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legcramps - Tuesday Oct 27, 2009

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I drank at least 3 litres of water everyday since I last updated.  Whooo!  Some days were harder than others, but i'm getting into a groove/routine now so hopefully will be better able to keep it up.  It's amazing what a difference it makes in my skin - I look almost... misty, or something.  Can't find the right word for it!

I've still been taking the dog for a walk, although I missed Saturday and Sunday because things were just too busy.  Plus, perhaps I needed the break.  It was nice to get back into it, especially last night when I was feeling so worn down and sorry for myself.  Need to pull through, make a better life for myself and my future family, 'cause I know there will be one.  One day.

Anyways, the moral of the story is that I AM feeling better these days, no matter how miserable I sound!  Each day gets better and better.  I am glad for the friends that I do have, for they give me a reason to keep going instead of wallowing in self-pity.  There's no need to feel sorry for myself - I have everything I need right now, and there is still a lesson to be learned from all of the changes in my life recently.  Once I figure it out, i'll start sailing my way towards a more successful and happy life.

hollybelle on 10/27/2009:
Good post. I enjoyed reading that and am doing some thinking about the same type things myself. Thanks for sharing. These's always ups and downs. I'm shooting for consistence through them.



legcramps - Thursday Oct 22, 2009

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Yesterday I drank over 4 litres of water.  I also drank a lot of coffee and I think it really dehydrated me, so i'm glad I was able to drink lots of water to make up for it.

I took my dog for a half hour walk.  I was incredibly 'worked up' from the coffee so it was a jumbled mess of a walk - I really don't remember much of it; we paraded around town like two banshees in a grain bin, desperate to get out.  I was never more happy to arrive back at home, out of the line of vision!  It was still sometime after that when the jitters finally died down.

I was pretty tired yesterday, that was the only downfall.  That, and I had to ask X for some pictures I left there.  That wasn't fun either.  But other than that, it was a pretty good evening.  I took a nice hot bath and when I finally decided to go upstairs to bed, I was sufficiently drowsy and comfortably warm.  Mmmm.  Makes me want to go back to bed!


legcramps - Wednesday Oct 21, 2009

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The days are starting to move along a little more quickly now.  I would normally say this sucks as it means winter comes quickly and summer fades just as fast.  But i'm glad for the quick-flying time since I am needing to re-fuel my mind and spirit and get over all the things that have occured in my life this year.

It is time to cut myself off from those people who do not offer any benefit in my life.  I know I might be a bit selfish in saying so, but I have hung on this past month for some type of string that I thought perhaps they would throw at me.  And I would have gladly accepted, however thin that piece of string was.  With the grief my family and I have been faced with I could have used all of the support systems I could get my hands on.  I was not a thought in their mind, however.  And as selfish as this may be, I am done.  Done being trampled over and stepped on and punched repeatedly when i've done nothing wrong.  Done feeling grief over breaking up with someone who was never really part of my life to begin with.  Yes, I am done.

I've had three litres of water every day for the last eight days, except for Saturday.  Saturday was a busy day and however much I wanted to get that water in, it just couldn't happen.

I've taken the dog for a walk every day for the last eight days, for at least half an hour, sometimes more.

I've prepared my house for winter.

I've scratched off more to-do's and to-buy's for my house.

I am ready to move forward.  This game is on!


legcramps - Thursday Oct 15, 2009

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I took the dog for another walk yesterday after work.  Goodness, it's getting cold outside.  I'll need to wear long underwear if i'm going again today.  After that I made myself something to eat - beef sandwich and some triscuit crackers.  I drank so much water yesterday, not sure what came over me but it's okay, i'll take it!

I stopped in at Grandma's last night to pick up some cold cuts of meat that she wasn't going to eat, visited with her for a bit (I can tell her thoughts are still not quite in order.  I imagine this will take some time) then headed back home.  A friend came over to visit last night as well, which was great as by the time she left it was time for bed so there wasn't much time to sit and feel sorry for myself!  I do that far too often these days...

Today:  mocha, veggies and dip, thinsations snack, carrot cake with icing (oops, those darn co-workers!), and... dinner.  something for dinner.

Exercise:  walk dog at least half an hour.

I need to put plastic over the windows in the house tonight to keep more of the cold out.  This, due to my clumsy nature, will probably be an all-night task.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/20/2009:
sounds like you are preparing for a cold blast for sure. haha, long underwear. it generally doesn't get that cold around here except for the dead of winter, thank gosh! thinsations, never heard of em, maybe i'll try them out.



legcramps - Wednesday Oct 14, 2009

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I took my dog for a walk yesterday after work.  I picked up my two young cousins and we walked her together.  I was glad to be able to have time with the girls to just talk about girl things.  They are really funny and I would never have known!

