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legcramps - Friday Oct 28, 2011

Weight: 165.5

One day at a time...

I guess I lied to myself when I thought I wasn't grieving too much over the loss of Dog. Between that, and the two-day convention I went to, i'm officially in "tired as hell" mode. Yesterday I went to sleep at 6pm, woke up at 12am, went back to sleep at 1:30am and didn't wake up until 7am this morning. Could be a little bit of depression kicking in; i'm thankful that my friends and I are heading out this weekend for some halloween fun because otherwise i'd continue with my stick-in-the-mud persona and never get over this. I know what I need to do to conquer, i'm just having trouble DOING it!

Yesterday's eats: mocha, poppy seed muffin (dry and flavorless), chicken and pasta with broccoli, fruit cup ($3 spent for a tiny amount of fruit), turkey bacon and mozza cheese sandwich on ezekiel bread with spinach, french fries.

Today after work i'm going to pick up what I need for Sunday and then clean up as much as possible before a friend comes over; it's leg-waxing night. It'll probably hurt like heck since i'm in such a bad mood. Yesterday at work I could feel myself getting more and more annoyed at small little stressers. I guess I needed the sleep, but it doesn't seem to have helped much. I'm going to plaster a fake smile on my face anyways and hopefully soon the happy endorphins from having to stretch my face in a positive way will kick in ;)

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

KayBee on 10/28/2011:
poor girl... rough times. I hope you get better very soon...


glycrina on 10/28/2011:
I am sorry, but it is good to grieve now and deal with your feelings then it would be to stuff it down and wait for it to come bubbling. You deserve a great weekend. Have fun!


Supercheese on 10/28/2011:
awww -hugs- Im sure you'll have a great weekend. Remember to laugh, it'll help you feel better!


sweetpea1977 on 10/28/2011:
Hugs!

I sure hope you have a fun weekend with your buddies! You totally deserve a great time after all you've been through lately.

Keeping you in my thoughts!


grannyannie on 10/28/2011:
Sorry...big hug from me as well! Yes, pretend you're having a good time and you might surprise yourself. :-)


V on 10/28/2011:
Love you :)


Maria7 on 10/30/2011:
Sorry you are grieving...so am I. Hope you feel better.



legcramps - Thursday Oct 27, 2011

Weight: 165.5

I can't seem to get myself back into the motions of losing weight and exercising regularly. It's hard to get back into things!

Yesterday eats: mocha, Kellogs cereal bar, banana, chicken, pasta, broccoli, yogurt, granola, turkey bacon, mozza, ezekiel bread, bbq chicken pizza. So disappointing.

My problem is obviously my nights. There has to be a better way to avoid eating so much at night. I can clean house instead, go for a walk, take a bath, or just hit the sack for the night. All very good options that I will have to start to incorporate to avoid the late night bingeing that i'm doing. Maybe planning out some tasks I can do at night will help:

Thursday: dishes! unpack! sweep! wipe down kitchen! then take a bath and read, then go to sleep.

Friday: dishes! wipe down kitchen! take out garbage! clean bathroom! then waxing legs, then go to sleep.

Saturday: clean bathroom! clean living room! go through clothes! bring in patio furniture! then halloween party!

Sunday: nurse hangover! <--- without eating greasy, fried foods. I should prepare for this and have chocolate milk and cheese and crackers on-hand so that I don't feel the need to go to a drive-thru.

Also on Sunday i'll be making a big batch of creamed soup for my lunches, and hopefully i'll have enough energy to whip up a batch of pumpkin muffins for breakfasts. I love fall foods!!!

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

~WI~ on 10/27/2011:
You are a busy bee! I love fall foods as well, things seem to taste better when the air is cooler LOL. Have a great day!


getmebackto150 on 10/27/2011:
I too struggle with the nighttime eating BIG TIME! I think having tasks planned out is a good potential solution! have a fun time at the Halloween party!!


V on 10/27/2011:
I love your plans especially anticipating the hangover LOL! Hey see if you can find some Urban Detox

www.functiondrinks.com I love this site cause it has killer graphics!! you must check out the featherweight page :) It brings a smile to my face!!


