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legcramps - Saturday Jan 05, 2008

Weight: 0.0

The dogs and I went for a much needed/required walk last night, took about an hour and a half in total. I had to stop a couple of times for our big dog, Chewbacca, so that he could sniff around or lay down on the ground and pout. He was pouting because he was on the leash almost the entire time. My boyfriend doesn't ever leave Chewbacca on his leash, but I do because he's just too big of a dog to let loose - I can't control him. So he was pouting a bit, but he'll get over it! I hope eventually he will learn to walk beside me without having to pull on his leash all the time, although it IS a great workout for the arms!!!

My eating sucks. I am starting fresh today. I went to get groceries (mostly because I was out of bread because I ate it all) and decided NOT to buy any bread. So the house is sans bread at the moment. And I bought a lot of fruit for snacks. All I seem to want to do is snack! I won't question it though, it's better than wanting five course meals all the time!!!

I am busy cleaning house and feeling lonely because my boyfriend is off working again. He might be gone for three months this time! It's really boring without him here. Today, i'm really craving some company. Maybe i'll phone a friend later for coffee or something.

I guess I have a lot to say tonight because i'm so lonely and bored. Sorry guys!

My regular routine starts next week! Yippee!!!

Total exercise for January: 1.5 hours

cushy on 01/05/2008:
hi legcramps, i am new member cushy. i hear you about the lonely and bread thing. I am single and always need to make my own fun for weekends. this is ok but it does make random, boredom eating all too easy. I am only on day 5 of dieting so i am still withdrawing from my beloved sugar and diet coke substances, but after i get through that stage the thing i crave the most is bread. anythign bread. hard!


CharlieAngel on 01/05/2008:
I totally get the dog walking thing...my little chihuahua also wants to stop and sniff all the time but I still consider it better than sitting on the couch and not doing anything. Being lonely is a real diet challenge...after my hubby passed I gained about 25 pounds from constantly stuffing myself full to ease the empty feelings...but now I am just trying to get healthy for myself. On Sundays after my workout, I go to Borders and treat myself to my favorite coffee and just browse. I am learning to like my own company. Take care of yourself. Have a good weekend.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/05/2008:
that was the reason for my overeating too...i think i was a bit lonely.

thanks for your comments today...they helped me because i knew you knew how i felt and it helped to have a reality check.


workingit2 on 01/05/2008:
LOL about the dog laying down and pouting, I can see it clearly LOL We'd have dogs at the shelter who were strays that weren't used to leads and they would spin around in circles trying to take a look at what was around their neck..and they'd do the same thing..pout and sulk and lay down lol. Gotta love dogs, they are honest with their feelings LOL

As far as not seeing the boyfriend much, I know how you feel. It sucks!


kyrin on 01/06/2008:
Good for you...breadless at the moment. Sometimes that's all it takes to realize that you are okay without it. When I re-introduce bread to the kitchen, I often just go ahead and put the loaf into the freezer. That way, a loaf will last without getting moldy--since it takes so long for me to eat it by myself. Plus, it's harder to eat on a whim if I have to thaw a slice first. LOL

Way to go with your dog walking! ...The boyfriend will be back before you know it. Gone for 3 months? Just think how terrific you'll look by then!

Hugs!



legcramps - Friday Jan 04, 2008

Weight: 0.0

Hope everyone had a good Christmas and New Year's. Gosh, it's been busy around here. I can hardly wait for February, when a friend and I are going to hit up the all-inclusive resort beaches and take a load off for a week. It will honestly be the best rest i've had in a long time.

Anyways, I had a rotten start to the New Year - I was sick, terribly sick. I must've gotten a flu of some type just before Christmas, and eventually that flu turned into a nasty cold. I couldn't speak for a few days even. It didn't stop me from going skiing though, so I guess I shouldn't complain too much, huh?!!

So I haven't had any exercise to log so far this month because i'm waiting to get over this cold. It's congestion in my chest now, and I just know if I workout then i'll probably choke on my phlegm. I've been working and sleeping, working and sleeping. As soon as I get home from work, I get into my p.j's and into bed. Yes, i've been needing some rest from the holidays! Today I feel ten times better than last week, and I might even try a walk tonight with the dogs. I'm always optimistic about what I can do.

Eating has been decent though not exceptional. As usual, I have my bouts with bread products and I think this one has lasted a couple of months now. I think it's time to kick it.

