- Friday Jan 08, 2010
Don't you just love it when things are going really great for you and then all of a sudden, something happens to totally bash into oblivion all your efforts? Just an F.Y.I. - I will be complaining again today... i'd rather you called it venting, but i'll understand why you might think the proper phrase for it is 'being a baby'.
I did ok yesterday. Actually, I should have eaten more, but I didn't realize I could until I added up the calories today. Just over 1,000.
I frequented the gym, but decided instead of going hog-wild on the treadmill that I would take it easy since I was going to play badminton for an hour and a half afterwards with my friend's hubby. I went a total of 35 minutes, with 6 minutes of running. Took it easy, but still felt like I did something so that was nice.
I made sure to leave the gym early enough to make it to badminton on time. When I got there, friend's hubby was already there. For whatever reason, he didn't acknowledge that I showed up, instead walking with his racket and a birdie over to an empty court. In the meantime, I signed myself in and was about to tie up my laces when I noticed the biggest a$$ in the world walk into the gym. Yes, that's right. X showed up. He stood not four feet from me. I wanted to take both my hands, wrap them around his neck...well, you get the idea. The gall of that incredulous boy!
My breath sort of 'wooshed' out of me as I saw him, and I think I said something like 'really'. He heard that (because he stood not four feet from me, the arrogant bastard!), and said 'hi'. I laughed at him. Well, I sort of huffed, hicupping every so often. He looked at me and I swear to the heavens, I believe he truly thinks he's done nothing wrong. I think he really believes we could be friends. He's psychotic!
Friend's hubby noticed X was there and, with a bright smile lighting his face, ran up to him and said 'you're my partner, ok?'. WTF? WTF is UP with THAT? He then looked over at me and said 'hi legcramps'. I barely looked at him, sort of half-nodding, half-choking as I waggled over to an empty court with some guy I didn't even want to play with because I thought i'd be playing with friend's hubby.
I stayed half an hour. Out of an hour and a half. I ruined my workout for this. It ruined my night. Friend's hubby made me feel betrayed, even though later that night he tried to make up for it. I feel like I can't talk to any of my friends because they're all still friends with X and GOSH, I would NEVER want to put THEM in the middle of anything!
Went home. Ate a granola bar. Drank some water. Stayed up late crying. That's my life.
I have today off, am hoping to go to the gym to let off more of this steam, but will see what else I have to get done. Just hanging back with a coffee for now.
- Thursday Jan 07, 2010
I wonder if you're wondering what kind of entry i'm going to make today, especially with a beginning like... welp. howdy. Don't worry, i'm fine.
1,600 calories yesterday - SWEET! RECORD! MUST BE! I even had to push down a granola bar after the gym. That never happens. Ne..v..er.
So I got home from work yesterday and miraculously I wasn't overly tired. So, I washed the dishes, cooked some rice for supper, ate... ok, that's when it started to fall apart. I could barely keep my eyes open. I stumbled over to the couch... kidding, I was already on the couch... and closed my eyes for a bit. We all know by now that napping is not good for me. Holy cow. Gosh, can I get grumpy - I never really noticed until now that I have to live with myself and not take it out on someone else.
Raging mad, I left for the gym. This is a great mood to be in when you want to get a good workout in. Really, it is! It was wickedly cold in the gym last night, took me nearly 10 minutes just to warm up but once I did I gaver pretty good. Total time on the treadmill was 41 minutes, 10 of that running, a few of THAT sprinting. I almost threw up. I was trying to find a comfortable pace and i'm starting to think that pace is going to be a faster one. It felt pretty good - and besides, i'd always been a sprinter, so of course I would be more comfortable sprinting than shuffling along at a slower pace.
Rage now dissipated, I headed home, took a bath and stayed up playing on the computer until 10:30. This morning my head feels so clear it's almost unbelievable.
I have to go to prayers on Friday evening, so decided to gym tonight instead of trying to fit it in on Friday. I also have badminton tonight. Here's to getting it all done!
- Wednesday Jan 06, 2010
Yesterday was a good day, as compared to Disastrous Monday - but you've already heard all about that. The only thing I seem to have erroneously left out from Monday was the amount of time I spent at the gym. I was there 45 minutes, 36 on the treadmill and the other 9 minutes stretching, water-breaking and pulling my boots on and off.
Yesterday I didn't work out. Do you know that my right shoulder STILL hurts from playing Wii Tennis?! I can't believe it. Do you know how difficult it is for me to finish all my bathroom 'duties' with a bum right arm?! Bum right arm, well, no pun intended. Really!
