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moogy - Wednesday Mar 09, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

Hello Lovely Girls, I am just stopping by to let you know I am doing OK. I feel as if I am thinking a little clearer and easier today and not so many dizzy spells. Maybe I am improving? Wonderful news about Sweetpea's baby. A couple of friends from church stopped by last night armed with chocolate ice cream and dark almond chocolate, they obviously know me quite well. Anyway, I am planning on eating healthy from tomorrow. Plus I am going to read some diaries today. Look after yourselves. Love you girls.:)

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 03/09/2011:
I'm glad you're feeling a little better Moogy. Take care of yourself!


starfish on 03/09/2011:
Thanks for the advice on counting carbs instead of taking a break. I hadn't really considered that.


V on 03/09/2011:
It sounds like you are feeling a bit better :) Take it easy okay?? How sweet of your church members to come over armed with all of your favorites( mental note, must talk to the church ladies) LOL!!! Love you Moogy!! Have a good evening :)


balloonlady on 03/09/2011:
glad to hear you are doing better : )


biscottibody59 on 03/09/2011:
Yesterday must have just been an extremely off day--perhaps you were extra weary over it all. Because--today you sound like you could rule the world--I'd be one of your underlings--save a place for me as the court jester please?

Enjoy it all and the chocolate! All positive thoughts sent your way, woman!


loveray on 03/09/2011:
hope you are okay - love you and take care!! xo


chidogs on 03/09/2011:
I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. Thank you for your kind words. I think being an only child did make things a bit worse, as we were extremely close, and I do still miss them very much. You take care of yourself now, and I applaude those friends of your with their chocolate cures! Hugs.


selina on 03/09/2011:
So glad you are feeling better - so nice of your friends to come visit! Stay well, Moogy!


lifestylechange on 03/09/2011:
LOVE YOU!!! :) Thanks so much for your thoughts


nemogirl on 03/09/2011:
Glad to hear from you today!


liza36 on 03/10/2011:
Glad to hear you are ok today. Take care of yourself, and enjoy a little of the chocolate.


V on 03/10/2011:
Just checking in to see how my girl/wingwoman is doing :) I am hoping that your day went well!!! Love you <3


hopingforhealth on 03/10/2011:
I am glad you are doing a bit better! I am keeping you in my thoughts. Yea, I hope my migraines will fade a bit when I get older. I've had then since I was a kid, so at least I am used to living with them!

That's so sweet that your church friends stopped by. I'm glad they did!


waydesmommy on 03/11/2011:
Just wanted to say hi to you. Hi!!!!!


biscottibody59 on 03/11/2011:
I do hope you're still hanging in there--doing as well as you can!



moogy - Tuesday Mar 08, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

Nobody made a greater mistake than he who did nothing because he could do only a little.       - Edmund Burke

Today I am grateful for: feeling up to writing a diary entry, my DD's freinds, my daughter

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 86 degrees and cloudy, but it is really not getting hot until the afternoon and cools down by 7pm, so not too bad. Update on the illness front, my ear in almost better. Which means that my dizziness and wonkiness are a left over from the seizure, which is good in one way, they should be able to see some damage on the MRI and bad because I HAVE DAMAGED MY BRAIN. However, not much I can do about it. My appointment to see the neurologist is on the 23rd I think (my daughter is in charge of all the arrangements as I am no longer capable of anything more complicated than a shopping list) so it will be a further 2-3 weeks to get the EEG and MRI scheduled and completed. Not being a drinker of alcohol but remembering long ago in the mists of time when I was my brain feels like it has had four or five drinks all by itself, it is swerving and swaying whilst not making me dizzy and then I sometimes feel dizzy without the swerving and swaying. Well, it's the best explanation I can come up with at the moment.

I have no clue what is happening on the food front, I am sleeping an incredible amount of time and hoping that this is mitigating the food I am eating when I am awake. I can't be bother cooking and feeling that it probably wouldn't be a good idea anyway. So it's all grab and gobble I am afraid, that always means simple carbs in the main. I will figure out the damage when I can balance on the scale!!!!! (That is my excuse and no one is allowed to steal it!!!) Have said I am eating mainly carbs I don't think I am actually eating very much so hopefully I won't have done too much damage. You have all been so lovely in wishing me well and offering your comforts and concerns. I am so sorry I have not been on your diaries to comment. I just have not been up to it. I can feel myself slowly winding down for another sleep as I type this. Love you more than I can say. I miss you and knowing what is going on with your lives. I will try and catch up soon.:)

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

V on 03/08/2011:
Moogy now don't worry about responding, cooking or carbs, we all want you to get better....Once you are at 100% I shall come there and work out with ya, and cook for you and whatever else you need from me!! Love you take it easy sweet girl :)


hopingforhealth on 03/08/2011:
I echo V. Comment whenever you feel like it. I don't need to have a comment from you to know you care. :) I'd rather you work on feeling better instead. I'm sorry that there is some damage showing! Hopefully knowing the problem can help you and your doctors come up with a plan. I know it's very different, but I get chronic migraines and I had a very long period of guessing and checking for solutions with doctors and know it can be hard to get through all that poking and prodding. I am rooting for you guys to come up with something soon so that you feel better. Get lots of rest and don't worry about the carbs. :)


chidogs on 03/08/2011:
OK Moogy, and that makes 3 of us united to get you better. Eat what you need, sleep as much as you need. And don't worry about us at all. You know that if we could we would all hop on the next plane over there to cook, clean and cheer you up in general. My thoughts and prayers are with you now, instead. We will wait with you for the results and hope for something to help you get back on you feet and up on that treadmill! Take care and gentle hugs.


biscottibody59 on 03/08/2011:
Lay low and take good care of yourself!


