- Monday Jun 28, 2004
My weekend was not healthy, not healthy at all.
What could I say to motivate myself? What could I do? Obviously, I think i'm a lost cause right now.
I can't remember what I ate on Friday or Saturday and I didn't write it down, so it's also a lost cause. Sunday I had buffet-style salads, hashbrowns and a small slice of ham with eggs and ketchup. After vacuuming out my new 1981 Dodge van, I washed the whole outside and scrubbed the whole inside, then went to work putting in carpet on the floor. It's my shag-wagon. Anyhow, after that I got about an hour's worth of batting and catching practice (and i'm sore today from all the running around I did) and then played some bauchi-ball. Sorry, I'm not sure if that's the correct spelling. Then for supper I had ham and pepperoni pizza and orange juice. I read last night and finally finished a book I was reading, The Dirt by Motley Crue. Good book.
This morning i've already had two slices of leftover pizza. I knew that was a bad idea.
But it was my idea, so I can't blame anyone but myself.
- Friday Jun 25, 2004
Well, that what else turned into something horrendous. All day until supper I went with my boiled potato with onions, raw veggies with light dip and water. Then, for supper I had a hot dog. Okay, still not terrible. Then I drank a can of rootbeer. I mean, come on. I hardly ever drink pop, why did I have to last night? Anyhow, after watching the parade in town (Loonie Thursday was yesterday - don't ask me) I walked back home and tried to read. But all I could think about was food. I was so hungry I was almost willing to eat more veggies. But then the salivating thought of red meat, pickles and salty fries took over my mind. I went through the drive through at A&W and hammered down a momma burger with cheese and medium fries in about 10 minutes. Then I felt disgustingly guilty. And I was still hungry.
Sigh - if I would have held out and just gone to sleep, I would have woken up this morning a lot happier. Instead I woke up starving. Oh, yes, starving. I barely made it to work on time, so I had to improvise on breakfast. I had a french cappaccino and a chocolate bar. Oh, fire me now. I don't deserve to even try to lose weight anymore. What's left for today? It should be nothing, but of course I don't have that kind of willpower, so it's water and raw veggies. No dip. Because I forgot to bring any. And supper will be whatever is on special at our little corner cafe that my boy and I always go to for supper. They usually have healthy good stuff everyday, you just have to ask for no fries. So let's see if I can refrain from eating at night tonight.
My back hurts.
I'm going to go for a walk tonight. That's about it. Just thought you should know.
- Thursday Jun 24, 2004
I've decided not to step on the scale for a little while for fear of what it might tell me. I've also decided to stop deluding myself. So, i'm a walking contradiction right now. Oh well.
Yesterday was a good day. I had one serving of pretzels, one boiled potato with cooked onions and a dab of butter, three servings of raw veggies with a small amount of ranch dip and an egg salad sandwich on brown bread with coffee.
Then I played ball. And ran and ran and ran. Let me gloat for a moment - I hit an infield grand slam. Boy, am I stoked about that!
Then I decided I deserved a beer. Then I decided to hit the bar up for some drink specials. And had two paralyzers. Well, there's my calcium for the day I guess.
All in all, not a bad day. Today's plan is raw veggies with light ceasear dip, one boiled potato and one serving pretzels. I don't know what else.
- Wednesday Jun 16, 2004
I feel severely bloated today, not sure why but it should go away so that I can feel good about myself for once. Yesterday I had beef veggie soup for dinner and a turkey sandwich for supper, with a cup of coffee. In the afternoon at work I had two servings of pretzels (mmmmm, salt) and an orange. Happy happy joy joy, something clicked. Maybe the pretzels are a good reason why i'm bloated. Crappy yummy pretzels.
I did watch ball, without having any beer - How can I? I'm not sure, but part of the reason was because I was already cold and didn't want to drink cold beer on top of it; but mostly because no one else was drinking. I'm huge on peer pressure. I have no willpower at all.