Getting back to the normal routine next week. Yay!

biscottibody59 on 01/04/2008:
Hey there--Happy New Year! Getting sleep should help to get you healed from all that--have a good walk!


workingit2 on 01/04/2008:
Happy New Year! Oh goodness, you've had a rough time of it! Glad to read that you are feeling better and that you have a nice vacation coming up! Take care =)


Moody2 on 01/04/2008:
Sorry to hear that you are sick, but glad to hear that you are feeling better than you were! Sounds like you didn't let it keep you down too much!!

Sounds like fun plans for February!! woohoo!!


CritterMom on 01/04/2008:
Hope you're feeling better soon. Hey, you can count that skiing as exercise!

Walking the dogs is always a good thing. I feel better, and so do they, after we've had our walk.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/04/2008:
i also had a bout with the grain/bread/pasta/bad carb products that lasted more than a couple of months! In fact, mine lasted from september through the third week of december. After being on vacation for a week and a couple days, i have been refreshed and am doing well! :)

feel better and thanks for your understanding on my journal entry yesterday. It's good to know someone else out there sympathizes.


greengirl on 01/04/2008:
Hope you are feeling better soon. Sounds yucky with the phlegm and all !!



legcramps - Monday Dec 10, 2007

Weight: 0.0

Still doing well on the exercise, but it's only been a few days since my last entry. I've made a date with a friend to hit the gym today after work for an hour, so that's great too. Mondays are usually harder to get to the gym because there usually aren't too many other friends who want to go or will go when I can go. I might even have another date later tonight for the gym with another friend. Believe me, I won't pass it up, especially with the mood i've been in - exercise is the best way to keep things off my mind!

Eating is still rocky, I just can't quite get it. I switched many moons ago to whole wheat bread, but I now realize that bread in and of itself is hazardous! I can't stop eating it! I'll eat just bread! Nothing else, just slices and slices of bread. Seems i'm just navigating my vices from one type of food to the next. Pretty soon there won't be any food in the house (except for vegetables and fruits of which I do not eat enough). I hope a pandemic doesn't strike - i'd be s&*t out of luck!

Total Exercise so far for December - 8 hours

borntocry on 12/11/2007:
Yeah, same here - in fact wholewheat bread is worse for me because I prefer it, so I tend to eat even more of it. They say whole grains are supposed to fill you up, but I haven't really noticed that at all!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/12/2007:
i also love bread to the point of simply eating it slice for slice. you, me, and BTC should be banned from bread!



legcramps - Friday Dec 07, 2007

Weight: 0.0

It's been pretty busy here recently, work is crazy and my boyfriend is working away from home so is not around to help take care of the house and the dogs. For whatever reason, I am finding that mondays to fridays go by in the blink of an eye but the weekends go even faster. It's hard to believe it's been more than a year (almost a year and a half) since taking this new position on here at work. It feels more like a few months.

My supervisor is definitely leaving within the next couple of weeks and they will begin to orientate and train a new person for the position. I've met one man today that is a candidate for the position and am aware of a couple others who already work for the organization that have also been chosen as candidates. It will be a time-consuming and stressful few weeks for me (as i'm sure it will also be for the successful candidate) and i'm not looking forward to it although I won't say the change won't be good. It's just the added work that won't be good!

I've been fairly religious about working out on average five days/week. Some days are gym workouts, some are kickboxing and tai chi, and others are walks with the dogs. As I said before, it's not relieving my anxiety about life, but I think that's just the phase that i'm in right now which, when I think about it, is not even half as bad as these phases usually are!

Eating. That's something I still need to work on, but at least i've cut out soft ice cream and most cheeses from my diet. It's a start, and those were the two main ingredients that were making my life a living hell anyways.

Total exercise: 6 hours

workingit2 on 12/07/2007:
Congrats on cutting out a couple of things that were affecting you negatively in the food department. And it is a very good thing that you are still working out, even if it doesn't feel like it is relieving stress...I would imagine you'd be a lot more harried if you weren't releasing some of those negative hormones and replacing them with the feel-goods that come from working out! Keep up the great work!


borntocry on 12/08/2007:
Well, well! Sounds like you are doing a little better than before. Keep up with the exercise - even if it isn't alleviating your anxiety, giving it up would probably add to it, and you don't need that!

