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thinnside40 - Tuesday Aug 21, 2012
(Whatever it takes to get me to goal~ Healthy Way)
Weight: 0.0

 June 9, 2012 (our son's H.S. graduation day)

 

August 5, 2012 (mom's funeral)

Hello...... In a nutshell since January's 4 family deaths, we have had 9 friends (mostly people I've known all my life and they are 80's & 90's ages) and then my mom passed away on July 31, 2012...... I stared @ her death for 17 days in her bedroom, lay with her, talk to her, cared for her with the help of a once a week nurse & caregiver help letting her know I would never leave her as she asked me to not do 2 days after she told me "I'm done, we're not doing this anymore, I quit!" She was ready to go see my dad (the love of her life).....

It is beginning to show in all areas of my life...The sorrow so heavy & deep at times.....Seems just when I feel I can catch a deep breath another person dies.... A funeral last Tuesday and then one upcoming next Monday.... Hopefully, but not holding my breath that next Monday's will be it for a long while......

Yesterday was a day that I went and harvested goods from our garden... We have moved 17 miles across town to my parent's and hubby decided he wasn't going to wait til next year to continue on dad's HUGE garden.......Dad never planted zinnias, but we like fresh cut flower boquets on the kitchen table..... Anyway, I have purchased a new pair of tennis shows for walking and started on the right foot of eating healthy after having some issues with my legs & feet again...With 100 degree weather for almost 2 weeks, not sitting all day to take a break from getting settled, etc....Swelling to rash stage has begun...... Sunday was a full day of rest, Monday was a day of fresh veggies, lean meat, no sugar, no added salt and no soda pop......Drank about 40 oz. of water compared to my about 12 oz. for way too long now... I still have a very positive outlook on life, as God is the on in control, but I do have my days of which turn into 2-3 days of quiet & somberness.....Each rising & setting of the sun daily is a first without those I miss....When mom was still alive it was all the firsts without dad, but the lasts with her..... To move into the home I was raised in is a blessing, but the "someday" that has turned into "today" does not feel like we thought it would..... Onto making the best life out of the life I've been given

Have a good & successful day my friends! I'll be back to catch up in a little bit... Have to go get our daughter transeferred and registered for 7th grade.....School starts next Monday.............. oye!

 

 

 

TheMother on 08/21/2012:
I am SO sorry to learn of your Mom's passing. From what you've described, you were (and are) a very dutiful daughter. You did the best you could for her and I'm sure she appreciated it all. Despite the heartache you are feeling, you have wonderful memories to cherish. Living in your childhood home must be very comforting as well. It's good to see you back at DD. I always enjoy reading your posts. Have a good day...


V on 08/21/2012:
My thoughts and prayers go out to you <3


hollybelle on 08/21/2012:
Thinnie! So glad to see a post from you - although it broke my heart to hear of your mother's passing. I lost my dad on New Year's Day this year. I was with him almost 24/7 the last 3-4 weeks. The pain still weighs me down, although it isn't as suffocating as it was in the beginning. Your procession of losses, may speak to just how many friends and loving family members you have had in your life and that is a blessing. I loved, loved seeing the bounty from the garden. Beautiful. I LOVE beets and mostly all vegetables! Thanks for sharing with us and coming back to us here on DDs. God bless you at this time and always.


biscottibody59 on 08/21/2012:
I'm sorry for all your sorrows there--especially for the loss of your mother.

Hang in there!


Maria7 on 08/22/2012:
Sweetheart, I am so sorry to hear of your Mom's passing. How admirable that you, her dear Daughter, stood by her to her passing over. You have been through a LOT. I hope that now you will have the time and take it to take extra good care of yourself. I know you must miss your parents so very much but thank the Lord you still have your Hubby and children and other loved ones and most of all, the Lord who love you so very much and are standing by you. And you also have us here at DD, who love and care about you, too. I will be praying for your and yours. Take care. Love, Maria



thinnside40 - Friday Mar 02, 2012
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 0.0

(view from top of "Naches Heights Grade"....Fall of 2011 when the kids had a school day off & we needed a get-away)

Thursday was a good day... My shoulder & neck are giving me fits after Wednesday's work day & the constant use in caring for mom. Started therapy of Ibuprofen this morning & putting on elbow/forearm braces... I have to drink plenty of water to keep the nsaid side-effect of fluid retention @ bay or my hands/feet/ankles will swell like balloons....Just what I need when getting back on track... plffff...

I came home to a pleasant suprise of a Gerbara Daisy on the doorstep with a note of "I miss you" and "now, I miss you more, cause I missed you"....Neighbor cats (we are not used to neighbor cats yet) had eaten some petals off of the blooms, but it still is pretty & cheerful.. This was from a sweetheart @ church... Since Dec 16, 2011 we haven't seen each other but 4 times and our family prayed for & kept touch/had get togethers in helping get a marriage on a road of healing last year after 9 years of up/down/out/back.... So, I contacted her last night in a thank you & invite for them to supper tomorrow evening... We aren't used to entertaining or visitors too much this last 16 years, cause people just don't "drop by to say hi" or "we were in the neighborhood" when you live 12 miles out of town and 17+ miles from most friends.... So far we have "been caught by suprise" 5 times since Jan 11th..None of us get our jammies on near as early as we used to, we have gotten a door-bell (missed some people's knocks once), I keep plenty Keurig coffee/tea and little goodies & we have to make sure the house is tighteed up @ all times.. Having people to our home has always been a desire, but lack of room & convenience til now made that difficult... This is a HUGE positive transitional adjustment to be in the epi-center of all our friends and family now...Just the discipline when people do come invited or not,  to not get wrapped up in the moment(s) & go back to eating just to eat, just cause it all became a habit this last 2 months especially....When hubby was hospitalized 12-19 to 12-30, 2011 and I with him, I had adjusted to walking to a coffee shop, eating a light breakfast & then getting a moderate sized meal @ the hospital cafateria (an amazing grill menu) around 3:30 p.m... I would save some for later if I got hungry, so that 2 weeks I didn't eat too bad. The disappointment is in when we got home.. All the country folk food that was brought to the house for almost 3 weeks.. Cornbread, casseroles & desserts being staples of course after the 1 week lapsed between us being home & dad passing...

