thing about the coffee break this morning is that we both reiterated to each other that we WILL be going to kickboxing class tonight, no matter what. I am glad she is so dedicated to going today, otherwise I myself might decide not to go...as terrible as that sounds, it's always better to have a workout buddy. So class starts at 8pm tonight, which means if i'm really efficient and keep my butt moving, I might be able to squeeze in a walk with the dogs before class. I made rice and chicken yesterday for dinner, and there are plenty of leftovers for today so there's no real excuse to not be able to walk the dogs. I guess we'll see what happens, but that's the plan. I love making plans in the morning (sarcasm) for when I get home from work - they never work out perfectly because by the time I get home i'm dead tired from working all day! Oh well. I'm blabbing.
Would you believe after all the trouble I had with my modem - the service tech replaced it and when I got home from work that day it wasn't working again!! Oy!! It's working now, but i'm just waiting for the day when that stupid 'ready' light starts flashing at me again. Odd how my life is centering right now around the times when I can use my computer...
Got water and a fruit cup at work this morning so I should be good until lunchtime. I still have an extra chicken breast in the fridge too, so i'll eat that for lunch, although it's not much. Maybe I can find something to go with it - but I need to make sure I don't eat yesterday's leftovers because then i'll have nothing for dinner tonight. I should make a list of things to do today, but I don't want to seem overly obsessed, so I won't.
Total exercise for January - 9 hours
- Wednesday Jan 09, 2008
I called a friend to see if she wanted to go to the gym with me today and it turns out she was having a very aweful day and didn't feel like doing much at all. I was almost out the door to take the dogs for a walk and I decided to ask her to come along. The company would be great and besides, having an extra set of hands with two dogs makes it a lot easier as well. She didn't seem to want to at first, but after a while got into the spirit. We walked for an hour, but it means i'll miss the gym workout tonight because we talked for a while afterwards. It's okay. At least I did something.
*UPDATE* - I stopped in at the grocery store on my way home at lunchtime today and picked up a roast chicken sandwich on 60%ww bread...mmmn..bread...but it took me 20 minutes to do that which left a grand total of 10 minutes to let the dogs out and keep an eye on them and eat my sandwich standing up!! With my shoes and scarf still on and the car still running! But I guess it was worth it. I don't know. The jury is still out on that decision.
I used my last $5 to buy that sandwich today, lol. I have one more day and night to go before I will be able to buy myself proper groceries because I get paid on Friday! I guess i'm making some rice today for dinner and I think i've got a chicken breast in the fridge to go with it. I sound pathetic, don't I?!!
I have also decided that I will attend the kickboxing class on Thursday night because I can give the instructor a cheque and he won't be able to cash it until I have money in my account anyways. See, I think about things sometimes...
So, you've already heard that my day was pretty bad yesterday, so i'm not going to reiterate here. This entry will be all about today and about fresh starts and new beginnings and goals and wants and needs and prides and prejudices. Okay, maybe not that last part.
I woke up a little earlier than usual today (an extra ten minutes earlier) and was able to stop on my way to work and buy myself a mocha from Robin's Donuts. I knew I was going to need it because I had a late night last night (but we won't get into that) and I was dragging my butt this morning. As soon as I woke up, I grabbed a fruit cup out of the cupboard, a spoon from the cutlery drawer, and went to work on a plethora of peaches, pineapples, cherries and other varieties of fruit. You would think I wouldn't be hungry after the major binge....oh, right, new day. Anyhow, filled a bottle of water, grabbed another fruit cup for morning snack at work, and headed off.
I don't have any prepared food in the house for lunch today. I can't even make myself a tuna sandwich because I don't have any bread. No milk, no juice - the only thing I can think of actually eating is dry Kashi cereal. It doesn't sound too appetizing, does it?! Maybe i'll stop off for a sandwich somewhere, but I don't have a lot of time for lunch - just a half hour. I would stay and eat here at work, but I have to let the dogs out for a bathroom break at lunchtime. Life's pretty rough, huh?!
Today I WILL walk the dogs right after work; I WILL go to the gym tonight; and I WILL drink 3 litres of water. If I could sign underneath this statement, I would. Just to motivate me that much more to actually do it.
