- Monday Jan 25, 2010
I gotta get back to the gym. I mean, really. This is pretty ridonculous already.
I went out for supper on Friday with a few friends, then played some Wii. My calories came to 1,800. I blame the soda I drank... pepsi pepsi pepsi.
On Saturday, I woke up to a fresh blanket of snow. Now, you might think that would be such a glorious thing to see, but... you would be wrong. I couldn't even get the back door open enough to let the dog out. I'm not sure how much we got in that first round, but I would guess around a foot and a half. Once I managed to get outside, the dog and I shovelled for an hour. I only got the front and back paths done, and a path around my vehicle since i'd left it out for the night instead of parking it in the garage. Feeling good about my accomplishments, the dog and I played inside the house for a long time. When I finally decided I needed to run uptown for a few things, it had snowed another half a foot and the wind was picking up. I decided not to shovel again until Sunday, since it didn't seem to be letting up any. I have to say, it was definitely a lot of fun driving my 4x4 through the side streets. I promise I didn't laugh at those tiny cars that were stuck in the snow drifts. Promise. I went to a friends' place that night and drank too many vodkas. 1,800 calories again.
Sunday, I dozed a lot. And it snowed a lot. And the wind blew a lot. I got stuck once, then again trying to get back into my driveway. Karma! I think it must have snowed another foot, but hard to tell because the wind was making HUGE stinking snow drifts that were just UNBELIEVABLE! A friend gave me some lasagna leftovers (I realize there is a theme here with my friends always giving me food. I think they must sneak looks into my fridge when they come over. I have food in there, just not a lot.) Anyways, I ate ALL the lasagna, which put me at my calorie limit at 11:30 AM! HA. Had a couple friends over later that night to watch Charmed episodes, then called it a night. 2,500 calories. Heehee?
Made it to work this morning, even had time to stop for take-out coffee. All the buses are cancelled, the office here is empty of co-workers, and stories are flying around about how awful the weather is here and there and everywhere. Some parts of the province have had no power now for over two days!
- Friday Jan 22, 2010
I had a very busy day yesterday. I have to say that I got quite a bit of work done, but now all that energy I was boasting about on Monday has formed into a separate being that has perched itself beside me and is wheezing heavily, coughing loudly, and generally being a pain in the you-know-what. Actually, it's not all THAT bad. In fact, I feel good. Most likely because it's Friday today...
Wednesday's calories were around 1,000. Just one of those days. I tried to get more calories in, but I really wasn't feeling it at all on Wednesday. I think I was more interested in sleep.
I made up for the lack of calories by adding them up on Thursday to 1,900 by the end of the day. I still think this is okay. There will be days such as this - the obstacle to overcome is purely mental. As in, I need to tell myself that this is okay, that I haven't failed myself, that i'm still in great caloric balance for the week, that I didn't binge, I ate well (blueberry muffin, rice, granola bar, pork chop, cream of broccoli soup). I just drank too many darn mochas!
I have the last pork chop to finish up, and rice coming out my... I eat a lot of rice, and have a large container of cooked rice in the fridge. Needless to say, i'll be eating a lot of rice over the weekend. I may attempt to make a batch of my friend's cream of broccoli soup since it was so yummy and not that heavy in calories. Plus, it would spice up all the boring rice. That's why I hardly ever tell you what i'm eating, it's just boring!
I really hope gym-buddy wants to go to the gym tonight. I haven't been all week. If it's possible, I actually miss it.
- Wednesday Jan 20, 2010
I'm a creature of habit and seem to thrive under regularity and schedules. Back down to the weight I was at before Christmas. It seems to have taken a while, but that is alright, I have all the time in the world!
NITA asked when I take vitamins and such. I try to get them all down in the morning, but will have to see how that goes after a week or so of it. Since I LOVE routine, I always take the calcium/magnesium when I wake up. I take everything else to work with me and get them down before I start the workday and on weekends I take them before I eat the first meal of the day. It seems to be working, as long as my memory stays intact and I remember to take them!
I didn't make it to the gym last night as my gym-buddy is sick with the flu, poor thing. I was okay with sleeping the evening away, then obviously had trouble throughout the rest of the night getting the whole 8 hours in. Oh well. Not sure what I will do tonight, i'll probably check in with my friend to see how she's feeling and go from there. I don't like going to the gym on my own, not sure if I don't have the incentive or if i'm just being self-conscious. Probably the latter. I walked to work today, it took me 30 minutes, but was it ever a nice walk. Early morning, people are just starting their days, the weather was good - it was worth it. 1,200 calories yesterday. Doing well!
I'm having troubles with my vehicle (which is why I walked to work today). It's in the garage this morning, hopefully being fixed but I sure hope it won't be a hefty bill. I don't know what i'd do if I had to start looking for a different vehicle. Talk about squeezing the budget. Hopefully it only needs to be thawed out and there are no bigger issues. I have a big trip coming up in February, so I really need a dependable vehicle.