After ball I grabbed a slice of turkey and ate that, then went to bed. So all in all, I think I had a pretty good day yesterday. Today so far I haven't had anything to drink! I know, get on the taps woman. I've been munching on celery and peanut butter spread pretty much all morning and I feel full. There's a glass of water sitting right next to me which I haven't yet touched but got about 2 hours ago. So, let's get to it.
Dinner I don't know. Supper I know even less. I'm tired and I want to sleep. And I have to play ball tonight. That means exercise. AAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!
- Tuesday Jun 15, 2004
Oh what a night......
I had salad and chicken for dinner, and a ham and cheese sandwich for supper yesterday. Then I went and watched fastball for about 4 hours and got hungry again. All I did was sit there, have a couple beer, and watch ball. How could I get hungry doing that?????! Anyhow, so after the game I picked up half of a half of a 6" ham and cheese sub, with only mustard for sauce. Agh, not bad I guess.
To answer a question brought to me: I'm not usually much of a breakfast eater - I tend to rather munch all morning instead of sitting down to a meal at 7am before work. So having the piece of bread with peanut butter was lots for me compared to what I usually consume at that time. And i'm huge on juices in the morning instead of actually eating something. For example, today so far i've had a bottle of strawberry/kiwi fruit juice and a bottle of lemon iced tea.
Today? Who bloody knows.
I have turkey in the fridge but no bread. I have carrots but no peeler. I guess it's brocolli and celery with dip for dinner. Supper? Who bloody knows, but my guess would be salad and chicken. Watching ball again tonight, this time with NO beer. See if I can do that. Baby steps. And probably some sort of snack later after the game, because that seems to be the nasty habit i've gotten myself into.
- Monday Jun 14, 2004
I've been so busy trying to get together an itinerary for my trip to Europe that my diet has been non-existent lately. At least, that's the excuse i'm using today.
This morning I had a piece of 12 grain bread with peanut butter spread. Dinner will be salad with chicken, and supper possibly veggies and that's it. I have to find a way to incorporate fruit into my diet without having to stock it in my fridge because it will just freeze or go bad. I can't go to the grocery store everyday either. Hmm, i'll have to think about that one.
I was supposed to play last weekend in a ball tournament but it was cancelled due to rain so I didn't get much exercise in. I walked a lot (no gas in car and with gas prices the way they are i'd better darnwell walk whenever I can) and went for a jog with a friend's dog. So that was okay, but not enough. Of course.
Have a great day all!
- Thursday Jun 10, 2004
I should have been thinking this morning and weighed myself because i'm not going to have access to a computer tomorrow. Darn. Maybe i'm doing this on purpose because I can tell that i'm not at 141.
I went shopping yesterday and picked up 12 grain bread, light peanut butter and cheese whiz, light soya sauce, non fat yogurt and chickpeas, along with some low fat turkey sandwich meat. I still have some chicken breast in the freezer and raw veggies in the crisper, so other than the odd piece of fruit everything I need is at home now. No reason to eat out. No reason at all.
Yesterday wasn't the greatest day. I had a cappaccino in the morning again, and since I still hadn't gone grocery shopping, I needed something for dinner. So instead of picking a nice healthy sub I headed for A&W. Momma burger with cheese and fries and a root beer. Of course, I only had a sip of the drink and then poured it out. I mean, THAT stuff is BAD for you........
Then in the afternoon I headed for the vending machine at work. But instead of getting chips I got an iced tea. And I was right - I was actually more thirsty than hungry. Supper was a peanut butter sandwich and then off to play ball. I ran around a lot again - I love running around. After ball I went to the bar for a drink, which turned into three beer. They were selling hamburgers instead of hot dogs this time, for $1, so I had half of one, with cheese and ketchup. When I got home I had another half of a peanut butter sandwich. I knew I shouldn't have gotten that peanut butter.
