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the_good_fight - Sunday May 03, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 287.0

Well, I am only down 1lbs this week.  Not sure if part of that was my fat to muscle conversion, but regardless of what people say, I have a hard time believing in that idea.  Especially at my current weight/size...it seems to me that more fat would be lost than muscle could "make up for" on the scale. 

My exercise was absolutely fantastic over the past week.  The only day I missed, since last Sunday, was Saturday.  Well, I missed Wednesday due to work issues, but I made up for it with a whopping hour of elliptical on Thursday and 40 minutes of elliptical on Friday.  I'm actually close to saying that I enjoy it, which would be a first for me, in my whole life I think! 

I had a wedding dress appointment yesterday, and FOUND MY DRESS!!!  I am thrilled!  It is absolutely perfect,  everything I have ever imagined!  The craziness of wedding dresses baffles me.  I can't understand how you can get so caught up in an outrageously expensive dress that you wear ONCE.  But okay, I found it.  And am in love with it!

 

The only thing is, I looked great in it yesterday, but I couldn't stop that voice that said "you can do better", and I don't have to have my first measurement/order the dress until 07/01, so that gives me two months! My goal is to lose 30lbs by 07/01 and at least another 30 by the wedding.  If I can actually pull off 40lbs by the wedding, that puts me down very near my finishing weight when I did Atkins, and I was looking better than I ever had in my adult life, during that time.  Albeit unhealthy, I was LOOKING good.

 

Sooooo, that's about all I've got.  I feel bad that I haven't taken time to comment on more diaries here, and I am going to make time to do that soon.  I have been pretty much crazy between work, wedding and y, but I am really going to make it work!

 

Hope everyone is doing well!!!!

Progress as of today: 31 lbs lost so far, only 127 lbs to go!

nenak on 05/03/2009:
WEDDINGS ARE JUST SOOOO EXCITING!and you are doing fab!well done


thinnside40 on 05/05/2009:
I can relate to the not really liking exercise before...I look forward to exercising & walking after I have been at tit for 2-3 days..It becomes routine & our bodies begin to expect it...Our MIND too.....

Happy for you that you have found "the dress" for you!

Fat does turn into muscle no matter how big the person...It just happens that way when extra work is put into burning calories.... Don't sell yourself short... A POUND IS A POUND and YOU took it off!!!!

Have a great evening!



the_good_fight - Sunday Apr 26, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 288.0

Well it was a lovely weekend!  My cousin, who is in the fight against fat with me, came down for a visit on Saturday.  She's my Maid of Honor, and she, my mom and I went dress shopping!  We found the bridesmaid's dresses, which are BEAUTIFUL.  It's finally getting exciting and stressful, which is a big step up from just plain stressful! 

I was VERY disappointed with the wedding dress collection at the store we went to.  I'm not exactly sure when wedding dresses became "sexy", but these designers and I do not have the same ideas.  All of the strapless, halter, open back, deep plunge styles are just not what i imagined I'd wear on my wedding day!  Luckily, I found a shop close by that specializes in "modest wedding dresses", and their selection is gorgeous.  You have to have an appointment there, so I am going to make one this week.  They are beautiful, and very much in line with what I want, so that's a relief!!!

We had a nice dinner at my brother's house last night, and I got time to snuggle with my little nephew, who I get closer and closer to gobbling up every time I see him!  My cousin and I hit the YMCA this morning for a fabulous sweatfest, we went and checked out the reception venue for my wedding, then she headed home.

The weigh-in today was GREAT!  My hard work is showing up in a measurable way!  I am down 6lbs, and feeling awesome!!!!  That'll be a nice motive to start my new week off on the right foot!!!!  Hope everyone's doing well and feeling good.

 

 

Progress as of today: 30 lbs lost so far, only 128 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 04/27/2009:
Down 6#'s is F_A_B_U_L_O_U_S....M_A_R_V_E_L_O_U_S and down right SUPERCALAFRAGALISTICASPEALADOSHIOUS.....

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!


Umpqua on 04/27/2009:
Congratulations on the loss - that is fabulous!!



the_good_fight - Thursday Apr 23, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 294.0

Weight this past Sunday was 294lbs...correct.  I am so extremely proud of myself this week though.  I have yet to give up on the exercise, and it is wonderful.  The changes that I have noticed in my body have been remarkable so far.  I'm actually starting to get a butt.  Wow!!!!  I've never really had a butt... just this wide, flat area under my back.  It's pretty exciting!  Thanks for the encouraging comments!!!

