Positive - I will hopefully be eating sushi tonight for supper.  Yes, another dinner date with a friend.

Negative - I was awoken near midnight with alarming tooth pain.  I am starting to hate the dentist with a passion i've never before felt for dentistry.  Also, I believe I will never find a guy in this stupid one-horse town.  Not that i'm all-out looking or anything, but when I have been looking i've found either guys that are far too young (aka immature), or guys that couldn't hold a relationship together to save their lives.  It bugs me because there are plenty of nice girls and NO nice guys!!!  My ex has been in another stable relationship for months now.  It's not fair!!!

Plan for today:

Breakfast - black coffee, yogurt with bran buds - DONE

Snack - yogurt with bran buds - DONE

Lunch - rice and green peas - DONE

Dinner - sushi - DONE

Exercise - maybe i'll walk to the restaurant...or not

Other - godd*mn water in the basement is really p!ssing me off

Ok.  I'm obviously in a bad mood, so i'm just gunna stop writing now.

Positive - It's a beautiful day and i'm going to sit outside and watch ball and enjoy it.

Negative - No exercise doing that positive thing mentioned above.

Plan for today:

Breakfast - lemon cranberry muffin, mocha - DONE

Lunch - regular fries, mocha - DONE

Dinner - veggies, plain burger (i don't yet know where i'm gunna get the veggies from - there's ZERO moolah in my bank account at the moment)

As you can see, gone are the pre-planned days of snacks and great food choices.  My social life has been truly overwhelming.  Lunch here, supper there, party here, sleep in there, quick drink here, long night there...the weekends are filled up with activities before I can even blink an eye.  I play ball three nights a week!  I can't afford to do all this!  Not only for my bank account's sake, but for my sanity!  I need a clean house, too, you know.  And the basement's flooded, the garden needs tilling, and my flowers have all been drowned and need TLC!

I hope I don't ever think my life is boring.

Positive - I'm going to blame everything on the full moon.

Negative - I feel the way I felt before a gall bladder attack.

Plan for today:

Breakfast - black coffee, muffin - DONE

Lunch - chinese fried rice, noodles, veggies, 1pc shrimp, 2pc pork ribs - DONE

Afternoon - WW bagel with pb - DONE

Dinner - leftover pizza, 1 beer - DONE

I don't know what i'm going to do today, if anything.  I don't want to be negative all the time up in here, but today i'm really feeling a little depressed.  I'm not sure why, but I think a good reason is because of the way my weekend went.  I don't even think i've recovered from it yet.  And please, before you feel sorry for me... it was all SELF-INFLICTED.  No d*mn sympathy for the devil!

I had the most awful of dreams last night.  It was a night terror, for sure.  It woke me up and I stayed awake with one eye open for the rest of the night.

I don't know where it came from because I didn't watch anything scary.  The general theme was that zombies were after me, they came out from the computer monitor screen, and they bred with each other or something so that eventually, there were hoards of 'em stumbling around the yard.  I was on some kind of vet farm, and when they started killing the dogs, I went berserk.

I went after them with a bendy toothbrush.  I wonder if I screamed out loud.  Who goes after scary things with a toothbrush?????

I have to take a deep breath.  I swear to God, I was sweating when the dream woke me up.  I know i've been under some stress lately, but REALLY.  A TOOTHBRUSH?

That's really all I wanted to say today, no time to write out my menu and give positives and negatives.  I have a long weekend (Monday off), and an uber-busy week ahead of me.  I'm going to take the weekend to relax and think about pink bunnies.

Pink Bunnies.  And Rainbows.

Positive - Today is slo-pitch day!  I finished my paper for tomorrow!

Negative - I still have to study at some point today.  My stomach hurts, probably from anxiety and stress!  I'm trying to calm down, but apparently it's not working!

Plan for today:

Breakfast - WW bagel, pb, black coffee - DONE

Snack - FF yogurt, bran buds

Lunch - chicken, spinach, onions, veggies in WW wrap - DONE

Snack - Curves granola bar -  DONE

Snack - FF yogurt - DONE

Dinner - chicken, spinach, onions, veggies in WW wrap x 2, spinach salad - I can't remember.

Exercise - slo-pitch - got rained out!!!  Grrrr.

Other - study study study - *cough, clears throat* *looks around the room to avoid looking you in the eye*

Just to put things into perspective, those WW wraps are small ones - I can probably fit about 1/4 chicken breast into them, so even though i'm planning to eat two of them for dinner, it really doesn't mean i'm a pig.  Really.

Positive - It isn't Monday?  Got the yardwork done and groceries in the fridge.

Negative - I ate ice cream yesterday and I feel pretty miserable today because of it.  I am now in panic-mode over this stupid course that ends on Thursday.  My only night to cram is tonight as there is slo-pitch tomorrow night.  Yikes!  I'm in trouble.

