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spirity - Wednesday Jul 27, 2016
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Weight: 260.0

Progress as of today: 10 lbs lost so far, only 100 lbs to go!

spirity on 07/27/2016:
Hi everyone, I'm a 47 yo from Croatia and i've been batteling my weight since i was in primary school. I remember one day in my first grade going home from school thinking i need to hide my weight somehow in the future. There was a weigh in that day in school an i was the heaviest in class. I was plotting how to avoid the weigh in next time with various reasons like, i've got a flue, i've broken my leg, etc...

That pretty much became my mission in life, how to hide it till i lost it. It never worked though.

I've tried lots of diets including starvation but all i've got out of it was double the weight i lost. It now got me to 135 kg (270 lbs?!?) my height being 160 cm (5ft 2inch). Not to mention high blod pressure, back and joint pain, losing breath, etc.

Even now, while i'm at work, writting this post, i'm thinking about that bag of crisps in my drawer. The reason it's there is that yesterday i've became sad at some point, no big deal, some insignifficant squabble with my boss over the phone, but it was enough to send me to the shop downstairs packing my basket with crisps, cakes, peanuts, nutella... Of course i couldn't eat it all, so now i have pretty much full drawer of the stuff that'll kill me and i can't bring myself to get rid of it. Actually, yestarday when i came home from work i was ready to throw it all away first thing in the morning but that was when the guilt of the previous overeating kicked in. This morning though, a different story. I can't throw away perfectly good and expensive food, i might eat just a litlle bit of it, i might streach it over two weeks and eat it little by little.... yeah, right. I'll post tomorrow how much of it i've eaten. C U :-)


puddles on 07/27/2016:
Welcome to DD. Stick around we have a great group of people and support. We all have gone through the same thing you are going through right now. Good luck on your journey just remember it is all about the journey and not the destination. Emphasis on enjoying the journey.


OhioRaven on 07/27/2016:
Be Good To Yourself.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/27/2016:
It's a hard battle to fight...learning to break bad habits and overcome the type of eating that has caused the weight gain.

but happily i can tell you it's very possible and you can overcome it.

we will try to help you here!


hollybelle on 07/29/2016:
You have come to a great website for support. Thank you for your honesty about your struggles. Many of us have been there or go back there sometimes. You can do this - just keep being honest with yourself and don't give up. Each new hour is another opportunity to make good choices. Me, personally, I don't believe in "diets" or tricks to lose weight. I like to chose good food that I enjoy and eat in moderation. I do better at times than other times. Right now I am coming off a long period of time that has been very stressful and depressed me a bit. I am on the road to recovery from that and taking better care of myself, physically, mentally and spiritually. Welcome to DD.


Donkey on 07/30/2016:
Welcome -- I can relate to your story. I hope you will find support here; this is a great group of folks.


thinkpositive on 08/03/2016:
Welcome! We all know your struggles.



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