V on 10/27/2011:
Sorry lightweight...hahaha


~WI~ on 10/28/2011:
I am a night eater as well. Once I made peace with that fact, things got easier. I was able to let go of the 'eat all your food in the daytime' mentality, and now I eat during the day lighter, and save my big meal (or snacking) for the evening. I still eat enough during the day, but save the bulk of my points (or calories) for the evening hours. I found out that trying to deprive myself of something that is natural to my body just made me eat a lot during the day AND at night. On WW I am allowed 29 points a day, and typically I will eat 10 or 11 of them during the day, and the rest at night. Sometimes it is so I can enjoy a larger supper, sometimes it is so I can enjoy an ice cream drumstick after a smallish dinner. It satisfies me on all levels to eat that way. Even though my son swears that I should eat before 7PM (ha, right) and that all food we eat after that turns to fat. Well, turns out, that isn't true.



legcramps - Wednesday Oct 26, 2011

Weight: 165.5

Whew! I'm wiped!

I spent Saturday helping to build the fence for the dog park site. It was a long day of walking around, carrying heavy items, loading and unloading trucks, and being nice to people when I really wasn't in the mood ;) When I finally got home, my back was killing me and I was covered in dirt and grime. I took a hot shower and relaxed for the rest of the night.

Sunday was spent doing laundry and packing for my trip. I drove the two hours to the convention centre, we got into our rooms and unpacked, picked up our packages for the convention, had a bite to eat, then hit the sack. So tired! My eyes were literally burning, even my boss mentioned that I looked tired.

All day Monday was eaten up by speakers, keynote addresses, and group sessions. We managed to find some time to do some shopping ;) but I didn't buy anything. There were some cute little clothing shops in the city, but the prices! oh my! Then Monday night was a big banquet with great food and good entertainment. By 9:30, I was back in my room, nestling down for the night.

Tuesday was another day full of listening to people talk about healthcare. By mid-morning, my attention was wandering and I found myself doodling on my writing pad. The sessions were really great and very interesting, don't get me wrong, it was just a little too much for my pea brain and attention deficited head ;) We left a little earlier so that we could get a headstart on the drive home, which was spent gabbing away. Those two hours went by fairly quickly! And we did some shopping as well; I picked up some lip gloss and lip scrub for the winter season, and a dirty pleasure - the book The Help.

Last night I attempted to unpack, failed greatly, and resigned myself to checking e-mails and having a long bath. I was in bed by 9:00.

I'm still pretty tired today, but the postive is that it's already Wednesday! Happy Hump Day!

I am determined to get myself to Zumba tonight. I have missed it, and I hope they haven't added too many steps to the songs so that I can get back into it without feeling like I missed a lot. Have a great day today everyone!

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

glycrina on 10/26/2011:
Glad you had a good time at the convention! I always found them to be refreshing. I LOVED The Help. I read it over the summer and I couldn't put it down. I then made everyone at work read it too. The movie was also really good.


liza36 on 10/26/2011:
I loved The Help. The movie was good too. Hope you are enjoying it.

I know how tiring conferences can be! Sucks the life out of ya.

Have fun at Zumba.


V on 10/26/2011:
Hope you got to the Zumba class! It gives ya so much energy :)



legcramps - Friday Oct 21, 2011

Weight: 165.5

Yesterday didn't go totally as planned, I don't know why I went out and purchased crackers. I was on auto-pilot and didn't even think about it until i'd already eaten my share of 'em. Stupid binge.

Today:

Breakfast 8:00: 1/4 c oatmeal, 1 tblspn pb, 1 tblspn choc chips, 1/4 c pecans, 1 banana DONE

Morning 10:30: 1/2 c grapes, 1 litre water DONE

Lunch 12:00: cream of cauliflower soup, 1/2 turkey sandwich, 1/2 c coffee DONE

Afternoon 2:00: 1/2 turkey sandwich1/2 litre water

Afternoon 4:00: 1 container yogurt and 1/2 c granola

Dinner with friends 6:30: 1 c spaghetti, 1/2 c meatballs, salad of some sort?

Evening 8:00: snack TBD

After work, i'll be helping out with the dog park fencing, then going to a friend's for dinner. Then we're watching some episodes of Ghost Whisperer.

This weekend will be full of dog park fencing. Then Sunday I need to pack and leave for a two-day convention through work. I probably won't be updating during the weekend or during the convention, so if you don't hear from me, don't get worried. I should be back on Wednesday.

Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

glycrina on 10/21/2011:
Sounds like a great Friday. Enjoy yourself on your trip even if it is for work!


biscottibody59 on 10/21/2011:
Enjoy your weekend!


V on 10/21/2011:
Enjoy your weekend :)


liza36 on 10/24/2011:
I'm just catching up after being out of town for a week. I'm so sorry to hear about Dog. I know it must have been difficult - I hope you are doing well.


sweetpea1977 on 10/25/2011:
Been thinking about you. I hope you're having a good time at the convention.



legcramps - Thursday Oct 20, 2011

Weight: 165.5

Yesterday: coffee, cheese biscuit, chicken pasta, yogurt and granola, crackers and cheese, chicken pasta, granola and pecans with whip cream (low fat).

Did I need all those snacks yesterday? Probably not. Again, I was out almost as soon as my head hit the pillow yesterday. This morning I didn't get out of bed until well after 7am, so needless to say I was slightly late for work this morning. My eyes are not as sore today though, so that's a good sign. I washed bedsheets yesterday and cleaned.

Today i'm going to try:

Breakfast 8:30: Carrot Muffin, 8oz coffee DONE

Morning 11:00: Grapes (1/2 cup), water (1 litre) DONE

Lunch 12:00: Soup, 8oz coffee DONE (cream of potato soup)

Afternoon 2:00: Sandwich (1/2 tuna, 1/2 ham), water (1 litre) DONE

Afternoon 4:00: mozza cheese and crackers :(

Dinner 6:30: crackers :(

Evening 8:00: turkey bacon and cheese sandwich :(

We'll give that a try today and see how it goes, it'll give me around 1,900 calories. I'm also craving pumpkin muffins, so I might look for a low-calorie recipe and make some for breakfasts. The Dog Park Crew will be out at the site working today. I work until 4pm, but I might scoot out there afterwards to see how they're doing. And then again, I might not. A little indecisive today ;)

My Mom went away for a few days, so we haven't had the discussion I so need to have with her. She was upset when I told her over the phone that Dog would be put down, and it just irritated me. I still can't figure out if i'm angry or just majorly disappointed, and what I want to do with that information. For goodness' sake legcramps, she probably really is sad that Dog will no longer be around, so give her a break will you?

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

~WI~ on 10/20/2011:
I am sorry to hear about your beloved dog. I'm actually sad. I remember when my dog died and I still miss her badly some days, and it has been 25 years. I don't think everyone grieves by bawling their eyes out, sometimes our grief is evident by how silent we are about it. Your grief is there, you are just processing it differently and there is nothing wrong with that. When the time comes for you to release that grief through tears, your heart will know.

I think the Dog Park project is wonderful!


glycrina on 10/20/2011:
Hugs.


grannyannie on 10/20/2011:
I know how you feel. Hugs. And we do all cope differently.


shams on 10/20/2011:
have a nice day


V on 10/20/2011:
Love YOU <3



legcramps - Wednesday Oct 19, 2011

Weight: 165.5

It was strange coming back to an empty house yesterday. It's bizarre, but the house seemed so much bigger. A few bouts of tears slipped past my eyes, but all in all things went as well as I had hoped. I was glad I made the decision to stay with Dog in the room, as I really think she needed me there to reassure her.

I didn't know what to make for dinner yesterday, so I threw a chicken pizza into the oven. My lunch was leftover pasta with chicken. Really overloading on the chicken. Then I read for a bit and headed to an early bedtime.

I was asleep soon after my head hit the pillow, which is new for me; usually I toss and turn before finally finding sleep. I slept right through until 6 this morning. My eyes feel heavy and scratchy, but heaven knows if I got through yesterday, i'll get through today too!

Tonight is Zumba. I am debating going. I want to wash some bedsheets, blankets and tidy a few things. I will feel better after i've been able to pack away some of Dog's things. I also want to get back into routine, but now is maybe not the time yet.

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/19/2011:
So sorry. {hugs} Maybe Zumba will make you feel a bit more energized?


glycrina on 10/19/2011:
My heart is heavy for you. I think keeping busy would be my plan. My yoga video always talks about "showing up for yourself" even when it is difficult. But whatever you decide to do, Zumba or cleaning, I hope you find some peace today.


