So I think I have mono because lately I seriously feel as if I am going to keel over and die! If anyone of you have had mono, can you tell me what you felt like so I can get to the bottom of WHY I FEEL SOOOOOO CRUMMY and MISERABLE!
So Tonight I am thinking Sable Fish (Black Cod) for dinner...does anyone have any good recipes they want to share with me? Nothing too eleborate because I really do like Black Cods flavor alone...because it is super fatty :)
Normally what I do with it is just broil it and put it atop steamed veggies and let hte fat ooze ALL over the veggies so they taste GREAT too! haha! I cant believe I am already taking about dinner when it is only 11:45am...I havn't even eaten lunch yet! haha! - That will be 2 ostrich patties...just incase any of you were wondering!
But speaking of food again: TONIGHT = TOP CHEF FINALE...How sad! My all time favorite show is over!! Oh well, hopefully it will come back on the air soon enough!
Ok, So I have an EXTREMELY BAD HABIT of chewing like 6-7 packs of Orbit Gum (basically after 4pm) and it is starting to drive me crazy, because it is disgusting! ha! I used to chew like 4 packs and I am trying to downgrade, but at night when I am doing homework I just get too involved with what I am doing that I keep popping new pieces in my mouth! UGH! I know gum isn't all that good for you, but it def. helps my "sweetness" craving...No, I never do crave sweets but, I do crave the feeling "OK I am done eating now" and I have quite the oral fixation! haha! HA! It sounds like a smoke ciggs! Thank Goodness I dont though....Because I think chewing gum is a bit better than smoking....and at least this gum is sugar free...I wouldn't chew anything else considering I DO NOT EAT SUGAR (except for those found in veggies of course! :)
I hope you all havea good day: and dont forget about a recipe for me: oh and by the way...I do not like soy-glazed black cod or whatever EVERY restaurant makes= its too sweet!! (So something else besides that please! LOL)
i plan on only sticking to my goals for 3 months because I always like change and switching things up keeps me motivated. When its the New Year will be a perfect time for me to regroup - assuming I have met my goal! :)
You asked how I cook kale...I cook it many different ways...boil it and then fry it in a pan with some cooking spray, or I'll just bake it in the oven if I have something else baking in there...but I have to watch it an not let it get crispy lol
Hey everyone! It has been a bit since I have written a legit note on my diary! I just wanted to say that my school's football team: THE BUFFS just won against Oklahoma...which is pretty significant...because, uh well..I have no idea but I people are screaming "I am king of the world"..."I can't believe it"....non stop right outside my window...so I think that qualifies this as a significant win? HA HA! Anyways: who gives a crap about football...(SORRY to all those who love it! haha!)
In other news, I have been working non-stop on homework: because I have SOOO much to read it is almost...not it is, rediculous! I am so scared for my midterms that are coming up mid-October! I don't know what to do! Well, I think I should study of course, and still go to the gym so I can releave my stress because I know I will have tons. Hopefully I will focus some what on eating too because if I dont I will lose a ton of weight and what I want to do is MAINTAIN! When I am away from home I do not use olive oil in my cookings (or have flax seed oil dressing on my salads) because those OILS are too expensive for me to buy - and I think not using them contributes a bit to weight loss, but luckily I am still balanced on my weight, and if it ever went down, I would just PILE ON MORE MEAT! hahaha! ON TOP OF the already 2 pounds or more I eat a day! hahahaha! That is just fine with me!
I did the treadmil today which is a nice change from the elliptical, plus it is good for me because I need some more weight bearing activites for my bones! I am still doing weekly weight lifting but...I need a bit more than that!! :)
How is everyone else?!
**Later Saturday Evening: POST DINNER: WOAH I JUST MADE MYSELF THE BEST DINNER EVER!!! So I am sure I have told you ALL about the bison brats that I get from North Star Bison: well I had them today and sauteed onions & bell peppers along with them and WOAH: AMAZING! Probably because these brats are a bit more fatty that what I am used to: but the fat is GOOD FAT because this bison is grass fed! YUM! Everyone needs to get out the northstarbison.com website!!!
The fact that it's grass fed may make you feel better that it's not living in a dirty, nasty, crowded feedlot before it's slaughtered, but it's still beef and it's the same kind of fat that's in the cheap ground beef down at the local grocery store.
Saturated fat is not an essential fat--speaking for the human body;-)
Have a good one!
Hope that inspires you! It's really very basic, you can change things around as you like....Enjoy!
Also I just read an article about a type of beef being produced here in Texas that is like what you're talking about--higher in fat, but the fat is considerably healthier because of the increased beneficial fatty acid content. It's derived from a crossbreed of Angus and a Japanese breed called Wagyu. (You may be familiar with exorbitantly-priced Japanese Kobe beef--where the cattle are treated like spa patrons complete with massages--haha!) Anyway, in the article it mentions that the demand for these types of beef far outweighs the supply--I hope that changes soon--so the prices will drop! And Kobe beef must be exported--the cattle themselves haven't been imported.
I personally haven't had a decent-tasting steak in forever--I remember the beef we had when I was little and it actually had a distinctive flavor.
No, I don't watch Desp housewvs--watched it once the first season--not really my cup of tea!
That your period has ended and that you have osteoporosis at such a young age should be a RED ALERT that something is drastically wrong with your diet. You have totally omitted one of the major food groups from your diet.
The longer this continues, the worse your situation will be. What good is it to weigh 95 lbs. when your body is in menopause at age 19-20? As for your bones, I simply can't imagine how much pain you will suffer from osteoporosis nor how many broken bones you will have.
I hope you come to your senses about what a dangerous course you are on before it is too late.
WHAT THE HECK IS THE secret to making your food taste a bit garlicy when cooking with it! Whenever I cooke with it, it does not make ANY DIFFERENCE!! Gr!!!
Wish Me Luck! I have my first Weather & The Atmosphere test today! I studied a lot yesterday, but who knows if it stuck, when I get to the test and read the questions: that is the only time I will know whether my studying paid off or not! ha! Yesterday I have some more weight training! It was great! I love my trainer, she is 24 and we have a lot in common. We are even going to go hiking together soon (even though I hate hiking, I would go with her because she is really cool). There are a few male trainers at my gym too who are roughly 25 years old and sort of cute, but they all have girlfriends, so I sort of put them off in the "maybe" pile...haha! Last night I chewed WAY to much gum for my own good and boy was I paying for it when I went to bed, my stomach looks pregnant with three kids and I was gassy as all heck! haha! But the amazing part was that I was not bloated after I had dinner, but the second I chewed like 2 packs of gum, I knew I was going to get bloated: sadly, chewing gum for me is like smoking for others: it is just really addictive and I cannot stop! Although, on Friday nights I always force myself to not chew any gum because these are the nights I go out: yes, I have designated Friday nights to party nights: even though I dont drink or anything: I can have fun without alcohol for sure! :) I hope everyone has a GREAT weekend! I'll try my best to do the same! :) **Oh baby, my legs are a bit SORE from all the squats and lunges I did yesterday....hmmm!**
I DID WEIGHTS TODAY! I had a complimentary weight session today because I signed up for a gym membership to the gym I told you all about: One Boulder Fitness...and it was great: my trainer was so nice and only 23 - 3 years older than me, which was great because we talked about everything!!! Hopefully I get to know her better so we can hang out out of the gym! She seems really into working out too which is great! Because I had such a good time I think I am going to sign up for 5 - 30 minute session and do one a week because it is kinda pricey so....yea, I want to LENGTHEN them as much as possible...I am just thinking about my bones and want to build more muscle mass! Tonight my roomie/best friend and I planned on going to sushi, and of course we cannot BACK OUT of those plans so we went!!! My order: Sashimi Deluxe Combo (24 pieces) Grilled Wild Salmon Green Salad with no dressing (6 oz. piece of salmon) 3 sashimi slices of Anago Eel 4 sashimi slices of Unagi Eel **ALLL SOOOOO DELICIOUS: and I was actually REALLY FULL after I finished which is surprising because normally I could eat sashimi all day! But I bet I will be hungry by the time I go to bed! haha. My friend had.... Miso Soup A Deep Fried Orgasum Roll= california roll wrapped in salmon with sweet soy sauce and broiled in a cream sauce Anago Eel Nigri (2) Unagi Eel Nigri (2) Fried Tempura Banana Split ** Despite her having less food than me, I wonder who ate more calories?! Ha Ha! All in all it was delicious, and just highlighted that sashimi is AMAZING!!!!!!!!
Everyone who loves Bratwurst/Sausage but steers clear of the stuff because it is unhealthy & fatty: need to go to northstarbison.com and order their Leek-Onion Brats because they are the BEST in the world! And THEY ARE ALL BISON: with NO SUGAR! What can get better than that!! PS: Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Ha! Another Big Salad for dinner tonight! And I think it was bigger than last nights: No...I know it was! hahahaha!!! -Salad Greens -Cherry Tomatoes -Bell peppers (2) -Water Chestnuts -Roasted Green Breans -Roasted Asparagus -Roasted Summer Squash -Canned Artichoke Hearts & then I picked up some salmon sashimi at Wild Oats and had some Eel Sashimi that was in the fridge, and of course wrapped the pieces in NORI!! Yummy, but now I am very full: and chewing gum which is going to make me even more bloated but, I dont think I am going out tonight, SOO I can POP a squat on the couch...haha, plus my roomate is going to her boyfriends house tonight so if one...EKKS out then, I wont feel so bad! haha!...Thank God for FABREEZE!!!
******OH and BY THE WAY to all those who read I have osteoporosis because of not having my period and such: well....I got my period back because of the birth control I have been using! One step closer to getting better perhaps?!******
I want you to know that I didn't mean to hurt your feelings.
roasted veggies = heaven! :)
I love BIG SALADS! Tonight instead of going to a grocery store salad bar...I made my "own". -Mixed Greens -Canned Green Beans -Artichoke Hearts -Cherry Tomatoes -Bell Peppers -Olives -Roasted Zuchinni & of course mustard as a "dressing"...Oh and for protein, can ANYONE guess what I had...common now, it is my FAVORITE FOOD and I probably eat it 5 times a week....I will post it as soon as I see some guesses! haha!! ***
OK, I know this is probably wrong, but you are eating it all the time, and frankly I don't know how you do it because I can only eat this source of protein once in a while (like once a week). MY GUESS IS: Salmon.
Don't keep us in suspense for too long! ;-)
Have a good one!
You seem to have eliminated carbs and the whole grain group of foods from your diet. I don't think that's a healthy thing to do, plus - have you thought that by eating this way you might have caused your ovulation problems?
Please, check out the article I mentioned in my Sept. 4th entry. Maybe there is some helpful info in it.
Well today was a fiberific day!!!!!! I went out to lunch with an ex-boyfriend/on&off hook up...and we went to Wild Oats...I got a nice 1.5 pound salad that consisted of: greens, peppers, artichoke hearts, water chestnuts, chicken & turkey & tuna and cherry tomatoes...thank god I got the small container because if I got the larger one I surely would have gotten a 3 pounds salad, and that is not something I want to eat mid-day, unless I want to feel bloated and sluggish the rest of the day! After lunch I went to Whole Foods to go shopping for groceries, but of course before I left I picked up some prepared foods so I could eat them for dinner tonight: which I just finished: YUMM! So my dinner salad tonight was around 2.5-3 pounds and it consisted of: salmon (1 grilled fillets), kale (with sesame seeds), grilled eggplant, grilled onions, a bell pepper, 2 cups of cherry tomatoes, some greens and then I had some nori too....thank goodness I do not really count my calories or I would be EXTREMELY GUILTY! Well I did do a lot of exercise today: I worked out at the gym (cardio for 96 minutes) and then I walked around for 2-3 hours and I walked back to my apartment with groceries and a heavy backpack(full of groceries too). What I really need to do though is take advantage of my gym membership & work out with a trainer 1 to 2 times a week!!!! But when I go to the gym, it is early in the morning and I am not very social at that time of the day, so signing up for training is not 1st on my list: I sort of just want to get in and out of there...they do have classes that I could take too, but I am more of an independant exerciser...so we shall see!!! Now I am going to digest....if I can....I probably will just chew way to much gum, get really bloated and gassy and hope to god my roomie cant smell me too much: good thing she is going to see her boyfriend soon! hahaha! Let the Smells Begin! HAHAHAHAHAHA! gross.
glad you had a good date...or was it? sounds like good for, loving the grilled veggies.
have a good day today at school!
Actually, you could probably get away with only doing 2 sessions with a trainer. One is instructional and the other one is a follow-up, a few weeks later.
And I am sorry, but I think that my fiber intake is higher than yours, even though you eat all those vegetables. I get a significant amount of fiber from the whole grains that I eat (21g from my morning cereal, 10g from my low carb tortilla, 10g from my Fiber One bar, and then 20 g from the fruits and vegetables that I eat throughout the day. And I do eat a LOT of fruits and vegetables.).
However, if you disagree, I have no problem with 2 reigning Fiber Queens, seeing as we both qualify as Cardio Queens as well ;-)
Ah yes, Thursday...no class! How lovely...Tuesday and Thursday I do not have any classes which is amazing because it helps me regroup and organize what I need to get done...Since it is the first week of school I dont have too much to do...except a lot of reading, so that is what my day is being filled with today. I am almost done reading for one class, but then I will have to read for another class, but thats not due til Wednesday of next week so why bother with that now! haha! So I was worried I wouldnt be able to get packages of frozen meat since I am living at an apartment but I can...I dont even need to sign for it apparently...even though the lady I ordered from told me I did, oh well! I am glad I was here to recieve it anyways, I wouldnt want anyone else in the apartment complex to steal my goods! hahha! So my package had 10 pounds of ground ostrich, 10 pounds of ground round bison & 5 pounds of bison bratwusts! Yummy! Now I feel completely at home! With a Wild Oats right next door to my apartment building, my ostrich & bison in the freezer and my awesome gym where I dont have to wait....I feel just fine...now lets hope I can feel "just fine" about my classes that will probably kick my butt!! Only time will tell! Although I have not even been gone for a week...my father is coming to visit me tonight. He drove my brother to school at Colorado College and I guess decided he liked Boulder better, so will be coming to visit me later tonight after he unpacks all of my brothers stuff at his new place...which is supposively GROSS! I am glad I dont live with a bunch of messy senior guys....on second though, maybe I do? haha! I have been cooking tons of awesome food too, I love having my own kitchen to experiment. Last night I baked Eggplant and Onions and 1/2 way through spread tomato paste over the eggplant slices, seasoned them again and then spread cut on chicken over the top and cooked it in the oven some more (about 10 mintues) and Vooi-LA!! I had a nice large side salad to go along with that too: and boy was I full after that! I put like 25 drops of beano in some water which actually helped but my damn gum chewing habit is what really causes me to be gassy, but I am not going to give up my gum so I am just going to have to deal with it! haha!
Good luck on your classes this semester. Isn't it great being the master of your cooking domain and not reliant on food service to provide decently cooked vegetables and meats? When I was in college, they would serve "cheesy chicken chests" and something that looked like "Scooby snacks". Time to hit the salad bar!
Well, guess where I am...my new apartment. My roomie and I are watching some tv because we are exhausted and well, school starts tomorrow (for me atleast)... I cooked my first meal here, well sort of...I was kinda too lazy to "cook cook" so I just broiled some steelhead trout and made a raw veggie salad: both things were amazing!! Also I bought a bit of sauteed spinach with shallots & mushrooms from wild oats: yummy!!! Def. something I could get again or perhaps try making myself! My roomie made herself some steak, rice & sauteed mushrooms, tomatoes & spinach: which also looked good but her steak was one dollar: talk about NASTY! I would NEVER touch anything that cheap!!!! I am sure that it has been sitting on the shelf for about a month!! Icky! Oh well, I guess some people just dont care as much about health as I do! I tried some beano tonight, and I am not sure if it is acutally working or not considering....I eat WAY more portions of problem foods than the bottle can even imagine!! They say 5 drops per serving but I probably ate like 10 servings!!!! So 50 drops??! I might as well just take a SWIG from the bottle! haaha! All else is good, and I got a halibut & salmon kabob for dinner tomorrow night because after classes tomorrow I am going to be dead tired!!!! Oh I also got a gym membership because I can not trust my gym @ school.....I will let you know how the gym is tomorrow! If you wannna check out the site go to: Oneboulderfitness.com
yup...your meal sounds FANTASTIC! i know what you mean when problem foods strike...i've been experiencing similiar problems lately!
I agree with the comments on Beano. I have the same issues with some foods causing that pesky problem and I might as well buy the beano in gallon size for all the good a drop or two does me!
Thanks for all your concerned words! I am hoping that with the help of birth control, estrogen & pergesterone will start up again which will help my bones become stronger...I know I probably won't get my period back...for awhile...but I really just want to help my bones get stronger. On a completely different note, I am back in Boulder, Colorado ready to take on my sophmore year of college. I got here on the 22nd, and today my mom and I are going to do some serious shopping. I moved into my first ever apartment yesterday and after a little rearranging of my room, it actually looks alright. I came furnished but of course the furnishings were not exactly "expensive" looking...one of my dressers is even 1/2 chewed on, but oh well, I will just have to make the best of it! Atleast I have my own room and my own kitchen & a tv/living room!!! I am still sort of scared about the whole partying and drinking thing because I HATE that scene but I know if I dont partake in it AT ALL then I will be very anti-social! Ugh, what to do? While everyone is getting ready to go out at 11pm, I am getting ready for bed! Man! I sound so much different than when I was a sophmore in high school, but things change, people change, I changed...and I Have accepted that...I just still want to be social yet not go out too much....
Well, at least this year you won't have some snotty food service worker giving you a hard time for the choices and quantity of foods that you select.
i feel like hormones play a role in our social behavior and desires. what do you think?
Well I have one week left until I have to go back to Boulder and get settled in before Aug. 27th when the first day of classes begins! I have classes on Monday, Wednesday & Friday from Noon until 4:50...except on Friday I have class from Noon until 3, which is not bad because it is always nice to get out of class a bit early on Fridays! Wish me luck, because although I am taking oly 12 credits, I am enrolled in a 6 credit Humanities class which is going to be REALLY hard...I can already tell because when I went to check out the books I needed for that class: there was 14!!!!! Can you believe it, 14!!! HAHA, I am not prepared for that! I hate reading! 3 books is overloading it for me! I bought all my books for my classes and the total was $400!!! Yipes! Hopefully I get some of that money back when I return the books at the end of the semester, but oh wait, I will just have to buy a whole new set of books for second semester! ha! I have started to pack....well actually not really, because uh..well I am procrastinating! I do not want to leave, but at the same time I really wanna get out there and do things on my own again! I love my parents and all but I need to just do things for me again and meet new people! On a completly different note, I went to the doctor the other day and the doctor thought I was very strange because I do almost 2 hours of exercise a day, but oh well! I am not going to stop just because she though I was weird. She did tell me to go get a bone density test - I have had one done before and it said I had osteoperosis - so I went after my check up to radiology and got another bone scan. Normally the technitions dont show you the results, but I gave my technition the "puppy-dog pout" and he showed me....and it was not good. I still have osteoperosis really badly and I believe it is due to the fact that I have no estrogen in my body, this is moment in time I am a 20 year old girl with menopause! So I was perscribes birth control to the estrogen & pergesterone flowing again - something I should have done awhile ago - so we shall see what happens. I am also going to take a lot more calcium too - I already take tons of vitamin D & K - and we shall see what happens! Wish me luck! I hope I don't fall over and break something!!! Yipes!
i assume you would never change your diet. however, what if someone told you that you could improve your health if you did? I'm just curious...not trying to change your lifestyle. if you think about it in the long term, you've only been eating your way for a few years of your entire life...and, depending how you want to live, a few short years compared to how long you have left.
does having osteoperosis scare you? can you see it...or is it only visible by the test?
you saying this makes me want to take a density test as well. although, i do get calcium and dairy in...which i'm sure has helped me to preserve my bone health. however, like i said, i have dieted and still do many things that affect my own health in negative ways.
sometimes, we just worry about weight. a number on a scale...even though much more things play into our overall health.
for me, i have no urge to ever have a child of my own...i just wouldn't want to bring a child into the world after all i have done to my body. some people might think this is crazy, but that's me. how do you feel about this in your situation? without estrogen and the proper hormones, a person can't get pregant. I know someone that used to be anorexic and she can never have a child.
I had your condition..of not having a period...for about 3 years (but during those years i did take some medication to induce hormones a couple times.)
however, like you said you should have done that earlier, so should i. it isn't healthy to not have those hormones...not healthy mentally or physically. it is not worth the health problems to refrain from being on birth control and possibly loose more calcium that way.
btw, in my journal you mention the importance to think positively, even if things aren't going that way...i couldn't agree more...
lately, i'm just "forcing" myself to go out and enjoy life. It's sooo difficult for me to do that, when i don't know what my fate is, looming aroudn the corner! thanks for the helpful advice.
Dealing with infertility isn't fun, either. I'm not trying to scare you, but I am going to tell you that you need to try to reverse the effects of osteoporosis and low estrogen as soon as possible! I wish someone would have told me that 10 years ago when I was so stuck on being thin and athletic that I didn't care when my periods stopped.
It's serious, GG. See a good doctor and try to get to the root of the problem---taking birth control is only a bandaid solution. (yeah, I did that, too, for a couple of years...it didn't help)
I hope you don't think I'm being critical...i'm not. I just don't want to see you go through some of the same stuff I've gone through, simply because you want to be super-skinny. It's soooo not worth it.
Ok so this is like the BIGGEST picture in the world but it is ALSO the cutest: just wait, you will not regret it! haha! We decided to name our new puppy Loki! So here he is!!!
This is my sister's new puppy that is coming today!! We do NOT have a name for him! ANY IDEAS?! QUICK! haha!
Have a good one!
As much as it pains me to get up at 6:15 in the morning to do my 98 minutes on the elliptical trainer; it feels MARVELOUS afterward! Yup, that is what I did this morning. I woke up at 6:15 and did the elliptical for 98 minutes straight because I knew I had to get a lot of things done in the morning. I was finished with my work out completely by 8:02am, which has not been the case in a very long time! I actually really like doing that because then I feel as if I have not wasted the whole day working out! And if I need to, I can go right back to sleep after I finish working out. I know for some people...sleeping after working out just cannot be done, but I can certainly do it! It is so weird when I wake up and dont have to work out...I love it, I feel like a "normal" person: haha although these days I consider working out in the morning the NORM! Hopefully I get up early tomorrow morning too...but then again I dont really need to because I dont have anything planned... This morning I drank a 16 oz. sugar-free energy drink (Rip it) and a 12 oz cup of black coffee! And let me tell you: I was going Psycho!!!! HAHAHA! Sometimes I get sick from doing this but today I was alright, plus getting coffee was an excuse to talk to my "crush" who works next door to the place I have been working this summer: hehe! Although I must say I am VERY unlucky in the guy department and even though I tell my sister to give this guy my number about every 5 seconds: SHE DOESNT! She obviously wants me to NEVER have a relationship...or a one night stand! HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
i don't want to eat this way. i can't help myself...or i can, but i'm just not trying hard enough. it's a really BAD habit!
that's a lot of caffeine! i don't know how you do it! meaning, sometimes, when i have all that caffeine, i get really shakey! does that ever happen to you! you should go and introduce yourself to the guy...or ask him a question...like where he goes to school or something! maybe you're a good match!
Did 108 minutes on the elliptical trainer today...98 of those in a row! I love when I have things to read while I work out because it really makes it go by a lot faster! For lunch I had ostrich and buffalo: Oh yummy, ostrich is my new favorite but of course grass fed bison & beef are still up there too!! Oh man, they just melt in your mouth (& not in your hand...haha, I had to do it!) Tonight we have having my sister & her boyfriend over for dinner so we are making a little bit more elaborate of a meal. I think we are spatch-cocking a chicken on the grill...you cut the chicken to make it flat so it can grill more even on the grill and we are also poaching halibut in the oven "gratin" style SANS cheese! Tomatoes, Fennel, Onions & Garlic will make up the poaching liquid...yum yum! I have to try and not snack before dinner but I know that I will because my sister and her boyfriend ALWAYS come over later in the evening than I like to eat so I am sure I will eat at like....8 or 9 tonight which I HATE but....what can I do! I complain enough about it that I dont need to complain about it in front of my sister & her boyfriend. I need to accomodate: but breaking my routine is hard! hahaha! Oh well, I will have to SUCK IT UP!