My fiance, Tom, has even commented on some subtle changes he has noticed too, which is lovely.  He doesn't always have the most eloquent way of saying what he means, especially when it comes to my weight issues... but I love him more for not tip-toeing around the obvious.  He told me yesterday that I "actually kind of spring off of the couch now instead of..." then did an impression of my former body, risking life and limb to get out of the cushions and on my feet.  It's sad, in a way, that it is so accurate.

How did I ever get used to being uncomfortable, just tying my own shoes?  It's amazing to me, what obesity does to a mind and a body.  It also amazes me when I talk about my weight struggles and people say to me "I think that you think you are bigger than you are."  But I don't think that they understand what it's like to have NO IDEA how big you are.  I've been skinny my whole life (in my mind), and the discovery of my actual size was a very painful reality for me.  I've never been the fat girl that didn't have any friends, and sat alone on Saturday night wishing that her prince would come.  I've always been a go-getter...surrounded by loving, supportive, fun, skinny friends.  It was kind of like, I felt thin by association.  So when I talk about something like not being able to comfortably tie my shoes, or wipe my own hiney, comfortably, and what a big success that feels like for me, now that I can... it's not because I think I'm bigger than I am... it's because I am honest enough to admit that I love rollercoasters, but have to pretend that I don't care for them because I'd rather miss out than face the embarassment of having to get off of the ride if the harness won't close over my body... and that has happened, more than once, I'm sad to say.  But I am leaving that "me" behind, in the physical sense.  Mentally, I will keep those things with me to remind myself that coming back "here" isn't an option.

 

Whew... got that out.  Hope everyone is having a good week.

Progress as of today: 24 lbs lost so far, only 134 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/24/2009:
do NOT ever give up on exercise. it is the best thing a person can do for themselves. and good work!



the_good_fight - Friday Apr 17, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 292.0

Well, the BIG disappointment today is that I realized my scale is calibrated incorrectly.  It was off by 4 to 5lbs, and that means I was more like 297 last week when I weighed-in. 

I have re-calibrated it, and I am moving forward.  I was a little devastated.  I truly was down to 292 at one point in March, and knew that my month of less-than-100% dedication/motivation had to have some consequences...which I guess came in the form of about a 5ish-lbs gain.  So what I am going to do is this... I'm going to use my weight this coming Sunday as my "starting weight", which STINKS, but I know I've made a lot of progress since January.  Still, 5lbs is a lot to be "off" by.  That's at least a weeks worth of hard work that is unaccounted for.

And I have been nothing BUT dedicated this week.  We had a DELICIOUS looking "going away" cake today at work for a co-worker that was promoted, and in my "old days", I'd have helped myself to a heaping slice, then hoped that everyone else was so in to their own binge that they didn't notice when I went back for sneaky seconds... but today, I popped a stick of Extra sugar-free and chewed like it was the sweetest thing in the world.  I have also dedicated my body to the highest capacity of exercise that I believe I am even capable of at this point.  I have NOT MISSED A SINGLE DAY at the YMCA this week.  My minimum workouts have been 30 minutes, my max, 40 minutes...not counting the 5 minute cool-downs, and they were ALL ELLIPTICAL.  To me, that is amazing.  Really amazing.  Considering that 6 months ago I did a maximum of ZERO minutes of dedicated exercise a day, and every bit of physical activity in my life was accidental, or unintentional... I can't be disappointed with my progress.

So, whatever the scale says on Sunday, I'm okay.  I will be PROUD of myself this week, because I deserve it, dammit.  I've worked for whatever results I've had this week, and what I don't see in pounds, I feel in pride.  So it's going to be alright.  Just had to vent.

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 132 lbs to go!

nimony on 04/17/2009:
Hi, outstanding job on sticking to your exercise program every day this week. That's awesome! As for the scale, remember that's only 1 of MANY ways of checking your progress. More importantly, how do you feel, how are your clothes fitting, how often are you exercising, how well are you making good eating choices, and so on. Focus more on these other ways and less on the scale. You should be PROUD of yourself. You've come a long way! And you're doing a GREAT job! Keep up the excellent work!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 04/21/2009:
good job to you. never base all your efforts on your scale. you may have gained muscle. are your clothes fitting better? that's what matters!



the_good_fight - Wednesday Apr 15, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 292.0

Many thanks to all for the WONDERFUL comments.  They are very inspirational, and help to keep me on track!  It's great to see that most of you are on the same path as me (with the old-fashioned "hard road") and very helpful to know that we're all together in spirit.