Supercheese on 03/08/2011:
Number one priority is you feeling better girly!, which u will :)


liza36 on 03/09/2011:
Thinking about you, and praying that you feel better. No worries about commenting, just let us know how YOU are doing. Sleep, eat carbs, and feel better!



moogy - Friday Mar 04, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

UPDATE: Ear infection is healed. Doctor has given me a referral to see the neurologist - should get in to see him in the next couple of weeks and then all the tests. Yuk! Still don't feel very well. I hope I feel better after the weekend. Stay good and healthy!! Love you girlies!!

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

 

Know what's weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change, but pretty soon...everything's different.            - Calvin from Calvin and Hobbes

Today I am grateful for: a cool day, modern medicine, sleep

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 72 with the chance of showers. Perfect!! Sorry I didn't post yesterday, I was feeling too tired to do just about anything. I am only slightly better today. I have a doctor's appointment on Monday and he will give me a referral to my neurologist because it has been over a year since I last saw him. I don't mind all the tests I have to do except for the MRI it is a terrifyingly noisy tiny little tunnel that you get squeezed into and then can't move until it is over. Absolutely frightful!! Just to top things off and in case I was getting bored I have developed an swollen inner ear which is incredibly painful. I can't chew on the right because my tongue is still really sore, can't chew on the left because my ears hurts!!!! Kill me now!!! and put me out of my misery!!

On the food front, not all that good I am afraid. I had sushi and chocolate yesterday. I plan on doing better today. It was the biggest boy's twelveth birthday in the week and he is having boys for a sleep over and has requested a chocolate pavlova for his birthday cake. So I shall make that this morning while I am still awake enough. I dare say that I shall be having a nap again this afternoon. I hope you all have a good weekend and that you look after yourselves. Love you girls.

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

loveray on 03/04/2011:
im glad you are feeling a little bit better today!! i hate MRIs too. ugh - i hope that you have a good evening and get some rest sweetie!! xo


sweetpea1977 on 03/04/2011:
I've never had an MRI done and just the thought of doing one makes me nervous.

Im sorry you arent feeling well. I hope your ear feels better soon!!


Umpqua on 03/04/2011:
Thanks for your sweet comment and good to see a post from you. I'm glad you are going to get checked out, I hope they find a solution for you so you don't have to suffer through this. Oh and sushi and chocolate? Nirvana! Have a good one Moogy!


chidogs on 03/04/2011:
I am also glad you are getting things checked out. In my opinion, you deserved some chocolate! (afraid I'm not much of a sushi fan, but the chocolate I can understand. :) ). Have fund doing the birthday Pavlova. Yum.


biscottibody59 on 03/04/2011:
Your comment hit the spot--Thanks!

Glad you're going to find out what's up with things--enjoy your weekend too! Sounds like you could do with a lot of taking it easy and nursing the body--you certainly have my positive thoughts on that note!


V on 03/04/2011:
Hi Moogy!!! I am home a bit early :) I wanted to say that I love you and I was thinking about you today :) I hope you might find resolve to your seizures..I am sorry to hear your tongue still hurts :( Maybe you can whip up some of those shakes that you like so you don't have to chew, it certainly sounds a bit painful...<3


V on 03/04/2011:
Please get some rest Moogy!


shell2418 on 03/05/2011:
Hang in there. Hope you feel better very soon! I love your quote at the beginning, "I will find an alternative to my emotional eating." I can so relate and need to post that all over my house!!!!!


starfish on 03/05/2011:
Cute quote :-) And so true


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/05/2011:
lol, you are thankful of a cool day and i'm thankful for a warmer day! it should finally be in the 50's and not 30's!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/05/2011:
wow, you are baking the cake! nice. i could never...right now, i'm just a brownie mix type of girl!


V on 03/06/2011:
Just checking in on you! I hope your appointment went well...Love you!


legcramps on 03/07/2011:
Hope you're doing okay today moogy!!!


sweetpea1977 on 03/07/2011:
Moogy, I just wanted to drop by and ask how your appointment went. I hope you got some answers. Love and miss you! xo


tangalyn on 03/07/2011:
love love love the quote.. hope ur appt went well and u r feeling better


chidogs on 03/07/2011:
Glad to hear from you. I am also glad you have the ear infection under control. It is amazing how debilitating that can be! Hope you get in soon to see the neurologist, as it would be nice to get that resolved as well, despite the nasty tests. Take care. Hugs.


nemogirl on 03/07/2011:
Warm hugs to you!


Umpqua on 03/07/2011:
Good news on the ear infection, take care!


Maria7 on 03/07/2011:
Sounds like you are going through a lot, Moogy...hope you feel better soon. :-)


hopingforhealth on 03/07/2011:
Hey Moogy! I hope the MRI went ok... I have done those before and I hate them! But it will be worth it if it helps the neurologist help you fell better. :)


loveray on 03/07/2011:
so glad you are feeling better. sending lots of love and healing your way!! xoox


V on 03/07/2011:
Ear aches suck Big time...My mom had her fair share of bouts with dizziness and for the longest her docs couldnt figure it out ans surprisingly it was an inner ear issue :( I am hoping you will finally find the solution to your seizures...Have a wonderful time baking for the big boy :) Love you Moogy!! Just in case you didn't know ;)


V on 03/07/2011:
Oh guess what is on TV as I type???? What ever happened to Baby Jane!! I only wish i would have caught it from the beginning so I could tape it :( :( :(


selina on 03/08/2011:
I love Calvin and Hobbes. I hope you'll get well soon, moogy.


