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mattscat3295 - Sunday May 20, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 242.0

Hello everyone, sorry that I haven't been on for such a long time. I have been so busy with work and so much has been going on here at home.

I am waiting for a prior authorization to have a surgery for my seizures, as they are getting really bad. I am going to have VNS Therapy done and I cannot wait. What it is is a pacemaker type thing is implanted under the skin and 2 lines are hooked up to my vagas nerve and electrons will be sent through the nerve to my brain to help decrease the severity of my seizures. I am a bit nervous about it but I am getting somewhere with getting some control over them. I will know in about 2 weeks whether the prior auth goes through or not. In a study done by the manufacturer it will also help with my mood,(everyone in my house is VERY excited about that effect,lol) and it is a possibility that it could keep me from having grand maul seizures. It isn't a guarantee but a possibility of not having seizures any more, wouldn't that be a wonderful thing?

Oh, and as you can see since the last time I was on here, I am down 7 pounds, even though I am not losing weight as fast as I would like at least I am losing it. I drink alot of water every day and plenty of veggies and fruits and have cut down alot on carbs and increased the protein.

My youngest daughter is graduating in 3 weeks and I just found out that I am going to be a Grandma for the first time. You know I thought that I would be one of those people who went completely nuts finding out that their daughter, who isn't married and just now graduating is pregnant, but after hearing her cry and worrying so much about letting me and Matt down, neither one of us have the heart to make her feel terrible. Yes she is scared, but I honestly believe that God doesn't make mistakes and that there is a reason for this baby to be here in our lives. We have all made mistakes in life and I don't consider a baby a mistake at all. I know that she is mature enough to take care of a baby but I still worry about her, but I wouldn't be Mom if I didn't worry some. I am going to be a Grandma and I am going to do it to the best of my ability, she is my baby and I love her no matter what, and that is what I keep telling her along with everything is going to be ok and that me and Matt are here for her. The boyfriend is actually a decent kid and he was scared to come over here at all but we figure we have to be their moral support and keep them going in the right direction so that they can become the wonderful parents that we believe that they will be.

I hope you are all doing well, I will be on tomorrow to check in with everyone, going to have to get a bath and ready for bed here soon, Mondays at work lately have been really hectic and if I don't get enough sleep I am of no use to anyone there.

Take care everyone and see you all tomorrow.


Progress as of today: 16 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

Soon2BThin on 05/20/2007:
Good for you, you are a terrific Mom!! Not many can see those things the way you have. I was pregnant at 16 so I know how it is for her. I hope things work out well for you all. And you're doing great with the weightloss. Keep it up. It's great to hear from you!

smiley2 on 05/20/2007:
Welcome back! Its great news about the surgery....i hope it helps you. Congrats as well about becoming a granny! Your daughter is so blessed to have a mother like you. Have a great week! Wx

hollybelle on 05/21/2007:
Good to see a post from you! Hope things progress toward a good outcome on your health issues. Good for you losing 7 lbs since last post. But REALLY good for you on keeping your cool when found out about daughter's situation. ANY of us could find ourselves in same position some day. Hope all goes well for daughter and boyfriend and your grandchild. Hugs, Holly

greengirl on 05/21/2007:
Hey Mattscat!! Great to hear from you again. Good to hear about the surgery too. Lets hope it is a success for you. I am so jealous that you are going to be a grandma!! I wish I was. My son and his wife are not even interested at the moment so it looks as if I will have to wait for one of the other kids to get round to it LOL!! I am dying to be a grandma. As for your daughter being single, I'm sure it wont stop her being a great mummy!! These things happen, and as you say, a baby is not a mistake, but a blessing. Good luck to you all **smiles all round**

sweetpea1977 on 05/23/2007:
Welcome back and thanks for the update. Congratulations on your weightloss and the news of becoming a grandma soon! Your daughter is so lucky to have you and Matt as her parents!!

Good luck with the surgery. I hope it provides the relief you deserve. Keep us posted!!

mattscat3295 - Sunday Mar 25, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 249.0

Hello everyone, so sorry that I haven't been on here lately, just working so much and lots of things happening lately. I did go down 1 pound though. I hope you are all doing well. I am keeping on, keeping on trying really hard to lose this weight and I will take that 1 pound loss and keep running with it.

