- Wednesday Apr 07, 2010
My recent trip to NWT was great. There were the usual obstacles such as flight delays and whatnot, but it was so nice to get outta Dodge for awhile. I found myself letting go of a lot of insecurities I was still holding on to. It's hard to remember that when we continue to be angry with people we're only hurting ourselves. I'm happy to say that i've let a bit of that anger and disappointment go during the last two weeks. Of course, I am still fond of the words "retribution" and "karma", but there are more important things in life!!!
Unfortunately I gained 4 pounds while away on vacation. Boy, can my family EAT. Anyways, i'm working on losing it and hopefully it won't take me months. I walked almost every day, ran three times, and went dogsledding so the gain was purely food-related.
I have a busy week lined up - I work from Tuesday to Friday. Last night I did my laundry and went to sleep early. I was disappointed to wake up in the middle of the night and had to sit up watching tv for a bit before I could get back to sleep. Tonight is a meeting, then running around to do some chores, tomorrow is a supper fundraiser all night, Friday will be the first free day. I'm thinking of going for sushi! Then visiting family on Saturday, and housework on Sunday. It's warming up here and most of the snow is gone, so i'll be working on getting the yard ready for spring this weekend.
Hope you're all doing great!
- Friday Mar 19, 2010
I'm taking off on vacation soon for a couple of weeks up north in NWT, and everything that needs to get done before then is creeping up on me now. It's been a crazy week, full of emotion about my job, family, etc. I'm ready for some time off, I just hope there's no drama to deal with up there.
So the last few days have been a bit of a blur for me. I overate a bit on Tuesday, thankfully I went to the gym on Wednesday and ran. I plan to go to the gym again tonight, so hopefully that will happen if i'm not too brain dead by then. This weekend is going to be busy as well with income tax forms to fill out, a birthday party, and a dog biscuit baking party. Also, I have to fit leg waxing in there somewhere, and a coffee date with a friend who needs some cheering up. And I need to pack. And I should probably clean the house. Yikes, that's a lot. Feels like i'd much rather sleep through it all! If only I could!
I will try to run for 20 minutes today.
Sorry I have not been commenting. Hopefully once I get back from vacation I will have more time to devote to this site. I hope you are all doing well and staying healthy! Good luck to you in the next couple of weeks and i'll 'read' you all when I get back! Take care!
- Monday Mar 15, 2010
Didn't add up any calories on the weekend. I'm running out of groceries so i'm starting to eat out of the freezer and that's never a good thing. There's only frozen junk food in there! Anyways, other than the freezer foods, i've kept to a good breakfast of yogurt, fruit and granola; lunch of brown rice with veggies chopped in, or eggs and toast; and supper of more brown rice with fish or frozen junk. I didn't overeat, not even once this weekend.
Went to the gym on Thursday, could barely run (I think I ran for 7 minutes, then called it quits). Total 30 minutes there; then recumbant biked for 20 minutes; then stair-climbed for 10 minutes. That stair-climber burned up whatever energy I had left that night. I went to bed very, very early.
Friday took the dog for a walk, about 45 minutes.
Saturday and Sunday both days I took the dog for a walk, 30 minutes. The snow is really melting now, it's awesome!
I'm trying to get enough water down today to give running a try at the gym later. I don't know how far i'll get, but I need to get something in.
- Thursday Mar 11, 2010
Finally I got my butt down to the gym last night. Early, even. I ran on the treadmill for 25 minutes and I think I may have done something to my right hip. Hmmn.
Eating is back to normal. I'm surprised (pleasantly) that my weight did not sky rocket during this sort of 'blah' period i've been going through. I haven't been adding up my calories (i'm still writing everything down) and I would have thought i'd have added a few pounds to my midsection. Geez, I was even eating ice cream. Lactose-free, but still ice cream. Anyways, my weight is exactly where it was when I was still doing really well, so thank goodness for small favors. Or maybe this would be viewed as a big favor. Yes, I think so. Small or Big, Big or Small, a favor given is a blessed thing.
What else. I don't know. Seriously, I should've just waited to journal tomorrow - I don't even know what i'm thinking right now.
- Monday Mar 08, 2010
Ugh, it wasn't the best weekend ever. Seeing as I even had Friday off, I should have gotten a LOT more done than I actually did. It's disappointing, as now I have so MUCH to do this week! ARGH!
Okay. Calm down.
I haven't added up any calories since Wednesday. It's not like I didn't have time, I just didn't do it. Thursday night I went out for supper with a friend and it turned into... well... a long night. A very long night. And i've been paying for it ever since!
I woke up sometime in the afternoon on Friday, and struggled with every single thing I tried to do that day/evening. Finally, I just went over to a friend's place and let her take care of me. Throughout the day/evening, I kept remembering little tidbits from the night before and i'm telling 'ya - as soon as I remembered them I wanted to forget them! Yikes, what a... long night.
On Saturday I did some laundry. Went to another friend's place for the evening.
Sunday I finally 'woke up' and did something. I cleaned the house, did the rest of the laundry and made sure everything was about as tidy as I could get it. Then I did nothing. Upon going to bed I realized that I wasn't feeling well. I didn't get to sleep until about 5:30 this morning. I don't possibly know how I could be here at work and awake. I'm grumpy, holy am I grumpy.
In summary, I drank too much, I ate too much, I did too many of the wrong things and not enough of the right things. It was a beautiful weekend weather-wise. I am a bad dog-owner. I need to pray on things. Talk later.
