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thinnside40 - Wednesday Jun 17, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 210.0

Sat up til 1:30 a.m. listing items on Ebay ($cha-ching$)...I totally lost track of time....Then lay  in bed unable to get my mind to shut-off....Had some silent tears fall out of sheer feeling such hurt at what my poor dad must be going through....Knowing that he isn't feeling well, due to a pulled groin muscle he finally told me about yesterday..He still trucking along like nothing is the matter or at least trying to...  Prayed to have all the thoughts that were keeping me awake to subside & that Dad's mind would be at ease as well to allow him much needed rest (he sleeps about 4 hours  a night and has been that way for years even with a sleep apnia machine)... Dozed off about 2:30 a.m. Got up @ 8:30 a.m. and now getting ready to take Ben to the neighbor's....

Have lots to get done today before time to get ready for Bible Study tonight.... Going to put something in the crock-pot for supper and get to work....

1 c. Shredded Wheat,Banana,Coffee

1/2 Tuna Sandwich (Meg made~pickle loaded), Apple

Hummus, Carrots

Scratch the crock-pot supper..We're grillin'

Turkey Breast Patty, Black Beans, ?

H2o = 100-120oz.

Progress as of today: 27 lbs lost so far, only 55 lbs to go!

nenak on 06/17/2009:
sounds like your dads putting on a brave face! such difficult times! my thoughts are with you x try to rest your going to need all the strength youve got.


maria7 on 06/17/2009:
Sorry you are going through so much with your parents and how they are doing. Hope they get better. Regarding your Mom, if I had one word I could think of that might help, especially since my Mom was also diagnosed with dementia, it would be PATIENCE. We want them to ALWAYS be themselves but when they aren't, patience helps a lot...cause they, even though at times very confused, are still really themselves. Like you, I think the psychotic meds greatly contribute to the symptoms but after my Mom was d/c'd from a couple of hers, which had confusion side effects, she had to resume them...didn't do well off them at all... Take care.


selina on 06/18/2009:
Thanks, Thin, sounds like your mom is a brave lady. Your parents are so lucky to have you around. Stay well and take care of yourself. Hope you are having a great day!


mcwoo40 on 06/18/2009:
Just passing to say hello,stay strong Thin,Jules.


grumpy on 06/19/2009:
I'm thinking of you and your dad. Hang in there! Xo


biscottibody59 on 06/22/2009:
Not that I have all that much experience with dementia--but it does sound like your mom has something else going on. Just an observation. I feel for you, more than you know. Hang in there thinnie! BTW, has she seen a neurologist? Didn't know if you mentioned it and I missed it.

Thanks for your support as usual!



thinnside40 - Tuesday Jun 16, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 210.0

Tuesday

This was our countryfide folk toast @ quitting time Friday

CHEERS!!!!!

I've been doing research & writing down questions for mom's doctor appointment (Friday) today and now have plenty catch up to do today for the "to-do" list accomplishment quota to be met before bedtime.... This research has been a wealth of information I really don't want to even think about happening, but inevitably better to be prepared than to just shut it all out in hopes of it all going away....  A couple things hit hard yesterday afternoon when I talked with dad about something that had been on my mind in wandering and he confirmed my suspicions... I believe that my mom is in between the 6 & 7th stage of her disease...7 being the end.... Prayer is that on Friday when we talk with her doc that some of the psych meds may be a cause of the rapidness of her decline since January when diagnosed and we may be able to get rid of some of the problems if he agrees she doesn't really need the psychologist anymore...

At any rate, this second day of my "no kiddies" has been a fairly quiet day...I have had on my mind so much my weight issues....How I want to be healthier, smaller, prettier, more energized, feeling whole in mind/spirit/body to be the best me I can be..... I can't get the thoughts of facing a funeral if the Lord tarries within the next couple years or less.... I hate to say/think something like that for fear of sounding heartless, selfish, harsh or morbid, but I can't shake icky feelings of reality setting in and the feeling of preparing myself for what will be one of the worst days of my life when my mother passes... I have been going through the pre-death grievance for a few weeks already and that stinks enough as it is.... Taking what of her I have in the moments she may be herself... Then having her forget it... Peweeeee!!!! I'm sure that some of you have went through or are going through tough times with a sickness, death of family member,bad fortune or what have you and know that what I'm going through is pale in comparison to other people's situations in the world....But, it still hurts to see the emptiness in my mother's eyes and know that she honestly isn't "just playing" around with us... I pray for those who are hurting & going through tough times as well as for my family....