Maria7 on 03/08/2011:
Hello over there in Australia! Are you home????? :-)


V on 03/08/2011:
Hi Moogy! I am just stopping by to see if you are okay??? I miss you :( Maybe you are getting a bit of rest so I shall talk to you later!!!



moogy - Wednesday Mar 02, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

Never live in the past but always learn from it.          - Anonymous

Today I am grateful for: people who care about me, serenity, feeling peaceful

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 86 degrees. I am feeling very tired today, no other symptoms although my tongue is still pretty mangled so it is hard to swallow. Maybe it will help with my food intake!!!  Thank you for all you kind and encouraging words and support. I will get to the neurologist as soon as I can to see if he can see any damage and therefore able to diagnose me, give me drugs etc. It will probably take two or three weeks. Whatever, I would like a diagnosis but I figure I won't be dying until it is time for me to go.  I had about 1700 cals yesterday, mainly because I was too tired to cook and ended up eating some of the childrens cake (easy to swallow!). I will try and do better today. I am going back to bed now and I will try to get to your diaries later today. Look after yourselves. Love you girls!!

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

chidogs on 03/02/2011:
Keep taking care of yourself. I'm so glad you have your family right there for you. Sending you Hugs!!


loveray on 03/02/2011:
hope you are doing okay. i love you and hope that the doctors can figure out whats up. in the meantime, get some good rest and enjoy not eating too much! love you and xoox


V on 03/02/2011:
Hello Moogy :) I am hoping that the swelling of your tongue went down a bit..I hope your day goes well :) Love you!! Thank you soooo much for the hilarious email :)


biscottibody59 on 03/02/2011:
I like the quotation--easier said than done.

Under the circumstances I'd go for the cake too--heck, I'd go for it if I had it in front of me:-) Take it easy--glad you're here today (and every day)!


Umpqua on 03/02/2011:
I'm glad you're going to try to get to the bottom of this. I hope you get some rest and feel better today! Oh and isn't porridge the same as oatmeal? I'm sure this has already been discussed a lot on here, I thought us Americans were the only ones who call it "oatmeal." Have a good one!


V on 03/02/2011:
:)


V on 03/02/2011:
HI Moogy!! I hope you get some rest in!! Love you too, just in case I haven't said it enough <3


Supercheese on 03/02/2011:
To Umpqua ^ Yep, oatmeal = porridge. I believe it is at least...

Hope youre feeling better! Sending healthy vibes your way ~~~~~~


emmy'smom-mom on 03/03/2011:
Hi Moogy, you sound a bit brighter today and I am so glad. Keep up the good resting and you will feel better in no time xxx


liza36 on 03/03/2011:
I'm so sorry you've had another seizure. I do think it would be wise to see the neurologist again, and hopefully they can find some way to help the situation. Please take care of yourself! Your grandchildren need you, we need you to stick around a while longer.


hollybelle on 03/03/2011:
Catching up on your posts. I'm sorry to hear about the recent major seizure. By all means, if you can see ANOTHER neorologist -please do. Second and third opinions can turn up something. If you can find the root of it - maybe treatment can be more long-lasting and effective, etc. WE are young still, my dear! (I'm 56, remember). There's life in the old girls yet. Prayers going out across the blue to you!


nemogirl on 03/03/2011:
Praying for you to get some answers instead of just yucky tests. Also, hoping that maybe they'll ease up on the whole, you can't travel on your own thing. Some people have epilepsy and they get to leave the house alone, maybe it will only be something like this.


sweetpea1977 on 03/03/2011:
We haven't heard from you today. I hope you are doing ok. Sending hugs and love your way. xoxo


V on 03/04/2011:
Umm No post today :( I hope all is well! Love you



moogy - Tuesday Mar 01, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish. A little knowledge that acts is worth infinitely more than much knowledge that is idle.       - John Quincy Adams

Today I am grateful for: knowing that death is the beginning, being unafraid, trusting my Saviour

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 77 degrees. It is  a chilly overcast morning here is Sydney, just the way I like it this time of year. Unfortunately, I am not full of the joys of Autumn because yesterday I had another grand mal seizure. Actually, I chewed quite a bit on my tongue and it is still very sore and my calves are just killing me because of all the twitching. Of course, I am not actually aware any of this is going on while I am unconscious, however, when I wake up it is with a lot of pain, very sleepy and not very functional. It has been five months since my last seizure and it was eight months between the previous two. My daughter is going to see our doctor next week and will ask him if it is worth going back to the neurologist and the barrage of acronym tests that I got performed on me last year. The only thing that is scary about these things is the fact that I am waking up. I would be so much happier if I just didn't. No pain, just zap! and you are out!!

I don't think I will be doing much of anything today. I feel really tired and flat, a little depressed (well! more than usual!) and I think I shall just enjoy the chill and watch movies. I don't mind dying at an earlyish age, it is the slow loss of my independence that I am resenting, first I couldn't drive at night, then not for three months after a seizure and now not at all. I can't trust my brain enough to even walk through the streets. So from now on I will always have my daughter with me whenever I leave the house. I am grateful that I have a daughter who doesn't mind doing this. But my loss of independence is a bit hard to swallow. I do realize that it does end up happening to most people as they grow older. I was a community worker who worked with the aged and with people with disabilities, maybe that makes it worse. The trouble is that I am only 55 and even with my positive outlook on death, disability and dependence on others is not on my list of things I want to be. Of course, this is why it is happening, the thing you want the least is the thing you end up getting. I have a life filled with desertion and this is the final smack in the face, even my own mind is deserting me. Sorry for the ramble today, my daughter would just tell me to suck it up, (she lives with life threatening stuff day by day!). For me however, it is like a confirmation that parents, friends, co-workers, neighbours, family, husband, even a child must have had a valid reason for leaving me if even my own brain is zapping out. I would like to stay for another few years until the little girls are big enough to remember me and also to get my half of my husbands Air Force pension off him.(three years to go) After that I believe I will have had enough, I have had enough now. When life becomes so restrictive and you become so dependent it is hard to maintain enthusiasm. You never know I might feel better tomorrow. For today however, this is the real me!!