It has been 60 days since we came home from Seattle, but it seems so much longer... I had a hard hit of reality last night when the house was without voices, just the sounds of snap/crackle/pop of the firewood & the beautiful glow being the only light in the room after I got mom to bed, hugs & kisses in goodnights given to the kids & hubby (mom too) and I sat to unwind a bit before getting tired enough to sleep without anything on the mind...I went and got one of dad's hankerchiefs to wipe my tears and just "smell" him ( I did the laundry for him on Tuesdays, so I know it was clean ) and have him close to me, depite being surounded by him every turn in this house...In the darkness, I grabbed not one in particular..But, it was one that had a fishhook to form a "J".. Both our's first initial.... I have so much riding on my life & how I conduct myself....For me to be here on DD & get healthy again as I thought about all that has transpired and how much more than ever before all that depends upon "me" being the best me I can be...

Agenda is some Costco shopping, a brisk walk after the kids are out of school & a couple/few boxes unloaded & items arranged where we want them in the house...

Breakfast:

Honey Bunches of Oats (nf milk), black coffee

Miltons Trail Mix Snack Pack/4 Nature Valley mulit-grain Crisps/Cashews-Costco shoppping and ate in the car on the way home

broiled salmon, cabbage stir-fry (like the other nights)

 

 

V on 03/02/2012:
Another beautiful pic :) I hope you had a good day <3


Maria7 on 03/03/2012:
What a gorgeous photo! Thanks. Sounds like you are doing well under the circumstances of all you are doing, which is a LOT. So glad you are back here on DD. Hope your neck and shoulder start feeling better. It is very difficult when you have to physically help another person, even if they are your Mother. I know cause I did it for YEARS, even quit my job to take care of her. I had so MUCH PAIN I dealt with. I am praying for you for strength in all ways for all you are doing. I know the Lord is helping you. That is so sweet about the pretty flower and what you shared with us about y'all helping another couple. I hope y'all have a wonderful get together. :-) And that was so sweet what you shared about the fire crackling (I could just imagine it) and your getting your Daddy's hanky and all. You are such a wonderful person and I wish you an extra blessed day, Thin. Love, Maria


Maria7 on 03/07/2012:
Good morning, Thin. :-)


biscottibody59 on 03/07/2012:
Pretty pic--so green!

Hope you're doing all right! Please do what you can to take care of yourself thinnie!

I look forward to some update here soon:-)


Maria7 on 03/08/2012:
Thinking of you and your family this morning... Hope you have a good day. :-)


Maria7 on 04/17/2012:
Hope you and your family are doing well. :-)



thinnside40 - Thursday Mar 01, 2012
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 0.0

Copy/Paste some from facebook for the sake of not re-typing most:

A Wednesday of 2 hr school delay trip for MaMa J.J. & Gramma Judy. So sudden thought of just staying in West Valley for the day as maw was up, dressed, fed n ready for the day n no sooner would be time to go back to W.V. for school out & Ben's dodgeball tourney if we came back to Selah...That thought got me!!!! I shampooed carpet, moved furniture, took down & put back up/made fresh linen beds...Ack!!! No lunch food, cereal wore off fast & a nursed twisted sister was "gone"... Mom & I enjoyed maple nut oatmeal (after I convinced her it was o.k. to eat it if it wasn't breakfast time-whew!)... Ben's Arthur's Knights team placed 4th & a NICE suprise of some of our goodest friends came to watch with us... Mom did o.k., just these days of "I wanna Pepsi!!!, I wanna go to bed!!!!, Where's Jerri/Paul/Ben/Meg/Danny?, I don't like the truck.... I wanna drive the Buick!!! and non-recognition of even us @ times makes for longer days in their constant from the getting up-go to the going to bed-go... So thankful God grants patience to us all to remain faithful as dad & she would of if one of us kids had been effected by anything God allowed to happen.... ♥

WEDNESDAY:

Honey Bunches of Oats w/ nf milk, black coffee

32 oz. Twisted Sister (ice, o.j., sf red-bull, real strawberries, sf strawberry syrup)

Maple-Nut Oatmeal

1/2 cheeseburger, tator-tots, diet w.c. coke 

 ( I pre-worked this off with all the carpet shampooing, furniture moving, etc...) Just too sore n tired to cook by the time we got able to eat supper n the portion of supper in the oven cooking @ one house was going to be @ the house I was at WAY TOO LATE by the time hubby n kids went to get it while I brought mom back home...Hectic days are gunna happen 'round here, no escaping them!

THURSDAY:

1/2 c. cottage cheese, fresh strawberries n pineappple,ww english muffin, black coffee

sandwich (3 sl. Natural Chicken Breast, 1/4 tsp. Lite Miracle Whip on 2 sl. ww bread)

few sips of a 1/2 n 1/2 Pepsi/Diet that the kids bought forgetting my trying to stop sugars n sodas

top sirloin steak, broiled asparagus (olive oil, garlic, a.c. vinegar), steamed veggies (brocolli,carrots,snap peas n waterchestnuts)

Not enough water (as of this moment at least) 

V on 03/01/2012:
What a beautiful pic :) Sounds like you had very busy day! I hope you get to relax at home tonight <3


Maria7 on 03/02/2012:
Love that windmill picture! Sounds like you had a busy but good day. Love your positive attitude, too. Speaking of carpet shampooing...mine sure needs it... Hope you are having a real nice Friday when you read this (if you read this on Friday). Love ya, Maria


selina on 03/02/2012:
You are the only one that I know who shampoos her own carpet - good job! I must vacuum mine, haha! Sounds like you are having a very busy day, stay well!


biscottibody59 on 03/02/2012:
Keep going girlie--hope you have a good weekend!


legcramps on 03/02/2012:
beautiful pic!



thinnside40 - Tuesday Feb 28, 2012
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 0.0

October 2010

I cannot find the camera, but when I do.I will post a current pic... This one is when I was 225#'s and I figure I'm between 230-235 now... Last I was able to see I was 231 about a month ago, after all the home-cooked, high fat, comfort foods people brought for us mourning, tired & just keeping ourselves going people. Then all the to-go and going-out foods after that til this last Sunday night!!!!

Yesterday was a good day..... We went to our home for a few hours late evening to accomodate kid's schedules & I decided to just fix supper. Was going to just eat the mac n cheese that was available in the cupboard, but when I had to take Ben to his school, I stopped by WalMart & got some brown rice instead (took a couple bites of the mac too though).. We ate our first supper "at our home" since mid-December.....

