- Friday Feb 05, 2010
The days are starting to blur into each other. I'm exhausted when I go to bed, and i'm exhausted when I wake up. Don't get me wrong, I like the feeling of losing inches and pounds due to all this working out, and i'm in a great mood during *most* of the day and have lots of energy in the mornings, but... ok, wait. I lost my train of thought. What was I saying?
I'm too sore from Shredding to shovel the walkway for my Dad when he visits tomorrow, so i've let him know that it's dangerously icy and to be careful when he's walking up it. My arms are killing me - I can't do the dishes. Well, I can and I did do the dishes, but not all of them. It's a slow process due to not being able to lift my arms higher than my waist. I think of something to do, then forget it 5 minutes later. Is it burnout? And am I at a point where I am too exhausted to realize it?
Yesterday was 1,500 calories! Thank you, mocha! Your extra-largeness added 450 calories to my day! And you were good, too! I haven't had one of your kind for a while!
I didn't go to the gym last night. My new computer was delivered yesterday, and so instead I spent the evening getting it set up. Later on I had some friends over to watch Charmed. I think I actually fell asleep quickly, but I sure did not want to get up this morning at 6am. I slept in for half an hour, then dragged myself out of bed.
The Shred workout was a little easier this morning. I even used my weights and did all the exercises without cheating! I felt horrible towards the end of the workout, like I really wanted to lose my cookies, but I finished and Day 4 is done! Two more days to The Reckoning (a.k.a the day I go after Jillian if the workout hasn't gotten a LOT easier by then).
- Thursday Feb 04, 2010
I was so tired yesterday. I hardly ate anything and this morning everything just hurts!
When I got home from work yesterday, all I wanted to do was lay on the couch until it was time to go to the gym. I had a bowl of rice and 1/2 cup peas, then lay down, staring at the wall for an hour. I got to the gym, sleepy-eyed and miserable. 43 minutes on the treadmill, 12 of that running. I felt better after that, so I ran a few errands then had coffee with a friend. I practically fell into bed last night; unfortunately I couldn't get myself wound down quickly enough and didn't actually fall asleep until well after midnight.
This morning the alarm blared in my ears at 6am. I seriously considered staying in bed and just telling you all that I gave up on the darn workout DVD. Then I thought I should take a day off from it. Then I thought 'if I really want to go after Jillian Micheals' hide after day 6, i'd better just suck it up'. So that's what I did. I have to say though, I didn't use any weights today. It was bad enough having to move the coffee table so I could stand in front of the tv. No way was I bending down to fill some water bottles up. I thought of the canned peas in the cupboard, but got lazy and didn't bother with them either. I also cheated with the skip-rope parts and the jumping jacks. Basically, I skewed the entire workout to resemble this: shuffle, shuffle, fall down on the floor and try to do a curl up; try to get up off the floor; lay on the floor an extra second; try to get up again; shuffle, shuffle, fall down on the floor. It was weak, ladies. Weak.
I am sitting at my desk dreading the moment when i'll have to stand up to do something.
Gym tonight. Gym buddy must be torturing me for something I did that I haven't realized yet.
- Wednesday Feb 03, 2010
Well, I got up this morning. Alarm went off at 6am, I lay there for 45 minutes trying to think of a good enough excuse to stay in bed. When I couldn't think of one, I got up and shuffled to the living room to turn on the Shred DVD.
20 minutes later, I sit on the couch breathing heavily, mildly surprised. Mildly, mind you. Remember that it's about 7 in the morning - full emotion doesn't kick in until at least 9. I got through it all without having to stop the video. Of course, I stepped it down a notch and followed the girl that was doing the alternate moves for less impact. And sometimes when Jillian counted down from 4, I stopped when she reached 2. Whatever, I got through it. Day 2.
When she says the day 6 and 7'ers will be noticing a huge difference, she better be right. I'll take it out of 'er hide if there isn't a huge difference by that time!
1,000 calories yesterday. I even ate some cashews, but skipped a later evening bowl of rice because I wasn't hungry.
Gym tonight. My legs are wobbly right now, so i'm hoping they will work once I get on the treadmill. If not, that's okay, i'll just walk.
- Tuesday Feb 02, 2010
Ok. O. M. G.
So I got my Shred DVD today. I don't know if I even need to say anymore than that, i'm sure bez15 and panda22 know exactly how i'm feeling right now. I just had to log on to let you all know I tried it out. Just finished level 1, like, two minutes ago. I can hardly breathe. I had to stop the DVD twice to catch my breath. Seriously. TWICE. That really kicked my butt. It makes me wonder if i'll get up in the morning to do it again.
So I added up my calories on Sunday - 2,200. Actually, to be honest, that's not as bad as it could have been. I know I can eat so much more than that when i'm on a mission.