Yesterday's Food

mini tortilla wrap, 1T peanut butter, banana

chicken curry, 1/2 cup rice

pumpkin pie shake?

        total   1300?

          

 

 

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

LOLLA on 03/01/2011:
Hi, I am new here but I really hope that you have better days ahead of you. I can't imagine what you go through, it must be really really hard. Whenever I am down I like to listen to books on CDs that I get at my local library, right now I am listening to "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown, since I never had a chance to read it when it came out. The reader's voice is very soothing and the story very interesting. I thought something like that might get your mind away from everything. Take care.


Umpqua on 03/01/2011:
I really, really hope there's something a neurologist can do for you. Surely there are some sort of meds you can go on to prevent these seizures from just randomly occurring? I'm so sorry you are struggling, and what I'm reading here is not the Moogy we usually hear from. And I know that's part of you, that you have highs and lows. But you are YOUNG and you have so many good years ahead of you. You can pull out of this and I don't think you necessarily have to be dependent on others forever if you can get the seizures under control. I hope you will get it checked out and start focusing on healing. I'm thinking of you xoxo


lifestylechange on 03/01/2011:
I'm so sorry to hear that you are having a hard day....You are in my thoughts & prayers. Thank you for your very sweet comment...You are so appreciated & I am very grateful for you. Have a lovely day!


chidogs on 03/01/2011:
My heart goes out to you, Moogy. That has got to be so frightening, and frustrating too. I think being dependent on others is a fear many of us share. I agree with Umpqua, there should be medication to control that. I hope that your doctor can find something for you to stop the random seizures and get you back in control again so you can enjoy the pleasures of life with your family. Take care, lots of hugs.


V on 03/01/2011:
Oh my God Moogy :( I am so sorry this happened to you today..Your talk of death is really honest and open but it is a bit scary because you mentioned this more than a few times...I honestly think that you are not ready to check out just left, I know you have alot of fight in you and you may seem like you are at your wits end right now but trust me when I say that your daughter and those kids need you and so do I!!! Surely it is worth visiting the neurologist once again...Please take care Moogy, I love you and sensing out some prayers and good thought to you my friend <3


Maria7 on 03/01/2011:
Thank you for your encouragement, Moogy...including thank you for the reminder about the island...I think those island words helped me not to give in tonite to another food binge. And I hope that soon you are feeling better...sorry to hear you are going through so much and there you are in your pretty fall season. I hope that as you are reading this on Wednesday (as I write it Tuesday nite) that you are having a wonderful day and feeling much much better and things going well for you. Take care, Moogy. :-)


getmebackto150 on 03/01/2011:
Oh my... I am so sorry to hear about your seizure and general feelings today... I cannot imagine how scray this must be... I echo Umpqua in that I truly hope that the neurologists can find somthing to help you and that you feel better soon. My thoughts are with you and my heart goes out to you today...


V on 03/01/2011:
Are you feeling a bit better? I hope


V on 03/01/2011:
Okay you are making jokes now so I see you are a bit more yourself again :) You had us all worried my love...I am so happy that you didn't mean those things


balloonlady on 03/01/2011:
I am so sorry you seem to be going through a bit yourself, Sending good thoughts and prayers your way..


emmy'smom-mom on 03/02/2011:
Hi Moogy, I'm back after a long weekend away and am so sad to read your entry from yesterday. I can completely understand your feelings and the only thing I will say is 'the sun is always brightest after the storm'. You never know what is around the corner and your life could change for the better so quickly. Hang in there, see your specialist, get on some meds. I really wish you all the best and hope to hear you feeling better as soon as possible.


sweetpea1977 on 03/02/2011:
:( So sorry to hear this news moogy. I really really really hope that you get some answers soon. I'd hate to not know what was wrong with me.

Sending you lots of love your way!


biscottibody59 on 03/02/2011:
Thank you for your exceedingly wonderful comments--the road ahead of me appears to be getting smoother, but I can't say for sure. I guess that's how life is, you never really know.

I'm sorry to hear you had another major seizure--hope you get to feeling better from the aftereffects soon!

Your entry makes me wonder if seeing a dr who doesn't know you well--someone who can be objective about everything especially your meds might be a way to open a new window on your symptoms/condition. Maybe something is being missed that is causing your woes. These meds are not highly tested (just enough for the paperwork to get approved and then data manipulation from there) and you could have an interaction that has not been reported--I learned this the hard way.

You are an individual and I hope you get care that is tailored to YOU.

You sound again like you'd just like for it to be over with--I can somewhat understand that. I don't know you, but I think given a sliver of hope that you COULD depend on your body, you'd much rather be there for all of your loved ones (especially your grandkids) in any way you can. My opinion is that you first have to want to be there for yourself--maybe that's not possible for you right now. I hope you find it in yourself to bridge that gap, and ask for the help to do so if you need to.

I think as long as we're breathing, there is hope--there is a chance for everything to change--but it can be difficult or impossible on some days to believe that. I hope you'll try to keep looking for answers for your sake.

I hope to see an entry later--even if it just says, "Here I am!"


nita51 on 03/02/2011:
Hope you feel better. I know first hand about trying to cope with pain. Keeping you in my prayers. Love Ya


starfish on 03/02/2011:
Big hugs to you. I'm so sorry you had another seizure. I hope your poor tongue and legs feel better soon. I really like your quote today :-)



moogy - Monday Feb 28, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

 

Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.
       - Leo Buscaglia

Today I am grateful for: the first day of Autumn, living with a hopeful heart, staying in control

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 97 degrees with the chance of an afternoon storm. We got an afternoon storm yesterday which cooled things down earlier and was very nice, lots of thunder and rain. I feel however, that it is extremely rude to give us this kind of temperature on the first day of Autumn. It is 7 am at the moment and lovely and cool, it is not getting very warm until late in the morning and cooling of by about 7pm, so the earth is tilting, cooler weather is coming, which means warmer weather is heading your way. I choose today's quote because I feel that if everyone practiced random acts of kindness the world would be a better place. A compliment to a stranger, an unexpected anonymous gift to a neighbour, things like that. They are such little things but make such a big difference to a person's day. It doesn't cost us anything to say a genuine hello and ask how a person is and respond with empathy and awareness, but can give someone a lift, a feeling that someone cared enough to ask. It is strange that as you give a random act of kindness that you and they are lifted up by the act itself.

