Modeling Pictures of me

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Wow, I dont feel very good right now, and I think I know why.

Last night, my dad made awsome puttenesca....my fav. but of course I went back for seconds and then when I was putting away the left overs I was nibbling on it as well....actually not nibbling, scarfing! Thats right, scarfing!! And before dinner, I was nibbling on cabbage dipped in tomatoe paste and salad! I hate snacking before dinner, but I always get so hungry before the rest of my family decides to eat, it drives me crazy!!!

This morning I woke up still feeling pretty full so I did not eat anything until noon. At noon I had my everyday staple: eggwhite pancake with ristotrine powder mixed in and sugar free syrup. I also took my vitamins and drank 3 mugs(large mugs) of green & black teas! (From Snapple! They make baggie teas now too and they are amazing!) Its been about an 1 hr and 1/2 since I ate and I do not feel all that magical! I feel hungry still which is weird and I also feel sort of nauseous! Ugh...hate this feeling, but maybe if I lie down with a good movie it will go away. Good thing I always do my excersice in the morning before my days begin, or else I would never excersice, especially if I felt this crummy as we speak!

Hope everyone's weight loss or maintanace is going well!!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

So just in case anyone wanted to know, my birthday was horrible! I did absolutely nothing, ok I lied..I did laundry and a crossword puzzle! What a miserable day! Everyone gets such high expectations for their birthdays and then when the day comes (unless you plan something amazing) they stink! Last year I was in Hong Kong, so I knew for sure this year would not top that but still, my parents could have atleast made an effort to hang out with me but no, they left me all alone in my house until 6:30! Aren't they wonderful! I cried most of the day because I was so lonely....Pathetic but true. Maybe tonight will be better, my father is finally with my mom and I out in Wyoming...I can hear him chopping away, that means I am going to be royally SUTFFED by 7pm tonight!! Too bad I am really hungry right now. It always happens! I get so hungry before dinner, snack all the way til' dinner, then eat dinner and then I can barily move!! Not to mention, I get pretty GASSY because I eat so many veggies(sorry for the gortesque details! haha). Thanks all for the birthday wishes! I really appriciate that, considering I did not get any in person, except for my sister!!! Oh ya! Tomorrow I get to work at the store from 9-5 HOPEFULLY some cute boys come into the store and ask to take me out on a night on the town! I have already gotten asked out by a 50 year old man, but I am thinking I need to find someone a little closer to my age! HAHA! We shall seee!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Well today is my 19th Birthday! Wahoo, but let me just say, birthdays are over rated! I havn't cried in about 3 weeks and what do you know, I cry today....Always, I always cry on my birthday! I guess it is tradition! haha! So tonight I am going out to a place called Nikai for dinner, which is a Japanese Fusion place which is amazingly delicious....but for some reason both of my parents are being bitter about going, and want to go somewhere else....SO I really dont want to go out to dinner with them, I just want to go out with my sister who actually appriciates my exsistance (so it seems!) Oh well, I guess I should go...Enjoy the rest of my day? Trapped in my Jackson Hole house in the middle of no where! I was proud of myself though, I did 13000 steps outside today (I am normally a treadmil rat) and then I finished up the rest of my steps on my "mouse wheel"...Thats good for me!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Oh jeeze, I am sure your all wondering how the first day of my first ever job was and let me just tell you I felt like such an idiot. I mean when people first meet me they get the slightest hint that I am a ditz...plus the blond hair does not help much, but I really do think all the guys I worked with on Monday thought I was completely stupid! (Granted they were all very nice to me and I tried to have a lot of conversations with them to get on their good sides) but I think secretly they think I will not be able to perform well in this job...and you know what they may be right: but I would never show that to them!

I have to memorize a lot of things for this job, but I am sure after a couple days I will get it. All my fellow employees have only just started working there too but it seems as if they have been on the job for their whole lives! Well I hope to get the hang of it as much as they do, and maybe even get a date outta one of them or someone who comes into the store. As a matter of fact there was a very cute guy who came in twice on Monday...Personally I think the second time was an excuse to see me again (who needs the reciept really!) but I may just be flattering myself: haha!--I advise everyone to flatter themsevles every so often because it really boosts your ego and gives confidence!!