Cereal,Banana,Coffee

Turkey Sandwich, Few Pub Mix Thingies

Apple

Hummus & Less than 1 serv. Khashi Crackers

Brown Rice,Scrambled Egg, Peas

Grapes,Nectarine

30 minutes of Yoga Ball Workout

H2o =100-120 oz.

Progress as of today: 27 lbs lost so far, only 55 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/16/2009:
feel better. just so you know, it'll be FAR EASIER to get this weightloss in action with this time to yourself - time to plan meals better. but also to relax. not always move around. think about yourself. you need it and use it to your advantage.

yes, a 10 day good streak! :)


grumpy on 06/16/2009:
hey sweetie, sorry to hear about your mom. its normal to be sad, and maybe thats why trying to be healthier, stronger and happier with yourself would be a strong counter balance to this hard time you're facing. go for it.find the strength. i am trying to find mine. love and you are in my prayers and thoughts.


mcwoo40 on 06/17/2009:
Helloo Thin,Thinking of you at this stressful time it's not easy i know.I will be back soon,take care of yourself,Jules.


selina on 06/17/2009:
I'm surprised to hear about how fast your mom's health has deteriorated. It took about 5 years for my dad to go, it seems like his illness took him over at a slower rate... So sorry to hear that...

I hope you are having a grand time with your extra time for yourself in your hands. Have a great day!


nenak on 06/17/2009:
good luck for the Docs on friday. will be thinking of you and your parents x x



thinnside40 - Monday Jun 15, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 210.0

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So many things need to be done around the house (inside & out) that have been pushed to the wayside for not having enough time available on the weekends for so long... They are ALL staring me in the face now I have the time... Learning to make a daily/weekly goal. Not adding to each task in eagerness to get it all done at once is hard for me, but I'm going to do my best to not get discouraged in taking one task @ a time. Being so used to having to be a multi-tasker...Always sufficing to get bits & pieces done...On Friday's I would sit and figure all that had to be done over the weekend (errands,grocery shopping,visiting family,church,etc...) ..Before the weekend even began, it was over mentally for me.... Getting to the mid-set of seeing each project accomplished & how much better it feels to do one thing at a time and not just having a hodge-podge of half done jobs is going to be a whole new world for me..... I have the time now..Going to enjoy it!

Have 11 days to get into a routine of sorts with eating/exercising before a potential "monkey wrench" is tossed in.... Hubby is on a mandetory vacation (employer is closing shop) from June 26-July 5 and Ben will be gone from June 24-July 7... Looking forward to the time together with Paul, but also a bit apprehensive about Ben being gone from home as far away and for so long... He will be hard @ work & in good hands though..

Menu & Activities

Banana, Nature's Path Cereal, Coffee

13 Plain Roasted Almonds

Kids & I are getting ready to head to town for groceries & items for Ben's trip.... Been balancing the checkbook, paying bills, watering flowers & thinking about Friday... Plan is to go to a Dr. appointment with my parent's @ 9:30 a.m....Mom is declining by the day it seems & is losing normal everyday natural functional capacities about her, which makes it difficult to even think about where we are headed from here..Dad is doing his best & beginning to show signs of total "whole being" tiredness.... I look for a majority of my time this summer to be spent helping out where I can with her care, etc... In the midst of taking what time is needed to take care of my own homefront.... I thank the Lord every day for allowing me to give up my job & still make ends meet for the time being.... Having a few $$$ making back-ups in items to list on Ebay one of these days I take the time to list...

Albacore Tuna Sandwich, Apple

H2o = 100-120oz.

MU CH LOVE ~ HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to YOU!

Progress as of today: 27 lbs lost so far, only 55 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 06/15/2009:
Good luck with all that "luxurious" time on your hands:-) Enjoy!


nenak on 06/15/2009:
oh the luxury of it all..... well deserved enjoy every second!


selina on 06/16/2009:
Hi Thin! Sounds like you've been going through a lot of changes in your life, stay well and enjoy the newfound "time" in your hands. I hope you won't be too lonesome when your husband and your son goes to CA. Wishing you all the best of luck! Thank you so much for the kind and wise words you left for me about my Dad's passing. I appreciate it.



thinnside40 - Friday Jun 12, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 210.0

5:30 p.m. is set for   "here's  to me the last 14 years" & new beginnings. Looking forward to being "mom" to my kids only for the first summer ever....