- Tuesday Jan 19, 2010
I had so much energy yesterday, it was truly amazing. I didn't know what to do with myself! My friend ended up cancelling gym night, so instead I went to the store and did some grocery shopping and picked up two large 5 gallon jugs of water and carried them into the house. 1,300 calories yesterday.
I'm not sure where i'm getting all this energy from, but I have a few ideas. I might say it's because of going to the gym, but I don't think I go often enough to feel that kind of energy. I might say maybe i'm getting enough sleep finally, but that wouldn't be true. I have a feeling it's because of all the vitamins i'm taking for the last week. I don't know if they can kick in that quickly, but it must be that - what else could it be?
I'm taking vitamin C and B Complex, a multi-vitamin and mineral (Centrum), an Omega-3 supplement, Calcium and Magnesium. My doctor suggested Vitamin B Complex, Calcium and Magnesium. I added the rest because I know I don't get enough in the food I eat.
So, i'm going to try and finagle my friend into going to the gym today. Slight headache this morning is reminding me that I haven't had my morning cup of coffee yet! Off I go!
- Monday Jan 18, 2010
Today, i'm going to be positive. Enough of all this complaining I do!!
I had a great weekend, calories were a little higher but i'm okay with that as I enjoyed every little bite! Friday - 1,500 calories; Saturday - 1,700; Sunday - 1,900. I watched so many movies, chatted with friends and family, travelled to the city. I like driving highways when the sun is just coming out. By the time I was halfway to the city, the sun was flowing through my side windows, warming my arms and face and it felt great. I can't wait for spring to arrive! I needed that boost of vitamin D!
I went to the gym on Friday and did 30 minutes on the treadmill, 8 of that running. I'm getting there!
Today is another gym day, plus grocery shopping and cleaning up some bills and papers. I would like to run for about 12 minutes today, so hopefully I will have enough energy for that by the end of the day!
Have a great week everyone!
- Friday Jan 15, 2010
Doctors in small towns, even small cities, in this place are usually abrasive, unfeeling and... well... laughable. This last one told me to stay on Depo forever, unless I want to try to conceive. This drug is one factor in causing Osteoporosis (which is a disease that has diminished my mother's ability to do most things). I go for another shot today after work.
I'm in my early thirties, but I feel so much older than that.
My dinner party went well last night. I didn't burn the lasagna, my guests pretended that the chocolate pudding pie (light version) WASN'T too runny that it was spilling over the lid of the dish, and we had a nice evening of watching episodes of Charmed. Took a bath, went to bed. 1,700 calories yesterday. I think that's pretty good, considering we had a nice big dinner.
TGIF. Seriously. I'm glad this week is over! Gym tonight, then Saturday i'm driving into the city to lunch with Dad and catch up with a friend. On Sunday I hope to find another old movie on tv, lay on the couch, do laundry.
This morning, my tummy feels flatter than usual. I want to drink lots of water today. Better get on it, I guess.
- Thursday Jan 14, 2010
Yesterday I went to see my gynecologist about the problems I'm having with my menstrual cycle. I thought I was going for a simple, external ultrasound. Oh, how wrong I was. All in all, it was a horrible day, ending with the doctor asking to do yet another exam and me immediately yelling out "NO WAY!". When I finally got home, I collapsed on the couch and slept for four hours straight because the whole thing just... exhausted me to my breaking point. I did go to the gym, but only walked for 30 minutes and didn't even run one little bit. But, I DID go to the gym.
Tuesday had 1,300 calories, Wednesday 1,600 calories. I went to the gym on Tuesday too - ran 14 minutes out of 35 total. Really good day.
I was stuck below 1,000 calories yesterday after eating supper. Was so full, and so blah, that I didn't WANT to eat anything, just wanted to go to bed. But I had some cashews, then tried to take a warm bath. I had just gotten into the tub and decided I needed the water to be just a little warmer. In the process of adding some and letting some out, the plug stopped working. Once I had it fixed, almost all the water was out of the tub and I was a-shivering away. When I tried once again to fill the tub, my hot water had run out. Eventually, I got myself out of the tub and back onto the couch, where emotional eating set in and I had me some chips. Finally the hot water came back and I had a nice bath and went to bed with the heating pad secured to my midsection.
The feeling has spilled over into today, which is really unfortunate because I am hosting a dinner party tonight. Trials and tribulations, huh?
- Tuesday Jan 12, 2010
I am so tired right now. I was in bed by 11pm, but couldn't fall asleep for what felt like hours and hours. The alarm shrilly buzzing in my face this morning at 6:30 was just about enough to put me over the edge emotionally. I almost called into work, but thought to myself "for lack of sleep?" and decided against it. That would have aged me. Anyways, gulping down the coffee but it hasn't slapped me in the face yet. I'm so tired, the computer screen keeps blurring out of focus on me. This entry will probably take me an hour to write.