Well my 2nd day of work is on Friday from 1-9pm...Why so long, I have no idea but maybe I will meet more different people who will not think I am a complete idiot! haha! We shall see and I will keep you all posted!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Gosh, Jackson Hole just brings out a whole different me! Its so nice and peaceful here and it is so nice to get off the treadmill and get out into the wilderness, it spices up the routine for sure! Plus walking out side gives both of my dogs excersice and makes them tired for the rest of the day...hitting 2 birds with one stone!! As for eating, I have been doing very well and not getting too bloated after dinners, which is really nice because being bloated is very uncomfortable! (As I am sure you all know!!) The reason I am probably not so bloated anymore is because my father is not here to cook me lavish meals, but he is coming out here in a week, oh gosh: good luck to me! haha! Tomorrow I start my first ever paying job: from 9-5!! Oh gosh, I will be selling pictures to people who want to capture the moment they went whitewater rafting! So if any of you come out to Jackson Hole, WY this summer....Be sure to white water raft and then come into Elavation Imaging and buy a photo from me!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Well after a 16 hour car ride I have finally made it to Jackson Hole, Wyoming....My mother, dogs and all my entire life lugged their way up to JH in my grey suburban from Santa Fe, New Mexico! It was quite a drive & took everything out of both me and my mother. The day we started (monday) we each got out excersice in (15,000 steps) and packed bison and elk meat for the road just in case we got hungry!(protien really tides you over!!) We also packed a head of cabbage and some other greens to nibble on just as a snack(works wonders with mustard squeezed on top). On monday we drove 9 long hours and made is all the way to Laramie, WY. Yesterday I woke up and for the first time in my life I said SCREW excersice and lets just get outta here(ok maybe not in my whole entire life but for the past 5 years or so!)...So yesterday I only managed to get (6ooo steps...which is NOTHING!!!!)= but we did spend a good 6 hours in the car so I did not care one bit! haha! Snacks in the car were once again elk and bison, which were more delicious the 2nd day! haha!(very glad we brought them!!)

SO now I am here in Jackson, preparing for dinner! I love dinner! Tonight I will have salmon and cod with salad! Yummy! And I got 21000 steps today so that made up for yesterday for sure!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Wow, I am starting to feel really really guilty, because I just ate some left overs from the refrigerator (since we are leaving today I did not want the food to go bad). I just ate: -10 oz. of Chilean Sea Bass (delicious) -A large stalk of broccoli -5 skinny aparagus -10 Cherry Tomatoes -1.5 c. Mixed greens -One grilled bell pepper

Granted I did not have breakfast so it was alright to eat that but still I feel guilty. It may be because my mom seems to be withering away in front of me so I feel as if I am a heffer compaired to her. The one thing I really do not want to happen is that she gets skinnier than me, but I know what will happen because she eats like a bird while I eat like a LIONESS of the Prowl! **NO JOKE!** I eat like there is no tomorrow! And you would think, that what I ate was not so bad because I will be going on a plane tonight, but ohh wait, my father ordered sashimi platters (4 of them) for the plane ride! One is suppose to be for me, my mom and my father and for a guest my father is bringing, but I know my mother will not eat any of hers because she "does NOT eat any meat at night" and my father does not eat very large portions so he will probably paun some of his food off on me as well, so once again I will be eating THE MOST and feeling super guilty, not to mention bloated and perhaps gassy, which is a HORRIBLE COMBO for a plane right!! **And on top of all my food worrying, I am worrying about all my bags I have to bring with me (since I am moving) and what I am missing/leaving behind on accident! How annoying! But I guess its life, atleast tomorrow @ 2:15 I have a scedualed massage at a world reknown spa that happens to be right aross the street from my house in New Mexico..hehe! But it probably wont be very relaxing because well, I will be thinking about driving up to WYOMING the very next day, GLORIOUS!!!

Well I guess I should not be too hard on myself about food because I just walked on the treadmil for 129 min. straight at a 14% incline at 4.2-4.6mph....and for the next couple of days I am not going to be gorging on a lot of food because I wont have the opportunity because Ill be in a car and such! So I guess I will just be keeping my metabolism guessing on how many calories I will be consuming!!!