This has been a wonderful week for me.  Well, health-wise.  Work has been extremely stressful, but I have made an adjustment in my sleep schedule, and that has made it MUCH easier to stick with going to the gym every day.  Sleep is as important as anything, and I certainly wasn't getting enough! 

In workout news, I mentioned my new found love for the elliptical machine...and it is growing daily.  My workout regimen calls for 5 days of 30minute workouts and 2 days of 40 minute work outs, per week.  I am proud to say that I managed to do one of my 40 minute days, entirely on the elliptical yesterday!  I really love the feeling of working for this.  I love the burn and the sweat.  I don't like physically GOING to the YMCA, but I can't say anything bad about the high that I get from my workouts. 

I feel like the fat is literally melting... that's how I choose to picture it, anyway.  I have to say though, I KNOW I've been working HARD on the body this week, and it will be very hard not to get discouraged if I don't see that on the scale this Sunday.

 

Hope everyone is having a lovely week!  And again, thanks for all the comments!!!!!  I will do better at commenting over the weekend.

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 132 lbs to go!


the_good_fight - Monday Apr 13, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 292.0

Hey Liza, thanks for the comment!  I tried commenting back, but couldn't!  I am not very good at navigating this site yet, so I just wanted you to know that your comment was wonderful, and I am happy I could help validate your decision!!!

Just a little more on the topic of Nutrisystem, and the like.  My thoughts are this.  There is nothing wrong with trying things such as Nutrisystem, Atkins, etc.  My personal experience was not the best, but I can't say how much of it had to do with me, versus the suckiness (is that a word?) of the plans, themselves. 

I think that Atkins created a bit of an eating disorder in me, by actually delivering on the promise of fast weight loss.  It was so quick, in fact, that all I knew was "Carbs= bad", to the point that my mom and brother tried to stuff a dinner roll in my mouth at Thanksgiving in 03', and I literally cried because I was TERRIFIED of eating bread, at all.  In my mind, a single bite of bread would undo every pound I'd lost.  I was an extreme case.  Still, I don't think that Atkins is exceptionally healthy as it is.  I know a lot of people who swear by low-carb lifestyles, and more power to them.  It's about finding what YOU can live with. 

Personally, Weight Watchers has been a godsend, and I truly believe that for ME, is the best route, because you learn how to eat whatever you want.  Seriously.  There is nothing you CAN'T have.  It's all about learning HOW to eat.  And it's about balancing a LOT of what you SHOULD have with a little of what you really really want.  It just makes a lot of sense to me. 

I know several people who absolutely HATE vegetables... I happen to love them.  I love mostly all food though (you don't get up to 300+lbs by being picky).  And for someone who hates vegetables, Weight Watchers could be a little boring, because most of your low, low point and unlimited items are veggies.

Back to Nutrisystem...please believe that I WANTED it to work.  I really did.  I went in to it so full of hope and certainty that it couldn't possibly be that bad.  I read about it online, and many people said the food was awful...but I thought "hey, I know I am not going to lose weight by eating crispy bacon and chocolate cupcakes all day, so I can handle some less-than-wonderful food."  But unfortunately for Nutrisystem, me, and my bank account... less-than-wonderful is far-too-kind.  EVERYTHING tasted the same.  Whatever the primary "secret" ingredient is, is in ALL of their meals.  So it tastes like you are eating the same thing, at all meals, all day.  Like I said, the supplemental groceries I had to buy to add the fruit, veggies and dairy to my day, ended up putting the total monthly cost of food going in to my mouth, way higher than just planning/preparing a healthy menu of balanced meals.

I don't think that anyone who tries a fad diet is necessarily looking for an easy way out.  I think that most of them are like me... desperate to find SOMETHING that works for them.  But the truth is, at least for me, the only thing that works is the only thing that isn't a fad... a balanced diet, controlled portions, and old-fashioned exercise.

Speaking of which... today was awesome.  I finally bonded with the elliptical machine at the YMCA, and gave her all I've got for 30 minutes!  I'm very proud of myself for facing that beast because I've always stayed away, assuming it'd be too tough for me.  It's nice to have a new friend!  :)

I'm off to the grocery store to make my week healthy! 

