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skinnyfatgirl - Wednesday Feb 18, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 128.0

I guess I'm not allowed to be on this site anymore because I'm not fat.. and I'm not finding support here for weight loss, only support for fat people.

 

 

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

WI3 on 02/18/2009:
Just because you don't like the support you are given, doesn't mean you aren't supported. Did you think 'fat people' would support your ED or your use of illegal substances in order to 'get skinny'? You might not be 'fat' but your unhealthy ways are YOUR elephant in your room. When you stop looking down on 'fat people' and realize that your weight problem is just the opposite side of the same coin, maybe you will understand. NOBODY is going to support your weight loss when you are using deadly means to get there. We can support you as a person, but if you get nasty about 'fat people' those same 'fat people' aren't going to sit back and make YOU feel good about yourself at their expense. We aren't Mother Theresa's around here...and just because we are 'fat' doesn't mean we are pushovers OR that we should put up with your crap.


biscottibody59 on 02/18/2009:
I would hope you would stay, but with some insight that at least three things you have admitted to are things you should be completely avoiding--clenbuterol, water pills and purging (after having been through ED treatment). It's not about being fat at some point--it's about being healthy and doing things to support your health. Yours is obviously fragile--I think you mentioned in getreal's diary that you've been in heart failure 3 times. And you're in your early 20s--I'm nowhere near 20 and I've never been in heart failure so I don't know what it's like.

You remind me of the smoker who gets a diagnosis of lung cancer and can't/won't quit smoking. Only you know if you can control your behavior or if you're just living on the edge because you're young.

Karen Carpenter died at age 33--she was getting treatment for anorexia and supposedly thought she was out of the woods. It was a tragic loss. It was a loss for music and her fans and more than likely irretrievably devastating for her family--two parents and a brother!

Whether you stay or go--realize that few of us here can support unhealthy/dangerous crap that any DDer says they engage in!

As for me, yeah I consider myself fat to a certain extent, but more importantly I've become complacent. Thanks for pointing out that alot of us aren't real energetic about changing. I can do better!


sweetpea1977 on 02/18/2009:
Wow, thanks for calling all of us fat. If this site is only for fat people, why are you here? Just curious. In my opinion, this site is for people of all sizes who want support from others trying to reach and maintain a common goal - becoming and staying healthy. This site doesnt support dangerous methods of weightloss, so its no wonder you've lost support.

I used to be a regular on here (started in Jan 2005) and thanks to this site, I lost 60 pounds and kept it all off until I got pregnant with my first child (Im in the process of losing again and am very proud of how far I've come!). I wouldnt have been able to do it without the HONEST SUPPORT that the ladies on here provided me. To be completely honest, joining this site saved my life. I was OBESE at 215 pounds at 27 years of age! Yes, sometimes the comments I got were harsh, but I took their messages to heart because these people truly want the best for me because they didnt want me to go down the same path that they went down. Its too bad that you cant see that they are trying to do the same for you.

I'll keep you in my thoughts and wish nothing but the best for you and your future.


poker_paid on 02/18/2009:
Anymore? 130 is never what I would consider fat. Be happy anybody encouraged you to lose an ounce. Good Luck though - Signed a big fat chick who doesn't need comments to keep motivated.


hollybelle on 02/18/2009:
This post is your ED talking. Take it from one who knows THE VOICE. You might want to check out something-fishy.org. This is a website for sufferers and loved ones of sufferers of EDs of all types. You think we don't understand you here, but that's just not true. We understand all too well. Please know that (sincerely) this is said with love. You are truly, truly on a slippery slope. Kick Mr. ED out of your life starting right now. His promises are all false.


thinnside40 on 02/18/2009:
"Maybe this site isn't for me. I think being fat is discusting. That's probably why I have an eating disorder. I would rather cause harm to my body than be fat. I know that's wrong."

Re: To this what I read a moment ago in a forum that you had wrote above....I echo hollybelle!... But, to let you know that THIS IS NOT a place where we support each other remaining "fat"... We encourage each other to get with it...and your words of "I think being fat is discusting"... You rob yourself of some great friendships of being so harsh in words... I personally suffer from anxiety, hypothyroidism, obesity life-long, depression & some of it is due to the raising I had been told to accept the fact that I would NEVER be a thin person, due to my "genes"... I have 400# + family members and others that are obese as well..That is WHY I FINALLY said "enough" and so thankful I found DD the day I did.... I am a very giving and genuine person, even @ 200+ pounds...I'm no LESS of a person for being the weight I am and wish that one day I wouldn't disguist myself when I look in the mirror, but I would not say to a person who had an easting disorder that they diguist me... I would pray for them first and be-friend them in trying to do whatever I possibly could to get them to see their destructive behavior.... I cry at the words you wrote, as I am a tender hearted person and hope/pray that someone on here doesn't read what I did and go to extremes to fit into a "box" that fits another's ideals...