The next time I write, Ill be in Wyoming....see you then!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Im really nervous about moving on Sunday and I really dont want to go to college! I really just want to finally get the BIG BREAK I have been searching for for so many years and forfill my life long dream of being a TV Personality/Actress/TV Correspondant or Model! But the way things are moving for me in my life, it does not seem as if any of those things will be happening! What can I do, it is so hard to break into this line of work, especially if you have no contacts!!!!! Does anyone have any advice for me! I am all out of luck and feel almost completely helpless. Not to mention I am so nervous and sad to move away from my comfort zone this Sunday...all of this stuff is building up inside!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Thats the BOD shot.....

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

So my mom is gone for another week and I am left alone once again but you want to know what I did to screw up my alone time...I got in a car accident so I have no wheels to cruise in! I have been bumming a ride off of my fellow intern(to get to work in the morning) and she has been so helpful and nice I am so greatful for her help! Next week I may try and drive my mother's HUGE expedition, but I dont know if I can handle that. My car was an explorer and even though they are both SUVs Expeditions are SO MUCH bigger!!!! I was so excited to be a lone too, so I could experiment with different recipes and such and go shopping when I felt like it, but I am sure I still can....if I drive very slowly in my mom's WHOPPER of a car! haha! My father will be around for the weekend....bring on the yummy high caloric food.....Sadly I havn't lost any of those 2 pounds that I gained, but I dont know maybe thats my body telling me that those 2 pounds need to be on my body...I dont know, I wish my body spoke english! haha! Tonight for dinner I had a LARGE LARGE salad with grape tomatoes and bell peppers(& greens of course) along with a SASHIMI PLATTER with 26 pieces of fish on it and some nori! Yum Yum, probably one of my fav. restaraunt dishes!! The woman at the take out place knows my order by heart, its embarassing but I dont mind, because she gets it right every time! Who would want to get an order delivered to their house and realize it was WRONG when they got there, NOT ME FOR SURE!!!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

This weekend was quite the eating fiasco! It was crazy how much food I ate in only two meals a day! On Saturday night I had a whole lobster, lots of cabbage salad, tomato salad and asparagus plus to start with a mussel broth: it was all so tasty, that is why I ate so much of it! On Sunday I ate a good 1 pound of salmon, six scallops and a 1/2 soft shell crab, along with a whole grilled eggplant and two grilled onions and asparagus and some salad and some grilled peppers On Monday I had left over salmon which was probably 1/2 pound of salmon, one soft shell crab and three scallops and then some more eggplant(a whole one) some grilled zuchinni, onions, one grilled pepper, a little salad, two leeks and some asparagus!

NO WONDER, WHEN I WENT ON THE SCALE IT SAID I GAINED TWO POUNDS<--BECAUSE I WAS PACKING IT IN AS IF I WERE NEVER GOING TO EAT AGAIN! Its pretty annoying though because every weekend I have these eating field days and it is all because my father is home and ready/willing to cook me anything my heart desires!

