- Wednesday Dec 08, 2004
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears. When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears. When you are worried.....I will give you hope. When you are confused.....I will help you cope. And when you are lost....And can't see the light. I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright. This is my oath.....I pledge till the end. Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend. ______________________________________________________________________
Yesterday was so great: 2 mugs tea, 2pc toast with light margarine, 1c salad with ranch dressing, 2c baby carrots, a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, 1c coffee with 1t sugar. 2L water.
I went shopping and got a good amount of my christmas shopping done, and when I got home I even wrapped most of it. That makes me feel so much more in control of everything now.
Plan for today: 2 mugs tea, 1pc toast with light margarine, 1c soup, 2c salad, baby carrots, possibly a sandwich from the cafeteria. My lunch is paid for today, some sort of Christmas thank you from our employers. Works for me, but i'm not having anything I don't want!
Chewie was out at the farm the other day and got kicked HARD by a cow. Sure, he knows not to go near them now, but man I thought he was a goner. He was bleeding from the mouth and one of his eyes was dark red and puffy. Poor little thing got a lot of cuddling from me, that's for sure!
I couldn't help but weigh myself last night, and it read 129! At night! Stay strong everyone!
- Tuesday Dec 07, 2004
I found a penny today, just laying on the ground. But it's not just a penny, this little coin I've found.
Found pennies come from heaven, that's what my Grandpa told me. He said Angels toss them down. Oh, how I loved that story.
He said when an Angel misses you, they toss a penny down. Sometimes just to cheer you up, to make a smile from a frown.
So, don't pass by that penny, when you 're feeling blue. It may be a penny from heaven, that an Angel's tossed to you. ______________________________________________________________________
Day 2 of 13.
Yesterday I 'gave myself a little rope' (thanks smiley!) and had two bowls of soup instead of the chicken and corn that I was planning. I made the soup myself, with a little help from a litre of low sodium chicken broth. I made vegetable soup, and once I had the first bowl I couldn't help but pour myself another! I still made the chicken and beans actually instead of corn, and i'll probably have that today. Other than that, I was on plan yesterday and even had 3L of water!
Plan: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 2pc toast with light margarine, salad and chicken, carrots.
Again I brought 1.5L of water and a mug of tea to work with me. I bought these 5 calorie certs the other day and opened them up and got a wickedly strong smell wafting towards my nose. Oy! They're black licorice flavored! I hate black licorice! What am I supposed to do with them now? Darn, such a good thing gone to waste, just like that.
I am not going to be ready for Christmas. I'm going out of my mind with panic. Oh, it hurts just thinking about everything I still need to do.
- Monday Dec 06, 2004
In April, Maya Angelou was interviewed by Oprah on her 70+ birthday. Oprah asked her what she thought of growing older. There on television, she said it was "exciting." Regarding body changes, she said there were many, occurring every day...like her breasts. They seem to be in a race to see which will reach her waist, first. The audience laughed so hard they cried. Maya Angelou said this:
"I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."
"I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights."
"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life."
"I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as "making a life."
"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. "
"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back."
"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."
"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."
"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."
"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." ______________________________________________________________________
I had a pretty decent weekend. Friday night for the stagette they pre-ordered food and I didn't have much of a choice in eating. There wasn't any salad either. It was all deep-fried stuff: onion rings, cauliflower, zuchinni, mozzasticks, mushrooms. And it was all with dip. I didn't have any dip, and I picked out 4 onion rings and a couple of other items, then called it a day. Not much for dinner, but i'd rather not eat anything than eat junk like that! I hate hate hate deep fried stuff (besides french fries, of course). Saturday I took it easy as well, had a ham and cheese sub on brown and a bowl of soup (chicken rice), then later on had another bowl of soup (cream of broccoli). Yesterday I had a 6" sub for lunch AND for dinner, and a bowl of soup afterwards. I also snacked on around three servings of chips while watching movies. I can't say that was great, but the weekend was far more a success than in other instances that I won't name.
Today's plan: carrots, 1pc toast with light margarine, chicken, possibly with corn, salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing. 2L water. I brought a mug of tea and 1.5L of water to work with me.
I will stay on track today. I have only two more weeks until BF's brother's wedding. The countdown begins. Today is Day 1 of 13.
- Friday Dec 03, 2004
"You can say any foolish thing to a dog, and the dog will give you a look that says, 'My God, you're right! I never would've thought of that!'" --Dave Barry ______________________________________________________________________
Chewie gave me a look last night that said 'My God, I'm right! I AM smarter than you!'. And then I whistled at him and he cocked his head and stared at me. It's supposed to be his call to come. I think we're going through the terrible three-month's.
