- Wednesday Dec 22, 2004
Yesterday went fairly well, actually. I've been in the failure mindset lately, which hasn't helped my efforts much, but I think having a fairly decent day yesterday will help me poke my head up out of this hole i've sunk into. I had an awful day at work, and ended up crying afterwards because of some little thing BF said to me. I was just so stressed out. We went for a long walk though, and that seemed to really help me thaw out.
Yesterday I had 2pc toast, grilled chicken, potatoes, tossed salad, and three mandarin oranges. I snuck in a piece of gum in the morning too. No water and no tea, but I didn't say I was perfect....
So today i'm working on making good choices and drinking some water. Slowly, i'll get back into it. Just in time for christmas. Have a great day to all of the diet diarists and to those who may not be updating but who are still 'checking up on the rest of us'!
- Tuesday Dec 21, 2004
I didn't have the best day yesterday, as usual. I did make a wonderful dinner of pork, brown and wild rice, and baked vegetables. I must say it was one of my better creations. Oh, if only borntocry was around to hear that. Anyhow, I then did the dishes, started laundry, picked up my mail from the post office, took the dog for a walk, and watched the rest of The Swan. By the time I got to it, there was only about 20 minutes left of the Season Finale. As soon as that ended, I went to sleep. I did not want to get up this morning, at all.
I got a lot of my baking done on Friday. I made mini cheesecake cups, brownies, and carrot cake. I have to still make sugar cookies and nanaimo bars. I have tried two of the brownies and one cheesecake cup since Friday. My goal is to maintain 130 throughout the holiday season, but if I start hawking on my own treats, i'll blow that right out of the water.
All kidding aside, I really will need to work my butt everyday in order to maintain. And I still haven't made it to the library to check out those audio books. Well, I DID make it there, but the library was closed that day. Figures....
- Monday Dec 20, 2004
I fell from the Cedar Tree (the Confidence) -- of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions. ______________________________________________________________________
The weekend was okay and for the most part I kept it reasonably under wraps in regards to eating (no pun intended). I had fun, but now it's back to work and time to keep plugging along for christmas. Tomorrow is the first day of winter. Saturday my car died on me and is sitting just outside a burger joint in town, rotting away in the snow and ice. And it's staying there until it apologizes.....
Have a happy day.
- Thursday Dec 16, 2004
While both male and female reindeer grow antlers in the summer each year, according to the Alaska Department of Fish and Game, male reindeer drop their antlers at the beginning of winter, usually late November to mid-December. Female reindeer retain their antlers until after they give birth in the spring. Therefore, according to every historical rendition depicting Santa's reindeer, every single one of them, from Rudolph to Blitzen - had to be a girl.
We should've known.
Only women would be able to drag a fat-ass man in a red velvet suit all around the world in one night and not get lost! ______________________________________________________________________
At this rate, i'll never get to my goal. Someone make me step it up a notch!
I was sick yesterday (TOM), and while remembering that I said I was ready for it, I blew a few too many gaskets and that theory went all to heck and back. I got so sick I eventually had to make a mad dash to emergency where they gave me two shots - one being gravol. Suffice it to say, I didn't eat much. A cup of soup here, a bite of a sandwich there, no tea, no water and a jolly good whollop of bad cheer.
The good news is that i'm crazy-thirsty today and i'm almost done a liter of water already. I'm going out for lunch today with my co-workers so I need to make good choices. It's going to be hard because i'm feeling so sorry for myself, but I know I can do it and I will.
Tonight is volleyball. Although my stomach muscles have been through a lot lately, I WILL go. I WILL play.
Things to accomplish today and tomorrow: finish gifts, pay bills, clean kitchen, living room and back porch, finish laundry, baking, test camcorder for wedding, prepare a dish for christmas party and buy some wine.
I get to have some fun tomorrow night and Saturday, depending on how i'm feeling. I have a christmas party tomorrow night that i'm hoping will be a blast, and BF's brother's wedding on Saturday that should be a lot of fun as well. I get to videotape it! Woohoo! I hope the battery doesn't die out on me....
Since i'm not at work tomorrow, I wish you all a very happy weekend. Later gators!
- Wednesday Dec 15, 2004
Considering I accomplished everything I set out to do yesterday, I should feel a lot better about myself today. But, alas, it doesn't always happen that way...