I had a good day yesterday, no lurking unknown feelings, so I am grateful for that! I only have my usual day planned, I am baking for the big boys and princesses afternoon tea, playing with the angel and I must do some cleaning, I did make a start yesterday but the angel came up and distracted me and I am afraid that I never got back to it. It is all about priorities and my grandchildren are at the top of my list and have first call on my time. Cleaning, I am afraid is a little way down even below exercise!!! Have a lovely day girls!  I hope that you have a successful and happy day!

Yesterday's Food

mini tortilla wrap, 1T peanut butter, banana    271

basa fillet, honeyed carrots, 1/2 cup peas    385

choc chip muffin, custard    380

pumpkin pie shake    233

             total     1269

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

sweetpea1977 on 02/28/2011:
Happy Autumn!! Hopefully summer will leave soon!

I rather exercise than clean, lol. Though, for the past few months, cleaning has been my main form of exercise! haha

Love your quote and insight behind it!


getmebackto150 on 02/28/2011:
yay for Autumn... I love that... the earth is tilting... I sure hope it hurries up and tilts, then both of us will be happier about the weather!!! Have a great day!


Umpqua on 02/28/2011:
Mother Nature has been awfully rude lately LOL. Happy autumn to you! I hope you have a great day.


chidogs on 02/28/2011:
That sounds like a great day, and you certainly have your priorities right!! Those littles are a treasure to enjoy. I do like being home, old fixer upper that it is! Eventually, when the daughter gets through university and gets a real job, we will be moving to the condo and selling the house. Until then, we grab our weekends here and there. We are moving into spring soon and warmer weather. Take care. Hugs!!


loveray on 02/28/2011:
thought you might like that - thanks for being my daily inspiration!! xo


V on 02/28/2011:
Hiya Moogy!! I sent you a message back and a response, make sure you check it out!! i hope you have many more days without lurking unknown feelings :) Hey did you bake those muffins yourself?? If the answer is yes then can I place my order for carrot cupcakes, but they have to be sugar, dairy and flour free, no icing is necessary but can you throw a few almonds and craisins in them ;) LOL Love YOU!!


lifestylechange on 02/28/2011:
Hi you-- I hope you have a great rest of the day-- Keep up the awesome work!! PS my nap was amazing, I definitely needed it and don't get to do it often!


V on 02/28/2011:
No bread involved of course,especially after Saturday night/Sunday morning, i am keeping it lean for a couple of days, I don't want to add to the debauchery! LOL


V on 02/28/2011:
I will send you a recipe :) For the muffins you can take your time, next week sounds good for me, hey thank you in advance! LOL You are such a great friend to bake for me ;)


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/01/2011:
all of your foods look GREAT! i think i'm going to start making my shakes again. used to make shakes with a little pumpkin added in!

i never underestimate the power of touch.....MASSAGE...mmmm....that isn't the whole entire point of your quote, but it reminded me...to get with it so i can get one! :-)


legcramps on 03/01/2011:
Yay! We'll both be happy when the cooler weather comes your way and the warmer weather comes my way :)



moogy - Sunday Feb 27, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

 I seldom think of my limitations, and they never make me sad. Perhaps there is just a touch of yearning at times; but it is vague, like a breeze among flowers.   Helen Keller

Today I am grateful for: laughter, a chill in the air, overcoming limitations

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 90 degrees with a possible storm. Although they are forecasting hot weather Monday morning here in Sydney is chilling and delicious. The good news however, is that I tracked down the source of my emotional eating battle. A couple of nights ago I had a bad dream which I did write about in my diary and then promptly forgot about it, or so I thought. I had the same hunger going on yesterday and prepared myself for another battle. However, my daughter came upstairs about an hour after lunch and we had a look at some very funny websites and laughed a lot. About an hour after she had gone it occurred to me that I was no longer hungry. So what had changed? I had had a good laugh! Conclusion - that dream that had upset me had stayed with me and made me anxious about something that is unlikely to happen. Dah Dah!!!! I am getting there, only trouble being I suspect that each time I have a battle with myself I am going to have to go through this whole thing again. At least I have somewhere to start now, dreams!!!

I love my quote for motivational and meatless Monday, Helen Keller has such big limitations I find it encouraging that she managed to accomplish so much in her life. I have limitations too, and increasing with age, but I will let them pass over me and bend like a reed in the wind as life's difficulties try to pull me from my firm foundation. I hope that you have a wonderful rest of your Sunday.

Yesterday's Food

pumpkin pie shake      233

chicken curry and 1/2 cup rice    423

lemon cheesecake     280

mini tortilla wrap, 1T peanut butter, banana    271

              total      1487

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

V on 02/27/2011:
Good entry Moogy! Yes I did keep my friend company and I will tell you all the sordid juicy details after another nap ;) LOL Love you


loveray on 02/27/2011:
im glad you figured out what was bothering you. laughter helps always. glad you had a good day and enjoyed your time with your daughter:) love the quote!


biscottibody59 on 02/27/2011:
Good to know your figured out the source of your anxiety. Good for you working through it and getting to a conclusion--that's big!

