- Friday Dec 03, 2004
"You can say any foolish thing to a dog, and the dog will give you a look that says, 'My God, you're right! I never would've thought of that!'" --Dave Barry ______________________________________________________________________
Chewie gave me a look last night that said 'My God, I'm right! I AM smarter than you!'. And then I whistled at him and he cocked his head and stared at me. It's supposed to be his call to come. I think we're going through the terrible three-month's.
Yesterday: BF ate the rest of the chicken and potatoes, so I made hamburger helper for dinner and added a 5-grain bun to that. I drank 2L water and 2 mugs of tea.
Today: 2pc toast with light margarine, 2 5-grain buns and a large salad, possibly with grilled chicken. 2 mugs of tea and 2L water.
I changed my weight, but I probably shouldn't have. I weighed myself not this morning, but last night just before jumping in the shower after volleyball. I weighed 130 even then, so I know I must be under that, but I don't want to guess so i'll just change it to what my weigh-in was. Volleyball was great last night! I even remember getting into my car to go home afterwards and thinking I wouldn't want to play with any other team. We just clicked, and even though I think we only won half our games, we were playing really well together. I got two huge spikes, was set up perfectly for them, and laid to waste the opposition. It was such a great feeling, especially since my spiking has been lacking in everything, including talent.
Tonight is the stagette; hopefully i'll be able to get some dancing in, and tomorrow i'll be christmas shopping in the city. The weather is good today - 6 degrees celsius is the high, but it will probably start raining later on, which means it might get icy tonight.
- Thursday Dec 02, 2004
"Oh, you hate your job? Why didn't you say so? There's a support group for that. It's called EVERYBODY, and they meet at the bar." --Drew Carey ______________________________________________________________________
I don't want to complain in here, but i'm really p'd off right now. I'm stuck in a tight spot, catch 22, and right now I really hate my job. The lines of communication have gone dead, and i'm stuck sitting at the other end of the phone repeating over and over 'hello?'....'hello?'.
Yesterday: 2L water, 2 cinnamin buns, 2pc toast with light margarine, 2oz roasted chicken and 1c potatoes, 1c salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing, 1 mug tea.
Thanks becca, the cinnamin buns are gone now. I told BF that if he didn't eat them I was going to throw them away. He ate them, pdq too!
Today: 2pc toast with light margarine, 2oz chicken, 1c potatoes, 1c salad with mushrooms and light ranch dressing. 3L water, 2 mugs tea.
I brought a mug of green tea and 1.5L water to work with me this morning, and I plan on not leaving at lunchtime until all the containers are empty. I even remembered to take my vitamins this morning.
I was having problems this morning logging on to the site, so that's why i'm journaling so much later. I have 2.5 hours of volleyball to play tonight, whoosh i'll be exhausted after that. I also have a decision to make tomorrow....
I have a stagette to attend on Friday night. We'll be going out for dinner (i'll order a salad), but we'll also be kicking it up in the bars. My choices are: limited number of drinks, no drinks at all, out and out drinking binge. The problem with all of these choices? Limitations are not my strength, nothing at all means i'll be getting hassled for brown-nosing (BF's mother will be there), drinking binge - well, we all know what the problem with that is. I made the decision yesterday to not drink at all, but my mind changes as fast as lightning strikes the earth. I'm just at such a loss right now - I can't make decisions very well and this is a big one for me.
Well, I suppose time will tell. Have a wonderful, strong day today my fellow diarists.
- Wednesday Dec 01, 2004
A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Wal-Mart. She must have been 6 years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the Wal-Mart. We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their hurried day. The little voice was so sweet...
"Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.
"What?" Mom asked.
"Let's run through the rain!" She repeated.
"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.
This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run through the rain."
"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.
"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl said.
"This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?"
"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you said, "If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"
The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few minutes. Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would laugh it off and scold her for being silly...Some might even ignore what was said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.
"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.
Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.
Yesterday: too much pizza, 6" ham and cheese sub on whole wheat, toast and peanut butter, coffee, cinammin bun.
Today so far: toast with light margarine, cinammin bun.
I need to make dinner tonight because otherwise i'll be eating that microwave pizza 'til the sun goes down. Went to grandma's house yesterday and brought back cinammin buns and 5-grain dinner buns. Like I needed more bread products. The coming weekend is fast approaching and i'm feeling like i've got nothing to show for the week. There has been no hard work on my part, no effort shown to exercise, no dog walking no nothing! Chewie was out at the farm all day yesterday and was so tired when he came home that he layed on top of me and fell right asleep. Gosh, he was even snoring! There was no way I was going to get him up to go for a walk. I'm glad he's at least getting HIS exercise....
