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thinnside40 - Thursday Nov 06, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

Went to bed last night & arose this morning with it raining....A nice little mud stream is now flowing down the road at the end of our driveway..... Meg�s conference is @ 12:15 this afternoon and now I will have to buckle everybody up in carseats to drive around the corner, instead of walking across the school yard.... Tayt�s mom is working @ a Book Fair @ the school today.. She has offered to watch the boys for the 15 minutes it will take me to confer with Meg�s teacher..... Of course that means I will have to go into the library where the books are being sold and Meg does have a �wish list�.....

I have made a decision to start fresh....Remembering how structured AND disciplined I was when I first joined DD.... At least give it my best shot..... It feels like I am starting all over again, just with a different starting point of course... Re-setting my graph I can see just how much shorter the distance is to go, than it was on Jan 21st....... Will keep the tickerfactory tab the same, so I do have the achievement to reflect upon & others can see that this is doable, even if you have 82 pounds to rid of when you start your journey.... Who would of ever thought that I would of made it this far???? Not me! Even when I told myself I would, the little doubt factors were sub-conciously there.....That I HAVE made it this far should be where I re-gain my strength & momentum from. I am my own proof! That sould slap me up side the head enough to make me �wake-up� and get that grit, determination, tenacity & whatever else it takes to get �er done back.....Shouldn�t it? As well as being ispired by so many of you who have made it or are making it continually..... I have read the poem I wrote (first ever) yesterday & this morning already again and will continue to daily.... My roots shall be grounded firmly upon the most powerful source I have every day..No matter my day be rainy, sunny, gloomy, sad, happy, topsy tervy or whatever it may be.... My roots should be grounded so deep that I cannot waiver in thoughts, words or actions.... Then the remainder of this journey will just fall into place naturally, like it did before...... Journey will never end, but once to goal it will change course a bit to maintenance mode......I cannot wait til that day..Well, I can cause I have to but I can only imagine how it will be.......

Huh.... Oft times I am so anxious to see someone else achieve that next low number or get determined again to watch their successes...But, when it comes to myself, I ignore what I have commented... Coming in at the easier said than done 9/10 times... For that I am sorry to you DDers.... I feel like a phony when I do things like that.... I need to heed my own advice and prove what I say by believing it myself first... Thus letting the proof be in my pudding (S.F. of course)....... Today is that new day & I WILL SUCCEED this day and many more to come hereafter.... Repetition is what stregthens what one is doing..... Something like what??? 3-5 days it takes to have a pattern or routine set in.. That really isn�t very long, considering how fast a day goes by.....

MENU & ACTIVITIES

NO bread,NO refined sugar,NO soda pop (even diet),NO pasta, NO chips & NO extra Splenda added

BREAKFAST ~ Pumpkin Oatmeal, Honey, Skim......Cran-Grape Juice.....Black Coffee

SNACK ~ Fresh Mandarin & Apple.... Cran-Orange Tea (plain)

HB hit on something in her comment to me today... I guess deep down (theres that sub-concious thing again) inside I felt as though what she has said.... To leave a positive comment for others, than not one at all is probably my thought process and is truthfully therapy for me in some fashion regardless of how I am doing personally... See that is what I mean about DD..Eyes can be opened and a light bulb come on in figuring out maybe why we say or do things..... AND BISCOTTI.....My goodness!.... The thinker & researcher for all of us so to speak...Keeping watch, even when not posting speaks volumes in making one think about the whats & whys of the ins & outs... But NEVER gives up... What a boost! Today not being an exception...

O.K.... so my hair is up in a towel, I have been franticly looking for my new cell phone's charger (found it finally) and I have less than an hour to get lunch ready & out of here with 3 boys..Took a break for my snack & now I'm off to beautify as much as possible...

DINNER ~ 7 Fire Roasted Tomato Triscuits, Albacore,Minimal Salad Dressing & 1/2 Avocado.... A Kiwi

Meg's conference went well.. She is @ a 4.9 grade for reading in the 3rd grade & got mostly 3's with highest possibility being a 4.....Kids weren't hungry beforehand, so came home and fixed pizza for them.. Yesterday I would of eaten some pizza for sure, but every time I looked at it today, I kept flashing back to the underlined portion above..In the promise to myself and the telling you all I was to eat NO breads... Sufficed to eat what I did for dinner in the fact that it satisfied just as well as that pizza would of...

Boys didn't take naps, but the baby is sleeping now..... Treadmill is coming out A.S.A.P. after everyone goes home.... Meg has a stomach ache and is resting....She has been eating more fiberous things with us and I think her stomach is adjusting...At least she is broadening her palette (about time). Boys are griping (too tired) at each other and I'm ready to "work off" some calories..... One thing that never seems to change as years go by is the "toddler's rules".....UGH! Time to get the fire going, as it is getting cold in the house... Have been setting my tea-pot on the stove to keep the tea hot and convenient.....

SNACK ~ 4 Dried Apricots...Cran-Orange Tea (plain).... SF Hot Chocolate

SUPPER ~ Salmon Chunk, Bite of broiled Cube Steak & Steamed Veggies (Cauliflower, Broccoli, Carrots, Waterchestnuts, Edamame & Snap Peas)

SNACK/DESSERT ~ Satsuma Mandarin

Made it for 30 minutes on the treadmill.... Without holding onto the bar a majority (thought I would toss a political word in) of the time... Slow, Fast, Jog, Slow, Fast, Jog, etc, etc, etc.... Swinging my arms vigorously to keep balance.....Slipped once, but didn't fall..Thank Goodness! Then, off to do the usual EB routine... A strict day under the belt again sure feels darn good..... YAY! I got a whopping 2 miles (meter needs a battery, so I'm guessing) for November now (sarcasm there ~ actually pitiful mileage for me compared)... I am thankful for those 2 though, honestly I am...... Nighty Night!

H2o Consumption ~ 150 oz. (up to 10:15 p.m.)

Vitamins, Supplements & Rxs every day~ Aspirin 81mg, Budeprion XL, Calcium Carb 1000 mg., Cascara Sagrada 450mg (as needed), Cayenne Fruit 40,000 STU, Cranberry Fruit 1,900mg, Flax Oil 2,400mg, Garlic 400mg, Magnesium 250mg, Omega 3's/Fish Oil 1000mg, Relora 300mg, Spironalactone 25mg (as needed), Vit. C 1000mg, Vit D-3 Sun,Tues,Wed,Fri & Sat/Rx D 50,000IU Mon & Thur, Synthroid 0.5mg... Of which, some of these are experimental to try and detour from having to take Rx Cholestrol Meds... Feb '09 is lab test....

Walked since 02/01/08 = 852.0 miles

November miles = 2

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 11/06/2008:
Sorry to hear about the loss of your dog.