So this past weekend, with my parents gone, my sister came to live with me so she could help me take care of my dogs! It was really great having her around and despite helping her with all her work - for her job - this weekend it was still fun. She came Thursday night and stayed until this morning, I do not think she will stay tonight because her boyfriend is coming back from a road trip, with my dad - long story, tonight...But for the past 4 mornings we have been getting up at 6am and walking 8 miles with my dogs! It has been great for both her, my dogs and of course me too!! My sister works out but when I am with her I push her to the max so I think she felt really good these past few mornings. It is sad that now that she is going to go live back at her house, she is going to go back on her old routine of not pushing herself enough to get a god work out...Oh well, I tried to teach her and hopefully with these past walks...she will realize how much she likes breaking a sweat & having sore muscles...and not to mention walking 8 miles - 15,000 steps...if you are wondering! haha! I really had fun with my sister and it is sad that this whole summer I have not hung out with her much. Its not completely my fault though, she works AROUND the clock! It's Nuts! But I guess that is just how some jobs are: I am helping her out a lot this summer too with her job...I am her "intern" and let me tell you being an intern sucks for this company! haha! I fold 4000 brochures at a time or some sort of task like that. RIght now my task is to fold, insert & stuff cards into envelopes...and do you want to know how many I have to do?? 4000 thousand..Oh and guess when it is due?! TOMORROW! HAHAHA: I would "jump on that" but my sister's boss is a slacker so not EVERYTHING is printed! WTF do they expect from me! COmmon, I am not even GETTING PAID!! Oh well, I have done some of them so that is good but still...talk about NO LIFE! haha!!
"No Life"...yeah, it's difficult to understand sometimes what life is supposed to really be like as we get older. some people say that life is just a lot of work with many obligations and brief periods of relaxaion. other people disagree. I know one thing, it definitely takes getting used to...as a person gets older, to understand and decide how they want to life their lives. Exercise is soooo important to me...and i feel that it is not something to be sacrificed...like i have in the past!
ARGH!!!!!!!!! The damn AC in this house is OUT OF WACK for sure because its pushing 80...and does anyone know how much is SUCKS to try and sleep in 80 degrees!! I have not slept in the past 3 days because of this and last night was the worst!! I was up every hour tossing and turning! I was also trying to get my self to just go work out but then when I finally was "ready" the slightest bit of "sleep" came over me and I would push it off. So far I have done 82 minutes and it is only 10:20...normally at this time I am working on an hour or so, so I did get my self out of bed a bit earlier: actually..it was not me, it was the cleaning ladies who rang the door bell @ 7:50am! Lovely, right in the middle of the hours I can actually sleep for some reason...but oh well. I do not have anything to do today besides babysitting my dogs (I am stuck at my house because there is construction on my road that blocks me from leaving) so I think I will be able to get some napping into my schedule! Tonight I think my sister is coming over to stay for the weekend. My parents are out of town again so I am with my dogs this weekend and she is going to come and help me with them. I have to LARGE German Shepherds who I can HARDLY control, but my sister has a way with dogs so she will be able to help me!! my dogs also have umm...diarrea problems at the moment so mostly all I have been doing is cleaning up their POOp! Yesterday one of my dogs went in the CAR!! So I cleaned as much as I could yesterday and today am going back with some Laundry Detergent...anyone have any tips?! I know not exactly the most plesant thing to talk about but...Sh** Happens...HAHA no pun intended!! LOL
Been there, done that.
You may think then it's going to smell like vinegar--the vinegar dissipates fairly quickly. Also, baking soda is a good odor neutralizer and vacuums up easily.
Why do the dogs have diarrhea? Are you making sure they have plenty of water?
For cooling yourself off while trying to sleep (this actually worked for me once in a 90+ apartment), get a bag of frozen peas, corn, whatever and put it on your neck. If it gets too cold, wrap a towel around it. I was able to get a little sleep this way. A fan only goes so far when you're circulating hot air:-) Fortunately the AC was repaired within a couple of days.
Good luck!
i read how you said that you don't ever think you would get married because you like your private/alone time. wow. i say that because sometimes i think the SAME EXACT thing! It's scary to me. I don't really want to be alone my whole life. but, i honestly do believe there is someone for everyone. I have a friend who's picky with food and just got married. She and her husband eat together, but eat different foods. They are great companions and don't need to do everything together, all the time! I could never be in a relationship where the other person is constantly by your side with no indepenent time from one another...and i'm sure you feel the same way about those types of relationships. I hope that thinking about being a nurse is not me running away from my current career just because a job isn't being handed to me on a silver platter. I am so frustrated and confused right now...because i want to be successful at something and like...but i'm confused what i really like and success hasn't arrived.
Good luck with the doggie dilemna. It seems that donkey and biscotti have some great tips. I'm not a dog owner...although maybe one day - in a long time from now!!!
Last night we had my sister's birthday dinner at this great and expensive restaurant called The Snake River Grill....it is my family's favorite place to eat and it seems to now be a tradition to go there on my sister's birthday! It was a good night, although at first I was in a bad mood - but I got over it and decided to be social! Normally when I go to this restaurant I get the elk chop: but it just so happened that I had an elk chop for lunch, that my father made the night before...so I was not in the mood to have another - although I did try a bite of my mothers' and let me tell you: my father's version = WAY BETTER!!! Instead, last night I had the special...Lobster! it was over pasta and such BUT I asked out waitor - who has waited on us for the past 10 years - to substitue the pasta with steamed spinach and sauteed brocollini, and my wish was granted! Gotta love waitors who understand your requests & substitutions!! Everyone seemed to enjoy their food and was STUFFED after they finished, but when I was done: I could have ordered a 2nd entree!! I only had 6 oz. of lobster: sauteed brocollini & steamed spinach- and let me tell you since this restaurant is not exactly "family style" the portions were NOT ALL THE BIG: and we all know how much I like BIGGGG PORTIONS!! So last night I went to bed very hungry and this morning I feel emptier than ever: which is a good feeling considering my last entry I was completely bloated! The only problem with going to bed hungry is that...the work out the next morning is VERY HARD! I just finished 100 minutes and let me tell you...it was TORTURE!! ugh, but it is over now: and I think since it felt harder than normal, I burned more calories...I was sweating like a sprinkler! hahaha!! ** I will update more later, because I try to keep entries sort of short so everyone who reads them do not get bored or lost!! Hope EVERYONE IS GREATTT!!
I'm glad your waitor knew precisely what you wanted...and boy, that sounds great with the lobster over broccolini and spinach. Great alternative to pasta. You know what i also think could have been good: brussel sprouts and asparagus. do you eat those? brussel sprouts...i love when they are even a little crispy..when they are really cooked well done! btw, i've been eating lots of kelp lately!
BLOATED - YES! Happy with the bloating - NO!
Well I knew I was going to be bloated today- so at least I was sort of prepared. Last night we gorged on our FAVORITE FEAST - King Salmon with Clam,Scallop & Shrimp Sauce!!! YUMMY! I have been waiting for this meal for some time and my dad and I decided to make it last night because we have guests staying with us for a few days so why not impress them with this amazing food! And boy was it a hit: our guests would not stop regailing!!! Thankfully they dont have as big of a stomach as I do so I was able to go back for 2nds, 3rds...and a tiny bit of 4ths! haha, see I told you I know exactly WHY I AM BLOATED! haha! Shockingly enough there is still about.....10 oz left...I think, and I may eat it for lunch because tonight I am cooking for a BBQ at my sister's house because its her pre-birthday party...WHile my birthday was hardly recognized, she has like 5 parties! haha! Oh well, she sort of set the whole thing up so it's not like it was any sort of "surprise"....So we got about 3.25 pounds of salmon last night and I think amoung 3 people 1.5 pounds of it was consumed, and then I ate about a pound of it...because my mom gave me her portion: have I ever mentioned she has a hard core eating disorder? haha! Well...you know what has to be done now after such a nice elaborate meal: DISHES! yes, they are waiting for me! Oh lovely! Thankfully I have already done the BULK of my work out - I have 10 minutes left - so I can do the dishes now and then go back for my last stretch and it won't be so bad!! I think washing the dishes may be the harder task!! haha!
Exercise: 103 Minutes...perhaps more if I gain some motivation, but eh, my couch seems a bit more enticing! haha! **So my parents are back from their 2 week stint, and I am both happy and sad that they are home. Sad because I did like my freedom of going at my own pace and doing/eating whenever I pleased. But I am happy they are home because the noises that would randomly occur at night were keeping me up all night scared to death, now if I hear any such noises I can blame it on my parents and sleep peacefully. **I kept the house is very good shape while they were gone, but today we spent the whole morning trying to fix the garbage disposal(it wont close all the way) and fix the freezer(the fridge was colder)....Oh how lovely it is to try and help my parents when they dont have a clue what they are doing. I wonder how they survived 27 years of being married without slitting eachother's throats! haha! I think it was because my father traveled(he is retired now-Since Dec. 2006) a TON and my mom was a OBGYN(about 6 years ago...) **This weekend (Sunday) is my sister's birthday so in honor we are going to have a BBQ at her house on Saturday night...it will be nice, but of course the cooking is going to be left to me and no one is going to help which in the end is going to piss me off to no end because when no one helps me...I feel like my hard work is very unappriciated. Oh well, We shall see how that goes. **Eh, my life otherwise has been pretty uneventful, still working two jobs that make me want to pull out all my hair when I am at them because they are so mundane and are full of tedious tasks....lovely, but I guess we all have to do things we dont want to sometime, am I right....kinda like exercise?! But I associate exercise in my life like brushing my teeth: It gets done EVERY DAY no matter what! I mean who wouldnt brush their teeth for a day: kinda gross...in my mind.
Thank you for empathizing with me on why I found my bus tour of Scotland so irritating. Perhaps if I had time to exercise at the gym, but there was no time (and no facilities where we were staying, as we changed hotels every other night).
WHO DOESN'T LOVE THE FEELING OF BEING DONE WITH A WORK OUT!!! I just finished my 101 minutes on the elliptical trainer - the one I have at my house is stuck at the resistance of about 5 - and let me tell you: at first I thought I was not going to survive, but I made it through and probably will do more later because today I have absolutely nothing to do!! I dont even think I will be leaving the house, because dodging the tourists in my town is NOT FUN! So I did the 1st 60 minutes of my workout with out an energy drink in my system and I was dragging a bit - despite having my GOSSIP magazines to read - but then when I took a quick break I put an 1/2 can of an energy drink in me and got back on the machine and before I knew what was going on: BAM!!! 41 minutes done! Don't you love that!!! **I am addicted to energy drinks: you may all be open mouthed and shocked thinking : I didn't know GG drank energy drinks...but let me tell you, they are sugar & calorie & carb free! The one I drank today is called XYIENCE XENERGY clear....and on other days I drink RIP IT ENERGY FUEL sugarfree Power. I know energy drinks are NOT ALL THAT good for you even if they are sugar free, but it being summer & all I need a cool caffinated beverage in the morning: coffee & tea just dont work in the summer months because they are so hot. Iced coffeeis great but I am too lazy to make it and iced tea: well I dont sweeten my tea so it kind tastes gross...haha! ***Since I am on the topic of drinks: has anyone tried Emergen-C COFFEE?? Yea well I have been drinking that stuff for um, about 3 years now and it is awesome: no calories: good hot or cold...what I do is I put a packet in a blender with some powered stevia & icecubes & water and I blend it into slushee!! --> CALORIE FREE ICE CREAM! If anyone ever wanted to know how I reduce food cravings if I ever get them: NOW YOU KNOW!!! The Secret is out!!! HAHA!!! Hope everyone has a great Saturday!!!
Sounds like your dad is bored and your mom just wants to control you and your sister as if you were babies. Oh and your sister probably ate like a "normal" person--not a crime, but in your family as you've explained possibly a really bad crime. Growing up isn't easy and telling your parents to "you know what" off is even harder sometimes. Just think, you could be a heroin or meth addict, though relatively speaking, it sounds like you may be right about the eating disorders running in the family. In some cases harder to deal with than drug addictions.
You really at the end of the day can only control yourself--and it sounds like you've got a pretty good head on your shoulders about it all--keep up the good work!
that is strange that your dad still tries to get you and your mom to eat foods that you simply don't! maybe he's doing it just to fool around!? congrats to your dad on being able to live out and enjoy life. If he really gets bored, there are many things i'm sure he knows he can get involved with. If i were him, i'd be enjoying myself to the max! It sounds like those walks must be great!
I feel like i've really gotten to know some people on here. It really is a great web-community! haha.
I live on Long Island in New York! VERY close to NYC! I was born in Queens and my parents moved here when i was 3.
So -- you are familiar with the Rosedale diet? I was wondering if anyone here was!! I'm doing it because it claims it will help with my health problems - as well as rapid weight loss. Yeah - the food isn't that great - so I'd love to swap recipes. Only - I haven't found any yet. You know - this is a high fat diet and I really don't like olive oil dressing - so instead of the salads - I just drink the oil down. It's easier. But -- it sounds gross.
Have a good one!
ok ok so here is the intervention story: My sister went to Alaska for about 8 days. She was on a 145 foot boat with 60 other people. My mom and I thought she was not going to have any food to eat because she follows the same diet to what my mom and I follow - lean meats & veggies - but boy were we wrong...turns out she had plenty and my mother and father were dissappointed to see that she gained weight: in 8 days she may have put on 5-10 pounds but on her it shows!!! It is really sad because I know she tries to stick to the diet that my mom and I follow strictly but she has a lot of other pressures to deal with, although even if I had her pressures I would still stick with my diet but oh well...anyways: Last Thursday night my sister and I grabbed some dinner after she got her hair done and then we went to my parents house because my mom "wanted to see my sister's new hair color"...little did I know what she really wanted to do was tell my sister she gained weight and it didn't look good, and that basically she was fat. I hate being around when things like this happen because I really dont know what to say. My mother, sister & I have strange eating habits and obsessions with foods: I swear my whol family has an eating disorder. Ever since my sister was little, my parents would always tell her she was overweight and I guess that is why I became anorexic back in the day because I never wanted my parents to tell me that. My father is obsessed with skinny people which sort of makes me sick and it makes my mother sick mentally - that is why she looks as if she would break in 1/2 and works out for 2+ hours a day! My father is a hypocrit though because he loves skinny people but then makes fun of the way my mom and I eat and tries to put "junk" and fatty food down our throughts! Anyways, back tothe intervention: my sister stormed out crying and I ran after her because I really had no clue what was going on and then she told me mom called her fat so I just comforted her for a bit until my mother came out to talk to her more. The rest of the night I did not talk to my mom because I just thought it was cruel. My sister knew she gained weight - even though I could not tell at all...ok maybe like 2 pounds - and was going to jump back into her routine now that she was back from her trip....So basically my sister has vowed never to go on another trip again - it was not all because of her weight gain but because her planes were canceled & delayed one after the next 3-days-staright! So thats my story and my position in this situation is awkward. The real reason why my mom told me to stay in Wyoming while she goes back east to clean out our old house is to watch my sister & do a "boot-camp" routine with her....which means I will jsut go walking with her in the morning to make sure she gets enough exercise and I will motivate her to go to the gym after work....Would you consider me a bad sister?! I dont really know what to think.
All i do know is that this situation has never occurred in my house. However, there are times when my parents stress "only take one piece of cake," "only take one fruit" ..my mom is all about stressing how you can only have one portion of something. You would be so stressed out!!! Because she does the same with things like vegetables/salad...its all about only have your portion! Then again, that's why i don'y eat with them often. I like my food, my way. Nobody else's.
Let us know if there is an update to this and how things are going!
I'll respond to your most recent post within the next couple days...
i didn't do anything special for the 4th because i have a class looming over my head that i have to prepare for and i feel like anytime i go out, I'm rewarding myself. I feel like i shouldn't have any rewards until the class is over...even if i'm not necessarily preparing for it the entire time i spend home.
interviews could be better, if you've read my journal entry from today, you'll see what i mean! are you still doing your internship?
oh, does your dad eat the same way as you and your mom? if not, is he allowed to buy food that you don't eat and store it in the house? also, i know your dad goes on two mile hikes, which is awesome!!!!. what field does he work in, if he still works?
hows it going with your sister? do you speak to your parents while they're away?
lol, i feel like we are "pen-pals" because i'm asking so many questions! i'm sure you had a pen pal and one point during elementary school!
i hope you're still enjoying summer break!
Well, after cooking the 11 pound salmon on Sunday...it is finally gone! We ate probably about 6 pounds on Sunday night (among 5 people) and then last night & tonight I had salmon for dinner. My mother packed my sister some salmon as a "doggie bag" on Sunday night, probably about 2-3 pounds...and the rest is pretty much in my stomach! HAHA, I probably had 4.5 pounds of the salmon...1 pound last night & prob. 2 tonight and 1.5 pounds the first night! Go me! HAH...Although right now my tummy sort of hurts but I dont think it is completely from all the Salmon...my sister came up tonight and brought some grilled veggies & marinated arichokes & I went wild and ate most of em...Oh well, I dont think I will ever learn but OH WELL! As we all know, tomorrow is 4th of July so my sister and I are going to throw a little BASH over at her place and grill up a bunch of grass-fed beef, elk & bison...along with a bunch of veggies. But I know that I will probably be the only one cooking which will in the end make me mad and used, but oh well, I just have to start cooking in a good mood and then I wont mind so much. I have a feeling I will be the 5th, 7th, 11th...you get it...wheel because everyone will be in a couple who comes...but me, no I dont have a boyfriend so yea. Oh well, I am a super picky girl so I sort of bring my singleness upon myself! haha. **Oh and I forgot to mention that my mom and dad left on Monday afternoon for 2 weeks which means I am home alone for 2 weeks!! Granted my sister is in town but she works 9 hour days and then has a boyfriend she spends the rest of her time with...its weird that she is even over right now!
Well incase anyone was wondering...my birthday was NOTHING to brag about, let me tell you! Even though I was trying hard not to think of the day as "special" - so I wouldnt get my hopes up - I still got upset because I felt even more ignored than usual on that day. I guess it did not help that my sister came home from Alaska on my birthday so the conversations revolved around her. Oh well, what can I do, my dad told me that tomorrow night we would celebrate my birthday for real, because we will be making the 11 pound salmon my sister bought for me while in Alaska! **VERY EXCITED to EAT ABOUT 10 pounds of it!!** This next week my parents will be going back to Connecticut - where I used to live - in order to get things settled with our house that we are finally selling! This means that they are leaving me home alone in Wyoming for 2 weeks! I am so excited to have my freedom again! Granted my sister is here too but she is constantly working and has a fulltime boyfriend to attend to! haha. I am sure I will go live with her a few days but that doesnt mean I wont be shacking up in my house alone for a few days: hehe! Plus when my parents are gone I get to test out new fun recipes I could not create when my dad is around without getting asked 5 billion times "what are you making". Granted I love his food a lot but...I love it too much which means I gain weight because he does NOT KNOW how to use Olive Oil lightly!! All of his food is SWIMMING IN IT - well veggies that is! - Oh well, its ok for him because he does not gain an ounce NO MATTER what he eats! I guess I can thank him for giving me a some-what fast metabolism...although I do work out 2 hours a day and eat only leans meats and vegetables so I wonder if I would be "skinny" if I ate junk food and did not work out....hmm not a test I will be undertaking any time soon! My dad does hike for about 2 hours or more a day too so I guess that helps him too, but even when he doesnt..hes still slim & trim....Well I am going to stop this entry eventhough I have more to write about a family melt down -well more like an intervention between my mom and sister...about weight of course - bu that will come in another entry.....get ready!
Sounds like you are doing well. I'm sorry about the birthday snub. I can't wait to hear about the intervention. Oy, these family things!
OMG! I have never gotten so many diary replies before!! Thanks so much for all of your help! It makes me feel better that I am not the only one who goes through...constipation! haha. I will take all of your tips & tricks into consideration. I have stopped drinking any sort of laxative tea and I must say, I bloat a lot less when I dont drink it! ha, who would have thought! Anyways, on a completely different note: Tomorrow is my birthday! Supposively my sister sent me 10+ lbs of wild king salmon for my birthday from Alaska (she just spent a week there) which should be coming tomorrow, so we shall see! She did this for me last year too but she got the fish from Seattle...I guess it will be tradition to buy me fish for my birthday...I'm not complaining! haha! I also got a digital camera (early gift) and it is amazing: a lot of pictures of Jackson Hole will be coming your way everyone so get ready!!! The only thing I am sort of sad about is that I dont think I am really going to be celebrating my birthday tomorrow because my sister has been stuck in Alaska (damn airplane flights) for the past two days and wont be coming home until tomorrow night so I am sure she will be extremely tired and not want to celebrate, but thats ok: my birthday is just like any other day so I can celebrate it whenever the right time comes around!! I will fill you all in on my birthday dinner because you know me and food! haha! Let's just hope the elliptical trainer feels very easy tomorrow: that would be one birthday wish come true! haha!
Also, I wanted to comment on yesterday's entry. I am always more constipated when I eat too much fiber. It seems to backfire on me. But I agree with everyone else---drink lots of water, and maybe try some fruit!
As for your question, I use Fitday.com--online version--and occasionally calorieking.com to get other counts. I always (99%) record my foods and exercise in a little notebook. I found early on that physically writing down makes me think about it for a moment. I've gone periods of not doing that and I go off the rails fairly quickly. I can't be trusted--haha!
Have a good one GG!
You asked if it was strange if my husband/boyfriend saw me count calories...I do not have a husband or boyfriend...probably because i am too obsessed with calorie counting! But, i have no plans to be married anytime soon as I am 24. some of my friends have gotten married, but my life is still getting settled...and i have a long way to go! so, my family certainly finds the foods i eat strange. but, they let me buy what i want...although i have to store much of it downstairs in the basement, in the extra refrigerator! haha. but, i've made it so now a lot of my food is also upstairs, in the kitchen! so, yeah, people find my eating strange. and, well, it is! but, what i can i do!? either i can try to revert to usual, regular ways of eating that most of our population does or I can continue experimenting. right now, i will continue counting calories and obsessing a bit...I have to perform in a class later in July and I am quite anxious...which just makes my whole diet that more crazy! I know many people get like that. I can't say i'm necessarily stressed right now...but on July 15th the class starts and it goes a week straight until the following Friday night. so, it's coming!
ok i know this may be WAY 2 much information but I seriously need some help - tips from all of you - I am really constipated! I eat like 40-50 grams of fiber a day so I dont understand why I just cant go...oh and I have tried Laxative teas to help things get MOVIN but...THEY DONT EVEN WORK! I am doomed: plus this does not really help in the maintenance of weight - UGH: I am really miserable. -Plus I have done 1/2 of my work out today and it has been SUPER hard which is not helping out AT ALL!!!
I usually take a fiber supplement (Fiber Con) to get things going. This even though I eat about 50g of fiber a day. If you decide to opt for the stool softener --- these are usually glycerin suppositories. I don't know about you but suppositories wig me out -- even when it comes to my own kids. I would suggest buying a product called Baby Lax. It is glycerin and it comes with an applicator, which does the work for you (without getting too descriptive here). Hopefully you have something like that available to you.
Also you may be consuming too much meat which would be in conflict (I would think) with the gobs of fiber. Just my humble opinion:-)
As an aside, I have a friend who doesn't "go" but every 5-7 days on average--good friends DO talk about this stuff haha--especially when you hit your 30s and 40s!!! I would have to be committed to a mental facility if I went more than a day-and-a-half without "going."
Been where you are, at about your age, though the suspected culprit was a medication which, ironically, was supposed to cause diarrhea. That's when I started to pay attention.
You'll work this out, but all good suggestions in the previous comments!
ps As an adult I don't take laxatives or any other help, water and paying attention to fiber is the way to go. Laxatives, enemas and the like should be a last resort for sure! I have no fond suppository memories--hahaha!
Well today was the start of my new internship and let me tell you I was very stationary from 1-5pm except for my fingers...It was a dull day, all I did was write contact information of tons of different people in EXCEL. Do fingers grow muscles? If they did...they would look like Arnold Swarzenager in his prime! HAHA! Other than typing all afternoon - my day was boring. One of the guys I worked with today seemed sort of interested in me, but I have changed and dont just like ANYONE!! Of course before work this morning I had my nice long work out on the elliptical trainer...101 minutes, it was a bit slow but that is ok because my father left this moring so that immediately means eating less at dinner! WHen he is home a lot of cooked so I just want to eat it all, but when I cook for myself, I cook a perfect portion for me and then I am done...no snacking on "left overs" when I put them away because there are none...Just the way I like it. I had grass-fed beef for dinner tonight again...and I cannot regail over it enough! EVERYONE MUST TRY IT!! americangrassfedbeef.com - visit that site ASAP!! I hope you are all doing well! Have a good night and keep me updated on all your lives!
yes, i count my calories on paper!!! every single day, a running total. i've been doing it for almost 5 years now! i know the calories in veggies/fruits and everything else i eat usually gives calories on the package, whether its tofu, eggs, yogurt, beans, anything!
i interviewed for a teaching position in an elementary school, to teach band! it's really difficult to get a job with little experience in education on Long Island!
Have a great day!!! I always love hearing about your new food finds!