Total exercise for January - 6 hours
- Tuesday Jan 08, 2008
*UPDATE*...Well, crap. I didn't accomplish too much tonight. It dawned on me that it was January and I hadn't paid for my Thai Chi and kickboxing classes for January yet, and I don't have enough money to pay for it - so I did not go to class tonight. And I won't be able to go on thursday either because I won't get paid until Friday. I guess I lost sight of that in between...well...everything else. That really sucks, and unfortunately I let it get the best of me tonight and instead of doing something else like going to the gym I opted instead to do nothing but sit on the computer and play games. Sometimes I wish we didn't have a computer...or television...or, like, bread...**sigh** Anyways, I wouldn't be honest if I didn't tell everyone what I did tonight. So there you go. I plan to pull up my socks tomorrow and make up for it, but I always say that. I should attempt to actually do the things I say i'm going to do. I'm in a bad mood, but it's just a bad mood - i'll be fine by tomorrow morning. The sad part is that my dogs aren't going to get that walk in tonight. I puttered my night away playing Sims. Someone scold me, I need a good talking to already!!!
So I took my audio book along with me to the gym last night, but unfortunately was unable to play any of it due to:
a) I had a friend there with me, so didn't want to seem rude by plugging my ears if she wanted to talk - which she did.
b) The freakin music in the joint was so loud that I could barely hear myself think, nevermind hear any other sound that might be playing in my ear.
I'm all for good music, and i'm partially deaf too (okay, not clinically), so i'm normally okay with loud music. But last night, it was loud. Way too loud. LOUD.
I walked the treadmill for about 20 minutes, then jogged for the next 20, off and on. I think I did about 15 minutes of jogging in total. Felt good! After the treadmill I went on the recumbant bike for 15 minutes. I was going to do some weights last night, but I really wasn't in the mood. Maybe the loud music discouraged me. Anyhow, I got back home by 7:30pm and wasn't sure what to do for the rest of the night. Usually I don't go to the gym until later on at night, so just kind of fall into bed afterwards. So I puttered on the computer a bit, then watched a movie. It was a nice night and I feel pretty good today because of it.
A computer repair tech is coming to my house at lunchtime today to fix my modem. What a headache this modem is! For the last few months, it's been working intermittently and it's driving me insane! I want to go online when it's convenient for ME, for goodness' sake!! So I called the company I signed up through, and they just treated me like crap. First of all, I called them and then the modem started working, so the guy on the phone told me to just monitor it. So I did. And the next time it quit working, I called them again and they pretty much told me what I could do to try to get it back up and to do that from now on. But why should I have to keep rebooting the modem everytime it shuts down? Why shouldn't I have a proper modem that actually works 95% of the time?! So I called them again when it wasn't working, frustrated and ready to tear a strip down someone's back. So they're sending someone out to replace it. This guy phoned me this morning and I told him that it's been working for the last couple of days. He asked if I wanted to just monitor it and I blew up!!! Lol, it's just too exasperating right now! I said that's what i'd been doing for the last few months, and he laughed and said 'ok, i'll come by at lunchtime and take a look'. I hope he replaces it.
My Thai Chi and Kickboxing classes start tonight. Depending on how i'm feeling afterwards I might try to take the dogs for a walk. It'll have to be with both of them though, 'cause i'd never fit in enough time to take them separately. Geez, I have a lot to say today, don't I?!!
Will update later with exercise hours - Go HoP!
Total exercise for January: 5 hours.
- Monday Jan 07, 2008
**UPDATE** - I updated the total hours for January 'cause I went to the gym tonight for an hour and, well, I want instant gratification!
So I managed to take the little puppy out for a walk as well - we were gone for an hour (it's just so much easier to walk her), and I was cruising along listening to my new book. Then the batteries died. I swear, these were brand new batteries. Is it really THAT cold outside?!!! Anyways, from now on i'll have to remember to bring along an extra set of batteries. Geez, if it's not one thing it's another!!
Other than being incredibly hungry today, i'm doing pretty well. I did cave and drink a flavored coffee this afternoon, but I honestly wasn't sure how I was going to get through the last two hours of work. My snacks were really good today, although maybe a bit high in sodium. All in all, I can't complain too much...
I watched a movie last night with a friend of mine who's trying to keep me company while my boyfriend is gone. It was called 'In the Land of Women'. It was such a screwed up movie! Have any of you seen it? This kid goes to his grandma's house where he proceeds to first seduce the next door neighbour, then the neighbour's daughter!!! Craziness! Honest, I have such bad luck picking movies.
I received a text message last night asking if I wanted to go to the gym later today, so I guess it will be the 'first gym day of 2008'. It's sort of exciting, really...
Total exercise for January - 5 hours