Dinner at Grandma's.  Maybe the last one for a while.  Then we started to play cards but constant interruptions got in the way.  Eventually, I got tired of waiting for the others to stop visiting (I wasn't visiting as it was all just a bunch of gossip and i'm not much into that) so I said my goodbyes and went home.  This wasn't a terrible thing though, as I was able to wash the dishes up, take a bath and do some reading before bed.  I'm reading "The Thirteenth Tale" by Diane Setterfield.  I've already read it, but it's a pretty good book and I needed something to read, so...

I ate too much for dinner yesterday, but whaddya do?  I sincerely hope this is the last unhealthy meal for at least a little bit.  Eating these types of meals constantly really does a number on you sooner or later.  Just to give you an idea, i've been eating perogies, cabbage rolls, potatoes, sausage, stuffed chicken, ice cream, pumpkin pie, etc etc etc.  Still drinking lots of water, which is probably saving me from gaining a huge amount of weight right now.

Today:  Leftovers sitting in my fridge need to be picked at, bit by bit.  Take dog for walk.  Winterize yard.  Soak feet.

mskitty on 10/14/2009:
Its that time of year again that dieters dread. It starts with a Turkey and ends with a New Years drink, I'm a big Halloween fan... So I can only imagine the bad eating days ahead for myself. :( But the white flags not up yet!!!!



legcramps - Tuesday Oct 13, 2009

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Well, it's been quite the week and weekend.  It was Thanksgiving this weekend for us Canadians, but the thought didn't even cross our minds until yesterday afternoon.  Thankfully, we were able to put together a beautiful meal - sans turkey, but everything else was there.

My Grandpa passed away Tuesday.  I hope he is still with us in spirit and will guide each of us in our lives toward success and happiness.  It has been so hard, but our family is strong and has come together to share the grief.  It has been nice to see everyone, even under these sad circumstances.

I am so thankful for the friends that i've chosen, as they've rallied together to support myself and my family in this time of need.  They truly are angels, i'm so lucky to have them.  I've received so many phone calls, flowers, food, and words of comfort.

Back to work and realizing that I really need to buckle down.  It is true that life will continue on, no matter what happens, and so I must get back into it before I lose ground.  I've been drinking lots of water, but I really need to take my dog for a walk already.  She has been very patient with me, but I know she's reaching her limits!

I am quite upset that X did not even bother to call or text me this last week, this week that has been the most difficult of my life.  I shouldn't be surprised, I suppose, but not one person in his family even bothered to attend the funeral of my grandfather, not one card, not one phone call, not one word of support.  I imagine he's moved on with his life and that's good; however we spent quite a number of years together and I would expect that some show of support would have been in order.  But I can't think these thoughts any longer, I have to accept that he has no understanding or compassion towards anyone but himself.  I can't believe I put up with it for so many years!

I have one more family supper tonight, then hopefully sleep.  Wonderful, comforting sleep. 

biscottibody59 on 10/13/2009:
Sorry you're having to go through this after your grandfather's death. Take good care of yourself!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/13/2009:
My wishes are with you. I hope you can get through the passing of your grandfather. Be well.


mskitty on 10/13/2009:
Sorry I haven't been around to comment lately. Seems like a lot has been going on. I recently lost my Grandfather 2 months ago. Or at least I found out about his passing 2 months ago since no one bothered to tell me of his passing when it happened. He was a bit estranged from the family... But non the less he was the only one that was around for my childhood so it was a big blow for me when I found out. Didn't even get notified about his funeral or anything. >>>I suddenly realize that I am venting.<<<I guess moral of that story is closure is important. I am happy that there is closure there for you. Personally I think its good that your X left his nose outta it... It sounds like he would have been more stressful being there then not. Granted I would have expected some of his family to take up the task of sending condolences at least. <Thats frustrating I must admit.

Oh and Happy Thanks Giving... I live in Victoria. So yeah we had ours yesterday too. Didn't really celebrate this year though....family's in Prince George which is 10 hours away.



legcramps - Tuesday Oct 06, 2009

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I'm still a little weary, but am more concerned with my family and how they're getting on.  Thankfully, we've had another family member arrive yesterday to share the grief, concern, worry, organizing, etc.  This will be good, as now it won't feel so much like the burden is upon us to ensure things are done according to plan.  Sometimes, when you are in the midst of turmoil and grief, it is incredibly difficult to ponder all of the 'administrative' tasks that need to be accomplished. 

I made myself some dinner last night - potatoes, carrots, broccoli and cauliflower baked in the oven, and some chicken strips.  I'm hoping this will last me for the next couple of days as things progress and other family members start to arrive.  I've made my home available to any and all that require accommodation, so there will definitely be some time alloted to ensuring there are enough blankets and pillows to go around.  I'm just so weary, guys.  It's so sad.

My dog needs a walk.  Perhaps I can do that today.


legcramps - Monday Oct 05, 2009

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Well, my family has been under a bit of stress lately.  I'm not sure if i'm happy, angry, sad, etc etc etc today.  I'm weary.

