- Saturday Jan 05, 2008
The dogs and I went for a much needed/required walk last night, took about an hour and a half in total. I had to stop a couple of times for our big dog, Chewbacca, so that he could sniff around or lay down on the ground and pout. He was pouting because he was on the leash almost the entire time. My boyfriend doesn't ever leave Chewbacca on his leash, but I do because he's just too big of a dog to let loose - I can't control him. So he was pouting a bit, but he'll get over it! I hope eventually he will learn to walk beside me without having to pull on his leash all the time, although it IS a great workout for the arms!!!
My eating sucks. I am starting fresh today. I went to get groceries (mostly because I was out of bread because I ate it all) and decided NOT to buy any bread. So the house is sans bread at the moment. And I bought a lot of fruit for snacks. All I seem to want to do is snack! I won't question it though, it's better than wanting five course meals all the time!!!
I am busy cleaning house and feeling lonely because my boyfriend is off working again. He might be gone for three months this time! It's really boring without him here. Today, i'm really craving some company. Maybe i'll phone a friend later for coffee or something.
I guess I have a lot to say tonight because i'm so lonely and bored. Sorry guys!
My regular routine starts next week! Yippee!!!
Total exercise for January: 1.5 hours
- Friday Jan 04, 2008
Hope everyone had a good Christmas and New Year's. Gosh, it's been busy around here. I can hardly wait for February, when a friend and I are going to hit up the all-inclusive resort beaches and take a load off for a week. It will honestly be the best rest i've had in a long time.
Anyways, I had a rotten start to the New Year - I was sick, terribly sick. I must've gotten a flu of some type just before Christmas, and eventually that flu turned into a nasty cold. I couldn't speak for a few days even. It didn't stop me from going skiing though, so I guess I shouldn't complain too much, huh?!!
So I haven't had any exercise to log so far this month because i'm waiting to get over this cold. It's congestion in my chest now, and I just know if I workout then i'll probably choke on my phlegm. I've been working and sleeping, working and sleeping. As soon as I get home from work, I get into my p.j's and into bed. Yes, i've been needing some rest from the holidays! Today I feel ten times better than last week, and I might even try a walk tonight with the dogs. I'm always optimistic about what I can do.
Eating has been decent though not exceptional. As usual, I have my bouts with bread products and I think this one has lasted a couple of months now. I think it's time to kick it.
Getting back to the normal routine next week. Yay!
- Monday Dec 10, 2007
Still doing well on the exercise, but it's only been a few days since my last entry. I've made a date with a friend to hit the gym today after work for an hour, so that's great too. Mondays are usually harder to get to the gym because there usually aren't too many other friends who want to go or will go when I can go. I might even have another date later tonight for the gym with another friend. Believe me, I won't pass it up, especially with the mood i've been in - exercise is the best way to keep things off my mind!
Eating is still rocky, I just can't quite get it. I switched many moons ago to whole wheat bread, but I now realize that bread in and of itself is hazardous! I can't stop eating it! I'll eat just bread! Nothing else, just slices and slices of bread. Seems i'm just navigating my vices from one type of food to the next. Pretty soon there won't be any food in the house (except for vegetables and fruits of which I do not eat enough). I hope a pandemic doesn't strike - i'd be s&*t out of luck!
Total Exercise so far for December - 8 hours
- Friday Dec 07, 2007
It's been pretty busy here recently, work is crazy and my boyfriend is working away from home so is not around to help take care of the house and the dogs. For whatever reason, I am finding that mondays to fridays go by in the blink of an eye but the weekends go even faster. It's hard to believe it's been more than a year (almost a year and a half) since taking this new position on here at work. It feels more like a few months.
My supervisor is definitely leaving within the next couple of weeks and they will begin to orientate and train a new person for the position. I've met one man today that is a candidate for the position and am aware of a couple others who already work for the organization that have also been chosen as candidates. It will be a time-consuming and stressful few weeks for me (as i'm sure it will also be for the successful candidate) and i'm not looking forward to it although I won't say the change won't be good. It's just the added work that won't be good!