I support DD members in comment in them wanting to become healthy, no matter their size, gender or what have you.... They are PEOPLE with feelings & huge hearts.. I would never want to cause any of them to bring harm, nor quit DD because of me.... I would leave first if I felt I had done or said anything to cause them to feel unworthy of being here....

Again... I echo hollybelle... She's a great person!


selina on 02/18/2009:
Hey SkinnyFat, if you haven't heard from me it's because I haven't heard from you, either... I usually am very good at responding and supporting people who support me! In fact, looking back at your diary, I did come to you and left you a note/comment but did not get your support. ... As for the "fat" comment, that was very immature of you, honey...


haha_love2laugh on 02/18/2009:
We dont support anyones unhealthy living, INCLUDING people who are overweight to continue on that viscious cycle. we all want change, we want to change our oh so "disgusting" appereance probably more than you know. you don't get this, you wont get the site: WE ALL WANT EACH OTHER TO SUCCEED BECAUSE WE KNOW HOW BAD IT FEELS TO BE "FAT" and it sucks thank you very much, do you think that the amount of people who do lose weight/ trying to lose weight would want to do it just because they felt like it, like being "disgusting" in your words makes us okay with that and have our kicks and giggles. this site has done wonders for my self confidence already, and if i were my old self, at that comment i would of cried and looked myself in the mirror and said soemthing like" you hopless pig" because what other people say and do USED to really affect me.


YepItsMe~ on 02/18/2009:
Personally I think you're an idiot. Turning my fat ass in your direction and farting~No offense.


countrygirl2904 on 02/19/2009:
Wow, I'm offline for a little while and "everything goes to hell in a hand basket" as my granny would say. Don't really know for sure what that means but it sounds appropriate in this situation. Not really sure what has happened but from what I've read so far everyone is really pissed at skinnyfatgirl. Coming from someone who used to be 100 pounds soaking wet just a few years ago, weighing 130 can certainly seem fat, especially at that age. However, ED, badddddd. Never had that just was naturally skinny minnie. Those were the good ole days, now I'm desperately trying to get back to the weight I was when I "thought" I was fat. For real though, if you have a eating disorder get help immediately. As far as the dog on the grooms cake, I wouldn't like that either but your moms right, this is the only decision he gets to make that is his alone. Let it be. Hope you will stick around though, cause I really think you can benefit from this site even if your not fat because you clearly have issues with food, and healthy body image.



skinnyfatgirl - Friday Feb 13, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 128.0

My fiance wants to put a picture of his dog on his grooms cake.

 

I hate his dog, she is spoiled, dirty, messes up the house, and tries to hump me, wont listen to me, and only begs me for food.. not him.

The table the grooms cake is on is going to look like a dog funeral or shrine for Belle (the dog)

I don't understand why he wouldn't want a picture of us on the cake..

my mother told me to leave him alone on this one, that it's the one thing he gets to do.

 

I hate the idea

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/13/2009:
I agree that the groom's cake is all about the groom. My brother's cake had the Chicago Cubs logo on it.

I thought only boy dogs humped??


skinnyfatgirl on 02/13/2009:
I hate it I hate it I hate it


panda22 on 02/14/2009:
Yeah not too good of an idea for a cake =/ sorry! I hope that you guys can reach a compromise or at least that you are able to maybe not look at the cake that much if he does decide to put the dog on it?? Idk what else to suggest =( Hope you have a nice day today though! Try not to think about it!

Ps ~ In reference to Donkey's comment....I have a female chihuahua and she humps EVERYTHING so I can relate to how gross that is! ....Except it's kinda funny when mine does it since she's so small lol.... I WISH only boy dogs humped! lol


stringbean on 02/15/2009:
I can see how you'd be upset over this, but maybe he justs wants the dog involved somehow. Sometimes dogs are like children to us.

That said, look at it this way: That cake is going to be cut into and eaten, the picture won't even be recognizable then. :D


skinnyfatgirl on 02/16/2009:
lol



skinnyfatgirl - Friday Feb 13, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 128.0

went to give my testimony last night.. it was draining.. I really feel blessed..  :)

 

My diet is going great, and I found out why I gained back four pounds.. cause remember when i went low carb for like three days.. well when I did that I lost a bunch of water weight.. and now that I decided that's a dumb thing to do this far out from my wedding.. I have the water back.. but it's ok.. I'm still lost inches and I'll just take some water pills a week out from my wedding.. and I'll be good.. so even though I only lost two pounds, I have gained muscle and lost inches, I lost two inches off my hips,

two inches off my waist and gained inches in my calves (which is good cause I had bird legs).. and you can start to see some of my abs!