One thing that is going to be a huge helping factor in me getting back on track is realizing where my life is at and it is o.k. to call dad/mom's house, our home now..Along with all of the other things that have been "given" to us through losses of loved ones... Easier said than done and my friend keeps telling me that I cannot change what has happened, nor can I ignore what I've been given...My dad was a very Godly man and frugal to the hilt..A nice farmhouse on an acre with  a park-like yard & picture perfect garden...Not rich, but comfortable not wanting for anything...Paid cash, no credit cards and owed no man a dime (wouldn't even let us "pay" for anything, cause he would "owe" us)...To be beneficiary of what he has set-up in investments that I can continue on, he worked so hard for, saved & made sure of mom not needing anything as well as us is a hard "acceptance"..,but also kow that God guided him into decision making. For that we are grateful beyond words.... Even 3 days before his hospitalization, he wrote out a check to hubby & I... With a "thank you" card that said "this is for all you have done and what you are doing".... I didn't and don't want $$$$ for what I've done or am doing... It was out of love, but I also know that dad loved us & new with hubby not working @ the time, me giving up my job & not going to be able to work..He has made provisions through what he prepared for.... I am coming to grips it all more each day as I bring items to make this "home" for our kids especially. To see how it makes us all feel more able to accept & know this is right and such a positive move for us in more ways than a larger size...The hardest, but easiest part is being around everything he touched, made, took care of & enjoyed day in and day out....I feel so close to him & can see him doing his daily routine(s) or think I should see him sitting in his chair or hear his voice say "comear sisser, can you help me?" then realization sets in.... 

So now, I have to allow the process of healing take place to continue to work on the physical..I'm not pushing myself to come to grips with any of this... As nobody knows how, how long or a lot of other things each person must go through for theirself in a loss... But I know I can try my hardest with my Heavenly Father's help to get into a routine & less wandering of all the "why's?"  as I allow Him to reveal ALL the answers in the process of grieving & of me becoming a healthier/ happier "me".....

Breakfast:

1/2c. cottage cheese w/ fresh strawberries n pineapple, ww english muffin (Parkay sprayed), black coffee 

Snack:

cashews n dried strawberries

Lunch:

1/2 sandwich (2 sl. natural ham on 1 sl. ww bread-no coudaments)

Snack:

apple

Supper:

baked salmon, stir-fry (diced cabbage, shredded carrots, corn & small red beans sauteed in EVOO- rinsed the beans & corn thoroughly to reduce sodium)

Somethin' Sweet:

nf banana cream pie yogurt w/ a sliced banana

Water:

Approx. 64 oz.

Maria7 on 02/28/2012:
Gorgeous photo! Yes, we all grieve differently as well as at different time periods...we are each created unique. Happy for you that your Dad made sure you and your family and Mom were well provided for...showed how much he loved y'all, his family. He looked like such a wonderful person in the photo you posted yesterday...such a sweet, loving Dad. I lost mine at age 9. He was sweet and loving also. He was only 29. Just try to take things slow and easy as needed and get as much rest as you can in taking care of everyone. Love ya, Friend. Maria


V on 02/28/2012:
Hello there beautiful :) I bet you are happy to be back at home :)I hope you had a good day my friend <3


hollybelle on 02/29/2012:
What lovely thoughts -:o)


hollybelle on 02/29/2012:
Oh, and not to mention the cute picture! Beautiful eyes!


selina on 02/29/2012:
I love that photo of you, gorgeous lady!

It's wonderful what you've written about your loving Dad! Glad things are looking positive, going back to "normal". is Ben going to change schools. I hope he can go without the trauma of moving schools in his last year of high school... stay well!

No, I never lived in Washington state - I did spend many Christmases in Spokane, though. In fact, we went there for the holidays every year until our daughter turned 13, for my in-laws lived there. Hubby's dad passed away and we decided to move his wife here to VA. Her son teaches at uva and she lives very close to his workplace, in a condo in a senior retirement place. It's a very posh type of a place, full of activities and she is loving it - it's like being on a cruise ship, except that it's not on a ship - that's the feeling I always have, when I go visit her. Which I do more often, since she is only 2 hours away - we now live just outside of washington dc...


grumpy on 02/29/2012:
OMG! Look who is back! So happy to see you here! You are so pretty! I am glad you're in this with me again. Let's leave the 200s behind!!!! :) xoxo


starfish on 02/29/2012:
*hugs* and thank you :-)


selina on 02/29/2012:
glad to hear Ben is not changing schools. It would be so hard on him, I'm sure, to leave his friends behind. although, my daughter has been constantly been moved from school to school, from country to country, it's never easy for her.



thinnside40 - Monday Feb 27, 2012
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 0.0

Hello DD friends!

Has been a while and a lot has happened since last entry.... 3 of the 5 people in this photo taken on 10/22/2011 are "gone" now.... 2 in Heaven & 1 in stage 6/7 of dementia. I was away from home a lot all of 2011 and stayed not one night in my home of 16.5 yrs in 2012 so far..

I won't do the whole year of 2011, but dad did have an aortic anreyusm (spelling?) in stage 8 (grapefruit size) repaired in late spring, mom's dementia required 24/7 care and he her main caregiver... I helped 3-4 days a week when possible and stayed several nights when necessary... This is still al lengthy entry, but it will help you to catch up and understand why I am back @ DD to finally try to take some time for my health, care & well-being.... 

Nov. 23, 2011 ~ Dad diagnosed with tonsil cancer (I went on a 7 week leave of absence from work) and began 35 treatment therapy radiation on 11/25...

Nov. 28-Dec 16 ~ 5 days a week radiation, 1 day of chemo-style therapy, amongst other appointments and tests in between with a couple complications of fatigue/dropped blood pressure... Tumor shrinking nicely & no other cancer evident according to PET scan from head to toe...Temporary feeding tube inserted on Dec.13.. I was gone from home the 12th-17th 

Dec. 17 ~ My husband cannot hold conversation on the phone, feels really sick, tired enough to go to sleep while talking, very sore right arm muscle...Kids & I packed up and drove 30 minute trip home to find him collapsed in the recliner, yet not wanting to go to ER to be checked out... MADE him go!!! Heart rate in the 190's (stopped/re-started heart 6 times in ER), severe dehydration despite only drinking water (no coffee/pop) for 2 days, lethargic & when 3 pumps running fluid being squeezed by hand into them made him feel better, he asked the Dr. to go home... Admitted!