Well it has certainly been awhile! I have been pretty busy, doing who knows what...all I know is I have been loving it. Today we got HUGE SHIP MENTS of frozen meat: Elk & Bison...so much that we needed to go buy a new freezer @ Sears...funny right? Now with all this meat, I will never eat fish again :(...but it's not like there was fish readily avaliable here anyways...oh well. Oh and another LARGE shipment of meat is coming tomorrow too...or maybe even later today: if that is the case: We are SCREWED because the freezer prob. wont come until next Tuesday or something: ugh...but I do love my grass-fed beef so when it comes I will be happy. Then I wont have to order any meat on line for a good 5-6 months, depending on how much I eat a day...which is a fair amount because lately I have been eating about a pound or so for lunch & 1/2 pound to a pound @ dinner...I know that is a lot of meat, but my diet is all meat and vegetables so I think my body can handle it? Or I sure hope so...nothing has happened to me...yet...knock on wood for me! haha! **Oh and today I did 2 hours and 8 minutes on the elliptical trainer (really fast & hard too) - I am very proud of myself because that is tough stuff and I normally only doing 96-100 mintues...I was just reading my book and I felt pumped after eating. I did the first 96 minutes before eating and then did 31 minutes after I gorged on 9 oz. of ground turkey breast and about 7 oz. of ground bison. he he! Wow, I cannot wait for kidney stones...LOL JUST KIDDING: I hope!!
Wow, its been a very long time since I have written! Not huge up-date, except I just got back from Santa Fe, NM (On monday night) for a memorial day weekend get-a-way with family & friends. It was alright...nothing to brag about, I mean I have been there so many times that nothing was different. I did enjoy some good food though! Friday night we went to a TAPAS restaurant (the service was horrible - but eventually I got what I want). I had 2 1/2 orders of smoked paprika octopus and a salad and tried tid-bits of everyone elses tapas...and that was pretty much it. I love spanish food but I am not too fond of tapas just because I know I have to share with others and well...when it comes to food, I do not really like to share, unless I do not like the food: haha I know I am so mean, but hey: FOOD ROCKS! haha. On saturday night (the kids...uh right the youngest one in the bunch was me: 19, oldest: 33- haha) got a bunch of prepared foods from whole foods and ate out on the deck while the adults (40s-60s haha.) went out to dinner. Whole Foods as you all know is my santuary and I was good and got a little bit of everything: not a WHOLE LOT of everything: although I was still paying for eating a lot the next day: On sunday my stomach was so bloated and gurgly but I think it was because the leeks were a bit under cooked (onions do it to me) and I had a lot of whole garlic bulbs (I could not resist the broccoli, garlic, sundried tomato mixture)-- but oh well! I learn...or not? haha On Sunday: after horseback riding (yea, trotting felt amazing on my stomach-) and a massage (yipes: only one gassy problem, but hopfully he did not smell it? haha!!!) We all went out to dinner at this place called SantaCafe which was really really good: SUCCESS! EVERYONE WAS HAPPY...well sort of, my sister is never particularly in a good mood but I just ignore that. haha. I got salmon and even though there was butter on the bottom of the plate, I was able to pick it up with my fork and put it on a bread plate without TOUCHING the butter....I am sure I ingested some butter, I mean common at a restaurant it is inevitable. My mom gave me some of her fillet minion too which was SCRUMPTIOUS to say the least!! Although I was not full after that dinner (I never am when ever I go out to dinner) I still sampled some good food. **I am glad to be home because I can get back on my old routine- working out and such and cook good food and enough of it that I can eat!! Hm, but when I am at home I stuff myself to the BRIM: there is NO HAPPY MEDIUM for me: Gr! I wish there were! hahaha!!!
You asked about my goal weight for the wedding .. 185 is where I would be okay being for the wedding (I really want to be so much lower but I also know it is very unrealistic) 24 days and counting!! :-)
OMG I AM PAYING FOR GETTING REALLY BLOATED LAST NIGHT: you should see my stomach: I look 3 months pregnant and last night according to my mother I looked 5 months pregnant: and she is a OBGYN! ha ha, I must stop stuffing my face!!! **Will Write More Later: but must go do things now!! Hope everyone is doing just fine!!! :)
WAHOO!!!!! I AM HOME FREE! I HAVE BEEN HERE 2 DAYS and so far I only feel as if I am on a week vacation or something, not a SUMMER vacation LASTING 4 months! Woah! My room looks as if a HUGE class 6 tornado came and hit! It freaks me out everytime I walk in my room because I am pretty much a NEAT freak, but Oh well sooner or later I will get to it...Just right now I am enjoying not doing a thing! So my dog just rand away, right before we were about to eat dinner so I decided to eat by myself because my stomach was SCREAMING "IM HUNGRY!!!" plus it was creeping on 7:45pm and well I like to eat around 6:15 so it was WAY PAST MY DINNER TIME hahaha, I know it sounds obnoxious but I cannot help it, I HATE EATING LATE. Atleast it wasnt a really nice dinner, it was just left overs of chicken & putenesca with some warm veggies. Still good, but I shoveled it in in about 5 seconds and it also did not fill me up so I ate a whole head of cabbage with tomato paste and/or mustard (favorite snack of all time) and a whole bunch of NORI! So I am sure I ate my fare share of calories throughout my whole eating spree but oh well. I cannot rewind time so I might as well live looking ahead.
Trying to fill up on cabbage is very sensible. I did that with half a head of broccoli one afternoon and was so surprised at how much longer I was able to go without eating! You know, the mind thinks of all the fat globule rich foods to snack on, but if we can ignore the mind and stick w/just veggies, we'd be much better off.
So I am done with my Journalism final, which means I am done with that class! Gosh I hated that class more than ever and just to put the cherry on top: my final was at 7:30am. So right now I am exhausted. I got up this morning at 6:30 am with my roomie to go over some last minute things and then took the final until 8:20 and then returned those books (and got only $30 back!!) and then went straight to the gym (it opened at 9) after 103 mintues on the elliptical trainer (I did a lighter work out today because my legs were hurting & feeling very weak) I came back to my dorm and made a grass-fed beef patty and brought it downstairs to the lunch room where they were also serving a nice tomato-cumber salad & green beans. Oh and I was probably down there for 10 mintues because I scarfed my food down...I had coffee @ 6:45am that is why I was so incredibly hungry!! So it is not even NOON yet and I really thought I was not going to have time to do anything today. I should start studying for my other 2 finals but I am too tired to focus right now. I am planning on doing a Target/Whole Foods run for the last time this year so I might actually do it earlier than intended (maybe around 12:30 or 1) and then come back to buckle down to study. I am going to have salmon for dinner tonight (it is my last piece of frozen meat in the freezer) and buy some "extra pre-made grilled veggies" or something from whole foods, although I must watch my portions because my piece of fish alread has around 500 calories in it (its 8 oz, I cant really eat anything less than that because I dont feel like I ate anything otherwise). My other new fav. fish that I am going to pick up for tomorrows dinner is ARCTIC CHAR, it is almost better than salmon! It is delicious and a lot cheaper than Salmon too (wild salmon). I would totally reccomend everyone going to the store ASAP and buying some Arctic Char!! haha! And luckily Arctic Char is pretty much the same thing as Rainbow Trout so I will be able to get it all summer in Jackson Hole (my home town) YAY!
i'm glad everything's going well with the end of the school-year for you! you made it! enjoy your last shopping experience before coming home!
I'm glad you introduced us to char. I'm not familiar with it but now will look for it.
Study hard! It's almost over.
Well Well Well, what else is new: I just STUFFED my face HARD CORE full of eggplant that I am probably just as round as one in the belly!!! It was just so good that I could not stop eating it although the last 4 bites were not that great so I should have stopped but I am the KING of the "clean plate club" so I had to basically LICK my PLATE CLEAN! ha! I also had scallops which were amazing (broiled, yum!) but I feel that I should not have shoveled my food in so much. Tomorrow though I am not going to eat too much because I am going out to sushi which does not bloat me much because I basically just eat raw fish (miso soup & a little side salad too) I had soooo much eggplant (with tomato sauce) today. At lunch they were serving it so I PILED my plate high, didnt actually finish it all so got a to-go box and piled left-overs PLUS some more in for dinner. I am proud of my self that I did not take roasted vegetables from the dining hall at dinner time, I just completely by-passed the HOT FOOD section and went to the salad bar to get a little more spinach to accompany my eggplant (and prob. 4 cups of cherry tomatoes! haha) Well I will pay for this tonight: get bloated & gassy....and well..ya I think you all know how I feel. I hate this feeling and I always tell myself NOT TO get this way but once again: I CANT WASTE FOOD! UGH! haha. OH, PS: i got a 94 on my human biology FINAL and an A for the WHOLE CLASS! YAY! Next test = Advertising (on Thursday, wish me luck!)
The broiled scallops must have been from your private stash, right? At the price they go for, I can't imagine how a dorm would be able to afford to offer them.
Good going on the exam and for the entire course!
Good luck on your remaining tests!
So my parents came to Boulder last night and took me out to a very late dinner, 9 pm, WAY past my NORM, but I snacked on Kelp Noodles & Tomato Paste at around 6 or so, so I want not DYING when we went out, if anything I was pretty content and not in agony! My father on the other hand was starving and it felt as if we were in reverse roles. I was content and he was basically eating everything in site, how funny...to me at least. (normally I am the one complaining and moaning that I am very hungry and that we need to eat NOW!)
My dad and mom took me out to this amazing restaurant L'Absenthe, Fresh Cuisine and we shared a Platter of RAW shell fish (Lobster, Oysters, Mussles, Shrimp, Crawfish & Clams) Then we split a Salad Nicoise (with seared tuna) and then we each had a Bouillbase that was amazing! It was definately a fish night! I also had some grilled asparagus & portabella mushroom on the side, just to round it all out: haha! Definately an amazing meal: just a little late for my liking! But thankfully it did not HAMPER my sleep because my stomach did not feel that full. (normally when I eat too close to bed time I cannot sleep because my stomach is digesting & that is all I can think about).
So tonight, I am going to Whole Foods to continue on the GOOD FOOD trend. While the Chefs in the Cafeteria cook me good food, they are normally not there on weekends so....I have to make up for it! I still have a lot of frozen meat so I cannot buy anymore fish at WHole Foods to freeze because I need to focus on finishing up what I have, or else it will go bad and I cannot WASTE FOOD!!! (Thats why I am part of the clean plate club...HAHA!) -- Which Can Definately BE A BAD THING! But If my plate is filled with Vegetables & lean meats, WHAT THE HECK: its when these veggies are doused in olive oil, I have to be careful, but sometimes they just taste TOO good to stop! haha! Argh, some people have this problem when it comes to eating the whole box of cookies, my problem is not being able to stop eating the sauteed veggies! HAHA, but while I may be getting health benefits, after a while of gorging on these veggies, I do see it in the scale (which stinks!!--hmm, no pun intended?) Oh well, I am just going to keep up what I am doing, Work out Daily, and Hopefully this summer I start lifting weights because I really need to start doing that-- As should everyone!!
Well, good luck with the weight-lifting this summer! I am also trying to get that going, although it's hard to make it a habit because unlike cardio it takes a while to really feel the results. But I'm sure it will be worth it!
i'm glad you enjoyed the night out with your family!
Every One Needs To Try Grass-Fed BEEF today!! Find it on-line or at Vitamin Cottage: PRONTO!
** Ok With That Said: I had some for dinner and it was amazing and yummy, and very low in calories. Google info about Grass Fed Beef (or Bison) and you will be hooked I promise!!
** Oh and my parents are coming on Friday for dinner, I am excited to take them out to this restaurant called The Med, which serves yummy foods & tapas (my favorite!!)
** Tomorrow I have my Human Biology Final and the topics on the test are: The Kidneys & The Reproductive System, WISH ME LUCK! I should be studying, but I have been procrastinating, I dont really care anymore, I just so done with school! I dont even want to think about my other finals: Oh man! They are coming next week! But then: DONE FOR THE SUMMER, which is going to be REALLY long!! May 8th-August 27th! WOW! Crazy, what to do, I am sure I will find something to do and let you know!
By the way...how do you handle parties, dates, social functions, etc? what do you do if you go out with others and they don't have salmon, veggies, etc.? Do you just not eat?
You've inspired me to eat more salmon!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks, GG!
Hello Everyone! My visits here are so speradic, but I think this summer I probably will write more, with more time and all! Speaking of summer my summer break starts: MAY 8 @ 1pm! I do not even know how to describe how excited I am to be able to just relax this summer and not worry about school work (except for the one course I am going to take on line: Economics...but I do have a WHOLE YEAR to complete it, although I will probably try and get it done by August). But sadly, before May 8th comes around I have all of my final exams, but at this point, my mentallity is such that..."it is what it is". I am sick of worrying about school work, I would love to do well, but if I end up with a C I won't fret...too much? haha. I have never gotten a C before in a class but this semester I certainly will...I would love to have a B- but, this one class, JOURNALISM is killing me so I have accepted the whole C thing. As for my other classes, I WILL NOT SETTLE WITH A C in them!!!! **Anyways, Since school is coming to an end, I have to start eating a lot more of the food that is in my freezer...so tonight its salmon(gosh, I love this fish, this is probably the only fish you all ever hear me talking about) but I do have other fish in my freezer like Black Cod (Sablefish), Eel, Octopus & Arctic Char and I also have meat in there GrassFed Beef & Venison (I finished the ostrich for lunch)...Gosh I love food so much and cannot wait to get home! Home is where the GOOD GOOD food is, granted the food the chefs downstairs make me is pretty good, but you can never be too sure what is actually in it. For instance, yesterday there was a chicken creole dish that looked great but there was BROWN SUGAR IN IT, common do we REALLY need sugar on chicken to make it good! JUST OMIT THAT SUGAR & FLOUR and I can almost gaurentee that the food will still taste good! I am glad I asked about the ingredients, although what you don't know does not hurt you...at that moment at least, but if you continue eating the foods filled with SUGAR & FLOUR then....IT WILL HURT YOU if you DONT KNOW!! SO watch out and read ingredients labels or ask you restaurant serves WHATS IN THE DISH YOU CHOOSE!!! I am sure you all know that by now though!
i don't teach at a university. I went there and am finishing my grad work there. i like to use the gym. Hofstra University on Long Island. You may have heard of it.
I continue to calculate my calorie averages until the days equal an amount of calories that i deam low enough. then, i usually binge (believe me, i'd rather not!) and have to do the whole thing again! right now, i have so many days that i'm calculating the average for simply because i haven't reached an average that is acceptable. My average for almost one month is 1940 calories per day. That is a bit high and i know i have gained some weight. so, until that average gets into the 1700s, i keep adding in each day of calories and then calculate the average...until it gets lower. then, when i'm happy with it, i throw out anything that has to do with the prior calculations and keep track by day....without averaging many days...but that doesn't usually last long because i binge!
WOAH I AM COMPLETELY STUFFFED: but it was amazing while it was happening! haha! Now I am a balloon full of yummy food! haha! I dont know if I like it or hate it? Lets just hope it does not show up too much on the scale tomorrow: because these days me eating a lot at night had been SHOWING UP A LOT! I always have these ups and downs! Ugh.
why why why do I always feel guilty after eating large portions of VEGETABLES even....maybe because a majority of them are in soupy Olive-Canola Oil. So here is the deal, lunch today: roasted vegetables, my favorite (the chef's know it too, haha!) so I dug in, 2 large plates full....Ate one plate, took the other plate to go, and then went down to get more for to-go...one more plate for 2 go and then I got myself a little bowl full of more and when I was done with the bowl there was about 3 tablespoons of oil sitting in the bottom, kinda gross, but I think the oil is what makes the food taste so AMAZING! Plus who can pass up roasted eggplant, summer squash, tomatoes & peppers...haha...I CANT (I am sure a lot of people can though, I am just a strange individual with weird taste buds..) I did not eat any protein @ lunch because I was saving calories. I swear if I did I would either have gotten to at least 1000 calories or...threw up! haha! I calculated my lunch and it was about 450 calories...but I could be totally wrong, because WHO KNOWS about dorm food!
*Tonight I plan to have a piece of salmon I picked up @ whole foods and mix spinach, with a little of the roasted vegetables, with kelp noodles & green beans....I really do not want to eat TOO MUCH because I tend to get BLOATED every night! I want to get pleasantly full but in my world that means as BLOATED as a while...I swear every night after I eat: I look like I am pregnant with 3 kids!!! Its rediculous! And when I feel like this I certainly do not want to go for a walk or see other people so I end up sitting on my BUTT channel or internet surfing: awesome life I know! hahaha! Well atleast I am active during the day...for the most part! haha! Beautiful weather here today so I went for a 20 min. walk with my IPOD......I already got my 98 mintues on the treadmil out of the way this morning @ 10...my hip hurts though so it was kinda tough to get through it. What I really need to do is LIFT WEIGHTS! I dont know how many times I say it, but I dont do it! haha! I think this summer I wanna hire a trainer or something: SERIOUSLY! well you guys will know if I do or not because I am sure I will write about it here! haha! How is everyone ELSE!!!?? Loving the warm weather??
I would have a hard time passing up those vegetables too. Especially if they were readily available as they are in dorm food cafeterias (that is, I didn't have to prepare them, I didn't have to pay for them myself because it's included in the overall boarding fee, I didn't have to clean up afterwards -- such luxury!).
If it's any consolation, I used to eat large portions of broccoli and have ... well, I used to have a gas problem soon afterwards. So I don't know if my tummy was distended, because I've always had a lower abdomen gut, but the gas was very uncomfortable to say the least.
I need to go home, I want to go home, I have to go home! I have exactly one month left of school and I could not be more excited than I am right now (and will be until the day comes!) I am so sick of putting forth a lot of effort and not getting anything in return, IE: studying for tests and not getting a good grade. I am also sick of this one guy who works down in the cafeteria who basically makes fun of me to my face about how much I eat, I just want to strangle him! I pay money to eat their "half-assed" food so there is no need for him to make fun of me! If anything I am doing him a favor taking a lot of the food because OTHERWISE NO ONE WOULD EAT IT (I take the healthy stuff everyone is scared of, IE = FISH) Like tonight I took the Tilipia and a lot of it, maybe like almost a pound because that fish is white and does not fill me up easily. He just needs to get over it and himself! "The fish is good tonight" is what he says, in a sarcastic I am a jack-ass tone of voice! ugh, sorry it really isn't something to get worked up over but I guess I am because the rest of this past week/weekend have not exactly been the best ever. I am once again a little heavier than I would like to be (ha, maybe eating all that fish is doing it...)having problems...in the bathroom if you know what I mean, not getting good grades, a little lonely despite hanging out with all my friends (miss my mom and dad and sister...) and I am also thinking too much about the future and what it might bring, it scares me. Who knows right now, I just have to wait and see....sadly I am really IMPATIENT! haha! THE ONLY GOOD NEWS: DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES IS NEW TONIGHT!!! FYI!!
HI! YES! the stint of going out to dinner is OVER and tonight I finally get to eat my father's home cooking! Clam Sauce with Scallops, Salmon & Cod. The past couple nights I have gone out for ... salads with my sister, sushi with the family for my father's birthday, hearty WYOMING cooking with guests & family, and a really nice dinner last night at a fancy restaurant my family and I always go to every time I come out to wyoming...
Salad with my sister: LARGE SALADS mixed with salmon, chicken, lettuces, tomatoes, grilled veggies...etc, by far the best dinner of them all because...I LOVE BIG HEARTY portions!!
SUSHI: Oh man DID I EAT TONS OF SASHIMI it was delicious but after my 20th piece I started to get a little sick of fish, haha! I also had stir fried bok-choy which was amazing filled with garlic!
HEARTY WY MEAL: This place had a salad bar which is all you can eat (only went once, weird for me) and I had a nice big piece of salmon (wild and delicious) with grilled veggies & sauteed spinach)
FANCY DINNER: I had scallops as appetizer, elk chops as main dish and 2 sides of brussel sprouts & brocollini.
** Can you believe after EVERY ONE of my meals I was still hungry! That is why I hate going out to dinner because it takes SO MUCH FOOD to make me full!!! That is why I am excited I get to have my meals at home for the next couple of days because I know I will be FULL after them...Bloated more like it, but bloated with GOOD FOOD! hehe!
Hi Everyone! How is everyone doing? I am on spring break for the next week and I am loving every minute of it! Granted I should be studying a little bit and writing a paper but I will do that the latter of the week! haha! I had some of my father's cooking last night again and it was delicious, although WE ATE @ 8:30pm and I could not stop eatting until 9:45! It drives me crazy when we eat that late but it still was very good. We had elk chops, jamacian spicy cabbage, leeks, aparagus & yams(for the boys): all amazing!! Tomorrow is my father's birthday and we were going to go out to dinner but it is canceled now. My parents want to go out somewhere else but I dont think we should, since my father loves cooking, why not do something you love on your birthday, am I right? But what to cook? We have 2 people from England here so it may be a little tought o decipher what they would want to eat but who cares, they eat small portions...I am not worried I wont get enough food! haha! I swear I do worry about that even if I know there WILL BE FOOD! That is one thing that drives me crazy about myself, that I worry I won't get enough food! But when it comes time to eat, I get TOO much food and go for 2nds, 3rds, 4ths....AND THEN GET UNCOMFORTABLY FULL & BLOATED. I swear these days I am hungry until I am bloated and look pregnant with 3 kids! HAHA, but Atleast at school I do not BINGE too much! - I can handle myself more there just because I know I have to socialize after dinner while as when I am at home, I can just KICK IT on the couch after wards! Oh that sounds nice! Tonight my sister and I are going to this expensive salad bar tonight and making MASSIVE salads so we can deliberatly GET BLOATED! haha! I am going to live with her this summer (as I did last summer) and I am SO excited! Summer Vacation could not come sooner! 5 more weeks after this week (which I am not counting because I am on break)...
Hi Everyone! Happy St. Patrick's Day! DO me a favor and DO NOT go over board on the corned beef...the cabbage on the other hand, GO FOR IT! haha!!! Tonight I will be trying hard to by-pass ALL the drunk people because they are SUPER annoying, especially because I do not drink! I swear I am the biggest loser ever! Alteast during the day I have a lot of friends...come night time people are always in awe that I go to bed around mid-night and I am not OUT getting SLOSHED! I am sorry I just do not like getting drunk....I'm in college, I am suppose to like doing that...Aren't I? Oh well...
Ugh I feel so bloated today and I really have only eatten a lot of veggies (which could be the main culprit). I am totally not hungry but I like to eat around 6 or 630 just because I do not want to feel "full" when I go to bed because I cannot sleep with a full full tummy! Gosh, I feel like I am ALWAYS complaining about stomach issues, I guess I really screwed it up when I drank that laxative tea back when I was very unhealthy! Oh well, I guess I just have to live with the precussions (is that the right word? haha) I will get over it? Figuratively, not literally.....Or not.
have a goodnight!
So whats up? I hope I didn't offend you cuz I thought maybe she didnt want to put the "big" number in front like 195 or something.. Nice pictures also btw!
gotta go to the Y! byebye
I have been eating some really good food lately, but...I feel like I am spending a little too much money on it all! Good Food Costs $$!! My parents understand my picky picky eating so they say it is ok that I spend extra on food but I am just starting to feel a little guilty...Well I always feel guilty buying things (that is why I only buy food, books & magazines) I have still been working out a fare amount: mostly cardio but honestly I feel that is all I need...if only my body could talk and tell me what it really wanted....hm, that would actually be very weird? 2 more weeks until Spring Break! I am more excited than anything else! I cannot wait because I just want to lounge around my house without a worry in my mind...although I will have work to get done (for school) because I have tests the week right after. Ugh, I thought I wouldnt have to think during break but I guess not..Oh well...When I come back from spring break I will only have 5 more weeks until SUMMER BREAK where I can shut off my brain for about 11 or 12 weeks!! I am so excitedd!!
By the way, do you eat out much? If so, can you always find things to eat? I would love to follow your diet more closely, but it's so hard to stick to just veggies and protein when I'm around so many people and sharing meals with others!