I've been fairly religious about working out on average five days/week. Some days are gym workouts, some are kickboxing and tai chi, and others are walks with the dogs. As I said before, it's not relieving my anxiety about life, but I think that's just the phase that i'm in right now which, when I think about it, is not even half as bad as these phases usually are!
Eating. That's something I still need to work on, but at least i've cut out soft ice cream and most cheeses from my diet. It's a start, and those were the two main ingredients that were making my life a living hell anyways.
Total exercise: 6 hours
- Monday Nov 26, 2007
Seriously, I need a break. From what? Well, almost everything I think. I need a break from work especially though - it is so all-consuming and stressful here right now. I've lost my supervisor to another area of the region and it saddens me because she was so wonderful to work for and i'm scared of what will happen next. Well, I suppose change is good, so we'll see if that saying is actually true. But I am still sad and I will be for a long time to come, sort of a mourning period for me right now.
That's one of the reasons I haven't been on here recently. Another reason is because it's getting closer to Christmas and I panic about almost everything a person can possibly panic about over Christmas. I need to get presents bought and wrapped, get the tree up and the decorating done, make sure my boyfriend fixes the wood stove and replaces the water jug - like, today - because he'll be working away from home until Dec 22nd. Yippee. That was sarcasm, if you didn't notice...
Anyways, i'm so stressed over the Christmas season and needing to do ten million things that i'm losing track of everything else - work and recreation activities are only a distant memory at the moment. My days consist of this (here is an actual week that I would have):
Monday: work, get groceries, walk dogs, make gift list/// Tuesday: work, two hours of exercise classes, shop online for gifts/// Wednesday: work, wrap gifts and decorate, baking, clean house, one hour of gym workout/// Thursday: work, stress over Christmas and decide I need to do more, shop online, decorate, one hour of exercise class/// Friday: work, stress some more and over-buy for people, walk dogs, modify and re-do gift list/// Saturday: get up early, one hour of gym workout, visit as many friends and family as possible in one afternoon because I didn't get to see anyone during the week, stress some more over gifts but decide not to do anything about it today (except stress)/// Sunday: get up early, one hour of gym workout, do laundry, clean house, check gift list and decide to rip it up and start fresh on Monday, baking, fall into bed.
I wish those activities like going to the gym, exercise classes or walking the dogs would de-stress me a little bit, but they don't. They make it worse because I could be doing so much more in the time i'm using for this exercise bull-sh!t. See? I'm going nut-zo.
I think the worst thing about my weeks are that i'm letting the stress bring me down. Don't get me wrong - i'm still in a pretty good mood, which is really surprising for me - but I can just feel the stress ulcers boiling up in my body...
- Monday Nov 05, 2007
Ugh. When does the business of life slow down?? Ever? EVER???
Working like a fiend to catch up on things, even though I haven't missed a whole lot of time away from the office. I guess it's a good thing as long as I can finish all my projects in time, otherwise I shall be a bit frustrated.
So I went on an ice cream pilot project in October. I was feeling really crappy in September and I am thinking that it was because of all the ice cream i'd been eating that month. Crazy amounts! So, after three weeks of an all-out ice cream fest, I decided to quit. Cold Turkey. Something that is extremely hard to do when you become addicted to it and it's a part of your normal everyday routine. I guess you know all about that though, so i'll just move on...
After three weeks of not even a smidgen of ice cream nearing my lips, I caved on Halloween Night. OOOOooo, scary. I asked my boyfriend 'wouldn't he like an ice cream?' and basically forced him into agreeing that ice cream was a good idea. On Thursday afternoon, whilst sitting at my desk at the office, I nearly had a breakdown. I was sick, not physically, but mentally. Really, literally, mentally ill. I barely made it home without sobbing, and once at home took it all out on my boyfriend, then proceeded to feel guilty and cry about that, too. Then, out of nowhere came the mean hand of anger. And I was angry!! Holy, was I angry! At what, I have no idea. I don't know why I was overcome with sadness, either. After bouncing off the two emotions for a good six hours, I finally pushed myself into bed and lay there almost panic stricken for about half an hour before I could fall asleep.
