- Monday Mar 08, 2010
Ugh, it wasn't the best weekend ever. Seeing as I even had Friday off, I should have gotten a LOT more done than I actually did. It's disappointing, as now I have so MUCH to do this week! ARGH!
Okay. Calm down.
I haven't added up any calories since Wednesday. It's not like I didn't have time, I just didn't do it. Thursday night I went out for supper with a friend and it turned into... well... a long night. A very long night. And i've been paying for it ever since!
I woke up sometime in the afternoon on Friday, and struggled with every single thing I tried to do that day/evening. Finally, I just went over to a friend's place and let her take care of me. Throughout the day/evening, I kept remembering little tidbits from the night before and i'm telling 'ya - as soon as I remembered them I wanted to forget them! Yikes, what a... long night.
On Saturday I did some laundry. Went to another friend's place for the evening.
Sunday I finally 'woke up' and did something. I cleaned the house, did the rest of the laundry and made sure everything was about as tidy as I could get it. Then I did nothing. Upon going to bed I realized that I wasn't feeling well. I didn't get to sleep until about 5:30 this morning. I don't possibly know how I could be here at work and awake. I'm grumpy, holy am I grumpy.
In summary, I drank too much, I ate too much, I did too many of the wrong things and not enough of the right things. It was a beautiful weekend weather-wise. I am a bad dog-owner. I need to pray on things. Talk later.
- Thursday Mar 04, 2010
1,400 calories yesterday. I went out for supper and had SUSHI! Awe, I missed that stuff. My intestinal tract, on the other hand... well, too much information maybe :-)
Went to the gym yesterday and ran 22 minutes out of 30. Sweet! My goal was to reach 20 minutes, but I just decided why not run the last two minutes? A month ago, that would have finished me off. I would never think 'just two more minutes'. Now, two minutes isn't a huge mental stumbling block for me anymore. It's great! Hope I can repeat this tomorrow when I hit the gym again.
One more day of work (today), then i'm off for three days. I cannot wait to sleep in. Of course, I'd like to get a couple Shred workouts in this weekend.
Going out for supper AGAIN tonight (what a social butterfly I am!) to the local sports lounge. We'll be having chicken wings and alcohol. I'll limit my calories during the day so that I have a little more room tonight for wings. I used to hate chicken wings because they are sooooo messy to eat, but now I don't mind looking like a fool with grease and sauce all over my fingers. Oh, YUM. haha. It's just part of the experience!
- Wednesday Mar 03, 2010
Mood may be affected by the foods we eat. Theories suggest a role of inadequate intake of omega-3, folate, zinc, B vitamins and vitamin C in mood disorders and depression.
The following tips may help promote a good mood:
- Eat breakfast and eat regularly
- Eat enough protein
- Focus on fibre
- Eat fish at least twice a week
- Limit your alcohol intake
I could be doing more, but I’m well on my way. I’ve had a headache the last few days, and haven’t been feeling like exercising much, but I think I make a very important point in saying that I haven’t had a depressive ‘binge’ for a good two months. That’s incredible.
A headache is nothing compared to days of lying in bed, not wanting to lift my head from my pillow. A missed workout here or there is nothing compared to eating my way through the entire fridge, day after day, because I feel worthless. Yup, I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed lately. But that’s nothing compared to the anxiety and depression I have felt before.
I just have to give myself kudos today for making such positive changes over the course of the last two months. I must acknowledge that my changes have made a huge difference in my lifestyle and even in how I relate to others. I can actually FEEL these changes happening. The effects of taking care of the body that got you to this point are astounding. I never thought I was capable of such great change.
I may forget I wrote this. I may even backslide throughout the course of the year. But at least I’ll know that at one point, I acknowledged the fact that I was worth it.
- Wednesday Mar 03, 2010
1,900 calories yesterday! Yikes, what the heck did I eat?
