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missmink - Tuesday May 14, 2013
Weight: 110.0

I'm going to start logging my food again.

I'm limiting all my meals to 900 calories and my snacks to 200 - 300.

I will only be logging my primary meal and not counting snacks. My snacks will always be fresh fruits or veggies or foods with negligible calories.



ProteinPlus Mud Pie Fusion Proten Bar - 300

Vanilla Spice Tea w/ 2 tbsp. fat free half & half and 4 tbsp soy - 40

Breakfast Total:340


12 P.M.

Pure Protein Bar - 180

-----> 520

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 05/14/2013:
Hi Miss Mink - I was reviewing your posts from the past. How are things going for you emotionally and physically at this point, if I may ask? Last September you posted that very honest entry. Whats going on? Wondering if you are taking care of yourself and getting healthier these days? As Annie said on last post - counseling is a good idea when you are in a situation where health is compromised. It's not as scary as it sounds. Once it's all out in the open it gets better. I can promise you that. It's just that first big step.....I hope you are ready. ED is not your friend, although it can feel like it - it's a deception. It sounded like you are wise to ED's ways by now. There IS life after ED! Love to you, my dear.

missmink - Saturday Sep 15, 2012
Weight: 102.0

 I have to be honest. 


I have struggled with bulimia for over a year now. I never thought I would ever get to the stage that I am in. Low blood pressure, faint spells, massive cravings for sugars, spiked insulin levels followed by purging.. It takes a lot out of a person. It took out of me an ability to maintain healthy relationships with others. My longest relationship lasted 3 months. It took away freedom. It took away my energy, my focus, my ambition. I sought therapy while at my university.. I cannot say it helped. I did not stay long enough to really say though. I am back living at home.. I left college half way through my spring semester and thought I'd be back in school by now. I am not. I have pushed it for another semester. Living at home in the environment that fostered my ED in the first place has not helped.


I don't really know what to do anymore.

I am working to save for school to start up in the Spring. I cannot see myself succeeding if I am still in a cyclical, reactive hypoglecimic state of binge-purge-binge-purge. At least I have decided to study nutrition.


This is probably the most honest post I have written on here.

Progress as of today: 18 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/15/2012:
I know that you realize how you are damaging your health. Please find a good ED counselor who will help you change your body image. I see from previous posts you are 5'2". Your weight is too low. I hope you don't lose any more. Yes, do study nutrition!

missmink - Sunday May 20, 2012
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 103.0

 I'm back!

This time, I'm pretty serious. I need to lose these last 10 pounds before vacation time and I am ready to prove to myself my own willpower. Unfortunately, since starting college, I have developed a fairly serious sugar addiction. I get cravings so strong that they will pull me out of bed for a midnight snack. I need to discipline myself. No food after 8 p.m. No food with added sugars. Back to vegetarianism. And most of all.. STAYING HYDRATED! (Without soda!)


Wish me luck!



Here is my day so far: 


Breakfast: Oatmeal + Almond milk = 200 calories

Lunch: Shirataki Noodle Veggie Stir Fry = 120 calories

Progress as of today: 17 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

gymtime on 05/20/2012:
geesh,you wanna weigh 93 lbs,like wouldn't that be a sack of bones,how tall are you?? I lift weights heavier then that.good luck in your journey.

Umpqua on 05/21/2012:
Welcome back to you. RE the above comment, I believe you are 5'2" (I've got 1/2 an inch on that) so 100 pounds is about the low end of the healthy BMI range for us. Why do you want to lose 10 pounds? As of your last posts you were interested in building muscle to avoid looking "skinny." I'm all in favor of staying away from added sugars and eating clean but you need to ensure you're getting enough protein and good overall nutrition if you are interested in improving muscle tone and being healthy. Best of luck to you and I hope you will keep us updated.

missmink - Friday Aug 26, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 96.0

 I came back from a month and a half overseas and now I am ready to get out of summer mode and get productive again. College is only a few days away so I will be flying out of home to move into my new residence on campus.


Now for weight.. My goal was always 100, and now I weigh 96. Since my last entery, no weight loss has been intentional, but I know I tend to lose weight when I travel overseas.. The summer heat, the walking, the dancing.. It all adds up to extra burnt calories. I like my current shape, but I feel like I need to build on my muscle mass as I am not toned at all, just "skinny" now.. which was not the ideal I had in mind. As soon as I start exercising and return to some sort of regularity in diet and exercise in my life I will post again.

Progress as of today: 24 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

KayBee on 08/27/2011:
in kilos?

Em17 on 08/28/2011:
Have a great week coming up =)

missmink - Saturday May 14, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 105.5

My lips are so chapped, which makes me think I should be drinking more water, but I feel as if I am drowning myself in water with the amounts I'm drinking. Ahhh!


I have stopped counting calories for a while and it seems to be going well for me. This current weight of 105.5 is the lowest. My goal has always been a solid 100 pounds, and now that I am approaching it.. It's not feeling right. I think I ought to be exercising and dieting, rather than just dieting. Because I definitely don't feel toned, and if I am indeed losing weight as the scale seems to tell me.. I am not losing it in the "right" places.