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 132 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 04/13/2009:
RE: 120 oz. H2o ~ Whenever I drink water it is 32 oz @ a time... When I take my vitamins/Rxs first off of the day after breakfast, then fill it back up again to drink between then & snack, etc..... If I don't get in enough water daily, my feet/ankles/legs have swelling issues due to ???????? Have been tested for several things to come back with a take of some auto-immune disease, but levels not high enough to say what it is I may have...... I have sevreal prtty water containers just for me and I also take bottled water in the car.... I gave up Diet W.C. Pepsi cold turkey for about 20 weeks in the beginning days of DD... Drank about 4-5 cans a day..... Plain ole' water was the source of refreshment...Lemond wedges, ice, etc to add a little taste occasionally too....

Keep up the good work!


poker_paid on 04/13/2009:
I am doing weight watchers now and it IS fantastic. It is about making healthier choices and not starving. I did the LA Weightloss before but it was so strict that when I stopped - it was all over.

Funny - I call the eliptical machine - "yellow beast" because ours has bright yellow trim. 30 minutes on that thing and I feel like a marathon winner and look around for an award.


Umpqua on 04/14/2009:
A very belated welcome to the DD. You are doing great, and I agree that learning how to make healthy choices and correct portion size are so important in this battle we are all facing. I did Atkins several years ago and while I got quick results from it, it really wasn't a sustainable lifestyle for me. I've achieved a lower weight (prior to my 2 pregnancies) and felt much better by simply watching my calories and striving to lead a healthy lifestyle.

Sounds like you're making all the right choices!


hollybelle on 04/15/2009:
Another belated welcome to DD. I am not on very much these days due to my Dad being sick and several other reasons, but I'm here in "spirit" with you guys. I loved this post because it validates all my beliefs regarding - what works for you - and that what works for most of us is not exciting - just good balanced eating - no fads. Keep up the good fight - I love that name, by the way - and I'll be seeing you "around".



the_good_fight - Sunday Apr 12, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 292.0

Sunday's are our weigh-in days on "the program".  So today, I am down 2lbs!  I am really glad that I lost this week, because, to be honest, I wouldn't be surprised if I'd gained.  I only went to the YMCA ONCE this week.  Didn't have a very active Saturday, and my eating was basically out of control on several days.

Like I said, I am glad I lost some weight, but I am not even really proud of it because I didn't do anything to earn it.

Kind of funny how that works, I think.  Most people, myself included- historically, would love to do nothing and have their excess weight just fall off.  But this time around is different, for me. I am not happy with relying on flukes and irresponsible weight loss to get me by. HOW I lose this weight is just as important to me as HOW MUCH I lose, and if doing it "the right way" is the longest, hardest way...then I guess I've got quite a journey ahead. I am trying to make changes in my life, for the rest of my life.

My fiance's boss did Nutrisystem, and swore by it, so I tried it and all I lost was 900.00 (over the 3 months that I was on it), and I still have two HUGE bags of Nutrisystem meals in my pantry.  It would have never been possible for me to stick to NS long enough to see any real results, and often times, I was throwing away my NS meal and eating the real foods that you have to buy to "supplement" the plan.  So I quit that plan in a hurry.  His boss lost 26lbs over the EIGHT MONTH period that he was on it.  Hmmm... 8 x 300.00= 2400.00  wow... and 2400.00/26= 92.00... so roughly every pound he lost, cost him A HUNDRED DOLLARS.  Yeah, clearly not worth it.

But more important than that, is the fact the when he came off of Nutrisystem, he began gaining within 2 weeks, because EATING PREPORTIONED/PACKAGED MEALS DOESN'T TEACH YOU ANYTHING ABOUT NUTRITION OR HEALTH IN THE REAL WORLD!!!!!  And that IS one thing I am determined to do:  Learn.  I want to be comfortable, navigating through the grocery store, or a restaurant, or a meal at a friend's house, or a snack table at a party, knowing that I am armed with the knowledge of HOW to eat...not just WHAT to eat.  I want to succeed for life.  Not just for my wedding, not just for a summer, not just for 10 years.  And that is why I KNOW that the hard road is the best road... and I know that the good fight carries the biggest victory.  And even if it takes me 5 years to get this damned 132lbs off of my poor body... then SO BE IT!!!!!!! It will be worth the struggle in the end.

 

I'm ready for this week.

Progress as of today: 26 lbs lost so far, only 132 lbs to go!

myrsinh on 04/12/2009:
"Like I said, I am glad I lost some weight, but I am not even really proud of it because I didn't do anything to earn it."