- Thursday Mar 04, 2010
1,400 calories yesterday. I went out for supper and had SUSHI! Awe, I missed that stuff. My intestinal tract, on the other hand... well, too much information maybe :-)
Went to the gym yesterday and ran 22 minutes out of 30. Sweet! My goal was to reach 20 minutes, but I just decided why not run the last two minutes? A month ago, that would have finished me off. I would never think 'just two more minutes'. Now, two minutes isn't a huge mental stumbling block for me anymore. It's great! Hope I can repeat this tomorrow when I hit the gym again.
One more day of work (today), then i'm off for three days. I cannot wait to sleep in. Of course, I'd like to get a couple Shred workouts in this weekend.
Going out for supper AGAIN tonight (what a social butterfly I am!) to the local sports lounge. We'll be having chicken wings and alcohol. I'll limit my calories during the day so that I have a little more room tonight for wings. I used to hate chicken wings because they are sooooo messy to eat, but now I don't mind looking like a fool with grease and sauce all over my fingers. Oh, YUM. haha. It's just part of the experience!
- Wednesday Mar 03, 2010
Mood may be affected by the foods we eat. Theories suggest a role of inadequate intake of omega-3, folate, zinc, B vitamins and vitamin C in mood disorders and depression.
The following tips may help promote a good mood:
- Eat breakfast and eat regularly
- Eat enough protein
- Focus on fibre
- Eat fish at least twice a week
- Limit your alcohol intake
I could be doing more, but I’m well on my way. I’ve had a headache the last few days, and haven’t been feeling like exercising much, but I think I make a very important point in saying that I haven’t had a depressive ‘binge’ for a good two months. That’s incredible.
A headache is nothing compared to days of lying in bed, not wanting to lift my head from my pillow. A missed workout here or there is nothing compared to eating my way through the entire fridge, day after day, because I feel worthless. Yup, I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed lately. But that’s nothing compared to the anxiety and depression I have felt before.
I just have to give myself kudos today for making such positive changes over the course of the last two months. I must acknowledge that my changes have made a huge difference in my lifestyle and even in how I relate to others. I can actually FEEL these changes happening. The effects of taking care of the body that got you to this point are astounding. I never thought I was capable of such great change.
I may forget I wrote this. I may even backslide throughout the course of the year. But at least I’ll know that at one point, I acknowledged the fact that I was worth it.
- Wednesday Mar 03, 2010
1,900 calories yesterday! Yikes, what the heck did I eat?
Granola, yogurt and saskatoon berries for breakfast. Straight black coffee.
Two eggs, red pepper, onions and swiss cheese for lunch.
Granola bar and apple for mid-afternoon snack.
Baked chicken breast, 1 cup brown rice, salsa and green peas for dinner.
Digestive cookies (150 cal bag) and banana smoothie for mid-evening snack.
Sure adds up, anyways!
What's really knocking me down today though is that I didn't do anything yesterday for exercise. I'm having trouble getting myself together. I'm trying to stay focused on what I need to be doing, but other 'priorities' are beginning to shove their way through. I feel sometimes like i'm trying to stay afloat without a life preserver - and I DON"T KNOW HOW TO SWIM!!!
Maybe it's not that bad. I may have had a lot of calories yesterday, but none of it was junk! I may not have exercised yesterday but I can't always be expecting myself to exercise everyday! Be reasonable, legcramps!
- Tuesday Mar 02, 2010
Yesterday 1,700 calories.
Went to the gym again last night. 30 minutes on the treadmill, 19 of that running. I'm getting better at this. I ran for 10 minutes, then walked, ran for 7, walked, ran for 2. I can't wait to hit the "20 Minutes Ran" mark. I should almost get myself a medal to wear. It could be just like Weight Watchers, only instead of losing pounds you'd get a medal for every 5 minutes of running you added to your workout. Adding running minutes might be much harder than losing pounds, so we'd have to go with a medal a minute. Yes! A Medal A Minute Program. I should copywrite this, quick. :-)
That's about it. I tried to relax last night and watched a few episodes of True Blood. I was invited to a friend's for dinner, but still wasn't feeling great and just wanted to be alone I guess. Slept okay last night, but I feel groggy today anyways. Maybe I just haven't woken up yet!
No gym today, will try to hammer out a Shred workout right after work and get it over with so that I have the rest of the night to do nothing.
- Monday Mar 01, 2010
Had a good weekend, but boy is it ever busy at work this morning. I'll be a tired bunny after this day is over.
So Friday gym buddy bailed on me. I pouted around the house for an hour or two and then decided to go to the gym anyways, by myself. Wow! I must've been super motivated to exercise! I really was motivated, because when I got to the gym I went straight to the treadmill and ran AGAIN! I was only thinking of doing some cross-training for about half an hour, but ended up running for 19 minutes! Best yet! Can I hear a 'Whoop, there it is' from the crowd, please?!
I ended the day with 1,200 calories. I went to bed early as was still feeling effects of my cold, so didn't bother with a late night snack (I know, i'm bad for this).
Saturday I woke up with all kinds of energy. I cleaned house within the first two hours of waking up, then did my Shred workout. This level is going to take me a while. It's really hard for me to do all those planks. I have ZERO upper body strength, it seems. I then visited a friend for the rest of the afternoon. I went back to the gym with gym buddy and walked for 30 minutes, then went on the elliptical for 10 minutes. 1,500 calories.
Sunday was a nothing day, but i'm okay with that. I was starting to feel sick during the afternoon, but visited another friend anyways. When I got home, I had another friend stop in to chat. I was going to take the dog for a walk, but it didn't work out for us. I hope she doesn't hate me for it. 1,600 calories.
Got sick during the night and had a hard time falling asleep. My doctor told me that this would get better eventually, but apparantly not yet. I feel disgusting today, and very tired. I did not do the Shred workout this morning as that would have really finished me off. I don't know if i'll do the workouts in the mornings right now - it all depends on how well i'm sleeping. Plan is to go to the gym tonight and run.