Dec. 19 ~ Arrived to visit husband @ the hospital after dad's radiation & taking care of neccessary things @ their home... With an hours notice hubby was jetted 300 miles from home to Seattle's Harborview Hospital after arm breaking out in bags of fluid & purple in color from wrist to shoulder & being diagnosed w/ the flesh eating disease caused by a deep tissue wound @ work on Dec 5th. He had bandaged it & kept it cleaned.... Greeted in Seattle by a team of 18 Drs. & nurses ready to start cutting away on his arm...I was not able to go with him, as I needed to go in person to tell my dad & make arangements for his/mom's care as long as I was going to be gone (unknown at this time)... My aunt gave up her mornings with grandma to help out... BUT, Drs. believed it WAS NOT the flesh eating disease and held off surgery til further testing...Kids (Ben now 18 & Meg almost 12 along with our 5 dogs whisked away by dear friends to care for them as long as needed)

Dec. 19/Dec. 20 ~ Driven by friends & arrived in Seattle @ 2:00 a.m. to critical care unit where we stayed the next 6 days while they tested tested tested, etc & around the clock IV therapy of 3 antibiotics, along with a newly found racing heart-rate issue that may or may not be caused by infection......Heart stopped/re-started 4 times during this time..on the 20th, they decided to do viable tissue samples as white blood cell count was highly elevated, removed pic line in non-infected arm & put in central line (3 IV lines into the neck threaded to the heart for direct administration of meds)... 2 large holes left open to be wound cared twice daily...

Dec 24-Dec 28~ Moved to a wound-care room when diagnosed with severe case of cellulitus... Taught how to do home care of wounds... Talked with dad every day between the 19-29 and he was so tired & weak for taking care of mom in his love for her as long as he cold muster up enough energy & not have to have someone beside he or I shower, dress & get her fed before his appointments.. Told him we would come straight to their house ASAP on the 29th after getting the kids and stay with them as long as needed, so I could care for the 3 of them under one roof...Hubby on L&I til released to go back to work...  

Dec 29 ~ Arrive home @ 3:00 p.m. and that evening dad began to weaken to the point of major tiredness, unable to stay awake, complained of legs & back aching..A non-camplaining guy!!!! 

Dec 30 ~ Go to radiation & IV therapy with dad and he requires IV fluids due to thoughts he was deydrated and his calcium level a bit high... WBC elevated (original was 39,000 on 11/23/2011, droppped to 17,400 on 12/16) to 32,000...

Dec 31-Jan 4,2012 ~ Dad weakens by the hour & more IV fluids on Jan 2...Hubby & I have to lift him out of his chair & the car...A walker & wheelchair necessary...Sent for blood clot ultrasound on Jan 3.(negative)  Sent for bone scan on the 4th, he starts to make strange requests & not talk like himself... Super tired and just wants to go home!.. I called the Dr. immediately to have them admit him for further testing & treatment... Fluids administered & a call @ 2:00 a.m. on the 5th to inform me that his lungs were filling with fluid & his heart had "taken a hit"... 

Jan 5, 2012 ~ Tests show there is cancer in the thigh bones, back bones & 2 spots on the liver despite the PET scan a few weeks prior showing nothing but the tonsil tumor that was almost gone with 10 radiations to go....Dr. says they will try chemo, but dad's condition declined almost by the minute & Dr determines there is no options for treatment...Hospice was brought in the morning of Jan 11 & he passed away that same day @ 12:48 p.m. with only me in the room after 7 days of me, hubby, aunt & brother sitting with him around the clock & rotating mom's care... While he was able to squeeze a hand, move his head or communicate I asked him each day if he wanted to see mom or have her see him this way... He did til Jan 9th & that day we hadn't told him yet that there wasn't any treatment options, he took her with his hands cupping her face, eye to eye told her "I love you & your perfect!"  to which clearly she said "I love you, your my husband & you'll be going home soon".. Up to this time she had been asking him "when are you coming home?" & truly not understanding his condition... He went "Home" alright...To Gloryland with Jesus!

Jan. 18 ~ A counsins by marriage dad was found in his home passed away

Jan. 19 ~ Dad's funeral

Jan. 20 ~ Meg's 12th birthday... Hubby's brother passed away.. It was expected, but not this soon as we had just learned he had liver cancer on the night that I stopped by their house on my way to Seattle

Jan. 21 ~ Grandma (dad's mom- 93 yrs old) who had not been told of dad's cancer or that he had passed away, began to decline rapidly....

Jan. 29 ~ Grandma passed away....

Jan. 30 ~ Hubby was released to work only light-duty

Feb. 3 ~ Grandma's funeral

Feb.16 ~ Mom's dementia has progressed to a stage I honestly do not think my dad could of emotionally handled it.. I believe God took my dad when he did to spare him broken-heartedness & inability to live with himself in the event that mom needs to be placed in a special care facility..By him passing away,it was the only way he was going to allow anybody to help him with her...

Feb. 23 ~ Hubby released to work as usual

Feb. 25 ~ Would of been dad/mom's 45th Anniversary

Feb. 26 ~ Ordered & ate pizza knowing that

Feb. 27 (TODAY) ~ I was coming back to DD

We are now living in the home I as raised in, but still have our home 17 miles South-West... It is one of those " someday it will be nice when", but when the when comes, you just don't feel like you thought you would.... I am now mom's guardian & caregiver/dad's will executor and things were very well financially prepared this last June for mom's care, as well as dad making sure we would be taken care of in the event something did happen to him before mom.."I just cannot believe this is happening", especially at my young age of 43, I have great sadness & pieces of me are gone in all that has transpired in such a short amount of time & what is still going on, but am so thankful for a prepared dad who made sure we are all taken care of... My job with Hallmark is still there if/when I can/want to go back....Hubby takes takes the kids to school on his way to work and I take mom for a daily drive to pick them up & go check our house/mail.... Things on the horizon are Ben getting his driver's license & graduation in June... Decisions on what to do with our home of almost 17 years & the daily care of mom....

One decision that is no longer up in the air is this last several months of thinking: "My goodness!, When am I ever going to get back to DD & me?"

I have brought my Gazelle from home & have sidewalks to walk (instead of the old dirt & gravel roads~I miss them still though) when I get the chance. The "way out in the country" life turned 1/2 city & 1/2 country is going to take some great getting used to, but has more positives than drawbacks.... The 11 days I was in downtown Seattle with 6 days & nights in ICU & 5 days/ nights @ Crowne Plaza on the 28th floor, taking the metro & walking downtown was some prep for a country girl I guess.... I even caught a ride home with a friend that had came to Seattle and got our neighbor's Yukon and our kids to go over Snoqualmie Pass late @ night with several inches of snow falling... The first time in my life to drive over a pass or drive a BIG city like that... Got lost ONCE! When they had released my husband from the hospital @ 5:00 p.m. and I was in a hurry to beat the traffic... NEVER possible in Seattle!