I didn't do cardio this morning.. but I am going to the gym this afternoon, so I will do it then. :)  I will be working out arms.

8:00 egg white omlet with low fat chesse 135 calories

9:30 oatmeal 115 calories

11:00 salad with chicken 200 calories

12:30 sweet potatoe 125 calories

2:00 tuna with miracle whip and mustard  160 calories

3:30: nectarine 60 calories

5:00 chicken and broccoli 190 calories

7:30 protien shake 130 calories

night snack: sun flower seeds 180 calories

1295 calories

Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 8 lbs to go!

loveray on 02/13/2009:
im not sure how many i eat really. its probably more- sometimes i go out and who knows what kind of oils and stuff are used. i guess i have just been eating this way for so long that i am on auto-pilot- which is not a good thing...i just eat what i want when im hungry- and i dont really crave fried or sugary foods so much. i will try to count today and see what happens!!



skinnyfatgirl - Thursday Feb 12, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 130.0

Good morning ladies I have to give my testimony about how I got sober at church tonight.. I"m a little nervous... I need to only eat 1200 calories today!..

 

8:00  egg whites, half a yoke and low fat cheeese 143 calories

9:30 oatmeal 110 calories

11:00 chicken with salad and low fat dressing 210 calories

12:30: sweet potatoes (fresh boiled): 115 calories

2:00: tuna with miracle whip and mustard 150 calories

3:30: nectarine 60 calories

5:00: chicken and broccoli: 180 calories

6:45: protien shake: 130 calories

8:00: maybe a handful of nuts: 100 calories

 

1198 calories total

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 02/12/2009:
Thanks for answering my forum subject--although I don't "get it," your answer as well as Panda22's is getting me there:-) Hang in there--it's tough to love ourselves, but every day we must try--we are worth the struggle whatever it may be. You are worth the time and effort!

I wish you well!


thinnside40 on 02/12/2009:
My dear... I read on another comment of yours to another that your eating disorder is back, but you don't want to deal with it until after your married.... May I make a suggestion that you deal with it BEFORE our wedding... No matter how long a couple has been together (living together before marriage even), there is just something about "being married" that changes the schematics of the relationship.... Any problems before the marriage tend to magnify afterwards.... I wish I would of had a "clean slate" when I got married and didn't wait to deal with certain things after in hopes it would be better after, not before..... You have my prayers with you in decisions you have to make & wished for a s=wonderful new life together with your fiance.....


petaldew on 02/12/2009:
I agree with thinnside40, we have your best interest at hand. My prayers are with you as well.



skinnyfatgirl - Wednesday Feb 11, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 130.0

Im all the way back up to 130!.. I am hoping that it's muscle! :(

 

I feel fat today :( I over ate last night.. and this morning already!.. I plan on going low carb next week.. (after the cake tasting for my wedding cake this weekend! lol)

7:30 am: check cereal with whole milk, about 20 ginger snap cookies and two dozen pretzles ( my metabolism is sky high, must be the reason I am so hungry in the morning)

8:45: omlet with low fat cheese

9:30 : apple

11:45: salad with chicken and sweet potatoes

2:00: pretzles again!

5:00: salad with chicken

7:45: chicken and broccoli

9:30: apple

 

 

wedding cousling went well last night.. will update what I eat as day goes on

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Maria* on 02/11/2009:
We all have those 'feel fat' days...Maybe we can do some extra exercise and that will help us.


petaldew on 02/11/2009:
Thank you for your concern. Have you thought of getting any help?


panda22 on 02/11/2009:
Hey! Happy Belated Birthday! I'm pretty sure by looking at your week that that's muscle weight so don't get discouraged!

In regards to the getting pregnant thing....It didn't take us long at all! Hubby came back from overseas last March and in April I found out I was pregnant. Then in May when I was 5-6 weeks we lost the baby, it was what's called a "chemical pregnancy" where the embryo doesn't form/grow correctly. The doctor told us to wait 3 months to try again ((we hadn't tried in the first place)), and then in July we decided to try for real. Well we went July, Aug, Sept, Oct, Nov trying....then in Dec. we pretty much gave up and then it happened! My advice would be to not focus on trying, just let it happen because once you relax and not think about it nature will take its course. Anyway, so in my mind it took FOREVER to get pregnant, but really it didn't take that long at all because they say it takes the usual average couple 6 months to get pregnant. Hope that helps! Have a great day and can't wait to see pictures from your wedding! You are going to look fabulous!