RYC: I don't know about squashing anything down. It's just how my back looks with a sportsbra on--I must go and add that. It's extraordinary to me--something different than the same old tired fat belly to focus on, which frankly was not very motivating of late.

This is highly motivating and positive for now:-) I think it's something that I can help. And I may not feel any different without them, but it shall be interesting to see:-)


Umpqua on 02/27/2011:
Wonderful quote and entry today. I'm glad you sorted things out with you anxiety, dreams can be very powerful. Your foods look yummy always, have a good one!


chidogs on 02/27/2011:
Laughter is indeed the best medicine. I've noticed if I watch something funny on tv before bed, I sleep a whole lot better. I'm glad you chased away the bad dream influence with a laugh. Take care. Hugs


V on 02/27/2011:
LOL!!! EVERY single time!! Watch out for flying geese! You are silly :) Oh Mommy Dearest was amazing, Faye Dunaway's portrayal certainly haunting, I mean she channeled the spirit of Ms Crawford didn't she??


waydesmommy on 02/27/2011:
You have no limitations except for the ones you allow yourself to have...that doesn't mean go out an murder some one...there are limitations in life...lol. But you have over come a lot and are still going at it. It's good you found what was bothering you and what made it better. You may have to go through it again but now you know what to look for and what to look forward to doing to help it pass. Stay strong!


V on 02/27/2011:
Well I am sure you can put the pieces together! LOL well he went out and got Starbucks for me this afternoon ;)I will send you a photo via fb he kinda looks like Ray Liotta's younger brother ;)


V on 02/27/2011:
Sent it did you see him?


V on 02/27/2011:
Well??


sweetpea1977 on 02/28/2011:
YES!! What a huge victory moogy!! I am so happy you discovered what was eating at you and making you want to eat!!!! Im even happier that you were able to find a healthy way to distract yourself from those thoughts. Remember this moment then next time you feel those emotions come back.

Love you!!


liza36 on 02/28/2011:
I think it's a huge victory to uncover the source of the emotional eating. Once the cause is determined, it's easier to find a solution, and I applaud you for finding a fun way to chase away the "hunger" you were experiencing.



moogy - Saturday Feb 26, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

One isn't necessarily born with courage, but one is born with potential. Without courage, we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency. We can't be kind, true, merciful, generous, or honest.    Maya Angelou

Today I am grateful for: being a daughter of God, knowing my Saviour loves me, knowing the overwhelming joy awaits me

Hello Lovely Girls, Forcast 82 degrees, it is overcast and with occasional showers!! Well, I have to tell you yesterday was a bit of a nightmare come conundrum, I awoke feeling hungry. OK, not a problem, I had some breakfast and then this overwhelming feeling of hunger hit me. I wasn't hungry. What was this? So, as ever on this quest, I use my brain and try and figure out what it is. My body isn't hungry, so what is going on? Is it something my body is doing, is it TOM, hormones, could be hormonal! Is it emotional, who knows, I am a bundle of emotions, trying to identify one is a feat worthy of Hercules. All through the morning it persisted, this little voice in my head, I need feeding. So I plan on having a big lunch so that I will feel physically full in the hope that will satisfy whatever little gremlin is buzzing around inside my head. After lunch I was really full and still I need food. What the !!!!!! I never did find out what the trigger was for this little diversion into food hell but was grateful when I finally got to bed. I ended up eating too much but staying in control. I feel that considering this is a two day run of things not being easy, I must be working on something bubbling up from below. If only I could figure out what is bothering me, I could fix it!! I am like a detective now, searching out answers, questioning possible suspects, it is hard to interrogate your subconscious, let me tell you!! I am pressing forward. Staying in control and trying to work out how I work?? I hope you have a lovely finish to your weekends. Love you girls!

Day 10 of being in control on my eating behaviour 20 days to go.

Yesterday's Food

mini tortilla wrap, 1T peanut butter, banana    271

steak and kidney pie, cauliflower, 1/2 cup peas    851

chicken roll           462

2 curly wurly's   230

              total    1814

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

sweetpea1977 on 02/26/2011:
Wow, Im glad you are putting in so much effort to find the reason behind your hungry moods. Thats an improvement in my book. Keep on exploring and hopefully you'll find some answers soon.

xo


panda22 on 02/26/2011:
Sometimes it is very difficult to find the answer or pinpoint a feeling behind what is causing an urge to eat...good for you digging so deep to try and figure yours out!

LOL @ your comment on my page....I agree it is good for the men to carry around some extra weight once in awhile and see what we experience during pregnancy!...although I don't think I'd ever be able to run 7 miles with my pregnancy "ruck" hahaha


Umpqua on 02/26/2011:
Wow, those KFC wings only have 4 grams with all that breading? I never would have suspected! I'm pretty sure it was a salt gain, I cheated and weighed before my shower and I was back down again. Take out food is always a challenge, I should have avoided it altogether!

Good for you for trying to figure out the root of your feelings/cravings. I've been doing a lot of reading and research on the Atkins boards, and one of the helpful things they talk about is not only identifying trigger foods, but finding triggers in your environment, emotions, etc. that we relate to food. It makes sense no matter what type of diet we're following. Have a good one Moogy!


chidogs on 02/26/2011:
I hope you can isolate what gave you the crazy munchies! I hate that feeling. Nothing makes you satisfied. Scary huh? But your menu sounds really healthy, so you held on and worked through it. Proud of you!!! And yes, I know we live in the real world, but I've taken off and put back on the same five to ten pounds so many times, I'm reluctant to give myself any slack. I don't trust me. :) You take care. Hugs.


lifestylechange on 02/26/2011:
Mmmmmm, I love mini wheat tortillas with PB:) Delish!!1 You are doing awesome Moog!! xo


loveray on 02/27/2011:
looks like you were right again - i am going to try to focus on the fact that this job is enabling the travel and downtime i am taking from working and learning that setting boundaries isnt a bad thing. im sorry that you had some crazy munchies, but sometimes we just have cravings or maybe the low-carb thing doesnt work as well for you? Sometimes changing the diet brings up some purification of emotions and they dont always necessarily make the most sense. my hope for you is that you find some peace and quiet and just listen inside. i love you!


biscottibody59 on 02/27/2011:
Good going on the squats--perhaps your stairs has been helping to keep your legs in condition!