Hi Everyone! How are things? This week is going to be brutal but the weather is going to be great so atleast that component of my week will be great: if it were predicted that it was to snow this week, I would be miserable right now! This week I have all my midterms plus 2 group presentations due and I am horrible at studying and hate working in groups: so basically the combination of the two is horrible! I have been studying for 2 of my midterms this weekend and I will study for the other one tomorrow and tuesday. I really hope I do well so then I can really enjoy my Spring Break that starts on the 23rd! I am so excited because I have been home-sick every so often and it kinda stinks. 10 weeks without going home is a long long time. Today to treat myself for studying, I went to whole foods and got my favorite meal (plus food for other meals): a LARGE salad from the salad bar and their cooked salmon from their prepared food section! I am so excited to eat it, 6pm could not come any sooner! I think I got one pound of the salmon from their prepared food section and I plan on eatting it all, after all it is SALMON and it is good for you! Plus I don't eat rice, pasta, or any carbs of that sort, so I must fill in my calories. I think that eating all of that will bring my calorie count up to around 1400 calories for the day, which is a lot more than my normal 900 or so (I eat that little of calories because veggies & my lean meats do not really add up and I am also satisfied on that much) but today is sunday and I deserve a little extra! -- Even though I do easier work outs on the weekends than during the week! Oh well! he he
Hello. How is everyone? I am alright, although my stomach...my stomach...oh the common problem. I honestly think my stomach is better and then...dun dun dun...it's NOT! Oh well I guess I just have to deal with it, I have been so far so...I guess there is nothing else more to do, until I get time to check with a doctor over the summer or something...but I am sure they won't be able to help. Plus I do not take any OTC meds or percription meds and NEVER WILL (well maybe when I am in my 80s and dying...but lets not think about that). So anyways, nothing else is really new. Next week I am going to have my busiest week EVER! I have all of my mid-terms and a group project due (that I do not have time to work on) so I am a bit...*screwed?* Oh well, I will get over it! The only thing keeping me going is spring break which starts on March 23rd and goes until April 1...and then a little more than a month later school is out: my 1st year of college: DONE! Who would have thought I actually would have made it! To Answer Peoples Questions: Horn_Of_Plenty: How are those KELP NOODLES treating you? I also have another type of noodle for you, which is along the same lines but not as crunchy: Kombu noodles, check them out...I am not sure if they are any less expensive but they do have a different taste!! hope you like them!!! Runner: I actually do not eat breakfast: I wake up @ 730 and go straight to the gym and then I come back and get ready for the day and then go eat lunch @ either 11 or 1215 (depending on what time I have class)
also, kombu noodles. I looked them up, found one site with google. It doesn't list any sort of nurtritional information. What kind of taste does it have? Is it salty and unappealing? do you have any kind of calorie/nutrition facts on them? That's important to me, before I order.
Thanks for thinking of me!!!! I think i've eaten at least two whole cases of the kelp so far!!!! :)
Feel better! Have a great day tomorrow!
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FINALLY...FINALLY...FINALLY: I think my stomach is not feeling completely rediculous, except last night I was so incredibly gassy-- SO EMBARASSING! My stomach hates me for eating so much fiber. Shouldn't it love me? I mean isn't fiber what my body wants, because vegetables are good for it? Fighting off disease and such? I cannot help the fact that I eat large portions, because if I don't...then I won't get enough calories and I will just feel so incredibly tired. For lunch today I had: -3.5 oz. chicken breast -1 c. spainch -3 c. Broccoli (steamed: REALLY GOOD!!) -25 cherry tomatoes -.5c. bell pepper slices(red) **While I may be full now, I may not be by 3 and that is when...KELP NOODLES come in handy! Mix a little tomato paste in with those bad boys and BAM: instant snack, which is NOT CALORIC @ all but still yummy & satisfies long enough to hold out until dinner. Hm, dinner tonight...what to have, what to have? -Halibut, Shrimp, Venison, Salmon, Cod, Mahi Mahi, Eel, Turkey....Gosh I have so much in my freezer, I really need to start eating more of it, I could not really eat any of it this week because I was sick to my stomach all week, but I think I am seeing the silver lining...meaning I think I am almost over the hedge. If only I could...YOU KNOW, then I would be just fine! ha ha ha... Any Ideas for dinner everyone? I assume you already know I ONLY eat Vegetables & Meat and have a limited selection of cooking utensils (a microwave & toaster oven)....
Still have stomach issues but I am not as bad as I was. I promise I always feel sick (or so it seems because I have felt so out of sorts since Saturday night) because I am normally always tired, well more so these past couple days because stomach ailments really slow you down! I was able to go to the gym today but I still did not really "feel it". I got my 92 minutes in with a bit of a struggle but it was alright. Then I came back to my room to learn that my computer once again had broke. Atleast I sent my enormous paper I wrote last night to my mother for editing so I have a copy still!! If I did not do that, I probably would have dropped out of college because I am so stressed out. Tonight I had a little fish and some roasted veggies, and amazingly I could not eat my whole plate (just like the last few nights) I do not think I have had so many LEFT OVERS the past couple of nights: sad but true! Now I have some lunch for tomorrow: ha ha! I really hope I get better and I know what will make my stomach feel so much better but it just WON"T HAPPEN! If you can guess what my PROBLEM is, I will be impressed...It has something to do with digestion and considering how much FIBER I EAT: I AM SHOCKED AND ANNOYED!!! ha ha!
So I have not eaten a thing all day and its 4:13pm. I am sure you are all thinking that I am falling back into "my old habits" but I am actually suffering from food poisoning right now. It is horrible and I have not been able to move all day, its shocking that I am even on my computer, HOPEFULLY that means I am getting BETTER! Food poisoning is possibly the worst feeling in the world, especially when I cannot make myself throw up, because well thats just gross, so basically I just have to live with it. I feel absolutely disgusting, I have been in bed all day (obivously I did not make it to the gym). I feel as if I know what the culprit is but I don't want to say because it is my favorite food! Ok I will say it, sashimi. I guess I just got a BAD batch last night. My stomach woes started last night @ 10pm and I am hoping this is some sort of 24 hour thing because other wise....I won't be able to function tomorrow in class. I wish that we had tomorrow off for President's Day (that is the holiday tomorrow right?) so I could just get 100% better. I know I should eat something today, but I do not have any food with a neutral flavor. When I used to get this sick at home my mom would make me chicken soup, and just thinking about that is making me home sick. I just called her and she made me a little happier but still...I am sure you all have some sort of comfort mechanism when you do not feel right. Well thanks for listening and letting me get my mind off of how lousy I feel. Hope everyone is DOING *FANCY!*
Well hello everyone! Happy Valentine's Day: and to all the singles: Happy SAD day (Single Awareness Day)..Ha Ha! I Just ate my own Valentine's Dinner, while watching Friends: How Romantic Right? Well maybe if it was not snowing and VERY cold outside I would go out to dinner but...Nope, it's snowing! Tomorrow I may go out with a potential suitor but who knows! ha ha! So I am sure you're all dying to know what I had for dinner...actually your probably not, but I am going to write it down anyways. It really isn't anything that special! -Scallops -Roasted Peppers -Green Beans -Spinach -Mixed Veggies (from a frozen bag) **Now Doesn't that just sound scrumptious! ha ha! Well actually the scallops were pretty good because I put some paprika, thyme and lemon pepper on them and then broiled them in my toaster over, but still, they taste a lot better when I am at home. Oh well. The best thing to cook in the toaster oven is nice thick slices of KING SALMON! Oh man, those make my mouth water! he he. Had that for dinner last night but I was not really concentrating on it because I was studying for my Journalism Test that I had today. Well hope everyone has a good "sexy" evening!! ;)
You know a few days ago I tried a bag of frozen brussels sprouts and was so disappointed at how they were literally shredding apart! Never again. It was the first time I'd bought frozen veggies in ages. I'm so accustomed to the fresh, I guess I'm spoiled. I also tried French-style green beans and thought they were awful. Thank God good, fresh produce is available, something not the entire country enjoys.
I hadn't eaten canned veggies in a few years until I took advantage of one of those two for one specials and was so pleasantly surprised at how good the Del Monte corn was! Really, big, juicy kernals. I couldn't believe it. But it still can't beat the fresh white corn on the cob we had the other night. The kiddies were begging for more, which I didn't have!
WOW! I did not think that tonights dinner would make me feel so full, but I guess I was wrong. I had: spinach,broccoli,cauliflower,kelp noodles,saurekraut & onions mixed together (strange combo but really good) and for protein I had a lot of shrimp dipped in tomato paste: Yum! Very good meal, but now I am just SOO full! Well its ok I guess because I do not think I am doing anything tonight: everyone around here is staying in and watching movies so hey, I guess I will be alright, but if...you know what starts happening, I guess I am going to have to be anti-social! ha ha! Has anyone ever tried Beano? Does it actually work or does it just make you even more uncomfortable just not gassy? Oh I have some new food find for everyone to try! #1: Kelp Noodles - google them!!! #2: Socko Slim energy drink - google this too!! (Trust me You will love BOTH of these things!!--And you will be thanking me!)
Hello everyone! So I just wanted to let everyone know that I have basically converted the space under my bed into a mini kitchen! Its amazing! I have a little lamp down there and everything. I bought another refridgerator for my room and turned the other one that I already had into a freezer. And I also bought a toaster oven so I can cook really nice pieces of fish so they are perfectly tender and juicy (like SALMON..oh man!) and it is just amazing. The only problem: Now that I have all these "luxuries" I have been spending money GALORE on FOOD FOOD FOOD! I swear if I was not so obsessed with becoming and actress/spokesmodel/broadcaster...I would be a FOODIE! Too bad I probably couldnt be because I hardly eat enough food categories to actually judge the food! HA HA! I could be the FOODIE for MEAT/FISH and VEGGIES ha ha, ya...maybe in LA..where people are really obsessed with the foods they eat....I assume! ha ha! So did anyone hear about Anna Nicole Smith dying? I really think it was because of her TRIMSPA she takes!! She just collapsed: so who knows. I know she was under a lot of stress but I don't think that alone can kill you: well I guess the autopsy will tell the world, what killed her. It is sad but we learn from others mistakes!!
That's great that you have another fridge. It's going to be hard packng up at the end of the year. Good for you, though.
Thanks for the comment you left me. You're so right - planning is key!! My brother isn't on a diet as such... I think he has some kind of eating disorder. At first I thought he was anorexic because he eats very little, but he's also always bragging about how little he eats and how thin he is. Whereas when I was going through my anorexic phase as a teenager I was convinced I was fat. My brother seems to think he's even thinner than he really is. He told my husband he weighs 125 lb! Which hardly seems possible (he's 5'9" and thin but not that skinny)!
Wow it has been such a long time, but I have to say not too much has changed. The weather is getting a bit warmer this week, but I am sure it is only a FLUKE and will go back down to the teens next week, lovely. I have been doing a lot of school work lately so I have not been able to write and I also have not gotten a chance to write because my lap-top broke! I have been using my room mates computer for all of my school work that needs to be typed. Hopefully tomorrow I get it back!! Cross my fingers! Tomorrow I have a human biology test and I honestly have no idea what to expect...My teacher is almost too qualified in the field so he expects all of us students to understand the concepts without explanation which is certainly untrue, I mean if we knew the stuff we wouldnt take the class right? Oh well..anyways. I have been sick for the past couple days so yesterday I took the day off from working out..**GASP** I know, crazy for me right! But I think my body really really needed it so I am glad I did it, and I am sort of contimplating whether I should take a day off once a week..who knows, I always say I will but NEVER do..Oh well, I just do what I feel is best for me and right now I like working out 7 days a week, 90-100 minutes each time!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That is ALL I have to say!
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I'm sorry about this extra pound which won't go away. If you feel like your weight keeps going up despite doing everything the same, you have only two choices:
1) Do something different<br> 2) Get used to your new weight
Obviously I'm going to recommend the second option as you are so skinny and hot, but if you really cannot stand to live with this weight, maybe you should try the first option. I could not maintain what I weighed when I was a teenager without making some drastic changes over time. Looks like you are already working out quite a bit so all I can suggest is that you try to cut calories. I hate to say it because you have such a healthy diet, it's a shame to change it. I would really recommend that you learn to live with this one extra pound. It's natural to gain a little bit of weight as you get older and it will keep you from looking old and haggard. Not that you need to worry about that now, of course!
ARGH! WHAT IS UP WITH MY WEIGHT! it keeps going up up up despite doing EVERYTHING THE SAME! I am going to freak out if it continues! My resolution was to never weigh 100 or more pounds in the morning and so far thats fine, but I feel like I am on an up-ward trend!!!!! I have been snowboarding or using the elliptical trainer(on a very hard setting) for the past 2-3 weeks since being home and ugh, I just feel like I am GOING UP in weight! I felt this way at school and I thought coming home would change it but NO! ARGH! And I cannot talk to my mother about it because she is so skinny to begin with and I just feel like she will be thinking in her head: YES I WEIGH LESS THAN GIGI....Ugh, how ANNOYING! I have no one to talk to/ vent to, except to all of you: but I am sure you all think I am nuts too!!!
X-MAS=Success! Wahoo! Everything ran smoothly: including a great dinner~ I got an Ipod which really helped me get through my work out this morning because MAN WAS I LAGGING! Once I put in my little headphones: the rest is history: the time FLEW BY! When I woke up this morning I was super hungry: and I had a horrible case of heartburn(well it was not as bad as I have had before...but my chest was hurting for sure!)- this pain made my work out a pain (no pun intended) but once I got my Ipod out it was a breeze! I reccomend everyone invest in one, I swear: I was not a believe until this morning! For Lunch I SCARFED down bison & eggwhites mixed together: it took me 2 seconds to eat(NO JOKE!) After that I was still miserably hungry but did all of the dishes from the night before and cleaned the kitchen which took a little more than an hour. My stomach was not letting up so I ate 5 slices of NORI(seaweed that is wrapped around sushi rolls) and I am doing alright now. I have been drinking a lot of water too which is also helping: so maybe I was just thirsty! I never drink enough water until later in the day: oh well! Its snowing like crazy outside right now, which makes me happy that I did not go snowboarding today because I would have been miserable! Its a complete whiteout! Hopefully tomorrow is not so bad, yet there is enough snow to make snowboarding enjoyable!!
Thanks for your comment. Yeah, I know Super Size Me was supposed to put people off fast food, but all those burgers and fries just got both me and my husband craving it like crazy! He really is a diet downfall, by the way - he's 6'4" and super athletic so he can eat whatever he wants without gaining an ounce. I've tried to get him to eat healthier but admittedly if I could eat whatever I wanted with no fear of gaining weight I'd probably live off pizza and ice-cream too!
Alright I am back from doing some errands in town! My mother bought me a new snowboard of Christmas and it is quite SEXY! It is snake skin!!!! It's amazing! I know it may SOUND tacky but trust me I would not buy anything tacky, this board is sleek and sexy: just trust me on this! If I can find a picture of it I will post it sometime!!! So anyways, who is excited for XMAS? What did everyone ask for from "santa"? ha ha! I think I know a couple things I am getting and cannot wait to un-wrap them tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow night, it is a French Tradition. As for what will be cooking...I am not too sure. I know for Xmas day we are having fish and something else, obviously I do not care too much about the "something else" because I am sure it is some red meat that I dont eat. Lets hope I can cook loads of side veggies to fill me up nicely!! Today I used the elliptical trainer for 85 min, and trust me it was hard. My machine at home happens to be stuck on setting #5 so it is pretty tough!!!! It was good to feel as if I got a good work out though because for the past two days my work outs were...LACK-LUSTER: due to not know what I was doing in terms of traveling!! Oh and on another note I got one of my grades back from this past semester: an A in guess which class: NUTRITION! my 2nd A in college(in a class) go me!!! Well I am going to go hang out with the family!
THANK GOD I am finally at home! Yesterday was quite the disaster even though I had a flight schedualed and everything! I was suppose to fly out @ 12:45 but I did not end up leaving until 5pm. Thank goodness my flight was only an hour and a quarter or else it would have been miserable. I landed in Jackson Hole at 6:26 and got home by 7:10 or so. So despite waiting ALL day in the airport (I rushed out of my dorm room @ 10am to get to the airport) and being bored as ever, it was worth it to atleast get home last night. Well I am going to go but I will write more later!!!
AHHHHHHH! SNOWED IN! I have been snowed in for the past 24 hours and I am not too happy! Granted I have a better situation than others because I have a garenteed flight out of here tomorrow @ 3pm, but still, 2 days behind schedual is NOT ok with me!!! So it has snowed 2 feet in the past 24 hours and it is beautiful yet annoying! All the roads are closed, the air port is closed, everything is closed...so it is as if we are ALL stranded in BOULDER until the roads and airport re-open...The airport is re-opening tomorrow @ 12. Today was a forced NO WORK OUT DAY, which I guess is alright, and I am trying not to go too nuts over it. I walked to the gym in the 2 feet of snow only to read a sign on the door stating the gym was closed for the day, and may even be closed tomorrow 2! I really hope it is not closed tomorrow because I am not sure if I could do 2 days with out a work out! 1 day kills me enough! My mom said I should take walks out side....but obviously she does not know HOW BADLY boulder PLOWS because I can hardly make it out the door! Too bad I do not have any of my snow gear here!! So right now I am cuddled up in my PJs, in a large blanket with my LARGE cup of Banana Flavored coffee....counting the minutes until I can get out of here! I really do not have it as bad as other people though, some are not leaving until Christmas DAY! How depressing is that!! My dad thinks it is un-exceptable to not have his kids home for the holidays(my brother is in the same position as me, he goes to colorado college) so he pulled some strings...I love my dad so much!!
So I totally failed my math final yesterday: but that is not why I am here writing! I just went to Whole Foods and picked up some dinner, but I think I may have went a little over board (as usual)...I made an EXTREMELY large sald...probably about 3-4 pounds, and I got 2 pieces of salmon, a pint of brussel sprouts, 7 large shrimp & a tiny container of sauteed onions & peppers! I am already scared to eat because I know I am going to eat everything and feel guilty! NO: why am I all of a sudden starting to feel guilty about the foods I eat again! Just because I gained 2 pounds and then just recently lost one, I am not having an inward coniption fit that is taking over my thoughts! My thoughts really need to be focused on my Journalism final tomorrow morning @ 10:30! Ahh, How can I fall back into this GUILT trip from eating! NO NO NO! It cannot happen! I am going to ENJOY my dinner and thats the end of it!!!! I dont think it helps much that my roommate can EAT EVERYTHING and not gain a pound, instead she loses weight. I mean I am not saying I gain like 23904797234 pounds but I just feel like I have gained so much weight lately. My roomie always talking about eating and her weight too and that she is "bummed" that she lost weight: can you believe her! ha!!! Oh well! I guess I just have to manage one more night! I leave tomorrow for home for a whole month!!!! I am so excited! There I can control what goes in my food and in my mouth! And it will be all GREAT FOOD for me: well not that what I picked up from Whole Foods isnt! Alright, back to studying Journalism: hopefully I can concentrate!!!!
Well, I hope your Journalism final went well. At least now you can look forward to a month off! Hope you get to enjoy some time with your parents, as well as some of your father's fine cooking!
I have my math final today @ 4:30! Wish me luck! I have been trying to study but I get a little distracted. I cannot wait until this test is over because "what's done is done!". Oh and let me just say: THIS IS MY LAST MATH TEST EVER because I WILL NEVER HAVE TO TAKE ANOTHER MATH CLASS AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! I do not have a final tomorrow, but it will be a day dedicated to studying for Journalism: that test is on Wednesday @ 10:30. Then @ 8:30pm Wednesday night I am off to Jackson Hole, for my month long winter break! I am so excited to not have to think about a thing for a whole month! YES!
Good luck with your finals!
Hi everyone! I am still alive, just incase you were wondering! I have been working pretty hard so I can complete my first semester in college on a good note! It ends this Friday with finals the following Monday & Wednesday: then at 8:30pm on Wednesday I am off to Jackson Hole: for a whole month! What am I going to do with myself! I am sure I will eat myself into a coma because my father's cooking is amazing, and I will have missed it so much that I will not be able to control myself: but we shall see! I really wish I had more will-power when it came to portion-sizes! I have the types of food groups I should be eating down but...when it comes to their size, Im really bad! Tonight @ school for dinner they had baked Catfish, and I really like their fish they serve so I put three fillets on my plate and then I went back for seconds and had 2 and a half more! I dont even want to know if they use butter to cook it or if they roll the fillets in flour first....they can just keep it to themselves because I thought it tasted pretty good and thats all that matters. I always wondered why chefs roll fish fillets in flour 1st, they are just asking for trouble!!!
Hi everyone! I am so sorry I have not written in FOREVER! With Thanksgiving Break and now being back with 3 weeks left in the semester, things are getting a bit hec-tic, to say the least. I have two LARGE papers due soon and two finals, I know it is not that bad, but still, I would just like a good grade. Things are not too bad except the fact that I feel like I am gaining so much weight! I dont know why! I mean I know I gained like a pound over break (because of my father's fabulous cooking, that I had to gorge on because I needed to be well nurished before I came back to school) but now back at school, I just feel like the pounds keeps GOING UP UP UP! I work out every day just like I used to, and I have not introduced ANY new foods into my diet: I still only eat LEAN meats and veggies. I mean the only thing I can think of is...my portion sizes, but I have always eatten large PORTIONS and if it is large PORTIONS of vegetables: ITS OK! This is crazy, and my body is playing tricks on me, before I was ok with it, because I knew it would last for a week (the bloated week) and then go back to normal, but it just seems like the bloated week has lasted about a month now! Its very aggrivating and actually kept me up the other night!
Hope your weight goes back down again soon... if not maybe you could try a couple of days of portion control just to see if that makes a difference!
I understand completely about being piled under with papers and finals!! Talk about stress!!! Good luck!
Are you ALL READY FOR THE TURKEY!!!!
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AH I AM HOME AND JUST ATE AN AMAZING MEAL that was problaby 1000 calories: And it will be repeated for the rest of the 10 days that I am here, WAHOO! I am so excited! Well as long as I get enough excersice to ne-gate the calories I eat: I will be fine!!! Must think positively! ha!!!
Hi, I know I have not been here in a while but I am back! And I dont have very good news about my body issues and stuff. Lately I have been feeling pretty sick and nauseous to my stomach and its not fun. I also feel as though I am gaining weight and that is not fun either. I mean I am still hovering around the weight I am fond of, but I am not hovering on the low side, but on the high side. I also wish I knew why my stomach hurt, I am avoiding all OIL from the dining hall (except for the grilled chicken but I even blot it with napkins galore so I dont think that is causing problems with my stomach--I have also not had it for a few days) so I dont know, I am just doing some trial and error to see whats up.
On another note: I am leaving to go home for the 1st time since August on Thursday!!! I cannot wait! I thought I did not have class on Friday but I actually did, oh well I guess I will be missing it! Lets just hope that some good home cooked meals will make my stomach feel a lot better than it does here, even though I only eat clean foods such as the salad bar veggies and turkey slices, grilled chicken and fish. Tomorrow I am going to try hard boiled eggs with my rice bran powder that I used to eat every day, so we shall see! **NEW PICTURE OF ME BELOW**
Does anyone find it weird that I do not really like to go out at night? I mean I am a college freshman, I should be gaining my beer gut/freshman 40 with everyone else, shouldnt I?--HAHA! Its just annoying to go out a lot because well, I dont drink so everyone drunk looks stupid to me, unless I am in a "energetic mood"...I mean I normally am always pretty peppy but my "energic mood" comes when I have tons of caffinee but I dont want to drink that at night because my sleep is so important! Well tonight I dont really want to go out because I worked really hard today on my homework and that whiped me out: and I ate some of those onions sauteed in oil today at lunch because I am stupid: but they taste so good, and got a stomach ache that pretty much lasted all day and I still sort of have it now, so going out would be a little uncomfortable. So am I being paranoid about my habits or not? Any opinions? Oh and I am still open for more microwave recipes that have to do with meat & vegetables thanks!!
You have your own mind and ideas and are not influenced by the idiots around you. That says a lot about you as a person. Keep on! You'r doing just fine.
Boy do I miss a kitchen! When my mother came this past weekend I abused the kitchenette that came with her hotel room! Both nights I broiled KING salmon & Scallops: I died and went to heaven both nights! Ah man if only my room had an oven: I could have amazing food everynight! Granted I do have nice frozen fish and ostrich fillets in my freezer, but everything tastes better cooked in an oven...NOT a MICROWAVE OVEN! haha! Hm, well since I have to manage with this microwave: does anyone have an good ideas of what to cook in it? I am starting to get bored with my steamed vegetables & fish, but I feel that is the only thing I can do...now remember I only eat meat and vegetables, so if any of you have any inovative ideas: let me in on em! HAHA! Thanks guys I appriciate it, get me out of my food rut!
Or tofu. Do you like tofu? That's a good source of protein as well.
What in the world do you eat for breakfast? Veggies and fish?
I like the way a microwave cooks fish and vegetables. I cooked a Hubbard squash yesterday in 7 min. and it turned out perfectly. And how about a casserole dish like lasagna or eggplant?
And yeh, what DO you eat for breakfast? LOL
YES: TOMORROW IS FRIDAY! MY MOM IS COMING SATURDAY NIGHT&SHE IS GOING TO BE STAYING@A HOTEL THAT HAS A KITCHEN SO I AM GOING TO BE ABLE TO COOK! THANK GOD! I NEED SOME ACTUAL COOKED FOOD! WHILE IT IS GOOD TO EAT RAW VEGETABLES COOKED ONES WORK WONDERING IN THE COLD WEATHER I AM EXPERENCING RIGHT NOW! IT IS COLD HERE: AND SNOWED LIKE 5 INCHES OR SO, BUT THATS ALL GONE BECAUSE@BOULDER THE SUN IS MOSTLY ALWAYS SHINING SO THE SNOW MELTS QUICK!