Yesterday: BF ate the rest of the chicken and potatoes, so I made hamburger helper for dinner and added a 5-grain bun to that. I drank 2L water and 2 mugs of tea.
Today: 2pc toast with light margarine, 2 5-grain buns and a large salad, possibly with grilled chicken. 2 mugs of tea and 2L water.
I changed my weight, but I probably shouldn't have. I weighed myself not this morning, but last night just before jumping in the shower after volleyball. I weighed 130 even then, so I know I must be under that, but I don't want to guess so i'll just change it to what my weigh-in was. Volleyball was great last night! I even remember getting into my car to go home afterwards and thinking I wouldn't want to play with any other team. We just clicked, and even though I think we only won half our games, we were playing really well together. I got two huge spikes, was set up perfectly for them, and laid to waste the opposition. It was such a great feeling, especially since my spiking has been lacking in everything, including talent.
Tonight is the stagette; hopefully i'll be able to get some dancing in, and tomorrow i'll be christmas shopping in the city. The weather is good today - 6 degrees celsius is the high, but it will probably start raining later on, which means it might get icy tonight.
- Thursday Dec 02, 2004
"Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar." --Drew Carey ______________________________________________________________________
I don't want to complain in here, but i'm really p'd off right now. I'm stuck in a tight spot, catch 22, and right now I really hate my job. The lines of communication have gone dead, and i'm stuck sitting at the other end of the phone repeating over and over 'hello?'....'hello?'.
Yesterday: 2L water, 2 cinnamin buns, 2pc toast with light margarine, 2oz roasted chicken and 1c potatoes, 1c salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing, 1 mug tea.
Thanks becca, the cinnamin buns are gone now. I told BF that if he didn't eat them I was going to throw them away. He ate them, pdq too!
Today: 2pc toast with light margarine, 2oz chicken, 1c potatoes, 1c salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing. 3L water, 2 mugs tea.
I brought a mug of green tea and 1.5L water to work with me this morning, and I plan on not leaving at lunchtime until all the containers are empty. I even remembered to take my vitamins this morning.
I was having problems this morning logging on to the site, so that's why i'm journaling so much later. I have 2.5 hours of volleyball to play tonight, whoosh i'll be exhausted after that. I also have a decision to make tomorrow....
I have a stagette to attend on Friday night. We'll be going out for dinner (i'll order a salad), but we'll also be kicking it up in the bars. My choices are: limited number of drinks, no drinks at all, out and out drinking binge. The problem with all of these choices? Limitations are not my strength, nothing at all means i'll be getting hassled for brown-nosing (BF's mother will be there), drinking binge - well, we all know what the problem with that is. I made the decision yesterday to not drink at all, but my mind changes as fast as lightning strikes the earth. I'm just at such a loss right now - I can't make decisions very well and this is a big one for me.
Well, I suppose time will tell. Have a wonderful, strong day today my fellow diarists.
- Wednesday Dec 01, 2004
A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Wal-Mart. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Wal-Mart. We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. The little voice was so sweet...
"Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.
"What?" Mom asked.
"Let's run through the rain!" She repeated.
"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.
This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain."
"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.
"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said.
"This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?"
"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, "If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"
The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly...Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.
"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.
Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.
Yesterday: too much pizza, 6" ham and cheese sub on whole wheat, toast and peanut butter, coffee, cinammin bun.
Today so far: toast with light margarine, cinammin bun.
I need to make dinner tonight because otherwise i'll be eating that microwave pizza 'til the sun goes down. Went to grandma's house yesterday and brought back cinammin buns and 5-grain dinner buns. Like I needed more bread products. The coming weekend is fast approaching and i'm feeling like i've got nothing to show for the week. There has been no hard work on my part, no effort shown to exercise, no dog walking no nothing! Chewie was out at the farm all day yesterday and was so tired when he came home that he layed on top of me and fell right asleep. Gosh, he was even snoring! There was no way I was going to get him up to go for a walk. I'm glad he's at least getting HIS exercise....
I think that pizza is making me feel really blah today. I HAVE to stop eating that stuff. Mind over matter....
Okay, all I need to do to get back on track is drink some water. It's that simple. So start gulping.
- Tuesday Nov 30, 2004
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.
A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!