I was on track yesterday, only adding an orange and a sandwich at lunchtime to my total intake. Although I did not drink 2L water, I got both mugs of tea in and i'm just going to be happy about that. TOM came to visit, and i'm an emotional wreck at the moment. Last night BF did the dishes and some laundry, and made it seem like he did all the work around the house. I was watching the Biggest Loser and BF said he was going to go for a walk with the dog. I asked him to wait so that I could go as well. He huffed and puffed about having to wait, and his attitude really pissed me off. So I walked in silence. And I walked about ten steps behind him the whole time because I was wearing huge boots and three layers of clothing and a big long jacket, and I just couldn't keep up to him. Let me note here that he made no effort to wait for me. During the whole walk, my puppy basically stayed close to BF, which made me feel even more isolated. After the walk, I started cleaning the kitchen, then moved to the clothes and did everything I wanted to do! It didn't make me feel any better though, and while I was wrapping more gifts I noticed that one of my gifts was missing. I looked all over for it and I can't find it. It's hard to believe it went missing because I put all my bags directly on the dining room table as soon as I walked into the house from shopping. And those bags stayed just like that until last night. I don't get it. Anyways, this was the icing on the cake, and I ran upstairs and cried myself to sleep. Crazy, huh?! I woke up around 2am, sick to my stomach and cramping like crazy. Hello, TOM. I've been waiting for you.
- Tuesday Dec 14, 2004
One beautiful December evening Huan Cho and his girlfriend Jung Lee were sitting by the side of the ocean. It was a romantic full moon, when Huan Cho said "Hey baby, let's play Weeweechu."
"Oh no, not now, lets look at the moon" said Jung Lee.
"Oh, c'mon baby, let's you and I play Weeweechu. I love you and it's the perfect time," Huan Cho begged.
"But I rather just hold your hand and watch the moon."
"Please Jung Lee, just once play Weeweechu with me."
Jung Lee looked at Huan Chi and said, "OK, we'll play Weeweechu."
Huan Cho grabbed his guitar and they both sang...
"Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, Weeweechu a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year." ______________________________________________________________________
Did I say I was on track yesterday?
Everything was going alright. I had a mug of tea, my regular piece of toast for breakfast, I made chicken with couscous and cooked carrots and celery, and had salad as well for dinner. Then I had dessert. An ice cream cup. Which is still alright, because they're low cal, low fat, and I think one cup is around 100cals. But then BF left and took the dog for a walk. Why didn't I just go with them????? NOOOO, instead I needed to have another ice cream cup. Why didn't I at least go downstairs (walk a measly 20 stairs) and do some exercising??? Instead I flitted between sitting on the couch and walking over to the chocolate jar. I had three pieces of chocolate before forcing myself to stop grazing. But that's not all...
About one hour later, bored and with nothing to do (of course, there's cleaning, laundry, wrapping, and dog grooming to do), I decide that i'm still hungry and make myself one of those microwave individual pizza things. And yes, I ate it all.
I feel terrible today and I know why. Mondays are my toughest challenge so far, just getting back on track after Sunday. I guess from now on i'll have to try and limit what I have on Sunday so that moving into Monday won't be so terribly hard. I almost feel like crying, but I know that it won't help and I know that this doesn't mean i'm a failure - but I sure feel like one right now, you know? I can sure forget about my wonderful low of 128.5 now.
The important thing is to keep going. Don't worry, I know, i've said it myself hundreds of times. And I will. But I just want to wallow in my misery and self-pity for just a little longer today.
Plan for today: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, vitamins, toast for breakfast, baby carrots, chicken with couscous, salad, cook dinner because there aren't enough leftovers (same thing as yesterday), do laundry, clean kitchen, wrap gifts, take dog for walk. If time after this (ya right), start cleaning living room and dining room area, and haul clothes upstairs where they're supposed to be, instead of on the stairs.
Have a good day everyone - this will be a great week!
- Monday Dec 13, 2004
I had an alright weekend, although yesterday I managed to throw all caution to the wind and have myself a mini-binge. I had a balogne sandwich on rye bread for lunch, then two pieces of pepperoni pizza, then a smokie on a piece of rye bread, and then two servings of chips. It's bound to happen, so i'm not going to beat myself up. I'll just try that much harder this coming weekend to ward off those evil spirits that have my taste buds at their mercy.
Anyhow, back at it today of course, and it looks like it may be a good day. It's only 9:15 here, but i'm going to go ahead and say it anyways. Tonight i'm cooking chicken, I have to do laundry and dishes, do the grocery shopping and keep on wrapping gifts. I got the rest of my shopping done on Saturday and now I have one gift left. Now I just have to wrap everything! This week i'm going to clean BF's place up so that we can start to look forward to Christmas instead of always thinking about what we still have to do/clean/prepare. At least the cleaning will be out of the way then. Since i'm off on Friday, i'm going to start my christmas baking as well. I'm on track this week ladies. Which means nasty TOM will rear it's head and threaten to throw me off. But this week, i'm ready for anything....
- Friday Dec 10, 2004
Oh Happy Day!
What six colours are on the classic Campbell's soup label?