Well tonight I had a pretty nice meal: I went to my friends house and made wonderful King Salmon, oh how much I love that fish: the only problem is, even when I know I am stuffed, I go for more and then I get even more stuffed and feel uncomfortable as if I am going to pop. I eat as if I am never going to eat again, it is weird and strange but true. Oh well, I do it a lot and my bloat always goes down the next day, but stuffing my face like this sort of stunts the social life at times, because yes yes I get a tiny bit gassy..ok tiny bit is an under statement! haha, well I dont care about stuffing my face tonight because I am tired anyways and well...I need shovel it in every so often because the food in the cafeteria...isnt exactly Jacques Pepin or anything: haha! For the last 2 days I have not had any class, how nice is that: all my teacher's decided @ the same time to give me a break! HAHA. Well actually no thats not true...but I will just keep thinking that. I have a pretty good routine here at school these days. Wake up, go to the gym(take the long way to get there so I can spend less time on the treadmil), get dressed and go eat lunch and then class and such...and whatever else I need to do. By the end of the day I feel as if I excersice did not take up my day because I can still fit in socializing! Back in high school I felt like my work outs consumed my life because I would be on the treadmil from 9-11 or so and then the rest of my day would be pretty much shot. Now I actually have things to do after I excersice in the morning and I am only on the treadmil for 60-90 min a day because walking around campus gets ALL my required steps: it works out beautifully! Sadly, winter is quickly approching so...it will get nice and chilly out and very un-inviting in terms of walking, but I will still have to walk 2 class so...I will still get some steps in. But for now I need to live in the moment and appriciate the weather for what it is now!
Me & My Roomie Emily!
GOSH I LOVE OSTRICH and EEL! AND MAN DO I MISS HOME SO I CAN COOK THESE THINGS: NICER THAN IN A MICROWAVE!!!! UGH...BUT ATLEAST I GET TO EAT THEM SOMEHOW!
Ugh: I just ate sooo much and I did not really want to because I actually wanted to do something tonight without feeling self-concious that I am all bloated and stuff. But everyone HAS to give me credit: I have not chewed ANY gum today so far and normally I chew around 7 packs a day! (its disgusting!) So let me tell you what I just ate and I am so stuffed my stomach is sticking out a good 3 inches or more than it normally does: maybe all this rough-age will uh, if you know what I mean: haha!! (sooner rather than later would be good) So I just ate: eel (about 3-4 ounces, my absolute FAVORITE fish ever!!!), one BAG of frozen spinach, one BAG of green beans, 2 1/2 LARGE salads with a few tomatoes, onion slices,bell pepper slices, and I put some salsa and mustard on top. ugh, woah I am stuffed stuffed stuffed: what can I do to make my stomach chill: I would drink tea but it is so hot in the dorm room that I may MELT! Oh well, my room mate may come back around 8:30...probably drunk, but she is a mature drunk and we will probably watch some more desperate housewives and relax and talk, I really like my roomate because we are so much a like: its pretty cool! I also felt like I ate a lot of lunch yesterday but who knows anymore! I also feel like I am gaining weight here dispite eatting normally and working out regularly too....I dont know maybe I just am thinking too much about it and miss my normal home routine...but I am pretty much comfortable at school and everything and I wont be going home until thanksgiving so I need to suck it up and really focus on PORTION CONTROL!!!! Portion control is my DOWN-FALL for sure! I eat all the right foods but WAY TOO MUCH of them!!!
Its Sunday once again, and I am just thinking about the week ahead. I have my first math test on Tuesday and I am having a fit because I am not so good at math. I have done all the material before but it just WONT stick in my head and when I get fusterated I cry, and I feel stupid in front of my smart room mate who tries to help me with my studies. Atleast she is understanding, but I am sure she is thinking in her head that I am a complete idiot and sort of pathetic. For my nutrition class I am reading the book: FAST FOOD NATION. Anyone read it? I am not yet as the goary stuff but hopefully it is coming soon because so far this book is mighty boring. I feel very sorry for all those who have to work at franchises because not only do they not pay very well, they are also very dangerous, depending on the location. I never eat at fast food so I dont think I have to worry about that. Even if I did not pass college I would not work at a fastfood restaurant, I would find another job that did not require a college degree. (this does not mean I am going to drop out of college any time soon..its not allowed in my family and i really want to make it big!) On the food side of things, the turkey in the caferteria is getting old, I still like turkey but I feel like sundays are a bad day to eat it because WHO KNOWs how long they have had it stashed in the refrigerator. I am not sure how much I can trust the caferterias food interms on freshness either, after watching a hidden camera documentary at a FOOD LION grocery store I am not sure i can trust any food anywhere anymore: except for frozen foods!!!
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-------Well tonight was quite interesting.----- Since I do not like the food that is made in the cafeteria, I stick with the salad bar as I am sure I have said many of times. Normally I bring a piece of meat in a tubber-ware container down to the cafeteria too so I can balance out my meal (its all about the balance). Well, when I went back for my normal 2nds at the salad bar for cherry tomatoes, this GROUCHY lady (who works and refills the salad bar) got very mad at me for getting seconds (I mean I do get a lot of tomatoes, but this is an ALL YOU CAN eat thing PLUS I pay 2 thousand PLUS a semester: I AM GOING TO EAT AS MUCH AS I WANT!) So I took the tomatoes with me and ate them, and then I went back for more just to make her more angry and the second she saw me, she ran to get the manager of the cafeteria and he said he was telling me I could not take food out because he saw my tubber-ware container, yet I was NOT taking out any food! I was so angry, I kept saying this is rediculous because I am paying so much money for CRAPPY food to begin with! Oh and that grouchy lady, guess what she was doing when I was getting talked to: LAUGHING, ok a woman of that age really should not be SO immature. The best part was, my friend was standing next to her, and he was like "is laughing really neccessary" and she kind of walked away but he stopped her and asked her again, and get this: she said yes: can we get any more immature!! I will continue to eat AS MANY tomatoes as I want! And the man I spoke with said I could, the only thing he told me was I couldnt take food out of the cafeteria, and I never planned on doing so, I told him I only brough meat down with me! He was not so bad after I explained that to him, but I also did tell him that the woman was criticizes my food habits and I felt threatened, and if she does that again I will report her for sure! She needs to just do her job, not hassle me! Does anyone agree with me?!
Like you did before, I'd talk to the people who prepare the food. You want them to be your friends. Better,go to the #1 person about what you'd like. Get some other students who feel like you do to support you. You might just end up with a choice of foods to your liking.
Keep speaking out. That's what you need todo.
I also think that the cafeteria should be glad that you brought your own meat. You actually are saving them money by doing so.
Can the cafeteria ever get it right?! Tonight I was a little excited because salmon was on the menu, and it said it was grilled, so I thought YES it is safe: BUT NO! It was glazed in peanut something rather! Instead of being too picky I got it though and when no one want looking, took the fish and wrapped it in 5 billion napkins in order to take off the sauce! And you know what, that worked! The sauce was off and it actually tasted like the fish. After I finished it I wanted more, but it is just way too much effort to whip off a sauce that is already LATHERED all over a perfectly good piece of fish. So instead I just went to the deli bar and what else: grabbed more turkey! I swear I am going to turn into a turkey or a cherry tomato SOON! That is basically my diet staple at school! Thankfully my mom will be here in a week and she is staying in a condo type hotel with a kitchenette: so who is going to be cooking amazing food? OH ME! Too bad it will probably be only one night that she is here because on Monday we have to eat out with my grandfather. Come to think of it, we will probably have to eat out with him again on Tuesday night too, scratch that!
Ah yes, Friday: Amazing! I told myself today I would have a great day and so far so good: No homework in my writing class or any other class really for that matter except for math! It makes me feel like I can really relax this weekend! So the cafeteria is not supplying me with any good meals lately and I am sad. They say they have fish yet, when they do it is always breaded and fried and I do not consumer breaded foods (or bread in general) and I especially do NOT eat fried foods! So Salad Bar it is! Lately I have been bringing my own protien to the cafeteria but it gets a little annoying because people ask TOO many questions, BUT I decided I dont really care what people think.
I love sundays. Except for the thought that tomorrow is Monday, but it is nice to know that my classes don't start until 12 and I only have two(that are 50 min. long). Today I am not doing much of anything (same with yesterday). I have had a head cold the past 3 days so I am taking it easy, but of course I am still going to the gym because if I didn't I would probably freak out! But I am taking it a little easier, I am not getting as many steps as I normally would: NORMAL: around 20,000 steps...WEEKEND: around 15,000 steps. My body is craving sleep and relaxation considering I am trying to live up to the college life and stay up until midnight or later every night. (the past 2 nights were NO exceptions, even though I was sick). Although yesterday morning I almost did not even go to the gym but after I woke up and got out of bed I forced myself to put on work out clothes and told my roomie I convinced myself: she was shocked! haha. This morning I once again woke up pretty late for me but made it to the gym still!! I worked out really hard too because I feel like I am not working out as hard as I used to(like when I was back home). I hope this does not affect my body/weight in the long run!!! But if it does, I know exactly what to do inorder to get back to where I want to be(right now I am perfect and DO NOT want to change at all!) Everyday I eat two meals a day from the salad bar at school. I pile on those cherry tomatoes & bell peppers, along with many slices of their deli turkey (it looks semi-decent) and sometimes they have sauteed & or steamed veggies I can take from the HOT FOOD section. I get a little nervous taking the sauteed stuff because who knows what kind of goop they cook it in but Oh Wel, I just ignore those thoughts in the back of my head and eat up. Tonight my roomie and I are going to WHOLE FOODS for dinner because that place is amazing, has the best salad bar, and best pre-made food ever! Plus we are going to pick up some groceries for our room. Too bad we don't have a car though, because carrying our groceries may be ANNOYING:but atleast there is a bus for some of the way! Well hey: carrying groceries= upper body work out, something that I fail to do often and SHOULD really work on!!!
Well tonight I tried something different and you know what: it worked! So the other day I bought a steamer so I could steam food in my microwave and I also bought scallops, and let me tell you: 12 min. later, the scallops were ready to go, ready to jump in my stomach. I brought them down with me to the food hall so I could get my normal assortment of veggies and you know what, it was good. I also had some turkey and diced egg because, well scallops dont do that great of a job filling me up, but if I ate a lot of them they would! haha! So dinner was a sucess tonight, plus the dining hall had Italian Veggies so I took my fare share of scoops from that "bin" hahah! Let's just hope they were steamed in water and not something FUNKY! (it did not taste that way....I dont think, I will be paying for it in about 2 hours other wise! haha) Last night I went to my friends house to cook food and I almost threw up because I ate SO much! I ate SO MUCH salmon that it really hurt my stomach and also made me go to the bathroom...ya not a good thing to happen when you live in a college co-ed dorm! haha! But I managed to make it through with out making anyone look twice at me. All in all I think things are ok here, but my stomach still has been hurting a little bit, well probably today because I ate so much last night. Lets hope I feel NORMAL tomorrow!
Im am not going to lie, I am geting sort of sick of eating sliced turkey EVERY day @ every meal! So tomorrow I think I am going to microwave eggs in my dorm room and then for dinner go over to my friends house near school and cook fish & yummy foods! I am excited because I miss home cooked meals. If we dont do that, we are atleast going out, I need to go out, except I need to activate my credit card or else I have no money and that would be a bit of a problem! haha! Tonight in the food hall the only different thing I ate was eggplant, but they did not cook it very well, but atleast it was not SWIMMING in olive, it was actually naked! YAY! Finally they are catching on to my likes and dislikes! haha! Too bad they have yet to make naked fish! haha! Who wants to hear whats on the dinner menu tomorrow night: Chicken Fajitas(Tofu too) Baked Halibut with herbed butter Grilled Onions and peppers Pinto beans Cilantro Lime Rice Mexicorn&Nachos with cheese Almond Fudge & Banana Cake --Actually that menu does not sound 1/2 bad, I like the halibut part SANS butter and the grilled onions and peppers too...hmmmm. Oh well I have all year to eat this stuff, tomorrow will be a nice treat at my friends house!
argh. i am pretty bored today. and my stomach hurts again. i have been eating way too many cherry tomatoes and the cafeteria has some sauteed onions swimming in either oil or god knows what and i am being stupid and eating them because they taste good. the cook said that they were in olive oil but i highly doubt it. i really think they are making my stomach hurt so i am going to stop eating them for a couple days and see if i feel any better. my eating habits lately have been pretty routine. go straight for the salad bar and load up on tomatoes, spinach, bell pepper, egg whites, olives, turkey, mushrooms and whatever else they have on the bar. my salad dressing of course is mustard so i dont need to worry about calories from a strange looking dressing: i would never trust dressing EVER! i really miss my father's cooking though. my parents actually took me out to dinner last night to a sushi restaurant and i had an amazing eel stew along with some sashimi and boiled spinach (and of course miso soup) that could maybe be the reason why my tummy hurts too: miso soup: soy and i dont really get a long very well. oh well, i will eat some naked tummy soothing foods tonight and maybe take it easy tonight....sort of like i did last night. i think people around here are starting to realize that i kinda like to go to bed early but you know what i dont care: if they dont like it then screw them! ha
I don't eat full-fat salad dressing, either, but I'll often put some salsa on my salads if I don't have my low-fat kind with me. Have you ever tried salsa?
Miso soup always makes me feel really bloated, so I know how you feel!
I know you eat a ton of veggies and good protein, but do you eat fruit?
And maybe some rice would help your stomach. It's a safe food to eat.
Anyway...I hope you feel better soon!
(the point system you asked about is for the challenge that BTC is keeping track of in her entries. Most of us just want to lose a good 5 pounds! It's so hard)
Do you have a roommate or are you fortunate enough to have your own room? I know in most schools it's impossible to have a private room the first year.
I never tried mustard on salad, but I'm going to give it a try. Doing so when out would be a real calorie saver I can see, like squeezing lime or lemon on vegetables. It's delicious.
Do you have a microwave and/or mini-fridge in your room? That would be great if you did!
I know you love sushi and eat a lot of it. I don't mean to be an alarmist, but I read an article about a woman who had made some using freshwater fish. Later, she had stomach problems. Finally a doctor was able to diagnose her problem as a tapeworm which is a problem when freshwater fish is used in sushi.
I just wanted to alert you to this so you would be aware of what fish you were eating. I am not suggesting that that is the cause of your current stomach problems.
Well its GAME DAY #1(FOR CU FOOTBALL) and what am I doing, relaxing in my room, cleaning up, doing laundry, and listening to all the drunk people outside my window. I dont feel to "dandy" right now because @ lunch today they did not have very much edible protien(suitable for my diet) so I asked the cook for 5 hard boiled eggs, and ate 4 of the white parts and one whole egg, along with a lot of sauteed onions, and a TON of cherry tomatoes like....atleast 60 or so! And I also ate some tomato paste when I came back to my room (just because I really did not feel that full after I ate all of those tomatoes at lunch). Now my stomach feels a bit funny, kind of like I am growing tomatoes in my stomach: haha! Lets just hope it feels better, I mean I can lay down and just relax the whole day because I have no plans. Although tonight my parents are driving through Boulder and taking me out to dinner, so I guess that is something. Maybe after dinner I will lay low and sneak back into my room, turn off my phone and ignore everyone around me, because I am sort of getting annoyed with going out every night: I just want to relax a couple days!!! People are also starting to realize that I like to go to bed before midnight, but if they dont like them, then they are not worth it! ha! I used to go to bed by 9:30 so you know what, I have changed my ways just a bit!
In my dorm room before class: Entry Below!
Well Sorry About Not Writing Sooner. I have been trying to get acclimated with school and such. So I am @ CU (University of Colorado @ Boulder) and today happens to be my first day of classes. My schedual is pretty sweet too: I have no class earlier than 11 so I can work out in the morning with out a worry in my mind that I am missing class! Today my first class is @ noon with my second class @ 2. Not too bad, and each of them are only 50 min. long.
Its really nice @ this campus because I walk around EVERYWHERE! Normally @ home I am on the treadmil for 120 min a day, but here I only have to go on for about 55 to 60 min, and I still manage to get ALL of my steps in( if some of you dont already know, I wear a pedometer like it is a watch, HAHA!) Lately I have been avereaging 25,000 steps a day, which is pretty sweet!! So I have talked to a lot of the chefs and managers in the cafeterias and told them all about my needs when it comes to food and it seems as if they are really accomodating. They have a pretty nice salad bar so I can load up with veggies, and basically I have come to the conclusion that I will probably have to bring some sort of protien with me every day, although they did have salmon yesterday (probably farm raised, but right now I dont care too much). Yesterday I went to Wild Oats and bought a veggie/meat steamer and a egg omlete maker, both for the microwave, so if I really need to I can cook meats, veggies & eggs in my room: YES YES it will probably smell but I do have FABREEZE! haha! So far I am not too home sick, but I guess thats because I am trying to be independant and I can do whatever I want, so I feel comfortable! No one is standing in my way. I am my own person who can make her own decisions! Well I am going to go to lunch because I have class @ noon, so I need to eat something before I go.
And talking to the chefs and people at the cafeteria, BRILLIANT! WOW! I would never have thought of that!
GG! You are well on your way to a very ssuccessful year! Oh, how I wish I could join you! GO GIRL!
Oh man, I cant believe this. It's actually coming. I am going to Boulder basically TOMORROW (well on Monday but its Saturday night, so...) And I am starting to get pretty nervous and I already miss my parents. I really shouldnt though because I know they will come visit me a lot but, initially it is going to be hard. I know there is email and phones, but that is not the same as being in person. I think that going to college will make my relationship with my parents stronger though because we will have a lot more to talk about. We'll see.
Ugh, Right now I am really not liking this FULL feeling I have. My stomach is SOOOOO full that it may burst and it has been like this for the past 3 hours or so. It probably occured because my father started to cook dinner @ 5 and so I started to snack, and dinner did not start until 7, and through those 2 hours of waiting, I was snacking the whole time! I ate practically a whole head of cabbage, a can of tomato paste, some olives, mustard, salad (with flax dressing), & cherry tomatoes. Then when dinner was finally served, and I had to eat some (HEHE, always do) I had chicken (pretty much a pound worth...breast of course) and putenesca on top, with shavings of cabbage. Man was I STUFFED after that! Tomorrow night I wll NOT SNACK atleast until 6!! Tomorrow my father is making me a good bye dinner, and everyone is invited, now isnt that nice! haha! Ill let you allknow what we have and how it goes! Gosh, I am really going to miss my family dinners. Most kids HATE eating with their parents, but because my fathers cooking is so good and my parents happen to be my closest friends, I love them!
PICTURE OF ME AND MY MOM BELOW!
As for school, the only thing I'd worry about is that food card for the cafeteria that allows you to have anything and everything you want. I couldn't handle the temptation day after day, but you're much more prepared and won't abuse the card I like I did one summer at Florida University. I was only there for 6-7 weeks in the summer and shared a room with a woman from Miami. The entire group was comprised of adults and boy! everyone ate like it was his last meal on earth. I can't remember how many pounds I gained but probably at least ten.
You have a lot of discipline and will be able to ignore all of those fattening no-no foods and desserts.
To illustrate just how bad I was, I normally never, ever eat dessert, but that summer I'd have one for lunch AND dinner!
I hope you have a nice roommate, and if you're fortunate enough to have a private room, that'd be even better but that's not usual for freshmen.
We'll all be waiting to hear your update and impressions. Hurry back!
Me & My Mom. The guy in the background is my sister's boyfriend, and you can see my sister's arm behind my mother.
Well, although this is an updated picture of me....I got my hair done today so I look a little different but not much. So next week, I am going to college, I hope I can handle it. With my picky food habits and such it may be a bit of a problem, but I know I can adjust after I settle in a little bit. Plus I am bringing my George Foreman Grill, haha! Never used one before but, I will be an avid George Foreman Griller SOON ENOUGH! HaHa! I watched the Food Network Channel and there was a competition about who made the best food on one of those grills and if they have another one, I am signing up! haha! Right! I dont use enough unhealthy food in my cooking to be qualified. In Boulder there is a lot of places to walk to I know I can get my steps in....15,000 steps taked me about 100 min. and I normally walk for 120 or more every day, I am a little anal about getting all my steps too I wish I werent so much but in Boulder I KNOW I will be able to get them! There is a gym there too of course: free membership! WAHOO So right now I just need to get packing except I am not really sure what I need to bring! Awsome, good luck to me! haha!
I didn't have the dorm experience because I went to school in town, but living at home was similar to being in a hotel. It was only a place to sleep, bathe and change clothes. The rest of the time if I wasn't in class or studying, then I was either working or partying which I really did a lot of. There was no healthy walking or exercise for me! OH, no, just frat parties and lots of beer. I can't remember food. It wasn't on my mind and I never had a problem with my weight the whole time I was in school. I was so busy I guess I just burned up all the excess calories, if I had any.
Boulder. What a great setting for school! Lucky you!
Oh Man, I told myself I wanted to be full tonight, and you know what: I never seem to surprise myself! haha, atleast what I cooked for myself was good. Some putenessca tomato sauce mixed with cooked cabbage and scallops: hmmm....It stinks though living in Wyoming because the scallops are not fresh so they tasted like bland chewy balls, but I mean scallops are scallops! haha. Maybe if I really feel like shelling out 20 bucks per pound I can treat myself, but then again I can spend 20 bucks on something better than scallops!
So I have another three day break until work. I worked yesterday and looked at the schedual and it said I work again Friday: which makes me happy. I love just lounging around. The best part though is that my sister still have to get up to go to work, so I still get up bright and early with her to go for our 15,000 step walk! Its imbedded in our minds that we must get that amount of steps or more, or else we feel unsatisfied. Its easy for me to get these steps when I go out with her in the morning because if I dont get them all, I can come back home knowing I can finish up my steps on the treadmil later. But...when I come home after the walk, I normally go straight back to bed! hahahahha!! I loveee lovee lovee that part, because than when I wake up I dont feel like I have to do 2 hours of treadmil!! :) Splitting up the walking rocks!
Oh and by the way, I am super nervous about college: I dont know how I am going to adapt..but I know I will I mean I went to boarding school for 2.5 years: I know how it works! And college will be way more leinyant than boarding school! STOP WORRYING!!!! (yes I am talking to myself!)
I know that you don't eat sugar...do you ever crave it? How long have you been "off" sugar?
And how long does it take you to walk 15,000 steps?
I couldn't handle six classes a day in high school, so each semester I'd choose a different class to sleep through. I simply couldn't stay awake and alert, so I'd try to find some big guy to hide behind, preferably in the back of the room. And I would really sleep! It was almost an art form. I sure wish I could now!
OO I did something I never thought I would ever do in my whole life!!! FLY!
No not fly in an airplane, I have done that multiple times, what I mean is really FLY! Thats right I went paragliding! How amazing is that!! The experience was quite exhilerating!! And the view, spectacular! It is definately one way to grasp the views in Jackson Hole, Wyoming!! What also wasn't that bad, was that my guide was hitting on me the entire time and even offered to take me again free @ night so we can watch the sun set together, how nice is that! Way to boost my ego too! haha!
OO and I was just informed that I earned $500 for modeling in the catelog that will be out in October! Gosh I love modeling, I must find more gigs! hahah!!!
That extra money from modeling will come in handing at school, that's for sure.
Well, enjoy the end of your summer break before the routine begins again. Vacation is always too short.
You're about to begin an exciting part of your life and education. I'm sure you will have a great experience and am looking forward to your postings when school starts. Don't forget us!
This is the newsest picture of me...and there is a diary entry below it!
What a beautiful picture! Is that your natural eye colour or do your wear contacts? Its really really pretty! Hope all is going well with your shoots?
Wx
Well last night I went to a wedding and at the beginning of the night I was not in the best of moods. There were amazing appetizers and huge platters of grilled veggies that I could not keep my hands off, but after my 3rd small plate my mother was eyeing me as though I should stop eatting! Give me a break it is vegetables and it is not like I could really eat much of the set menu for the dinner anyway because it would be doused in sauces & or dressings! So after the dinner, i realized I ate a little too many vegetables and started to get a little, gassy, but when the songs I love to "get down" to came on, I was the star of the dance floor....well thats what people told me. It was fun, except at first I was the least bt thrilled because EVERYONE had a significant other! I was the ODD person out, what else is new! My sister and her boyfriend, my brother andhis girlfriend, my parents, and I garentee everyone else at the wedding was in a relationship, except for my cousin...but she's pretty annoying at times and although shes older than me, she acts younger and she drinks like a fish. I dont drink so thats just one of the many things we dont have in common! haha! All in all I had a good time last night, and dancing the way I did no doubt burned off all the "caloric" veggies I ate...ya right mom! Oh and there was Halibut too, dont worry I had more than just vegetables!!
You are thinking negatively about not having a boyfriend. You should count your blessings! Whatever you do, don't hook up with a guy simply to say you have a boyfriend, or in my day, you would say, "steady".