Yesterday 1,000 calories. For the life of me, on these low cal days I don't know how to get them higher besides eating more later on in the evening. Should I add another granola bar, in the morning maybe? I really can't add anything to my meals - they are filling enough already. Maybe I should try to find some smoothies and I can take them to work with me in the mornings. Only problem - that will surely cut down on my daily water intake. It's a dilemma, for sure :>)
I went to the gym last night and treadmilled for 47 minutes, running 10 minutes out of that total. This time, I felt great, but forced myself to slow down. We'll see how i'm doing by the end of the week (I like to burn myself out Mondays and Tuesdays... then have nothing left for the rest of the week). I only ran 1 minute after walking 5, then at minute 45 I ran for 2 minutes. Next time (tomorrow hopefully), I will do the same, except will start running at minute 40 and not stop until I hit 3 miles. Oh, you really don't care about the details, do you?!! Sorry, it's the number-cruncher coming out in me.
Today i'm hoping to get some more shovelling done, maybe take dog for a walk, and tidy the house. My Dad and his wife are visiting this weekend, so I want to make a nice healthy diabetic lunch for us all (my Dad is diabetic). Off I go to investigate some slow cooker recipes! Have a great day all!
- Monday Feb 01, 2010
I managed to make it to the gym on Thursday, but didn't really do much. All the treadmills were taken when we got there, so I went on the recumbant bike until a treadmill freed up - 9 minutes, about 1.5 miles. Gosh, were my legs sore! When I got on the treadmill, my legs were feeling quite rubbery and I was already sweating like a banshee...do banshee's sweat? 21 minutes, 3 running, 1.5 miles. I tried to continue on the treadmill, but found myself unable to. That's ok. About 1,000 calories Thursday.
Friday - 1,300 calories. I had the day off work, so dog and I went for a quick walk down some back alleys (I didn't have her leashed), then I shovelled - totalled about an hour. I cleaned house a bit, too. Other than that, I went for supper to a friend's and we watched some Charmed episodes. Good day.
Saturday - 1,300 calories. I did nothing for exercise Saturday, but did really well with my diet and even managed to make that cream of broccoli soup i'd been wanting to. I used skim milk and whole wheat flour and it didn't turn out as well as I wanted, but it's edible so i'll probably finish it off this week.
Sunday - I didn't add up these calories yet, but it'll be high. I took dog for a walk, about 40 minutes, then sat on the couch and watched tv almost all day and evening. During one of my non-tv watching moments, I drove uptown and almost ran over a stray dog. When I pulled over due to the non-rhythmic beating of my heart, the dog came right up to me and wouldn't go away, so I picked it up and took it home. It stayed overnight in the garage and this morning the catcher came and picked it up.
All in all, it was a good weekend. I still haven't received my Shred DVD; hopefully today I can pick it up. The plan is to go to the gym tonight. I feel blah from all the eating I did yesterday, but hopefully I will be able to work some of it off tonight. Good day to all!
- Thursday Jan 28, 2010
I went to bed a little earlier last night in an attempt to ensure I would wake up early enough in the morning to start a workout routine.
When I woke up this morning, the first thing I thought to myself was "wow, what a great sleep". It felt like I had actually SLEPT, and the alarm hadn't even gone off yet! Before I turned over to sleep some more before the alarm sounded, I had my second thought of the day "I will definitely be able to get up and do a workout this morning, for sure".
When I woke up again and the alarm STILL hadn't gone off, I started to worry. I rolled over and checked the time... 7:45!!!! OMG. I have to be at work at 8:00! What the hell?! When I checked the volume, I realized my mistake... I had switched it to 'beep' instead of full-on 'alarm'.
Moral of the story... wake up before you go to sleep and make sure your alarm is set properly. No wonder I feel so bloody rested. A positive is that I actually made it to work on time. I have no idea how. It's about 11am here, and I don't think i've completely woken up yet.
Yesterday was better for calories, just over 1,000. I think I am eating too much rice; I want to hit the grocery stores today and pick up the ingredients for cream of broccoli soup - after watching all those broccoli commercials (you know which ones i'm taking about? with that funny, NOT funny guy in them?) I feel the need to start including it in my meals.
Went to the gym as well. 47 minutes on the treadmill, 6 running, 3 miles. My legs were sore after 2 minutes of running, so I took it easy. They're really sore today, but i'm going to the gym after work anyways. I'll just walk. Maybe.
- Wednesday Jan 27, 2010
Whoop! Finally made it to the gym last night!
My calories sucked, though. I never even made it to 1,000. I wonder if i'm just not adding them up right. I think I will have to start measuring everything out, at least the rice I eat. Maybe i'm eating way more than I think I am? I enter everything into FitDay, but maybe i'm going too easy on the portion sizes. Anyways, I was definitely full yesterday and didn't feel like I needed to eat more. I also drank lots and lots of water yesterday.
I was on the treadmill at the gym for 45 minutes, 11 of that running. I swore that i'd stay on that thing until I reached 3 miles, and I did. From now on, no matter if I have to walk for hours on end, everytime I get on that treadmill i'm going to go 3 miles. If I want workouts to pass quickly, I guess i'll just have to run.
I purchased the 30 Day Shred DVD and will start that probably next week, in the mornings. So, this morning I tried getting up earlier in order to get into the habit of getting out of bed when the alarm goes off. I was even going to workout to a pilates DVD I bought years ago, just to start getting into the routine. You know I love routine, right? When it changes, it's hard for me to adjust right away. When i'm forced into it, it's much easier to adjust :) Anyways, it didn't happen. I pressed the snooze button something like 35 times and before I knew it, it was time to get dressed for work. So much for today, but I will try again tomorrow!