Hope your answers emerge!



moogy - Friday Feb 25, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND A SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

I have an idea that the phrase "weaker sex" was coined by some woman to disarm some man she was preparing to overwhelm.

  ~Ogden Nash
Today I am grateful for: the promise of extra sleep, the last weekend of summer, coming back from the edge

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 90 degrees. So, it is the last weekend of summer and it is going to be hot, however, they are promising that the temperatures are going to drop next week. I don't know whether to be hopeful that Autumn will arrive on time or whether to just await the usual lengthening of summer and higher temperatures after a few days of lulling us into relaxation. You know how I feel about summer and I am not going to be happy if they start stealing my wonderful Autumn away, so look out, there could be fireworks!!!!!!

I was up for four hours during the night, I had a bad dream and then pondered upon it, by the time I was finished there was no way I was going back to sleep, I ended up having to take a couple of tranquilizers to put myself back to sleep otherwise I would never have got to sleep. The coming back from the edge reference is to some 70% dark chocolate I purchased when I was out shopping yesterday. I had decided to give it a try, it is a new mint variety and I am a sucker for a new chocolate product, anyway, I ate 50g of it, not too bad. Then when I was up in the night I finished it off. I could have eaten the choc chip muffins that are in the freezer as well, and the ice cream, and the chocolate I keep here for the children, there are a whole pile of things I could have eaten as well, I was in an eating kind of mood. So I am just putting this little mishap in perspective for you. Turns out now it is light and I can see the wrapping it is only 572 calories for the whole bar. I was really panicking, although it put me over my calories for the day. I am so grateful that I didn't go wholesale into an eating binge and just stopped myself with the chocolate. Another victory!! Thinking about it, I have tons of stuff up here that I keep for the children's afternoon tea that doesn't register on my radar as things I can eat because they are the children's. I could have a party - for one!! Like the ones I used to have before I took control of myself.

Anyway, it is my son in laws weekend with the children, and although the three youngest are back here on this sunny Saturday morning while the eldest plays cricket, they will soon be gone again and peace will reign in the house until Sunday night. Yay!!

Yesterday's Food

mini tortilla wrap, 1T peanut butter, banana    271

chicken roll              150

mars caramal bar             250

seasoned chicken thigh, cauliflower, green beans, gravy     306

pumpkin pie shake             233

70% dark chocolate      572

            total    1782

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 02/25/2011:
That's good that you kept what could have been a full-on binge in check. I usually consider the boys' sweets off limits to me and I only occasionally dip into them and have something. Funny, I usually keep some dark chocolate in the house for hubby and me and my older son has gotten a taste for it and prefers it to milk chocolate. I can see in the future I'm going to have to start stashing some for myself :P Have a good one!


chidogs on 02/25/2011:
Moogy, hehe, now that you mention it, the hubs does have some weird things going on. But I've been married to him for 34 years so I guess i just overlook a lot. :) Unless it really annoys me that is! Your menu looks fantastic, and the chocolate was late night therapy for your bad dream. Don't worry about it. Hugs.


V on 02/25/2011:
Hello Moogy my love I just arrived home and I shall catch up with you tomorrow or Sunday, just wanted to say Love YOU!!! <3


shadetree on 02/26/2011:
Sometimes you just got to have the chocolate - and a mint dark chocolate? No way I could have refused that! As you are looking forward to autumn, I am looking forward to spring - I think I'm just as ready for the change as you are! Hope you have a peaceful weekend!


biscottibody59 on 02/26/2011:
Good for no binge--sounds like quite a rough night. Hope tonight was better!

I do appreciate your comments and no we can't all agree and I think that's refreshing--horrible world if we were all the same! I'm glad when my offerings can enlighten or spark someone in the direction they're headed:-)

Enjoy the day ahead!


KathyBlue on 02/26/2011:
ahh moogy, he's not lower in my priorities than exercise... it seems that,when I'm at home he prefers to spend all the time upstairs in front of the PC, instead of being with me... and on Sundays we don't usually go anywhere and he prefers to put the earphones in and build his model kits than to accept my banal suggestions of seeing a movie together or playing some Wii or something... Tomorrow we go to the cinema though,and for 12th March I planned a family picnick for all day, which was accepted by everyone.


KathyBlue on 02/26/2011:
and this habit of his preferring to do his things alone does weigh on me, too... it's not easy. Maybe this is why I escape from home and build in more and more exercise, too. If I'd be in Hungary I would spend my time with friends but here I don't really have friends... I don't even want to think about this because I'm getting more and more depressed.


nemogirl on 02/26/2011:
I have really powerful dreams, too. Let the mistake with chocolate go. It's over and you can start anew now. Good job stopping the urge to keep going - maybe the fact that it was dark chocolate helped. I never feel like going overboard with it like I do milk chocolate.



moogy - Thursday Feb 24, 2011
(calorie counting - weigh in day Tuesday)
Weight: 232.7

DETERMINATION IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOALS AND SUCCESS

I WILL FIND AN ALTERNATE SOLUTION TO MY EMOTIONAL EATING

Along with trustworthiness, consistency is the thing to look for when you surround yourself with people who can help you on your quest.     
      