I hope you are all doing well. I will hopefully get a chance to catch up soon with all of you, have lost 3 people at work and just trying to stay afloat with all the workload.

Take care

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 49 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 03/25/2007:
Wondering where you had been! Good work on the pound lost! Sorry about the extra work! Hope you find replacements soon!

greengirl on 03/25/2007:
hey mattscat, nice to hear from you. Good on you for losing a pound. Isnt it awful when you are trying to keep afloat at work with less people than there should be? We've been like that for some time too. All I can say is, 'Do your best' and dont let the stress make you resort to overeating. Keep your chin up !!!

WorkingIt2 on 03/26/2007:
Congratulations on that pound lost!! Stay strong!

sweetpea1977 on 03/28/2007:
Im glad you came by and gave us a quick update! I hope things get settle down soon at work for ya.

Oh and a big congrats on the pound loss!

sweetpea1977 on 05/18/2007:
Just dropping on by to say hi. Hope all is well!

mattscat3295 - Friday Mar 16, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 250.0

Hello everyone, I am finally back, I just picked up my computer and have it up and running. Something whacked it out for a while and I am so glad to be back on here. As you can see I have gained back my weight and now that I can get back on here it means it is time for me to get back with the diet and exercise. I am restarting my diet tomorrow, I have the v-8, veggies and fruits and plenty of turkey breast, chicken, tuna and some boca burgers in the fridge. I am ready to get this weight back off and keep it off. I am sorry if I have let anyone down. But tomorrow is a new day and I am rearing to go. I have missed all of you soooooo much and will be on in the morning to get caught up with everyone. Take care everyone and have a great evening!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 50 lbs to go!

borntocry on 03/17/2007:
Hey there, girlie! Welcome back!

smiley2 on 03/17/2007:
Hi!! Welcome back!

greengirl on 03/17/2007:
Nice to know you are still around Mattscat!!! Good luck with your fresh start :0)

WorkingIt2 on 03/17/2007:
Welcome back! You were missed!

sweetpea1977 on 03/21/2007:
Glad to see you again!!

mattscat3295 - Monday Feb 19, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 243.5

I am down 1/2 pound and I am thankful for that. I am doing alright but my computer is still acting stupid so on the girls for a quick minute. I hope you are all doing well. I am drinking 64 oz of water daily and exercising 30 minutes a day on my treadmill. I am eating plenty of veggies and fruit and making good choices. Now it's definately time to rev up my exercises. So back to Richard Simmons videos. I hope you are all doing fine, I miss you all and cannot wait until my computer is fixed to really check in with everyone. Have a great week everyone and take care.

Progress as of today: 14.5 lbs lost so far, only 43.5 lbs to go!

mylifechanges on 02/19/2007:
Congrats on that half a pound! Every half a pound adds up!:)

WorkingIt2 on 02/19/2007:
CONGRATS on the weight loss!!!! You are MISSED here and WE can't wait for you to come back! If your computer has a bug, there is usually a debugging program on the internet that can fix it. Not sure if that is what the deal is..but I know I've had a couple of them (usually from spyware) and once I downloaded the various program for whatever bug it was, it went away. Thankfully! HURRY BACK!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/21/2007:
yay mattscat! It's been awhile! I'm glad your weight has not changed in the wrong direction@!

sweetpea1977 on 02/23/2007:
I've been wondering where you've been. Thanks for the update and keep up the great work!

biscottibody59 on 03/15/2007:
Hadn't seen an entry in awhile--hope you're doing well!

mattscat3295 - Wednesday Feb 07, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 244.0

Hello everyone, I hope you are all doing well. Today went pretty well, drank 64 oz of water, a diet green tea, had an oatmeal to go for breakfast, a piece of barbeque chicken breast and an apple for lunch and dinner was chinese take-out, chicken and rice(steamed) and an egg roll. I need to get more veggies in so tomorrow is definately the day for that, I have a v-8 packed along with an apple and some celery and carrots for during the day at work, going to have chicken and steamed rice again for dinner but who in the world can eat all that chicken and rice the take-outs send? I hope you are all have a great evening.


Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 02/07/2007:
Your food looks yummy!! I need to get some more BBQ sauce for my chicken..LOVE that stuff!!

sharklover on 02/07/2007:
Sounds like you've got lots of healthy snacks for tomorrow. good job! Chicken and rice and a vegetable roll is the only thing I ever eat from chinese take out. It is very yummy.

mcwoo40 on 02/08/2007:
Keep up the good work,i fancy some chicken for my tea now yum !yum!

mattscat3295 - Tuesday Feb 06, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 244.0

Good evening everyone. Still using kids computer so this is gonna be another quicky. I am doing alright, had an oatmeal with raisin bar for breakfast, a v-8 for a little lift mid morning, lunch consisted of a chicken soft taco, with lettuce, cheese, and salsa, held the sour cream off this time, for dinner I had 2 pieces of chicken and some chicken noodles(made with skim milk and no butter) and had 2 apples for a snack, 1 in between lunch and dinner and just finished one up. It is snowing crazy here right now, we have about 4 inches and it is lightened up enough so I went out and shoveled the sidewalks and not just mine, I did every elderly persons walk, so an hour later I am a little sore but feeling great, what a wonderful workout that was. I did drink a caffeine free green tea today along with 64 oz of water, I am feeling great, I wish it would snow more often, it sounds crazy but that was the best workout that I have had in forever.

I hope you are all doing well, I am hanging in there and hanging on for dear life that I get this weightloss on a roll. Take care and have a great evening everyone.


Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 02/06/2007:
Great job on the snow shovelling! I give you a lot of credit for doing it because I cannot stand it, which might be why I live in a condo? LOL And so sweet of you to take care of your elderly neighbors..that is something that is lacking in neighborhoods. Your chicken soft taco sounds good. Take care!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/06/2007:
sorry to hear about the snow, great food today!

mcwoo40 on 02/07/2007:
I don't know if we are lucky or not here in England as we hardly get any snow now, compared to when i was a child.My kids have only played in the snow about three times due to lack of it.Personally, i don't like it only when it has just fallen ,but when it starts to freeze yikes!!

mattscat3295 - Monday Feb 05, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 244.0

Today went pretty well, even though there was no school because it is soooooo cold here and I am on my last day of vacation, I went walking with my daughter, Aimee. We were walking for about 25 minutes when I was ready to shiver my way all the way home, without using my legs I might add. I had oatmeal for breakfast, a tuna salad sandwich for lunch and tuna casserole for dinner, drank 64 oz of water and am soooooo ready to go back to work. I am sorry I didn't get to everyone last night, this computer is acting up so I am going to have the famous and well known geek squad come later this week and fix it, I am using my daughters computer really quick just to check in. I hope you all have a great day, thanks for all the support and comments you have left. I am going to make it through this weightloss journey and really appreciate everyones input and support. Thanks and I will post again tomorrow. I really can't wait til my computer is up and running, the girls computer is much slower than mine.

Until Tomorrow Cat

Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

sasyredneckgirl on 02/05/2007:
your a brave soul getting out there and walking.. its colllddd here tooo..

mcwoo40 on 02/06/2007:
Hi,I'm sick and fed up of using the de-icer.Here in england have just got over a very windy spell ,I never seen it as windy did alot of damage,I do not know what pocessed me to go walking in it but i did,i just took alot of tisues for my nose!!Anyway keep at it and more importantly keep warm.Julie

WorkingIt2 on 02/06/2007:
WOW fabulous courage to go out in the cold and walk!! That is great!

mattscat3295 - Sunday Feb 04, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 244.0