I think that pizza is making me feel really blah today. I HAVE to stop eating that stuff. Mind over matter....
Okay, all I need to do to get back on track is drink some water. It's that simple. So start gulping.
- Tuesday Nov 30, 2004
One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do. Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.
A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!
Yesterday was not good. I didn't write down what I ate, I only drank 1L of water, and I did nothing for exercise. I didn't even take poor Chewie for his daily walk. He was quite disgusted with me, by the way.
Today: 2pc toast with peanut butter, 1c coffee with 1t sugar, salad for lunch, chicken for dinner. 2L water.
Okay, let's accomplish something today....
- Monday Nov 29, 2004
Although the weekend started off well, it didn't exactly end up the same way. I didn't have the best show of willpower this weekend. I gave in over the weekend and had several servings of bbq chips. However, that was my only downfall, and i'm hoping that it didn't do too much damage.
Today's plan: bread, coffee, salad, seasoned turkey breast. Vitamin B, which of course i've forgotten about again.
Water: 2L because I seem to have forgotten about that as well....
I feel detached today. Maybe i'm still recovering from having three whole days off.
I went shopping yesterday and found a 6' christmas tree (fake) with the stand for $40 (Cdn). I thought it was a good deal, so I bought it. The tree that I have now is old and is starting to fall apart, but I noticed that it's almost exactly the same kind as the new one. Canadian Pine or something like that. Then I decided I needed new decorations too. So I bought red and white mini-lights, a set of 25 red bulbs and 25 silver bulbs. I also have some decorations saved up from past years and also some from my mother that I HAVE to put on the tree. It will be enough. I'm not the garland type, but I love bulbs and bows and candy canes. Anyhow, the point is i'm finally starting to get into the christmas spirit. Besides the gift buying. I got a headache as soon as we walked into the department store where I bought the tree. Yikes, that's not a good sign because I still have to buy quite a few gifts. I really want to put the tree up now, but BF says that it can't go up until a couple weeks' before the 25th. I'm just going to have to persuade him to think otherwise.....
We bought Chewie a big long rope to play with (I know, we should wait for christmas - ah well), and he took to it right away. Almost enough to even want to stop biting and chewing on us! I love that rope. Last night he was situated on the floor between BF and myself, and he rolled over onto his back with the rope in his mouth and fell asleep like that. It was so cute we couldn't stop laughing at him. Then he let out a stinker and we really couldn't stop laughing at him!
Hope everyone had a great weekend - stay strong this week!
- Thursday Nov 25, 2004
I finally did some measurements. That's all I wanted to say.
________________________________________________________________ Aha! That won't last, but boy oh boy is it ever nice to see!
Yesterday - 2 mugs coffee with whitener (that stuff STILL isn't done), 3pc bread, 2T light mayo, tuna salad (.25c), 6pc cheese (one more day of this and they're done!), a very LARGE salad with cherry tomatoes, bean sprouts, mushrooms and 2T light ranch dressing. 3L water!!!
Today: 2pc bread, 5pc cheese, turkey breast and another salad.
I'm taking a B vitamin for extra energy (of course, I forgot to take it this morning, zzzzz), and last night I had so much energy I had a hard time falling asleep. After eating dinner last night I went downstairs and had myself a little workout on the bike. Didn't touch the elliptical yet - that thing i'm definitely scared of.....After that, BF and I went for a walk with Chewie for just under an hour. Got some laundry done and the dishes are washed - geez, I just can't believe the energy I had yesterday.
HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!! And for all of us Canucks, let's get through the day by thinking of how our fellow Americans are spending their much deserved day off! Which reminds me to send an e-mail to my uncle.....bye all!
- Wednesday Nov 24, 2004
Yesterday: 1pc bread, 1T light mayo, 1 tuna salad sandwich, 1c broccoli casserole, 12 baby carrots, 6pc cheese! 1.5 mugs coffee with whitener and 2L water!
Today: 1pc bread, 1T light mayo, 2pc cheese, tuna salad, broccoli casserole, carrots.
That dumb cheese.
Yesterday after work I started cooking dinner, then BF came home and we went uptown quickly to take back a movie and pick a couple of things up. After eating, we took Chewie for a walk and ended up at the bar. Darn, forgot to add that rye and coke to my intake. The bar we went to wasn't far from home, so we didn't really get a great walk in. To let Chewie get his exercise, BF and I stood about 50ft apart and Chewie ran back and forth between us. But I got no exercise!!! I was going to then head downstairs and do some work on the machines, but decided to hit the sack early instead and so today i'm feeling quite guilty. Especially with all the cheese I ate last night. *sigh*
Today had better be a good day. Somehow i've got to lucky charm my way out of cooking tonight so that I can hit the machines early. Hmmmm.....