I think I need to find a substitute for ice cream. My boyfriend's Dad thinks I should take some more tests - you know, try hard ice cream next time instead of soft ice cream. HAHA, did you think I meant doctor's tests?!!
Anyways, all this trouble would never have started if I wasn't with my boyfriend. He's way more of an ice cream freak than I am. Two years ago, I could've taken it or left it - didn't matter one bit to me. But now, addicted.
Yes, I blame him. I've gotta blame someone other than myself...
- Sunday Oct 21, 2007
I am now in Phoenix and enjoying the warm weather. Warm by my standards, anyhow!
The Hotel we're staying at is nice in that it has free internet access. So, don't be suprised if I pop in once or twice more before we leave! Right now I am waiting for my boyfriend to finish picking up his tux, so I am a bit bored...but that's okay, because this is a holiday! And, I can be bored if I want to!
The hotel has a fitness centre, so after this entry i'm going to check it out and maybe do a workout on the treadmill or something.
Take care all!
- Thursday Oct 18, 2007
Thank you fritters!! You are so right, I need to slow down!
Again, I had a hard day at work. An out of town meeting in the morning meant that I didn't get back in time for lunch. I chose work over food - again - and when the work was over my hands and forearms were trembling so badly that I ate straight away when I got home. Obviously, I need to make a few mistakes so that I can learn from them... but for goodness' sake legcramps, why are you doing this to yourself???!
I am off tomorrow to see my Dad, then grabbing a flight to Phoenix to attend a friend's wedding. Can't wait! It will be so much warmer than it is here!
Oh, right... slow down...
I am pms'ing now. I'll be sicker than a dog tomorrow, I know it, but i'll persevere because this just can't get me down!
I see an Outback Steakhouse night in my near future - and movie theatre complete with popcorn as well. Hmmn. Will need to practice willpower this week. Will. Power.
- Wednesday Oct 17, 2007
OMG, I was so preoccupied with getting my boyfriend off to the airport yesterday that I totally missed my Thai Chi and kickboxing class! I mean, I FORGOT ALL ABOUT THEM!!! How sad is that?!!
I am sooooo busy. I have to go. I'll try and update later!
- Sunday Oct 14, 2007
This morning I had to run around and look for an outfit for my boyfriend to wear for a friend's wedding rehearsal dinner that's coming up this weekend. I didn't get back to town until after lunch and I missed actually sitting down and having lunch. Then I went over to grandma's to talk with her about some of her finances, then to a friend's for a visit and a gathering of wits so to speak. When I got home I felt so dizzy and faint that I could have gone straight to bed right then! Not even one day after learning so much about diabetes and there I am, skipping meals and living on coffee! So I forced myself (and forced is not a strong word here - I really did have to force myself) to get up and drive to Subway where I picked up a simple wrap and some gingerale (always makes my tummy feel better). I'm very glad I did that, but I really need to learn to plan ahead. I would easily have gone without dinner as well tonight, and then decided at 9pm that I was starving and pigged out on some thing or other.
So I think a friend of mine is planning on joining a gym in the next few weeks. This will be great because i'll be able to join with her and have someone to go with. So the next 'baby step' of my plan should be well underway when I get back from vacation. The next baby step is going to be to make sure i'm eating every four hours. Even if it's a cracker for goodness' sake, at least it's something. Not much of a baby step maybe, but one day at a time!
Tonight maybe we'll walk the dogs. Or not. Who knows.
Exercise for October: 7 hours and 45 minutes. Ugh, that's terrible!