Yay!!!

Here we go!!!!!!!! Going to sit around a pit fire in our back yard and let it all settle in that a "thought" for the last 2 years is coming to fruition....

Safe ~ Happy ~ Healthy weekend to YOU!

Progress as of today: 27 lbs lost so far, only 55 lbs to go!

sweetpea1977 on 06/12/2009:
wow, what a monumentous day! Im so excited for you! Enjoy your evening reflecting in front of the pit fire! :)


maria7 on 06/13/2009:
Hi, Thin! So happy for you. Hope you and your family are doing well. Love, Maria


grumpy on 06/14/2009:
Good idea! xoxo


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/14/2009:
nice entry! hehe, have a good you day! and family day!


CritterMom on 06/15/2009:
Sounds like this is a great new beginning for you and your family. RELAX and enjoy it all!



thinnside40 - Wednesday Jun 10, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 210.0

Confirmed @ 7:30 a.m. this morning when I received my last childcare paycheck...I will be finished with official daycare provisions on Friday about 5:00 p.m..... June 22nd would make 14 years of being mom to many kids in that time... Whew!

I don't think I have ever felt such peace in an uncertain future as I feel right now....I feel a bit guilty for feeling the relief, cause I don't want it to seem that I want to be rid of the kids.It is just a delicate situation and I am relieved that some major stresses will be gone with trying so hard to make things "right" for a special needs child and it not working out... A bittersweet relief of being freed up, but sad to not be an intricate part of the boy's lives anymore...In all the doors that have closed this last few months to these new ones being open and revealing what is behind each new door..It just is so apparent that this is the right time to be "done"... This will give me opportunity to spend time helping out with my mom & possibly looking for a part-time job outside the home come fall. I still need to be here for my own children, especially Meg until she gets a couple more years older... Ben will be 16 in November, but he likes mom being home for him too...

Lots to do today in gathering all the boys clothing, diapers,bottles,toys, etc... I have at least a 2-3 week supply of everything for them and look forward to having the extra space for personal items that are shoved hear & there.. I hate the thought of them not being here and will miss caring for them in a lot of way. The same time it is neccessary to let them go to be nurtured by someone else... At times I swear I can hear Tayt talking and he has been gone fore a couple months now...I'm sure I will here little voices and be checking everywhere for a time until I adapt to just me & my kids..

O.K. enough about that and onto the scheme of things in the area of me and my health... I look for the stress of the 50 hour work week I'm accustomed to these days to reduce extremely and hope to get things back in order as far as eating/exercising...Trying to introduce some new things to my regime to get my body to shrinking again.... I did do much better yesterday and feel good about that for sure..

Going to try & find a couple days to get away before hubby & Ben take off to California (Ben to Clovis on June 24th-7th of July & Paul to Napa Valley after the 4th of July for a couple weeks)... Not having to "schedule" time off for myself will be a nice change....Just choose a day & go!

With the baby is asleep & his big brother being cooperative for the moment..I best be to getting the washing machine to sloshing and the dryer to tumbling as I dive for pearls...

1 Donut Hole (neighbor lady sent them over)

2 sl. Healthy Grain Toast, Coffee

H20 = 100-120oz.

Progress as of today: 27 lbs lost so far, only 55 lbs to go!

omahagrl on 06/10/2009:
Believe it or not I can actually see your release of stress in your writing. Your celebration cocktail sounds very tasty. Let me know when you want to cling our glasses and I will join you in the celebration! ;-)


nenak on 06/10/2009:
and me although there might be about 12 hours delay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sounds like youve made a great choice! this is your time now!


livelongtime444 on 06/11/2009:
good for you in looking at this loss as a posive gain for the future! your attitude is very inspiring..bravo!!



thinnside40 - Tuesday Jun 09, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 208.0

Went all day yesterday doing mighty fine, then after supper I lost discipline when the wind came up and it began raining too hard to go for a walk.....Made me mad!!! If I don't get my act together, well I just need to say "no" to late night snacking and know that it is for the betterment of my health.... #1 priority. I feel I am falling apart way too soon after feeling so positive last week.... Praying that as soon as my job situation is settled as far as when I'm done, I will feel more in control and balanced. The boy's mom isn't giving me a solid answer on if/when the boys have a new childcare to go to when I ask..Actually waiting for her to say tomorrow is it and preparing myself for that...  I need to take the control of eating/exercising now no matter.  Having the unknowns learking just makes me unsettled and not to mention very irritable as it lays on the sub-contious.... Trying to not think about any of it and stay positive is my goal....