- Tuesday Nov 23, 2004
Yesterday: 4pc ww bread, 1T margarine, 2T light ranch dressing, 1 can tuna, 12 or so baby carrots and about 3 pieces of cheese. Water - 2L!
Today: 12 baby carrots, 1 can tuna, some bean sprouts, a few cherry tomatoes, 1c lettuce, 2T light ranch dressing, 1pc ww bread, 4 to 5 pieces of cheese.
Water - 2L again.
The moment I looked at that big bag of Babybel cheese was the final breaking point for me. I've avoided cheese like it had the plague, only because I love it so much that i'd binge on it for sure. Well, simply looking at the bag and walking away while I was in the grocery store yesterday would have been much too difficult to do. I am trying as hard as I can to limit the intake each day, and when this bag is done I believe I will be able to breathe a little easier.
Yesterday when I got home from work I collapsed on the couch. I was pretty tired, but when BF came home, still managed to get my butt up and to the grocery store. BF went bowling, so I didn't have to worry about making dinner last night. When I got back from shopping, I made myself 1/2 a tuna salad sandwich, then took Chewie for a walk. Boy, was it ever cold outside! I think it went down to -12C. This morning it's at -10C. I can't wait until it gets down to -30C (sarcasm). Anyhow, after the walk I fell back onto the couch and went to sleep. BF came home after bowling and woke me up, then he took Chewie for a walk. I went to the fridge and started in on the cheese! When they got back, I stopped and decided to hit the sack. Thank goodness I stopped, because i'm sure I could've kept going on and on. A mixture of tiredness and boredom almost drove my resolve right out the window last night.
Something i've learned - don't keep trigger foods in the house. Ever. It's going to be a rough week.
- Monday Nov 22, 2004
Friday: 1pc ww bread with a teaspoon of margarine, coffee, tea, 2 tuna salad sandwiches, 1pc chocolate and a piece of gum. Water - what water?
Saturday: 3pc rye toast with butter, coffee, 6" ham and cheese sub on ww, 2oz roasted chicken, .5c mashed potatoes, 1c salad with ranch dressing, 1pc cheese pizza. Water - around 1L.
Sunday: 6" ham and cheese sub on ww, 1.5c fast food french fries with ketchup. Water - around 1.5L. I didn't eat much on Sunday because I didn't actually wake up until sometime in the afternoon. Yeah. It happens.
Today's Plan: 2pc ww toast with 1T butter, tuna salad sandwiches. Water - 2L?
I'm going to try hard again this week and hopefully another pound will come off soon. My objective this week will be to get some sort of exercise in everyday until next weigh-in. Sorry if i'm blunt today, still kind of out of it from the weekend shift.
Have a good one today!
- Friday Nov 19, 2004
I weighed again this morning and i'm happy to report that my weight has stayed at 130lbs for two days in a row!
Yesterday: 1pc toast and 1 mug coffee, tuna salad sandwich, another mug of coffee, turkey salad sandwich with 1c salad. We decided since we didn't have much time yesterday to just go out to eat. I got a turkey salad sandwich on rye bread and asked for salad instead of getting fries. I ate half of everything, then boxed it up and took it home. Later on, after volleyball, BF ate the other half of the sandwich, so all that's left is the salad. I'm kind of glad he did, because when I looked up the number of calories in a full turkey salad sandwich, it was over 400! I didn't need that, seeing as I ate half the salad as well, with creamy ranch dressing that was definitely not low in fat!
Water: let's not go there.
Today: 1pc toast with 1 mug of coffee, tuna salad sandwich (with only 1pc bread), not sure what to have for dinner, because we're on the move again today.
Water today: I don't know. I feel like crap. Well, not like crap, but I want some kind of excuse for not having to drink water today...
okay, 2.5L water.
Went for a walk with the puppy last night. Finally, after over an hour of walking, I said I was getting tired. BF decided to run home with the dog, grab the car and come back and pick me up. Hehe. Spoiled, huh?! Besides, the dog was still about as excited and ready to go as the moment we left the house. He needed a little more exercise than just walking, and BF is the only one of us that can actually straight out run for as long a distance it was to get back home. Okay, I bailed, but in retrospect, I still got a good walk in.
I'm going to set my next goal at 126lbs. This I think will be my final goal. I want to be in the range of 125-130.
Here starts my second final test. The biggest challenge will be maintenance WHEN I reach my new goal weight.