I drank like 6 litres of water yesterday. I think it brought out all the muscle aches in my body because this morning, oh boy. My body hurts. The shoulder, my hips, the tops of my thighs, my lower calves, even down to my big toe. Hurts. AND, to top it all off (though i'm NOT complaining, i'm actually in a pretty good mood) my doggie plopped herself on top of me all night long so that I couldn't move and twist around like I normally do. So I woke up this morning with my rib cage aching horribly! You'd think I should just hole up in a dark corner and stay there, huh.
Even so, I AM in a good mood. And it's gonna stay that way. Either that, or i'll make myself angry again before I go to the gym tonight so that i'll run just as well as I did on Monday. Whateva'. :+)
Oh, 1,800 calories yesterday. Whew. Glad I remembered that.
- Tuesday Jan 05, 2010
Oh boy. Here comes the Great Confession:
I was doing really well until I got home from work. I had started to become slightly grumpy, but other than that I was fine. I decided to cut up some cheese with crackers and have that before going to the gym.
(This means i'll have eaten cheese for three consecutive days in a row. Did I mention i'm pretty sure i'm lactose intolerant? No wonder i'm such a grump lately.)
I had a lot of cheese. I was literally worried I wouldn't be able to run on the treadmill because i'd eaten TOO MUCH cheese. So I get to the gym. My friend isn't there yet, forgot her shoes, blah blah blah, so I start walking on the treadmill. At around ten minutes, my friend finally shows up. We talk. I ask about her day and she proceeds to give me a 30-minute run down. Then forgets to ask how i'm doing. But, I might only be pissed off about this because i'm already feeling like crap, and I just want someone to know that. I'd like someone to ask. I'd like to vent. I run. It feels pretty good. I run some more. I run for about 7 minutes altogether. It's a good start, and i'm sufficiently sweating enough to call it a night.
I slow the treadmill down and say i'm going home, that i'll do my push-ups and curl-ups when I get home. Of course, I forget. When I get home, I run a bath and spend the next half hour soaking and reading, reading and soaking.
I'm sitting on the couch afterwards, watching t.v., playing on the computer, and feeling hungry. I fill up a water bottle and start slugging it down, but it's not fighting my hunger. I eat again. Chocolate cream pie. Then another slice. Then a chimichanga. Those things are like 500 calories each!
I'm surprised I wasn't too uncomfortable to sleep last night. That would have certainly been the kicker - to eat that much food so late at night, then not be able to sleep. Total cals - 3,300. At least I finally got some actual exercise in.
- Monday Jan 04, 2010
Whew. It's been quite the new year so far! Good, but busy!
I sort of triple-booked myself on new year's eve. I went to grandma's for supper, then to a friend's birthday party, then had company over at my place to bring in the new year. The next day, Jan 1st, was really quiet which was nice. I don't think I did anything. Let's be honest - I don't think I could have done anything even if I wanted to! Jan 2nd, I drove into the city to see my Dad and his wife for Christmas. Jan 3rd I spent with a couple of friends, watching a movie and playing Wii.
I have yet another borrowed book to read; City of Glass. Can't wait to rip into it!
Tonight I have a gym date! I'm hoping to start by running about 5 minutes on the treadmill, with a 20-25 minute walk. Also gonna start with 10 pushups and 20 curlups, and do some stretching.
Other than that, laundry is on my schedule, and cleaning up the kitchen.
- Thursday Dec 31, 2009
Well, I for one am glad that today is New Year's Eve. For me, it means throwing the old year out the door and slamming the door in its face. I'm a little angry today.
My friend came to visit last night and she said some things that I think were very childish and immature. Of course, SHE doesn't think so! She was talking about my X and I simply asked her not to, that I didn't want to hear about him anymore. She got huffy with me and from there it was like talking to a 13 year old girl. Gawd. If having friends means dealing with crap like this all the time, I don't know that I want it. Her and her hubby are still friends with my X, so I understand how difficult it is for her to be 'stuck in the middle', but she needs to understand that i'm trying to move on and she's not helping any by constantly bringing him up - it hurts me! Don't you think I deserve at least that much respect? He's the one that made the mistakes, and yet he is allowed to continue a friendship with my BEST FRIEND's husband. Can't you at least do me one favor and leave him out of our conversations?!
Anyways, vent over.