Thanks for your comment. Yes, I am also worried that I might decide to just keep the Christmas cookies for myself. Perhaps I shouldn't taste any beforehand?


Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/08/2007:
i'm with BTC on her exercise comment! :) it's such a difference exercise makes... :)



legcramps - Monday Nov 26, 2007

Weight: 0.0

Seriously, I need a break. From what? Well, almost everything I think. I need a break from work especially though - it is so all-consuming and stressful here right now. I've lost my supervisor to another area of the region and it saddens me because she was so wonderful to work for and i'm scared of what will happen next. Well, I suppose change is good, so we'll see if that saying is actually true. But I am still sad and I will be for a long time to come, sort of a mourning period for me right now.

That's one of the reasons I haven't been on here recently. Another reason is because it's getting closer to Christmas and I panic about almost everything a person can possibly panic about over Christmas. I need to get presents bought and wrapped, get the tree up and the decorating done, make sure my boyfriend fixes the wood stove and replaces the water jug - like, today - because he'll be working away from home until Dec 22nd. Yippee. That was sarcasm, if you didn't notice...

Anyways, i'm so stressed over the Christmas season and needing to do ten million things that i'm losing track of everything else - work and recreation activities are only a distant memory at the moment. My days consist of this (here is an actual week that I would have):

Monday: work, get groceries, walk dogs, make gift list/// Tuesday: work, two hours of exercise classes, shop online for gifts/// Wednesday: work, wrap gifts and decorate, baking, clean house, one hour of gym workout/// Thursday: work, stress over Christmas and decide I need to do more, shop online, decorate, one hour of exercise class/// Friday: work, stress some more and over-buy for people, walk dogs, modify and re-do gift list/// Saturday: get up early, one hour of gym workout, visit as many friends and family as possible in one afternoon because I didn't get to see anyone during the week, stress some more over gifts but decide not to do anything about it today (except stress)/// Sunday: get up early, one hour of gym workout, do laundry, clean house, check gift list and decide to rip it up and start fresh on Monday, baking, fall into bed.

I wish those activities like going to the gym, exercise classes or walking the dogs would de-stress me a little bit, but they don't. They make it worse because I could be doing so much more in the time i'm using for this exercise bull-sh!t. See? I'm going nut-zo.

I think the worst thing about my weeks are that i'm letting the stress bring me down. Don't get me wrong - i'm still in a pretty good mood, which is really surprising for me - but I can just feel the stress ulcers boiling up in my body...

hollybelle on 11/26/2007:
There's a lot on that list - but you are getting it done (or at least mostly???) so there is success in that. Change of supervisors is scary. Hope it turns out ok for you. There is a tendency to fear the unknown - but I hae another saying - don't borrow trouble - hold off worrying until you know what you will face. Your post made me want to release a BIG sigh. Try to get a minute or two (yes just a little time works wonders) to yourself to de-stress. Don't miss the joy of the season because you are worried about crossing all the "t"s or dottin all the "i"s. There will be only one Christmas Season (celebration of the birth of our Lord Jesus) in 2007 and it will happen wether or not you enjoy it - don't let it pass you by. Best wishes and blessings to you.


workingit2 on 11/26/2007:
Being afraid of change is perfectly normal. The number one thing people fear is change, followed by snakes lol. Take care of yourself and find you some ME time!


borntocry on 11/27/2007:
I feel the same way at the moment - like the stress is actually doing damage to my body. You mustn't let that happen - seriously. I was diagnosed with a serious health condition a couple of years ago which is caused in part by stress. And once you get something like that, it never goes away. So you've got to learn to relax!

When you're at the gym or walking the dogs, use that time to mentally sort through your list of things to do. Plan out your time and try to think of the most efficient way to get everything done. That's what I do and it really does help. I feel calmer afterwards with a clearer idea of how to proceed. For instance, you can use your exercise time to brainstorm for gifts. I had to buy birthday/wedding presents for a whole bunch of people this summer and the ideas all came to me while I was out running, mulling things over in my head. And what's more, it takes your mind off the exercise and makes that seem a little easier, too!

I also know how you feel about your supervisor at work. I felt the same way when my old boss left. She was one of the people who inspired me to start running, so I was quite sad to see her go. I also really hate change of any sort, but you know, sometimes there's nothing you can do about it and you just have to go with the flow.