Summer break has begun for me. I have no excuse not to exercise now that I have all the time.. I'll have to start, but I'll push it till Monday :P

Progress as of today: 14.5 lbs lost so far, only 5.5 lbs to go!

loveray on 05/14/2011:
congrats on your loss. enjoy summer break! xo

moogy on 05/14/2011:
Sounds like toning is the way to get you in excellent shape:)

missmink - Monday May 09, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 108.0

 I weighed in at around 106.5 this morning, and that was the lowest I have seen in a long time. 

It's nighttime and I brushed my teeth after dinner. Ate fruits and drank a lot of water after dinner, and weighed myself a second ago at 108. I have mentioned my height here before, and I'll menton it again. At 5'2'', this is not as small as it seems. I am certainly not obese, but I could use trimming, no doubt.

I think this is my normal weight during the day at this point. I tend to weigh less in the mornings though. Anyway, I did start at 120.. I feel pretty good with my accomplishments thus far, but I sadly don't feel any different at all. And it seems that I don't lose weight where I want to, ever. My arms just get scrawnier while my bottom half remains thick :(

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

KathyBlue on 05/09/2011:
wow, doing great! :))))

moogy on 05/09/2011:
How wonderful you must feel fantastic. Good job:)

missmink on 05/14/2011:
Thank you so much! It's odd.. I am losing weight on the scale but am not noticing it on myself.. so i'm not feeling as great as i had hoped.

missmink - Monday Apr 04, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 111.0

So today I had a lot of rather fatty, carb heavy foods. I went to an event that happened to be catered with delicious, gourmet finger foods. Yes, I may have overindulged. I also took the liberty to help myself to not only one slice of delicious cheese cake, but another! (they had extra!)


Well.. It doesn't show up on the scale yet. And I actually weighed in at 110 during the afternoon today.  But knowing myself, what I eat will usually haunt me in the oncoming week or so. I ran out of my fiber one cereal and erm.. using the bathroom has been unpleasant. I am not looking forward to it.

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

legcramps on 04/04/2011:

missmink - Saturday Apr 02, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 111.0

 I can't believe I've actually been losing weight. I'm going to be really excited once I hit 110 and lower. The only problem is that I don't notice anything at all different in me. I don't know if it's water weight or what.. We'll see.


Also! Fiber One cereal + Almond milk + cut strawberries for breakfast = AMAZING.

Progress as of today: 9 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!

loveray on 04/02/2011:
i do love some fiber one cereal. congrats on your loss.

missmink - Monday Mar 28, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 113.0

  I have not written here for a while now. Partially because I have disregarded all plans and instead decided to return to my habit of binging upon everything in sight, and naturally, purging it afterwards. Spring break has given me a lot of free time (i.e. time to kill and obsess about food) and I suppose it makes sense that I would most vigorously return to my habits during this time. It's been this way for months, but I can't ever do it as often when I am not on break. Therefore I had a sensible breakfast. Just had a 1/2 cup of my fiber one cereal (60 calories, but the most FILLING 60 ever available) with a cup of almond milk (40 calories) as well as a coffee.

When I get home, I'll have to figure out what I'm going to do with myself. I wanted to do a water fast. But it seems like I lack any sort of discipline.

Time to get going.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!

missmink - Thursday Mar 03, 2011
(Lower sugar, carbs, calories/Vegetarian)
Weight: 120.0

I gained.

I was going pretty good.. until I decided not to sleep last night and ate a ridiculous amount of food.. I ate a lot. I am still full and I haven't had breakfast even. I had carbs, fats, sugars.. Leftovers from yesterday's birthday.. So as expected, I climbed a few pounds. I have been climbing since the weekend. I don't know what to do -- I have little self control when the foods are around me, and since I don't buy the groceries (living with my parents), I can't tell them not to buy cookies/chips/pastries/cereals if those things are a part of their diets.

I heard about Ketostrips.. and now i am curious about them. I will get back on track today. Being vegetarian has made me overall a lot hungrier. The lack of meat in my meals is something I am still adjusting to, and it's making me eat a lot of carbs instead.. which can't be good. Anyway, I'd like to limit carbs again and maybe buy these Ketostrips.

Also, lately I've been reading about homeopathic hCG and its controversies.. does anyone have any personal experience with it?

lolla on 03/03/2011:
Be compassionate with yourself and start over, everybody that is sucesfull in losing weight went through gains once in a while. It is very hard to change ourselves, I've been trying for 33 years! Sometimes I win, sometimes I don't. bur overall, at the end month, I can say I am going in the right direction. When I lost 50 pounds I was weighing myself every 3 weeks so these overeating events were not so damaging to my motivation. My rate was one pound a week. Sometimes if you slow down you will feel better. Good Luck!

biscottibody59 on 03/03/2011:
Hi and welcome!

Homeopathic preparations essentially have nothing in them--a waste of money. If you get an effect, it's a placebo effect.


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