Menu & Activities

Oatmeal,Fresh Strawberries,Coffee

Yogurt,Kiwi

H20 = 100-120oz.

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 53 lbs to go!

loveray on 06/09/2009:
happy and healthy tuesday to you. xoxo



thinnside40 - Monday Jun 08, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 208.0

           Monday          

Banana, Coffee

1Egg/2Egg Whites,1 sl. Toast w/ Honey

 Yogurt,Fresh Strawberries

PBJ (diet ww bread), Coleslaw (made a 10 cup batch this time..Making the not so bad in the first place dressing even less per serving)

 Apple

?

H2o = 100-120oz.

Had a busy weekend...Meg came down with a cold, so I stayed home from church yesterday given her history of colds settling in her lungs..Reaking havoc 9/10 times.....Slept the afternoon away and it felt so good to get some much needed rest.... Eating was satisfactory on Sat/Sun... Spent most of Saturday @ my parent's house....

Keeping busy today and hoping to go on a walk this evening for the first time in a while...

Much LOVE ~HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to YOU!

 

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 53 lbs to go!

omahagrl on 06/08/2009:
Poor Meg..and poor you. Hopefully this cold will be short and sweet. I will throw some of the jicama in my salad tomorrow as that sounds good. Keep busy and just think a few more days and it will be me time!!! Take care sweetie!



thinnside40 - Thursday Jun 04, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 208.0

Not much going on today, other than the usual..No music practice tonight..That makes it nice for a relaxing evening @ home for a change...

Great possibility my first unemployment in 14 years will be taking place the 10th of this month... The boy's mom is making a decision on a place to take the boys and told me that she has given herself til the 10th to decide...That is payday, so I'm sure that is the reason of timing.... Feels funny to have a date to have that decision to be made by, as I have been anticipating this at my prompting, but been a bit unsettled in having a definite time-frame/date... It's all good! My kids will be out of school on the 11th.... 

Ended yesterday with a Fiber One Bar for p.m. snack and Chix Salad for supper.... Dessert was a S.F. Boston Cream Pie Pudding Cup....Met the H2o consumption goal too....

Having to go through the ridding of diet soda phase again...I had gotten back to drinking way too much of it..Stopping @ the mini-mart every Sunday afternoon for a 44oz. Diet Pepsi w/ splash of straight Pepsi on top (helps take the bitterness away-for me at least) and then everytime I am in town doing the same...Iced Tea & water are on tap for this summer.. An occasional Flavored Sparkling water with pure Grape or Cranberry juice may be had too... Amazing how old nasty habits can become the norm again and how we undo some of  the REALLY good that we have done at times in reaching for that goal... Onto the loooooooooooooong stretch of being good!

Menu & Activities

Oatmeal,Banana,Coffee

Watermelon,Canteloupe,Green Grapes

1/2 PBJ, Apple

Carrots,Hummus

Stretch Island Fruit Strip

Salad (Lettuce Mix, 1/2 Avocado, Tomato, Cucumber,ChickPeas, lil' grate of White Cheese, Few strips of super thin Steak I laid over the BBQ (took a whole 3 minutes to cook), Lite Ranch)..Ate way too late, but went to the garden store as soon as the boys were gone to finish buying the annuals I need to be done for this season's planting....

Health Nut Bread w/ Honey

 

 

H2o = 100-120oz.

 

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 53 lbs to go!

legcramps on 06/04/2009:
Have a great day today!


panda22 on 06/04/2009:
Sounds like you had a great day! Awesome menu! Mmmmm hummus! I've been wanting some of that for awhile but they never have it at the commissary anymore when I go =( I love it on wheat melba toast =)

Thanks for the comment and enjoy your evening!


maria7 on 06/05/2009:
Hi, Thin! I was going to comment to your other blog, but it said it had been removed...?