Today for my meals I had my normal eggwhite pancake I have talked so much about(its my morning staple), 4 oz of chicken for lunch, and 11 scallops&3 shrimp(in broth) with a medium sized salad(with flax-mustard dressing for dinner): so I tried to limit my food intake a little bit so I wouldnt feel so bloated and so maybe tomorrow morning I will have an appitite for breakfast! It stunk this morning when I was working out because I thought all the food I fed myself the night before would have fueled my work out but sadly it just sat in my stomach, like it sat in there all night like a big bowling ball....Hopefully thats not the case tomorrow and my hungry will fuel my work out to make me go harder! Must Think Positively!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Gosh here we go...Dinner tonight...there is going to be a lot of food...two guest are coming over...and I am geting a little nervous because for some reason I do not feel as if I am going to get enough food to eat...This always worries me but in the end I always get enough...I do not like having guests over because I feel as if they judge me when I eat...like I eat too much or something...Oh well I will just have to live with it because its not like I can kick them out! Tonight is LOBSTER NIGHT by the way, yum yum! Too bad I am ALREADY HUNGRY and our guests are not coming for another hour. Its really annoying when I get hungry before dinner because then I start snacking and I can NOT STOP...Only if I leave the room of course, that is why I try to stay on the computer as long as possible to occupy me! It stinks though because I can never stay on the computer long enough because my father always asks me to help him cook, which I love doing!! AHHH vicious cycle....or something!! Well when I live alone (or at school) I will probably wish that I was back home eating my fathers great cooking, so I probably should not complain about eating too much!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Ah, So I just peeked into the fridge about 10 min. ago and I know I am going to be eating A LOT TONIGHT! Since my brother came home my father has managed to buy practically the whole contence of WHOLE FOODS...although my father still fails to realize that my brother normally does not eat every much or ditches the family dinner to go out for drinks with his friends! haha, so...all that yummy food my dad bought is mine...which can be good and bad. Good because the food is delicious but BAD because I have been having a bloated week and the mind set that I gained weight. I dont think I have though, just water weight...probably from excess sodium and its just that one week in the month no one can ignore... Well I will let you know how my BINGE DINNER EATING goes. It always happens on weekends when my dad cooks, I go up for thirds and then to be a nice daughter I put all the food away(in the fridge but 1/2 goes into my stomach)-- its sort of embarassing the next day when my mom or dad ask me where the left overs are....Uhh the dog ate it I swear..RIGHT unless they consider me a dog!

**NEW PICS BELOW**

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

I feel like I am gaining weight and its not making me too happy. I try to conceal my annoyance about my feelings and I am actually doing a pretty good job. The only time I sort of talk about it is when I am around my mom but then she goes, "Are you becoming anorexic again?". I know I am not but I have this ideal body shape and weight and I want to keep it there. I eat healthfully constantly, but I guess my downfall is large portions! One would say just cut down on portion size then if you feel as though your gaining weight, but the thing is I CANT!! I feel that since I only eat select meats and veggies....I can eat as much of it as I want and I think I am going to keep that motto until things actually start to get really out of hand. I am just going to keep tellingmyself that its my "bloated" week and next week I will deflate a little bit! Oh and I have a two pictures to post...THEY ARE BELOW!! The 2nd one is me just screwing around! haha! Oh and ITS FRIDAY!!!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

WOW, I feel extremely guilty right now and as if the world turned on me (sort of) today... First of all --It has been raining VERY VERY hard for the past week or so...so thats depressing in itself --I had a boring day and was in a car most of the day --My TV got fuzzy --My mom used something of mine that I was going to use today --I dropped my eggplant outside(cooked...so it was sort of ruined) --My tv got fuzzy so now it is sort of screwed up --I screwed up the salad dressing on my mom and my salad.... --AND I FEEL REALLY GUILTY FOR THE DINNER I ATE!!!!!!!!!

So I guess the world did not turn on me that much but I am still a little depressed because I feel really unappriciated and I feel so guilty for dinner... I had chicken breast with eggplant and onions and a large salad with flax oil dressing(I screwed up the dressing..it was too spicey) but I just feel as if the chicken breast was dousted in chicken fat and such because my mother put a tomato sauce on top of the skin(it was in thebottom of the pan too) so I took some and put in on the chicken...I know this sounds SO pathetic but I cannot help but feel a little guilty... Its strange though because I normally dont feel guilty eating anymore but I guess I just do now because I am having a lousy day. Oh and I wont be surprised if I get horrible heart burn tomorrow morning because onions and eggplant tend to do that to me...BUT I CANT STOP EATING THEM BECAUSE: YUM! haha!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

A CLIP OF ME FROM TV...that was not the whole segment that was on TV BUT SOME OF IT..and theres me!!! http://www.news12.com/CT/topstories/article?id=176137#

Click Play the Video!!!!

My first day on the job and I get my 5 min. of fame! I hope it turns into 10 min, then 20...then maybe, uh the rest of my life! hahaha!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

I have a serious question to ask all of you, its about my symptoms I have had for quite some time: Ever since I was younger I have had trouble breathing. I have always had to clear my throat and it constantly feels as if half of my air-pipe is covered so I cannot fully breath. It affects me all the time, especially after eating and during excersice. I feel if I did not have half of my wind pipe covered I would be able to excersice even more efficeintly than I do now and I will be a much more energetic person(although I am to begin with) I have no idea where to start research. -Its hard for me to inhale -I constantly clear my throat to thepoint where I have to HACK and even then I cannot clear my throat....anyone have any ideas??