V on 10/19/2011:
hey do whatever is going to make you feel better, if I lived closer, i would come help you pack up things with you.. Lots more love sent your way today <3 <3 <3


Umpqua on 10/19/2011:
You are doing amazingly well. xoxo



legcramps - Tuesday Oct 18, 2011

Weight: 165.5

Up a bit in weight but seeing as I haven't weighed myself in a while, i'm okay with this considering everything that's been going on for the last few months. I am definitely an emotional eater :(

Dog is going to the vet this afternoon for her last visit. I've taken the afternoon off work so that I can spend some more time with her and get myself ready. I think she knows. Last night, when I was laying on the couch she jumped up and layed her head on my hand and started snoring away. Just wanted to be close I guess :)

I feel right beat up from my massage yesterday! I must do this more often, so i've made two more appointments for the next two months. It felt so good! I'm quite sore today, but I know tomorrow will be better. I'm going to try and have as much water as possible today, to get those muscles back in good form!

Ok, so I don't have much more to say about anything, so i'll sign off now and move on with my day. Have a wonderful day all. Please send thoughts and prayers our way today :)

Progress as of today: 9.5 lbs lost so far, only 10.5 lbs to go!

getmebackto150 on 10/18/2011:
Thinking of you during this tough time... I too have a massage scheduled for tomorrow! Cannot wait! I think its awesome that you are getting a few in the next few months, they are SO therapeutic and good for you!!!


Umpqua on 10/18/2011:
I'm thinking of you today. Good job scheduling those massages, you deserve it!


grannyannie on 10/18/2011:
Hope your dog gets better and things look up for you! I haven't had a massage in ages, I'm well overdue!


V on 10/18/2011:
Thinking of you and Dog..Lots of love your way <3 <3 <3


glycrina on 10/18/2011:
you and dog are in my thoughts and prayers. you are so brave and so loving. I hope you are not alone and have a good friend to support you through this process.


sweetpea1977 on 10/18/2011:
Hugs to you sweetie. I'm thinking of both of you during this difficult time. <3


biscottibody59 on 10/18/2011:
I'm sorry. Thinking of you this evening . . .



legcramps - Monday Oct 17, 2011

Weight: 164.0

I called the vet on Friday morning to get antibiotics for Dog. They gave me an ointment to treat her eye with. She had a bad reaction and her eye blew up to two times its normal size and looked like it was pushing itself right out of its socket. Yuck. So much for that idea. I had to go to a meeting that evening, and it was hard, I gotta say, to keep in all the emotions and stop re-running the reaction over and over again in my head.

Unfortunately, Dog has also stopped eating. I did manage to get some noodles and chicken into her yesterday, but I must be reasonable with myself. This is no way for her to live. So today I will call the vet and see what needs to be set up in order to have her put down. I've rued this day people, for over a month and a half now. But I have to be strong and do the right thing.

I am getting a massage after work today and I cannot wait. I haven't had a massage since I moved into my house. I am going to try and set up regular visits - it will have to be included in the budget somehow. I used to have massages regularly and they really helped with easing my stress. Maybe i'll end up getting some weekend work to cover it. Yeah, add more stress to ease more stress. That makes sense.

Now that i've thought about that though, I think my work benefits might cover some of the costs of massage therapy. I'll have to look into it.

My eating was so-so on the weekend. I did have some potato chips on Saturday night; the rest of the weekend was made up of healthy foods. Unfortunately, last night I had three dinners  two servings of chicken, noodles and broccoli, and a turkey and cheese sandwich on ezekiel bread. I should have just gone to bed, but I was reading a good book.

Which reminds me, 14 books read out of 36 total.

My Walking Challenge this week didn't go so well. My total so far is .25 miles  with one day to go which will consist of a massage and some quality Dog Time. I don't think i'll get any walking in today.

That's not to say I didn't get any exercise in though. Just not enough walking. Next week will hopefully be better.

Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/17/2011:
It's a new week! I have faith you'll do great this week!