I watched the Grey Cup too, you know. We get this new television channel here now - NASN (North American Sports Network) and they show a lot of CFL. We had been rooting for the Roughriders since the beginning (no reason - we just like the name!). So we were really glad when they won!

Sounds like you had a great spread at your friend's place. I am planning to do something like that for the Superbowl. Only it's going to be more like snacks than a proper meal. And I'm going to try not to make too many of my personal favourites!


biscottibody59 on 11/27/2007:
RYC: my problem is Thanksgiving--not a great excuse!

Hey, I've had this thing sitting here from a defensive driving course I recently took (of all things). Maybe you can take something from it.

To Escape the Stress Trap:

1. Recognize the problem 2. Prepare new responses to familiar situations 3. Adjust your expectations 4. Put things into perspective 5. Don't be a perfectionist 6. Write down your daily schedule 7. Exercise Regularly

And I would add try to resist being hard on yourself--your expectations may be blown out of all proportion. Also, losing a beloved supervisor for any reason is a valid reason to be upset--good supervisors are few and far between--I hope her replacement suits you.

Take it easy!



legcramps - Monday Nov 05, 2007

Weight: 0.0

Ugh. When does the business of life slow down?? Ever? EVER???

Working like a fiend to catch up on things, even though I haven't missed a whole lot of time away from the office. I guess it's a good thing as long as I can finish all my projects in time, otherwise I shall be a bit frustrated.

So I went on an ice cream pilot project in October. I was feeling really crappy in September and I am thinking that it was because of all the ice cream i'd been eating that month. Crazy amounts! So, after three weeks of an all-out ice cream fest, I decided to quit. Cold Turkey. Something that is extremely hard to do when you become addicted to it and it's a part of your normal everyday routine. I guess you know all about that though, so i'll just move on...

After three weeks of not even a smidgen of ice cream nearing my lips, I caved on Halloween Night. OOOOooo, scary. I asked my boyfriend 'wouldn't he like an ice cream?' and basically forced him into agreeing that ice cream was a good idea. On Thursday afternoon, whilst sitting at my desk at the office, I nearly had a breakdown. I was sick, not physically, but mentally. Really, literally, mentally ill. I barely made it home without sobbing, and once at home took it all out on my boyfriend, then proceeded to feel guilty and cry about that, too. Then, out of nowhere came the mean hand of anger. And I was angry!! Holy, was I angry! At what, I have no idea. I don't know why I was overcome with sadness, either. After bouncing off the two emotions for a good six hours, I finally pushed myself into bed and lay there almost panic stricken for about half an hour before I could fall asleep.

I think I need to find a substitute for ice cream. My boyfriend's Dad thinks I should take some more tests - you know, try hard ice cream next time instead of soft ice cream. HAHA, did you think I meant doctor's tests?!!

Anyways, all this trouble would never have started if I wasn't with my boyfriend. He's way more of an ice cream freak than I am. Two years ago, I could've taken it or left it - didn't matter one bit to me. But now, addicted.

Yes, I blame him. I've gotta blame someone other than myself...

Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/08/2007:
LOL!? you blam your bf for your ice cream addiction!? don't we all...lol.

yeah, my crazy life is going to be getting busier too! but, i tell you, life is probably better busy than dull and boring always.


borntocry on 11/15/2007:
Hi legcramps! Great to catch up with you. You know, I must say I can relate to your last entry. My husband has gotten me addicted to pop. I never used to drink it before - in fact I hated it. But now, yep, addicted.



legcramps - Sunday Oct 21, 2007

Weight: 0.0

I am now in Phoenix and enjoying the warm weather. Warm by my standards, anyhow!

The Hotel we're staying at is nice in that it has free internet access. So, don't be suprised if I pop in once or twice more before we leave! Right now I am waiting for my boyfriend to finish picking up his tux, so I am a bit bored...but that's okay, because this is a holiday! And, I can be bored if I want to!

The hotel has a fitness centre, so after this entry i'm going to check it out and maybe do a workout on the treadmill or something.

Take care all!

shadetree on 10/21/2007:
I had some sort of chicken (can't remember what it's called, but it was good) with a baked sweet potato, also good. My husband had the grilled shrimp with wild rice and grilled veggies, and he ate it all. You can go online to view the menu (you have to go to the text only version) and it gives a pretty good description of the food. My stepdaughter loves their caesar salad, had that with some chicken dish...There's something for everyone!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/26/2007:
Sounds like a nice place! Phoenix must be having really nice weather now! I'd love to live somewhere like Phoenix where the weather is dry and it's perfect for exercising. However, it must get really HOT in the sumer! The hotel your staying in sounds nice!



legcramps - Thursday Oct 18, 2007

Weight: 0.0

Thank you fritters!! You are so right, I need to slow down!