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Ah I am super excited because I got the internship I wanted at NEWS 12 Connecticut, which means I may very well be the next news-anchor or weather woman on Channel 12 in all of Connecticut! While reporting the weather takes getting up at 4 am...which is not exactly a joy...I may just want to do regular news broadcasting, but who knows, beggers cannot be choosers(although I would love to be!) Hmmm How will I fit in my work out routine? I love to work out in the morning and if I have to work 30 hours a week it wont be too hard, I mean 8-2 or 3 is a pretty LAX job, but we shall see! But all I know is that if I have to get up at 4 am to report the weather I sure as hell AINT working out before hand...after sounds just fine(considering it will still be morning! haha!) Another thing I have to work out is how to actually get to the studio every day. While I have had my liscence for a good 2.5 years, I still have never been on a SERIOUS highway like I-95 and I am a bit nervous, but this weekend my mother and I will scope out the route and see whats up....we shall see on that one too! I guess this means I have to start making my lunch again. I had such a nice routine (school over at 12:45...come home and make lunch when I got there..SO NICE)--But once again I just have to adapt to my new lifestyle of being a NEWS ANCHOR!(haha, ok ok maybe I wont be on film the 1st week or 2 of being an intern but my supervisor did tell me I have a large shot of doing so...SO WATCH OUT!!) Ill be the next Katie Couric YET!!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Northstarbison.com -- if your now interested in grass fed bison because of my last entry! haha! Blackwing.com -- ostrich, elk, bison, beef & poultry!!--VERY YUMMY too...great ostrich but I do not think that bison from this website is greassfed and that is CRUCIAL in order to get substantial amount of omega3 fats and CLA....grain fed meat is completely unnatural and NOT healthy!! Grass fed beef is also avalible if you type in grassfed beef on any search enginee: tons of sites will pop up! Be adventurous and take chances: you'll thank me later! haha!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Spring Break is on a roll, thats why I havnt been on here in a little while, I have been too busy you know, doing absolutely nothing and loving every minute of it! Actually I am in Jackson Hole, Wyoming right now: and it is such a beautiful bright and sunny day that I almost did not even make it on to the computer because the sites were too stunning!! I have been eatting like a heffer these past two days, but I only eat two meals a day. Breakfast: 2 cups of eggwhites with Rice Bran(1-2 scoops: 55 calories each) mixed in Dinner: about ONE POUND of bison(grassfed of course!!)--with SALSA or TOMATO PASTE mixed in, one large bowl of salad(mixed greens and cherry tomatoes) with flax. mustard dressing and steamed veggies too! I am so full right now but I am happy because my dinner was very yummy--I have eatten the same thing for the past two days, I am may just continue until I leave this sunday! WHY NOT!--Well if my weigh creeps up on the scale then I will know its time to cut back on my lovely dinner but...for now I am sticking to it. With my daily 15000+ steps I think I can handle my food intake, but only the scale can tell.....

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

LOVE IT!!! I sorta look like that guy! hah! Oh and a NEW PICTURE of me in below!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

WOW I THINK I ATE MORE CALORIES THAN A 3rd WORLD COUNTRY GETS IN A WEEK! I ate about a pound and a half of COHO Salmon, a whole eggplant(grilled), TWO SPANISH ONIONS, 1/2-3/4 head of CABBAGE WITH CILANTRO GINGER SAUCE, 3 CUPS OF PUTENESSCA SAUCE, 1/2 CUP OF BROCCOLI, and 1 SPOON FULL OF SALAD with FLAX OIL DRESSING....I AM SO GLAD I DID NOT COOK THE LEEKS OR I WOULD HAVE EXPLODED! RIGHT NOW MY STOMACH LOOKS AS IF I AM PREGNANT WITH TWINS BUT IT SEEMS TO ALWAYS GET LIKE THIA EVERY TIME I EAT A LOT AT NIGHT! I guess its my fault that when I put away food after dinner is over I sort of snack on it as it goes in the fridge! Thats my down-fall time! I cant help it because the food is SOOOO good! **Well I will just keep telling myself that it is OK to eat a lot of calories some times because it keeps your body guessing! Plus the putenessca was very spicey so maybe it REVVED up my metabolism? HAHA Yea, Keep thinking positively GIGI! hahaha! So HOW WAS EVERYONE ELSES DINNER...haha!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