Anyway, getting on with it.... My goal is to be a better looking/thinner mama by our son's graduation day (I have to ask him exactly when that is)....  and to live my life for me, as well as live for/be healthy & care for a mom who is still here in body, but not mind.... I went through a grieving process about a year ago in this reality of not having my mom anymore....

I do not have a #, as I broke the scale the day I had to crawl through the bathroom window 1/2 the size of the biggest portion of my body when I was locked out in getting some wood for the fire @ 7:00 a.m. on a 20 degree morning in my gown & slippers...Huby had turned the knob to "lock mode" when he left @ 6:00 a.m... You can go out it with it "locked", but it is still locked on the outside... Spare key?~ outside now! 

Please bare with me as I have many ups/downs in emotions.. Not sure how this is all going to work out & the true grief has not had time to settle I'm sure... One day @ a time and I need support now more than ever before to work on this....

Breakfast:

Black Coffee, 1/2 banana, FRUITEIN RAINBOW shake (nf milk)

Lunch:

Sandwich (2 sl.Natural Turkey Breast, skim of Lite Miracle Whip on Dave's Grains Killer Bread),Cashews & dehydrated strawberries

Supper:

Chicken Breast, Brown Rice, Steamed Petite Veggies & 3 forsksful mac n cheese

Daily Water:

Approx. 60 oz.

 

 

 

 

selina on 02/27/2012:
Awww Thinnie, I don't even know how to start telling you how sorry I am to hear such heartbreaking news about your Dad's and your Grandma's passing in such a short time! You talked so much about them in here at DD that it was as if we knew them personally. Please accept my condolences... I just can't imagine having to go through all the heartbreak you went through, at the same time having to juggle taking care of your hubby and your mom, losing your brother-in-law, what an incredible ordeal! I'm so glad to hear that your hubby has recovered after such an awful case! Big, big hugs to you my dear Thinnie! It's wonderful to have you back, my friend! It's also great to hear your children are well!


Maria7 on 02/27/2012:
Thin, I was thinking about you early this morning...yes...when I was watching the weather channel on tv and looking at the weather on the tv map on your side up there in Washington State when they were showing it... I even thought about sending you a comment later on DD today but didn't do it cause I didn't think you would see it...anyway...I cried when I just now read your entry. So sorry you have gone through all of this (and still are)...what a WONDERFUL, LOVING DAUGHTER (and Wife and Mother) you are. Glad your Hubby is better and able to work again. I am GLAD to see you back here at DD. Big HUG to you, my Friend. :-)


CaveGirl on 02/27/2012:
Goodness. What a year! So sorry to hear about your losses. And I'm SO impressed that you are making the steps to take care of yourself! Hugs to you.


hollybelle on 02/27/2012:
Thin! I was so happy to see a post from you and so sad to read all that your family has been through these past months. I lost my dad on New Year's Day this year - after a long fight with colon cancer. I was with him at the end, too. It's hard, isn't it? The grief clings to you for quite awhile, but it does get better. I am still a bit haunted by thoughts of his last few hours, but in the end, we release them into God's hands and we must ask ourselves if we truly believe they are better off, how can we grieve so? It must be doubly hard for you with caretaking of your mom now. Do you have brothers or sisters? I am an only child after my younger brother passed away 7 years ago. I have great supportive husband and friends, though. Start taking care of yourself anew and post often.


V on 02/27/2012:
Welcome back Thin!! OMG you have been through so much I am so sorry for all of the loss that you have experienced :( Sending lots of love thoughts and prayers for you my friend <3


biscottibody59 on 02/27/2012:
I would give you the biggest hug in the universe if I saw you right now!

I read and took in this entire entry. I'm so sorry to hear of the losses and stress and grief you've been through. Not being in your own house is stressful too. Hang in there girlie!

Keep posting!

ps I don't know if you're young enough to remember when teachers made you write out some sentence for punishment 100 times. I'd tell you to write for affirmation not punishment of course, "I will take good care of myself and consciously put myself first when possible." Just something to keep you mindful that you have needs too. (I'm just reminding--I know you already know this:-)


TinaAnn on 02/27/2012:
Wow! Rough few months. Take care of yourself.


hollybelle on 02/28/2012:
As I re-read my comments above I realized it may sound like I am saying how can we grieve if we believe our loved ones are better off! I apologize if it sounded like that! I think I was just meditating and asking myself that question and didn't "hear" how it sounded in the end. There is post traumatic stress in losing a loved one or after a loved ones illness and you have had both and are still dealing, daily, with another. I'll try to edit myself a bit closer. Our hospice service offer free group grief counseling. I am thinking of going at least once. I am thinking of you and your family - God bless you.


Umpqua on 02/28/2012:
I'm so sorry for your losses, you have been through so much! Good for you for recommitting to your health and taking care of yourself during tough times.


Maria7 on 02/28/2012:
Good morning, Thin...thinking about you over here this morning... :-)


V on 02/28/2012:
<3 <3 <3


selina on 02/28/2012:
Looks like you had a great eating day, yesterday. Stay well and big hugs to you. You look BEAUTIFUL in the photo!


supercheese on 02/28/2012:
Wow. You've had a rough couple of months. One thing is that you hold such strength that makes any parent proud. I hope things get easier and am praying for you and your family.



thinnside40 - Friday Feb 04, 2011
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 224.0

 Lovely Friday to You! 

Awoke @ the crack of noon yesterday. Said "good day" to the kids @ 6:45 a.m. & rolled over.  At any rate, I did get things accomplished in the afternoon I wanted to on the first day off to stay home in a very long time.... My schedule has changed to Tue/Thur/Sun off, but Thursday is the only day that I have to stay home in the event nothing else pops up.... AND things have since the 2011 change...

We did have need to go to town in the evening. While out I bought a new scale.. They just don't make things like they used to do they!?!?!?!?.... I'm used to my 3# scale from the 70's and this thing is all but maybe 1# & not cheap branded... I wasn't sure it was going to hold me without breakage, but I trusted the statment on the front that said "accurate to 350#'s".... I'm still looking for another when I go "thriftin".. They get the oldies from time to time..... Happy note...It did say 224  each time I got on it (about 8 times..hehehe).

Off to get my smoothie and go see how much damage has happened @ work since Wednesday... I'll see ya a bit later to read/comment.

P.S. Feels good to be back and THANK YOU for all the "welcome backs".....

Much LOVE ~ HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to YOU!