My Grandpa will be leaving us soon, for a better place.  It is such torment to watch him struggle through the days, and to watch his wife and daugher do the same.  I wish him peace in passing, and I hope he will continue to be our matriarch and watch over us in the years to come.

I couldn't say how my eating has been this weekend.  Sporadic, I guess.  Maybe I shouldn't be making an entry today - I don't feel as though I could string together a sentence to save my life.  I'll just add that there was no exercise this weekend and I think that must be the reason for my dog's insolence of the past few days.

I'm learning patience.  I'll get there, where I need to be, eventually.

horn_of_Plenty on 10/05/2009:
stop berating yourself girl! i learned something in a book i've been reading recently - we need to be able to say positive things about ourselves more often! once you start the negative talk, it would be better to try to find something positive to say about yourself - and then stop the negative talk right away. bc, talking so unkindly about yourself just implants negative feelings in your head, which will ake you want to binge/eat more!



legcramps - Friday Oct 02, 2009

Weight: 0.0

Three mornings in a row where i've come to work and not been miserable!  Yay!

Took the dog for a walk yesterday, since I had to pick up a couple of things from my grandma's house anyways I decided I might as well walk and ensure the dog gets a bit of exercise as well as myself.  It was cold and rainy and my runners were squishing and squashing by the time we got back home, but oh well.  We suffered through it and managed to get some exercise.

I picked up some chicken after work and had that with the potatoes and carrots for dinner.  Today at lunch is leftovers, then I won't have to worry about meals until Sunday probably.  I picked up a whole lot of vegetables from grandma's since she won't be able to eat it all, so I have plenty of pickings for snacks, too.  No need for chips!!

It's great that I have so much going on in my life, lots of friends and family pulling me in all directions.  For the last little while, that's what I needed - to have someone else do all the thinking for me, and to have them fill up my schedules so that I didn't have to sit at home alone.  This week, so far, i've had the house to myself for three nights.  That is a HUGE change for me since i've moved in here.  There's ALWAYS been someone else hanging out or around, or someone calling on the phone or whatever.  Three whole nights, where no one came, no one phoned (except that one guy on Monday where I didn't answer...) and it was totally quiet from 6pm on.  It's been a rough week, but also a very encouraging one.  Because I got through it.  Not only did I get through it, i'm even happy about it.  I'm on my way!

I'm going to walk over to my friend's place tonight for dinner - she's only a couple of blocks away, but at least i'm still planning to walk it instead of driving that distance!

weightlossyoyo on 10/02/2009:
Yay! 3 days is a row! You are doing better than me..I wish I had a Rx for valuim...LOL..(no seriously). Awesome on your walking.


TheBestRevenge on 10/05/2009:
Good luck and good days ahead!



legcramps - Thursday Oct 01, 2009

Weight: 0.0

Again, not angry.  Sweet, two days in a row...

I took my dog for a walk yesterday after work.  It was a touch cool, but by the time we were on our way back home, I was sweatin' from the pace she was keeping!  We met up with an older gentleman with his 7 year old black lab.  It really made me miss my other dog, the one that X has now.  So I sweet-talked her and she really seemed to like my dog.  She is a feeble dog - her hips are giving out on her and she limps a bit when she walks, but every so often she'd pick up the pace to try to catch up to my dog!  Very cute and funny to watch her little legs giver for a few seconds!

I caved yesterday and bought myself chips.  My friend cancelled on me, so I wasn't able to go for chicken wings like i'd planned.  I thought about asking someone else, but then decided I was exhausted and would rather read a book in bed.  Then I fell asleep.  I woke up around 10pm, let the dog out for a bathroom break, had one myself, and went back to bed.  I feel a good bit better today, though my neck is sooooo sore!  I'm getting a massage on Saturday, thank goodness.  Just two more days of work to get through.

It is raining cats and dogs today.  I think maybe no walk after work for my dog.  She may resent me for it, but she didn't want to go outside this morning for her bathroom break because it was raining so hard.  I doubt very much she'd like to go for a walk, though by 4:30pm she could change her mind.  We'll see.  I don't mind walking in the rain, as long as it's not too cold.

That's about it for today.  I'm having cooked potatoes and carrots for lunch, possibly for dinner as well if there's still enough left.  I'll have to think of something for tomorrow's meals.  I haven't gotten groceries in a while, so my fridge is pretty bare.  A friend mentioned it the other day, so perhaps I should fill it up a bit... she thought only having two bottles of water and two bottles of beer in the fridge was quite hilarious.  The potatoes and carrots came from my cousin's garden and I cooked them up right away.  Maybe i'll go buy some chicken breasts or something.  Yeah, that might be a good idea.  And I have boxes of rice and pastas that I need to use as well.  Lots of carbs, hardly any protein!

Good luck today everyone.

horn_of_plenty on 10/01/2009:
lol, so it rains and you constipate your dog! not good sweetie! lol

a little rice/pasta along with chicken and veggies never hurts. :)

and it's nice to read you are in a good mood darling.



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