Again, I had a hard day at work. An out of town meeting in the morning meant that I didn't get back in time for lunch. I chose work over food - again - and when the work was over my hands and forearms were trembling so badly that I ate straight away when I got home. Obviously, I need to make a few mistakes so that I can learn from them... but for goodness' sake legcramps, why are you doing this to yourself???!

I am off tomorrow to see my Dad, then grabbing a flight to Phoenix to attend a friend's wedding. Can't wait! It will be so much warmer than it is here!

Oh, right... slow down...

I am pms'ing now. I'll be sicker than a dog tomorrow, I know it, but i'll persevere because this just can't get me down!

I see an Outback Steakhouse night in my near future - and movie theatre complete with popcorn as well. Hmmn. Will need to practice willpower this week. Will. Power.

workingit2 on 10/19/2007:
It is only normal to see the 'goodies' of what we dieters consider forbidden foods, when everything else in our lives has controlled us for the past week. Somehow it just feels GOOD to give ourselves whatever we want, and food is such a focus of our lives as dieters, that it is only natural that this is what we think of first when we can finally take off the work clothes. Work, UGH.


fritters on 10/19/2007:
I hope you have a good visit with your dad and enjoy your trip. I would love to go someplace warm!! Outback might not be bad - just skip the potato - or get the sweet potato.



legcramps - Wednesday Oct 17, 2007

Weight: 0.0

OMG, I was so preoccupied with getting my boyfriend off to the airport yesterday that I totally missed my Thai Chi and kickboxing class! I mean, I FORGOT ALL ABOUT THEM!!! How sad is that?!!

I am sooooo busy. I have to go. I'll try and update later!

fritters on 10/17/2007:
Slow down!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/17/2007:
LOL, thanks for the comment about the whole wheat wrap! :)

missing tai chi shows the true love you have for your boyfriend!! LOL sorry to hear you cannot partake! have no fear, you'll get back into it! :)


workingit2 on 10/17/2007:
LOL I would do the same.



legcramps - Sunday Oct 14, 2007

Weight: 0.0

This morning I had to run around and look for an outfit for my boyfriend to wear for a friend's wedding rehearsal dinner that's coming up this weekend. I didn't get back to town until after lunch and I missed actually sitting down and having lunch. Then I went over to grandma's to talk with her about some of her finances, then to a friend's for a visit and a gathering of wits so to speak. When I got home I felt so dizzy and faint that I could have gone straight to bed right then! Not even one day after learning so much about diabetes and there I am, skipping meals and living on coffee! So I forced myself (and forced is not a strong word here - I really did have to force myself) to get up and drive to Subway where I picked up a simple wrap and some gingerale (always makes my tummy feel better). I'm very glad I did that, but I really need to learn to plan ahead. I would easily have gone without dinner as well tonight, and then decided at 9pm that I was starving and pigged out on some thing or other.

So I think a friend of mine is planning on joining a gym in the next few weeks. This will be great because i'll be able to join with her and have someone to go with. So the next 'baby step' of my plan should be well underway when I get back from vacation. The next baby step is going to be to make sure i'm eating every four hours. Even if it's a cracker for goodness' sake, at least it's something. Not much of a baby step maybe, but one day at a time!

Tonight maybe we'll walk the dogs. Or not. Who knows.

Exercise for October: 7 hours and 45 minutes. Ugh, that's terrible!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2007:
kombucha is this drink made like tea and it actually contains hardly any calories in a 12 ounce bottle. 60 calories and some carbonation. It's taste is almost like bear and its very satisfying and hits the spot!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2007:
for me, eating every 3 hours works best. even stranger, my body likes to eat like every two hours in the mornings!!! for some reason, my body seems to need much more food earlier in the day. as even strikes, cravings generally die down - unless i didn't eat enough beforehand.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2007:
what kind of wrap was it? plain white or was it a large whole wheat wrap??


fritters on 10/15/2007:
Diabetes is a scarry thing - I don't know a lot about it, but I know that you have to eat reagulary. You might even try a meal then 2 hours later a small snack that contains protien.



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