KayBee on 10/17/2011:
poor dog, I feel sorry for you guys... it's always so hard to say goodbye to our beloved ones, but that's just the way life goes. Taxes and death are certain... :-( I'm curious what 36 books you're talking about. Are these specific books or you just counted the books at home you haven't read yet?


glycrina on 10/17/2011:
My heart is with you Legs. It shows how much you love you your dog by being able to let him go when he is in such pain. If you can give yourself some healing time -- the massage sounds GREAT. I need to make an appointment. Hugs.


Umpqua on 10/17/2011:
You are doing just great considering your circumstances. Stay strong! xoxo


Supercheese on 10/17/2011:
poor doggy but everything happens for a reason right? I hope the massage makes you feel better :)


V on 10/17/2011:
:( I am so sorry..I know how hard it was to come to that decision.. Love you <3



legcramps - Friday Oct 14, 2011

Weight: 164.0

Oh, I am so damn happy it's Friday.

Dog has an eye infection now, and is refusing to eat even the cottage cheese I put in her dish. Yesterday, I tried beef, steak, chicken, more chicken, cottage cheese and finally... frozen yogurt. Yes, that's right. She ate the ice cream of course.

I don't know if I should call the vet for an antibiotic? What if she continues to refuse to eat?

She's already lost a kilogram of weight in the last few weeks.

What do you think? Should I get the antibiotic? I think i'll get the antibiotic. I don't know!

I didn't go to Zumba due to the many attempts to get food into Dog's mouth. It's upsetting and oh so exhausting.

Today I have to get the oil changed in my car, get them to check the tires, pick up gravy mixes to see if Dog will eat that, call the vet (maybe?yes?) to get antibiotics for Dog, go to a dog park meeting (yeah right, that might not happen) plus work a full day of work. I'm tired just looking at all that.

I need to walk. Tomorrow morning, man, that's what i'm doing. Rain or shine. I need to work out some emotions.

Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!

getmebackto150 on 10/14/2011:
I think I would get the antibiotics... It can't HURT and it will at least make you feel better... Hope Dog eats for you and you have a nice weekend!


grannyannie on 10/14/2011:
Agree. Get antibiotics. Hope dog get betters soon. Sorry you missed Zumba.


hollybelle on 10/14/2011:
I agree, I think I'd get the antibiotic for her eye and talk to vet. Is she still getting up and down some?



legcramps - Thursday Oct 13, 2011

Weight: 164.0

I left work around 2:30 yesterday; I had cramping in my stomach and nausea. I think from the flu shot. So I went back to sleep when I got home, got up around 6:30 and then went back to sleep at 10:00. I feel better today. Hopefully i'll make it to Zumba tonight.

I had way too much to eat yesterday. Coffee, two pieces toast with pb and honey, chicken sandwich, two handfuls of almonds, two servings of chicken and macaroni salad, a cabbage roll, 1 bag fat free popcorn, frozen yogurt with blueberries and strawberries. Oh my God, that's ridiculous. 2,796 calories according to fitday. No wonder i'm not hungry this morning.

Plan for today: coffee, yogurt with banana and granola, chicken sandwich, yogurt again with a few almonds, 3.5 litres of water, macaroni salad with chicken, frozen yogurt with berries. That should earn me about 1,800 calories. That would be much better.

I'm back in a budget crunch this month. I accidentally spent over $160 on groceries last pay period. I didn't even eat out! I'm deliriously happy that tomorrow is payday but I really shouldn't get too excited because it'll all be gone to bills and other payments. I also need to get a tire patched or replaced, yay. I hope I have enough to feed myself otherwise i'll be visiting grandma and taking advantage of her home cooking more often in the next two weeks ;) My goal this week is to buy minimal staples and try to use up what I already have in the house. I noticed that my freezer is packed, so that might take a week or so to empty out, and I have a lot of canned food too. I don't know why I buy it when it just sits there uneaten.

Progress as of today: 11 lbs lost so far, only 9 lbs to go!

glycrina on 10/13/2011:
Hey legs. Hope today is a better day. I occassionally take an inventory of what is my pantry and freezer and decide what I need to get to make meals. Sometimes, I have to get creative. I have to go back on budget on myself. I am spending too much in general.


getmebackto150 on 10/13/2011:
I hear you on overspending on groceries... hubby and I just got our budget back under control today (pay day) after a LONG summer of overspending... Glad to hear you are feeling better today!


V on 10/13/2011:
I am so happy that you are feeling better today! i hope your evening of Zumba went well



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