Granola, yogurt and saskatoon berries for breakfast. Straight black coffee.
Two eggs, red pepper, onions and swiss cheese for lunch.
Granola bar and apple for mid-afternoon snack.
Baked chicken breast, 1 cup brown rice, salsa and green peas for dinner.
Digestive cookies (150 cal bag) and banana smoothie for mid-evening snack.
Sure adds up, anyways!
What's really knocking me down today though is that I didn't do anything yesterday for exercise. I'm having trouble getting myself together. I'm trying to stay focused on what I need to be doing, but other 'priorities' are beginning to shove their way through. I feel sometimes like i'm trying to stay afloat without a life preserver - and I DON"T KNOW HOW TO SWIM!!!
Maybe it's not that bad. I may have had a lot of calories yesterday, but none of it was junk! I may not have exercised yesterday but I can't always be expecting myself to exercise everyday! Be reasonable, legcramps!
- Tuesday Mar 02, 2010
Yesterday 1,700 calories.
Went to the gym again last night. 30 minutes on the treadmill, 19 of that running. I'm getting better at this. I ran for 10 minutes, then walked, ran for 7, walked, ran for 2. I can't wait to hit the "20 Minutes Ran" mark. I should almost get myself a medal to wear. It could be just like Weight Watchers, only instead of losing pounds you'd get a medal for every 5 minutes of running you added to your workout. Adding running minutes might be much harder than losing pounds, so we'd have to go with a medal a minute. Yes! A Medal A Minute Program. I should copywrite this, quick. :-)
That's about it. I tried to relax last night and watched a few episodes of True Blood. I was invited to a friend's for dinner, but still wasn't feeling great and just wanted to be alone I guess. Slept okay last night, but I feel groggy today anyways. Maybe I just haven't woken up yet!
No gym today, will try to hammer out a Shred workout right after work and get it over with so that I have the rest of the night to do nothing.
- Monday Mar 01, 2010
Had a good weekend, but boy is it ever busy at work this morning. I'll be a tired bunny after this day is over.
So Friday gym buddy bailed on me. I pouted around the house for an hour or two and then decided to go to the gym anyways, by myself. Wow! I must've been super motivated to exercise! I really was motivated, because when I got to the gym I went straight to the treadmill and ran AGAIN! I was only thinking of doing some cross-training for about half an hour, but ended up running for 19 minutes! Best yet! Can I hear a 'Whoop, there it is' from the crowd, please?!
I ended the day with 1,200 calories. I went to bed early as was still feeling effects of my cold, so didn't bother with a late night snack (I know, i'm bad for this).
Saturday I woke up with all kinds of energy. I cleaned house within the first two hours of waking up, then did my Shred workout. This level is going to take me a while. It's really hard for me to do all those planks. I have ZERO upper body strength, it seems. I then visited a friend for the rest of the afternoon. I went back to the gym with gym buddy and walked for 30 minutes, then went on the elliptical for 10 minutes. 1,500 calories.
Sunday was a nothing day, but i'm okay with that. I was starting to feel sick during the afternoon, but visited another friend anyways. When I got home, I had another friend stop in to chat. I was going to take the dog for a walk, but it didn't work out for us. I hope she doesn't hate me for it. 1,600 calories.
Got sick during the night and had a hard time falling asleep. My doctor told me that this would get better eventually, but apparantly not yet. I feel disgusting today, and very tired. I did not do the Shred workout this morning as that would have really finished me off. I don't know if i'll do the workouts in the mornings right now - it all depends on how well i'm sleeping. Plan is to go to the gym tonight and run.
- Friday Feb 26, 2010
I was so antsy yesterday, I decided to go to the gym. Well, it helped that gym buddy also went. I did a total of 31 minutes on the treadmill, 18 of that running. I spilled enough sweat at the end of the workout to form a very long river at my feet, but I felt great. My legs are a little sore today, but hopefully I will make it to the gym tonight and be able to knock out a few more minutes. That's my goal, anyways ;-)
Calories yesterday were 1,600. Thank goodness, getting back on track!