You're probably not going to agree with me:-) I think you're being way too hard on yourself. You're allowed to comment on other diaries without it relating to your success or non-success. At least that's what I think!

I'm at a point where it's so very counterproductive to beat myself up too much. I think that some days I hit the mark and some days I can't even see the mark. Of course I'm at a different place in life and in my wt loss journey--except that I'm sort of content with the wt loss, though I'm sure I can do better (that keeps me here and going and still trying).

Have a good day!


starfish on 11/06/2008:
Fresh start! That's great!


starfish on 11/06/2008:
Hello again :-) Yes it has been a long time since I saw 199. Let's see... it has been since the beginning of 1998! So, yes it has been over 10 years for me. It is going to feel so good to be in the 100's again!


abdab74 on 11/06/2008:
aw, you shouldn't feel bad about anything...your entries are one of the reasons I keep coming back to DD, and your comments are always motivating (even to me, who has gained weight since starting in Feb). Congrats on the fresh start, but I am glad you are not forgetting how far you have come!


anewhb on 11/06/2008:
Thin-Ihave thought the same thing - who am I to tell others how to succeed when I am not doing so hot myself these days? Well, I just stop and remember that if any thought is not good, encouraging, and uplifting - it isn't from our Lord. So you know where that means it's from, right? LOL! Seriously - you are doing great. A bad day or even a few is just par for the course. The main things is keep traveling the course. We aren't supposed to be perfect (I keep repeating this to myself, but I don't like the sound of it any better - but it is true). Keep the faith - your post above sounds like you are ready to kick some serious booty!


kzirkle on 11/06/2008:
Definitely. Thank you and I hope you have a great day despite the rain.


loveray on 11/06/2008:
love you!


Beth201P on 11/06/2008:
I love rain, but not the mud. Enjoy your day. May the sunshine come out to great you. ((HUGS)) Beth


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/06/2008:
of course you can continue to succeed in your journey! i see your weight has been going down still! there's nothing you can't achieve - everything is possible. sorry about all the rain...we've been having that too. BUT, it's been warmer!


teenybikini on 11/06/2008:
Fresh start sounds good. To answer your question, I work at the pub/steak house as a bartender. Been there for 6 years.


selina on 11/07/2008:
HI Thin! Very inspirational - determination is the key! I'm going to make it. With you along with me, my friend! Just say NO to those things you listed up there and with determination. Let's kick butt!


skinnyjeans on 11/07/2008:
Today is a new day and you WILL succeed!!!


mcwoo40 on 11/07/2008:
Hiya Thinny,sorry to hear your sad news,i won't go on about it but thinking of you.Stay strong and take care Julie



thinnside40 - Wednesday Nov 05, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

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Today is a bit nicer than the last 2 days... Low of 24 degrees last night and frosty car windows this morning, but the sun IS shining.....Hallelujah!..... Sadness was looming in the house this morning as we each have taken a look at Tess� crate and just expected her to be there waiting to be let out..... She was one of those dogs that just spoke volumes with her eyes..... She would of been 3 yrs. old on New Years Day �09.... The other lil� doggies are seeming a bit lost.... Going to give them each a bath, trim and pamper today as time allows....... The 3 boys are here today...Baby is sleeping and the other 2 are building lego things & playing with hotwheels..... Have some super large drawing paper for them to make something Thanksgiving/Fall themed for decoration before their naptime...

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Eating was MUCH better yesterday.... Now to combat the munchies that the �monthly dread� brings with it that I�m expecting to stop by for a few days next week sometime..... Seems as though there is always something anymore that occurs to either make me totally feeling anti-food or just can�t get enough of it..... I guess that is called life huh? Need to be like I was in Jan/Feb/Mar/April/May and just say �NO� OUT LOUD to myself in those times.....

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Hubby has mentioned how he feels yick now too when he eats things that he just isn�t used to anymore. He said that he is already talking himself into NOT overeating @ Thanksgiving... Misery in being overstuffed has always been his troubles...... We can keep each other on track hopefully. I have thought that I shall treat it like I did in the beginning days when Easter came along...Small portions of most foods and NO 2nds! There will probably be cake & ice cream the week before, as Ben will be turning 15 on the 20th & my mom�s b.d. is on the 22nd......

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I cannot believe that it will be 10 months here on DD for me this month..The rate of 4#�s a month being gone seems a bit discouraging at times, but then I have to remind myself that at least those are pounds gone, that shall never return... Going somewhat slow in the process can�t all be a bad thing.... I have read/heard that going slow is the highest rate of success in keeping it off... Hard to face, as I want to be that 155 yesterday.... In time! It didn�t all come on overnight and it surely will take twice as long to get rid of... Always does, seems like once you are determined to downsize.... Doesn�t it?

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MENU & ACTIVITIES

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BREAKFAST ~ Khashi Raisin Crunch, Banana & Skim Milk...Black Coffee...Vitamins/Supplements (*choke*)

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SNACK ~ Fresh Mandarin & Apple

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DINNER ~ Boca Chicken Patty & Steamed California Mix Veggies (EDIT)~cancelled the veggies.... Was too busy to fix them & just threw the Boca onto a piece of Whole Grain Flax Bread with a squirt of mustard......

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SNACK ~ Banana

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SUPPER ~ Spaghetti & 1 sl. Whole White Wheat Bread w/ Smart Balance... DIet W.C. Pepsi

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DESSERT/SNACK ~ Mini Caramel Rice Cakes & 10 SF Gummy Bears

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Did the Exercise Ball & 5# weights routine.... Not too good about trying the treadmill out.... Will make it a priority tomorrow during the boy's naptime to set it up..It has been a long week already with our trip, me moving furniture around, Tess' accident & Meg's only having 1/2 days of school..Her conference is tomorrow @ 12:15.I'm beat...Nighty Night!: o )

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H2o Consumption ~ No less than 120 oz.

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Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

November miles = 0

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

skinnyjeans on 11/05/2008:
Your food choices look super healthy today! Yay!


sweetpea1977 on 11/05/2008:
Im sorry to hear about Tess. I cant imagine losing a furry loved one...I have 2 cats and a dog. Hang in there. I hear ya on the holidays. This is the most dangerous time of year for me. But, like you and your hubby, I am determined to stick to small portions and one serving! We can do it!!

Wow, you've done a lot in 10 months here at DD's! You rock!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/05/2008:
haha. you did bad!? let us both have good days starting this instant! :)


WI3 on 11/05/2008:
I am sorry to hear about the family dog. That is very difficult to go through. And thank you for the fantastic poem! And again, congratulations on the weight loss!


selina on 11/05/2008:
You will get there, Thin, I know it. And you'll have a lot many people going healthy with you - your hubby, your dad, your whole family!


anewhb on 11/06/2008:
Hey there! Thanks so much for your comments on my diary! I am absent so much lately - its' nice not to be forgotten - I'll be regular again soon.