Thank you for your comments to my other blog.

Love the pretty picture on your Thursday entry as well as the pretty photos of your flowers.

Wow, that is really something that y'all got all that walking done in that heat last Saturday! DETERMINATION!

Have a blessed day!


40andfabulous on 06/05/2009:
Have you ever tried Crystal Light? My kiddos love it as do hubby and I and it is a nice alternative to the sweets of soda and even diet soda. We also like the 0 cal Life Water.

Your menu does look yummy. I love avocado on salad or in any of my soups!

Wishing you a wonderful weekend!


omahagrl on 06/05/2009:
I have been enjoying my salads the past 2 weeks. The other night I used some left-over grilled chicken and made huge salads for Mike and I. I cut up all the veggies and left them on the board so we could add our own toppings. I made sure to bag the left-overs and it has made making salads a whole lot easier! Have a wonderful sunshiny day. P.S. I am almost done with my garden except I am trying to find dill weed as I love that stuff!


biscottibody59 on 06/05/2009:
Hope you have a great day there!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/07/2009:
good for you on the healthy food choices. it looks like being unemployed with those kids on the 10th is good timing so you are with your kids when they are out of school!



thinnside40 - Wednesday Jun 03, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 208.0

With the 90's temps this week, everything is popping open in my flower beds... If you plant them, nourish them, water them, love them...They will grow!!!...

It is similar to a lifestyle change... As when overweight or obese (I fit right here with that word) people eat the right foods, nourish their spirit, drink pure water & love theirselves they tend to be able to reach an accomplishable healthy goal in "Shrinking".. Face it, as we begin to shrink, we tend to blossom and have a pleasantness about us in feeling accomplished and proud of ourselves... NOTHING wrong with that, as often I've said and will say again..."Ain't nobody else able to do this for me, nor for you..This is a 1 person job and it takes work" AND "I rather take 100% credit for my success, than 100% blame for my failure(s)"...Just like those flowers that need dead-headed to continue to bloom & allow people to enjoy their very presence & beauty...We too need to rid of those things that bog us down, making our mind and body think we are done with what we have set out to do and really most of the time not even close to fullest potential ...

Seasons come & seasons go.. I believe my sad & anxious season is done for the time being.. I'm going to make the best of each and every day as I begin to nourish myself in the proper and healthy ways. I want to be that sweet fragrant & beautiful person I know I can be when I believe in & love myself like I was a few months back in taking care of myself & reaching for those goals... Plus giving unconditional and continual support to others no matter how bad my day may be for whatever reason... I certainly can't let VJ (love ya sista!.. on your track) show me up and reach <200 without me giving it my all to get there too can I?!?!?!?!  NOPE...Aint gunna happen.... Find that person you relate to or have the same goals in commo. There is a lot of people to draw inspiration from here on DD....Need to have more of them come around more often again too (huhuhum..Hey you! Ya you!!! The one(s) reading this and not posting..I n the process making the rest of us all wonder how you are doing)....

REACH for that GOAL !

I have been busy most of the day. Must of put on my crazy hat this morning (or was it my determined hat ? hmmmm), cause I decided to take off with the 5 year old & 1 year old to WalMart to get the remaining bark, lava rock & supplies I need to finish landscaping PLUS my household & grocery needs...I decided to do it earlier than later as the weather is up in the 90's again today.. I opted to take R to pre-school and bought him dinner for a treat...I will say I ordered a diet pepsi, but no food for myself..YIPPEEEE!!! It was @ my very favorite burger joint too...Fresh home fries & hand pressed patties....We sat in the drive-through for 20 minutes and almost out of gas...Running right spot on time to make a pit stop for a splash of fuel..Praying "Lord, please let me get him to school on time"...Pulled in the parking lot to it being exactly 12:30 p.m & the teachers coming out to gather up the kids... The Lord does listen to even our simplest of needs or wants.... Whew! Turned back a few blocks to see what the fruit stand had to offer..Bought a seedless watermelon, canteloupe, apples, asparagus & frozen Oregon marionberries... BTW~ I won't be taking little ones to WalMart any time soon again either... I figured out I was wearing both the crazy & determined hat this morning....