Yes, it's me and yes I am still alive and yes I am feeling better, still at 244 but stressed out. So sorry that I haven't made it on here lately but sooooo much is going on. Where do I start? My father, the child molester had a major heart attack 10 days ago. At first I was feeling so left out of everything and wanting to hear him say he was sorry was the first thing on my mind, (kind of selfish, huh?) so me being the usual person that I am had to see him just in case he did have something to say. I went to the hospital on last Sunday, I had such high hopes that he would have come to the realization that he needed to say something, anything to take all the load off of my shoulders, but he didn't. I found out while I was at the hospital that the drs had planned on doing a Quadruple Bypass on last Monday so I asked him, "Dad, do you want me here when they do the surgery?" He only responded to me by saying, "Do what your gonna do". I was soooo hurt that I left in tears, and when I got home I did go a little crazy and I did scream and yell at everyone in sight, I just don't understand or get it, why does someone have such a hard time saying I am sorry? Why couldn't he just look me in the eyes and at least acknowledge that I was there. He couldn't or wouldn't look at me and I was hurt. So on Monday, my mother and sister both called me and did let me know that the surgery had started, but when it was over, I called the hospital to check on him, when I asked to get his status, they asked me for a code. I have never been asked for a code to get info before from a hospital, it must be something new or so I thought. I told them that I was his daughter and they responded that the only kin that he had listed was my sister. At this point I was furious. I called my sister and asked her, so how is dad doing? She said I didn't deserve to know. So, I called my grandmother,(his mother) and she said that my sister had called her but that I was not to know what was going on, but my grandmother did tell me everything went ok and that my dad was going to be fine and that they were putting a pace maker in on the following day. By the way, she didn't have a code for info either and I think deep inside she was just as hurt as I was but she didn't admit it. After all of this my dad got out of the hospital yesterday, I had that information thanks to my grandmother and she had asked me if I had a broiler oven, (like a toaster oven). I haven't had one in years so my ever-loving husband and I went to Walmart and got her a new one so that when my dad did get home she could broil his fish and chicken for him and I knew immediately that I had to forgive my dad and let it go. I don't know how on earth that I am going to do this but I have to be the bigger person and I have to do the right thing. I bought his meds today and made sure he has everything that he needs including some slippers and a nice comfy blanket so that he would be comfortable. I didn't ask him anything other than if he was ok but deep in my heart I know that I am going to be a stronger person because of all of this. I don't mean to go on and on since not being on here for a while but I realized that in forgiving him doesn't mean that I am going to be his favorite person or that he is even going to accept me back into his life but I know that I am going to be a better person in the long run being who I am, a loving and forgiving person. Enough of all of the drama, I hope you are all doing well. I have been on vacation this past week and I am getting ready to check in with everyone. I am trying like no tomorrow to keep on my diet but with all the stress here this past week I have to get it together.

Please forgive me for losing track of everyone lately, I am going to try not to let this happen anymore.



Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

WorkingIt2 on 02/04/2007:
Welcome Back!!! I missed you here!!! (((((((((((((MC))))))))))))))) Having gone through what you've gone through, albiet with a different family member, I can honestly say that it wasn't until I let go of the hate inside me (and he went to his grave without ever saying he was sorry or telling me why he did it) that I could forgive myself for not being able to protect myself as a little girl. I went through therapy and I still have PTSD from it, but I stopped letting what someone else did to me define who I am. I didn't forgive him or his crimes, but I let go of my hate that had built up inside me all those years and unlocked the softer side of me that I had been protecting with the gruff side of my learned nature, as well as the layers of fat. Forgiving someone doesn't mean that you have to take care of them, forgiving them is more like saying "you did what you did, rot in your own hell because I will not let your hell belong to me any longer." But we all have to deal with it in our own way and in a way that is healthy and allows us to become unburdened from that hate that permeates our being. I give you a lot of credit because I'd probably let him suffer and tell him to get mom and sister to help him. I damned sure couldn't be in the same room. The only bit of advice that I can give you, that I learned from intense therapy (I was in hospital twice for nervous breakdowns) is to allow yourself to go through all the normal stages of what we would attribute to grief. Including rage. The rage was the scariest thing for me but it was necessary. Don't let him use your desire to heal to his advantage unless you are doing it ONLY for yourself.

Most importantly, don't lose who you are by trying to fix him. He isn't your responsibility and your time spent taking care of him might be better spent taking care of the you that he damaged as a child. Whatever you decide to do..my thoughts and prayers are with you because I know what a long and difficult road recovery is from such things. And I know it isn't easy.

I am glad you are back!!!

sasyredneckgirl on 02/05/2007:
Hugsss Cat and welcome back :)!!!

biscottibody59 on 02/05/2007:
Boy I have to tell you you're a better (at least 1000 times better) person than I am. Of course it's not the same situation in my family, but I've found it very easy to let go of people like this, though they're not my father--and they didn't molest me.

I just wonder if with the health issues you have yourself if it wouldn't be better for your health to let go, seeing as there appears to not be the same support for you. That's what sealed it for me in my family. Sort of like always trying to "keep the peace," where there simply will never be any such thing (under the circumstances).