I want to say - your poem the other day was so inspiring! How talented - what a nice prayer - it really meant alot to me. Thanks for just being YOU - for sharing yourself. You are down 2 more lbs since I last saw, I think!!!!! Woo-Hoo!!! Keep it up. Regarding the "candy outrage" - I didn't eat much at Halloween and I've noticed I keep "sneaking" in some the last few days!! It's all gone now so hopefully that's OVER!!!



thinnside40 - Tuesday Nov 04, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

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"Wherein my strenth lies"

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Yesterday with food I went astray

Thought about it a couple times, but didn�t pray

Food choices I made were wrong

Weakness showed as I didn�t rely upon God to make me strong

Only ONE body He did give me for to care

Being reckless in food choices I shall not dare

Thoughts, situations & circumstances of which I have no control

Shall not overcome me as I allow Him to wrap His arms around me and console

Food should not be a grip that tightens as me a vice

For my happiness, contentment & health will pay the price

Allowing that food to temporarily cast a comfort spell

Eventually it makes me feel worse beyond what words can tell

To realize the difference between hunger, boredom & stress

That is the only way I am going to fit into that smaller dress

Each day I shall begin anew with prayer and allow God me to guide

For without Him I surely wouldn�t of made it thus far in this journey�s ride

DD has played a great part in this great change in my life as well

Without great supporters I have, no telling what �200+� number that scale would tell

Thanks can never be enough from me to you to say

Just know with the help of God & DD that I WILL reach my goal someday

~ �thinnsidenotout� (aka thinnside40)

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Yesterday went from bad with the chocolate & candy outrage to worse with carbs in bread, chips, etc..... Only constructive thing I did was watch kids & change the schematics of the livingroom by moving my piano, couch, t.v., sound system, recliners, glass shelf & storing the baby things until in use..... I was pressed for time and ran out of course... Hubby wasn�t too keen on me moveing the furniture, but I DO have my weird methods of moving heavy objects to insure the least possibilities of injury. In the end, he helped me... That was GREATLY appreciated... Things were beginning to close in on me when people would come into the house... Just too cramped and cluttered... Hadn�t moved many things for about 5 years, due to having a satellite & home theater system.... Now to go up in the attic to move the hidden wires to make the speakers work is left to do... May attempt it, but not looking forward to going up there... At least I did hook up all the things necessary to watch T.V. the right way the first time... BTW~ The change is a �hit�... Much nicer...

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Today is a day for us to exercise our freedom in the right to vote.. A day to exercise healthy choice making when moving hand to mouth..... A day to exercise making someone else�s day a bit brighter by being kind, patient & understanding.. A day to exercise being a better spouse, parent, partner, friend, employee, boss, etc.... A day to exercise our faith... A day to exercise by walking, jogging, treadmilling, nordictracking, yogaing, gazelling, dancing, weightlifting, bike riding or whatever it is you do... Exercise comes in many different fashions, but is practice to becoming the best that you can be physically & mentally...

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MENU & ACTIVITIES

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BREAKFAST ~ Oatmeal, Ground Fresh Cranberries, Honey & Skim...Black Coffee

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SNACK ~ Fresh Mandarin & Apple

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Been connecting the wires to speakers, stereo & such... Got it all right the first time.. A miracle!.... Now all that has to be done is hubby (I decided it was his job) to do the attic thing...... Received my first e-mail from someone in the church... It was from the payroll bookeeper... My stomach got a knot and my throat a choke... It was a nice note and I was able to reply simply.... A bit of relief to know that those who genuinely knew/know us have the knowldedge that we woulnd't leave, just because of some "little thing"... But that it was something we felt convicted enough to make a stance for our family personally........ Weather is much drearier than yesterday.. Windy, cold, wet, dark and miserably yick!... Food will not be the resolve today though.... Off to persuade Meg to clean her room & feed the baby...

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DINNER ~ 2 sl. Whole Grain Flax Bread, 1 Tbs. Smart Balance PB, 1 tsp. All Fruit & Yogurt w/Honey

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SNACK ~ Mini Bag Popcorn

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I guess this isn't the week for dog lovers & owners...... Neighbor friend (used to live across the street & who we bought our house from) just came by all shaky and upset.... He thought he was putting a cat along the road that had been hit...Then realized it was one of our little dogs..... Tess is gone...... Black as night on a unlit gravel road & nightfall aren't a good mix... Our yard is completley fenced, but she has been our wanderer/chaser of all things that move... Blessing was that our littlest (3.5# Pearl) was beside her, but didn't get hit when the neighbor realized what happened....Kids are sad, as hubby & I are too..... Just unfortunate and accidents happen.... Feel worse for Jim than I do for us, as he came to tell me and he is dog person as well....

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SUPPER ~ Chik Breast Salad (Lettuce Mix, Tomato, Avocado, Chickpeas, Peas & Lite Ranch Dressing)

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H2o Consumption ~ No less than 120 oz.

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Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

November miles = 0

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

skinnyjeans on 11/04/2008:
Your entry today is very inspiring! :) Happy voting!!!!


omahagrl on 11/04/2008:
I have to say that with this election I have had more feedback and opinions on who to vote for. It just shows you that more people are concerned about this country and it is about time! I love your sayings about exercise and you are 100% correct on the husband issue...in fact maybe I will give him some exercise LOL Have a wonderful day!


kzirkle on 11/04/2008:
Rock the vote! :) Have a wonderful day.


loveray on 11/04/2008:
i love the poem. on to a better and brighter day! xoxo


selina on 11/04/2008:
Hi Thin! How talented you are with words! I love the poem you wrote - right on! I'm happy to see that you are right back on track today, it seems like. I am so sorry to hear about Tess, you all must be heart broken. I hope you have a good day, today.


omahagrl on 11/05/2008:
I am so sorry to hear about your Tess. This morning I am making an appointment for Reno as he seems to be losing his sight. I thought I noticed a couple small things a few weeks ago but this week he seems worse. God love those creatures for making our lives a little better and happier. (((HUGS)))


kzirkle on 11/05/2008:
Thanks for the tip! He is a cutie. Hope you're having a good day.



thinnside40 - Monday Nov 03, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

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Trip yesterday was fun... Couldn't of asked for much better weather. A little rain on the pass, but sunshine the rest of the day.....Fall colors were so vibrant... Went to church, then went shopping in 2 towns... Bought a jar of Pumpkin Butter, Dark Chocolate Covered Espresso Beans & Samples of Teas in Leavenworth...Bought some clothing & few other things @ Goodwill in Wenatchee.... Ate supper @ �Prospector Pies & Sarge's Smoke Schack�. Hubby & I had the Soup & Salad Bar *(YUMMY)* Ben ate us all under the table with a plate called "The Home Run"... We hadn't eaten much during the day, so that was o.k.... Time went by too fast is the only complaint we all had.... Got home around 8:00 p.m....