Plan for today:

Breakfast - WW bagel, 1 teaspoon pb, coffee with cream and sugar - DONE

Snack -   praline muffin (FREE) - DONE

Lunch - chicken, onion, spinach, veggies all in WW wrap x1 - DONE

Snack - Curves granola bar - DONE

Snack - Fat-Free yogurt - DONE

Dinner - Smart Ones meal, 1.5 cups spinach, 1 tablespoon lite ranch chicken burger, fries, mocha - no chips!!!

Exercise - anxiety

Other - anxiety i did some cleaning

Perhaps a dessert, but i'm not going to commit.  It might end up being a great big mother of a bag of chips due to the high level of anxiety i've gotten myself into.  Joy all around!!!

Positive - I lost a pound.  We won our slo-pitch game. I ran so much I almost threw up. I lost a pound.

Negative - The pound might come back because I ate a hot dog and indulged in liquid calories.

Plan for today:

Breakfast - multi-grain toast x1, pb x1 tblspn, black coffee - DONE

Lunch - Knorr soup, 1 sushi roll - DONE

Snack - fat free yogurt

Snack - Curves granola bar

Dinner - Smart Ones frozen meal, 1.5 cups spinach, 1 tblspn lite ranch

I will have to continue eating Knorr soup until it's all gone from the house - I bought quite a bit of it when my aunt advised me (she is on weight watchers) that it's a great meal for on-the-go people such as myself.  I almost cried when KathyBlue suggested it wasn't the healthiest meal to eat, as it is so hard to find something health yI can make and eat within 20 minutes.  If I have to prep it or cook it beforehand, it's just not going to happen.

Exercise - yard work.  I gotta get at that garden.

Other - girls' night tonight, watching some episodes of Charmed.  yay!

Positive - I did yard work and cleaned out the garage yesterday.  I was sweating by the time I finished it all.  I had a good reserve of energy; attributing that to eating better.  I also thought i'd post a weight bar 'cause it's about time I stared that in the face.

Negative - I don't think there was anything negative about yesterday.  Isn't that awesome?!

Plan for today:

Breakfast - multi-grain toast x1, pb x1 tablespoon - DONE

Snack - fat free yogurt, bran buds 1/3 cup - DONE

Lunch - Knorr soup - DONE

Snack - Curves granola bar - DONE

Snack - fat free yogurt - DONE

Dinner - Smart ones frozen meal, spinach 1.5 cups, lite ranch 1 tablespoon  sushi - 3 rolls (what? i had a craving!)

Dessert - lite cool whip, jello, strawberries four beer, 1 during and 3 after slo-pitch (what? i had a craving!)

Snack - 7 guacamole tortilla chips hot dog with bun and ketchup, 2 guacamole tortilla chips

I know this is a lot of snacking, but I get pretty hungry in the afternoon and I don't want to turn to junk food for fuel.  I think it still works out to around 1500 calories, so that's pretty good.

Exercise - slo-pitch tonight!  yay!

Other - still have some yard work to do.

Looks like the rest of my week will be packed, so I might not get back on here until Monday.  If that's the case - good luck to everyone for the rest of this week!

Positive - It was a beautiful day yesterday and I managed to wash the dishes and weed the flower beds before my evening meeting.  Also lost another 1/2 pound.  I might just have thrown myself back in the game.

Negative - I am feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything that's going on and everything that needs to be done.  Need to remember to breathe.

Plan for today:

Breakfast - multi-grain toast x1, pb, black coffee - DONE

Snack - fat free yogurt, bran buds - DONE

Lunch - Knorr cream of mushroom soup - DONE

Snack - Curves granola bar - DONE

Snack - fat free yogurt - DONE

Dinner - Smart Ones frozen meal, 1.5 cups spinach, lite ranch dressing - DONE

Dessert - jello, strawberries and lite cool whip - DONE

Snack - 7 guacamole tortilla chips - DONE

Apparently, I'm a fan of repetition.

Exercise - ugh, I don't know.  If I do anything, it'll be a miracle. 

Other - I need to clean out the fridge.  Something has gone bad.

Positive - The trip went great and i lost a pound!  We went to see my relatives that are on weight watchers; I attribute that to losing any weight :-)

Negative - I didn't get anything around the house done, nor did i study.  I have only a week and a half left to get this course done.  Panic-mode will be setting in soon.

Plan for today:

Breakfast - 1 multi-grain toast, 1 tblspn pb, black coffee - DONE

Snack - fat free yogurt, 1/3 cup bran buds - DONE

Lunch - Knorr cream of mushroom soup, 1 serving - DONE

Snack - 1 Curves strawberry granola bar - DONE (but gosh, i'm still hungry!)

Dinner - Smart Ones frozen dinner, 1.5 cups spinach leaves, 1 oz lite ranch dressing - DONE

Snack - Guacamole tortillas, 7 - DONE

Dessert - Jello, strawberries and lite cool whip, 1 serving - DONE

Exercise - I can't remember if I have a meeting tonight or not, so hopefully will be able to get in a walk with the dog.  Maybe we'll go to the park and I can start my running program up again.  It's a beautiful day so far.  Had a meeting.  No walk.

Other - I need to study.  And I didn't.  Crap.