Stay safe and do take care of yourself--Keep up the good work with your weightloss journey as well!

greengirl on 02/05/2007:
Good to see you are still out and about Mattscat. I think that you should do whatever makes YOU feel better. If you forgive your father it might give you some closure and help you to heal, but I wouldnt have high expectations of an apology from him. Worry about yourself!! Good for you for still caring about your long term health under the circumstances :)

mattscat3295 - Friday Jan 26, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 244.0

Hello everyone. I am sorry I haven't been on here for a while, I have had pneumonia for the past couple weeks and eating from stress since the dr put me on bed rest or else he said he would put me in the hospital. I would rather stay at home personally. I am feeling a bit better so I am trying to get my act back together. As you can see I am up to 244, no I am not giving up but I am pretty darned depressed about the whole thing but I can't and won't give up. I hope you are all doing well. I am going to get off of here and climb back in bed, my head is killing me. I hope to check in with everyone real soon. Take care everyone.

Progress as of today: 14 lbs lost so far, only 44 lbs to go!

sandrella on 01/26/2007:
I hope you feel better soon! :)

hollybelle on 01/26/2007:
Wondered where you had been. I'm so sorry you have been ill. I LOVED that you said "I can't and won't give up" - you actually said that twice! YAY!!!! Prayers to you for feeling well, soon! Holly

biscottibody59 on 01/26/2007:
I know you were really on a roll there before this, so I hope you get better soon. Just don't do too much too soon! Take care and rest!

greengirl on 01/26/2007:
Oh dear, I'm sorry you have been so ill!!! I'm sure it will just be a slight setback in your efforts to be more healthy. You are so determined I know you will get back on track!! Good luck with your efforts!!!

WorkingIt2 on 01/26/2007:
Hey ((((((((((((Mattscat)))))))))) thank you for checking in...I am so sorry to read that you have been so very ill!! My goodness! I am glad you are taking care of yourself..DO NOT let your weight bother you, especially not while you are trying to heal. When you feel better, you'll get right back on track and be as powerful as you ever were. God bless and feel better SOON! We miss you!

sweetpea1977 on 01/31/2007:
I hope you get to feeling better!! Get well soon!!

mattscat3295 - Wednesday Jan 10, 2007
(Cutting Calories to 1800 per day)
Weight: 239.0

Hello everyone, just got in from work but here is how the day went, banana and hot chocolate for breakfast, lunch large salad, with romaine lettuce, 6 cherry tomatoes, 2 tablespoons of bacon bits, 4 oz of grilled chicken breast, and 2 tablespoons of low cal italian dressing, I had a chocolate chip kudo for a quick snack, I have had 64 oz of water, 2 v-8s and a sugar free red bull(I really wished for those darned wings to take me away from the hectic pace but they didn't appear). I am right now making a ground chicken patty with green pepper and onion mixed in with it and having it on a hamburger bun and some green beens for dinner. Oh I almost forgot I also took some more carrots with me to work and they are all gone, I took about 20 of the baby carrots in a baggy, it is great to have them beside me to munch on in between customers. I am sorry to say that I am dog tired and am passing up my treadmill tonight but I think that all in all I did pretty well today.

2 points for water intake 2 points for 3 servings of veggies/fruit 2 points for staying within my calorie limit

Have a great evening everyone!!!!!

Progress as of today: 19 lbs lost so far, only 39 lbs to go!

weightlossyoyo on 01/10/2007:
You did great on food intake today! The chocolate chip kudo sounds soooo good!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/10/2007:
yay! great job!

WorkingIt2 on 01/11/2007:
My GOODNESS you have to be one of the busiest people on this site! How wonderful that you are still getting very good points! I tried to make the chicken patty before but it was really gross LOL...I think I don't know how to make them but shhhhh our secret LOL Have a great day!

greengirl on 01/11/2007:
Well done on the fantastic day. Keep it up:)

sweetpea1977 on 01/12/2007:
What a great food day!!

WorkingIt2 on 01/20/2007:
Just letting you know that I'm thinking about you and hope you are doing ok. (((((((MC)))))))))

WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
Hey ((((((((MC))))))))))) checking in with you again! Hope you are ok! Miss you around here!

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