So my gym partner is pretty sick these days. She decided against going to the gym last night and instead wanted to go today. So I told her that I would go with her. The extra time at home didn't really help me out too much - I saved some pictures onto discs and layed on the couch mostly. But I did have an evening meeting, and it helped to not be so rushed (which is usually what I am most of the time - self-inflicted, of course).
I am thinking of getting the Dell Vostro 320 all-in-one desktop computer. My monitor at home died and the computer I have now is slow and old. Does anyone know if this is a good choice? I just want something to play games on and burn the odd disc of pictures and home videos.
Yesterday was 1,400 calories. That's very good. That's two consecutive days of very good. I am very good. I should say that to myself more often!
- Monday Jan 11, 2010
My weekend went fairly well, in all ways imaginable.
After my horrible evening on Thursday, I forced myself to calm down and take it easy on the weekend. Normally, I would be a cleaning freak or over-eat or double book with friends to make the time go by faster. This time, I forced myself to think about how I acted, how everyone around me acted, and to really analyse and figure out what the real issues were. I was upset with my friend's hubby on Thursday at badminton. The fact that X was there would have been ok with me if only friend's hubby would have acknowledged that HE was there as MY friend, not X's. I believe that is what pushed me to react to X's being there the way I did. I am a little ashamed of my actions and of my friend's actions, but can only move on from here. At least I stopped myself from making a complete fool of myself by losing it on X in front of people who probably have no idea that he played me for five years. I am proud of that at least, even if some people there may have thought I acted high schoolish.
Friday was poor with calories - meaning, I needed more than I got. It was kind of a wierd day, the morning and early afternoon were nice and slow, then in the later afternoon I realized I had to do SOME things and so my day sped up a bit and I lost track of mealtimes. I still managed just under 1,000 calories, but I know it should have been more.
Saturday was 2,200 calories. I ended up going for supper with a friend of mine, boxing half of it up, then eating it a few hours after I got home. The good part is that I drank two bottles of water before deciding that, yes, I was still hungry!
Sunday was 1,500 calories. It was a great day, filled with laundry chores, some computer work, and watching old movies on tv like 'Sweet November'.
Back at work today, taking down Christmas decorations and trying to get the pile of paperwork down a bit since I was off on Friday. Planning to hit the gym a little earlier because I have an evening meeting tonight.
- Friday Jan 08, 2010
Don't you just love it when things are going really great for you and then all of a sudden, something happens to totally bash into oblivion all your efforts? Just an F.Y.I. - I will be complaining again today... i'd rather you called it venting, but i'll understand why you might think the proper phrase for it is 'being a baby'.
I did ok yesterday. Actually, I should have eaten more, but I didn't realize I could until I added up the calories today. Just over 1,000.
I frequented the gym, but decided instead of going hog-wild on the treadmill that I would take it easy since I was going to play badminton for an hour and a half afterwards with my friend's hubby. I went a total of 35 minutes, with 6 minutes of running. Took it easy, but still felt like I did something so that was nice.
I made sure to leave the gym early enough to make it to badminton on time. When I got there, friend's hubby was already there. For whatever reason, he didn't acknowledge that I showed up, instead walking with his racket and a birdie over to an empty court. In the meantime, I signed myself in and was about to tie up my laces when I noticed the biggest a$$ in the world walk into the gym. Yes, that's right. X showed up. He stood not four feet from me. I wanted to take both my hands, wrap them around his neck...well, you get the idea. The gall of that incredulous boy!
My breath sort of 'wooshed' out of me as I saw him, and I think I said something like 'really'. He heard that (because he stood not four feet from me, the arrogant bastard!), and said 'hi'. I laughed at him. Well, I sort of huffed, hicupping every so often. He looked at me and I swear to the heavens, I believe he truly thinks he's done nothing wrong. I think he really believes we could be friends. He's psychotic!
Friend's hubby noticed X was there and, with a bright smile lighting his face, ran up to him and said 'you're my partner, ok?'. WTF? WTF is UP with THAT? He then looked over at me and said 'hi legcramps'. I barely looked at him, sort of half-nodding, half-choking as I waggled over to an empty court with some guy I didn't even want to play with because I thought i'd be playing with friend's hubby.
I stayed half an hour. Out of an hour and a half. I ruined my workout for this. It ruined my night. Friend's hubby made me feel betrayed, even though later that night he tried to make up for it. I feel like I can't talk to any of my friends because they're all still friends with X and GOSH, I would NEVER want to put THEM in the middle of anything!
Went home. Ate a granola bar. Drank some water. Stayed up late crying. That's my life.
I have today off, am hoping to go to the gym to let off more of this steam, but will see what else I have to get done. Just hanging back with a coffee for now.