 

 

Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 69 lbs to go!

mcwoo40 on 02/04/2011:
Have a good day thinny :)


panda22 on 02/04/2011:
I love your picture at the top! My mom is a doll collector so I grew up admiring her shelves where she kept them =) LOL @ your scale comment....it's hard to find a good one these days. The one I have tells you something different every time. If you so much as accidentally kick it and it moves a bit it will tell you you've lost a pound in a span of 1 minute....Unfortunately when you move it back it tells you you've gained 2 pounds hahahaha! Anyway, have a great day =)


selina on 02/04/2011:
Hi Thinny! Great to see you back! I also bought a new scale several months ago, and it always gives me a different reading each time I step on it. I always step on it 5 times and choose the lowest reading ;) Have a great day!


tangalyn on 02/04/2011:
hope u have a good day


moogy on 02/04/2011:
Nice to have a sleep in. I seem to have lost the ability to stay in bed and I can most days, very frustrating. The new scales are a bit high tech aren't they. It's a bit like phones, I just want to phone and text but aparrantely I can fix passing satalittes!! Have a good weekend and well done on the pound down. Excellent work.


moogy on 02/04/2011:
By the way, I had my grandaughter with me when I was responding to your entry and they hovered over me and where adoring your doll!!


loveray on 02/04/2011:
so true: things just arent made sturdy anymore!! hope you are having a wonderful day. xo


Maria7 on 02/24/2011:
Hello, Thin. :-)


biscottibody59 on 05/27/2011:
There's a shoutout to you on the forum--hope all's well. Take care thinnie!


mcwoo40 on 06/30/2011:
Hope you are ok,come back soon everyone misses you :)))


biscottibody59 on 07/16/2011:
Good to see a comment! You know you're still in the game if you remembered your password:-)

Sounds like life is just a bit complicated for you at the moment. Glad to hear that your Dad is on the mend. Keep doing your best to take good care of yourself there!

Hope to see a regular--maybe once a weekish? entry soon!


mcwoo40 on 07/17/2011:
Hiya Gerri,great to here from you after all this time.It sounds busy your end but make sure you have time for yourself.Keep popping by from time to time,take care, you are still missed :)



thinnside40 - Wednesday Feb 02, 2011
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 225.0

Yesterday was a very emotional day..Tuesdays usually are...BUT, I did not stop to buy take-out, nor am I going to today.... Has been usual and customary this last several weeks to eat out on these 2 nights...Between being gone all day Tuesday's day off & Wednesday Bible Study after I've worked all day... Stress makes me want to do nothing & eat everything "comforting".... Ahhhhh!!! re-boot & re-program....

I behaved according to the healthy eating goal I have set for myself to get through these circumstances and that makes me very happy with myself at this point...Habits re-gained in the unhealthy manner are just a heaviness in theirself to heart & mind, let alone the addage to the patoot & waistline... 

Going on 43 is also against me in areas of emotional eating.... I asked hubby last night. "Why of all of my family am I the one that cries, depresses, wants to make everybody happy even at the cost of making me unhappy?"... Cause that is how God made you was his wise answer.... I am working on accepting who I am again and being confident in it is a bit hard sometimes when tiredness & so much sadness is raging through our family... I want to fix it all & I can't.... Bottom line.... I can change the response & choose to deal with in a positive manner the best I know how.... That is why I began with changing what I knew I could. Helping with that is getting back to DD as I learn to believe that 155#s IS obtainable....Coming back to finish what I started 3 years ago... 

Much LOVE ~ HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to YOU!

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 70 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 02/02/2011:
Good luck! Good to see an update!


liza36 on 02/02/2011:
I'm glad to see you back. You've gone through a lot it sounds like. We are all hear for you.


chidogs on 02/02/2011:
You have a wise outlook. Take care.


KathyBlue on 02/02/2011:
Glad to see you back!!!!!!!!!!!! :)


lifestylechange on 02/02/2011:
love the quote!!


V on 02/02/2011:
hey and you can always look at the dieting as the one thing that you have 100%power and control and lots of prayers :) As a nuturer/care/advice/shoulder giver, you must carve out a nich for yourself as well..No one will think that is selfish at all! You deserve to be the healthiest 43 y/o to can be! Just stick with it, with us! Love you, as always i will say a little prayer


loveray on 02/02/2011:
miss fiesty lady is back!! love your joke. missed you!


waydesmommy on 02/03/2011:
Nice quote. Good going on rebooting and reprograming! Your going to be 43. That's 43 years of wisdom and 43 years of a great person being around for other people and making them happy. Nothing wrong with that. Be happy and celebrate it! I'm sure God has given you wonderful things for the things you have done for other people at your own cost. Stay strong and you WILL do what you set out to do!


biscottibody59 on 02/03/2011:
Thanks for stopping by my entry!

Somehow you're gonna have to learn how to carve out time for yourself--I don't know how to tell you to do that, but when all is said and done, no one will care that you did it except for YOU--you're pulled in so many different directions and it will be worth it as your life continues to be as complicated as it is.

Just do it! It takes practice, but practice it every day and eventually it becomes second nature! Talk is cheap, but I'm sooo glad to see that you have that wt goal right in the forefront--it's refreshing to see you here and I hope you have time to update from time to time!

You've definitely been missed around DDs girlie!



thinnside40 - Tuesday Feb 01, 2011
(Each day with success...ONE day @ a time!)
Weight: 225.0

Hi!........ I say that sheepishly no doubt..... All whom I left months ago have been on my mind so often & miss so much, but time just doesn't allow me too much time to be here..... Maria has left me numerous comments & I failed to respond....Jules (McWoo) got me yesterday and I had been thinking about visiting ya'll on this my day off before heading out the door til evening time......

Life has been very hectic to say the least. I spend very little time @ home amongst g'ma @ the nursing home after 2 strokes (2nd on Christmas) & mom's dementia progression...Dad was out of commission for several days before Christmas hardly able breath with his sacriliac (spelling far off I'm sure) muscle & having to be on 3 Rxs.....So it goes & has been..... Still working for Hallmark and heavily into Valentines upkeep...

I'm not sure exactly how much my weight is...Somewhere around 225 like I have admitted in my "current weight" category  (the needle on my scale fell off, improv til I get a new one)...It was higher a few days back when I began "detoxing"from sugar/carbs/junk!..... UgH!!! It has went smoothiely (I know I mis-spelled...you'll see why in a moment :o) I've been able to keep with my plan for 4 days and going into my 5th.....

