One month down and five to go! Results weren't as good as I expected, but I had a few set backs the last week or so. But hey, at least the scales and the tape measurments are going down not up!

I splurged a little this weekend and don't feel bad about it at all. The splurge wasn't worth it though. I don't think I will have to deal with that feeling again for a while anyway. I found out I wasn't missing much after all and I feel puffy today.

But upward (or downward) and onward!

We went on a 6 hour float trip this weekend! It was fantastic. I held my own pretty well and am not sore at all. I wore a bathing suit in public for the first time in years too! and I didn't feel incredibly gross. There were several people that looked worse than me. My boyfriend was just glad we were out having fun. He is soooo wonderful about my weight. He really loves me for me. If I lose weight he thinks that is wonderful for me (and of course he will benefit) but if I don't he thinks I'm sexy anyway.

Well gotta get to work, just wanted to update and see my success in writing..... to healthy living!

I haven't weighed in a week nor measured again. But I know I am definitely dropping the weight. The girls at the office are starting to comment that I am looking thinner. :) The new eating style is getting easier and easier. I am feeling much better and have more energy. Have eaten in restaurants a few times and it is really easy to eat well going out...

I still have 50 pounds to lose and am trying not to be overwhelmed by that but I am headed in the right direction. I want to encorporate more workouts but God my schedule is hectice and if I work out after 7:00 pm I can't sleep! I'll figure it out.

This was a nice surprise this morning another 4.5 pounds....now that is encouraging. The hunger pangs are getting fewer and fewer and I am having to remind myself to snack.

I finally got the courage to weigh this week end and I have lost 5 pounds! I am only going to measure 2 times a month though. This week end was a challenge I had friends in from out of town and we went to see a movie. Which in the past has always meant nachos or popcorn. But I made it. I ate pistachio nuts and cheese sticks. Did really notice the difference. It is just a hand and mouth problem. The we went to KFC! But I only ate skinless chicken green beans and cabbage. I may have gone a little overboard but that was all I ate. I did not intentially not follow the diet I just slept untill noon which threw everything off. That and I haven't been grocery shopping yet. I hate to shop, almost as much as I hate to cook! I had a perferct mararita too! But I don't feel bad about. Just upward and onward. Changing life styles doesn't involve not enjoying life. At least i didn't pig out on chips and salsa......very, very tired today. But in about a 56 hour week last week and it really caught up with me....

Haven't weighed yet....not ready to see what the progress might be. I worked in the yard 2 1/2 hours last night! Sun burned and exhausted I almost went straight to bed instead of eating but I know that would be disaster. I am truly starving today. I think eating healthy is hard. If I eat another veggie I am gonna puke. I am just about to the point where I would rather not eat that eat any form of salad.....

But, I just see a fat person (like me) and that motivates me to stick with it. Right now when I look at myself I see - lazy slob. How the hell did I get to this point. It was sure fun but damn I hate the way I feel in my skin. I had the fat under my arms and on top of my hips. I'll be walking along thinking dang what is poking me in the back. Oh wait it is my fat ass! I hate the way my bra rolls down under the fat under my arm. I hate that walking in the park chaps my thighs or that my shorts get sucked up my ass. God, that is just gross...I think I am going to start eating in front of a mirror. If that doesn't make me lose my appetite nothing will....oh well, at least I'm staying committed.

Feeling great! I can really tell the "water weight" has lifted. The work outs are going great. I can tell my stomache muscles are starting to respond to a new routine I am trying. At this point I can only do two reps of each!

I am sticking with the diet plan. I HATE jello. I am sick of salad greens but love the dessert. Riccota cheese with variety of flavors. Who knew. Maybe I am just so desperate for sweets that it seems to taste great. I can't say that I am really satified with the food. I do feel like I am missing out on something even though I am eating ALL the time. But I just keep psyching myself out. Just 25 more weeks!

I keep watching the makeover shows and knowing that I too am going through a tremendous makeover....on my own! God I could use a beer though and chips and salsa. That will always be my red-neck downfall....

I did a great detox last week to start my new life out right. Started the South Beach lifestyle change this week. I'm a little hungry and it is not the kind of high fat fast food I'm used to but it is mostly tasty. A pain in the butt preparing 3 meals and snacks each day for two people. But thank God my boyfriend is on it with me. I do feel better already. I am not near as puffy and bloated feeling as usual. I accidentally drank a regular soda today thinking I had grabbed a diet. Oh well.... life goes on. I haven't had alcohol since a week ago today. So far so good. I really want to get back to the healthy life I used to have. Only 24 weeks to change my life! I can do it this time....