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Today has been a bit slow going, but am doing a few things... The Treadmill & EB or Gazelle & EB are going to be utilized today..... Weather is sunshiny, but cold..... Trying to change the fall d�cor around to freshen things up... Taking away the jack-o-lanterns & scarecrows..... Pumpkins are going in the oven a bit later to bake, clean & freeze....

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BREAKFAST ~ Whole Grain Flax Toast, Pumpkin Butter, Satsuma Mandarin & Banana..... Black Coffee....Cranberry Orange Tea (plain)... Vitamins & Supplements

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SNACK ~ LS Roasted Soynuts & 4 Espresso Beans....Vanilla Chai Tea (plain)

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TOTALLY lost it with Chocolate!!!!!.... Ate the rest of me Espresso Beans (about 12 : o (), 2 snack size Snickers & BIG handful of SF gummy bears... Only good thing is that the Snickers & Beans are all gone, but at the expense of me feeling like "poop" for simply not just throwing them in the trash instead of eating them..... Been reading/posting some on facebook... Dreary, dark, cold & rainy outside... Praying that those who know me from the church we left that are also on facebook haven't been told untruth and going to "write us off" or begrudge us for following what was right for our family... Feeling out of control in some things only left me to "prove to myself" my weakness that could of been re-directed to more constructive things...NOT EATING!!!!!! Redemption @ suppertime with who knows what to rid of the sugar/caffeine high that should be hitting anytime..... Been drinking decaf tea and loads of water, so that is a + point for the afternoon at least.....

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November miles = 0

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

loveray on 11/03/2008:
right back atcha...missed you this weekend. love you!!!


glycrina on 11/03/2008:
Thank you for sharing that with me. I was beginning to feel like I was heartless for sending him back. It was difficult a very decision. I appreciate your honesty more than you know. you know how heartbreaking it can be.


grumpy on 11/03/2008:
ew for halloween candy! i feel for that big time last night, and today wasnt good too, i had a 6 hour meeting and those can be brutal, i ate two cookies and some trail mix i didnt need. ew. tomorrow i need to get that behind in gear. haha. xo


selina on 11/03/2008:
Hi Thin! Sorry to hear about the candy episode.. you did a lot of good things, as well, so don't fret because tomorrow you'll be right back on track, I know it! So happy to hear you had a good time traveling over the weekend! Hugs to you!


grumpy on 11/04/2008:
Sounds good. New day today, and i am actually going to eat my calories throughout the day and not have a 1200 cals meal and nothing else.



thinnside40 - Sunday Nov 02, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

Heading out for our trip in about 45 minutes...... It is foggy here @ home..Suppose to rain a majority of the day... Weather where we are going is suppose to be 50/50 sun & clouds with chances of rain..... Getting breakfast ready & then holding off as loooooooong as possible to wake Meg up...She is the moody one! Wake her up & it is about like gambling (which we don't do)..Some days ya win & some days you don't.... Hmmmmmmmm, I wonder where she gets that from????

We were talking yesterday that this sure is going to be a much cheaper trip than it would of a month ago...Gas has came down from $3.89/gal to $2.49/gal...... Prayers have been answered, which allows us to have this day of "get away"...... Everyone have a wonderful Sunday!

BE HEALTHY, HAPPY & SUCCESSFUL!

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

kzirkle on 11/02/2008:
I wish it was just a tick. He had a disc in his back go out which completely paralyzed his hind legs. It was so sad. We had to put him down. I miss him so much. Our place is so empty and lifeless without him.


selina on 11/03/2008:
Hi Thin! I hope you had a great day, travelling!


kzirkle on 11/03/2008:
Thank you. I really appreciate your kind words. Hope you have a good Monday.


omahagrl on 11/03/2008:
Gas in Omaha is $2.09 this morning. It is such a great thing as diesel is also down which is saving the business a lot of money as we were paying $4.90 at times. Hope your weather was wonderful for your trip and that you have a great week!



thinnside40 - Saturday Nov 01, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

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DON'T FORGET TO TURN YOUR CLOCK BACK AN HOUR BEFORE GOING TO BED TONIGHT

I am writing this having consumed 2 too many snack size Snicker bars, fries & burger last night.... I knew we would probably eat out and had eaten accordingly of the day in preparation. But, I should of NEVER bought the bag of Snickers..Took sissy to about 15 houses, then went to my parent's for a couple hours....Left a few Snickers (dad's fav) with them... Got home about 11:15 and woke @ 9:00 this morning..... Been raining a bit.. Don't really have an agenda today per say... Will go visit my G'ma sometime & go WalMart shopping..Nothing real pressing to do.....

MENU & ACTIVITIES

BREAKFAST ~ Pumpkin Oatmeal (usual stuff)... Black Coffee (0) ...Only ate 1/2 the oatmeal, but added a FS Snickers...

Got to eating breakfast and realized I couldn't eat it all... Stomach is on the not hungry mode with nerves being on edge somewhat, due to talking things over with hubby about our church situation and praying that tomorrow things are not mis-conscrewed that we left due to anything other than explained...... Decision has been made that we are going out of town Sunday for sure... Hubby was able to check over our spare & most reliable car..Fixed a couple things..Now, we are getting ready to go buy the yearly tabs for it,plus go see G'ma (recouping slowly, but is getting better)... We will be going to a little town called Leavenworth WA....

Leavenworth Pictures, Images and Photos

They do Christmas lightings every year

It is a Bavarian (I think that is what background it is) themed town....The businesses are all decked out...Smells of ethnic spices, sweets, meats & such as you walk the sidewalks (lots of samples..MMMM)... People are dressed accordingly too..... Going to look online to find a church to attend..My mom has been suggesting (strongly) that we begin attending their church, but that isn't the greatest decision, as they are searching for a pastor and just merged with another church..They are in transition. Not a good time to make a permanent "church" family decision. My dad is way more understanding and knows that we need to get out of town (haven't been in about 2.5 years) as a family. Especially before snow season.....May hit a bit tomorrow on the Blewett Pass at that... Perfect "buy a latte or tea day" to stroll and "just be"....

SNACK ~ Still not hungry

DINNER ~ Still not hungry

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SUPPER ~

DESSERT ~

H2O consumption = No less than 120 oz...

Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

October miles = 50.5

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

selina on 11/01/2008:
Hi Thin! I gave away so much candy last night and did not consume even one single item - sorry for the bragging, couldn't help it. My secret is that I am not too fond of candy, that's all. I am like you - I like the idea of not having taboo foods. It's good to indulge, once in a while. Sounds like you had a good time with your parents as well. good move leaving some snickers to your dad....share the loot! Hope your G'ma is recovered from her ailment the other day... Have a great weekend!


WI3 on 11/01/2008:
Congrats on the preview of the weight! Snickers bars are a thorn in my side...they are just so tasty! Of course so are fries and burgers LOL. Thanks for the cholesterol info! Take care!


MattsGirl16 on 11/01/2008:
Thanks for the comment! Have a blessed weekend!


Maria7 on 11/01/2008:
Hubby and I visited a little bavarian town while on vacation called Helen, Georgia. Although it wasn't lit up with Christmas lights yet, Hubby and I did go on a horse and buggy ride together there! It was fun!

Please take care and y'all be safe. No, I've not been upset or disappointed with anyone here on DD. I promise. I don't judge anyone and I didn't mean to appear judgemental in my entry yesterday, just sharing my strong convictions about Halloween. I love you all. You know that. You are one very special FRIEND!!! Big smile and much love to you and your wonderful sweet family!!! Love, Maria


selina on 11/02/2008:
Hi Thin - I already set my clock back, a week ago. Our daylight saving time change at different times, seems like.

I hope you have a great time in Leavenworth, I love the Northern Cascades and I'm sure you and your family will enjoy the change of scenery. I had my first applets and cotlets in Laevenworth, almost two decades ago!



thinnside40 - Friday Oct 31, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

Took a peak on the scale this morning... Haven't decided to officially change it yet, cause I am leery.... Even though I ate so late last night, it still said 196.... Would like to see the same or less next time I check... I am weird, but a bit in awe of all of this if that makes any sense.... I feel like I have to pinch myself to make sure I'm not dreaming sometimes... Guess that comes from so many years of being the 200+ + + + + + + + + . When my husband came to the church last night (I had ran over the vacuum chord and needed his electrical tape ~ oopsies!) He stood peaking through the window watching me, waiting for the right time to not scare me (doesn't take much)... First words out of his mouth were �your getting skinnier�... My first response was �your just saying that!� I felt so bad when he looked and said �No, I really mean it... can't I pay my wife a compliment and have her believe me?�... I wanted to crawl under the table..... Have to work on my reaction for sure... He said that he was watching me vacuum & clean for a bit and could tell the changes.... Apologized and told him I was very happy that he is noticing... I should realize that this is happening...Starting to constantly pull my pants up, adjusting the brazeere strap (again), having t-shirts look sloppier & my wedding band is beginning to twirl very freely.... What more reality should I need huh???? Not thin or skinny by any means though.. Hub used to pay me compliments all the time, but as time went on he quit... My own fault, cause I never would respond or would give him the �not really� look... Bad habit! Shall not fall into the same un-thankful wife as those comments/compliments return.... He is making sure to pay attention and I don't think that many men would take a stab (so to speak) at it again, given the past experience with my responses....

Woke up a bit late... Hubby left @ 5:00 a..m...I wasn't going to get up then, so I turned over after he kissed me and dozed back off... That is my deepest sleep usually.... May have been due to it being dark outside too.. Raining & cold... Was trying to remember the last time it rained on Halloween... Always cold, but can't remember rain for at least several years. If it continues, not sure that Meg will be going out to trick n treat at all... Normally go to about 12 houses and call it good... Alternative will be ordering pizza & staying in to watch Addam's Family... ((((Dadadadumm snap snap....Dadadadumm snap snap)))) or going to see PaPa & G'ma. Hmmmm...G'ma did ask if the kids were coming over... She buys them each a bit of their favorite candy from the bulk... Ben (doesn't trick/treat anymore) is the black licorice fan & Meg is anything chocolate or gummy. Gummy bears/worms or red Swedish fish are my favorite.. Hubby is a chocoholic. Can't sneak it, cause he sneezes EVERY time he eats any..... Not wearing a costume, but do have on a �boo� shirt with black cat, jack-o-lantern, picket fence, moon, bare tree & a few leaves... Not a witchish or devilish day for us. Just have fun with the kids and their dress-ups, sans a bag full of candy too..... Always did it as a kid and tradition continues.....

MENU & ACTIVITIES

BREAKFAST ~ Whole Grain Flax English Muffin & Scrambled Egg/Egg White..... Black Coffee (0)

SNACK ~ Concord Grape Juice

DINNER ~ Tuna Sandwich

Sunshine came out..Things are getting dried out. Been cleaning a bit, keeping the kids occupied & then sent them off to napville....Talked with hubby & he said we would take sissy out to a few houses, then go to my parent's house.. Not sure what supper will be, but probably not fixed @ home. He will be home earlier than usual & I'm hoping the kids get picked up earlier too... After dinner, I got a case of the sleepies really bad... After Tayt woke up, he sat in my lap & I closed my eyes for a few minutes... Didn't doze, but enjoyed the quiet & snuggle....

SNACK ~ Orange Cranberry Bread (it's all gone now ~ Whew)

SUPPER ~

DESSERT ~

H2O consumption = No less than 120 oz...

Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

October miles = 50.5

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

glycrina on 10/31/2008:
You are half way there!! The hard part is over!! congrats!! I am so proud of you!! Enjoy the compliements; you have EARNED them!


selina on 10/31/2008:
WOW! 196 sounds just right, you have been working really hard for it. Soon, it will be in the 180's.... Can you imagine that? Go get it!

So happy to hear your husband notices the difference and is so sweet to tell you so. I know it's easier to give compliment to others than to take a compliment gracefully. We are givers by nature and need to learn how to take, as well, with style and grace. I have to work on that, myself....

Happy Halloween to you!


glycrina on 10/31/2008:
Re: I can't imagine carrying around half of Alex all the time. No wonder you were exhausted. You must have much more energy now!!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2008:
your kids are soo cute...and you guys all look so much alike! wow! not my family!

so i love seaweed...but i can really only eat it when it's flavored now. i used to buy cases of dried seaweed and add the water, rinse, and eat it unflavored. i did it so much i cannot do it anymore bc i made myself sick of the flavor. there are two kinds of seaweed salads i love. one is the japanese one which can sometimes taste a bit sweet and is a light green. the other one i like is called Hikimi or something like that and is a dark color, must be cooked, and of course it must be somewhat flavored to. i get them premade.


Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/31/2008:
if you want to give it a try, i guess going to a nice japanese retaurant and ordering the "seaweed salad" usually it's an appetizer or something.



thinnside40 - Thursday Oct 30, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

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Successful Head/Hand Stand (I could not do this without the EB for leverage) It sure does work the ab muscles though... Come down each one for 10 times, do 10 squats, then go again 2 more times the same....Try it, you might like it! ; o )

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Oh Crud... I lost it!!!!!! Fell over all the way like a volleyball roll manuever...

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MaMa & her babies.....

O.K. So I posted a couple of these photos to give some good laughter..... I have to have a sense of humor in order to make it through these days..... Even at my own expense sometimes...... Whatever burns calories! ; o ) Last night I had Ben take photos so I could see that I was making it as straight up/down as possible. Flubbed big time trying to get my legs together. He started laughing and then said �Mom, are you o.k.? I have'nt seen you lose it like that before�... This was the first time ~ UGH!.. I was o.k., and got back at it..... Was a good laugh for us both....

Today is a day for arranging the living room a bit different to allow more room for baby things of a day....With a playpen, exersaucer, swing, walker, cupboard with diapers, formula, food, etc & another dresser full of clothing, blankets, bibs, etc in our hallway off the living room.... You would think WE had the baby..... Toss in the Gazelle, Treadmill & EB.... Over crowded for sure.... Been cleaning out a room that we utilized as misc. storage & laundry toss room so I can store the baby things not in use.. Almost done doing that. Boys will all be here today... The one with pre-diagnosed Aspergers, went to a specialist yesterday.. Anxious to see what they found out..... Treadmill will get tried out for the first time.. Finally got the card/key & manual.... Now, to get hubby to get on one while I'm on the other... Will take a bit of work in itself I think.. Have made it a strong mental note that exercising super hard these fall months will prep me for winter.. That is the worst time for set-backs & weight gain for me.... Warm blankets & curled up on the couch watching movies with warm comfort foods/drinks to fill the belly, let alone the munchies to pass time in between... That is ALL IN THE PAST!!!!! I am not storing fat to keep me warm anymore!

MENU & ACTIVITIES

BREAKFAST ~ Whole Grain Flax English Muffin, � serv. Cream of Wheat w/ Splash of Milk & Honey.... Black Coffee (0)

SNACK ~ Concord Grape Juice w/ Mandarin Seltzer(0 sugar,sodium, etc...)

Been laying on the floor, building Lincoln Log houses & garages with the boys... Last load of wash in the dryer... Going through boxes of papers/bills/receipts looking for a phone # list... Making a mess.... Boys are down for nap & the baby is next......

DINNER ~ Cancel Pumpkin Oats...Went to get my 1/2 cup & there isn't any left... Hubby has been eating them... 1 sl. Sourdough French Bread (2sl. serv.) with Lite Jam....Khashi Raisin Crunch Cereal & Apple

SNACK ~ 1 Strawberry Starburst Chew

Kids went home.... But before the brothers left, there mom let me know that the 5 year old does have Aspergers.... Problem is he is now on a waiting list for any special ed classes.....Goes before a panel of Dr's sometime soon though to figure out the severity & what may be done in the meantime.... He is getting violent and very hard to control at times....

Headed to the church @ 5:45 and just now getting home @ 10:00 p.m... Did 2.5 hours the other day, but made sure to have all things very well organized, self-explanatory & super duper clean..Waxed the floors and all kinds of things... Only claimed the normal 4.5 hours, so I wouldn't be accused of "milking" my last cleaning for what it's worth byt the wrong people... Sealed my key & time card in an envelope, sat and bawled my eyes out. Said unheard (but by God) "love you's" to those dearest to my heart and prayed for things to improve or have people's eyes/ears opened sooner than later. If we were the wrong ones, then asked the Lord to deal with us the way he sees fit....I am super tired and drained to say the least... Ate a couple slices of Orange Cranberry Bread while cleaning and now getting ready to eat my supper, cause I'm hungry...No formal exercise, but the cleaning was good for today....Kid's dont have school tomorrow, but I do still have kids to babysit. I can't sleep in....(((BUMMER)))..Night Night!

SUPPER ~ Salmon & Brown Rice (hubby so kindly fixed everyone's supper)

DESSERT ~

H2O consumption = No less than 120 oz...

Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

October miles = 50.5

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

omahagrl on 10/30/2008:
I love the pics and yes they brought laughter for my morning. I especially love the pretty toe nail polish! :-) You look great in the pics and you have a beautiful family! When I was walking after lunch yesterday I thought of you and how many mile you walk. Walking 1 mile is a lot of work for me but it knowing how far you have come that makes me look forward to walking 2-6 miles a day. What are your plans for Halloween? With living out in a rural area do your kids go to homes? We see more and more malls set up indoor trick or treating parties and less and less kids going door to door. Our area is close to what I would call "the hood" so there are not alot of kids walking the street but was curious to how your children get the goods on Halloween.


skinnyjeans on 10/30/2008:
I like the idea of doing handstands to burn calories! Ha! :)


kzirkle on 10/30/2008:
Nice handstands!!!! :) Thanks for the laugh. Have a great day.


selina on 10/30/2008:
HAHAHAHAH! LOL! :D I love the pictures of you and your beautiful children, too! It's amazing what you can do, you are very athletic. I can't do headstands even if someone offered to pay me!


grumpy on 10/30/2008:
hahahaha you're too funny! i love the pictures and man, you look so good already! congtars on the new number, i am about to go and do the naked dance to celebrate it! Sorry, no cameras. HAHAHAHA lova ya.


MCWOO40 on 10/30/2008:
GOSH THINNY BLOOMIN WELL DONE,GREAT PICTURES, OF YOUR BUTT TOO!!!WHEY HEY YOUR SHOWIN OFF NOW(ONLY JOKIN')VERY PLEASED FOR YOU,STICK AT IT JULIE


biscottibody59 on 10/30/2008:
Congrats on your progress--keep up the good work!


Maria7 on 10/30/2008:
This really brings back memories of my Mom standing on her head in her younger days...I think she was the only one that could do it! We younguns tried, though!

Oh, you have such a lovely family!