I am so glad I remembered to bring an extra sweater to work with me. I am currently the only one working today so the office is pretty empty except for me. Without extra bodies moving around and warming the place up, it's pretty cool in here. Well, I guess i'll drink my coffee - that should warm me up a bit!!
- Tuesday Jan 26, 2010
I think our snow days are over now. The streets (well, some of them) have been cleared, business as usual! Except that it's REALLY cold. I don't know how cold, because I never look into these things... ok, just for you guys I looked... it's minus 21 celsius (minus 6 F), but with the windchill minus 33 celsius. So I guess that's not REALLY cold for us, but it feels COLD, dude. REALLY COLD.
I texted my gym buddy yesterday but she was planning a birthday supper for her mom and couldn't go. I wondered why she didn't tell me this and save me from thinking I was going to the gym, but chose to keep my thoughts to myself. I don't need to fight with my friends. I have plenty of other people to fight with. Maybe she thought I wouldn't even text her. Whatever.
Eating was good yesterday, 1,000 calories but I made sausage that I never ate so it WOULD have put me in good calorie range if I would've eaten it. I'll eat it today, anyways. It smelled good, but I was full because I'd already eaten some rice. Well, plus I was busy playing computer games. Anyways, I needed a lower day because Sunday left me with such wicked heartburn that I was plowing through my meds like you wouldn't believe. I needed to really closely watch what I ate yesterday. It helped, no new episodes. Today I feel great!
Gym buddy said that we would go to the gym tonight and tomorrow night. Let's hope so!
- Monday Jan 25, 2010
I gotta get back to the gym. I mean, really. This is pretty ridonculous already.
I went out for supper on Friday with a few friends, then played some Wii. My calories came to 1,800. I blame the soda I drank... pepsi pepsi pepsi.
On Saturday, I woke up to a fresh blanket of snow. Now, you might think that would be such a glorious thing to see, but... you would be wrong. I couldn't even get the back door open enough to let the dog out. I'm not sure how much we got in that first round, but I would guess around a foot and a half. Once I managed to get outside, the dog and I shovelled for an hour. I only got the front and back paths done, and a path around my vehicle since i'd left it out for the night instead of parking it in the garage. Feeling good about my accomplishments, the dog and I played inside the house for a long time. When I finally decided I needed to run uptown for a few things, it had snowed another half a foot and the wind was picking up. I decided not to shovel again until Sunday, since it didn't seem to be letting up any. I have to say, it was definitely a lot of fun driving my 4x4 through the side streets. I promise I didn't laugh at those tiny cars that were stuck in the snow drifts. Promise. I went to a friends' place that night and drank too many vodkas. 1,800 calories again.
Sunday, I dozed a lot. And it snowed a lot. And the wind blew a lot. I got stuck once, then again trying to get back into my driveway. Karma! I think it must have snowed another foot, but hard to tell because the wind was making HUGE stinking snow drifts that were just UNBELIEVABLE! A friend gave me some lasagna leftovers (I realize there is a theme here with my friends always giving me food. I think they must sneak looks into my fridge when they come over. I have food in there, just not a lot.) Anyways, I ate ALL the lasagna, which put me at my calorie limit at 11:30 AM! HA. Had a couple friends over later that night to watch Charmed episodes, then called it a night. 2,500 calories. Heehee?
Made it to work this morning, even had time to stop for take-out coffee. All the buses are cancelled, the office here is empty of co-workers, and stories are flying around about how awful the weather is here and there and everywhere. Some parts of the province have had no power now for over two days!
- Friday Jan 22, 2010
I had a very busy day yesterday. I have to say that I got quite a bit of work done, but now all that energy I was boasting about on Monday has formed into a separate being that has perched itself beside me and is wheezing heavily, coughing loudly, and generally being a pain in the you-know-what. Actually, it's not all THAT bad. In fact, I feel good. Most likely because it's Friday today...
Wednesday's calories were around 1,000. Just one of those days. I tried to get more calories in, but I really wasn't feeling it at all on Wednesday. I think I was more interested in sleep.
I made up for the lack of calories by adding them up on Thursday to 1,900 by the end of the day. I still think this is okay. There will be days such as this - the obstacle to overcome is purely mental. As in, I need to tell myself that this is okay, that I haven't failed myself, that i'm still in great caloric balance for the week, that I didn't binge, I ate well (blueberry muffin, rice, granola bar, pork chop, cream of broccoli soup). I just drank too many darn mochas!
I have the last pork chop to finish up, and rice coming out my... I eat a lot of rice, and have a large container of cooked rice in the fridge. Needless to say, i'll be eating a lot of rice over the weekend. I may attempt to make a batch of my friend's cream of broccoli soup since it was so yummy and not that heavy in calories. Plus, it would spice up all the boring rice. That's why I hardly ever tell you what i'm eating, it's just boring!
I really hope gym-buddy wants to go to the gym tonight. I haven't been all week. If it's possible, I actually miss it.