AH yes, Quiet!! Thats right, I am home alone for the weekend (until tomorrow night) and I am loving every minute of it! Relaxing, Tanning, TV watching, Working out, COoking: with no one looking over my shoulder, how nice! Gosh if no one knew better they would think I am a mother of three: but really, I am only 18 years old! I peaked early when it comes to maturing, which could be both good and bad. GOOD: I can have mature conversations and be treated with more respect,I have more of an appriciation for things.... BAD: No friends @ school, I dont go out and party(I got that out of my system), I am not a night person(I go to bed the lastest 11)...

So I do not know which is worse. I think when I go to college I will reevaluate my life and my routines and try and be more adaptable! But for now I am just going to stick to my routine. Whats the point of making friends now when I have around 2 months left of school! Not even: Ihave 3 weeks in April and 1 in May...OK ONE MONTH LEFT of school! Who am I kidding, no point, no point at all making friends here, PLUS I do never plan on coming back to CT(my home town) after I graduating (only to help my mom and dad pack up the house...because they are moving out west too)... Wellwho knows, only time will tell and let me tell you time is going by pretty darn fast!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

I am nervous for next year but also very ready to be let out from under my parents wings to do my own thing. Granted I do do my own thing but I know it feels different to be away from your parents. I am quite the home body and I know I am going to be very homesick the first couple days, maybe even weeks: I have gone to boarding school and summer camps and all sorts of things like that so I know how it feels to be independant (I meant I am when it comes to school, work and even being around the house I like to be alone) but the thought of being away from my best friend(my mother) is pretty hard! Whats also hard is I wont have the luxuries I have at home at school: THATS for sure: no privacy!! and no cooking space!! I am going to go mad, but I will get used to it, change takes time to adapt to! So right now I just need to take advantage of the situation I am in, be greatful for what I have and cook/eat all the food I can eat! haha! Tonights dinner will be LOADS OF VEGETABLES (baby bok choy, purple cabbage, salad greens) and MEAT..of course (tuna--my moms left over from her dinner at the 4 seasons--I am skeptical on eating tuna because of the mercury but I have been good lately-- and sable fish)

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Gosh I know I look so young but I am 18!! Sometimes it drive me crazy when people ask me how old I am but I guess when I am in my 30s or 40s I will appriciate the young comments! So I guess I just have to take these comments as compliments!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Its the worst feeling to feel nauseous 24/7! I got up this morning at my usual 4:57am to work out on the tredmil(before school) and let me tell you it was trecherous!(sp??) Thank god I had a good book to finish(THE NANNY DIARIES)--Afterward I barly could eat half of my breakfast so I saved the rest of lunch. I made it through firt period in a daze and then went to the nurse to rest...I then made it to 1 1/2 more classes and returned to the nurse and finally got sent home! @ noon I took a nice hour nap that seemed to help a bit and finally ate some food that was not too too hard to get down. I ate the rest of my breakfast and a chicken patty(oh man I found some all breast meat chicken pattys@WHOLE FOODS mixed with spices that have 100 cal. a patty---they are amazing!!) and I actually do not feel so bad right now...Tonight its chicken soup: I always seem to feel better when I have chickensoup when I dont feel well so hopefully this time wont be ANY different! I hate feeling so crummy and it makes me angry because I eat so healthfully!!! But I have come to the conclusion that I think what gave me this food poisoning was this mustard in the frig. that was really old an dhad eggs in it!!! So I threw that AWAY!!!! SO I NEVER see it again!!! HOPEFULLY that was the problem so I never get sick again!!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

I feel so sick right now, I dont know if I should eat something because I could be hungry or wait it off? I managed to squeeze in the walking but man was that HELL!!! Oh man, I dont even know if I am going to be able to get up right now