Maria7 on 10/30/2008:
Hope you day has gone well....


loveray on 10/31/2008:
look at my yogi doing her headstands!! SOOOO good for you to get your blood circulating in the other direction! love you. xoxo


Maria7 on 10/31/2008:
Jerri, I'm so sorry for all you and your family are going through concerning your church...I have left churches I loved more than one time that I had been a member of and worked in and it was not easy...not at all...I hope and pray the Lord will guide you and your family on what to do and where to go, whether somewhere new or back to your church after reconciliation of others...Love ya, Maria


glycrina on 10/31/2008:
Hey you are looking good. I do know how you feel about the church. Something similar happened to me at my last job. It is feels horrible to be seen as something you are not and no matter what you try, you can't reach the person. It makes me kinda sad that this person is a preacher and does not know how to work with people. I am sure you will be missed and your hard work is not for nuthin!!


trishpiglet3 on 10/31/2008:
Wow! you're doing so well :) Wishing all the best to you Also to the 5 year old with Aspergers and their parents I have a friend who has Aspergers and who has learned to cope with it very well (she's in her 30's)


leeumom on 11/01/2008:
Another pound......WOW! kEEP IT UP. LOVE THE PICTURE OF YOUR AND YOUR BABIES. KOPSMAN AND I HAVE ONE OF THE TWO OF US WITH SIMILAR BACK GROUND AND I LOVE IT. KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN ON AFRAID TO PUT THE NEXT POUND DOWN. ESPECIALLY WITH HALLOWEEN HERE. OR GONE NOW I GUESS. WE DID NOT HAVE ANY CANDY AROUND AS WE BOTH HAD TO WORK. I NEED TO GET MY ACT TOGETHER. YOUR ANGEL IS HERE TO WATCH AFTER YOU!



thinnside40 - Wednesday Oct 29, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 197.0

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I MADE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My original short term goal for 05/14/08 is now met as of 10/29/08. A little behind (or I guess a lot), but thats o.k. At least I've made it this far.... YES!!!! Hope that # isn't a fluke.... Much happier now than I was when I hit <200..Gosh that 195 is so close..... ~*~Happy Dance~*~ Happy Dance~*~ Happy Dance~*~ People were mentioning to me the other day about how I was looking different again (thinner face, less weight) and I too noticed it, now I know why.. I'm �reducing� again.... 16's here I come! ***HUGE sigh of relief*** 1# to go to the � way mark......I'm doing it!..I'm doing it! I'm doing it!.... I have to keep telling myself �YES!!!!!, This IS you.. you ARE going to succeed this time (the last time)�... I have to be so excited, cause I can OWN it... I did it!

Today shall be a nice relaxing day with just Tayt & I... Housework with candles lit, music playing and a bit of quiet are always welcome.... May go to town for a bit and shop the Goodwill first for Meg something to wear on Thursday @ school for dress up (no school Friday ~ Teacher Day).. If not, then I need to buy her some super thick tights, as she is determined to wear a ballerina outfit if I don't find her something else..... Let me just say it is a whopping 23 degrees here this morning @ 8:30 a.m....... Meg is off to school, I'm still in my jammies waiting for Tayt to arrive... His mom usually shows up in her jammies, hair up in clips (she drops him off so she can go get ready for work) and him still in his jammies... It's my day to be in mine I guess.... Feels good for a change..... So, now to fix some breakfast, get cleaned up and dressed.... Then go from there....

MENU & ACTIVITIES

BREAKFAST ~ Whole Grains Flax English Muffin, Scrambled Egg/Egg White & � c. Fresh Cider.... Black Coffee (0)

SNACK ~ 1 Chik Nugget, Few Tayt's Fries & SF Iced Coffee

About 10:00 Tayt arrived (way late)... By that time, my get up & go had got up & went.... FINALLY, headed to town @ noon.... Prayed all the way to town that I would find what I needed for Meg, so I only had 1 stop to make. I wanted to be back home before Tayts dad gets off work... BINGO!!! There were a pair of pink tights in her size exactly (her ballerina outfit is pink) still in the package for $1.99....Bonus was I found a like new baby walker for $4.99 & a nice Boppy with a cover for $1.99.. It is little boys & girls with alphabet letters in a vintage pattern (perfect for my taste) Has an extra zipper cover too with dinosauers on one side & taupe,sage green, pink melon & blue stripes on the other ....Taking the walker seat off and washing it with the zipper cover already.... The baby is getting to where he is sitting up a bit..Both these things are handy to have and when I'm done with them, I'll pass them on..... Great afternoon! Got me a blue long sleeve henley with tiny print rust color rose buds all over it for $3.99....Stopped by McD's to get nugget meal for Tayt on our way home...I was hungry, so was he... I REALLY wanted a Quarter Pounder w/ Cheese & Xtra Pickle SUPER SIZED Meal.... Sufficed with just the taste of a few fries & pretended that chicken tasted like the burger....Not good, but not bad either. Considering I used to consume a Super Size meal, plus onion rings to boot...OH and add ice cream cone too...PiTiFuLLy RiDiCuLoUs!!!

DINNER ~ Pumpkin Oatmeal (the usual)

SNACK ~ Nothin'

SUPPER ~ Chicken Breast & Stir-Fry Veggies

DESSERT ~Whole Grain Flax Bread w/ All Fruit Spread

Took a session on the EB... The usual things.....

H2O consumption = No less than 120 oz...

Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

October miles = 50.5

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 40 lbs lost so far, only 42 lbs to go!

loveray on 10/29/2008:
haha yes, i would love to think so!! have a beautiful day. thinking of you!


omahagrl on 10/29/2008:
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I am so proud of you and you give me so much inspiration not only with the diet but with life! Congrats!


Maria7 on 10/29/2008:
WOOOOOO-HOOOOOOO~!!!!! HAPPY DANCE!!! HAPPY DANCE!!! HAPPY DANCE!!! YAYYYYY THIN~!!!!! YOU GO, GIRL!!!!

So happy for you! Congratulations to you on being down 40! Yayyyy!!!

Re: Candles lit...sounds like a nice soothing, happy, relaxing, celebration day!

Have a wonderful one, Friend!


MattsGirl16 on 10/29/2008:
Wow! That is great! Have a great relaxing day!


selina on 10/29/2008:
WOW!!!! Congratulations!!! You worked so hard for it and you deserve every bit of it!!!!


lafemme_loca on 10/29/2008:
Yee-Haw !!! Congrats girly-girl... and yes... i will support you on that little challenge you threw out... :) You can do it !!! Yes you can !!! Very happy !