Yesterday was not good. I didn't write down what I ate, I only drank 1L of water, and I did nothing for exercise. I didn't even take poor Chewie for his daily walk. He was quite disgusted with me, by the way.
Today: 2pc toast with peanut butter, 1c coffee with 1t sugar, salad for lunch, chicken for dinner. 2L water.
Okay, let's accomplish something today....
- Monday Nov 29, 2004
Although the weekend started off well, it didn't exactly end up the same way. I didn't have the best show of willpower this weekend. I gave in over the weekend and had several servings of bbq chips. However, that was my only downfall, and i'm hoping that it didn't do too much damage.
Today's plan: bread, coffee, salad, seasoned turkey breast. Vitamin B, which of course i've forgotten about again.
Water: 2L because I seem to have forgotten about that as well....
I feel detached today. Maybe i'm still recovering from having three whole days off.
I went shopping yesterday and found a 6' christmas tree (fake) with the stand for $40 (Cdn). I thought it was a good deal, so I bought it. The tree that I have now is old and is starting to fall apart, but I noticed that it's almost exactly the same kind as the new one. Canadian Pine or something like that. Then I decided I needed new decorations too. So I bought red and white mini-lights, a set of 25 red bulbs and 25 silver bulbs. I also have some decorations saved up from past years and also some from my mother that I HAVE to put on the tree. It will be enough. I'm not the garland type, but I love bulbs and bows and candy canes. Anyhow, the point is i'm finally starting to get into the christmas spirit. Besides the gift buying. I got a headache as soon as we walked into the department store where I bought the tree. Yikes, that's not a good sign because I still have to buy quite a few gifts. I really want to put the tree up now, but BF says that it can't go up until a couple weeks' before the 25th. I'm just going to have to persuade him to think otherwise.....
We bought Chewie a big long rope to play with (I know, we should wait for christmas - ah well), and he took to it right away. Almost enough to even want to stop biting and chewing on us! I love that rope. Last night he was situated on the floor between BF and myself, and he rolled over onto his back with the rope in his mouth and fell asleep like that. It was so cute we couldn't stop laughing at him. Then he let out a stinker and we really couldn't stop laughing at him!
Hope everyone had a great weekend - stay strong this week!
- Thursday Nov 25, 2004
I finally did some measurements. That's all I wanted to say.
________________________________________________________________ Aha! That won't last, but boy oh boy is it ever nice to see!
Yesterday - 2 mugs coffee with whitener (that stuff STILL isn't done), 3pc bread, 2T light mayo, tuna salad (.25c), 6pc cheese (one more day of this and they're done!), a very LARGE salad with cherry tomatoes, bean sprouts, mushrooms and 2T light ranch dressing. 3L water!!!
Today: 2pc bread, 5pc cheese, turkey breast and another salad.
I'm taking a B vitamin for extra energy (of course, I forgot to take it this morning, zzzzz), and last night I had so much energy I had a hard time falling asleep. After eating dinner last night I went downstairs and had myself a little workout on the bike. Didn't touch the elliptical yet - that thing i'm definitely scared of.....After that, BF and I went for a walk with Chewie for just under an hour. Got some laundry done and the dishes are washed - geez, I just can't believe the energy I had yesterday.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!! And for all of us Canucks, let's get through the day by thinking of how our fellow Americans are spending their much deserved day off! Which reminds me to send an e-mail to my uncle.....bye all!
- Wednesday Nov 24, 2004
Yesterday: 1pc bread, 1T light mayo, 1 tuna salad sandwich, 1c broccoli casserole, 12 baby carrots, 6pc cheese! 1.5 mugs coffee with whitener and 2L water!
Today: 1pc bread, 1T light mayo, 2pc cheese, tuna salad, broccoli casserole, carrots.
That dumb cheese.
Yesterday after work I started cooking dinner, then BF came home and we went uptown quickly to take back a movie and pick a couple of things up. After eating, we took Chewie for a walk and ended up at the bar. Darn, forgot to add that rye and coke to my intake. The bar we went to wasn't far from home, so we didn't really get a great walk in. To let Chewie get his exercise, BF and I stood about 50ft apart and Chewie ran back and forth between us. But I got no exercise!!! I was going to then head downstairs and do some work on the machines, but decided to hit the sack early instead and so today i'm feeling quite guilty. Especially with all the cheese I ate last night. *sigh*
Today had better be a good day. Somehow i've got to lucky charm my way out of cooking tonight so that I can hit the machines early. Hmmmm.....