This morning so far was two slices of toast with cheeze whiz spread. I should have only had one, because I now feel really full and not quite up to par. Live and learn. Dinner - veggies. Supper - turkey sandwich. Tonight I have to make hummus so that I can use it instead of mayo on my sandwiches. yeah yeah.
Have a good one.
- Wednesday Jun 09, 2004
I did alright yesterday I think. I had salad for dinner and salad for supper with 2 chicken strips with dill dip. 1 cup of cappaccino in the morning, and 2 cups of coffee at suppertime. I ran around sticking up posters for a bit, then watched some ball games. When I got back home I had the other 3 chicken strips with dip and a slice of garlic toast. And then I had a beer. I know.
Today's plan is I don't know. I have nothing in the fridge. I was supposed to go food shopping yesterday but was too lazy to find time to do it. I have stale veggies, crystalized sweet and sour sauce and frozen water. Oh, and some pasta sauce that I think has ice hanging off the lid. Damn fridge. Today I don't care, which means I might not eat at all. I want to feel sick and hungry today, to match my crappy mood. People piss me off.
On the up side, I found a really neat Tommy skirt for way under half price the other day and i'm wearing it today. I hardly ever wear skirts, but this one is so pretty it was impossible to resist.
I'm also planning another excursion in the near future. I have already made plans to save money starting with my next paycheque, and i'm breaking cable connection and phone line. I have a cell phone, so I don't need to have two lines going. I'm only in one place at a time. I'm cutting down on eating out and partying, and i'm saving a certain amount each month so that i'll have enough when it's time to go. I'm not sure where yet, my boy and I are still discussing that, but this time it's going to be for a month at least. Ah, such high hopes for the feeble minded.......
- Tuesday Jun 08, 2004
I wasn't around home on Friday so I didn't get a chance to weigh in. I guess i'll leave it until this Friday. The weekend was okay, I tried out lots of different kinds of foods. I went to a sort of gathering of different cultures and traditions for three days. I got to try out lots of different foods and listen to different kinds of music and see dancing in different cultures. Pretty neat. Anyways, I ate too much and didn't drink enough water. So today i'm feeling a little bloated and pudgy. This week i'll have a chance to rectify the weekend. Yesterday was good. I had salad for dinner and an egg salad sandwich for supper. I forgot to get it on rye bread though, so they brought it to me on white. I didn't want to make them change it, so I ate it like that. I'd forgotten how good white bread tastes. But not as good as rye bread! Today for dinner is salad, and supper will be whatever raw veggies I have left in the fridge with dip. I don't think there's much left, so I might sneak somewhere and get some soup or a sub. Tomorrow is ball night, so i'll probably try to have a hot dog after the game. I think i'd better start laying off the beer. It's becoming quite the habit.
Have a great day everyone!
- Wednesday Jun 02, 2004
Yesterday I had chicken strips for dinner with a piece of garlic bread, and for supper I had two slices of pizza. What the heck. I drank lots of water and went for an hour walk so it should all even out in the end. Today so far i've had cauliflower for dinner with dip. My fridge is pissing me off though. It freezes all my veggies and fruit so that I can barely bite into them. This is in the fridge, not the freezer, and i've tried to turn it down but it doesn't help. So I picked out the least frozen pieces and after work i'm going to take it out of the fridge and let it thaw a bit.
I'm not sure what i'm having for supper tonight, don't know if i'll make it to grandma's or not. If not, I might run and pick up a sub, or not eat until after ball is done tonight. Then I can go to the bar and have a hot dog. They're supposed to be really good, everyone on my team has had one except for me. And I love hot dogs. I've always had supper before ball though, so I haven't had a chance to try them out. They're footlong hot dogs, and supposedly really yummy. I'm getting hungry just thinking about them.
I'm off work for the rest of the week and won't be back on here until monday at the earliest. So I hope you all have a great weekend and don't eat anything I wouldn't eat!!! (oh darn, that doesn't leave much out unfortunately)