Thats my dream! heheheh gratz on your weight loss :D we all worth to experience that thing even once in a life time!!! my youngest sister is born to eat and have a great figure we should all get this even once! :D


liza36 on 04/13/2009:
Congrats on your 2 lbs loss. Every bit counts, regardless of how it's lost. But I do see your point about "earning" it.

Thanks for your comments about Nutrisystem. Yesterday, I literally ordered it online, then 10 minutes later called customer service to cancel it. I couldn't justify the cost, and when you put it like you did, really can't justify it. It's healthier to eat real foods, in real portions, and learn to eat in the real world. Your comments just validated my decision yesterday.

Keep up the great job!



the_good_fight - Saturday Apr 11, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 294.0

Eeeevil Eeeevil Cadbury Eggs!

 

This is actually NOT about Cadbury eggs.  Well...not exclusively.  I don't understand why we have to celebrate EVERYTHING with food.  And most of it is junk!  Delicious junk, but junk nonetheless.

I come from a huge family...Italian on one side, Polish on the other, and we EAT.  We always have.  In my family, if you're sad, you eat.  If you're happy, you eat.  If you win something, you eat.  If you lose something, you eat.  If you get good news, you...well, you get the point.  And that is a cycle/mindset/habit that I am working on getting out of. 

I wish that I could just be normal about food.  My fiance has the (what I call) fortune of being naturally tall and lanky.  He can literally eat 3 times the amount that I eat and lose weight... meanwhile, my jeans tighten up from SMELLING his food.  I can't ban him from eating, and shouldn't have to.  I should be able to be healthy about the choices and the portions that I select, regardless of what he is eating.  I mean, at the end of the day, we are all accountable to ourselves, right?

And truly, he is more supportive than I could have ever hoped for.  He doesn't go to the YMCA with me, but that is really alright with me.  Typically, I am motivated enough to do it on my own... although, this past week I've been less-than-enthused. 

I do worry that this will always be a struggle, meaning getting to and maintaining a healthy weight.  And I AM determined to do it.  I want to have children in the very near future, and I want to be a healthy mom.  I want to have the energy to play with my kids, and the wisdom to guide their nutritional choices, as well as leading by example. 

I don't want to always have to be "the girl with the most cake"...or the one that CAN NOT leave the snack table alone at a party.  Like I said, I want to be normal.  I don't want to plan my day around what I am going to eat, or even be the slightest bit concerned about not getting to eat enough. 

My fiance had never really been to a buffet restaurant before we were together...and now, he loves them, which isn't something i am proud of.  His parents were always exceptionally concious of their kids diet and exercise, which I think is great.  It instilled in them, for life, that food is NOT that important.  Where as, I am coming from a totally different place, as explained before. 

So my mom called this morning to make sure that we are coming over for "Stuff" tomorrow, which is a family tradition for Christmas and Easter.(a somewhat Polish breakfast of calbasa, eggs, ham on stovetop, with vinegar and horseradish).. and then, I am sure there will be cookies and candy galore.  That's basically what spurned this entry. 

I can't hold it against people for eating what they want to eat, when they want to eat it, whether I happen to be there or not.  A Weight Watchers story I read brought up a great point.  If you allow yourself some cake for every birthday, and some candy for every holiday, and some overeating for every "special occasion", it comes to something like 230 days A YEAR... and at that rate, why even bother trying to be healthy, if you are making those excuses for yourself.  This takes committment.  And I am still working to find mine.  It helps that my best friend/cousin/may as well be sister is doing this with me.  She has had amazing success, thus far, and since we began, is in a size that she hasn't worn since college!  Not too shabby!!!!!!!! :)

We're going to get there, both of us.  All of us.  I really like this site.

Progress as of today: 24 lbs lost so far, only 134 lbs to go!

thinnside40 on 04/11/2009:
We have to do what is right for US, not for others...I come from a line of Southern folk of cooking everything in grease, oil, etc... AND having to have a FULL MEAL 3 times a day.... Of course comes with that the ever so ineveitable high B.P., cholesterol issues, etc..... I determined that isn't what I want for my daughetr (9)... I have to be the example for my future generations and have found my voice loud enough to carry some weight behind it to mean when I say "I don't need to eat that stuff to survive".... Eating to live & not living to eat... It eats me up when I eat the wrong things....