When I would be home on a Saturday night and my mother would ask why, I'd tell her that I had been asked out by several guys, but I preferred to be home alone than in company I didn't care for. It just wasn't worth it.
Wow, I have extremely low blood sugar at the moment, and I cannot do a thing about it because I do not eat between meals. I have felt this way all day dispite the fact of eating at meal times. My sister and her boyfriend wanted me to go tubbing with them, but as my lame self I said go on without me, I swear they think I am the most un-fun person. Its not true though, I just have been a bit depressed lately which is leaching my energy and enthusiasum for things right out of my body. It really sucks, but I think this depression is because I am going through a strange transition. I do not want to make new friends just yet because I am just going to lose them in less than a month. I just need to wait for college, I guess I can handle one more month of being depressed. I also think this depression is starting to seep through because my sister has a boyfriend who she seems very happy to be with, and my brother has a girlfriend who is coming to visit for a week (today) and he seems absoutely smitten with her (ill keep you updated on what they are like together, from what my mother tells me its like soft-porn..ugh!)
Tonight I am going to be the odd person out too, which will fuel my depression even more, but I have promised myself not to cry and try and be the life of the dinner, eventhough I am super tired and can hardly move. Tonight we are having wild-copper river salmon, pepper salad, fried chicken(like I am eating that) and tons of grilled veggies and salad and who knows what else. Since 4 out of the 7 people eat whatever they want, I am sure there will be more goodies like the fried chicken avaliable to them! haha! I am kinda pissed though cause dinner tonight is going to be late, like 8 o'clock, if I am lucky it will atleast start @ 7:30. It drives me crazy to eat late because I normally get really hungry before dinner and end up snacking all the way until dinner and then eat a large dinner when the whole SHA-BANG is actually ready. I also promised myself not to snack until dinner, but I have a feeling come 7pm I will slip! haha! Maybe I should just take a nap until dinner, because I am so tired, ugh I hate this feeling: hopefully tomorrow I dont feel like this because I have an 8 hour work day: WAHOO!!! So exciteddd!
I also suffer from low blood sugar and i hate it...that in itself usually makes me moody and depressed. Im going to try and substitute my lunches from today with only a shake and i know its going to have its effects on me lol!
I dont think you should get depressed about being single...you are still so young and believe me you still have a lot of good times ahead of you...take your time to find the right guy in your life...have a few flings lol and enjoy life a bit before setttling down, otherwise you will just blame youself later if you get attached to soon.
Try and drink a lot of water before dinner, it always helps me....of if that doesnt work....take a jog and drink water...or do some kind of exercise....
Wx
Tomorrow I have to get up nice and early for another photo shoot!! I may be on the cover of a catolog this time, how cool is that! I am contemplating whether or not I should get up super early to at least do a 1/2 hour of excercise before I go out, but it really depends soully on how my body feels. I know I should give my body a day off every so often, especially since my back has been hurting me recently, but....I think even if I did do 30 min before my photo shoot, tomorrow would still be my day off because afterward I will be so beat I wont want to do a thing....unless a particular boy gives me a call, but sadly I doubt he will. For the past two days hes been telling me he will call me but doesnt, as if he "forgot" or something, and also comes up with LAME excuses like he could not leave work on time and stuff....Those excuses sound like something I would make up when I did not want to hang out with someone. It really sucks getting the SHAFT from someone you have a crush on, and it sucks even more when it happens EVERY single TIME I HAVE A crush on someone! I havenot had a boyfriend in almost 3 years: I used to be embarassed to release that information, but now I just consider myself pathetic and any advice I am willing to recieve!!!
Well this week I had my photo shoot and it was a lot of fun, I worked it both Tuesday and Thursday. On Tuesday I started @ 4am and did not get done until 6. And NO I did not work out that day, it was strange not working out, but I figured standing extremely still for hours on end was pretty good core work, if you know what I mean. I know it may not look like it but modeling is extremely tough and extremely LONGG hours!!! Although I have seen my some of my pictures and they do not look too bad so I believe I will most definately be in the catolog! YAY! On Thursday I only did it for 4 hours, but I am s urely not complaining because, models get tired pretty quickly because they are constantly changing. But I kept a very good mind-set and attitude because I wanted to keep everyone happy! haha! Well thats all I really have to say; that modeling was fun, and I hope this is the START of my career? I wish! haha! I will post some model shots on here when I get them! Get Excited: haha! Just kidding, I am honestly NOT COCKY! haha
Modeling Pictures of me
All that walking you do sure does help keep the weight off. I wish I could do that but my bum knee won't cooperate.
As you know I love fruits and vegetables and also meat just like you do and have the same voracious appetite, but I also love starches and couldn't live without bread, bagels, potatoes, pasta, etc. I only eat whole grain products and try to avoid white potatoes though on occasion I do eat them. Usually I only have sweet potatoes. The only processed food I indulge in is hot dogs, the worst, right? I just love those Hebrew National lo-fat kosher dogs. That's the only exception I can think of.
Have you ever eaten moose? I did a long time ago and thought it was delicious. My husband said that bear heart is good too. He had been out in the sticks for two months fighting forest fires in Alaska when the crew killed a bear that came too close and then made a stew from the heart.
Wow, I dont feel very good right now, and I think I know why.
Last night, my dad made awsome puttenesca....my fav. but of course I went back for seconds and then when I was putting away the left overs I was nibbling on it as well....actually not nibbling, scarfing! Thats right, scarfing!! And before dinner, I was nibbling on cabbage dipped in tomatoe paste and salad! I hate snacking before dinner, but I always get so hungry before the rest of my family decides to eat, it drives me crazy!!!
This morning I woke up still feeling pretty full so I did not eat anything until noon. At noon I had my everyday staple: eggwhite pancake with ristotrine powder mixed in and sugar free syrup. I also took my vitamins and drank 3 mugs(large mugs) of green & black teas! (From Snapple! They make baggie teas now too and they are amazing!) Its been about an 1 hr and 1/2 since I ate and I do not feel all that magical! I feel hungry still which is weird and I also feel sort of nauseous! Ugh...hate this feeling, but maybe if I lie down with a good movie it will go away. Good thing I always do my excersice in the morning before my days begin, or else I would never excersice, especially if I felt this crummy as we speak!
Hope everyone's weight loss or maintanace is going well!!!
So just in case anyone wanted to know, my birthday was horrible! I did absolutely nothing, ok I lied..I did laundry and a crossword puzzle! What a miserable day! Everyone gets such high expectations for their birthdays and then when the day comes (unless you plan something amazing) they stink! Last year I was in Hong Kong, so I knew for sure this year would not top that but still, my parents could have atleast made an effort to hang out with me but no, they left me all alone in my house until 6:30! Aren't they wonderful! I cried most of the day because I was so lonely....Pathetic but true. Maybe tonight will be better, my father is finally with my mom and I out in Wyoming...I can hear him chopping away, that means I am going to be royally SUTFFED by 7pm tonight!! Too bad I am really hungry right now. It always happens! I get so hungry before dinner, snack all the way til' dinner, then eat dinner and then I can barily move!! Not to mention, I get pretty GASSY because I eat so many veggies(sorry for the gortesque details! haha). Thanks all for the birthday wishes! I really appriciate that, considering I did not get any in person, except for my sister!!! Oh ya! Tomorrow I get to work at the store from 9-5 HOPEFULLY some cute boys come into the store and ask to take me out on a night on the town! I have already gotten asked out by a 50 year old man, but I am thinking I need to find someone a little closer to my age! HAHA! We shall seee!
Well today is my 19th Birthday! Wahoo, but let me just say, birthdays are over rated! I havn't cried in about 3 weeks and what do you know, I cry today....Always, I always cry on my birthday! I guess it is tradition! haha! So tonight I am going out to a place called Nikai for dinner, which is a Japanese Fusion place which is amazingly delicious....but for some reason both of my parents are being bitter about going, and want to go somewhere else....SO I really dont want to go out to dinner with them, I just want to go out with my sister who actually appriciates my exsistance (so it seems!) Oh well, I guess I should go...Enjoy the rest of my day? Trapped in my Jackson Hole house in the middle of no where! I was proud of myself though, I did 13000 steps outside today (I am normally a treadmil rat) and then I finished up the rest of my steps on my "mouse wheel"...Thats good for me!!
Welna x0x0x0
Oh jeeze, I am sure your all wondering how the first day of my first ever job was and let me just tell you I felt like such an idiot. I mean when people first meet me they get the slightest hint that I am a ditz...plus the blond hair does not help much, but I really do think all the guys I worked with on Monday thought I was completely stupid! (Granted they were all very nice to me and I tried to have a lot of conversations with them to get on their good sides) but I think secretly they think I will not be able to perform well in this job...and you know what they may be right: but I would never show that to them!
I have to memorize a lot of things for this job, but I am sure after a couple days I will get it. All my fellow employees have only just started working there too but it seems as if they have been on the job for their whole lives! Well I hope to get the hang of it as much as they do, and maybe even get a date outta one of them or someone who comes into the store. As a matter of fact there was a very cute guy who came in twice on Monday...Personally I think the second time was an excuse to see me again (who needs the reciept really!) but I may just be flattering myself: haha!--I advise everyone to flatter themsevles every so often because it really boosts your ego and gives confidence!!
Well my 2nd day of work is on Friday from 1-9pm...Why so long, I have no idea but maybe I will meet more different people who will not think I am a complete idiot! haha! We shall see and I will keep you all posted!
Gosh, Jackson Hole just brings out a whole different me! Its so nice and peaceful here and it is so nice to get off the treadmill and get out into the wilderness, it spices up the routine for sure! Plus walking out side gives both of my dogs excersice and makes them tired for the rest of the day...hitting 2 birds with one stone!! As for eating, I have been doing very well and not getting too bloated after dinners, which is really nice because being bloated is very uncomfortable! (As I am sure you all know!!) The reason I am probably not so bloated anymore is because my father is not here to cook me lavish meals, but he is coming out here in a week, oh gosh: good luck to me! haha! Tomorrow I start my first ever paying job: from 9-5!! Oh gosh, I will be selling pictures to people who want to capture the moment they went whitewater rafting! So if any of you come out to Jackson Hole, WY this summer....Be sure to white water raft and then come into Elavation Imaging and buy a photo from me!!
Its much better than you expected it to be right? Usually we look up to things and then enjoy it more than we thought we would in the end! Im glad you are settling in good. Nature is wonderful and relaxing, consider yourself lucky:) I think this is the start of something great for you.
Well after a 16 hour car ride I have finally made it to Jackson Hole, Wyoming....My mother, dogs and all my entire life lugged their way up to JH in my grey suburban from Santa Fe, New Mexico! It was quite a drive & took everything out of both me and my mother. The day we started (monday) we each got out excersice in (15,000 steps) and packed bison and elk meat for the road just in case we got hungry!(protien really tides you over!!) We also packed a head of cabbage and some other greens to nibble on just as a snack(works wonders with mustard squeezed on top). On monday we drove 9 long hours and made is all the way to Laramie, WY. Yesterday I woke up and for the first time in my life I said SCREW excersice and lets just get outta here(ok maybe not in my whole entire life but for the past 5 years or so!)...So yesterday I only managed to get (6ooo steps...which is NOTHING!!!!)= but we did spend a good 6 hours in the car so I did not care one bit! haha! Snacks in the car were once again elk and bison, which were more delicious the 2nd day! haha!(very glad we brought them!!)
SO now I am here in Jackson, preparing for dinner! I love dinner! Tonight I will have salmon and cod with salad! Yummy! And I got 21000 steps today so that made up for yesterday for sure!!
Wow, I am starting to feel really really guilty, because I just ate some left overs from the refrigerator (since we are leaving today I did not want the food to go bad). I just ate: -10 oz. of Chilean Sea Bass (delicious) -A large stalk of broccoli -5 skinny aparagus -10 Cherry Tomatoes -1.5 c. Mixed greens -One grilled bell pepper
Granted I did not have breakfast so it was alright to eat that but still I feel guilty. It may be because my mom seems to be withering away in front of me so I feel as if I am a heffer compaired to her. The one thing I really do not want to happen is that she gets skinnier than me, but I know what will happen because she eats like a bird while I eat like a LIONESS of the Prowl! **NO JOKE!** I eat like there is no tomorrow! And you would think, that what I ate was not so bad because I will be going on a plane tonight, but ohh wait, my father ordered sashimi platters (4 of them) for the plane ride! One is suppose to be for me, my mom and my father and for a guest my father is bringing, but I know my mother will not eat any of hers because she "does NOT eat any meat at night" and my father does not eat very large portions so he will probably paun some of his food off on me as well, so once again I will be eating THE MOST and feeling super guilty, not to mention bloated and perhaps gassy, which is a HORRIBLE COMBO for a plane right!! **And on top of all my food worrying, I am worrying about all my bags I have to bring with me (since I am moving) and what I am missing/leaving behind on accident! How annoying! But I guess its life, atleast tomorrow @ 2:15 I have a scedualed massage at a world reknown spa that happens to be right aross the street from my house in New Mexico..hehe! But it probably wont be very relaxing because well, I will be thinking about driving up to WYOMING the very next day, GLORIOUS!!!
Well I guess I should not be too hard on myself about food because I just walked on the treadmil for 129 min. straight at a 14% incline at 4.2-4.6mph....and for the next couple of days I am not going to be gorging on a lot of food because I wont have the opportunity because Ill be in a car and such! So I guess I will just be keeping my metabolism guessing on how many calories I will be consuming!!!
The next time I write, Ill be in Wyoming....see you then!
Im really nervous about moving on Sunday and I really dont want to go to college! I really just want to finally get the BIG BREAK I have been searching for for so many years and forfill my life long dream of being a TV Personality/Actress/TV Correspondant or Model! But the way things are moving for me in my life, it does not seem as if any of those things will be happening! What can I do, it is so hard to break into this line of work, especially if you have no contacts!!!!! Does anyone have any advice for me! I am all out of luck and feel almost completely helpless. Not to mention I am so nervous and sad to move away from my comfort zone this Sunday...all of this stuff is building up inside!!
And you're right, unfortunately, about trying to get into the industry you're trying to get into: It is hard unless you have contacts. But if you major in communications or journalism you're bound to network. You are still very young so don't give up before you've even started!
Its natural to feel this feelings when you are moving away from your comfort zone. I studied out of the house, so i wouldnt know about going away to college, but when i first left my parents house to work overseas it was emotional and traumatic for me, since im the only child and all. But i realized change is part of life, and even though its hard to move on we must. In order to evolve and grow older and experience more we have to change and change is hard, but its also good. Is your college far from your home? Will you be able to visit your parents a lot?
Regarding your career, you can help that along by stuyding something like advertising or journalism or communications at college. Its important to make the right decicion there and after that apply for an internship at a broadcasting agency etc. You can always do part time moddeling on the side. Good luck!
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Wow what a stunning pic! You are perfect and dont have to lose an ounce! I would give my front teeth for a body like yours!!! I think you just need to focus on maintenance, no more losing, otherwise you might become too skinny. I like the lines next to your tummy as well, guess thats what exercise and being thin gives you lol!
Have a great day!
So my mom is gone for another week and I am left alone once again but you want to know what I did to screw up my alone time...I got in a car accident so I have no wheels to cruise in! I have been bumming a ride off of my fellow intern(to get to work in the morning) and she has been so helpful and nice I am so greatful for her help! Next week I may try and drive my mother's HUGE expedition, but I dont know if I can handle that. My car was an explorer and even though they are both SUVs Expeditions are SO MUCH bigger!!!! I was so excited to be a lone too, so I could experiment with different recipes and such and go shopping when I felt like it, but I am sure I still can....if I drive very slowly in my mom's WHOPPER of a car! haha! My father will be around for the weekend....bring on the yummy high caloric food.....Sadly I havn't lost any of those 2 pounds that I gained, but I dont know maybe thats my body telling me that those 2 pounds need to be on my body...I dont know, I wish my body spoke english! haha! Tonight for dinner I had a LARGE LARGE salad with grape tomatoes and bell peppers(& greens of course) along with a SASHIMI PLATTER with 26 pieces of fish on it and some nori! Yum Yum, probably one of my fav. restaraunt dishes!! The woman at the take out place knows my order by heart, its embarassing but I dont mind, because she gets it right every time! Who would want to get an order delivered to their house and realize it was WRONG when they got there, NOT ME FOR SURE!!!!
Thanks for your pregnancy comments too, it really helps to have encouragement as my belly grows and the weight goes up. I'm in my second trimester now at almost 13 weeks - I can't believe it. I'm lucky that so far all the weight has gone to stomach and chest and I'm just sticking out in front, not widening. I hope it continues this way!
This weekend was quite the eating fiasco! It was crazy how much food I ate in only two meals a day! On Saturday night I had a whole lobster, lots of cabbage salad, tomato salad and asparagus plus to start with a mussel broth: it was all so tasty, that is why I ate so much of it! On Sunday I ate a good 1 pound of salmon, six scallops and a 1/2 soft shell crab, along with a whole grilled eggplant and two grilled onions and asparagus and some salad and some grilled peppers On Monday I had left over salmon which was probably 1/2 pound of salmon, one soft shell crab and three scallops and then some more eggplant(a whole one) some grilled zuchinni, onions, one grilled pepper, a little salad, two leeks and some asparagus!
NO WONDER, WHEN I WENT ON THE SCALE IT SAID I GAINED TWO POUNDS<--BECAUSE I WAS PACKING IT IN AS IF I WERE NEVER GOING TO EAT AGAIN! Its pretty annoying though because every weekend I have these eating field days and it is all because my father is home and ready/willing to cook me anything my heart desires!
Today for my meals I had my normal eggwhite pancake I have talked so much about(its my morning staple), 4 oz of chicken for lunch, and 11 scallops&3 shrimp(in broth) with a medium sized salad(with flax-mustard dressing for dinner): so I tried to limit my food intake a little bit so I wouldnt feel so bloated and so maybe tomorrow morning I will have an appitite for breakfast! It stunk this morning when I was working out because I thought all the food I fed myself the night before would have fueled my work out but sadly it just sat in my stomach, like it sat in there all night like a big bowling ball....Hopefully thats not the case tomorrow and my hungry will fuel my work out to make me go harder! Must Think Positively!!
I forgot to tell you how much I giggled about your comment regarding guests coming to eat and how you were concerned about there not being enough food! I LOVEDj it! That was on my mind last night as I was actually STARVING but stopped eating because my guests had!
OH! How I wanted you and BTC to be there for support!
These big, hearty, appetites can be so embarrassing!
No, my name's not Gigi - the username is kind of an inside joke and I just added the 43 for kicks.
Honestly, I think you probably look lovely with those two extra pounds because I don't think you should be under 100 pounds unless you're under 5 feet tall (you're not, are you?!) I'm really impressed that you seemed to have controlled the anorexia with your healthy eating and positive attitude. That will serve you so well when you go off to college in the fall!
Gosh here we go...Dinner tonight...there is going to be a lot of food...two guest are coming over...and I am geting a little nervous because for some reason I do not feel as if I am going to get enough food to eat...This always worries me but in the end I always get enough...I do not like having guests over because I feel as if they judge me when I eat...like I eat too much or something...Oh well I will just have to live with it because its not like I can kick them out! Tonight is LOBSTER NIGHT by the way, yum yum! Too bad I am ALREADY HUNGRY and our guests are not coming for another hour. Its really annoying when I get hungry before dinner because then I start snacking and I can NOT STOP...Only if I leave the room of course, that is why I try to stay on the computer as long as possible to occupy me! It stinks though because I can never stay on the computer long enough because my father always asks me to help him cook, which I love doing!! AHHH vicious cycle....or something!! Well when I live alone (or at school) I will probably wish that I was back home eating my fathers great cooking, so I probably should not complain about eating too much!!
Ah, So I just peeked into the fridge about 10 min. ago and I know I am going to be eating A LOT TONIGHT! Since my brother came home my father has managed to buy practically the whole contence of WHOLE FOODS...although my father still fails to realize that my brother normally does not eat every much or ditches the family dinner to go out for drinks with his friends! haha, so...all that yummy food my dad bought is mine...which can be good and bad. Good because the food is delicious but BAD because I have been having a bloated week and the mind set that I gained weight. I dont think I have though, just water weight...probably from excess sodium and its just that one week in the month no one can ignore... Well I will let you know how my BINGE DINNER EATING goes. It always happens on weekends when my dad cooks, I go up for thirds and then to be a nice daughter I put all the food away(in the fridge but 1/2 goes into my stomach)-- its sort of embarassing the next day when my mom or dad ask me where the left overs are....Uhh the dog ate it I swear..RIGHT unless they consider me a dog!
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I feel like I am gaining weight and its not making me too happy. I try to conceal my annoyance about my feelings and I am actually doing a pretty good job. The only time I sort of talk about it is when I am around my mom but then she goes, "Are you becoming anorexic again?". I know I am not but I have this ideal body shape and weight and I want to keep it there. I eat healthfully constantly, but I guess my downfall is large portions! One would say just cut down on portion size then if you feel as though your gaining weight, but the thing is I CANT!! I feel that since I only eat select meats and veggies....I can eat as much of it as I want and I think I am going to keep that motto until things actually start to get really out of hand. I am just going to keep tellingmyself that its my "bloated" week and next week I will deflate a little bit! Oh and I have a two pictures to post...THEY ARE BELOW!! The 2nd one is me just screwing around! haha! Oh and ITS FRIDAY!!!!
I appreciate your comments. I journal on bad days and good days. You caught me on a bad day. I have learned when I don't journal I make terrible choices . . . I stop keeping track of my healthy choices and start slacking on exercise. The journal makes me be accountable. I will be trying my best to make better choices over the weekend. Thanks again for the support. It keeps me on my toes to know that people are reading my journal and keeps me even MORE accountable.
I hate that feeling of bloat, especially when it shows on the scale, it gets me totally down and depressed. The important thing is you should be at a weight that you are comfortable at, but that has to aline with a healhty BMI. So try and find a balance between the 2 and dont be too hard on yourself.
Thanks for the pics you shared with us, you are really pretty. Are you still dreaming of being on TV one day? I think you definately have great shot at it!
WOW, I feel extremely guilty right now and as if the world turned on me (sort of) today... First of all --It has been raining VERY VERY hard for the past week or so...so thats depressing in itself --I had a boring day and was in a car most of the day --My TV got fuzzy --My mom used something of mine that I was going to use today --I dropped my eggplant outside(cooked...so it was sort of ruined) --My tv got fuzzy so now it is sort of screwed up --I screwed up the salad dressing on my mom and my salad.... --AND I FEEL REALLY GUILTY FOR THE DINNER I ATE!!!!!!!!!
So I guess the world did not turn on me that much but I am still a little depressed because I feel really unappriciated and I feel so guilty for dinner... I had chicken breast with eggplant and onions and a large salad with flax oil dressing(I screwed up the dressing..it was too spicey) but I just feel as if the chicken breast was dousted in chicken fat and such because my mother put a tomato sauce on top of the skin(it was in thebottom of the pan too) so I took some and put in on the chicken...I know this sounds SO pathetic but I cannot help but feel a little guilty... Its strange though because I normally dont feel guilty eating anymore but I guess I just do now because I am having a lousy day. Oh and I wont be surprised if I get horrible heart burn tomorrow morning because onions and eggplant tend to do that to me...BUT I CANT STOP EATING THEM BECAUSE: YUM! haha!
A CLIP OF ME FROM TV...that was not the whole segment that was on TV BUT SOME OF IT..and theres me!!! http://www.news12.com/CT/topstories/article?id=176137#
Click Play the Video!!!!
My first day on the job and I get my 5 min. of fame! I hope it turns into 10 min, then 20...then maybe, uh the rest of my life! hahaha!
I have a serious question to ask all of you, its about my symptoms I have had for quite some time: Ever since I was younger I have had trouble breathing. I have always had to clear my throat and it constantly feels as if half of my air-pipe is covered so I cannot fully breath. It affects me all the time, especially after eating and during excersice. I feel if I did not have half of my wind pipe covered I would be able to excersice even more efficeintly than I do now and I will be a much more energetic person(although I am to begin with) I have no idea where to start research. -Its hard for me to inhale -I constantly clear my throat to thepoint where I have to HACK and even then I cannot clear my throat....anyone have any ideas??
Have you been to a Dr to address this issue? If it's asthma (aggravated by exercise) or a food allergy, you may be able to get some medication to control it. Keep us posted!