skinnyfatgirl - Tuesday Feb 10, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 127.0

I am on my period,, so my weight is up :(

I did good last night.. did weight training, shoulders and chest with trainer.. and did fat burn cardio for 20 min.. this morning I did 30 min of fat burn cardio.. .. My calve muscles have grown one inch! and my waist has went down two inches.. two inches off my hips too :)

8: omlet (1/2 yoke, 4 egg whites, one inch cube of low fat cheddar)

9:30: oat meal with splenda

11- salad with chicken and balsamic dressing low fat

12:30- sweet potatoes with spray butter

2:00 chicken and broccoli with spray butter

3:30- apple

5:00: salad with chicken and low fat balsamic

6:30: protein shake

8:00- almounds

My metabolism is humming.. I am starving every 20 min eating like this..

I have wedding coulsing this afternoon at 6:30.. leaving work at 4:30.. yay.. today is my birthday. :)  I am 24.  I think I am going to quit my job.. I got a job offer making the same money.. but in a jewelry store.. where i get to be the boss.. and I wont have to work in a corporate back stabbing world anymore... and I won't have to work with and pretend to like this stupid girl I work with...my new boss is also female.. and I don't do well with female bosses... I tend to battle for the alpha female position in any environment.. so having a female boss doesn't work for me.. we butt heads..at the jewelry store I will be the manager and will answer to the owner, who is a man.. I think I'll have to work more,, but at least I get to be with people and not behind a computer..

 

Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

see_maw on 02/10/2009:
~~~~HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~~ Have a great day!!


starfish on 02/10/2009:
Happy Birthday :-)


legcramps on 02/10/2009:
Hey, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! It's my birthday today, too!


petaldew on 02/10/2009:
Happy b day!


haha_love2laugh on 02/10/2009:
HAPPY BDAY!


mama_nurse on 02/10/2009:
Happy Bday!



skinnyfatgirl - Monday Feb 09, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 125.0

my weight went up :(

 

I did bad this weekend..

time to get back on track

8am- omlet (1 yoke, 3 whites, i inch cube low fat cheddar)

9:30 am- oatmeal with splenda

11am- salad with chicken and olive oil

12:30- sweet potatoes with zero calorie spray butter

2:00- tuna salad, with celery and miracle whip and mustard

3:30- nuts

5:00- chicken and broccoli with spray butter

7:45: protien shake.. little bit of sunflower seeds and nuts

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 02/09/2009:
Hi thre. I'm wondering - how did you come up with your diary name?



skinnyfatgirl - Thursday Feb 05, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 125.0

I'm still 125!.. I thought that maybe this morning it would go up.. but it didn't

Last night at the gym the trainer graduated me to the big girl weights!  He said using the free weights will really help give me shape.. that's exciting.. he also changed my diet.. yet again!.. Now I have to eat like 8 times a day!.. he said this will speed up my metabolism, make my stomach smaller and help my body digest food better.  I am not suppose to be eating carbs the same time  am eating protien.. he said fats and carbs you eat alone..

 

new menu:

8:00- omlet (half egg yoke three egg white, provolone and cheddar low fat cheese)

9:30- Oat meal

11:00- Chicken salad

12:30- Sweet potatoes

2:00- Tuna salad with tuna and mustard and celery with low fat miracle whip

3:30- almounds

5:00- Chicken and broccoli

7:30- protien shake after gym

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

omahagrl on 02/05/2009:
Good advice. Continued success!



skinnyfatgirl - Wednesday Feb 04, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 125.0

I feel fantastic today!.. I woke up 125lbs!

I am super hyper right now and kicking ass at work!.. I also bought a bikini today, and I an in better shape now than I was last summer already!

It must be the clen.

 

hooray

 

Breakfast: omelt with cheese and oatmeal

Bruch: almounds

Lunch one: chicken and sweet potatoe

Lunch two: chicken and sweet potatoe

dinner one: protien shake and salad

Dinner two: tuna with celery and mustard

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!


skinnyfatgirl - Tuesday Feb 03, 2009
(Low Carb, Low Calorie, High Protien)
Weight: 127.0

Had a good day yesterday..

 

Today, I feel weak,, this low carb thing is so hard, I don't even want to leave for my lunch break because I'll have to walk out to my car.. lol..

 

No cardio this morning.. the Clem has got me feelnig really shakey.. not going to gym tonight.. going with Iain to visit one of the old ladies in our church at a nursing home..

 

menu... blah blah.. same thing... about 1400 or 1500 calories, under 20 carbs

Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

Mom_of_Fred on 02/03/2009:
Hope you're having a good day!



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