Now, come holidays... In the beginning I fixed my own foods and took them to family gatherings to let aside the "good stuff" they had... I since have changed in the fact that it is o.k. to occasionally eat foods not usually eaten in my new way of living... Tomorrow will be a day of "moderation" though, NOT diving in just because.... My aunt & dad have been choosing a healthier lifestyle, so foods will be better on the healthy side too.... Birthdays, holidays, etc are o.k. for me, cause I can get back into eating the right way much easier than I used to... Just look forward to being "different" one day & not a whole week!

Have a terrific Easter & thank you for the comment... My goal, outside of reaching that 155 is to maybe help just ONE person to see that this isn't as impossible as it may seem.. I have been obese 35 of my 40 years and this time around will be my last time..Maintenance baby...Maintenance is what I'm after...Not ridding of 82 pounds ever again....



the_good_fight - Friday Apr 10, 2009
(Healthy eating, exercise- based on WW)
Weight: 294.0

Where I was, where I am... where am I going?

Well, this is my first diary entry.  I decided to join this site when I came across it while googling "how to stick to your diet".

Just a brief history...

I've been overweight since high school.  I was around 180-190lbs through my sophmore and junior years, ballooned up to about 210-220 through my senior year and early twenties.  Got up in to the 260's and 270's around age 23, and maxed at 284lbs when I decided to do the Atkins diet in 2003.  On Atkins, I went from 284 to 199 in under 4 months!   To be fair, I call it Atkins, but it was more of a "no-carb" diet, and eventually became a "hardly eating" diet as I got encouraged by the loss, and terrified of gaining.  Not the weight-loss path I would recommend.

Today, I am 29, and 294lbs.  

I started my current diet/weight loss regimen in January this year.  When I started, I was 318lbs.  318LBS!!!!!  300... that is the size of a baby elephant!!!!  I remember when 200 was that "never in a million years" number, and now, I weigh an entire 5th grader MORE than that.  And that is WITH losing 24lbs to date!

I got engaged in March, and am getting married in November.  I had begun this effort, prior to my engagement, in order to get healthy.  I am not hoping to reach my goal of 160lbs by my wedding date, but would definitely like to be under 200lbs,  Even if that's 199lbs.  Of course "looks matter", but are not my first priority.  I want to live a long and healthy life, and I know that living it FAT is not the way to have what I want.  I kind of think of every "extra pound" as a day, month or year off of my happy life. 

I am having a lot of struggles with sticking to my diet and exercise program at this point, and I don't know why.  I am not sure if I am frustrated with the speed of the weight loss?  That's possible, considering that the only other time in my life that I lost a significant amount of weight, I lost about 25lbs a month... so about 4 times as fast as I've lost this time.  But I am trying to find ways to forgive myself for going from 199 to 318 in 4 years, and understanding that the way that I am losing now is the best way.  I also have to admit that I am not as committed as I was when I began, and I have been allowing myself some pretty extreme binges, as well as becoming an EXPERT at finding reasons not to exercise... ("Because it's Tuesday!"). 

The important thing is... I am committed to taking responsiblitiy for where I was, where I am, and figuring out how to get where I am going.  I do truly believe I will step on that scale some day and see those numbers... 1-6-0.  And I am prepared for it to be hard.  Like Jillian Michaels said "If you think you're going to get fit without any pain, then you might as well sit back down on the couch now, cause it's not going to happen.  It's going to hurt to get what you want.  But I promise you, nothing you've ever done will be more worth it."

I believe that promise.

 

Progress as of today: 24 lbs lost so far, only 134 lbs to go!

Working4health on 04/10/2009:
Hey girl, its me. I just wanted to leave ya a quick comment to let ya know I joined. I haven't blogged yet but this is me so hopefully this will help us!!! You really have done great so far. You have hit a little speed bump in the road but you know what you are still 110% better and more healthy, physically and mentally than you were in say like December. I love ya girl!!!


Soon2BThin on 04/10/2009:
She's right, you have done great so far! Good luck with the program. You can do it!!


myrsinh on 04/11/2009:
Congratulations on your wedding! you are right,this is the good fight. we are all fighting in here :P good luck in your program and past is past. Today is another day,and as placebo say in one of my favourite songs: (today) "it s the first day of the rest of your life..." we are all here with you :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TrDt4kDUWLI


the_good_fight on 04/11/2009:
Thanks so much for the comments! I really appreciate them, and can already see that joining this site was a good, good thing. I am here for support, and TO support as well, and even when I am having a bad day, can usually be counted on for some encouragement, so hopefully I will be a help to others as well.



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