Smoothies for breakfast !!! Nature's Plus Fruitein Powder + nf milk + a few pieces of frozen fruit (NSA strawberries or mango so far) + 1/2 c. Greek yogurt....Also taking vitamins/supplements... It has been a great way to start my day...Keeping me from craving for more of the same ALL DAY, getting hungry or having my blood sugar drop like the toast, sugary cereal or lone banana I had grown so used to left me feeling just a couple hours after eating... Very light eating in the afternoon, then a healthy supper with salad, veggies and lean meat or fish.....

So, with this update & time limitation.... I will sign-off for now & will make it back to you later this evening. Pending things are as "quiet" as they are now & this day has no suprises.....

Much LOVE ~ HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to YOU!

Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 70 lbs to go!

mcwoo40 on 02/01/2011:
HEY Great to see you back Gerri :)I'm slowly getting back into it.Seems a little hectic your end,hope you are making time for you.Keep poppin back from time to time,bye for now Jules x


lifestylechange on 02/01/2011:
Good to see you back:)


moogy on 02/01/2011:
Good to see a post from you thinside. Life is throwing lots of stuff at you isn't it? You are obviously keeping the eating as under control as you can under the cirmcumstances so well done. A small increase can be fixed when you have more emotional and real time!!


chidogs on 02/01/2011:
Sounds like a lot of stress going on for you. Wishing you a more peaceful time from now on. Take care.


V on 02/01/2011:
I was wondering about you! I am so glad you popped in for an update! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Sorry that you are going though so much...


loveray on 02/02/2011:
MISS YOU pretty lady. so glad you posted. you are always on my mind my DD momma! xo


Maria7 on 02/02/2011:
Jerri, so GLAD to see an entry from you! I would have emailed you but don't have your email address. Couldn't remember the name you used on ebay, either. Do you still sometimes sell things on ebay? Sorry to hear about your Grandma, Dad, and Mom. Will be praying for them. How are your children and hubby doing? Sounds like you are one busy lady, working and taking care of your family. How are the orchards up there in Washington state? :-) I used to really enjoy reading what you wrote about the fresh fruit from the orchards.



thinnside40 - Friday Oct 01, 2010
(Lowering the Triglycerides/Exercise/Be Positive)
Weight: 220.0

 

Gone from home the last 2 days.... Mom was doing horrible, so dad called me @ work on Wed..... Despite the away from home on such short notice, I stopped by the store to purchase foods that I would be comfortable eating to stay on track instead of making myself feel"trapped" into eating foods I'm avoiding and plentiful @ my parent's.....

We are going through a process of elemintation over the next 10-14 days as far as mom's care & treatment.....

Today, I'll be working several hours to make up & then going to a financial advisor this afternoon with hubby. No more 401K or profit sharing at work....:o(  Then going to dad/mom's to visit & get our 3 HUGE pumpkins dad grew... Going to be a long day, but so worth fitting everything in today....

Tomorrow we are going to The State Fair. Has been 5 years since we have gone.....I'll get to do lots of walking..... Ya!

Wednesday

Can't remember it all, but I know I stayed on track....

 

  Thursday

Nature's Path cereal ,milk, fresh peach,coffee

salad ( romaine, tomato,cucumber,baked chix (no skin),FF cottage cheese, 1/2 avocado)

SFFF vanilla chai tea 

grilled steak, baked fries, green beans

banana

Friday

1 egg/ 2 whites, flourless toast, ls V-8, coffee

plain almonds

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Much LOVE ~ HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to You!

 

Progress as of today: 17 lbs lost so far, only 65 lbs to go!

tangalyn on 10/01/2010:
i like the picture, hope ur mom gets better soon, try to have a great day!


legcramps on 10/01/2010:
Hope you have a good day today!


chidogs on 10/01/2010:
Take care of yourself in this tough time. It's great that you can spend time with your parents. It is time you will never regret.


moogy on 10/01/2010:
I think that you are doing a great job taking care of yourself in difficult circumstances. You keep going - you are doing a really good job.


Maria7 on 10/01/2010:
Hope y'all have a wonderful day at the state fair tomorrow! You SO deserve it! :-)


V on 10/01/2010:
Sending lots of love your way!!!!!


selina on 10/02/2010:
You are doing great! Enjoy the fair!


moogy on 10/02/2010:
Thank you for the encouragement thinside. I hope you have a good weekend:)


breakaway on 10/02/2010:
Sure hope your mom gets well soon :( Great job getting foods to fit your menus! Hang in there! Have fun at the fair :D


Maria7 on 10/03/2010:
Hope y'all had a wonderful day at the fair! :-)


balloonlady on 10/03/2010:
State fairs are evil...lol well maybe I an basis. hope you had lots of fun, I am sorry to hear about your mom, It makes everything more difficult when you have that stress... we are here for you.


Maria7 on 10/04/2010:
Thinking of ya and hope you're doing okay. :-)


Maria7 on 10/07/2010:
Hellllllooooooo! :-)


Maria7 on 10/10/2010:
Hope you're doing well. :-)


Maria7 on 10/28/2010:
Did you think you were forgotten?????? I THINK NOT!


Maria7 on 10/30/2010:
Hello over there..... :-)


Maria7 on 11/02/2010:
Done been over a month...would be nice to hear from you.


Maria7 on 11/10/2010:
Would be nice to hear from you...


Maria7 on 12/25/2010:
Merry Christmas, Thin! :-)


mcwoo40 on 01/31/2011:
Hope you are ok Thinny,come back soon :)



thinnside40 - Tuesday Sep 28, 2010
(Lowering the Triglycerides/Exercise/Be Positive)
Weight: 222.0

Today is my day off....Planned on sleeping in a bit, but that didn't work :o(

Housework and cleaning the porch is on the agenda for this day off, unless when I talk to dad my plans get changed....Not many days off are spent home, but meeting them  @ a Dr. appt for mom this afternoon calls for me to just stay home and omit an extra 30 mile "back & forth" to save on gas til payday if I can..... Anxious to be home alone during the day for a change and not have the h/a lag over from yesterday to boot...Whoo Hoo!!!!!!! 