Scruff
Ah I am super excited because I got the internship I wanted at NEWS 12 Connecticut, which means I may very well be the next news-anchor or weather woman on Channel 12 in all of Connecticut! While reporting the weather takes getting up at 4 am...which is not exactly a joy...I may just want to do regular news broadcasting, but who knows, beggers cannot be choosers(although I would love to be!) Hmmm How will I fit in my work out routine? I love to work out in the morning and if I have to work 30 hours a week it wont be too hard, I mean 8-2 or 3 is a pretty LAX job, but we shall see! But all I know is that if I have to get up at 4 am to report the weather I sure as hell AINT working out before hand...after sounds just fine(considering it will still be morning! haha!) Another thing I have to work out is how to actually get to the studio every day. While I have had my liscence for a good 2.5 years, I still have never been on a SERIOUS highway like I-95 and I am a bit nervous, but this weekend my mother and I will scope out the route and see whats up....we shall see on that one too! I guess this means I have to start making my lunch again. I had such a nice routine (school over at 12:45...come home and make lunch when I got there..SO NICE)--But once again I just have to adapt to my new lifestyle of being a NEWS ANCHOR!(haha, ok ok maybe I wont be on film the 1st week or 2 of being an intern but my supervisor did tell me I have a large shot of doing so...SO WATCH OUT!!) Ill be the next Katie Couric YET!!!
Scruff
Northstarbison.com -- if your now interested in grass fed bison because of my last entry! haha! Blackwing.com -- ostrich, elk, bison, beef & poultry!!--VERY YUMMY too...great ostrich but I do not think that bison from this website is greassfed and that is CRUCIAL in order to get substantial amount of omega3 fats and CLA....grain fed meat is completely unnatural and NOT healthy!! Grass fed beef is also avalible if you type in grassfed beef on any search enginee: tons of sites will pop up! Be adventurous and take chances: you'll thank me later! haha!
Thanks for the info, I will look it up and when my kids want to eat this kind of food which is often I will make an informed decision.
Sandra
Spring Break is on a roll, thats why I havnt been on here in a little while, I have been too busy you know, doing absolutely nothing and loving every minute of it! Actually I am in Jackson Hole, Wyoming right now: and it is such a beautiful bright and sunny day that I almost did not even make it on to the computer because the sites were too stunning!! I have been eatting like a heffer these past two days, but I only eat two meals a day. Breakfast: 2 cups of eggwhites with Rice Bran(1-2 scoops: 55 calories each) mixed in Dinner: about ONE POUND of bison(grassfed of course!!)--with SALSA or TOMATO PASTE mixed in, one large bowl of salad(mixed greens and cherry tomatoes) with flax. mustard dressing and steamed veggies too! I am so full right now but I am happy because my dinner was very yummy--I have eatten the same thing for the past two days, I am may just continue until I leave this sunday! WHY NOT!--Well if my weigh creeps up on the scale then I will know its time to cut back on my lovely dinner but...for now I am sticking to it. With my daily 15000+ steps I think I can handle my food intake, but only the scale can tell.....
And- um, BISON??? You're much more adventurous than I am... lol.
I love to cook meat w/tomato paste and/or tomatoes/puree. It seems to add so much more.
You're out west at a beautiful time. Lucky you! Enjoy.
I made chicken breast for my lunch tomorrow.. I work so I made them today.. so yes.. I do have it alot.. but I have been experimenting with diff recipes lately that I get from a low carb site.. :O)..
thanks so much for your concern.. and I am glad your having a wonderful time :O).. hugssss...
Enjoy your time in Wyoming...wish I were there too.
Sandra
LOVE IT!!! I sorta look like that guy! hah! Oh and a NEW PICTURE of me in below!!
WOW I THINK I ATE MORE CALORIES THAN A 3rd WORLD COUNTRY GETS IN A WEEK! I ate about a pound and a half of COHO Salmon, a whole eggplant(grilled), TWO SPANISH ONIONS, 1/2-3/4 head of CABBAGE WITH CILANTRO GINGER SAUCE, 3 CUPS OF PUTENESSCA SAUCE, 1/2 CUP OF BROCCOLI, and 1 SPOON FULL OF SALAD with FLAX OIL DRESSING....I AM SO GLAD I DID NOT COOK THE LEEKS OR I WOULD HAVE EXPLODED! RIGHT NOW MY STOMACH LOOKS AS IF I AM PREGNANT WITH TWINS BUT IT SEEMS TO ALWAYS GET LIKE THIA EVERY TIME I EAT A LOT AT NIGHT! I guess its my fault that when I put away food after dinner is over I sort of snack on it as it goes in the fridge! Thats my down-fall time! I cant help it because the food is SOOOO good! **Well I will just keep telling myself that it is OK to eat a lot of calories some times because it keeps your body guessing! Plus the putenessca was very spicey so maybe it REVVED up my metabolism? HAHA Yea, Keep thinking positively GIGI! hahaha! So HOW WAS EVERYONE ELSES DINNER...haha!
AH yes, Quiet!! Thats right, I am home alone for the weekend (until tomorrow night) and I am loving every minute of it! Relaxing, Tanning, TV watching, Working out, COoking: with no one looking over my shoulder, how nice! Gosh if no one knew better they would think I am a mother of three: but really, I am only 18 years old! I peaked early when it comes to maturing, which could be both good and bad. GOOD: I can have mature conversations and be treated with more respect,I have more of an appriciation for things.... BAD: No friends @ school, I dont go out and party(I got that out of my system), I am not a night person(I go to bed the lastest 11)...
So I do not know which is worse. I think when I go to college I will reevaluate my life and my routines and try and be more adaptable! But for now I am just going to stick to my routine. Whats the point of making friends now when I have around 2 months left of school! Not even: Ihave 3 weeks in April and 1 in May...OK ONE MONTH LEFT of school! Who am I kidding, no point, no point at all making friends here, PLUS I do never plan on coming back to CT(my home town) after I graduating (only to help my mom and dad pack up the house...because they are moving out west too)... Wellwho knows, only time will tell and let me tell you time is going by pretty darn fast!!
I just wanted to say THANKS for your supportive message yesterday. I really appreciate your good thoughts! I am feeling pretty good today. Tomorrow I will be back at the treadmill and stairmaster!
Have a GREAT day!
I am nervous for next year but also very ready to be let out from under my parents wings to do my own thing. Granted I do do my own thing but I know it feels different to be away from your parents. I am quite the home body and I know I am going to be very homesick the first couple days, maybe even weeks: I have gone to boarding school and summer camps and all sorts of things like that so I know how it feels to be independant (I meant I am when it comes to school, work and even being around the house I like to be alone) but the thought of being away from my best friend(my mother) is pretty hard! Whats also hard is I wont have the luxuries I have at home at school: THATS for sure: no privacy!! and no cooking space!! I am going to go mad, but I will get used to it, change takes time to adapt to! So right now I just need to take advantage of the situation I am in, be greatful for what I have and cook/eat all the food I can eat! haha! Tonights dinner will be LOADS OF VEGETABLES (baby bok choy, purple cabbage, salad greens) and MEAT..of course (tuna--my moms left over from her dinner at the 4 seasons--I am skeptical on eating tuna because of the mercury but I have been good lately-- and sable fish)
It's amazing how many people have never heard of bok choy period. It's such a versatile vegetable.
As far as cooking goes, it's amazing what you can do with a hot plate on sale at Walgreen's for $7.99. Consider that option. In fact, buy two of them! Whatever you can cook in your room will be a lot better than what's available in the cafeteria.
The most important thing is that you'll be out of that awful school that your well-intentioned parents sent you to. You know they meant the best for you. It just doesn't always work out. It's not their fault.
By the way, is it possible for you to live off campus? That would be ideal.
Gosh I know I look so young but I am 18!! Sometimes it drive me crazy when people ask me how old I am but I guess when I am in my 30s or 40s I will appriciate the young comments! So I guess I just have to take these comments as compliments!
I also always looked really young for my age... when I was at college and told people I was a "sophomore" or a "junior" they would ask, "Which high school?" Haha! But you're right, after a certain age it becomes more of a blessing than an annoyance!
Its the worst feeling to feel nauseous 24/7! I got up this morning at my usual 4:57am to work out on the tredmil(before school) and let me tell you it was trecherous!(sp??) Thank god I had a good book to finish(THE NANNY DIARIES)--Afterward I barly could eat half of my breakfast so I saved the rest of lunch. I made it through firt period in a daze and then went to the nurse to rest...I then made it to 1 1/2 more classes and returned to the nurse and finally got sent home! @ noon I took a nice hour nap that seemed to help a bit and finally ate some food that was not too too hard to get down. I ate the rest of my breakfast and a chicken patty(oh man I found some all breast meat chicken pattys@WHOLE FOODS mixed with spices that have 100 cal. a patty---they are amazing!!) and I actually do not feel so bad right now...Tonight its chicken soup: I always seem to feel better when I have chickensoup when I dont feel well so hopefully this time wont be ANY different! I hate feeling so crummy and it makes me angry because I eat so healthfully!!! But I have come to the conclusion that I think what gave me this food poisoning was this mustard in the frig. that was really old an dhad eggs in it!!! So I threw that AWAY!!!! SO I NEVER see it again!!! HOPEFULLY that was the problem so I never get sick again!!!
Hope you're feeling better soon! good luck with your weightloss! Raven
I feel so sick right now, I dont know if I should eat something because I could be hungry or wait it off? I managed to squeeze in the walking but man was that HELL!!! Oh man, I dont even know if I am going to be able to get up right now
Bfast: one carton of eggwhites (approx: 8--- 2 cups) with rice bran (2 scoops-55 cals each) Lunch: one ELK patty- 157 calories Dinner: 1 onion, one head of cabbage, 1/2 bag frozen spinach, 8-10 oz of calamari,shrimp&bay scallops, 1/2 c. tomato sauce, red wine vinegar **THATS the extent of my food today: yum yum! Cant wait til tomorrow because my father is coming home just in time to cook me some dinner! I swear I live to eat not eat to live: its sort of pathetic, but oh well, a guilty pleasure I guess?...Its better than being addicited to drugs....Although some people consider food to be a drug! I had my personal trainer today(I desereve to eat alot....) and hes going to proprose to his girlfriend tonight! How lucky she is because my trainer happens to me the most genuinely nice guy I have ever met, I hope hope hope I meet someone as funny,charming and down to earth as he is! TOO bad I definately wont find someone like that around here in Greenwich, CT but I dont have to worry aboutt hat much longer because: I AM GOING TO COLLEGE next year in the best state in the US: COLORADO! Where all the down to earth outdoors loving people are! I cannot wait!
Let me reitterate how much I love SASHIMI! OHH MANN! haha! And the best part is, since theres NO RICE its around oh NO CALORIES! haha! Ok ok, maybe not NO calories, but a lot less than if it had RICE! I am not sure what else to write, I just wanted to drop a line because I have not been here for a little while. No good recipes....wait a min..JUST KIDDING I do have a sauce recipe I can share with you all: Cilantro, Ginger, Garlic, Olive Oil, White Wine Vinegar, Salt & a tiny bit of lemon juice....BLEND all of that together and put it on any WHITE FISH or VEGGIE you want!! Its delicious...be sure not 2 use 2222 much GINGER though because, a little goes a LONG WAY!
Wow I just had the most fabulous dinner! Well normally I do every weekend when my father is home! He just knows how to cook everything so well! Tonight he bought a wide variety of fishes and broiled them up and him and I concocked two different types of salsas/sauces to put on top... SAUCE #1: -cilantro -ginger -garlic -white wine vinegar -olive oil
SAUCE #2: -bell pepper (both red and yellow) -tomatillos -jicama -hot pepper -sesame oil -olive oil
Both delicious and DO NOT require any cooking! They actually taste pretty good on vegetables too! Wow, I love food, its a weird obsessive thing!! Oh and I also can never stop eatting good food once I start....When I was putting away the fish I managed to eat mostly the rest of it! Its embarassing but....true...I used to be afraid to admit that I finished up most of the fish or something but tonight I just came clean and I dont think anyone seemed to mind....But I think they should start telling me to stop because if I continue to eat more after dinner....well that wont be 2 good...But atleast I dont eat junk foods: all I eat is meat and vegetables...SO we shall see in a couple of years if I start to gain a lot of weight... Oh and by the way in 2 1/2 months: I AM OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL! I AM SO EXCITEDDDDD
You and your dad sound really creative, would he happen to be a chef? And congrats on your graduation coming up soon!
about working out.. I have been walking on my tradmill.. not as much as I should.. but alittel is better then none huh heheh..
Gosh , I remember my senior year.. what fun.. this year will be my 20th High school reunion.. I feel OLD..lol.. but ti happens.. you have fun but be safe is everything you do hun.. :O)make mom and dad proud!!.. hugsss
Woah, its 3:45 and it just hit me that I am so hungry, and I have 2 hours and 15 minutes until dinner: damn! Ah, well I guess I just need to keep on chewing the infumous ORBIT!! Pink, Blue, Green: whats your favorite type? Well I just came home from my winter break last night and today was the first day of SCHOOL once again, OH LAA tee DAHH! It was fantastic I tell you, just lovely! I went in fron 7:30 until 11:30 because from 11:30 until 1:15 I had no class, so I managed to get some extra work done and have a DE_LICIOUS lunch of SASHIMI!!! It was fabulous! Ok heres a POLE: what is your favortie type of raw fish??? mine are: salmon, escolar, eel(unagi), scallop (ebi..I think) and TUNA TAR TAR (with the egg and everything!!) I love all the weird fishes I tell ya, because also high on my list are clams, squids, roe, uni....THE WORKS!! I JUST LOVE FISH IN GENERAL!!! So Hmmm Obviously I am a bit hungry because I am going off on a tangent about FOOD! I hope I go to the grocery store today because I love going: its one of my favorite places! WAHOO! If not...I guess I will just stick to the frozen VEGGIES for dinner, that can always be good though! We shall seee!!!
SO I think I have food poisoning because this morning I needed to vomit so badly: but I hate to so I didnt, I suffered instead... Now I am just completely weak and have the worst head ache but atleast I donot feel 2 nauseus anymore: I even managed to have two chicken burgers (very very good: I think I needed that) and tonight I am going to have some chicken soup: That always helps with the kind of symptoms I have. I slept from 9:15 pm until 2:00 pm today! Thats a lot of sleep, but if anything it was more thinking to myself how much I do not feel good....I want to know whats wrong with me, it may just be the flu 2! Its weird because if I cannnot even work out, then there must be something wrong with me...I have not gone without a day of working out in a good year or so, since the last time I felt this lousy!! ITs crazy I know, but its true...I guess it is good to give my body a little rest, maybe its telling me that it needed it!!! So then I am glad....Normally I would feel super guilty right now, but I actually dont: strange for me! Oh my head, I am going to go lie in front of the TV...
Well last night my father and I tried concoting a new dish, and it was not so bad.....I am not sure if it will be a staple in the routine but, it might shine through every 2 months or so....(of course with LESS GARLIC) It was a simple white fish over cabbage but of course there is a twist: - 1 purple cabbage - 1 white cabbage - 1 bottle of clam juice (put in a pot with a lil olive oil..my father puts way to much!!And I still eat a ton of it(that always makes me feel a bit guilty) Gazpacho(to put on top of sauteed cabbage) - clinatro bunch - plum tomatoes - garlic - salt (put in a blender until it is smooth and then put in diced shallots) FISH (broil until cooked) - red snapper - lemon sole - brush with sesame oil (once again my father put to much, and I just bought this new diet book about all food inflimation ratings and well sesame oil is about -125 or something of that sort, but I pushed that thought out of my mind and ate about a pound!!! I never cease to amaze myself on the amount of food I can inhail!!)
Over all dinner wasnt too bad but I am sure I ate a WHOOOPING 3000 calories!!! about a head of cabbage (WITH TONS OF OLIVE OIL) about 1 pound or more of fish (WITH TONS OF SESAME OIL) about 3 cups of salad (WITH TONS OF FLAX OIL) PLUS some snacking before dinner on raw cabbage! My goodness I got my FAT FILL for the day!! I think today I need to eat like, perhaps some poached oysters(V-DAY is coming up ya know, an aphrodisiac...cant spell for my life, and Im graduating hight school?) or maybe some chicken breast, well even if I do have chicken breast Ill probably eat not just a half but the WHOLE THING! I am a BEAST when it comes to eatting!!! Its rediculous, I could eat as much food as a family of 10 would eat! Maybe I should sign up for a meat eating contest....I would WINN for suree! haha! (I would just be sure to excersice a TON BEFORE HAND!--I just ran/walked for 126 minutes! Thats a whooping 18,000 steps!--Yes I do wear a pedometer!)
Just wanted to reassure you that I get plenty of protein in my diet, and that I'm not a vegetarian. I grew up having meat an integral part of dinner. Always. It's just been during the last year that I don't eat it every night. There are two reasons. One is the calories. At 50-60+ cal. an ounce, they add up quickly. The other is that I love vegetables so much, some nights I only want to eat them with a huge salad and have fruit as a snack.
I was thinking of you last night when my son from NJ and I weregrazing away on one of my huge salads. He's a real bunny rabbit and can packs those salads away.
I know what you mean, because I'm also always amazed at the amount I can eat. I always feel like I can win those eating contests too. There was a diner in my college town which had an ongoing challenge to see who could break the record number of hamburgers eaten in one sitting. This was back in the days before I became vegetarian and every time I passed that diner I was tempted to try to break the record! And you know, amazingly enough, some of the world's biggest eaters are actually around your size, like <a href="http://www.ifoce.com/eaters.php?action=detail&sn=20" target="_blank">Sonya Thomas</a>, the "Black Widow" (so known because she's beaten so many men!).
Anyway, I actually wanted to thank you for the comment you left me a few days ago in which you suggested sugar-free gum. I used to love it a while ago but then I started saving it for when I went running - so that it would be like a special treat to motivate me to do it! But then I almost choked on it one time and since then I've stopped having it while running. Which means that I can have it whenever I want! And you're right, it is quite a good appetite suppressant. At the very least, I can't eat anything else while it's in my mouth!
You would think that I would have a case of the "MONDAYS" but actually I do not! Even though I have many deadlines this week(tests and such) I am not feeling down and out about them! I think last weeks depression Sunami finally subsided a little bit, which is good because I hate when my family thinks I am so sad, I am suppose to be the happy one of the bunch!!! I think I got over my "sadness" because of all the positive feedback I have been getting back from everyone who leaves me posts!! Its so nice to know that life goes on after high school(ie: college) which is much better than high schooL! I do not think I have met one person who has told me they liked high school......I probably just jinxed that! haha! Hm, enough about my emotions: hows my diet going you ask? Pretty damn good, I am soaring amounts of energy! Last night I made delicious buffalo burgers mixed with Salsa and horseradish and saurekraut( 1/2 c. chicken stock, minced fennel, saurkraut in a jar, juniper berries, thyme and salt)!! It was SO good, and very SUPER BOWL sunday like, I felt very authentic! Tonight: 3 pounds of SALMON all for moi: ok ok, some for my mother as well haha! BUt I am excited because I have no had much to eat so far today so I am hungry: plus I had my trainer today so my appitite is soarinnggg!!!! Speaking of soaring I have a feeling this week may SOAR!!!
I'm glad to see you're in better spirits! You're right, I don't know many people who liked high school either. It seems to be a pretty rough time for most of us!
And thanks for the comment you left me. If you're already running ten miles a day (or even walking fast) then I'm sure you could run a half-marathon! Ten miles a day is a lot!
Hm, yesterday I was working out with my trainer and you know what he told me, that I did not look scary skinny but I looked 100% normal! Which to me is WONDERFUL NEWs! For so long I have fallen under the category of disgustingly skinny but now I am completely normal and I plan on staying that way FOREVER!!! My trainer also told me that he thinks my mother looks too too skinny which I completely agree with! Does anyone like the way Madonna's body looks? Lets have a poll: Who likes Madonna's build and who does not?! I dont like it...because she is 2 skinny, there is no meat on her bones and it makes her look a little older than she is...my mother has the same build as Madonna and I constantly hear her complaing about how she feels as though she looks so old....If only she put a little weight on(healthy weight that is) wouldshe feel less "old"....Unfortunately I cannot convince her, her excuse is: "Im 55 I cannot change now..." Which in my mind in a pathetic excuse because I see 75 year old women/men changing their lifestyles constantly! My mother is just stubborn!! My father came home tonight: he loves to cook, so we brewed up some shrimp and scallops in putenesca sauce, SO good!!!! I think I might have had the whole pot...ok no my father had some but I must have had like a cup of olive oil: I hope those studies of olive oil being very good for you are true or otherwise I may not wakeup tomorrow! haha!!
I'm not sure what to say about Madonna. Her physique is a bit too muscular for my tastes, but I do think she looks toned and fit and pretty good for her age. I have a tiny mother too - she's about 5 ft. 1 and hovers between just under 100 pounds and 105 or so. She eats pretty well but has stomach issues that keep her thin, so I don't envy her.
BTW, I finally went skiing today here in CT. Ski Sundown - conditions were less than perfect and it started raining later in the afternoon. But even in great conditions, CT is all about skiing on ice and granular powder, so you just have to make the most of it. I miss skiiing out West in Oregon!!
That was a nice compliment you got from your trainer! You certainly didn't look disgustingly skinny in that photo you posted a while back, although it was only of your face so I guess it was hard to tell.
As for Madonna, I don't really think she looks way too skinny compared to some of the other celebrities out there. I think she naturally has quite a boyish figure. But you're right, I think she would look younger if she weren't so thin. In fact, this might sound crazy but I've noticed how many celebrities have really bony, old-looking hands, and I'm sure it's due to how skinny they are. I think Courtney Cox is too skinny, for example. I don't like the way her ribs show above her chest. I think it's okay when they show below one's chest - even mine do - but not above! What do you think?
By the way, thanks for the comment you left me. To answer your questions, I'm 5'2", so I think I'm the same height as you, but a lot heavier! I used to weigh 104 lb. when I was your age. And I thought I was really fat then. In fact, when I was fifteen I became kind of anorexic for a while. I got my weight down to 86 lb. in a few months but I was starving and just couldn't maintain it. The strange thing is that I will never know what I looked like then because in my mind I was still a huge beast and that's what I saw when I looked in the mirror.
Wow, I dont even know what to say any more because I am so depressed...There is nothing to say because my life has hit a plateau. My school is horrible(I thought senior year was suppose to be great) but instead my high school is making it miserable. Granted I do well in my classes, its the kids are drive me insaine. I always tell my mother that I peaked too early in maturity and do not fit in with any of them, which is true, but the sad part is, I used to. I used to be best friends with all these kids and now they look right through me. Last year when I returned back to my home town, I know I did not look healthy (@77 pounds, no one at a height of 5'2" looks healthy), but that did not mean people had to ignore my exsistance, wouldnt it have been nice if people maybe made an attempt to make me feel at home so I could get better? Of course not, we are talking about the town of Greenwich, rich kids, with rich attitudes, who only think about their problems of course! Now that a year has gone by and I have gotten progessively better, I am not 95-99 pounds, which is perfect for me...people still neglect to awknowledge my exsistance, what is up with that? I such low self-esteme because guys(specifically) do not look in my direction(except for a select few)....Its sad to think about my past and how I used to be adored by ALL guys, big and small, and now I am basically looked through as if I were not there.....How Wonderful.... I guess I can say outside of school I am a pretty happy girl, I have a loving family, am satified with my weight, have my health, wealth, friends(in Colorado)...and lots more, just in school those pesky 7 hours a day mon-fri.......STINK! Has anyone else had a bad high school experience? I hope life after this gets a lot better!
I'm sorry you're having such a hard time at school. At least it will be over soon! I hated my school too... I didn't fit in and I didn't get any male attention (at least not from anyone I liked!). But you know, all that will change when you go university, you will meet a whole new group of people and depending on where you go there will probably be quite a few of them and you are bound to meet people whom you get along with. My whole life changed at university and now I'm really different from the way I was in high school. I look back on those poor fools and I just pity them! Sometimes I almost wish I could do it all over again just so that I could tell them what I think of them!
Looking back, my Sr year of HS was pretty bad and if I had it to do over I would have just skipped it. I'm alot older than you, but for most people the Sr year of HS is pretty useless. Can you take a college course to get you out of the shallowness of your experience?
Stick to your guns, you'll be fine I'm sure! LATER EDIT*** Yes I'm sure Greenwich CT wins a prize for one of the most elite thinking/acting places in the US. I went to HS in small town Texas and it was the same. You knew who was being groomed for Valedictorian, etc. My parents used to tell me you meet the same people going up as you do coming down--it didn't make much sense to me then. It does today.
I despised my senior year too. Fortunately, I had a boyfriend who ended up being my first husband. We would bring our own lunch and eat it in his car. We went through the day like zombies, I guess, totally ignoring our surroundings. I felt like I was in a holding cell biding my time.
And then, my world completely changed when I went to the university! I had a great time! I was happy! I liked school again and so will you.
I was able to save my son Jim, the misery of his senior year when I noticed a one inch ad in the paper which said, in effect, "Miss your senior year in high school. Apply for early admissions. Complete your first year of college, earn 30 credits and also be given your HS diploma." What a godsend that was! Luckily he was bright and had excellent grades, so in addition to missing the misery of HS, he was given a scholarship and didn't have to pay a cent! He felt exactly the way you and I do. He recently told me I had saved his sanity with that ad.