I drank lots of water yesterday and I think i'm close to where I was at weight-wise just before Christmas. It may take another week or so, but i'll get there. I shovelled last night for about 20 minutes, too. Exercise!! Finally! I also cooked dinner, washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen, cut up some food for tonight's party, and did a load of laundry. Superwoman! Well, that's a super feat for me, anyways :) LOL.
Sunday - 2,000; Monday - 2,400; Tuesday - 2,400; Wednesday - 1,800. Working it's way down! If I could stay under 1,800 each day, i'd be a happy camper.
Getting a gym key Jan 2nd! Watch out gym, here we go again!
- Wednesday Dec 30, 2009
Yesterday wasn't the best day. When I got home from work, all I wanted to do was sleep. I even left work early because I was accomplishing nothing and feeling miserable. I'm not sure why I felt so horrible. I had no energy, no drive, nothing. I just wanted to sleep. So, I took a nap and it ended up being a four hour long nap. When I woke up, I was super grouchy - thank goodness I live alone since I would have reamed someone out for sure, for absolutely no reason other than I was in one of my moods. I received numerous phone calls during my sleep, answering none of them. I ate chips and drank water all evening. I think i'm going through a phase again. I hate them.
So, 2,400 calories yesterday. And no one phoned for wallyball so no exercise besides chipping away the ice at my back door so that I don't have to try to squeeze my body through the thin opening. Am I complaining? AGAIN?!
Even with all that sleep, i'm still tired today. And I will have to triple-book myself for New Year's Eve. I have to attend a dinner at my grandma's, then go to a friend's place to celebrate her 40th birthday, then i'm having people over to my place to bring in the new year. I dread waking up Jan 1st, really I do.
Sugerandspiceandeverythingnice. Sugarandspiceandeverythingnice. Just get through it.
- Tuesday Dec 29, 2009
I didn't add up calories yet since the weekend, but I think yesterday was around 1,800. I didn't have anything to eat at home for lunch, so resorted to picking up fast food. Actually, what really did me in was the second mocha I bought in the afternoon. Those things are at least 400 calories, so the two I had yesterday put me up over 800 calories. It isn't hard to go over your calorie limit when you're already at 800 without any food!
I had a glass of red wine with dinner, which was a pork chop and a cup of rice. I have snap peas sitting in the fridge if I need to snack on something, but last night I wasn't hungry for anything else. Probably due to the mochas, ha-ha. Anyways, the wine was good - L'Ambience if any of you are interested in trying it. Medium-Dry, but really smooth. I think it's from the USA, but don't quote me.
Tonight would be Wallyball, but i'm not holding my breath. I really need to wax my legs and put a few more Christmas gifts together.
- Monday Dec 28, 2009
I ate more than I wanted to over the Christmas holidays. Today i'm hoping to get back on track with my water intake, and see how things go from there. I was feeling good before the holidays hit, and I want to feel that way again! Right now I just feel full, and I haven't eaten anything since yesterday!
Hope you all are having a wonderful holiday season!
I made ten resolutions for the next year. I won't share all ten with you, but i'd like to tell you what my Top 3 are:
1) Health - Lose 20 pounds.
2) Finance - Pay down personal loan.
3) Travel - Once a month.
I want to write them down so that next year I can look back and summarize what I managed to accomplish and what I did not manage to accomplish.
I'm such an anal planner that i've written down all my resolutions on a week-by-week rundown for the next calendar year. I think it's going to be another busy year... hopefully a lot happier than this one has been though!
What are your resolutions?
- Wednesday Dec 23, 2009
It started to snow yesterday morning, and seems to have continued on through the night and into this morning. There are a few inches of snow on the ground already and it doesn't seem to be letting up much. I do hope it won't be storming like this when I drive up north tomorrow. I'd rather not have to use 4x4. I AM a city girl.
1,200 calories yesterday. Much better! I'm hoping to have the same type of day today so that it will make it easier for me during Christmas by giving me a tad bit of leeway, maybe a pound or two grace period, you know? I feel pretty good today, always happy to see the lower caloric intakes and the lower weights on the scale! Lots of water is in the cards for today.
I still have many things to do in order to prepare for Christmas. I have some last minute shopping to do, some laundry, some packing, get gas, get water, drop my dog off at the sitter's, have lunch with a friend, send out some Christmas wishes on facebook before I leave... i'm sure the list goes on, but i've gotten sudden brain-freeze and have stopped thinking. It must be a sub-conscious coping strategy!
No one called again for Wallyball yesterday. I feel a little left out! You'd think I was a spoiled popular kid.