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Bfast: one carton of eggwhites (approx: 8--- 2 cups) with rice bran (2 scoops-55 cals each) Lunch: one ELK patty- 157 calories Dinner: 1 onion, one head of cabbage, 1/2 bag frozen spinach, 8-10 oz of calamari,shrimp&bay scallops, 1/2 c. tomato sauce, red wine vinegar **THATS the extent of my food today: yum yum! Cant wait til tomorrow because my father is coming home just in time to cook me some dinner! I swear I live to eat not eat to live: its sort of pathetic, but oh well, a guilty pleasure I guess?...Its better than being addicited to drugs....Although some people consider food to be a drug! I had my personal trainer today(I desereve to eat alot....) and hes going to proprose to his girlfriend tonight! How lucky she is because my trainer happens to me the most genuinely nice guy I have ever met, I hope hope hope I meet someone as funny,charming and down to earth as he is! TOO bad I definately wont find someone like that around here in Greenwich, CT but I dont have to worry aboutt hat much longer because: I AM GOING TO COLLEGE next year in the best state in the US: COLORADO! Where all the down to earth outdoors loving people are! I cannot wait!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Let me reitterate how much I love SASHIMI! OHH MANN! haha! And the best part is, since theres NO RICE its around oh NO CALORIES! haha! Ok ok, maybe not NO calories, but a lot less than if it had RICE! I am not sure what else to write, I just wanted to drop a line because I have not been here for a little while. No good recipes....wait a min..JUST KIDDING I do have a sauce recipe I can share with you all: Cilantro, Ginger, Garlic, Olive Oil, White Wine Vinegar, Salt & a tiny bit of lemon juice....BLEND all of that together and put it on any WHITE FISH or VEGGIE you want!! Its delicious...be sure not 2 use 2222 much GINGER though because, a little goes a LONG WAY!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Wow I just had the most fabulous dinner! Well normally I do every weekend when my father is home! He just knows how to cook everything so well! Tonight he bought a wide variety of fishes and broiled them up and him and I concocked two different types of salsas/sauces to put on top... SAUCE #1: -cilantro -ginger -garlic -white wine vinegar -olive oil

SAUCE #2: -bell pepper (both red and yellow) -tomatillos -jicama -hot pepper -sesame oil -olive oil

Both delicious and DO NOT require any cooking! They actually taste pretty good on vegetables too! Wow, I love food, its a weird obsessive thing!! Oh and I also can never stop eatting good food once I start....When I was putting away the fish I managed to eat mostly the rest of it! Its embarassing but....true...I used to be afraid to admit that I finished up most of the fish or something but tonight I just came clean and I dont think anyone seemed to mind....But I think they should start telling me to stop because if I continue to eat more after dinner....well that wont be 2 good...But atleast I dont eat junk foods: all I eat is meat and vegetables...SO we shall see in a couple of years if I start to gain a lot of weight... Oh and by the way in 2 1/2 months: I AM OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL! I AM SO EXCITEDDDDD

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Woah, its 3:45 and it just hit me that I am so hungry, and I have 2 hours and 15 minutes until dinner: damn! Ah, well I guess I just need to keep on chewing the infumous ORBIT!! Pink, Blue, Green: whats your favorite type? Well I just came home from my winter break last night and today was the first day of SCHOOL once again, OH LAA tee DAHH! It was fantastic I tell you, just lovely! I went in fron 7:30 until 11:30 because from 11:30 until 1:15 I had no class, so I managed to get some extra work done and have a DE_LICIOUS lunch of SASHIMI!!! It was fabulous! Ok heres a POLE: what is your favortie type of raw fish??? mine are: salmon, escolar, eel(unagi), scallop (ebi..I think) and TUNA TAR TAR (with the egg and everything!!) I love all the weird fishes I tell ya, because also high on my list are clams, squids, roe, uni....THE WORKS!! I JUST LOVE FISH IN GENERAL!!! So Hmmm Obviously I am a bit hungry because I am going off on a tangent about FOOD! I hope I go to the grocery store today because I love going: its one of my favorite places! WAHOO! If not...I guess I will just stick to the frozen VEGGIES for dinner, that can always be good though! We shall seee!!!

Current Goal - -18 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!