Blue, red, white, yellow, black,& gold ______________________________________________________________________
I need to take measurements again, but i'm lazy so it will have to wait.
Yesterday, again, was a success. I'm on a roll (knock on wood): 1 mug tea, 2L water, 2pc toast, 2oz mozza cheese, 1c soup, a few baby carrots, 1c coffee with 1t sugar, 1 porkchop with 3/4c of corn, cooked carrots, and mushroom soup mix. I fully intended on making chicken, but when I looked in the freezer there was none to be had. I'm just about out of vegetables, too. And bread. It's grocery shopping time.
Today: 1pc toast with light margarine, 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 1/2 c soup, 1/2 tuna salad sandwich. Dinner will either be porkchops again or a sub on the way to wallyball tonight. 2 hours of that and i'll be wiped for the entire weekend.
This is how my day went yesterday: I got home around 5pm, started dinner, changed, suited up to go outside, took the dog with me and shovelled the driveway. By the time 6pm rolled around, BF was home from work and helped me out with the last of it. We got that done and then went inside to eat. After eating, BF took off to volleyball (we play at different times) and I suited up again and took Chewie for a walk. Well. What a walk it was. The sidewalks were piled high with snow and every road I chose to walk down seemed to be the busiest street in town! So we really roughed it, ploughing through the snow. Sometimes I would walk on the edge of the road and Chewie would choose to walk in the snow. We walked to my mother's and picked up some things I needed for the wedding next weekend, then headed back home. I was dead tired and sweating by the time we got back, and BF was already finished volleyball and back home! It was close to 8:30pm by then. No cleaning for me. Anyways, I got ready for volleyball and headed to the gym. It took half an hour for them to get the nets up (that just shows how 'recreational' our league is), so our games got pushed back as well, and I finished around 11pm. I was dragging my butt for the last 15 minutes! When I finally got home, I literally fell into bed. No relax time for me yesterday, and today doesn't look much better. Hope you are all having a wonderful Friday! Have a great weekend!
- Thursday Dec 09, 2004
What six colours are on the classic Campbell's soup label? ______________________________________________________________________
Day 3 of 13.
I had a wonderful day again yesterday, though not without some temptation: 1 cup fruit punch, 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 1pc toast with light margarine, 1c salad without dressing, 1oz turkey, 1/2 tuna salad sandwich, 1c soup. I also tried bites of a perogy, a meatball, and a few pieces of buttered popcorn. All said, I think I avoided temptation quite well yesterday.
Plan: 2 mugs tea, 2L water, 1pc toast, 1c soup, salad with chicken, carrots.
I need to do some cleaning up. The kitchen and the living room are in dire need of straightening, and Chewie's back porch definitely needs the vacuum rolled over it. I have volleyball tonight, but it doesn't start until 9pm so hopefully i'll get some cleaning in before that. I also have to pick up a camcorder tonight, cook dinner (chicken) and take Chewie for a walk. Here comes that feeling of hopelessness again.....
Watched the Bourne Supremacy (sp?) last night. I thought it was pretty good, just as good as the first one. We took Chewie for a walk and tried to wear him out. Unfortunately, I got worn out way before he did, so we had to run him back and forth between us so that he'd get more exercise. He was very excited about going for a walk last night because it was snowing and the ground was thick with it. He jumped around and played in it the whole time. That little puppy loves snow! I shouldn't say little - we weighed him last night on my scale and it shows that he's 35lbs already! Four months old. Imagine when he's a year old. I'm guessing he'll be around 60lbs in no time.
Here's to today - that it will be just as good as the beginning of the week was. Good luck all!
- Wednesday Dec 08, 2004
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears. When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears. When you are worried.....I will give you hope. When you are confused.....I will help you cope. And when you are lost....And can't see the light. I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright. This is my oath.....I pledge till the end. Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend. ______________________________________________________________________
Yesterday was so great: 2 mugs tea, 2pc toast with light margarine, 1c salad with ranch dressing, 2c baby carrots, a grilled ham and cheese sandwich, 1c coffee with 1t sugar. 2L water.
I went shopping and got a good amount of my christmas shopping done, and when I got home I even wrapped most of it. That makes me feel so much more in control of everything now.
Plan for today: 2 mugs tea, 1pc toast with light margarine, 1c soup, 2c salad, baby carrots, possibly a sandwich from the cafeteria. My lunch is paid for today, some sort of Christmas thank you from our employers. Works for me, but i'm not having anything I don't want!
Chewie was out at the farm the other day and got kicked HARD by a cow. Sure, he knows not to go near them now, but man I thought he was a goner. He was bleeding from the mouth and one of his eyes was dark red and puffy. Poor little thing got a lot of cuddling from me, that's for sure!
I couldn't help but weigh myself last night, and it read 129! At night! Stay strong everyone!