So, don't let the jerks get to you. They are so superficial and everything they do is so meaningless. Just concentrate on the upcoming year and you'll get through.
Thanks for your supportive comments--I appreciate them!
Keep your chin up and keep up the good work!
-- "The cabbage surpasses all other vegetables. If, at a banquet, you wish to dine a lot and enjoy your dinner, then eat as much cabbage as you wish, seasoned with vinegar, before dinner, and likewise after dinner eat some half-dozen leaves. It will make you feel as if you had not eaten, and you can drink as much as you like." Cato (Marcus Porcius) 234-149 BC. Roman politician and general --"Cauliflower is nothing but a cabbage with a college education." Mark Twain -- Chicken salad has a certain glamour about it. Like the little black dress, it is chic and adaptable anywhere. Laurie Colwin --"Salmon are like men: too soft a life is not good for them." James de Coquet -- If you are what you eat and you don't know what you're eating, do you know who you are? Claude Fischler -- Avoid fruits and nuts. You are what you eat. Jim Davis --"We think fast food is equivalent to pornography, nutritionally speaking." Steve Elbert -- Vegetables are a must on a diet. I suggest carrot cake, zucchini bread, and pumpkin pie. Jim Davis --------------------------------------------------------------------------
Well, I know I havnt been here in awhile.....but now I am back!! THis past week I have felt like I have gained some weight but it might only be psychological because my mother keeps complaining that she gained ten pounds. I wouldnt be surprised if I did gain weight though because even though I only eat lean meats and vegetables...I eat a TON OF THEM!!! B: one whole carton of egg whites L: 5 oz ground turkey breast with tiny salad(dry) D: 7 jumbo scallops, 2 handfulls of cooked octopus,a tomato sauce to put on top of those shell fish, 2 large bowls of salad( 3-4 cups each with flax oil dressing), Nori, sesame seeds, 3 tiny pieces of mackeral(to taste, sashimi size) The one good thing about me though is that I do not snack so I know that after the last thing I eat at dinner I will not eat again until tomorrow! During the day I do not snack either, three square meals and I am done....In order to charge through those mid-afternoon slumps and morning ones..I drink water, and tea(with caffiene--in the morning)--It works wonders I tell ya!!
Ok I know I just wrote but, I was hypocritical tonight: sort of: in my last entry I said my problem was that with variety I do not know what to choose, well that is true BUT then I decide to choose everything! I had so much dinner! While my 2 four-ounce sable fish filllets were cooking, I had a 1/2 jar of salsa, a little piece of salmon & swordfish & mackrel, 2 slices of nori and a little salad(from the big bowl I would have been eating out of anyway)----then I had for dinner 2 large bowls of salad, my two sable fillets(plus their yummy fat) and 3 large leeks! Ughh! I guess some would think this not to be big: but I think it is huge because I am being compared to what my mother eats which is flat out: NOTHING haha! No she eats a little something (I cook her dinner most every day) but she never finishs her salad or fish and I end up eatting the rest of her salad, not fish: I would not go that far.....I see her nibbling on almonds a lot but still: she does not hardly eat them(if you know what I am saying.....) It drive me BONKERS! I am excited to leave next year so I can do my own thing with out feeling as if I need to judge myself byhow little my mother eats or vise-versa!!! I just hope she doesnt starve to death next year because I will not be making her dinner!! Uh Oh!
**POWER IS STILL ON!!!*** Well I just finished up my hour-work out with my personal trainer (whom happens to be quite the beef-cake)...and let me tell you I was completely NOT in the mood, but hey we all have our off days? I would love to have an extremely toned muscluar body but in away I do not feel as if this working out with my trainer is doing too much, if anything its just making a hole in my wallet...HAHA! Oh well he is like family and me paying him is basically giving him money to buy his girlfriend of 6 years an engagment ring, arn't I nice! haha! Gosh, I wish I had someone that close but eh, whats the rush I am still young and all...And I do believe in the saying "there is someone out there for everyone": so we shall see....haha! Hmm what to have for dinner, I am up in the air about this one, salmon, scallops, sablefish, chilean seabass.....UGH man, ever heard that having too many choices is bad because you tend to eat to much? Well in my case having too much choice is bad because: I DONT KNOW WHAT to CHOOSE! hahah! I am so lame for complaining about this but heyy: I just worked out, Im hungry, Im tired, I need to REBOOT my body! haha!
Never ever take electricity for granted think about what you would not have: -computer -washer -dryer -telephone -dish washer -microwave -television -lights -electric ovens -toasters -blenders -hair dryers -hair straighteners -radio -HEAT -refrigerator/freezer -TREDMIL!!!!!!!!!(thats a biggie on my part!) The list could go on but I only want to mention one more: SANITY!!! after another 36 hours without power I think I was about to comit suicide, I was so bored: I know I sound SOOOOOOOOO lame because I mean common hurricain Katrina did 3209482364623894 times worse damage but.....wait there are no buts...its true: oh well--call me stuck up or obnoxious but I will never ever ever take electricity for granted again!!!!!!
I hope you're feeling better - I finally am! I don't go into the city as often as I'd like to - a few times a year, usually to have dinner and see a band play. I'd really like to go in more often but we've been going out in New Haven a lot since we moved here, and that's a little more convenient. I really wish I could travel more out West. My parents are in southern Oregon, so I visit them about once a year, sometimes extending that with a trip into California. I'd like to explore Colorado, Wyoming and Montana some more though. I'm sure you'll take advantage of that when you're going to school out there!
Well, I'm prepared for whatever storms come this year. I already have a big supply of candles, matches, and cans of Sterno to heat my coffee, soup, etc. No propane and attached burners for cooking. Uh, uh. After working all day cleaning up debris, day after day after day, I sure don't have any desire to cook. Actually, it was a good time for dieting. I only ate once a day and went out to restaurants as soon as they started opening.
We need to be without a modern convenience to truly appreciate it. That Edison was some genius! I always think of him after a hurricane and how the world has chnged because of his inventions.
Well, I hope your power stays on.
so, as terrible as it may be, i am sooo with you on the electricity issue. :)
Well Well Well, I am back: You thought I wouldnt return huh? Well it is not my fault I could not make it back for a little while (well actually I have no been gone for that long but still....) So in my town the weather has been horrendous! Tress falling everywhere like its XMAS season again, telephone poles falling down, car accidents gallor and....power outages! Yes, I was stuck in a power outage for a good 36 hours over the weekend and let me tell you it was anything but exciting! You would think that it was ok because we could leave but: our gate locked us in our driveway so basically we were prisioners in our own house!!! It was also about 20 degrees outside so that did not help much either. The power went out around 1am and did not come back until 4 am the next morning, or something like that! I was hoping that it would come back on at 9am so I could stick with my normal walking/running routine on the tredmil, but my luck does not swing in the positive way! So the power failed to come on.....So in order to get the MINIMUM of 10,000 steps: I bundled up from head to toe: and took my walking outside, yes around my house a good thousand times and let me tell you my house is situated on about an acre so you can imagine how rediculous I looked, but...its all in the name of health! haha! After about 2 hours I finally got those steps, minus a few so I did some trips up and down my stairs....that also helped to keep warm because my house was starting to get a little bit chilly(our generator has been broken for some time now)....So I bet my father the power would come on by 3pm, thinking optomistically but IT DIDNT! SO he started cooking dinner at 1pm: PSYCHO---he loves cooking---while my mother and I played a good 32094032473 rounds of BOGGLE and my brother, slept or sat and looked outside, who knows what he did..... THis went on for the rest of the night and come 4 we played...TRIVIAL PERSUIT but the only problem was, the game was created in 1990 and well...I was born in 1987 so you can imagine how many answers I knew to the questions... my father on the other hand, was unbeatable with my mother a close second! haha! Dinner rolled around FINALLY and we all ate PIPING HOT FOOD (my mother and I ate cipinno(sorry if i butcherd the spell)---amazing fish stew(maybe Ill give the recipe!!) and my father...who knows! After dinner: ANOTHER ROUND OF trivial persuit and when that game was finally over at 9:45 I just gave up and went to bed....let me tell you how many layers I was wearing: a t-shirt,long sleeve shirt,2 fleeces,sweatpants, fuzzy slippers, thick socks,ablanket + 3 comforters on my bed and a sheet...and I was STILL COLD!!!! Well, I dozed off finally and for some reaosn I POPPED out of bed the instand the power came back on: who knows how my body knew but it did!!!! And that was that! And yesterday I was suppose to have my first final of the week but school was canceled because a lot of people still did not have power: SO I WAS LUCKKY!!!! Right now the weather out side is horrrendous and I drove to school to take my first final and on the way home I saw my life flash before my eyes!!! I was driving listening music like being cautious and i looked up to see a tree swaying and i was like UHH OHH(understand ment of the century) and after i drove past it it FELL!!!!!!!!!!!!! How lucky am I...I came home to hug my mother! haha! YEs I sound a bit pathetic but: COMMON whos calm when faced with DEATH!!! So thats been the past couple of days, who knows what the next couple will bring!!!! PS. Cioppino Recipe: 4 galic cloves 1/4 c olive oil 1 med. onion 1/2 tsp. red pepper flakes 1 green bell pepper 1/4 c white wine 1 bay leaf 1 tsp oregano/thyme/basil/salt/pepper 1 whole jar minced clams(plus juice) 32 oz. can of tomatoes 1 tbs. tomato paste shelled clams shelled conche shrimp, scallops, white fish, muscles, cuttle fish parsley MANN ITS good!! hahaha!
So yesterday I started to feel as if a cold was coming on, but that didnt stop me from eatting WAYY to much and feeling sick! This happens so much to me! I always make 2 much food, dont think it is enough, nibble on some food before dinner and then eat the whole dinner and then some (some times...)----And then like twenty mintues later I feel so sick! Last night I made a bunch of cooked vegetables and a piece of salmon and I shoved it in my face LITERALLY! haha! And then after I felt like I was going to vomit, oh yes in deed...sorry if no one wants to know this but, I wish I knew a way to stop eatting...and last nights dinner was NOT even that good...GRR! I always tell myself to stop eatting if it does not taste good but I am one of those people who do not like to waste food...Ever since I was anorexic I hate to waste food! But tongiht...I made a nice LARGGEEE salad(with peppers, artichoke hearts, lettuce, tomatos, and a lemon/apple cider vinegar/mustard dressing) and I orded out for SASHIMI, Ah yes, SASHIMI--my absolutely favorite food in the whole world~ EVer since I went to hong kong japanese(even though hong kong is china) food has been my FAVORITE!!!! I am a lil bloated right now, and I am sure I will have some water weight tomorrow because of the damn soy sauce but its SOOO worth it! haha! My head cold is feeling a littl ebetter but hopefully tomorrow I will feel 20 x better--my colds only last about 3 days so tomorrow would be day #3!! haha! Sorry if my journal entry is so out of wak--I am watching Americas next top model while writing so I ama bit distracted! haha--I would love to be on that show--BUT WAIT-----> I am 5'2" so I COULD NEVER EVER be on that show!
Of course I know where Greenwich is, you lucky girl. I wrote about education issues in Westport, Weston and Wilton back in my reporting days, so I spent some time down that way. It's great that you're so close to NYC, it's such a pain to go in by train from New Haven. Colorado is absolutely gorgeous. We went through when my (then) fiance and I were driving across the country and spent a few days hiking in the Rockies. We went up to Jackson Hole and Yellowstone from there, it's some of the most beautiful country I've ever seen! You are very lucky to be going to school out there :)
Im not really in the mood to write but I thought I would pop in, dont wanna neglect this diary: like I have done for quiet a while in the past! Finals are coming up in a week! Wish me luck: or dont.....cause it might JINX it! Oh whatever I am in college, I dont have to stess about them too badly!!-- Dont worry I still plan on trying my damndest!! So lately the last thing that has been on my mind is food! Which is great, now a day all I have on my mind is boys...haha its pretty common for an 18 year old to think that way, but for me its amazing to think this way because for the longest time(when I was anorexic) I did not have any yearning for a male companion and now: I am dying for one! But I figured Ill wait until college because there is no use on starting up a relationship now that is just going to end when I graduate in about 4 months! Unles....I start a relationship with the few guys that are actually going in my direction next year: Colorado that is! Wish me luck in that department, because I need all the luck I can get when it comes to getting guys!!!
I didn't realize you were located in CT (I read your bio) - whereabouts? I've lived all over the state and have family scattered throughout. It's a small state, as you know :) I'm in downtown New Haven now, loving it.
Ok who can raise their hand when I ask WHO has ever stuffed their face with so many (gas-causing) vegetables to make them want to keel over in a little ball on the floor....Both of my arms would be raised if I was not typing right now! Oh man did I eat my fair share of vegetables tonight...I normally do EVERY day but tonight it just so happened to make my stomach hurt...uhh...Well we made a delicious pepper salad, maybe I will post that recipie in the FORUMS section of this site.... I basically ate 1/2 the WHOLE LARGE(I mean LARGE) bowl, plus seascallops and shrimp and oww man...HAHA! I definately have a problem controllingmy portion sizes, but I feel its ok for me to eat big portions because I only eat lean meats and vegetables--Gimme a break! Now if I shoveled in the sweet stuff or chips...then maybe I would have to punish myself, but nahhh.... Does anyone know a trick on how to CALM a bloated stomach? I have looked on webmd...and all thos eplaces thinking that just maybe they will have antidotes for my diagnosis...BUT NOO never! LOL! Aww well: and I bet I will stuff myself to the brim tomorrow night too....SO Stop COmplaining GIGI! aha!
I don't think you can do much for the bloating...just wait it out or take some sort of Gas-x or something.
I love your haircut, by the way! Very cute!
I don't think you can do much for the bloating...just wait it out or take some sort of Gas-x or something.
I love your haircut, by the way! Very cute!
New year? What new year? New years never feel NEW at all!--Although I did cut my hair extremely short(Sienna Miller short) and color it lighter (lighter blond than it already was)..... I am back at school, preparing for the god awful finals...It is the worst because when I know I have events such as finals coming I stress myself out so bad that I get fustrated and.....cry, yes yes it sounds pathetic, and it is, I wish I could learn a way to better hold in my emotions, but I do not know how! To make matters worse, my brother is home from college at the moment and moseies on around the house, watching television and such with out a worry in the world...do I have to say I am jealous or can you tell? Because stress is ruling my life, food has not been a big issue for me, but my routine of food is getting a little boring. Everymorning I wake up and eat the same whole carton of eggwhite (mixed with this powder called RiSoTriene (http://www.healthier-harvest.com/risotriene.htm) and sugar free pancake syrup..The only reason why I do not part ways with this breakfast staple is because it gives me more energy than I can imagine (that is why I gave all of you the website...because I all want you to feel the same energy I do everyday!!) For lunch I normally have ostrich patties(2)(www.blackwing.com) with a bell pepper..I dont part from these patties because WOW are they amazing!!! I reccomend you check out that website too! And for dinner, I bet your thinking you are going to get a food reccomendation from me, well guess what....!!! YOU ARE! Vitalchoiceseafood.com....AMAZING ABSOLUTELY amazing!!!!!!!!!!!! the salmon, the sable...EVERYTHING is spectular! Wow I sound like a advertisment! These companies would be kissing my feet right now! haha! Well Enjoyyy!! I had things to say, but I got side tracked...good food does that to me! haha
Thanks for your recommendation for the eggplant dish btw. It all sounds good except for the anchovies ;) But perhaps I'll try substituting ground turkey for them or something like that.
Sandy :)
Well the day before the new year and I am up in arms on what it is going to bring. I am hoping for happiness and health for myself as well as my family, but hoping does not get anyone anywhere. You have to take action to make it happen. I feel that I take action every day of my life in terms of being healthy. I work out for about 120 minutes a day (unless I snowboard all day) and I have a personal trainer who comes two times a week(rightnow our regime is on hyatus because it is the holidays: give me a break! haha) Happiness: How do I take action to create happiness everyday of my life? I try to look at the world in a positive light (although when I was younger I was voted the most negative person): I go out into the world with an optomistic view and an outgoing personality. Being outgoing is an extremely attractive trait that fortunately I hold. My whole family holds that trait (when they want to be) except for my sister. Speaking of my sister I am a little worried about her. She has a head on her shoulders of course, but it seems as if her head is not connected to the rest of her body. You all probably think she was born with a disablilty but she was born normal, just with an personality skew. She is a loving, compassionate person...who seems to love her family but....she has a hard time showing it. Her personality is so hard to dechiper, sometimes I about give up. But I can never fully give up because she is my sister and I love her. When I say I feel her head is not connected toher body, I mean in the sense that she is extremely indecisive and cannot live a life without a companion (that is why she has a boyfriend at the moment who is basically dictating her every move)--This worries me because most likly if her boyfriend jumps off a bridge she would too...I hope thats not the case!-- Lately I have been talking to her about evaluating her life and she seems to be understanding my concern yet she does not put my advice into action. She is too scared to be the high power in her relationship and I do not think that is healthy. My mother has almost down right given up on her (let her go...as she calls it) yet she cannot fully do that. (as I witnessed last night, they had a heart to heart conversation and I was just there, adding a little imput whereever I could) This shows that my mother is the most loving person I have ever met. Even though she does not hug or kiss her children to show affection, she does show affection by expressing her concern through truth.
When I was anerexic, she never bathed me with hugs and kisses telling me she wanted me to be strong again, she blaitenly came out and told me that I looked like a "cancer patient" and that in order to forfill the potential that I have, I have to start regaining energy through eatting nutritiously. Let me say, masking the truth from your loved ones does not help any situation. Instead it makes them worse. By stating the truth: Not only do you feel better about coming clean, but the person you are telling will also feel better (if not at that moment, later on--when my mother told me I was "hidious" I was shocked and questioned why I had sucha mean mother,but later I realized she was telling me this for my own good.)
So what does ANY of what I just said have to do with the New Year? (If I were writing an essay for my english class I would definately get a zero in the organization category!) The New Year is suppose to mean a FRESH START...That is exactly what I want my sister to do...as for my mother, I want her to stay the way she is, but excel in other aspects of her life...I know she is forfilled when it comes to the category of her kids(withthe exception of my sister) but what she needs is a life long focus. Now that she is retired....she has lost the UMPH in her life that makes her want to get up in the morning...If only I could help...
Im sorry if this entry was anything but entertaining but journals are NOT always suppose to be humorous! Get over it! haha!
He went through a diet phase during which he looked like he was a Holocaust victim with ribs prominantly showing. Maybe he had a 27" waist at that time.
Fortunately that aspect of his life has improved and he now looks physically normal.
Each person chooses his own path in life which might not necessarily be to our liking, but we still love and accept that person. How boring life would be without oddballs!
2005 Highlights:
January: XMAS and NEW YEAR in JACKSON HOLE, WYOMING February: First time to Texas(road trip with mom to 5 different colleges!) March: To London to explore HARRODS&EVERYTHING London has to offer!! April: To New Mexico for rest and relaxation May: June: Finished Junior year of high school with straight As, First time to Hong Kong (I reccomend everyone GO!!!), My 18th birthday July: Boulder, CO-5 week college course August: Recieved college credit for creative writing September: Applied to 8 colleges (eary action) October: November: Got into the University of Colorado@Boulder and University of Vermont, Took my SATs over and got a 600:writing 590:math 540:reading, Laurel(my best friend from CO) came to celebrate Thanksgiving with me December: XMAS and NEW YEAR in JACKSON HOLE, WYOMING
**I know there is more to my life than that, but I just need to think about it! I will get back to this entry LATER!!
Thanks for your coment and ideas for salmon salad. You reminded me that I did put in red pepper. I use it all the time in almost everything. Also, I forgot to say that I used dill relish, but garlic I hadn't. The mayo I used is fat free and only has 10 cal. per tbs. I only use it with salmon and tuna.
Wow! What great travels you've had!
You know what I love about this on line Diary....Everyone is so friendly! Thank you everyone for being so loving and caring and encouraging me through thick and thin! I appriciate it a lot! I would comment to specific people, but I am not quite sure how to look at other diaries...yet, but I will get on that! Today was my first day back in action snowboarding in Jackson Hole, Wyoming. The last time I went out was a year ago on the same mountain! It is strange how I once set out to become a professional snowboarder and now....that passion has dispersed into thin air. Dont get me wrong I will still do it for recreational and enjoyment purpuses, but knowing that I once wanted to be sponsered, is weird. I guess I just want to be known by the world for accomplishing something phenominal, and I thought snowboarding was right on up that alley. Now that that dream has disintigrated, Journalism has taken its place. I would love to be a tv talk show host, a radio talk show host, a newspaper contributor.....ANYTHING! I have this gut feeling that this fantasy of mine being Reporter Gigi will come true too because I have never had more ambition to leap at my goals, and with college right around the corner, what a great place to achieve them!! As you can all see, having a dream to become a broadcast journalist, has overpowered my negative selfesteme. I still do think about food and what I am eatting, but not to the extent that I am clueless to the world around me...after all being a journalist means I need to know about my surroundings!!
I'm glad that you've made progress with the food thing!!! Way to go!
I've never tried snowboarding...but it looks like great fun! Of course, it probably also takes quite a bit of coordination, and I don't tend to be very coordinated! :)
Hello again! I never fail to amaze myself about how long I can go without writing in here. Its not even because I am busy, because I am not, I just never remember my member password! Also, I feel sort of like a fraud having a "weight loss" journal when I am not here to loose weight. I am here to gain a positive mind set about my self and the foods I consume. Lately, I have been doing pretty well on the diet front. I have been eatting my three square meals and keeping my weight between 94-99 pounds everyday. To me that is my ideal, if only people of the opposite sex would notice, my life would be pristine. People always tell me what once I graduate high school and go off to college, guys outlooks on who I am will change. I believe them, but I have a feeling I might be setting myself up for failure, but only time will tell. Presently I am set on going to the University of Colorado at Boulder, and I am pretty abdimant on going, but I have a few gliches I want to smooth out. I would love to make sure there were no other schools that were better suited for me. I do not want my college years to emulate those of my high school ones(going to three different schools). I want to stay at one school for 4 years and explore my surroundings in a pristine location while being socially excepted by all. I also still want my journalism career. Broadcast journalism is a passion that has surficed over the past two years. After the realization that modeling and or acting may not be a "realistic goal"(as my mom would say) I believe journalism and broad cast journalism to be more in my grasp. I am alright with that too because, I love to write...as well as speak in public!
I hope you enjoy your senior year!
So, about that new school year I started...It sucks, well actually I cant say that just yet, I have only gone to school for the past 2 days! Well I am just starting out that SENIOR YEAR, so that should be interesting...I think I might already have a case of SENIORITOUS!! The only good part so far about school is that no one has looked at me like I need to be in a hospital for being skinny...My mom tells me that I definatly dont look anerexic anymore, just plan skinny and thats fine with me because there are tons of skinny girls at my school so I guess I can just fit in...Ya right, Like I fit in, in this town! Its full of people who are pretty stuck up...or full of girls who love to gossip and I dont want to be a part of that scene, thats why I just go to school and come right home afterward....Sounds like a good plan to me. Of course I think this year I need to go out a little more that I did last year(becuase I dont look too grossly skinny anymore) but I wont push going out over the edge like my brother did(and I am sure still does at college)... Speaking of college I have no idea where I want to go. I think I will just end up at U of Denver because I feel comfortable living in Denver( I know my way around) plus my Best friend lives there so we could live togetherr! ROCK ON, that would be crazzzyyy!!! Well I guess I need to go because tomorrow is one of those mornings I have to get up at 5 to excersice, but let me TELL YOU: after that hour...I feel SOOOO good!
I've heard so much about how difficult the social scene is in high school and how stupid and cruel the gossipy girls are. My senior year was spent studying and getting ready for college and being with my boyfriend. I really had no contact with any of the girls. It didn't seem to make sense. So what you're doing sure sounds good to me.
Don't be concerned about what others think. So many have warped minds, it just doesn't pay. Do your own thing and get good grades.
Take a simple blood test to be sure. Lots of things can cause fatigue.
Comment left by fritters on 10/19/2007:
You might also me iron defecient - go get a blood test. Happy weekend!!
Comment left by Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/19/2007:
FEEL BETTER!!! :) If you really feel sick, go to see a doctor. Is the weather over there bad? Get some rest.
Comment left by hollybelle on 10/19/2007:
Sorry you feel so bad. Do you feel like sleeping all the time? Rather than try to diagnose yourself - why not just make a trip to the doctor and find out for sure. They can test you and you can know and start feeling better sooner. Good luck - take care!
Comment left by Donkey on 10/19/2007:
Go to the Student Health building or dept. and get a blood test. Mono is really contagious, so it's almost a matter of public health and not just your own personal health. My brother had it; he said he felt exhausted but no other symptoms.
Comment left by Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/27/2007:
HI GG!!! I hope you are enjoying your college break and that you're ok! :) I miss you!
Comment left by amanda8419 on 12/31/2008:
just checking to see if you are still around. if you are we would love to hear how you are!
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