I would have done the Shred workout this morning except that I had a fairly long night and didn't get a lot of sleep. My family sure knows how to disrupt structure, I tell 'ya. Well, hopefully i'll get it in on the weekend.
I've been missing my workouts, so i'm glad to get back at them. I will have to make sure i'm not doing too much so that I don't wear my system down again, but I feel great and back in the groove!
- Thursday Feb 25, 2010
1,700 calories yesterday, no exercise. Gym buddy had other committments and I just couldn't find the motivation to go on my own. This is not looking good. Everything hurts, even my internal organs. My cold, by the way, is taking over my sinuses and the part of the neck that gives me headaches.
I slept well again last night (apparently I need to be suffering from a cold in order to get a good night's rest) and was reluctant to get up this morning. I think I have a cold sore on the inside of my lip, I keep running my tongue over it and feeling the irony-taste of blood in my mouth.
Well, I don't know what else to tell you. I know i'll get back on track at some point. I only wish it was sooner rather than later! No worries, it'll happen. And i'll be ready when it does!
- Wednesday Feb 24, 2010
1,900 calories yesterday. For some reason, I just HAD to have a banana smoothie before I went to bed at 8:30pm. The positive is that I slept through the night and was quite rested by the time I got up this morning, even though I still didn't do any exercising yet.
Today i'm hoping to begin to get back on track. My cold has moved up into my sinus and I had a bit of a bloody nose this morning due to it being so dry in the house. But at least my throat is no longer SO sore. Maybe a sinutab or two and i'll be able to make it back to the gym tonight. Time to get back at it before I lose ALL incentive! Also, hopefully my diet is back on track today too and i'll have no yearning to eat through house and home when I get back from the gym. I'm thinking of getting to bed early tonight just to avoid that.
Who knows if i'll be able to run tonight, but I hope so. I'd like to try for 17 minutes of running again to ensure that I haven't back-stepped too far. If I can't do it, i'll just have to work back up to that point again, but OY - what a long process!
I could just keep blabbering on and on here, i'm in that kind of mood, but I think instead I will go comment on your entries now. Have a great day!
- Tuesday Feb 23, 2010
Well, I realized that it wasn't just a cold keeping me down, my TOM also decided to show up. I'm assuming that was why I was feeling so HUNGRY and catching the cold gave me no test of resistance whatsoever. I crumbled under the pressure!
I went home yesterday right before lunch and slept all afternoon. Then came that darn demon of hunger - it overtook my limbs and carried me into the kitchen for food. I swear! Like, NINE times! When I finally decided I might as well go to bed since all I was doing was eating, I was rudely woken a few hours later by an outraged TOM demanding to know why I wasn't paying any attention to it. So for the next hour or so, I squirmed between the sheets, trying to get comfortable, trying to will the aches and pains from my body. Once the heating pad took effect, I was off to wonderland - and two hours later up and getting ready for work. I don't know why I do this to myself.
So, I didn't do any exercising yesterday, which is understandable under the circumstances but surely won't help me balance out those calories. 1,900 again. If we're gonna look on the bright side, at least it wasn't 3,000 I guess.
I had a meeting this morning which droned on into the afternoon and now here I am, trying to keep my eyelids open and putter away until the end of the day. Will I go to the gym tonight? I hope you won't feel badly of me for saying 'probably not'. The whole reason for coming into work today was so that I could go to the gym tonight. But I am tired. I feel the burn of an aggravating cold that I don't wish to aggravate more, and an irritating soreness throughout my midsection, threatening to take away the holly jolly personality i've been holding onto for so long. Exercise would be a great counter-balance in this situation, however - I have no motivation. People still exercise with aggravating colds and topsy-turvey tummies. I'm just not one of 'em. Maybe that's why I am where I am.