- Michael Johnson

Today I am grateful for: cool nights, a chill in the morning air, living in peace

Hello Lovely Girls, Forecast 86 degrees, but at least it is getting cold at night now!!! Thank you all for your comments yesterday, I was really touched by your reaction to my entry. Obviously emotional eating is a trigger for many of us! and you knew how hard it was for me to do that treadmill while it was warm and later in the morning. I really like today's quote, I have found that it is those women who are consistent in there daily entries, my smaller team who come and read my diary that have been the most help with me on my quest. It isn't enough to know what to do, to say the right things, consistency in doing the right thing is invaluable is helping others on our quests for a healthy life, better fitting clothes, more energy, improved self confidence. I feel free to write down what is really happening with me and my successes, my failures, my joy and my sadness because over the past few months you girls have proven trustworthy allies, awesome heroines, women to whom I look for inspiration in many different ways. I am newly surprised each time one of you says that I have been helpful in what I have written and feel honored to be looked to for wise thoughts. Who knew, I would become someone who could help someone else!. It is indeed like a circle of friends here, each with something to add to the group, all individuals going through a difficult trial but holding on to each other and trying hard to reach our own goals whilst helping others stay strong, lifting them up when they fall, strengthening them when they falter. I love it here, and I love you girls!!

Yesterdays Food

hot chocolate, porridge      348

basa fillet, honeyed carrots, 1/2 cup peas    385

bodywise bar    125

mushrooms and eggs on toast    350

                total      1208

 

 

Progress as of today: 28.6 lbs lost so far, only 57.7 lbs to go!

getmebackto150 on 02/24/2011:
what a great entry! I agree with everything you said... Consistency and the girls who I know are almost always here has really become a support network for me... Have a great day and try to stay cool!


starfish on 02/24/2011:
220's here we come!!!


sweetpea1977 on 02/24/2011:
AMEN!!!!!!

Thanks for writing that. I hope that everyone reads this entry today moogy!!

I love you too! xoxo

BTW, how did you prepare the mushrooms with eggs on toast? I love omelets filled with sauted mushrooms and spinach so I imagine your concoction tastes mighty fine!


Umpqua on 02/24/2011:
Wonderful entry, very inspiring Moogy! I absolutely agree with what you said about consistency too. I find that when I skip out on those place for more than a few days (except for travel) that I quickly get off track. It's good to write an entry as part of the daily routine and for me I think it really sets the tone for a healthy day.

Thanks too for your support during my little backup crisis last night. I'm feeling so much better today and I'm pretty certain I am in ketosis, so that makes it worthwhile! Have a good one!


sweetpea1977 on 02/24/2011:
Mmm, so yummy and so simple. Thanks!

Thanks for the raspberry tea tip. I actually have some in the pantry just waiting for me to enjoy. I am secretly hoping for a March baby, so I wont be trying to jumpstart labor just yet. :)


sweetpea1977 on 02/24/2011:
hahaha, ok will do! :)


biscottibody59 on 02/24/2011:
Your entry rings with optimism and triumph--go moogy, go! Just keep moving forward--it will get you where you want to be! There's just something about DDs:-)

RYC: I'm pleased that a thought of me could lead you AND your energy to get on your treadmill today--you said it, change is in the moment.

It's interesting how if we don't have an excuse (twinge of pain/soreness or ANYTHING else for that matter) that getting some exercise early and getting it out of the way can make the day that much nicer:-)

And for me it has some effect on my psyche--it's been a slower process for me these last few months than previous attempts at getting more fit. So I'm really humbled and glad when my experience can help anyone out! I don't feel all that qualified to inspire anyone just yet.

I think I've been more successful from time to time HERE than in real life! Of course we have like minds here--that may not always be apparent, but for the most part we're working toward the same outcome.

Have a lovely time!


V on 02/24/2011:
Moogy I take you girls along with me everyday as i go out and about in the world :) Always finding things that you guys would like and even LOL about some conversations with the numerous comedians out there, especially YOU!!! I can remember just like it was yesterday when you opined as to your idea of what a "Jolley Rancher" was....I think that was the day I fell in love with you :) Actually, it was a few days after you joined us, the day you put me in check when I was having my tantrum about only losing 2 lbs that week... You have always been a constant cheerleader, motivator and yes you are a major contributor of me reaching my goals and for that I am truly humbled and thankful...I am going to stop before I become a blubbering ninny, LOl LOVE YOU Love the post !!!! Thank you for always telling me like it is and never sugarcoating anything :)


V on 02/24/2011:
You know one day I guess this will all get old to me but you can certainly see that there is never a dull moment, which is why I wouldn't trade it for the world! LOL Love it!


Runforfun on 02/24/2011:
That is so true! :) You have helped me so much! I love you all! :) Have a great weekend and healthy weekend Moogy!


chidogs on 02/24/2011:
Moogy, you said it all, far better than I could ever do. And your help, and sense of humor despite it all, has been truly inspirational! And we do have to laugh don't we? Everyone here contributes to the wellbeing of everyone else in their own way. Thanks for your thoughtful, once again, post! Hugs.


Maria7 on 02/24/2011:
I may not comment every day but usually I do read your entries. You have a really nice journal. :-D


KathyBlue on 02/25/2011:
Wonder if Donna likes the book? :)


chidogs on 02/25/2011:
We have quite a group signed up for the walk on the beach!!! I wish we could!!! That would be so wonderful. :)


legcramps on 02/25/2011:
Ah, you're great moogy! Once again, an entry that causes us to reflect on the important things in life - sticking together and being consistent in all things we do. I am certainly wild sometimes and not altogether 'with it' even at the best of times, but even I know that consistency is the key. Success in anything is all about sticking to your guns and putting in the time.

It's a great reminder that has come to me personally at a very strategic point in my life. Thanks for that :-)


nita51 on 02/25/2011:
Thank you & Enjoy your weekend. :)



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