Maria7 on 10/29/2008:
You did much better at McD's today than I did tonite with candy temptation...I gave in....ughhhhh!!!....BUT! I....DID...GET...ON...THE...TREADMILLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! Hehehe!


starfish on 10/29/2008:
WOW 40 pounds down! That is wonderful!!!


skinnyjeans on 10/30/2008:
EXCELLENT!!! Congrats on the loss!!! That is wonderful. I love it when the scale moves in the right direction!! :)


Maria7 on 10/30/2008:
Good morning, Friend! Time to wake up!


leeumom on 10/30/2008:
OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!!!! OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!!! Oh who cares about the May date.... What has inspired me is your stick to it nes!!!! Is there such a word... Any way, I am happy for you. Life does have its twist and turns and you always seem to get thru it.



thinnside40 - Tuesday Oct 28, 2008
(Healthy Eating/Food Logging/Walking since 2/1)
Weight: 198.0

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In the pursuit of happiness, one should just stop and be happy ~ by �unknown� (to me at least)

Today IS a new day! How thankful for that I am. Have a horrible H/A and knots in the stomach, but funny thing is I know they are temporary and time is the only thing going to take them away.... Received an e-mail this morning in response to one we sent out last night in an effort to kabosh any "gossip". As figured, it was mis-conscrewed by the couple receiving it. Thinking that we may just be tired or someone didn't appreciate us enough. In fact we had specified that reasons we we're leaving had NOTHING to do with our capacities and that we loved our jobs. We have sent out our explanation the best we could to these people. Going to just let things play out from here. In the capacities we held, we got to be privvy to some pretty ugly things and circumstances, usually one on one with certain people. Keeping our mouth shut and taking the brunt now is the hard part... Thus the H/A and stomach knots, cause my head is so full of beans that can't be spilled (we could, but we won't)and sickness for me isn't all about being fevers & such... We are leaving things up to the other people to find out on their own in time when they get more on a 1-1 basis with certain people since changes have taken place. Then they can conclude what they will.... Hubby held a teaching position, but with me being hostess, custodian & piano player, makes it a bit more difficult for me. Cause I loved doing those things.... People didn't sly me in appreciation by far and I specified that very clearly. Our intentions once again have been picked apart and only what wanted to be heard, even in black/white was and the rest (the most important things of all) were disregarded. This confirmed our decision 200%+. Feelings are that, it isn't over by a long shot, but we aren't going to do the e-mail tag either, nor are we instigating conversation.... We are done and I have actually changed my sign-on name to divert from being caught on I.M. (sad huh?).. Pro-Active from here on out. I do have this week to clean for the last time before turning in my key & time-card ~ Ugh! I will not go alone.

Hubby left me this morning reluctantly, due to my complete sadness and disarray with tears gushing forth (how I wish I wasn't a crier)... I told him I WILL be o.k., just have to get through this one day at a time and pray that those who truly knew us, will know that something seriously wrong was the cause of our absence and let the rest go on with their thoughts. So, as of now, I am sucking it up. Boys will be here in about an hour, Meg needs to be shaken out of bed & I need my soothing cup of morning coffee. BTW ~ I didn't exercise last night. Too much going on and I just did not have the energy to pull out the equipment... You know that mental tiredness is something I don't tolerate well.. Give me physical tired and I can go with it anyday, but not mental.

Goal for today is to focus on the baby smiling, learning to say MaMa, continue teaching him to clap his hands, wave byebye & stop trying to grab the spoon when I feed him (he's precious).... Watching the boys play in the dirt with their Tonka's and just enjoy the simple pleasures of life as they are within my own home with a wonderful husband & super terrific kids.

MENU & ACTIVITIES

Aha!.... Forgot I was going to weigh this morning...Before drinking any coffee, I went ahead and took my clothing back off and got on the scale.. No move is perfectly fine with me, cause I thought I had added 1-2 back.... Whew!

BREAKFAST ~ Pumpkin Oatmeal w/ the usual... Black Coffee

SNACK ~ Banana & 3 bites of kid's Mac n Cheese (what can I say ??? ~ Comfort food) Wanted to eat the whole dad gum pan full, so guess I did alright....

Been washing dishes, finishing the laundry pile, feeding kids & keeping busy... Psyatic is giving me fits (has since Sat.), just have to be careful. Hubby called and we talked a while during his lunch break... We are close as it is, but when things happen or circumstances arise it tends to bring us even closer, cause we understand what the other is feeling and it effects us both greatly..We truly are each other's best friend when it all boils down.. He was ready to leave the church before I was, because of all the stress it was on me. Then when Saturday came around and things were said as they were or implied, that was my breaking point... Mess with me all you want, but you mess with my family...MaMa Bear is within me. I knew then what he must of felt like watching me try to make things work no matter how hard it was this last few months... He is a tender heart and it takes a lot to get either of us on the defensive, so this has shaken us both to the core. He isn't one to call me at lunch time, so I know he is having a difficult time too..... Never been through divorce, but cannot imagine it feeling much worse than this has. Time to get myself a late dinner and feed the baby as well..I'm not really all that hungry, but he just woke and letting me know about it.

DINNER ~ Pumpkin Oatmeal Muffin & small bowl of Mixed Fruit (Saturday left-overs)

SNACK ~ Apple

Kids all went home... I headed A.S.A.P. to do some of the custodial job and organized everything so it would be self-explanatory for whoever comes behind me... Vacuumed, washed windows & a couple other things..That was some of my exercise for today... Not sure how much I will get done tonight.. With my back so touchy. May just do stretchy things on the EB and save back the Gazelle.... Ate another P.O.M. when I got home, before supper....

SUPPER ~ Tuna Sandwich, Baby Carrots & Cauliflower... Cran/Pom Juice

DESSERT ~ A few Dark Chocolate M&M's

Did the normal 30 minute routine on the Exercise Ball & using 5# weights.....Hub has a nice fire in the stove & the house is toasty warm (outside is about 33-34). Making me feel ready to crawl up in bed, watch the remainder of BL and fall asleep.... Don't have the brothers to babysit tomorrow, so can sleep in just a weeee bit.... Weather permissive I may go for a walk with Tayt in the baby jogger for the first time in a long time..... Night Night!

H2O consumption = No less than 120 oz...

Walked since 02/01/08 = 850.0 miles

October miles = 50.5

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WISHING YOU MUCH LOVE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS

Progress as of today: 39 lbs lost so far, only 43 lbs to go!

kzirkle on 10/28/2008:
Thanks. I really like your quote at the top of your entry. It's inspiring me to be positive and happy today.


selina on 10/28/2008:
Hang in there, thin. Someday, this is just going to be a memory.... Enjoy your beautiful family and the good things in life - remember that they are there, it's just a matter of looking for them. Have a good day!


Maria7 on 10/28/2008:
Hope things get better soon! I backtracked and read your earlier entries, too. Will be praying for you and your family. Take care.


Maria7 on 10/28/2008:
PS...congratulations on 198! YAYYYYYY!!!!


WI3 on 10/28/2008:
Yowza..church drama is painful. I remember it from back in the day with my family and our churches. I guess it happens everywhere. *sigh* HANG IN THERE!!! Soon everything will even out and you will really feel relief! Take care and have a happy Wednesday!!


Maria7 on 10/28/2008:
Still thinking of you and your family...hope y'all have a happy getaway this coming weekend!


grumpy on 10/29/2008:
I love the quote, it's so true. love you! xoxoxox


Maria7 on 10/29/2008:
Good morning to you! (Smile!)


skinnyjeans on 10/29/2008:
I hope you have a great Wednesday!! :)



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