Menu

Breakfast = Sc. 1 egg/2 whites, 2 sl. turkey bacon, 1 c. ls V-8, coffee

Snack = Apple,1 TBS smart balance PB

Dinner = left-over sauteed veggies

Snack = handful soynut energy mix (soynuts,almonds,pumpkin seeds,cranberries)

Appointment was not a pleasant one...I'm not one to make names for people, but this doctor was the bibical term for a donkey (my maiden name is burrow too, so I'm used to it being used on me in te past :o( ) Anyway, he loudly used his voice and asked us why we were concerned about dementia or if mom had actually been diagnosed with Alzheimers and continued to carry on rudely ...Mind you we were there for confirmation that mom had fluid on the eardrum and to see if he could help somehow... He wanted to do a hearing test, but we knew her understanding was not going to work with a test as such...It didn't work, just gave them a reason to charge more is our thinking..The nurse even said before they did it she didn't think it was going to mean anything after seeing mom's understanding capability.... Long story short I was hot under the collar and the nurse sensed it after he talked like he did and not a lick of bedside manner or consideration for my dad's feelings as her caregiver.... And there is nothing wrong with her ears and no vertigo aparent.... Dad is so burdened that this is probably just another progression of the disease, that I didn't know what to say to him truthfully... I believe it to be and have thought that the last 2 weeks, but we needed to clear out any other probability..... She has begun talking to people not around and not making sense or able to complete a sentence, as she loses what she was talking about in the middle .... Not sure what this means for me, as far as keeping my job (I love my job) much longer if this becomes too much for dad, even with the 2-3 days a week I/the family are at their house to help.... Mom is 68 & dad is 74.....So loving toward one another and he says each worsening makes him feel even closer to her.....Only that can come from the Lord as I have read/heard that this disease usually seperates the couple as the sick one becomes so unlike theirself.... I feel closer to her I know myself in trying to hold onto as much of her that remains.....

This IS NOT going to hinder my progress, as it is what de-railed me so many months ago...I was out of control of so many feelings, that it poured over into my eating habits to make me feel even worse mentally, not to mention how horrible it has made me feel physically......Not too hungry now, as a headache has ensued due to the tension of me clinching my teeth and falling just short of grabbing something that would make the Dr. holler a bit.... Supper may change, depends..It sounds good at the moment....

Supper = oatmeal, 1/2 c pumpkin, skim milk

Dessert = 1/2 c. ff cottage cheese, sf Jell-O

Water = 80-100 oz.

I failed to end on a good note earlier.... I listened to Austins Bridge (check them out online if you like country/gospel/bluegrass church songs) all morning and got lots done in the house...Starting to look fallish at my house...Cut off some pretty pumpkins and set them on the porch, hung/set out other autumn decor.....Also, no stumbling over stuff as you walk in the door and a lil beyond...

Much LOVE ~ HAPPINESS ~ SUCCESS to You!

Progress as of today: 15 lbs lost so far, only 67 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 09/28/2010:
Hi there!


sweetpea1977 on 09/28/2010:
Im just getting caught up on all your entries. So sorry to hear about your mom. I hope she has a speedy recovery!!

Your menus are looking great. Keep it up!!

Yes, I definitely plan on handing down the halloween costume. Ethan's little cousin loves Mickey, so he will be getting it next. Then, perhaps he'll give it back to his baby cousin in a few years! :)


lose4sure on 09/28/2010:
Have a super Tuesday!


V on 09/28/2010:
Enjoy your day off :)


loveray on 09/28/2010:
smart balance is yummy! all of your orange makes me think of halloween! coming so soon. xoxo


just42day on 09/28/2010:
Seriously, the Taste of Home Comfort Food Diet Cookbook is great. Recipes organized by meals(b'fast, lunch,etc) and by calories! Also has appetizers & desserts. Plus, with purchase you get a free 1 year subscription to Healthy Eating Magazine. Cookbook was @ $20.00 but well worth it! Got it at Barnes & Noble. Check out some of the recipes I posted in Forum section as several are from this book. I love cooking and absolutely love this cookbook! :)


Maria7 on 09/28/2010:
I prayed for your Mom and you and your family today on my knees. Hope her dr. appointment goes well.


V on 09/28/2010:
Sorry to hear your update and yes most Dr's are A Ho_ _ s i have has my fair share of run in's with them :( Stay strong and just so you know you can fire this insensitive jerk!


moogy on 09/28/2010:
I am so glad that you are still thinking about what you are going to need to get yourself through this most difficult period of your parents life. Staying as healthy as you can and having something positive to focus on will help you cope with the stress that you are going to be under. I will refrain from commenting about the doctor, suffice to say I would probably not have been as gracious as you were. I wish you the strength and grace that you will need.


Maria7 on 09/28/2010:
Oh, Dear! I just read your update and am SO SORRY for the way you and your family were treated! This was so UNCALLED FOR! Y'all must have felt awful! When you expect the MOST COMPASSION, you get THE LEAST! Bless you and your Mom and Dad! I don't understand WHY!!!!!!????? some people are in the medical field! Is it all about money??? Really makes one wonder! And those questions! Uh!!!

As for the eating, I know I have given in to comfort eating many times when stressed about Mom. It seems that is the most difficult time to control giving in to overeating or having little mini-food-binges. I try my best to do other things now instead of using food for comfort.

Bet your house looks so pretty! I've done some fall decorating over here, too. Try to get some rest. Take care of yourself. Love, Maria


biscottibody59 on 09/28/2010:
Am taking a break, but read a few diaries from time to time. Anyway.

I cannot remember how the diagnosis of your mom was made, but has she been evaluated by a neurologist? I imagine so, but the following is a condition that sure sounds alot like what's going on with her: http://www.webmd.com/brain/normal-pressure-hydrocephalus

I saw a program years ago on it--the subject, a man, had a miraculous recovery after he was treated with a shunt to drain the fluid from his brain. Sadly nursing homes (currently) are apparently housing any number of people with the condition undiagnosed and untreated, since Alzheimer's can't really be diagnosed while its victim is alive.

Hope you continue to fight the good fight for yourself as well!


balloonlady on 09/28/2010:
Doctors have lost a lot of their tack, My mom was in the hospital, (where I worked as a microbiologist for 5 years) and I locked horns with her doctors pretty quick, It is insane how they treat people when they are older. I am sorry for what happened.


breakaway on 09/28/2010:
I am SO sorry to hear about your mom :( How sad for you and your dad. I got to the point where I didn't want to see my mom after she stopped remembering who we were. It was SO hard to see her like that. She looked through us rather then at us :( She is gone now and I miss her so much. Enjoy her while you can. I sure hope it doesn't get worse. Good job sticking to this while going through all this...Kudos to you!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/29/2010:
I am sorry you have to deal with such horrible issues like disease in such close members of your family. It is certainly a stressful thing and i admire you saying you will not let it stress you to the point of a weight issue as well. you are smart, you know more about health...and you will get through eating well.

i haven't seen you making as many journal entries lately!

and i hope you had the most enjoyable day at home!

i think of you when i go on long walks...i remember you used to write how you can walk 6 miles easily! wow...i can't!


Maria7 on 09/30/2010:
Hoping you're having a better day today...



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