Menu & Activities

Oatmeal,Banana,Coffee

Apple

1/2 PBJ,Watermelon

?

?

?

H20 = 100-120oz.

Much Love ~ Happiness ~ Success to YOU!

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 53 lbs to go!

omahagrl on 06/03/2009:
I cannot believe your temps are still in the 90's..is that normal? Beautiful day here and took a walk after lunch. You and me sista at the 199 by july 29th then we will celebrate with my b-day cake..Can you mail a cake? :-)


nenak on 06/04/2009:
its cold and dindgy here in england! the best cakes are posted.........no calories cause there make from card!!!!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/04/2009:
have a wonderful day thinn!



thinnside40 - Tuesday Jun 02, 2009
(Food Log~Walk~Bike~Ball~Gazelle~Positive Thinking)
Weight: 208.0

Goal to work towards this month is going to be getting back to where the total healthiness is a lifestyle and not a choice with what to eat in comparing the bad/good @ each meal and wondering if I want to exercise. I want to get back to making healthy choices on auto-pilot.. No more wishy-washy or half-effort attempts to make myself as healthy as I can possibly be on my own... This feeling of "stuck" has got to stop and the sooner the better....No more "choosing"...I know that everything we do is a choice, but for me it is about just doing what should come automatic in a lifestyle change & not having any hesitation in "choosing" between the bad fats, sugars & what I know is the right answer... Exercising the words "Yes" and "No", but in the correct context for healthy living...Even though I am >200 does not mean that I cannot be healthy and on my way to reaching my goal... No more letting people's looks @ me @ current weight detour me from trying harder to get smaller, cause they don't know that I have already went down a size...Hogwash to all negative looks, remarks,etc that may come...I KNOW in my heart and that is what is most important..I KNOW what I have already accomplished!!!! AND no more thinking I'm just fine, cause people who have seen thus fars transformation making me feel complacent where I am at (been here way too long) when they say "look at you!" or "you are doing so well".... New beginnings & fresh starts are every day, but consecutiveness in making each day a success is what it is going to take.... No more steps backwards! No more getting disguisted cause the shirts are getting snugger or pants are getting to where they are making it difficult to breathe while sitting, etc....DOING something about it is what needs to be done and self-admittance in the fact that I have done (basically un-done a lot of good) this to myself and am stopping it as of this day...It is starting to show that I have joined the possy of "who really cares" again and I'm not enjoying the ride on their wagon anymore... Taking charge!

Menu & Activities

Oatmeal, Banana, Coffee

Apple w/ 1 tsp. Smart Balance PB

Left-Over BBQ (no sauce) Salmon Steak, Brocolli,1 serv. Brown Rice.... Crystal Lite Poscicle

 Lite n Fit Yogurt w/ 1 TBS. Ground Flax

3 hours of yard work in planting,raking,lifting bags of bark & lava rock, etc....Re-vamped the drip irrigation system & fixed the misting sprinklers by myself..... YAY!!!!!!!!

1 Whole Egg/3 Eggs Whites,1/2 Avocado & 1 Tomato to top eggs...Health Nut Toast, Honey

 

Fresh Strawberries

Water = 100 - 120 oz.

Much Love ~ Happiness ~ Success to YOU!

Progress as of today: 29 lbs lost so far, only 53 lbs to go!

omahagrl on 06/02/2009:
Hey sista. Get back on track or I will fly up there and make you take a walk with me! :-) I am very motivated with my current loss but also activity level. I have been making certain not to sit on my butt when I come home and on the weekends we have been busting our booties in the garden and yard. I am just like you and disgusted when my pants and shirts are tight. the biggest issue is I have is not wanting to look at myself in a mirror or window as it seems I can see how large I am. So I have had enough!

Hope your day is brighter and all your goals are achieved!


nenak on 06/02/2009:
let your mind be positive and your body will follow!!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 06/02/2009:
lots of healthy foods on your menu today! :)

and that is right, all the people around you will be fine with your change and not care if you lose any more weight. it is only YOU that can make the decision that you are still not totally content and to make the appropriate changes.


loveray on 06/03/2009:
love you as well- looks like you are on a path of re-commitment. it takes committing and re-committing daily for me! i love you much. xoxo



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